#id be weeping too

[oooocleo]

shes crying bc shes so moved by his boobs 🫡

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#my art #chatelaine #sura #hetty #chatty #id be weeping too #also ty so much for the patreon subs!!!!!!!!!! #who wudve thought actually sticking the link under my art wud lead to that....

[skunkes]

Doing some color coded areas, now im rly wishing i had also gotten the royalgirl gelert plush as she'd go great in the pink/purple, which is right below the green section + the royalboy!

featuring custom smunker my friend @astral-clefairy made me ^_^ 🥰

#talkys #i know my shelves arent Aesthetic so im not posting for that i promise... its more to keep me motivated to keep going #also to show my smunker doll bc i dont think id ever posted pics of him? ^_^ #emmy made him lots of clothes he even has a nagano bear shirt #her making my favorite blue hoodie for him will never not make me want to weep #the squishmallow octopus was gifted to me yrs ago -_- its not too ugly

[countryfriedcatboy]

i want rdr3 to be just like the last of us tv show episode 3 where it is just gay people being gay and then the epilouge is them being dead thats what i want thats my vandermatthews agenda

#phase weeps #i want dutch and hosea to have gay sex ON SCREEN #it would be so funny and controversial and id be SOOOO there for it #make that shit tragic too

[maretriarch]

god. trying so hard to convince myself I don't want to make an acrylic standee.

#cut to me 6 months from now weeping in a pile of unsold homestuck merch like a mom who bought too into a herbal life scam #i think i just have to pick the right character/right design #and also id eant to have my art profile up n properly running. yknow. marketable #if homestuck wont give me figures i might as well do it myself. kinda #maybe a june one or a vriska one...whos the most sellable #also um. i found a manufacture that makes carousel standees. Imagine. Imagine.......... #that actually rotate...

[heart-shaped-pupa]

twig is structured like a goddamn dnd campaign tbh. Like, not a planned one either but the kind where it starts off with a steady state quest board type system but then the dm makes the background setting too interesting so the players fuck off to be anarchists

#not to mention the IDEAL party comp of the lambs #if i had a player group that fit together and got along as well as the lambs id weep itd be so good #sylvester acts in this book how i play half my dnd characters #and mary acts like how i play the other half #one or two helens in that bunch too to keep it fresh #eventually the dm swaps systems to Everyone is John and it works surprisingly well #^ for when sylvester does the thing

[soldier-poet-king]

Sadness CANCELLED I got home from work and my owlcrate version of Moira's pen came in (international shipping rip) and it's GORGEOUS and I'm WEEPING AND I have tmrw off work and some extra time to read, nevermind that I have library books out + I'm in a trc reread before I get to greywaren, I HAVE TO put everything on hold for qt it is MY OG OBSESSION

#WEEPING AND WAILING #the cover is so beautiful and the art #and the BEES AND EARRINGS #and the little insert with the you will have your hearts desire little thier #im ;-; #do i just have a completely unhinged winter wnd after trc/tdt reread qt??? #i promised rae id finally get to stormlight but also QT #and I HOTE SEQUEL SOON TOO #gah i have so little time #do u know how powerful id be if i could read on the bus without getting violently nauseous #THATS LIKE AN EXTRA 2 HRS A DAY #every single person reading on tranist. i have never been more jealous in my life #and winter i get sleepy and sad. i read less and video game more #BUT THERES SO MANY BOOKS IN THE WORLD #actually i think I should get an alloted 8 hrs everyday to read and be cozy + another set of hrs for games and crafting. thank u

[ferdydurke]

I never liked to travel and i dont have much drive to see new places, like the pictures are ok with me for the most part. But if i had a way to travel id do it for food. Like if i was a dnd character and i had to have a motivation to go adventuring itd be trying different foods... it blows my mind how many ingredients ill never get to try

