martva-v-lozku

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noo nie mogę i literally cannot be normal about the topic of Mªрþвŷ. HuH wOw .. uwielbiasz to widzieć

it's so over dla moich ostatnich komórek mózgowych love that for me

nie mogę słyszeć słów związanych z tematem bez szoku, i oczywiście one są normalne, powszechnie używane słowa (nie martwy! to przecież zmarły!)

#omg lmfao nooo my @ isnt anything weird it's a reference to a funny quote. please be normal #i see how this can be taken out of context cholera jasna #somehow this is still only the 3rd most problematic of faves lol реб and владик take the cake for heinous relatable behavior

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oh to be able to prz3cz3сач рęкамï его vłosы

#😔 #pikny M.

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almost 2 weeks since the **n**t** show. i still think i should've proposed, idk (im kidding...sorta...yeah)

have you ever been a rabbit and some fucking asshole pulls out a carrot on a string? because ...

#*fighting back tears* i hope they are doing well :') #......for my people in the front... #.......nosebleed section #you know i looked around... #....i fell in a deeply parasocial relationship with a random in the front row because they were cool as fuck. ew wtf #THE SAME DAY I READ ABOUT JESSE MEETING SOMEONE AT A LOCAL SHOW 💀 NOT THAT DAY SATAN

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до ми ти

почему не я?

почему не я?

до ми ти

почему не я?

почему не я?

до ми ти

почему не я?

ПОЧЕМУ

НЕ

Я?

#сердце стиральной машины... #на ум приходят слова мицки #я не права 🫠

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fuck dude dalej myślę o wczoraj

k*s**la z kr**kim r*ka**i*m??? do pr*cy??? BŁAGAM (wpierw napisałam "błaham" przez pomyłkę no to interesująca pomyłka 🌻 lmfao lmfao lmfao oh my godddd)

i neeeed to get the fuck out of there now more than ever

tell me why i spent most of my life hiding from anything relating to my ancestors and now i— THE WIANEK STAYS ON, handwriting in cyrillic as default, gravitating towards people like Władek 1.0, Władek 2.0, etc. like the fuck happened to me

#dlaczego nie mogę........ :( #showing up to work in all blue/gold with a backup of white/blue/red underneath and just red/white under that like HEYY IM HERE 4 U(???) 🤡 #no but seriously no sides at all. i just think we should all get along idc if it's cliché

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kurde w jaki sposób mogą ludzie rozmawiać do innych tym bardziej takich jak władek brooo im dying here

dziś chyba w*g**da nawet bardziej fucking *orą*o, dosłownie jak p*e*ło...łał nie mam słów. zabij mnie

#fucking hellllllllllllll 😃🔫

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oh cool władek might be leaving (again? forever? or?? idk???)

why am i ✨️~sAd~✨️

#TIME FUCKING PASSES WHEN WILL I LEARN!!!!!

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i KNOW someone in that crowd glanced over and saw me fully like this every time the ręka przez włosy byeee (hear me out. it was like the Hen Video. please understand)

thinking about the M lookalike from the show the other day... oh to be part of that friend group (I would fumble it all)

#''oh we're TIME TRAVELING time traveling tonight''

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thinking about the M lookalike from the show the other day... oh to be part of that friend group (I would fumble it all)

#do you just walk up? say hi? but you cant hear shit? #ALSO THINKING ABOUT THAT INTERVIEW WITH THAT ONE GUY WHERE HE SAID HE MET PPL AT A FESTIVAL I WAS AT!! LIKE BITCH HOW. MAYBE EASY FOR U

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really feeling that old It's Always Sunny meme with Charlie + the board but:

G is a person I was friends with, someone I really looked up to, who abruptly moved to a different continent at a key point in my childhood. kind of a turning point of sorts for me

M was a person who had a lot in common with G and so finding out about their existence somehow led me back to this topic that I "thought" (hoped) I "forgot" (moved to on)...I apparently did not

Władysław/Władek was also a person who had a few, more superficial things in common with...you guessed it! G! But in a really disturbed, unhealthy way? He is not around anymore as a direct result of being a general [all bad words ever] Very sad, complicated situation all around, that's as much as I'll say...

