#i’m going on hiatus for a bit so this is my parting gift lol

[slytherinshua]

Quokka?

𝐍𝐨𝐰 𝐥𝐨𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠. . .

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ genre and tags: fluff. felix as a dad. han makes an appearance. pregnancy fic(?). baby stuff lol. ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ warnings: uhh adorable baby stuff and some kisses. ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ pairing: felix x fem!reader. ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ summary: adorable fluff with felix as a dad, ft. han ♡ ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ wc: 1.7k ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ a/n: i hath risen from the depths of my 2 week hiatus and brought you this lmao. the first part of this had been written for a long time and it was just rotting in my drafts waiting for me to finish it. the title is shit btw. enjoy! ♡

“It’s fine. I’m fine. Everything’s fine.” You whispered as you tried your best not to hyperventilate. Your body shook slightly as you sat on the bathroom floor. Tears stained your cheeks and your nerves kept spiking up again every few minutes.

The little blue and white test that you held in your hand was the source of it all. Or maybe it was the 2 red lines it showed. Or the baby that you were now aware was growing in your womb. Or the fact that this was all happening while Felix was away for a short time due to promotions.

You two had always wanted to have kids, but there was no guide you could read to feel ready enough to be pregnant, or be good parents. 

It might have been the worst or best time to find out. You were so overwhelmed with everything, but despite that you felt so so happy. 

You had just come home from the most stressful day at work, and had not seen Felix for almost a month. But the joy you felt underneath your nerves was just what you needed to feel a bit better.

The past month had been all sorts of overwhelming, but nothing compared to this moment. It felt surreal that your life was about to change forever.

Your phone started ringing and the beginning of “Cause I Like You” echoed through the bathroom.

You looked down at your phone, seeing the screen display his contact. Your eyes widened. You hurriedly grabbed the phone from off the floor and answered it, holding it up to your ear.

“Hey Love!” His voice sounded like music from the other side of the phone, a much needed comfort amidst your anxiety.

“Hi baby.” You breathed. "You're okay", your brain told you over and over again, and you started believing it now that you could hear his voice.

“Did you miss me?” He asked cutely. Thankfully, the phone didn’t pick up uneven breaths or slight sniffling from all the crying..

“Way too much.” You smiled, feeling a million times better in just 10 seconds, and all because of talking to him.

“Aww, baby… I’ll be back in 3 weeks… it’s not that long.” He said, and you could tell from his voice that he was trying to convince himself of the fact too.

“We can last 3 more weeks… I have a surprise for when you get back actually.”

“Really?” You could hear his voice perk up in excitement, before dropping slightly again, “But I told you not to get me anything.” The pout in his voice was very clear and you couldn’t help but giggle.

“This one was a bit unplanned.”

“Hm…” He hummed, “Can I have a hint?”

“Nope~ You’ll just have to wait, my love.”

“Fine.” He sighed. “I have to go… but I’ll call you tomorrow, okay?”

“Mhm~ Love you…” You sighed, missing him like hell.

“I love you too. Stay safe, okay? I’ll be back in your arms soon. Bye!!”

“Bye!”

“I love you~!” He sang as he hung up, making you smile again.

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You looked down at the little gift box you held in your hands. It had the pregnancy test in it along with a baby onesie and baby bottle. There was no way he wouldn’t get the message from this. You just needed to give it to Felix once he walked through the door in 5 minutes. Easy, right? 

The morning sickness had set in a couple days ago, but you tried to not mention it until Felix knew you were pregnant. He would be so worried about you if he knew you were throwing up and feeling sick without knowing the reason.

The doorbell chimed and you stood up immediately, setting the gift box down and going to the door. There he stood on the other side of it, the brightest smile on his face.

“I’m back~” He giggled.

He pulled you into his arms immediately, kissing your cheek and swaying from side to side. You sighed and hugged him tighter, the feeling of having him back in your arms was better than anything else.

“I missed you soooo much… I just wanted to be back with you all that time.” He pouted and you pressed a kiss right on the pout.

“Me too…”

Once he had gotten food and settled on the couch, you grabbed the gift box.

“Remember the surprise I told you about?”

He looked up from his muffin, eyes wide with excitement. You handed over the little box and sat back down beside him. He cracked his knuckles in anticipation, making you giggle. 

“Just open it.” You urged.

He didn’t need to be told twice, as he lifted the lid off of the box, revealing the baby things. He picked up the test, and bottle. You noticed his hands start to shake slightly and the recognition dawn on his face immediately. 

He turned to you, eyes teary, “You’re pregnant?”

You nodded softly, starting to tear up as well just from seeing him emotional. He pulled you close into a hug, struggling to stop the tears from flowing down his face.

“I love you.” You whispered into his ear, pressing a kiss to his cheek. He nodded, sniffling and wiping his eyes.

You laughed, “You’re such a baby. I didn’t expect you to get so emotional.”

“I’m gonna be a dad, how could I not get emotional?” He croaked, and broke down again in tears.

“Cutie…” You whispered, not being able to help the smile that stayed prominent on your face. You loved him so much.

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“Are you sure you’re okay?? Do you want water?” Felix continued to ask while you two set up the nursery together. He wanted to do it by himself and let you rest, but how could you not want to decorate as well?

“I’m fine, don’t worry about us.” You smiled, opening up another box filled with baby things.

Felix smiled at you, eyes filled with so much love for you and his daughter that you were carrying. You were almost 34 weeks and your baby bump was very visible. Felix thought it was the most precious thing in the world. He would talk to the bump all the time, and singing to it was one of his favourite things to do.

Finishing up the nursery was more fun than you expected. And when surrounded by adorable baby things, it was hard to fight back the smiles and excitement for when she finally arrived.

Once everything was finished, there was an added bookshelf with children’s stories on it, paintings on the wall, stuffed animals, pillows, a soft rocking chair, and a consistent theme of Teddy Bears. The walls and furniture all matched as well, everything going together in soft brown tones with a scattering of pinks and greens.

“Do you like your room?” Felix asked, kneeling down so he was in level with your stomach. “I think it looks cute… Just like you and your mom.” He pulled up his your oversized sweatshirt and kissed your tummy softly, making you smile.

“I’ll be back in 2 days, are you sure you’ll be okay with Quinn?” You couldn’t help but feel bad that you had been called on a business trip with little warning. 

“It’ll be fine, love. We’ll have fun without mummy, right Quinn?” She paid no attention to his words, too immersed in playing with his fingers. “See, we’ll be fine.” Felix smiled.

“Okay. I’ll get going then.” You gave Quinn a kiss on the forehead and Felix a kiss on the lips before stepping out of the house as Felix waved goodbye.

He hummed, taking Quinn over to the kitchen and setting her down on the counter as he took out food from the fridge to make dinner. As long as Quinn had her stuffed bear, Waffle, she was content. 

“Dada?” She smiled, looking at him with doe eyes, and his heart melted at the sight.

“Yes baby?” He hummed.

Incoherent babbling followed out of Quinn’s mouth, and Felix nodded along.

“Mhm… You’re so right.” He cooed, eyes full of love whenever Quinn tried to have a conversation with him. She had only learned a couple of words so far, but they could get the attention of Felix anytime.

Soon after Felix put food in the oven, his phone rang. He picked it up, smiling as he read the caller ID. Jisung had called.

“Hi!” [ . . . ] “Mhm! we’re doing well… Y/n’s just gone on a business trip so I have her allllll to myself.” He smiled widely, making Quinn giggle.

“You’re free? You should come over… Can’t keep up that ‘favourite uncle’ status if you don’t come over, now can you? Chan hyung might overtake you~” Felix teased, soon hanging up the phone and turned his full attention back to Quinn.

“The Quokka is coming~~” He sang, patting Quinn’s hair softly.

“Qui…kka?” Quinn tried, drawing Felix’s attention as he looked at her with visible heart-eyes. 

“Quo…kka.” He sounded out.

“Quo…kka?”

“You got it!! My baby is so smart, aren’t you?” He praised, scrunching up his nose and giving her a nose kiss.

“Quokka!” She said excitedly, making Felix smile wider. She kept repeating it amongst giggles and kisses as the two waited for Han to come over.

A knock was soon heard, eliciting giggles from both of them. Felix went to answer it, but was swiftly ignored as soon as Jisung spotted Quinn standing in the middle of the living room with Waffle. 

He came over to her, immediately picking her up in his arms, both of them smiling widely. She went to grab his cheeks, and Jisung giggled.

“She learned a new word just now.” Felix said, leaning on the counter smiling at the two of them. “Baby, do you want to tell uncle Han what you learned?” 

“Quokka!” She exclaimed excitedly, making Jisung’s eyes go wide. He turned to Felix, in disbelief that he just heard the word Quokka come from Quinn’s mouth. Felix’s face held a giant grin and he laughed as he saw Jisung almost tear up. 

“My lovely, adorable, baby!!” He let out, making her giggle as he sniffed back his proud tears. 

“I think you might keep that favourite uncle status.” Felix said proudly, checking on the food in the oven. 

“The members will get so jealous when I tell them!” Jisung said excitedly, making Felix laugh.

It was safe to say that Quinn was adored by everyone.

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[sollucets]

A-ha! As if I was capable of scrolling post a writing ask game and miss a chance to bother people 😉

Generally ✨through 💌 but it might be a lot of work for you, so I'll limit myself to 🌻🌿💥

And I wouldn't be myself if I didn't ask 💫 cause even the demons in my room know I could use some inspiration 😫

you have never bothered me! 🥺

id answer the whole thing just for you, but correct i am sleepy

🌻 what makes you want to give up on writing? what keeps you going back?

nothing. like…. i never want to give up on writing. it might happen anyway someday, or i might go on a six month unhappy unintentional hiatus like last year, but like. i dont want to! i like writing and it makes me feel better as a person to do it even as it sucks and is difficult.

🌿 how does creating make you feel?

lots of things? its not like it’s a single coherent experience. i guess the sort of overlying one would be…. excited? like my base state is excited to get things out of my head, i think. i look forward to it, it’s a goal i’m working towards.

