#i'm [scream] all the time basically

[mkay-thats-cool-too]

Finally got around to adding Miku to the Getcha! outfit from earlier, just in time to find out Miku Expo 2024 is coming to my state!! It's only going to be like half an hour from my house!!!!!

#vocaloid #gumi #gumi megpoid #miku #hatsune miku #my art #miku expo #I'm literally screaming and crying #The last time it came to north america I would have had to go all the way to chicago #now it's basically local!! #AAAAAAAAAA #anyways I'm normal about it

[cinnamon-phrog]

I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :< #i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely- #-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things. #i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly' #i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child. #i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake. #i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life- #will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

[another-ruuka]

Let me just commentate on Disney Twisted Wonderland's 🐚🩵Octavinelle Chapter🩵🐚

[SPOILER WARNING] for the people who haven't read the manga!

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OH MY GOD LOOK THEY'RE SO BEAUTIFUL

Welcome to the Twisted Wonderland, Mito Yuuta!!!🩶

FUCK—uh, no wait, I'll never simp for a professor, especially if they're good looking (me when I lie)

OOOOH JADE EEL MY SCRUNKLY CUTIE PATOOTIE🥺🫶🏻🩵‼️‼️‼️

Oh, he's a bit fucked up actually😁

Here comes Sir Azul "dramatic octopi mafia" Ashengrotto🙌🙌🙌

Oh well, that did scare me a lil (lie)

Oh, wait. Did he say my boy??

HE'S HEEEEEEEEEEEREEEE THE EEL 2.0 (His character grew up in me, I started to love the tweels as time goes on)

THE OCTAVINELLE ARC SAGA IS STILL ONGOING AND I CAN'T WAIT HOW IT WILL TURN OUT!!! One thing I just noticed on how Yuuta's character (and Yuuken) is talkative and kind of making their screen time much more worthwhile with their dialogues. I guess it's the thing with Kowono Sumire doesn't want the MC/Yuus just standing in the middle of chaos and doing nothing. I am not belittling Oda Suzuka's Yuuka or Yuuya in the Novel. Every Yuus has their own personality, sure, and I respect it. Not all Yuus in official TWST media are canon, it's preferable to the players or fans how they take MC/Yuu. And I guess that's how I prefer Kowono Sumire's Yuus all of this time in TWST's official media. Sorry if it turned out rude or disrespectful!🙏🏻

#SPOILERS #Disney Twisted Wonderland #Twisted Wonderland #Twisted-Wonderland #TWST #TWST Manga #Octavinelle #shitpost #basically I'm screaming giggling kicking my feet covering my mouth all the time during reading this manga #Like I said I'm not being disrespectful #At least tried to🧍‍♂️ #But for a lot of variety of Yuus in TWST official media I prefer the game's and the Kowono Sumire's Yuu #Kowono Sumire's Yuus have been catching my interest lately so uhh

[boxwinebaddie]

okay, so, idk if anyone else does, but i enjoy my weird little dialogue segments and i wanted to share a pretty important one with you that takes place during part three of the ravesey hate. it was honestly much more groundbreaking information when we were still trying to put a finger ( except, Absolutely Not; no one put a finger on #baeven unless he asks you to put it there, no one touch my son :'c ) on what ravenstan's real personality is and why he's not acting super cool ( bc he is naught, lol ) so now it's a little Less shocking but...still relevant.

so it starts out really cute, but it's kind of a Heavy dialogue exchange because for context, they're at a diner, they're chatting, ravenstan is kind of stressed out/nervous and a little drunk bc he had some box wine, brought the 'Emergency Escape Hatch' flask and dumped it into his soda fml, so he is sharing a liiittle too much information w/ kyle. but idk, kyle is his super best friend, even though it's a secret, he feels comfortable around him, so it all kind of just comes out bc he's been keepin it buried inside him for so long…tldr, sa tw. :(

but again, it's mostly just dialogue? i wrote in some stage directions for zest, but if i had finished any of the dialogue w/ actions i would have posted my chapters...which i didn't...bc i couldn't, lol. so have this! its spelled wrong in many places and all the weird waxing poetic descriptions don't make sense...lol, i'm sweating. but once again, as always, darlings, pls enjoy the worst part of your day...Literally. </3

ps. hold on, for additional context, ravenstan tried to slyly ask kyle about his past boyfriends to which Whore Slut Floozy Jerseykyle was immediately like 'I Don't Do Boyfriends' skhdlkshdsk but went on to mention that there was one guy in his english class freshman year that Was Naught His BF who kyle saw more than other boys.