"Władysław"/"Władek" (also just Władysław/Władek by now) is just a random coworker who happens to be a clone of the other, everything is the same to a weird degree besides the...let's say, severe troubles... anyway I avoid him like the plague because this topic got so weird in my own head and I cannot speak to such an accurate copy of the real Władysław without it being weird so... sorry I just can't, it's so creepy

interestingly this topic was long buried in my ancient memories until not long ago and now im trying to figure out why it feels unresolved all over again

#tell me why coworker Władek simply said hi and i was like 😧😧😧 HI (??!!!!! 🤨🤨🤨) like i know it's not that deep but it FEELS like it :/ #automatic fight or flight. so unnecessary #oh my god that fucking geriatric dane cook bit about the sketchy coworker BYE how is that unironically my situation

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ASDFGHJKL JESTEM SZALONA MOWIE CI ZAWSZE JA BYLAM NANAANA NAMA NANA NA NA i cant keep it together bro pleaseeeeeeeee

the saddest part is the poor guy has no fucking clue like. The power he holds unknowingly ugh couldn't be me

althovgh 🤔 what if WHAT IF WHAT 🧍🏼‍♂️ nah that's ok but AHH WHY DOES A RANDO HOLD MY ATTENTION THIS LONG I DONT FUCKING KNOW YOU

no I know exactly why

do u ever meet someone at the age of like idk 5 or 8 but things dont end well so after that everyone you meet that vaguely reminds you of them takes over a whole chunk of your life..... The One Who... couldn't fucking stay even if they wanted!!!!!!!!!!

#G***** WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO!!! OH MY GOD #yes wladek said hello again and i am internally melting but in an acid attack type of way #i am suffering so much and this poor guy has no idea he did nothing wrong besides exist in a way that makes me sad #i unironically go through all stages of grief each time i see wladek and it pains me man it really hurts i just miss my friend #in case paul is reading this. no u dont know this friend. G moved to europe when we were about 12 or 13 #it changed the trajectory of my life but i havent told anyone and probably never will

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oh my fucking god there was an almost exact M***** lookalike at the [a band] show tonight

same hair ✔️

same dance moves ✔️

same general vibe ✔️

next time (lol doubt) what do i do just walk up and say what?? Hiiiii i think ur cool :)?? what then?? Sorry i cant hear you over the fucking unreasonable bass, what did you say??

...

why won't god blow up the sun (in roblox) :/

#no im so upset i feel i missed out lmao #ridiculous logistics failures all around #this somehow unlocked ancient memories of another lookalike in school years back #actually it was cause a friend of this dude said his name mid-show and im almost positive it was the same name as school guy 👀 what if... #that would mean i missed out twice lmfao i hate myself goodnight before i walk into a rake or slip on a banana #i used to sit in the back of the bus w the annoying ppl just to be in the same general area LMAO i completely forgot all this #the bags i have fumbled are truly immaculate

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władek has returned

nothing is different except im annoyed because he reminds me of Someone and because of that i need to Stay Far Far Away

anyway

ya girl is still a мотика 4 ma*þwы so in other words nothing has changed

#someone needs to study this phenomenon like what are the chances of pulling literally everyone and their grandparents BYE #and then disappearing into thin air lmfao 😐 #''oooooh gotta be quicker than that'' 🤓🎣 (no one was quick enough apparently) #reciting du gamla in my sleep like i belong in a fucking victorian psych hospital

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i trust my mutuals to overlook it when i say blatantly self contradictory things. they understand that i am a complex and multifaceted icon on their screen

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alright władysław is supposed to (?) return in a few days (?)

idk if it's better with or without but yeah im feeling weird as hell

granted

i did forget my life saving meds until just this moment so maybe that's why lmfao

#a poza tym czemu Mаrтwy nie jest w moi— 😳 #the most rhetorical question to exist ik ik ... but what if #realistically it would be Pan Towarzysz z Literą Fał anyway (wHy n0t bOtH...true trve)

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yeah i still feel crazy about everything lmao :/

why the fuck do i tęsknię za czymś... ponad ile lat!!! co to było ostatnio 2011 a potem wpierw 2006 holy shit i thought this was buried back then but 🧍🏼‍♂️ clearly that was a lie i sold myself for a good while

so. wtf now

#i will simply not be contacting anyone regarding this LMAO WOW JUST THE IDEA... so that's a firm no #i have no plan or end goal here beyond: stop suffering over nothing. time passes #but why do ppl move at the worst fucking times wtfff #how am i still considering uprooting my whole life too like havent i seen enough 'if ur sad over there u will be sad here too' stories !!? #i am so aware the grass is not greener but the illusion delusion is doing a good job so idk seems pretty green to me #hey it's me eve i love apples especially from snakes those are my favourite