💥 find your least kudos’ed fic and say something nice about it.

my least kudos’ed fic is riparian, which was one of the first tenish fics in redacted brachium’s character tag (he still only has 19 lol), so this answer probably isn’t relevant to you directly, sorry. he is a niche character within an already somewhat niche fandom and it doesn’t surprise me too much that it didn’t get a lot of attention. that said….. uhm, he remembers his own name partway through this fic and i think the til-then unnamed narrator suddenly having one in the narration without him realizing til later is a fun moment. it was Difficult to write a scene with three characters where only one had a name though eheh

💫 what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback?

all :) any comment is like. a direct dopamine shot. but if i’m meant to be picky about the free gifts people give me, i guess it’s when people say their favorite parts. it could really literally be just quoting me and going !!!! its not important i like knowing what bits people liked

thank u for asking me 💜💜💜

#rowan asks #ask games #catbiodolor

[wangxianficrecs]

Follower Recs

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Hi! First of all, thank you so much for running this blog, It's become one of three reasons why I haven't yet committed arson (I jest but the Feeling is true). [Hee, hee, hee.] I have a rec for you! It's called "wholesome life usurp immediately" by comfect on ao3 and it's. So good. It's unfinished but the author updates it literally every other day if not faster! It's a lovely fic, I hope you enjoy it. 🌻

Wholesome Life Usurp Immediately

by Comfect (T, 55k, yunmeng sibs, qingli, wangxian, WIP)

Summary: Wen Qing examines Jiang Yanli at Cloud Recesses and has a cure for her poor cultivation.

Now there are Three Prides of Yunmeng.

Everything kind of fixes itself from there.

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hello mojo!! I would really like to recommend standing still (but we keep going) by lwjromantics!! it's really good!!

standing still (but we keep going)

by lwjromantics (justfantaestic) (T, 5k, wangxian)

Summary: Lan Wangji supposed that if having to take care of little A-Yuan and Mo Xuanyu and having to look at the reminders of Wei Ying in their habits and mannerisms was punishment for his actions, he would willingly take it and flay his own back open.

— There are children in the Burial Mounds.

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hii mojo! I just read this cute fic and I loved it so I wanted to rec it :) 

Word Up, Talk the Talk

by Larryissocute (G, 2k, wangxian)

Summary:  It wouldn’t have been a problem (it really wouldn’t) if they weren’t best friends. Wei Wuxian doesn’t know what good deeds he did in his past life to be blessed with Lan Wangji as a friend nor does he know what evil things he did to be cursed with being only a friend to Lan Wangji.

Or the one where Wei Wuxian kisses Lan Wangji and then runs away.

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Hey! Love your account — and proud of you for taking the hiatus you needed.  [Lol - it was really nice!]  Idk if you take fic recommendations, but I'd love to rec Roots by ardenrabbit. Fantastic characterization, I really love it!

Roots

by ardenrabbit (E, 46k, wangxian, WIP)

Summary:  After Wei Wuxian's duel with Jiang Cheng, he finds that stab wounds aren't so trivial when he doesn't have a core to heal them. He wakes to find Lan Zhan in the Burial Mounds with him, already beloved by the Wens and making himself at home. When Lan Zhan tells him that he wants to stay and offers more help than Wei Wuxian knows how to accept, he fears that it's only too good to be true.

Lan Wangji knows that Wei Ying is doing the right thing, and he couldn't live with himself if he let him do it alone. For everything Wei Ying has sacrificed, Lan Wangji is determined to give something back to him.

Hanguang-Jun has turned his back on the clans to join the Yiling Wens and their demonic cultivator leader, and every clan has a different opinion on the matter.

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Hello! I wanted to rec a fic on ao3 called "Restoration" by jelenedra. It's complete, an alternate universe of the sunshot campaign told nonlinearly. It has strong fairy tale and fae elements, with a touch of mystery. Bit of a fix it. Some delightful one liners, and the final ending imagery is just LOVELY. The fic deserves much more love. There's also some YilingWei, wwx not raised by Jiang, and sentient Burial Mounds elements. Enchanting read that keeps you enthralled and curious and intrigued.

Restoration

by jelenedra (M, 85k, wangxian)

Summary:  They say he was thrown into Luanzang Gang by the man who killed his parents; they say that he is an immortal cultivator who had been in a deep trance until the Wen sect disturbed his rest and incurred his wrath; they say that he is the fierce corpse of a cultivator who had somehow regained his mind and his spiritual powers.

When Lan Wangji sees him for the first time, he understands why people talk.

Meng Yao wants safety. Xue Yang wants vengeance. The Sunshot Campaign wants victory. Yiling Laozu provides, for a price.

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I usually read all your recommendations. Thanks for gathering all good recs of wangxian. I am in love with every single story your recommend especially the favorites. [I’m so glad!]  I just wanted to suggest a fic i came across while searching for phoenix!wwx. Its a new story I think as author has published it today. The first chapter was very interesting that i thought ill recommend it you and know your opinion. The legendary phoenix and his dragon -Devipriya and Hidden Path to Love by ShadowTenshiV

Hidden Path to Love

by ShadowTenshiV (G, 78k, wangxian)

Summary:  Wei Ying is a servant working at the Gusu Lan castle. One day he enters through a secret passage way connected to the library where he meets a Lan for the first time. He may have left quite an impression, gaining the other´s attention and slowly becoming friends. They would like to become something more, but a servant can´t be with a prince, but maybe his secret can change that.

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hello mojo! i was wondering if I could make a fic rec? it’s called “and the calm is deep where the quiet waters flow” by izanyas. it used to be on ao3 but the author has since moved it to eir own website and has started posting updates there. i was wondering if this could also act as a signal boost bc some old readers on ao3 might not have known that it is now on another website.   Author's been through a tough time so I think it deserves a lot more love.

For new readers, please mind the warnings in the prologue and the beginning of each chapter! it’s omegaverse and a very heavy read as it deals with (possible spoiler) off-screen rape that results in an unwanted pregnancy, as well as secondary gender oppression which runs deep, but for people who can bear it the writing, worldbuilding, and emotions are truly spectacular.

and the calm is deep where the quiet waters flow

by izanyas (E, 270k, wangxian, WIP, link is to WordPress rather than AO3)

Summary: Cangse Sanren was the first of her kind to become a cultivator. Talented, passionate, free-spirited, she bested everything that ever came her way until the very end.

Jiang Fengmian refuses to see her son deprived of that same freedom.

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Hello Mojo! I dunno if this's been recced before, but here's another ficrec for you? It's complete, on ao3, "The Third Young Master of Qishan Wen" by KouriArashi. It's 'if wwx was raised by dafan wen, but gets recognized as 3rd heir due to his skill' scenario. Some really nice banter and characterization. Wwx and lz get together before the sunshot campaign. Story follows the live action but diverges into au, and does some cool callbacks to original canon. Love Meng Yao in this!  [Oh, I know KouriArashi from my last fandom, I love her works!]

❤️The Third Young Master of the Qishan Wen

by KouriArashi (T, 139k, wangxian, my post)

Summary:  The fic where Wei Wuxian is adopted by the Dafan Mountain Wens instead of the Yunmeng Jiang.

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Hi Mojo! I can count the number of times I’ve spoken on Tumblr on one hand (I’m shy heh) but I found this fic that I think you and others would really like? I’m a sucker for emotional hurt/comfort and this was just too sweet for me not to share (did I go through 20 pages of bookmarks just to make sure you don’t already have it? Maybe …) [Aww, you can do a sidebar search in the bookmarks for the author’s name.  But I hope you found other good fics by carding through the whole catalog!]  It’s “Close Your Soft Eyes” by timetoboldlygo! I also wanna say thank you for all the hard work you put into this blog! It’s a treasure beyond compare. :D [Thank you so much!]

Close Your Soft Eyes

by timetoboldlygo (G, 12k, wangxian)

Summary:  When Lan Wangji woke, the first thing he noticed was the slip of paper, folded and tucked between his index and middle fingers, not Wei Wuxian’s absence. His fingers trembled as he unfurled the paper. A donkey with a little smile beamed down at him.

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On the nights that Wei Wuxian was gone, Lan Wangji woke to gifts on his pillow.

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Hey Mojo! I love your blog it is beyond awesome! [Thank you!]  I was wondering if you would consider reading JaenysBloodcourt series "A Bond to Takes us home"? The summary is weird but I like the fics and would love to hear your opinion on LWJ POV (it's part 2). Part one is Mingxian but part two (Wangxian) reads as a standalone for the most part. Anyways, thank you for all your hard work! <3 [I’ll put it on my list!]

A Bond to Take Us Home

by JaenysBloodcourt (T, 10k, mingxian - nmj/wwx, wangxian, series in progress)

Summary:  Wei Wuxian has two soulmarks. He has two soulmates that seem to be the opposite of him. During his first life he meets both of them, loves only one and longs for the other. In his second life, the one he loved first is dead, and the one he pined after is pining after him.

These are the many tales of his soulmates and the raucous they made across the cultivation world.

Some are dark, some are light. Beware.

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I forgot to send this in for Mother's Day a few weeks ago, but have you read dragongirlG's "into the light of a dark black night"? It's a short canon divergence where Mama Lan escapes the Cloud Recesses after spending one last, heartbreaking night with her sons. It's so beautiful and bittersweet! [Oh, ouch.  I just read this author’s time travelling juniors au, but hadn’t seen this one.]

into the light of a dark black night

by dragongirlG (T, 3k, Madam Lan & sons)

Summary:  The night that Wu Yuhua, formerly known as Madam Lan, plans to escape from the Cloud Recesses, she runs into an unexpected complication.

That complication comes in the form of her younger son A-Zhan running up to her door and kneeling in front of it, hushed whimpers escaping from his throat.

Wu Yuhua knows it's not the full moon, knows that it's not the one day a month she's allowed to see her children—but like hell is she going to leave her six-year-old son out there trying to stifle sobs in the snow.

She opens the door. "A-Zhan," she says, bending down and reaching out a hand. "Come in, my sweet boy."

On a snowy night in the dead of winter, Wu Yuhua, formerly known as Madam Lan, unexpectedly spends one last night with her sons before escaping from the Cloud Recesses.

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Hello queen I’d like to recommend for ur follower rec posts Avatar: The Untamed Waterbender by KouriArashi. Banger of an ATLA au, def the best one I’ve seen. It’s a WIP but the author updates pretty regularly and it’s all around an A+ fic [Oh, yes, I’ve been waiting for this one to finish before I jump in.]

Avatar: The Untamed Waterbender

by KouriArashi (T, 123k, wangxian, WIP)

Summary:  You know the drill. Long ago, the four nations lived in harmony. Then, everything changed when the Fire Nation attacked.

