#i'm doing better

[dailyjermasparkle]

Hey sparklers!

I've been having a bit of a rough time in my personal life lately, so I might not be making many, if any at all, posts other than the daily sparkles, and any donation commissions.

#i'm doing better #but i just might not be as active on tumblr #or i might #sometimes when i need a break from the world i come on here and look at silly fandom things #just wanted to send out an fyi in case anyone sent an ask that was left unanswered #not that I respond to all my asks #sorry y'all

[feedmeluck]

im a house. and i forgive myself for being a kid and damaging the walls instead of loving myself. i will measure my self worth on the wall like i'm growing taller and i will collect memories of me healing like a childhood photo album. and maybe one day i'll have too many for me to continue to collect. and maybe then i'll be able to look at myself in the mirror and know whos looking back and for once be happy that its me and maybe i'll know that its always been me and once i know i can make this into a home

#ptsd #childhood trauma #ptsd recovery #i'm doing better #i think #please please please #mental health

[ladybugpowermakeup]

How dare something that everyone tells me will be good for me... actually be good for me.

Yes, I know that music lifts my mood. Yes, I know that exercise is good for the depression. Yes, I am aware that my mental state is improved by just not focusing on other people's perceptions of me. But how dare my brain feel the best it's felt in three weeks because I danced around to mid-2010s music in the kitchen?

#mental health #rants from regina #I'm doing better #thanks for asking #healing is happening. #slowly but surely

[bogglebabbles]

Genuinely the more I think about it, the more making it to 30 really has brought with it a lot of really good things. My life's not perfect but I'm very lucky in a lot of ways (knock on wood) and I would not have believed it back when I was in my early-mid 20s. I feel much more stable and much more well-equipped to handle those moments of instability as they come.

#boggle babbles #like i still have Mental Health Issues #my health in general isn't great #but i'm not having panic attacks over phone calls or overthinking every word people say to me #or waking up feeling like i've been beaten to a pulp #i'm doing better

[my-vibrator-broke]

I appreciate that my parents no longer make me explain why my skin is super itchy when I wear certain clothes, why I cringe when I hear certain noises or touch certain fabrics, why I need to close my eyes and put my headphones in when a lot of people are around, why I need to step away from family gatherings, or why I need to lay with my weighted blanket for a while.

They just kinda accept that I'm sensitive because of GAD, and that medication makes it better, and that I'm happy when I listen to my body and calm my mind. It has always been loud in my head, but now it's quieting down, and I like it like that. It feels cleaner and less cluttered.

#anxiety #generalized anxiety disorder #GAD #weighted blanket #i'm doing better #celexa #ssri

[bloodyellenlost]

I'm currently working on Mikey, and I'm trying to give him a somewhat 'mature' face since my version of the turtle are going to be in their mid 20s. I hope that you guys will love these boys. Don't worry, he's still a ADHD sweetie monster 💚

#updates on their looks #bloodyellenlost #owo what's this #I'm doing better #thank ypu for just supporting me and my weird account #love you all

[ctrl-shift-escape]

@witchofthescions has replied to your post:

You need anything over there?

Fried bacon, burnt.

#that is a joke #sorta #i'm doing better #witchofthescions #loop 6 day 2

[hadescavedish]

My way of coping deadline or incoming task is telling myself I'm so extraordinary I'm going to get this thing done.

#I'm doing better

[spyglassrealms]

had a fucking hilarious dream that tumblr replaced the "block" function with the far funnier "glock" function, which did the exact same thing except whenever anyone blocked you a random bullet hole, like a png of a bullet hole, would appear on your blog. discourse blogs were unreadable bc you'd go to the page and the sheer amount of bullet hole pngs stacked over the blogs obscured everything. I woke myself up laughing

#normally I don't chronicle my dreams here but fucking hell that one was funny #I think this would genuinely make tumblr better tbh #@ staff do this cowards #spy has thoughts #my life is a sitcom and i am my own laugh track #functional website #spy's smash hits #Glock function #edit for everyone in the notes saying 'everyone clapped' #I know I can't prove to you that it happened for real you're just gonna have to trust me on this #but I swear on my goddamn life I'm not making this up #I make so many conscious puns that sometimes my subconscious cooks up a real good one

[laughingcatwrites]

As a reminder that good exists out there, a coworker recently confessed to me that he found out his child is questioning their identity (kid's gender redacted for this post). The kid is keeping it from him, so he can't say anything to them or show that he knows, but he's doing his best to get mentally prepared and educated so that he'll be ready whenever his kid does feel comfortable enough come to him.