anyways! roll clip! xx <3

#i'm sorry this is not that quality u know how i rock and roll #this makes me want to scream every time i think about it #ravenstan baby i love you so much #he endured sm #and like it just made him kind #all that evil and he never stopped being good #i love u bb #okay anyways not them both being jealous very unserious #ravenstan saying I'm The Virgin Sacrifice #WAS SOOOOOO OUT OF POCKET BITCH #kyle was screaming #not wh0resey repenting he was Embarrassed like #his room is a revolving door he throws guys out the window #and raven of crimson dawn is watering his plants #hell is place jersey kyle go to temple holy fuck #the funniest part of that was kyle awkwardly gesturing to stan and was basically WHAT DO U MEAN UR LITERALLY SO HOT #i was cryin he was deeply amused like uh huh anything else ;) #but uhhhhhghghhfhdhdhdhdhd stan :( stan i love you i love you i love you his whole life was just fucked up #i will just say that its not just stuff from the la flashbacks randy marsh...that man needs to die for what he did to shelley shar & stan #like truly evil and insidious things that do unfortunately tie into this like i want to die...kyle being like so hardlined and being gentle #the way he was like why am i unreasonably angry why do i want to hold him what the fuck is happening to me #after that btw stan freaked out bc he wa slike oh fuck oh fuck i shouldnt have said anything SHITSHITSHIT & knocks the water over #it gets everywhere & hes like apologizing to kyle bc it got all over his sweater and kyle just v calmly gets napkins #and is like...shh raven its okay Its Only Water <3 grabs stans hand & squeezes it like he used to when stan had panic attacks :'( #ugh my sons who i luv they are so qt also after that ky had to run to the bathroom bc he panicked & called marj i like a boy #wtf do i do im gonna throw up i hate this everything he does is cute to me am i havin a stroke kill me i want 2 die #also sorry abt the note screenshots i get stressed when the words dont fit perf on the lines and the tumblr font annoys me

[kyouka-supremacy]

YOSANOOOOOOOOOO

#akiko yosano #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd season 4 #Omg Yosanooooooooooooooooo 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #YOSANO BACKSTORY REAL I'm going to sob SO hard #TERUKO I love her so much she's my everything #BUT OMG YOSANO #I hope Yosano knows I would die for her #0.2 seconds of Gin 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #Also another two seconds of Chuuya which like. Put together with the other second of Chuuya from the first trailer– #is basically showing us the entirety of Chuuya's screentime in the fourth season lol #Feels like all the budget went to animate the Chuuya scene and like. Fair enough fair enough (╥﹏╥) #Sigma!!!!!!! OmG he's HERE and he's kinda ugly but IT'S OKAY #KYOUKA!!!!!!!!!! #Still screaming whatever #Gotta go reblog every post I find in the span of time till the next lesson #bsd s4 #mine #Happy birthday Lucy

[helpimstuckinafandom]

JUSTICE FOR DAVINA CLAIRE I'M SO FUCKING SERIOUS FUCK OFF OH MY FUCKING GOD

#CAMI AND DAVINA GONE IN ONE EPISODE??!?!!?? #YOU CAN'T BE FUCKING FOR REAL #(davina perma died an episode later both they both died in one episode right before that) #also this season has been slacking on marcel and the ep post-davina's death kicked him up several notches #he said all the shit i take issue with about the always and forever family bs #he hit that shit out of the park #also camille's death being all about comforting klaus fucking pissed me off #it was until she was scared right at the end that it was more about her #and her last words COULD have beenthe immortality line. but then they had to have her bolster klaus again instead #at least we got others mourning her after #but davina???? #those bitchass ancestors forced her boyfriend to kill her then nearly shredded her soul #and she could've been resurrected. but of course fucking family came first #she had to die screaming for mercy alone as the ancestors tried to carve her soul from fucking existence #(and though i'm mad at elijah and freya for it it makes sense for them to do it #(what pissed me off was them and klaus then telling marcel that they were justified and he should just suck it up and understand) #(like no take the consequences let the man mourn) #(freya claiming family to kol too like girl i don't know you. and this 'family' loves you more than it ever loved me) #(y'all only love me on my deathbed) #(if being family means we kill each other's partners [which happens time and time again] then fuck being in this family) #like i don't actually want the mikaelsons dead. but also i hope super vampire marcel kills you all #hope kol gets away from you people because you are not family to him. you aren't. #but mostly davina. poor fucking davina #her and kol are my bonnie and enzo - finally finding someone who will choose them not just use them #only for death at the hand of allies #davina clair was an abused teenager you all used and who justifiably hated y'all #and she deserved more than to die like this. die basically three fucking times over still helping in the end #truly have not seen a witch this blatantly used and mistreated since the bonnie bennet #davina claire #the originals