100 years later, Jiang Cheng and Jiang Yanli find Wei Wuxian sealed in an iceberg.

Featuring: avatar WWX, waterbending JC, firebending Wens, airbending Lans, earthbending Nies and Jins, Jiang Yanli in possession of the brain cell, et cetera.

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[My ko-fi.]

#follower rec #wangxian fic rec #I HAVEN'T READ THESE YET #wangxian #mdzs #follower recs

[thekristen999]

2021 fic year in review

🌟tagged by @homerforsure, @renecdote and @mellaithwen. Thank you so much, I have truly enjoyed out little circle of friendship throughout the year. Also big hugs to @tulipintulle, you are just an amazing gift :)

total number of completed works: 10 fics (1 meta post)

total word count: 91,600

fandom’s i’ve written in: 9-1-1

looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you expected?

I had no idea I was going to get swept into 9-1-1 as much as I did. It's a bigger fandom and I felt like a little fish in a large sea, but slowly I feel like I’ve found my little niche. I’m happy that I’ve written a mix of one shots and longer stories. So, I guess, I wrote more than I expected?

what’s your own favourite story this year?

Trying Hard to Remember, Trying Hard To Forget

I’m really proud of that story how it ended up. Buck and Eddie had a shared trauma but their recovery took different paths. Trauma is messy and some people have no memory of their experience and some have it burned into their souls. How do they both reach a point of healing? I also really wanted to get into the nitty gritty of physical recovery, because no, Eddie wasn’t just ‘shot in the shoulder.’

also

Crash Into You

Sometimes you just need a short and sweet, old fashioned hurt comfort fic with a dose of competence.

did you taking writing risks this year?

The World Is On Fire And No One Can Save Me But You

Not so much as a risk but more like a really difficult story to write from a logistics and emotional view point? It’s about handling a call in the middle of a riot. I wanted to keep the tension at the highest level while having Eddie and Buck navigate being first responders during a very chaotic situation.

do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the new year?

Oi. I wanted to write some Eddie backstory at some point. I have an idea but nothing full grown yet.

The Sci-Fusion of Doom fic during hiatus. Think non-stop action, tension and all the h/c in the world as the team fights for their lives. Sound fun?

Maybe some M rated content for once? Lol.

most popular story of the year?

Are You With Me?

This was my most popular by kudos, comments, and bookmarks.

My post Eddie Begins trauma recovery fic while Buck and Eddie navigate their new relationship. It’s a whole journey toward healing with bumps in the road and trial and error.

story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion

Buddha's Arrow (I guess? just based on stats)

Buck helping Eddie learn how to cope with chronic pain. You don’t get shot four times (over the years) and not have issues. I think Buck knows a bit about dealing with chronic pain and helps Eddie navigate that road. It was my least kudo/ed commented fic, but it could just touch too close for home for some readers.

most fun story to write

Alone In The Dark With You

I had so much fun trapping Buck and Eddie in a cave-in. :)

most unintentionally telling story

Are You With Me?

I don’t shy away from mental health issues and try to include techniques I’ve learned from my own continuing journey.

biggest disappointment

I don’t think I have any. I’ll take the opportunity to say that I’m always eager to see reader reactions, it does so much for the author. Support your content creators if you can! Help fuel the Muse for future work.

biggest surprise

Alone In The Dark With You

I guess I should not be surprised but I am delighted at the response to this fic. Then again, it IS Buck and Eddie trying to survive being trapped underground so I get the appeal :)

my favourite part of fandom this year

Fandom brings me joy. I’m so happy to have people to interact with to share ideas, get excited with, read and enjoy art. Let’s keep encouraging and supporting one another. Life is tough. Fandom and fandom creativity can provide moments and hours of joy.

#2021 fanfic #buddie fic #kristen999writes #my year in review

[loftec]

I'm assuming/hoping that my ask is one in an avalanche of messages in response to your post on writing and NTW. Honestly? It broke my heart a little because it sounds like you're not having fun with it - like the pressure you're putting on yourself to put out THE One True Perfect Version of the story for your readers. I love the story - and I want you to love it. Don't let pressure (external OR internal) ruin the joy of creating this world. Put out something less than perfect if you just want to be done with it. Take ten years for 500 words if it pleases you to find just the right words in just the right order. Take a hiatus - even a permanent one! - if you need to. Yes, readers will be sad. I'll be sad. But I'll go back and re-re-re-read the lovely story that you've already shared - and I'll be happy knowing that you walked away before you let it ruin writing/the story in your head/THE FUN. Because this isn't a job. You don't owe anyone anything. You're incredibly talented, so you naturally have people who are going to want everything you're willing to share with us. But you are SHARING with us. We're lucky to have what you've created this far, but everything you've shared is so far is a gift - and so is everything you may choose to share moving forward. NONE of it's a given.

There will always be some internet critic who feels free to tell you what they think they're entitled to as a reader, and you should feel free to delete those asks or share them with the community so we can have fun roasting them. But don't write for that person. Write for you. No matter what happens with the work from here, we ALREADY have this incredible story that is somehow sweet AND true to character AND just an utter joy to read.

Hello friend, first; you're always so kind and generous and supportive and I appreciate it more than you'll ever know.

I think you're right, I'm not having a very fun time with it right now. And I always said I wouldn't write unless it was fun. Suppose I'm just a bit scared every time this happens that it won't come back on its own. It was a very specific thing I got caught up on yesterday and I usually love a nice problem to solve, but I just felt a bit lost thinking about it. Like I didn't know the world or the characters or the tone anymore. Not fun! Definitely sure it's just temporary though, as in like, this week* temporary. I hope, so I can use the rest of my vacation not moping and actually writing like I've been looking forward to for ages whooop (not at all putting pressure on my poor vacation lol)

*Because (and this is tmi if you want to skip this) of course my period started today which means that yesterday's general ~paranoia vibe~ was part of the monthly package deal. It's a relatively new thing, so I'm not too good at recognising it when it happens. The paranoia is a new thing, not the pain and gore.

#I tried to wait a little before answering this #so I could be a bit less morose #but hello day 2: if people are nice to loftec -> loftec will cry #❤️

[deuce-duce]

Am I...?? (Inwardly GASPS)!! Which Part...??

Today is March 2nd 2021 and I got my puter back and went to look at what I had last written on December 16th 2020. When I opened the file, it had been changed… dates had been obscured and certain things had been reworded… So… I have decided to go back through all of my previous posts to ensure the integrity of what I am writing stays that way! During this process I will be putting together a collection of my favorite quotes and post fragments. Which I will dub Rock and Roll’s Greatest Hits, if you live near me go buy airhorns Ill tell you why, When the greatest hits album comes out. What your about to read is primarily from Dec. 16th with a few changes or should I say… restorations?? Probably a little of both to be honest. Everything is still as it happened, I just add better descriptive words and fine tune the analogies so that they are easier to digest… My English teacher always told me that was what I was good at! Along with many others… who have said the same… not only do I understand it… I’m able to explain it in a way that others understand as well. ENJOY

On the seventh of December I woke up not too sure if something had occurred that night or not… as I have mentioned before they use a numbing agent that basically masks the pain until it wears off approximately 12 hours later… When I a woke on this day I was having moments of clarity and for some reason just couldn’t keep them to myself. talking to one of the staff members of the homeless shelter I expressed my destiny that I actually had one, that was going to bring me to greatness… then out of nowhere I just blurted out there is going to be a power shift!!!! And at that very moment I couldn’t believe what it was that had just come out of my mouth. I didn’t even believe it at first because the guy at the desk was like IDK… about… that… but when I went back into my room, the look on my roommate’s face said it all!! It seems as though those who pull strings and orchestrate a lot of this… put all of their eggs into one basket. I don’t know exactly what the terms of thee bet were but I’m assuming it had/has something to do with me not being able to control my compulsivity associated with my dissociation. Unfortunately for them I made a deal with God. It was while I was on quarantine and even though I was in a basement all by myself people kept F$%^&*!> with me. This is when I prayed stating that I would not falter, for my body his temple his craft and his glory. that I need to take care of myself and my destiny, for it is in his hands and I won’t let my selfishness or imperfections stop him from fulfilling his plan. Over and over again I have cried and cried about how fundamental and powerful this is all going to be. EFFIN CRAZY!! And now that I know without anyone telling me and it literally being given to me somehow is what is freaking everybody out. How do I know or how the hell did I figure it out!! I really couldn’t tell you and the only thing that is possible is that our Creator endowed me with such responsibility. Crazy!! (this was before I considered the probability of God being a woman, A mother, A Lover)

Low and behold one of my favorite artists Mr. Kid, Maniac, Rager, Wizard, Pursuer of Happiness Cudi dropped a new album entitled Man on the MOON Three. Ill have to say it’s a wonderfully made album! The album delves deep into who Scott is… I know the Fans are going to love it.

Rewind a little bit sorry for my hiatus just needed to stay focused and well as your aware have been led here not by accident and had some things that I needed to take care of before I started writing again. Not to mention I have been dealing with a lot only to know that I am who I am for a reason Rockstar Knights off MOTM3 has a lot to say concerning who I am and what I have realized as a result to my struggle. The Song is a collab with Trippie Redd and really encapsulates so much, that its hard to describe in words.

I had a very interesting conversation with my mother the other day and came to a pretty profound thought. 1st I was telling her how I was being told that I am too….!!! Smart!! Like WTF!! REALLY!! Is that even a thing?? But I didn’t let it get to me too much as it probably is the reason I face so much adversity, No matter the community I enter into. This is how I have explained it to her and a couple other people in the community as well as the Rasta Man in the PNW. The best analogy I could present is if a plant with a fire burning so big and so hot on one side of the plant, a fire so big and hot that it probably would kill most other plants, but not this plant. This plant had sooooo much drive and will to live that instead of giving up it grew in the opposite direction of the blaze. While the roots could withstand the blazing inferno becoming one with the heat and pain Upon the journey away from the fire (society) the plant developed different characteristics colors and attributes that no other plant had. Essentially that journey completely changed that plants physiology Psychology and possible its genetic makeup altogether. Now that the plant has grown so far from the fire (Society) that its all alone. Now theres a different kind of fire where he once thought was safe. But as he grows back towards the fire to escape the new blaze (tyranny) he realizes he will never be able to be the same as the fire he grew so far away from. Now the only option the plant has with death being imminent is to grow as big and bright as quickly as possible before it is engulfed on all sides.