For context, this guy is a big, bulky middle aged dude who loves sports and typical outdoor "manly" activities. As his coworker and friend, I know he's a kind and sweet teddy bear of a person, but his kid probably views him as a stern, authoritarian figure, the way most teenagers view their parents. His family lives in a conservative area, so I'm sure between that, their dad's looks and interests, and the fact that their dad is a Figure of Authority, the kid is worried that they won't be accepted.

But you know what? When he found out about his kid, the first thing he did was reach out to his closest queer friend and ask for resources for parents of questioning children. His biggest fears are that his kid will be bullied or discriminated against and won't feel comfortable enough to be themself. His second action was to find himself a mentor in another parent who went the same situation (kid coming out in a conservative town). The other person is preparing him for some of the struggles his kid may face and the fights he may need to take on as a parent to make sure his kid is safe and treated well.

Something I want to emphasize for people focused on language as the primary method of allyship is that when we spoke, he used some outdated terms and thoughts about gender and sexuality. That does not make him bad. These were the terms and thinking used about questioning teenagers when he was growing up and he never needed to learn more current ones. But now that he does have that need, he's throwing himself in head first because that's his kid and he's darn well going to make sure that his kid feels welcomed and has a safe place to be themselves even if they never come out to him.

#I'm so proud and happy for my coworker and I've been trying to figure out how to let him know how amazing I think he is #what gets me the most is that he's keeping this super down low to avoid giving any hints to his kid #he has a lot of queer friends so he already is known as an ally but there's always a chance it will be different if it's family #and he took that chance and crumpled it up into a ball and slam dunked it into the garbage for three points #and decided that even if his kid wants to hide it from him for the rest of his life he will still do what he can to make their life better #pflag #parents doing their best #parenting win #good news #allyship

[rainbow-arrow]

i know i'm not entirely okay when i still feel so fucking annoying sometimes

#let's go #i'm doing bETTER #but god #i'm so stressed and i just want ramble it away but i do get that #people don't necessarily want to or need to listen but i #:/ #yknow

[lgbtlunaverse]

Nothing will dispell the "the curtains were just blue" myth faster than writing something yourself, because the amount of pretentious symbolism i am putting in my silly little fanfics is ridiculous. I mean SO much with these words, literally every single one of them. This fic has twenty five typos and zero correct uses of punctuation but if there's curtains you bet your ass I put thought into what colour they were.

#writing #fic writing #like this is stuff i'm doing for fun with my perfectionism meter turned down as far as i can get it #and i am still thinking about it A LOT #talk to me about how in red string fic jgy perceives the memory block both as syrup and as mud but nmj thinks it feels like blood #it's just a thing in their heads that mentally feels kind of thick and sticky but they both made something different of it #it's about issues with cleanliness / lies as a way to craft an illusion of a better lopking world vs the constant violence nmj lives in

[halalmovienight]

hello

#i'm doing better

[quibbs]

just had SO much fun with the fallout tv show... i love you missus okey dokey

#fallout #fallout tv show #my art #lucy maclean #i was not expecting it to be so good but it was!! delightful #i think i like video game adaptations better when they do their own thing with it lol #such a relief to instead of seeing something regurgitated mindlessly for profit #its actually just a completely fresh story but in a familiar setting. cool balm on my skin #i guess that's where i'm at in the remake hell we all live in rn #ella purnell has the sweetest biggest eyes i've ever god damn seen

[allysketches]

gets in charge of the bookshop for 1 (one) day: shows up in a cardigan vest and metal sleeve garters, keeps the shop CLOSED, avoids selling a single book... iconic, truly did THE MOST, 10/10 😩👌🏻

(also, the way he was this 🤏🏻 close to finally achieving the status of house husband he's been dreaming about for MILLENIA just to have the rug pulled out from under him last minute... truly DEVASTATING 😩 my girl really can't catch a break 🤧)

#good omens #good omens fanart #crowley #anthony j crowley #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #neil gaiman #do you have any idea how hard it was to distinguish wtf he was wearing exactly #when this walking disaster idea of fashion is black on black on black on black??!?!!? #i had to up the lightness to the max #and i'm still not 100% on the details tbh #but oh well #I'm sure I made better choices than he did

[communistcephalopod]

hypothesis: vampires are magically vulnerable to light originating from the sun

observation: moonlight has no effect on vampires, despite being a reflection of the sun

conclusion: this aversion is not a result of light or its origin, but some property of sunlight only present in direct contact

hypothesis: vampires are extremely sensitive to uv radiation

#the notes are just people pointing out that i'm like the last person to think of this #sorry. i'll try better next time. #vampire #shitpost #dracula daily #are they doing that again this year? #i miss it