[katya-goncharov]

i had such a hellish bus journey home from work today and i'm STILL drained from it

#basically the bus i usually take was cancelled because the bus service from my uni is shit and since hardly any buses come in the #evening i had to wait over half an hour for the next one after my late shift at work ended #and because it was a friday night the entire bus stop was crowded with rowdy drunk undergrad students #and then when the bus did come you could tell the bus driver was completely fed up with them because she deliberately waited like #ten minutes to set off until everyone quietened down. and then every time they got too rowdy she'd stop the bus again #and i was really paranoid because the journey was taking so long and it was like nearly midnight by this point and i didn't want to be #walking home through town so late because you get really dodgy people about and i knew i wouldn't feel safe! #and the drunk students were being SO loud and they kept screaming at the tops of their voices and blowing vape smoke pretty #much right into my hair and i was just feeling very impatient and overstimulated #and THEN to top it all off one of them vomited in the seat across from me and it smelt awful and i had to step over it just to get off #the bus. and i couldn't even get food on the way home because it was so late by the time the bus arrived that everywhere was closed #so yeah. not a fun evening and now i'm just tired and annoyed and the worst thing is i have to do a late shift AGAIN tomorrow

[niyana-the-ambiguous-mobian]

Why do certain coworkers have to get you so annoyed with them without even trying, and they don't realize how annoying/obnoxious they are?? Or worse, they KNOW how annoying they are but don't seem to care cause they find it funny?

It's like the silence and neutral expressions aren't enough of a hint that I don't think you're funny and you should just stop while you still have your dignity...

Longer rant in the tags cause it's a lot.

#rant post #personal rant #idk what is with boys and think whenever you get annoyed with them means that its ok to keep going on with the shit 😒 #i know it's not all boys but just certain ones #he's only 1-2 years younger than me but he acts pretty immature sometimes #he was trying to get my attention by doing stupid shit as distance away but i didn't acknowledge him and he got that message #but afterwards he tries other stuff and cracks himself up whenever he gets me to look at him thinking I'm giving him a reaction #he's....an odd puzzle piece to place #and my workplace is as small as a typical subway so i can't really keep my distance from him unless i go outside or got to the restrooms #ugh i just wish he wasn't like this ALL THE TIME and he wonders i act the way i do around him on the rare occasions he is serious #and it's just me and him working there other than my manager but can't really do anything about that for now #i just wanna scream at him to not smirk at me and dance around me like he's trying to do a mating dance that makes me uncomfortable each tim #-me but i gotta say it in a way that doesn't sound like I'm hysterical about it or cause ridges since I'm still working there #basically he's one of the reasons i want a new job. it shouldn't be the case where a coworker causes you to leave a job #but unfortunately this is where i am at this point #ok rant over XD #I'm going to wash my face and eat something

[smoozie]

i can never say this off anon but. like. i don't agree with rpf ideologically but there's something to the narrative of it, right? like if i was a minecraft youtuber and so was my best friend and i fell in love with them i would never fucking say anything publicly. there's a story there. i just wish it made sense to write about fictional youtubers or write aus about my ocs as youtubers without it turning into meta commentary on actual RPF. why is there no respectful way to write about c!cc!characters huh

There is most definitely a story to be told in which the entire world thinks two people should be together, and because of that two people cannot reveal they are in love with each other.

#anon this is an interesting topic #so cruel of u to put it in my inbox tho lmao /lh #now I have to say smth off anon abt it! #but uh I'm trying to phrase this ever so delicately #I don't think u should ship real ppl #obviously #I grew up watching dan and phil guys #but this ask is soooo like #yeah #them #I think abt them a lot and how hard it must have been to be in the closet and somehow outted at the same time #very interesting perspective #but also it is so intrusive to explore smth like that ya know? #like in a fanfic #and ur right any story revolving around this topic is ultimately a commentary on rpf culture #even if 'youtuber who is in love with youtuber friend“ could be a fun story #it will always draw uncomfortable parallels to actual ppl #smooziespeaks #ask #anon #dragonanswers #also u mentioned mcyt's specifically which is funny cuz my response is basically #ah yes my favorite mcyts dan and phil #ALSO! What drove you to ask me of all ppl abt this??? #not mad I just desperately need to know #what abt me screams send ur anonymous confessions #I need to exude that energy everywheew

[neverendingford]