All this taken into account along with factoring in the two major belief structures in the world one Being Creation or Evolution (The Big BANG) this plant which has defied all odds still shines brightly displaying its colors and unique characteristics no matter how dark the room may be it still continues to bloom! Is this a Divine will and plan or are we experiencing the next step of Evolution??? My honest opinion is its both! For the mere ability to adapt and change and prevail in situations others couldn’t dream of or even have nightmares about is truly remarkable and in my eyes is an act of GOD! Just as any evolutionary step would be. The crazier part is… he has no handle!! Nothing to grab on to leaving no way for anyone to grab hold and control! AYE….

I thought this all might just be me being stubborn or simply an idiot until for some reason I opened up my meme App. Something I never open or even look at and the first thing that popped up was a picture and quote saying that many told Marilyn Monroe that she was only beautiful because of the clothes and dresses she wore. It then concluded Marilyn Monroe did a photoshoot in nothing but a burlap potato sack. The photos and the message she sent were completely opposite of that which was being said by spectators. Now!! As scrolled to the second meme I was expecting something funny!! That wasn’t the case what I saw next was the upcoming alignment of the two largest planets in the solar system Jupiter and Saturn. Not only does their alignment happen only every 20 years but the proximity of this occurrence to the earth as well as the proximity to each other hasn’t been the same for close to 800 years… What does it all mean… IDK but The Christmas Star is what their calling the alignment and if your familiar with the bible is the star that the kings, from other lands followed  to bring gifts to baby JESUS! Who knows what this alignment could usher in.?

So profound thought comes to me on a daily basis now it’s so strange the way that it comes it will just be momentary thoughts that will pass through my conscience and as they go by I latch on to it delve a little deeper and experience an overwhelming amount of… IDK what to call it but it feels very powerful so much so that it brings me to tears… I don’t know exactly what the future holds but I think that is what makes this so great! I just keep my mind open Like apple IOS Systems letting everything come and go as it pleases when something goes by that strikes me, I latch on and don’t let go. Its weird how it all happens.

Steve Jobs once said that if he had never had an acid trip that he would have never of come up with the operating system for Apple and after explaining to you what I do as a spiritual and destiny seeking process I believe was his thought process as well. This in of itself is what I think they mean when they say to keep an open mind. Just so you know I didn’t come up with that little bit about the late Mr. Jobs by plan it just came to me when thinking about how to have, use and keep an open mind.

The reason I explained this to you was because this is how I Pray! After I pray I sit still with an open mind allowing multiple ideas thoughts and perspectives to pass through my brain… until like an IOS operating system, something speaks to me… when I latch on to it, focus on what it means and what it will mean… “I Get Those Goosebumps Everytime” (Goosebumps, Travis Scott, feat. Kendrick Lamar, Birds in the Trap Sing Mcknight, 2016). This is how you know! A little extra for ya, when I went to look up the info for my first Hip Hop citation it was 11:11 lol there they go again… its really a cool feeling!

Can someone tell me if that APA or MLA…?? Ya know what!! Eff IT!! None of my writing is orthodox, besides I kinda like the way I did it haha

Kid Cudi’s new video just dropped and I couldn’t be more amazed with all of the hidden messages that are in there. He is officially the man on the moon. Passion pain and demon slaying like a maniac on the pursuit of happiness. Love that DUDE!!

That’s all I got for 12-16-2020 Five More Days…

LOVE & PEACE

Songs

Heaven On Earth – Kid Cudi

Goosebumps – Travis Scott, feat. Kendrick Lamar

Dirty Heads – Sound Of Change

 Just so you know the only thing I added this time other the cleaning up what I had already written was the praying part. Although I originally remember that being the purpose as to why I wrote what I did looking at it today March 2nd 2021 it wasn’t there… have a great day everyone. Ill post this on 3/3/2021

I've added parts to the story on my business cards and will leave then random places, what you do with them is up to you but I think It would be cool for those who want to stop me to have to work extra hard just like they make me!!  

LOVE

[spyoikawa]

Hello, i saw ur flower shop and i loved it. But im stuck between tulips and roses. So you Can choose😛

Pls whit a boy form Haikyuu😘

Personality

Im a capricorn, ISTP, crafty and a daredevil. I will do anything people say i cant do. "You cant slide down that" watch me do it. High pain toloranse, a lot. I am all over the place, but the thing is that i am Introverted. Lol, cringe combo of being outgoing and intro at the same time. Im street smart, layback, chill but with spice. Im rly random, i can switch up easy. I love to outsmart Ppl in games and sports. I may sound energetic, but Im not, i just click with those Who has the same vibe.

Im 5’8, girl, straight dark blond hair to my shoulders, blue eyes. Lean and atchletic bulid.

Hobbies

I train a lot in the gym, hates running, i wresel my friends and family, i do sport shooting and sleep a lot. I love card and board games, horror movies and to pull pranks.

I saw someone specify the crush or sum like that so imam do the same((:

-Taller than me, into sports or is atchletic

-Will put up with my pranks, play fighting and my attitude.

-not someone whos over the top, but right in the middle.

Take your time, no stress. Im in highschool too so i Can feel ur stress and pain. Thank you😘

*inhales* IM ALIVE AND BACK WITH MY FLOWER SHOP

@sussebassen thank you for your request! I never require types, but it definitely helps a lot! And I totally get being introverted yet out going at the same time lol

Rion's Flowershop: Tulips

(Maybe a hint of roses if you squint)

This will be a fun request seeing that I match you with the one and only,

Tanaka Ryuunosuke

Relationship Dynamic

- Alright, first things first, he will be your number 1 hypeman, he absolutely supports you in anything so long as you don’t get hurt and it’s not too stupid or reckless

- But take a step back, I feel like people's first impression of tanaka is that he is extremely energetic, a complete simp and is overly chaotic. And while that may be true at times, let’s not forget how great of a dude he is

- Drinks respect women juice, is a great teacher, hes supportive, and always tries to see the best in people. Thats why he’s a great senpai

- Knowing all this, he would be one of the best boyfriends for you. He would laugh and help you with all your pranks, and also understands your introverted so he can back off and give you a silent day if you need it

- He can also match all your energies and vibes too, if you wanna do something more chill like watch a movie or play games all day, he’ll bring blankets and snacks. If you want to go to the gym and mess around a bit, he will hype you up and cheer you on, while also giving you friendly competition

- And while he can be over the top at times to intimidate others, he’ll dial it back real quickly if he notices he’s bothering you or his other friends

What do you guys do together/What’s it like with them

- Like I said in the last section, he’s just here to vibe with you!

- He will take you on many amazing dates, and bring you little gifts and be romantic as possible. But if you’re not into that, he gets that! Just staying indoors and talking or taking strolls together are ok with him too

- He just feels so lucky to even have time with you, so he will savor anything he moment he gets

- Should he get the chance to take you on a date however, he will do something active and moving!

- I’m not saying he will drag you to the gym or do a marathon, but he will take you to parks and fairs so you can see all the attractions, or go to the city with cameras to sight see and take silly photos all day, or maybe a beach picnic so you can play with the water or sand later

- He just wants to make sure you are happy and having fun!

What they like about you

- Literally everything, but go off

- Seriously though, he adores all of you. Your attitude and creativity, your chillness and vibes, your appearance (but its whats on the inside that matters most to him, this is just a bonus :D), your relationships with your family and friends, etc

- Just everything about you seems so welcoming to him

- He also appreciates having someone who has a similar energy to him and can back him up. Just like how he always backs you up, you’ve always got him too, and he really loves that

Beanie tanaka supremacy

This was really fun to write, thank you! I honestly was feeling horrible and thought I would need to extend my hiatus, but I felt better after writing this! I hope you like your request and if you dont, let me know and we'll see what we can do!

And once again, its late and I'm tired so let me know if I absolutely fucked up the format, grammar or spelling, cause I want my writing to be good!

This was a part of my forever ongoing event, so if you liked it, go check it out and send in a request!

#tanaka #tanaka ryuunosuke #tanaka x reader #tanaka x y/n #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu x y/n #tanaka headcanons #tanaka hcs #haikyuu headcanons #oririon flowershop event

[xxbacktoearthxx]

it was just a cosmic joke

funny thing we started as strangers and might ended up as strangers again. so much progress in a year full of drama.

december 2019, nothing special.... yet.

april 2020, made a squad with the og — learned all your names, played every 9 pm until 2 am max and bruh i remember we’re just using the mic to communicate and then there’s me... i don’t do mics... all i did was listen to them and carry the team lol. if my memory serves me right, i am a pro selena user way back then haha.

may 2020 the month it all actually started.. added all of you in facebook, twitter and ig. until the squad had a dilemma and the sad part is that it didn’t last long. and then there’s you... and me... left.. you even invited me to play another game. while waiting for them to play with us we played that game.. and it’s just the two of us. me, being an introvert who prefers texting over calling suddenly it just got reversed when you said “call ako” old me would prolly decline to that invitation. but instead i just answered it and enjoy actually the game... and it became a routine for me. for us.. then we had our first tampuhan.. i don’t know how to react to that and thank God i learned how to handle your mood swings with the time being. we played every night. you called every night and i answered it without even hesitating. lol, i can still remember where i would answer that, with my fan turned on because of my set up haha you always say “fan mo” because you hate those noises... you can’t function well. and then you introduced your doggos to me. it was a pain in the ass memorizing your doggos ‘cause damn, they’re so many!!! you always send me vids and pics of your precious babies and got mesmerized by Lighting. my og fave never ever forget. until your mood swings and your unpredictable inis sa’kin became a hobby of yours. somewhere along june to july i’ve managed to memorized your doggos and ended up hopee being my fave, because hopee’s the miracle baby and prolly the cutest hehe. you started sending me links of songs which became my song choices right now, i hate edm. i hate modern musics you know that, but the weird thing is that you managed for me to like it.

august 2020, your birth month.. and my birth month. ‘twas nice to know you for quite some time even though you’re still guarded with me. august 8, mia. hibernate daw my cousin told me. and bago sa’kin ‘yun lol, didn’t wanna celebrate your existence because ganun din ako but ‘di sanay sa “hibernate” term haha. i greeted you at exactly 12 midnight and 11:59 pm with no response from you. my efforts in your birthday lol, i even made you a memoji photoshopped picture but i didn’t send it. it was supposedly an interactive greeting but you hibernated. you’re back from the dead at aug 10. then aug 16... my birthday. sinalubong birthday with your voice.. 22 by TS was the only song i listened that day. we played and you even gave me a chance to ask whatever i want for my birthday gift. since i don’t want material things... my request was for you not to hibernate for the whole year. in other words I ASKED FOR YOU. your time, your presence, you... and you agreed basta ‘wag lang ako magpuyat 2 am max. OUR VERY FIRST DEAL.