#barking #this post was prompted by youtube recommending me a vid of someone freezing marshmallow paste #i have always wanted to avoid a situation of being in america but that made me think like damn. i would go to try the food there #not that i cant get my hands on some marshmallow fluff i prolly could but theres a lot of stuff... steak bagel ect ect #we have bagels here but like you know what i mean #and well obviously not a day goes by where i wouldnt sell my kidney to be able to go to china #im trying to figure out so often if there will ever be a situation again where my mom ends up at a chinese airport #id cry with joy. id weep. i miss those jars she brought back so much #i would straight up fly to an airport do shopping and then just go back. itd be worth it for me #and well theres so much stuff. just all the vegetables and fruits and flours youll never try #you can go to a chinese restaurant but it wont ever be the same. like when my mom was telling me about the dumplings she ate in tibet... #the fresh shrimp in spain... #PROSCIUTTO IN ITALY i was fortunate to try that one. heaven on earth. #politically i believe in keeping the produce reagional as much as possible yanno icould survive without being able to buy avocado every day #bad avocado at that. id just love to be able to go and try it yanno in holand is where mine grows! #but i could get my ass over to america for it too #holland. i meant netherlands.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#sometimes. most times. if i cant articulate things properly i feel like my heads gonna explode. which is unfortunate bc i have the #language is hard brain problems. my neurology makes articulation difficult. but i try reguardless. which is sometimes. most times. #exhausting. that words gets thrown around a lot when i describe the patterns of my thoughts. exhausting. and it is i guess. tho id say its #more annoying and frustrating. but maybe its also exhausting. hard to tell when its how u think. but ive been reading a lot of papers this #weekend. enjoying the papers i read. papers about photosynthesis at the edge of habitability. about genetis and the structure and functions #of proteins. and the learning curve is steep but im learning bit by bit. and it just sorta makes me sad bc the way that my brain works has #so damaged the way that i interact with the world and i can see it at every step of my academic career. i dont even kno what to say abt the #past 2 years of my life. from where i stand now its just a black hole of self destruction. y did i do that? i dunno. at the time i was just #following the arbitrary rules and restrictions laid out for me within my head. did these rules have a rational basis? no. not usually. but #thats how it had to be. exhausting. but even then i coukd sometimes see thru to the wonder. and it was agony bc i wasnt allowed to think #abt it. its still agony now but i can feel it more often. maybe that's what happiness is to me. to be so full of wonder that i cant take it #i cant exist in that state or id b nonfunctional. its too big for my chest. it makes me want to scream and weep and pull at my hair. and #and its maddening bc i cant articulate it properly. except to call upon media short hands. there is wonder here. a nightmarish description #but not always. sometimes it was beautiful. theres a reason ive read annihilati0n 5 times despite hating the book. theres a reason i rewatch #the terror nearly once a month. to find beauty in a thing that causes you such terror and pain. theres something about it i can't find the #words for and its driving me nuts. exhausting. but so it goes #unrelated

[esora247]

being gay has you feeling pathetic over the smallest things

#like damn she bought me a plushie of ice bear because she remembered me mentioning him in a conversation ages ago id forgot? #time to weep #jk im not actually crying this time but i COULD if i think about it too hard #shut up esora

[pups-2-dust]

It doesn't take a lot to get me to cry, I am probably crier georg because I WILL start sobbing over things like particularly cute coffee mugs or my cat being a cat idk is that like not a thing to have to go cry in your car for a little bit at work every day????? Do I need to tell my doctor about this????

#is that why my coworker seems really concerned when i say ive gotta go cry for a bit ill be back soon????? #id say 25% of the times i cry its not because im sad either!!! #it just feels good to cry idk!! #sometimes you just gotta weep at the beauty in the mundane too idk

[snekdood]

Yknow what makes me reaentful? How ive been sexually abused so much growing up, no one did shit besides shove me off to a therapist, ive been promised by feminist spaces that ill have a place to heal within them, and as soon as my abusive ex tries to smear me and project their behavior on to me by accusing me of doing that shit too, all the sudden everyone acts suspicious, and i still dont get any of that promised healing. Its hard not to feel like my ex did this intentionally to prevent me from having a space to heal. And its my issue with the "believe victims" narrative because it seems to me like people dont actually want to believe victims but to believe the victims they *like* and *agree more with politically*. If people can just say whatever about someone and you feel obligated to believe them because "believe victims", its very clearly going to be exploited by abusive people, and while i dont think we should stop per se, we need to have some sort of actual system to vet who is and isnt telling the truth, like a pseudo-courtroom. At the very least let everyone and their side of the story actually be heard. Bc idk how you guys plan to believe two victims at once who are accusing eachother other than throwing your hands up and picking one or deciding that we're both bad, which doesnt seem very fair to me since people seem to looove demonizing me for no discernable reason.