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#every time a character does the whole “talk softly and reassure the dangerous person” thing while also walking ominously towards them ughh #it drives me absolutely nuts. like. you're trying to talk them down from paranoia while you're threateningly walking towards them? #someone does that to me and I'm shooting them at least in the leg or stabbing with whatever makeshift spear I've manufactured #anyway. criminal minds is getting real annoying with the whole pathologizing of people. #like. guy shows signs of being very good at torturing people and they go “ah yes.. a pure sadist” or whatever the fuck #I get that it's shitty crime drama stuff but still. ugh. #I just. I fucking hate when people take the obviously wrong route when talking to mentally destabilized people. #like. people are shit at talking to suicidal people. are shit at talking down irrational fears. people are shit at talking down paranoia. #I hate how people don't fucking know how to interact with freaks I hate how people don't know how to interact with me #everyone acts on their own level without understanding what it's like in any way #and so everyone just projects their own reality onto you without performing any sort of empathy or exercising any sort of understanding #and I want to scream so fucking loud #you're all living in a cotton candy world and your words disintegrate in my humidity #and it's so fucking lonely #and my mind has been clear this past week. the autistic need for pressure satisfied by this prescription pushing on my brain #and I can feel the cogs turning. the wheels and pins and linked gear trains and drive shafts and traction band motors. #all the parts of my brain churning around and I can't get close because the heat from my motor makes my hood hot to the touch. #I burn your hand as you try and press your palm against my flanks. #only think saddle and tack make contact. strict guidelines and harsh rules to govern me. #when I am free I buck and I shift gait and I drag you under too-low branches #also. compared to Hannibal I can basically listen to criminal minds as a podcast. none of the visuals really contribute anything to the show #like. feels very shallow

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

I AM SO NORMAL. ABOUT YOUR WOMEN. DONT ASK WHY IM RIPPING THE CUSHIONS WITH MY FINGERNAILS. SO SO SO NORMAL. I WOULD COMPLIMENT THEM AND THEN SCREAM INSIDE. ESPECIALLY KILLER AND CROSS SXND BEJKWEJHCKL:

im normal

wawawa THANK YOU SO MUCH :'D <33333

if it makes you feel better i am just as sane and okay with my versions as well and i'm not haunted by their faces every time i draw them nuh uh i'm okay :)

#ask #seriously tho i tried so so many fem designs for these girls before my blog was even created and i was always so unsatisfied with them #too samey too basic too forgettable- all of them!! #i'm trying so hard to make them look different and unique and i feel like it's working! maybe >:'D #at least their hair doesn't look like a knockoff of each other anymore lmao hhhh #really tho i'm so glad you guys like them just as much as i do!!! :'D aughgh you're all so sweet<33333 #leaving scratches on the walls and breaking glass screaming each time i look at other people's designs too AGHSFGGF #sigh ig we're all a bit feral deep inside<33333

[blue-madd]

Made an AU for Ian and Naïl where they're called Jack and Eden bc why not

After the "barista x vet assistant" version, here's the "bass player x influencer" version~ (+ their lil apartment)

Plot was so simple : influencer finds himself at a concert and compliments the bass player for his skills who instantly becomes obsessed w him and casually starts crashing at his place

Also the apartment was made based on inspo I found on Pinterest so really no original idea for this one (I have never been so uninspired lmao)

#I like the idea of making other AUs with them since I'm struggling to keep a paracosm entertaining for too long #soo we got the coffe shop AU we got the band AU what will come next i wonder #my mind is screaming library AU but aint no way Jack reads shit (he came out so different and yet so similar to Ian i cant explain it) #Ian is like a fancy version of Jack but i feel like Jack has the original personality #and i have just decided that he doesnt know how to read which means library AU where the bookkeeper teaches him (or fails huhuhu) #also very important note : Jack only started wearing pink bc thats Eden's fav color lmao i love him he is so simple #like the 1st time they met Jack casually signed Eden's top while adding his number (which he never used) #& 2nd time they went to an after party together and Jack drove Eden home and was like #'so this is where u live. ok. can i come over when im bored?' then came back the very next day & basically never left #and Eden was like 'i aint looking for nothing romantic/sexual/etc' so Jack went 'ok lets be friends then' #and Then Eden was all 'i wanna try smth new' so Jack went 'ok lets be lovers' like he is so Chill he just wants to hang out w him #i love their dynamic #madd #paras rant #paraportal #i need to find a correct name ugh #paracosm : mixed AUs

[seasaltmemories]

The Oh Hellos’ music deserves to be appreciated so much more beyond just the soundtrack to your DND animatic please learn to appreciate art beyond a moodboard styled comfort fantasy