made new friends at september. you made a squad... paradox. and our og squad ult. with random people who started to become close to us. i remember the first ones. carl, clarke, christian, kulit hahaha. good times. we actually careered rank games over classic ones. october came still the squad is functioning. our group chat’s getting bigger.... and noisier lol. still our routine is there.. we call. we play.. you send vids and pics of your doggos. we share kwentos.. share music..

november 2020... was the month you legitimately gifted me. an account with agent z and so many more skins. you said that it’s my christmas gift. you gave that to me on november 11. 11-11. your favorite. I FELT SPECIAL. gumastos ka ng malaki for me... the effort of finding that acc. amaru was the original ign. spent months thinking for the perfect ign. said i love you for the first time to her. because i do.. and i appreciated the gift so much. i forgot she’s always reminding me not to be attached to her... i think it’s a little too late for that.

december 2020.. i’m running out of time. 31 days and i’ll be out of her life. - from the way she described it.. cut off and goodbye. so, spent the last 31 days with her laro lang ng laro. december 23, i made an effort. ngapa ngapa sa photoshop.. i turned hopee, lighting and cloud into a vector art 😅. and gave that’s my christmas gift to her. first ever christmas with chef. she even send me a pic of her for the first time. december 31. my supposedly last day with her.... turned out a little bit unexpected.

january 2021 naglalaro pa din tayo. you can’t seem to let me go. february, we took a break from each other. ‘di mo ako pinansin. i’m still living but i just exist lol. 20% functioning that time because of questions na hindi masagot sagot. hiatus for a month i cant believed i survived that.

march 1 at 12:05 you messaged me “buhay kapa?” and we started talking again. and we played again like we used to. shared stories. this was the time where i got so obsessed with edm and lahat ng gusto ko naipon na dapat ssend ko saiyo. kaya tinadtad kita lol. spotify was my bestfriend here lol. premium eh hahaha. missed your doggos. daily dose ko ng doggo nabalik din hehe. nauungkat nanaman ‘yung sa cut off. let go. good bye thingy.

april. my last month. the fallout month. you sacrificed your time for me. we stayed late so bad we even woke up at the same time which is so weird lol. 10 pm up to 5 or 6 am gaming. talagang sinusulit ang oras na magkasama. you even said you left your 5 man for me. april 18. you made your decision to cut me off. and it broke my heart. cried so hard. can’t even talk to you so straight because of that. 10 mins after you called me again to say that i can still talk to you.. you still can’t seem to let me go ha.

we still talk at night but not that much and then you suddenly stopped. and nasaktan ulit ako kaya i had the urge to real talk you. and you suggested a call na naging routine natin na ulit. night calls with you. until hindi nagiging healthy because of my toxic mindset and your indecisiveness and cold hearted personality. until april 30.. you really cut me off. cried 3 times narinig mo lahat...

I THINK this is it

[lizacstuff]

Hi there, hope you had a good Christmas. I absolutely loved 24, so many Eda and Serkan scenes.....however I am also confused by it. When Eda said she was going to speak to Grandma at the beginning Serkan reassured her he was nearby and then said he was going home.....dude that is not nearby! When she came to his place and she told his maybe she should go away, he was so gutted that it was so easy for her to walk away from him, I don't know if I am reading too much into this, but he was so sad.

Hello! Yes I had a lovely holiday, I hope you had a great one as well. Sorry it took me awhile to answer this, I wanted to pull my episode thoughts (now posted) together before I read other people’s thoughts. That scene was definitely altered. I talked a little bit about it here.  You’re right that he says he’ll be nearby while she’s confronting Babaane and then clearly they added a line about him going home in post production. That is a huge disconnect right there. Kerem was not on camera, and the audio was obviously recorded as voice over later, not when they shot. This episode underwent some serious last minute surgery.  So bizarre. I would love to know the backstage gossip on this one, because this level of alteration on an episode at such a late stage seems like an extreme action to take. 

jan31 said: Why would he go home in the middle of the day to shave? He's not that type of guy, yes he has changed but he still values his company and a new partner just arrived. While people raved over the shaving scene, again it seemed muted, normally Serkan would be making all kinds of comments and gestures with Eda being close by, but he seemed sad in a way, even though they agreed to be together against Grandma.

I agree with all of this, and talked about it a bit in my full comments that I just posted. The mood in that entire seen was off for me, and I don’t know how to explain it other than the whatever they did to hack this episode apart and put it back together caused inconsistencies. 

(more parts to the ask under the cut)

jan31 said: I love how he noted the change from robot to man with a heart full of love for Eda So many scenes of leaving and staying and fighting that I am in turmoil, I fear Eda will leave or break up with Serkan to protect him after the arrest situation as she realises what her gran can do. On the other hand wouldn't it be lovely to see them fake the break up, tell no one and fool everyone. Now that would be good viewing and some comedy no doubt, which is what we are here for.

I am banking on a fake break up or rather hidden relationship story and I think it will happen no matter what, but we might get Eda sacrificing herself to save him first. We shall see. 

jan31 said: I fear it will be the first option though, even if it isn't in her character to run. She deeply loves Serkan and will do anything to protect him. Hopefully she remembers her father took a brave stand against her and married for love. When Eda went to Serkans and stayed the night it was another strange atmosphere, particularly when she was saying goodnight, he barely acknowledged her. I am not sure if it's make up or lighting but Kerem looked very pale and worn out in this scene.

Honestly, I think Kerem is worn out. He looks tired in much of the BTS I’ve seen lately. This show has kept a crazy schedule for 6-7 straight months. WITHOUT A BREAK. And now Fox has cancelled the winter hiatus, so there is no break at all. The cast/crew are only getting a few days because of the Covid restrictions over New Years in Turkey. On top of his nonstop schedule on SCK, Kerem has done the Hello photoshoot and interview, another cover shoot that was released today, plus he’s been shooting an entire other show on his days off. Aynen Aynen, which is just crazy to me. I hope he gets some rest soon.

As for that scene, agreed. I don’t think Serkan’s mood had anything to do with Kerem being tired, but it was another inconsistency in an episode full of them. In another ask I said:

I suppose the best I can guess is that Serkan knew Eda was confused, he knew he had convinced her to stay under the guise it would be platonic and the "last time." He's always been a gentleman with her. So perhaps he felt compelled, for her sake, to keep it in that place, but seeing her in the bath sent him into overdrive and the only thing he could do is throw himself into work to make sure the situation didn't go any further before she was fully ready?  

However, if that was really what they were going for, they needed to give us a few more clues to how he was feeling. As presented, it was all just so weird. He’s been chasing Eda for weeks and finally she’s in his house, in PJs, about to sleep in his bed, being sweet and flirty with him and he doesn’t even look at her?? WHAT?  Maybe we were also supposed to think that Bulca’s gift sitting there had him so embarrassed and freaked out and that’s why he was being subdued? Idk. Maybe he was afraid of some ‘I told you so’ from Eda? Or a combo of all of it?

jan31 said: Why the hell did he go to Bulges house and what was the purpose of her wrecking the place and I assume having him arrested in conjunction with Grandma. He should of called the police himself 🙄 Did she go to the party with him or to his house? Did she think he would stay with her ?🤣 The bracelet he bought her was amazing and what a lovely scene. But please can they stop showing us the final scene in the fragman Sorry for such a long post, but this episode confused me in good and bad ways

Hmmm, interesting, but I doubt he’ll be arrested for wrecking Bulca’s house. Why would Bulca do that when she wants a relationship with him? Lying about that and pressing fake charges would ensure she would never, ever get near him again. Grandma might want that, but I don’t think Bulca would agree because it doesn’t serve her end goal. Besides that would be too easily cleared up. There’d be the record of her calling him, plus any security footage, plus his reputation and his lack of motive. 

However, I agree that he should never have gone to her house and if he did he should have called the police first. Hopefully, this is the end of him doing dumbass things while trying to be a good, kind person. Give me episode 1 Serkan back when it comes to Bulca, please. She needs to be put in her place. 

jan31 said: The prince arrives next week, I wonder if Serkan knows the plan or grandma tells him he is a client. PLEASE Eda, tell him the plan Should be very interesting and as he is just a guest star won't be around long, pity as he is easy on the eye!! Fifi's interaction with grandma's bodyguard....oooh I am here for more

Oh I forgot about Fifi’s interaction with grandma’s bodyguard. That was interesting. We’ll have to see how that develops. It might be a fun romance, AND useful to Team Edser down the line if Fifi has a way in there. 

The prince is handsome, but not handsome enough to temp me (or Eda) away from Serkan. LOL. I don’t know what guest star means in Turkey. In the US, a guest star might be in one episode or 2/3rds of the season. In Turkey, does it mean just a certain number of episodes?

Anyway thanks for your comments. I really hope the writing situation gets under control. I’m not someone who complains about the writing every time something happens I don’t like. In this case the writing legit has some base level technical problems that need fixing, and I hope the new team is capable of doing it. 

#sckask #sck 1x24 #sck episode discussion #asklizac #jan31

[primrose-path-of-dalliance]

here’s my ao3 year of 2020 in review, courtesy of @stellarfoam tagging me!

top fandom: critical role! i finally got into the series with campaign 2 in the beginning of this year, and all my published fics this year have been in this fandom.

date of first 2020 fic posted: march 11, which was my jester & caleb centric fic torn seams.

top multi-chaptered fic: liminal spaces, focused on the widojest ship and my only multi-chaptered fic of this year. does it count if it’s a collection of prompt responses rather than a longfic proper? lol.

top oneshot: torn seams again if we’re counting by hits/kudos, liminal spaces if we’re counting by total comment threads.

fic you’re most proud of: a tie between Ephemera, a 2nd person pov widojest fic, and the prompt response for dancing in liminal spaces. there are different aspects across multiple fics i feel proud of this year, but i’m going with these two for the characterization work i did in them. jester is my fave and that really comes out in these two fics.

fic you wish got more attention: Dark Mirrors, a pre-e110 release fic featuring jester and astrid having a private conversation during the dinner at ikithon’s home. it’s definitely on the lower end of the attention spectrum for my fics and i’m not surprised because it’s (unfairly) niche. but i am very proud of this fic for how much i got right of astrid’s then-upcoming characterization and jester’s dynamic with her!

fic that challenged you the most: Step Forward, a pre-e100 release fjorclay fic written during the big show hiatus. it was lowkey a gift for @angelsnhufflepuffs, who is a big fjorclay shipper, and the challenging parts about it were that (1) i was still trying to get a handle on fjord’s voice at the time, and (2) i factually have never and cannot drink alcohol without some bad med interactions lol. but the easy part was the implied aroace-spec caduceus :)

favorite quote/passage: let’s go with this bit from Dark Mirrors:

Astrid comes to a stop a couple paces in front of her, looking all handsome in her dark suit and sleek, short haircut.