#anyways ive lost faith in feminist spaces in actually being a place to heal #it kinda just feels like cliques to me dawg. #maybe it used to be sorta healing but i never actually got to find a support system or anything anywhere. #like idk man. maybe the reason ppl go to the right is bc yall are cutthroat and do everything based on vibes. #if i cant even get help and healing from yall like you promise whats the feminism label even for besides for spreading awareness? #because i feel like ill always be excluded because i dont fit the recquired aesthetic. #there needs to be a space for dudes to go to heal too. and id ideally not have to go to one of the mra type spaces. #idk but im just disenchanted with this whole movement. so many unfulfilled promises. #too many terfs infiltrating it also. #im left out in the cold and no one cares and everyone pretends to care about victims but cant even bring themselves to image that i #was the one who was victimized. why should i rely on these spaces at all. its clear yall favor the more fem person in any situation #like this. #also unrelated but related this website is trash and most people on here suck so fucking much. #the mostly cliquey cutthroat spaces for being so 'caring' like you like to think yourselves as. #'oh well we have to be careful so just in case we're gonna kick you out!!' oh really #is that the feminism you were talking about? #youll leave me out on the streets based on a rumor? and if you find out theyre lying then what will you do? are you gonna come over to me #weeping about how you shouldnt have believed them and how sorry you are? bc chances are ill already be dead from starving #but yknow. believe whatever anyone says about someone else. sorry i meant victims* #itd be so so funny to me if someone came up to me with that justification for why they ostracized me and then be like 'how can you be mad! #i didnt know better!! you cant be mad at people for not knowing better >:(' the hell i fucking cant lmao! #yall perpetuated a narrative about me to actively grind my name in the dirt. and im not allowed to be mad? #yall ostracized and excluded me from spaces i need to rely on for community and healing. #yall did nothing for me and threw me in the fucking trash. yeah. i think im allowed to be upset with you and want you to go fuck yourself. #if you believed them and found out theyre a liar. cool. leave me the fuck alone though. go make a post about it and try to rectify the #situation you contributed to you pos. #yknow. maybe itd be one thing if you believed them and i didnt do anything and you apologized. #its a WHOLE OTHER FUCKING THING. WHEN YOU BELIEVE THEM. IM INNOCENT. AND *IM*THE ONE WHO WAS #SEXUALLY ABUSED AND EMOTIONALLY ABUSED TO THE FUCKING MOON AND BACK. and then think an apology is enough. #like go fuck yourself. ive been alone with this trauma this whole time you pieces of shits.

[cardboardfeet]

mermay day 16 to 17- the hanyuu siblings!

#the new aspens from the latest cahpter were hella insperation #i love his hair......squirts detangle conditioner in ti and scrubs it in to hell and back #aspen hanyuu #lily hanyuu #self aware comic #self aware fanart #my art #mermay #mermaid aspen hanyuu #mermaid lily hanyuu #ASOEN IS WEARING A BUNCH IF MISMATCHED LOOSELH TIED TOGETHER FABRICS FORM A BAJILLION WHITE CLOTHES #none of tha is okay he literally tied scarved arnd him and called it a day. he edits it now n then to adjuwt buT STILL #am thinking ab ending mermay w kai again....i startee w him last year n id like to end w him this ome. #esp bc i havent drawn him in a bit lolol #NAYWAYS ASPENS PIECE OF THE WIGGLIES MAKE UP HIS LOST TAIL its absolutly useless n only comes out when hes too tired to care but eh #useless in that it dknt help him swim. its kinda hinderence tbh bc the weight if ti always catched him off guard. hes slammed into #soooo many rocks man its stupid #LILY MY GIRL MY WORK MY BABY PIE #i gave both fo em corally hair pieces.....weeps im live em #i think doin aspen again was a great deal fun! bc i enjoyed seeing what i would change ab him w the info we have now #compared ti 2 yes ago #yrs*

[seatrains]

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#its your birthday soon what do you want #it's like most people are looking forward to my birthday except the two people I wish would #on my birthday they regret me and i regret myself with them #and together we weep my existence away like that every year #my birthday stopped being a celebration a long time ago it's a funeral now #i can physically feel their bitterness about the day grow every year and now im bitter about my own day with them #but i suppose funerals are some sort of celebration too‚ i heard someone say so today actually. #think that's where I'll be finding my solace until the damn day gets over #we'll be fine #i told myself id stop ranting on tumblr but here we are

[martva-v-lozku]

idk ja z reguły nie interesuję się uhhh niektórymi rzeczmi ale jakoś mi przyszło do głowy że Măртвy byłby w tym bardzo eee możemy powiedzieć utalentowany lmfao

tyle kurwa komentarzy o tym!! wiesz co!! to nie moja wina że nie mogę się pozbyć tej ideii 😭 cały świat zwariował z tym tematem lolllll ugh dlaczego ja też musiałam złapać tę chorobę

#mam tyle pytań na przykład czy byłby interesowany ... nieeee lol nie mogę it's too embarrassing #czy... może... yeah if you told me id be considering this 1 year ago i might believe you but i also prob wouldnt lol #this is such a case by case basic type thing for me. which is unfortunate because wszyscy co mnie naprawdę interesują są już w ziemi :| #****** **** though really?? who am i lmfao damn ok idk how this happened (those fucking comments man theyre wild) #shut it down until we figure out what in the helen of troy is going on here #i can understand the catholic aesthetic interest when you already look like a weeping angel statue. i said what i said

[katharine-hepburn]

what if i reread every mary downing haun book

#i think id weep for days bc itd be too much for the part of me thats still a lonely little girl #but i also think itd unlock a lot of creativity

[countryfriedcatboy]

me when i kill a girl in a terrible way and it destroys the man ive made myself out to be not only in outside of myself but in my mind as well and now i am experiencing prey animal levels of fear and making rash decisions based on my own ego and whims while also lashing out at anyone who questions me in a fear response. because if i don't know myself do i even know anyone else

#phase weeps #the post is about dvl because the autism is wilding rn but id rather die thsn main tag it #i feel dutchs paranoia a little too well