#seasalt talks #soldier poet king and to a lesser extent dear wormwood is basically ruined for me with how its been sanitized and sanded down to be more #palpable to mainstream audiences by fan discussion #granted I never loved them or really though they were as strong as the #Anemoi Cycle #part of me wants to shout actually listen to the rest of their catalogue bc their music is more than just an excuse for idle fantasy #the Anemoi Cycle came here to eviscerate you and all the ways you excuse your own petty cruelties and vices #You don't have to engage with the Christian themes (though don't deny them) but please please look at it outside a fandom lens #at least a few times #like I made an Utena amv to 'on the mountain tall' i am not immune #but also if I have to listen to someone say that Passerine is about like a bird shapeshifter I'm gonna scream #learn what a metaphor is! #the oh hellos

[necromancy-savant]

Sometimes I worry that I haven't taken good enough care of my ears, but then I'm in physical pain from how loud not only friends and coworkers in the same room keep their music but how loud my neighbors and the people in the parking lot blast it

#I'm convinced that both temperature and volume are things I perceive extremely differently from every other human ever to exist #I can hear snoring beneath me at night #I put in my earplugs but I can still feel the vibrations #through the fucking floor and through the walls #go to a doctor before you die in your sleep ffs tbh #but at least that person takes care of their baby unlike my last neighbors #I hear crying every once in a blue moon and it sucks but it stops within minutes bc they promptly meet their baby's needs #at my old place it would be 12 hours a night of screaming and screaming and no sleep bc they ignored it #and in the day it would be boom boom boom crash crash glass breaking everywhere cry oh what happened #you left your baby unattended and she got injured for the fifth time today bc you just leave her alone in the house all the time #you let your 1 year old to stomp around and break things and injure herself every 15 minutes #while you laze around just admit you never wanted children and give her to someone who will take care of her ffs #that kid is going to be suicidal by first grade due to lack of attention to her basic survival needs and I feel horrible for her already #I also saw two very young boys on that porch one time #with no shirts and with just shorts on in the snow just bashing the porch with sticks out of sheer boredom #I was considering intervening bc my paranoid ass thought they must already have frostbite

[xian]

the fact that this is my dream lineup aside, they decided on the RIGHT lineup

#been screaming for riku-jungmin-SAKUYA-RYO -plus one this entire time #like no you don't understand we need kuya and ryo both so bad #both in a balance and chemistry standpoint #and like. these are the trainees who are READY. they have the basics and more #so glad there was no fanvoting cuz you bet anderson would have been inflated and then dumped into a japanese group #without dance vocal or rap basics #i'm so ready to defend this lineup to anybody #the way i yelled when they called sakuya #the way i yelled when they called ryo #cuz jungmin and riku were locked in ykno #oh god the way ryo was casted at an nct concert and how he's grown up as pink blood #him telling his czennie sister that he's gonna get her autographs as an nct member 😭 like you're joking #nct #reading reddit comments now lmao i should've known they would all root for ryu #but like can y'all be realistic fr

[pa-pa-plasma]

i'm going to fucking kill someone. i got screamed at & called selfish & stupid for telling my mom to wear a mask. she gave me covid

#& you wanna know the kicker? she's going on a vacation. yeah. she's going on a plane right now while badly sick with covid #how do i communicate with people who are literally missing their brain? #it was my sister who screamed at me btw. she feels the need to play devil's advocate whenever i open my mouth #my mom did what she always does & coughed 17 times without covering her mouth & then sat down in the livingroom to doomscroll for 7 hours #what the actual fuck is it with parents & not covering their mouths when they cough or sneeze? they straight up just spray people with covi #& then laugh about it when you point it out as if spreading the fucking plague is funny #best part is that we're pretty sure her getting covid 5 times a year because she refuses to wear masks killed her husband #not joking about that btw. all she had to say oh ''ooh yeah that would explain it'' #like ?????????????????????? #i didn't get the chance to go grocery shopping either so now i dont have any fresh food #if i have to eat one more frozen or processed meal i'm gonna fucking kill someone. & now i cant do that because i have basic empathy #i don't even feel right ordering food cuz like. i have to interact with someone to do that (can't pay online) #i avoid covid for this long & then get it because ''people look at you weird if you wear masks. you wouldn't get it'' #bitch i'm queer. i wear queer pins. i wear a queer jacket. you're telling ME i wouldn't get receiving weird looks??? #god my sister wants to be oppressed so fucking bad. i'm sorry but bitch isn't a slur & you're a fucking coward for not wearing masks #i hope you cant fucking work for weeks because of this bullshit. bitch