Caleb gave her a look when they first arrived, and the forlorn longing in it made her teeth grind. That she returned a similar expression for the briefest second, until she wiped it clean with a polite nod as Trent Ikithon appeared from behind her... The grinding intensified.

Now, Jester smiles at Astrid and does her best to make it just a shade too sharp. "Hi there."

"Miss Lavorre," Astrid replies, unfazed and ugh, no wonder Caleb loves her. This entire night she's been nothing but graceful, despite the sly glint in her eyes so familiar that Jester thought she'd break the oops-stone in her pocket from gripping it so hard. Astrid could probably talk circles around her dad.

In her irritation, Jester almost misses the rest of what she says. "I am sorry for the intrusion, but for your benefit, you should not wander too much."

"Mr. Ikithon sent you to make sure I don't see anything bad?" she asks nastily.

"I took it upon myself."

"Gee, thanks."

Astrid smiles then, crooked so it's as piercing as glass at one corner, and Jester almost has whiplash from how violently it reminds her of Caleb. "Bren will be fine, you know. He's dealt with far worse."

Trent Icky-thong's insidious little smirk resurfaces in her mind—along with his words, not five minutes ago—

The bile in her throat burns. "Caleb."

Astrid's gaze seems to settle in order to eye her, and Jester raises her chin a fraction.

it’s my favorite because i love more raw, complicated dynamics like jester & astrid—and because when i first wrote this, i immediately realized that jester was super into astrid but too angry to notice it. bless her.

total words posted: 36,009 words! which stunned me a little bit when i actually saw the full number tbh. low productivity and motivation have always been issues for me, so i’m very happy about the progress i’ve made this year that’s being reflected in this word count :)

if any fanfic-authoring followers of mine want to do this and have a nice reflection on their fic this year, go for it <3

#prim post #prim writes

[sansy-fresh]

halp

It’s time for the Semi-Annual “Fresh is Never Leaving This Fandom!” fic idea tour! In which under the cut I’m going to talk about fics I’m currently working on and how much longer I expect them to be, as well as long fics I have ideas for and how lengthy I expect them to be in the long run. There’s gonna be probably spoilers so look away if you don’t wanna see them! Also this is really long so be prepared for that.

I’m also going to be discussing some of the mini series that people have funded recently, so there’s that lol

Anyways, ranting and rambling under the cut!! This is more or less a way to keep excited about some of my ideas and get some of you hyped as well ^^ (And also a way to assure anyone wondering “hey, fresh has been here for a while, are they ever leaving?” that the answer is no, apparently not)

Current Fics

Okay so I have around 5 long fics, 1 series, and 1 mini series I’m currently working on. They are as follows:

A Silver Chain: A fic about vampire Honey and polyruses with the other Paps being hunters. Is well on its way but needs re-done in a few places so its currently on hiatus.

Little Fangs: A fic about Dadby and older bro Papyrus with babybones and Badster. Is not even close to halfway done, depending on how far I end up going with the narrative. Might end up being one of the longest fics I write.

Moral Compass: A fic about assumed bad brothers and possible Blackcherry goodness. Is basically 3/4ths done at this point, isn’t meant to be a super long one. Was pretty much completely funded by @1readervb so shout out to them for being a super cool peep.

Hold Myself Together: A fic about Bad Bro Red and how Fell gets a better life. Just started, but based on how long the first iteration of this story was, I’d say this one will be a little longer than C&S ended up being. 

Garish: A fic about a Reader who ends up with the Swell bros as roommates. Might end up being both Reader/Swell bros and Reader/Fell bros, but I haven’t decided. Just started, might be a long one.

Bitter White Memory: A series about how Fell and Stretch get together based on an attempt to keep the Edgelord feeling safe. Only has two parts so far so nowhere near done. I’ve just been too busy to write the next part lol whoopsies

Cherries in Snow: A funded mini series about abused Red falling into Undertale, with Kustard and a little tiny helping of Cherryblossom. One chapter so far, but there should only be about five so it won’t take super long.

There’s also two more mini series that have been funded, but one I only have part of the info on and the other I have no info on, so they haven’t been started yet. (One of them is about Omega Paps in a A/B/O world so that’ll be fun ;;;))

Fics I want to Continue/Rewrite

This is a list I didn’t know I was adding until I was in the middle of making this post. There are a few fics I’ve started and then pretty much abandoned, or that I left behind because I no longer wanted to write them. They are:

The Reset Conundrum: A fic that I wrote a long time ago and never finished about Papyrus and Sans going through the Resets and various endings together, with a happy ending of course. It was a popular one, but I never finished it because I got bored with the idea. I was thinking about it recently and kind of wanted to revisit the idea. Its on this list because I might just do it.

The Ole Razzle Dazzle: A fic I started and then revamped as a fic about Razz and Slim and how they react to a pacifist Chara moving through the Underground. Kinda looking forward to this one, not going to lie.

Sparks and Wires: A fic that I started because of my love for the game D:BH and its androids. About Android Honey and his owner Fell, and how they fall in love. Basically self indulgent Spicyhoney lol

Long Fic Ideas

So just about once every other week I get a new fic idea, and if I like them enough (and can actually imagine myself writing them) I write them down in a doc. Now I’m going to talk about them all in as much detail as I have so ya’ll get comfy this is gonna be a long’n. (These are not up for adoption they are things I plan to write myself.)

The Great: A fic idea @badgertablet came up with and I helped round out. Ambassador Paps with a side of Polyruses and lots of angsty pining and hurt/comfort. Is going to be a longer fic, since there’s a lot of background stuff and quite a bit to set up. I’m really really looking forward to this one though, is going to be a gift for Badg (but shoosh no one tell them).

Family Portrait: A fic idea for Middle Bro Gaster with Paps and Sans. Basically going from Sans’ birth to Gaster falling into the Core to the kid saving everyone and Sans pulling Gaster back out of the Void. Is going to be super long, so probably won’t get to this one for a while lol

Scattered Pieces: A fic idea for a character getting bitties that helps their life out. Lots of angst and hurt/comfort, as each bitty has its own backstory of woe. One I’ve had planned for a while but haven’t been able to sit down a write.

A Concerted Effort: A fic idea where Fell and Stretch have a one night stand and Fell ends up pregnant. The two of them don’t get along super well most of the time so its not like he can tell him, right?? Another old idea I just haven’t started yet lol.

Itty Bitty Teenie Weenie: A fic idea where a different character gets some specialty bitties, ones that need a bit more help than others. In the same universe as Scattered Pieces, probably going to be written after that one.

Segregation: A fic idea that @nurse-gaster came up with that I adopted. Bledgeup in a world where Fell monsters and Tale monsters live on different sides of the fence, a literal fence in this case. Going to be a gift for Nurse when I start writing it lol.

Recovery: A fic idea where a personal character of mine fosters special needs bitties and ends up with one for himself. Is part of a two fic series. 

Caramelized Apples: A fic idea where my Caramel version of Slim ends up pregnant. I haven’t decided how yet, but its hurt/comfort and fluff, so no hard angst here!

Edgy but Smiling: A fic idea where an anxious Reader ends up with a Sansy and an Edgy who just want a good home. 

You Got Me All Fired Up: A fic idea with Sans/Dante (my UF Grillby). I don’t know I just really like Sans and Fellby together and I want to write a slowburn.

Harried and Torn: A fic idea about Spicykustardpuff with lots of angst and hurt/comfort and maybe some fluff along the way. A slowburn because I’m a masochist.

Nice To Eat’cha: A fic idea based on the Asian side of the fandom’s art of Farmer Sans/HT Sans. Won’t be farmer Sans, but it will be a slowburn of Sans and Butch learning how to not judge each other for their own sins.

Seen in Glorious Splendor: A fic idea I had earlier today actually. King Fell, with possible Edgepuff or Polyruses, I haven’t decided yet. My own take on how Fell takes over as King of the Underground from Asgore.

There are a lot of iterations of Skelebros/Reader I want to write, so I’m just throwing a blanket over them called “Eventually”. Them being namely Swap Bros/Reader, Tale Bros/Reader, a reverse harem in my style, HT Bros/Reader, and something just Papyrus/Reader (which Papyrus you ask? all.)

And my Magnum Opus, Safe House, will be the last fic I write for this fandom. So when I start posting that, you’ll know we’re nearing the end.

#fresh babbles #fic plans #long fic ideas #oneshot ideas #series ideas #fresh rants #spoilers #idk a lot of rambling #if i forgot a fic idea then ill just die i guess

[quiet-onset]

Writing Interview

Tagged by: literal queen, @occasionalfics

Q: What is your coffee order?

An empty cup apparently; I don’t drink coffee lol. 

Q: What is the coolest thing you’ve ever done? 

This is super nerdy, but for two summers when I was like 9-10 years old, I went to a string instrument camp. I played the violin pretty well back then (I’m mediocre now, but can still play), so I got to go for free. It was kids aged from 9 to 18 years old in one big orchestra and smaller chamber groups. We stayed on a college campus and took music classes and had private lessons. At the end of my second year, I won the award for most improved or something and they gave me a free violin, so I didn’t have to borrow from my school anymore.

(Fun fact, my middle school violin instructor broke that violin on accident when she was trying to tune it, so she bought me another one with her own money, and that’s the one I have today!)

Q: Who has been your biggest mentor?

I really want to say my mom, but that’s so cliche lol. She’s not a writer or anything, but she really encourages me to do my best in any and everything I do. Literally, the other day, I playfully asked if she was going to come to see me when I play Eliza in Hamilton and she looked at me, completely serious, and said, “Obviously. Just say when.” I don’t think I’d call my mom a mentor though; I guess I don’t have one as of right now. Makes me want to read more.

Q: What has been your most memorable writing project?

It has to be either my Writing A Musical Series or Gaetir. Those two series are my babies; I had so much fun writing those and watching everyone’s reactions.

Q: What does your writing path look like, from the earliest days until now?

WHEW okay, don’t judge me. So I started in 5th grade. I was a teacher’s pet and “gifted” so when I finished my work early, my teacher would let me on the computer and I would write stories there. I don’t remember any of them, but I’m sure they were bad lol. Then, in middle school, I wrote One Direction fanfiction (yes I did, I loved those boys, sue me). I also took a creative writing and songwriting class. After that, I didn’t write for a while, then I discover the genius that is Lin-Manuel Miranda and Hamilton, and I wrote fanfic for that on this blog when I was hamilsquad-writings. (Notice how I didn’t post that masterlist? lol) Then I slowly transitioned from a Hamilton to a Marvel blog and here I am, writing Marvel fanfic. :)

(I’m also attempting to write a book; like I’ve got main characters and a premise, but I don’t know enough about writing yet to finish, which is okay.)

Q: What is your favorite part about writing?

That it’s all about growth. I acknowledge that my past writing was bad and cringy, and that’s okay. I don’t regret any of the fanfiction I’ve written (even if I say I do) because it’s all helped me grow as a writer. 

Q: What does a typical day look like for you? 

Well, I’m a sophomore in the honors program at my college, so I’m always doing schoolwork. It’s pretty much class, eat, homework, which is mostly reading and writing essays or summaries, write if it’s not too late, and repeat. Gotta keep my GPA up if I want to keep this full ride lol.

Q: What does your writing process look like?

Honestly, it’s a mess. Most of the time, I start with an idea of a plot or a premise. Then I try to think of the character that would best fit into that plot, and work the plot around that character. If it’s a series or a really long fic (like Blessing), I tend to write out of order a lot. It can make continuity a bit confusing, but I think I work best that way.

Q: What’s the best advice you’ve gotten?

Just write. The only way you’ll ever get better is by doing, even if it’s mediocre or not your best. Don’t force yourself to write, but if you feel the desire, just write. Don’t worry about the conventions of it, just go. The first draft always sucks, worry about everything else after you’ve done it.

Q: What’s the biggest lesson you’ve learned?

Probably that it’s okay to stop. I always feel so sad when I see mutuals apologizing for taking a hiatus. Even when I kinda had one earlier this year, I had to remind myself that I don’t have to apologize for keeping my mental health in check. Whether you stop because of writer’s block or something in your personal life, it’s okay to take a break or to stop completely. You can’t write if you’re not healthy.

Q: What advice would you give someone who wants to start writing? 

Like I said before, just go for it. It’s okay to not be good at the start, but who knows? You might be great. You’ll never know unless you do it. It’s just one of those things where you have to swallow your fear and do it. TBH you don’t even have to share it with anyone at first. Just try.

Questions for authors! I love learning from fellow authors, it drives me and inspires me. I took these questions from an interview I was reading for character research and changed them to fit what we do.  I encourage you to do this and then to tag ten authors you want to learn about. Let’s all be friends and try to inspire one another!

[floralgardenswitchesmoving-blog]

An Update I guess??

Long story short about work, I’m exhausted and ready for Halloween to end. That’s all about that.

In other news, my sister-in-law has been having her contractions the last few days so it’s only a matter of time before I meet my little niece <3

In my absence from writing, I’ve occupied my boredom with gaming but I’ve also done a little bit of writing on my own long hand again and well I miss typing tbh lol. But this is actually the first time in weeks I’ve touched my computer. I don’t know why I never bothered to turn it on...Here’s the part that is making me lean towards deleting this entire post and ignoring it until my hiatus is “suppose to end”...When I think about coming back to Tumblr and to rping...I get really nervous and stressed out. I don’t know why I feel like I have such anxiety over it; you’ve all treated me with such kindness and respect and have given me so much support - and you’ve gifted me with your friendship and I feel so damn horrible when I think about not coming back because of these negative feelings I have about my own self. Even if it’s not to rp, even if it’s just to talk and keep in touch like a friend should I feel bad that a part of me doesn’t want to because of some idiotic reason that the worthless part of my brain cooks up...

I shouldn’t be writing that part of the update, I still have a few weeks left before things should go relatively back to “normal”...I never know, right - my feelings could change? I do miss all of you so much and I think about you all the time (still having dreams about my threads and muses <3). And I miss my children too (question is, do they miss me >.> <.<)

But besides all of that hunk of crap, everything else is great with me and I sincerely hope everything is absolutely wonderful with all of you <3 

#out of flowers (OOC) #update i guess?? #erased from existence (to be deleted)

[didilysims]

Lots of them are late, but my excuse is that I was busy catching up on all of your posts rather than my own. :D 

Calling @glabeglarn @taylors-simblr @immerso-sims @deedee-sims @katatty @tamtam-go92 @lilibethsonar and @aondaneedles beneath the cut. 

Lucky Shack is probably my favourite community lot, seeing the sims playing cards all serious is so funny!

It’s such a great lot. Even vanilla it has a cool atmosphere and the perfect amount of stuff to do. A downtown masterpiece! 

taylors-simblr replied to your photoset “Hands where she can see ‘em, buster.  (These faces are so great!) ”

I love his smile at the end he’s like: ‘well I tried’ ha.

immerso-sims replied to your photoset “Hands where she can see ‘em, buster.  (These faces are so great!) ”

Oh the drama in the expressions :D

deedee-sims replied to your photoset “Hands where she can see ‘em, buster.  (These faces are so great!) ”

His face XD

So many of the “fail” faces are really fantastic...especially in romantic interactions. I love them! 

taylors-simblr replied to your photoset “The round begins with our playables in all their favourite places....”

Yeah Charlie! She has a point, why not call a certain young man up ;)

Why *whoever* could you mean? ;) 

katatty-main replied to your photo “Next up is the Gorey household, which is actually the Davenport...”

I feel you on the pain of household tags!! I have similar problems with the pleasant-oldies

The struggle is so real! Especially when so many households are related so you have complications like blended families, siblings who all share the same name but live in three different households, families who I started using one tag for, but now I’m realizing a different tag would be way better...it never ends! D: 

tamtam-go92 replied to your photo “Armand DeBateau, everyone. Belladonna Cove’s most eligible and...”

I didn't know sims could make such great poses in the photo booth! I have to use this thing more often!

A lot of the solo portraits are great. I use them sometimes for family portraits, but often forget about them when it comes to taking pictures. Because let’s face it...using the photobooth is rarely a solo activity. ;)

immerso-sims replied to your photo “Updates:  I’m going to speed up the queue because I’m honestly getting...”

Yeah the storytelling thing can be hard. I am slowly trying to sketch out my plan for when I'm back from my posting hiatus and wanna go down the storytelling path with my restarted Morlake BaCC, but holy crap... all the planning, the specific pics to take and other stuff is so much work! And I've really enjoyed the reminiscing posts. Cannot wait to see what's next for Pine Lake though. :)

Storytelling is way more difficult than it seems. I wish I had started with a plan, honestly, because most of my struggle right now is trying to work out where to go with all the vague hints I left myself (without having an end goal clearly in sight). The hardest part for me is having to keep those hints (So-and-so said X therefore Y cannot be true in this situation, even though Y would otherwise fit perfectly!) and still fit everything together. There’s a lot to be said for completing a draft *before* publishing! 

I’m really looking forward to seeing the resurgence of Morlake too! Whether it’s all plotted out or not, it will be fun to catch up with the settlers again. :) Are you planning on restarting from the very beginning, or picking up where you left off? 

taylors-simblr replied to your photo “Armand DeBateau, everyone. Belladonna Cove’s most eligible and...”

Is this a gift for Blossom? :P

Ha ha, just hand him a pen to autograph it and it will be the perfect birthday present! 

taylors-simblr replied to your photo “Updates:  I’m going to speed up the queue because I’m honestly getting...”

I’ve really been enjoying the reminiscing posts and what might have been, I love to know what the simmers thoughts are, so it was nice to get some ‘behind the scenes’ stuff :D

katatty-main replied to your photoset “The more I work on this downtown area, the more it looks like a...”

i never realised it even was belladona cove, haha! really enjoying these reminicing posts :)

Thank you both for saying so. I was starting to worry they were getting dull (had a bit of the simming blues a while ago) so I’m glad you found some of them interesting. :) I’ll probably do a few more in the future, but happy to get some new content out in the meantime! 

nekosayuri replied to your photo “Updates:  I’m going to speed up the queue because I’m honestly getting...”

lol melting in the heat alright XD I'm glad things are coming together for you despite the hardships :D can't wait for you to post new stuff again!

One thing that’s always guaranteed free in summer is turning into a sticky mess of sweat! :D Hope the new stuff lived up to your expectations. ^_^

lilibethsonar replied to your photo “Armand DeBateau, everyone. Belladonna Cove’s most eligible and...”

My god, you could drown in that chin...

Or use it as a very wide diving board. It’s a work of art. 

aondaneedles replied to your photoset “Eowyn: Hey, speaking of Frank, why don’t you go say hi? I’m sure he’d...”

He's going to live to 100.

Part of me really hopes so...another part wishes he would hurry up and die already. His daughter is approaching elderhood, for goodness sake! 

katatty-main replied to your photo “Frank: Mum, you’re home! How was work? I missed you!  Eowyn: Hey,...”

I love eowyn! For a “townie” she really stole the show

I feel the same! It’s a small regret of mine that I didn’t start with university student townies from the very beginning (just didn’t think of it!) but Eowyn wound up being pretty darn awesome, so I’m glad I got to meet her through it. :)

lilibethsonar replied to your photoset “Look out…it’s time to clean out my random pictures folder!  This batch...”

On the second picture it kinda looks like they have a portrait of one of the Davis brothers. Almeric, most likely.

Oh gosh, I see it. Definitely Almeric! I need to hang a copy in his mayoral office now. :D 

#replies #glabeglarn #taylors simblr #immerso sims #deedee sims #katatty #tamtam go92 #lilibethsonar #aondaneedles

[inkofamethyst]

January 30, 2021

Aghhh I found this men’s shirt on Depop that I really love the look of entirely but it’s two sizes too big for me and I would have to alter it to fit but it’s already an $18 shirt (which like,,, in the grand scheme of things isn’t all that expensive, and it includes shipping,,, so like,,,,, a small price to pay for sustainability tbh) and I could probably find something that would actually fit if I just kept looking... but I did want to get more practice making alterations and I would actually like to have multiple white/cream shirts in my closet that all vary ever so slightly (and I would love to spend money right now bc I’m just itching to buy something (...somethings) entirely frivolous with my book money lol (also wanna get all my purchases out of the way before February comes around and I start tracking my spending again heh)).  I suppose I could wear it as a cardigan until I fixed it up.

Reading that over... I think it’s clear that I didn’t come here to talk myself out of buying the shirt.. I came here to talk myself into affirming that it is a justified decision.  It’s just that thrifting online can be such a headache, and I feel like my success rate hovers around 65% which isn’t great at all (just did the math: 55% great, 27% eh, 18% bad -- 65% was a pretty decent estimate! (also these numbers include items that I had to alter/mend, 2 of which are now some of my faves)).  Honestly, thrifting irl is only a little bit easier.  Sometimes I’ll get home, wash something I’ve found, and discover that the cute find is not so cute on me (it happens less so now that I carry a measuring tape, but fit can’t always account for style/color mismatches).

Results are in for the spring music selection: I don’t recognize ~any~ of the songs and we are ~not~ bringing back the song I had the solo in.  Which is fine, and I mean hey I won’t have to go through the whole imposter syndrome thing this semester (not with that, anyway) which is dope.  I... I can’t say that I’m not a little disappointed, if I’m being honest, though.  Because it feels a little like something that’s just sort of hanging over me, unfinished.  And I can’t do anything about it.  And I think that’s valid, to feel a little disappointed.  But, overall, I’m excited to start rehearsing again.  I’m excited to be part of an ensemble again, to perform again.  Finally, after a three-year hiatus (thx miss rona), to be in front of an audience again.

AHHHHH BUT SOMETHING THAT’S MAYBE EVEN MORE EXCITING THAN THAT IS THE LEGEND OF VOX MACHINAAAAAA AHHHHHH I just watched the three episodes they’ve released and was basically smiling the whole time.  I’ve been listening to these nerdy voice actors for... four years now (almost exactly, actually, as I started listening to CR C1 right around the time when my dnd-friend first invited me to play dnd with her and some of her old friends, and I feel like it was a birthday gift to her...) and there were so many parts of episode 3 especially (especially the end) that was just like,,, AHHHH eeehehehehehe and the first two episodes were so much fun on their own (and if they go for the chroma conclave plot in s2, they’ve literally already set that up omg) and I just,,, yes.

Wait but okay back to the whole orchestra thing though, in preparation for next fall’s music selection, I’ve recently started working on the Wrath of the White Witch main theme (not pieces of a broken heart, but the more fanfare-y one).  It’s rough.  I mapped out most of the melody in a night, and now I’m just taking it slow, bit by bit (saving the hardest parts for last (and, trust me, this piece has more than its fair share)), counting my upbeats and downbeats and all-around beats.  I’m considering figuring out something different to work on for next fall though.  Like, do a trial arrangement submission so I can learn from it, then try this piece in the Spring.  Idk, I’ve got time to learn.  And also like what am I if not in over my head at all times.

Ummm I will say that I was in rehearsal today and kept thinking, like, what if I had auditioned on flute?  Now, don’t get me wrong, I am extremely proud of everything I accomplished personally last semester in terms of singing in a real choir for the first time.  That was awesome.  But I was just sitting there today and like,,, choir is only in half of the pieces.  I feel like... like an ensemble member in a musical, but like, a freshman who’s only really in the background of four tiny scenes plus maybe one big number.  But if I played flute I’d be ~in on the action~ and playing the whole time.  And like, that’s making a ton of assumptions: that I’m a good enough flute player that I would’ve successfully auditioned, that I wouldn’t have felt overwhelmed by really difficult music (I haven’t actually looked at the flute music).

I don’t... regret choosing to audition vocally, exactly.  I’m just... wondering whether I would have enjoyed myself more had I done flute.  And maybe it’s just that I’m tired of the pieces that we’re playing because they were only meant to be played for a semester and now they’ve stretched into two.  Maybe I just need fresh music, a new repertoire to challenge me again.  Maybe that’s it.  Maybe had I done flute, I would be feeling a similar sort of “I wonder how it would’ve been if I’d done choir” type beat.  I don’t know.  And I can’t know.

Speaking of fresh artsy stuff, a club on campus is putting on a production of a musical that I really enjoy.  Auditions are Friday.  And I won’t be auditioning.  The show swears pretty heavily.  And I do not.  And it sucks because I would love to give it a go.  To see if I had what it took to be one of those characters that I so enthusiastically hum along to.  It’s got that quintessential modern musical sound that every girl in theatre tries to break into.  But I’d be so uncomfortable the whole time, even in the ensemble.  A shame, really.

This... overall this wasn’t a very happy entry :/  Every once in a while we just have those melancholy days, I guess.  I mean it wasn’t a bad day by any means, I’m just.. I don’t know.

But, really, today I am thankful to be in a performance group.

[thatslayer]

RPC Positivity Week - Day One

                   Well, it's day numero one of the RPC Positivity Week and day one's challenge is to name off my favorite portrayals of characters from my own fandom of Buffy the Vampire Slayer and it's spin-off, Angel the Series.

It's going to be hard to narrow down favorites, because the BtVS community has a lot of talent. Even if I don't mention you, know that it's only because I'm really narrowing each character down to one or two blogs. <3

Buffy Summers There are a fair amount of good Buffy's on tumblr, but @iwannadogirlystuff gets a gold star, here, for her great Buffy voice and constant battle to keep her muse canon and interesting. Sometimes that means being wrong, sometimes that means being single, sometimes that means being hurt and she doesn't take the easy way out and let all that work happen off-screen. She knows how to let Buffy take her own side while the greater plot stays neutral. Big on plot, zero drama. Happy to give real, helpful critique and ask for it in return because the story and portrayal are what matters, not the ego. She's also the kindest, most sweetest chickie you're likely to meet. I love you to bits and am absolutely biased. Gracious, girl, you're a gift from the RP gods, lol.

@buffyisms is such a dang cutie, so sweet. So much fun to talk to, especially when it comes to Duffy (Dean/Buffy) or the actual horrors of waitressing. I don't know her well, yet, but hope to remedy that!

Willow Rosenberg I've been writing with @optimisticyellowcrayon for a hundred-million years and a closer to canon Willow, I don't think I could find. She's got the voice down, and I can't imagine Willow's voice is all that easy to master. She gets this girl, eyeballs to entrails, and writing with her is like writing with a magical manifestation of the real Willow Rosenberg. And, on top of that, mun is crazy sweet and nice and awesome. Even when she's having a bad day, she goes out of her way to help make the OOC Bunkerverse a positive, supportive and friendly place to be and I loves the crud out of her.

I really like having @willowiiisms on my dash. We haven't done much writing together (my fauuuult), but he's fudging adorable and a lovely Miss Rosenberg, to boot.

Xander Harris There aren't really a lot of Xanders around, at least there aren't many active ones, but @strangeandoffputting goes the extra mile to make his Xander sound and act right -- even if that means Xander comes off badly to the reader. Before Jan took on Xander, I thought he couldn't do any better than his super on the mark Sam Winchester ( @samattheend ), but I think he's actually better at Xander than he is at Sam. He's also my actual tumblr husband, one of my bestest friends, and a silly dope who can long-distance cuddle with the best of them.

Rupert Giles @youhavemyrespect - Mo, my darling. If you love Giles and you aren't following this sweetheart, you're doing all the things wrong. They deeply, deeply understand Giles. His motivations always seem fully on the mark, he sounds like Giles (JUST like Giles, in point of fact). With the same measure to his words, the same tone and turn of phrase, the same personality down to a T. Mun is also such a kind, silly, wonderful person and rounds out our uber-canon Bunkerverse scooby gang.

@whowatches I haven't written with this Giles yet, but I have seen some stuff on my dash that I thought was pretty dang awesome. Mun is such a sweetheart. <3

Spike @spiketheforsakensoul​, the love of my unlife and one of the best Spike blogs you're likely to stumble upon. On an unfortunate hiatus while Wil plays over at Lucifer ( @punishmentismyjob ), but he's had something like 19-20 years experience with Spike (most of which he's wasted playing opposite yours truly <3) and knows the way his weird little mind works. Killer Spike voice + great writer + sexy mun = happy Faye.

Cordelia Chase @hervisions has the Cordy voice down pat, quips and all, and she's a welcome sight when she graces my dash. Everyone needs more Cordelia in their lives.

Faith Lehane Can I just point out how much I miss @beautypowerdeath? I hate it when people run off and leave me to fend for myself, lol. Probably my favorite Faith on the tumblee, and we've had our share of awesome Faith blogs.

Oh, I've known Char for too damn long. @faithiiisms is funny and silly and all sorts of awesome. One of my favorite Faiths. <3

Lilah Morgan @lilahemorgan​, who's a little ball of sunshine, always ready to write and has nothing but positive vibes for everyone. Lovely and welcome addition to the Bunkerverse, has no problem going toe-to-toe with the white hats while remaining ambiguous about Lilah's hero or villain status. Love to love ya, girlfriend. ;)

@hellscounsel - I still can't believe there are two Lilah's now, she's such an undersung character. This lovely miss can carry Lilah's moods and character voice, haven't done much writing with her, though! Mun is a cutie.

Wesley Wyndam-Pryce Aaron's a hoot, carries half of the BtVS minor character blogs all by himself. Very good Wes voice, haven't had a chance to write with him, yet. Go follow @exwatcher, because I said so.

Ethan Rayne Well, it seems like all we've got is @liminalchaos, but that's just fine by me. Every now and then I'll see some hilarious meme go by on my dash, or some of their fantastic writing and it makes my day. Ethan is a treasure, and they're doing a damn fine job with him.

I know I missed a ton of folks, this is more a list of people I rp with or who I see on my dash often and enjoy their portrayals. Feel free to send me blogs if you think I should check them out/rp with them/update this list.

Remember, darlings! Be excellent to each other and part on, dudes!

#RPC POSITIVITY WEEK. #day one: favorite btvs portrayals #outofatonement #long post