#i’m getting off-track again

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

mikami!! again!

#death note #death note fanart #mikami teru #my art #this one took me roughly two to two and a half hours #mostly because lines for this style need to be clean or i will cry #and i drew it first so this was the one where i decided my color scheme #so honestly i might be just as fast in both styles if i count out my wishi-washi color picking #i’m not sure which style i like more though #this one feels the most me. i’ve always been a cartoonist at heart #but then sometimes i will get so fed up with not drawing in other styles that i just go wild and draw in whatever style i want #and i’ve been drawing for a loooing time. like. for as long as i could hold a pencil long #and i did have an ironed out style for years until BAM now i feel like i’m being torn into pieces not just by artstyles #but also by a lot of things in life #if anyone knows how to separate oneself into multiples that each take a different aspect of yourself hmu #i think i’d be a lot more productive if i didn’t feel like i’m fighting with myself over everything all the time #i’m getting off-track again #but anyways i love this little dude #mikami’s great!! #these were actually just practice so i can get a feel for him before i draw him in situations #and probably some mikalight

[laniemae]

The sexualisation of Mikoto, stalking, and how the fandom is repeating this.

CW: Stalking, sexual harassment, fanservice, murder

I’ve been thinking a lot about Double’s thumbnail, and especially the stalking theory. And if you think about it a lot basically everything fits up and that his victim was likely his stalker. Although a lot about what happened I never really have seen discussion on the why or how it’s been happening, so I just want to give my thoughts and theories on this all before Double.

The fanservice in MeMe:

The fanservice in MeMe has always felt really off to me. Milgram never has any fanservice-y stuff, minus Yuno in Tear Drop, but it’s only just her revealing outfit and nothing to do with strange camera angles or whatnot, and it’s very important to her character. For me and what I’ve think the consensus in the fandom has been, is it’s nothing more than that. That the fanservice is only there to appeal to thirsty fans or whatever. But I’ve been thinking a lot, and with the music videos extracted from prisoners minds, everything has a meaning in one way or the other. So for the creators to just throw a bunch of fanservice scenes in MeMe with no meaning apart from just plain fanservice feels really counter intuitive to the whole point of the MVs. And especially how this has never happened before makes it really strange to me. And with this idea in mind and going back to the stalking theory I mentioned earlier, I think it’s disgustingly clear what has happened to Mikoto.

Mikoto being watched:

I think what’s going on is that Mikoto was stalked for sexual reasons. The constant scenes of him in embarrassing moments (taking of his shirt, having a shower, having a bath) is what the stalker has been seeing and this subconsciously put itself into MeMe from Mikoto’s POV. Camera imagery in MeMe is very prevalent, from at the beginning him grabbing the camera and at the end him picking it up and punching it. I think this is supposed to represent him realising he’s being stalked and trying to hunt down who’s been doing it, and the destruction of the camera at the end to represent him killing the person. 

Also around the middle of the song, we see security cam footage of him entering his apartment and crying on his couch, with Mikoto hyperventilating and gasping in the background. I feel like with everything I’ve said before this scene makes it extremely clear, that someone put up a bunch of camera around his house to catch him in those moments, if we’re taking that scene literally.

Then it cuts to him laughing at the screen in darkness, and the aforementioned fanservice scene right after this sequence of events really makes things scary to what was happening in his house. And also like I said before about the hyperventilating during this scene. I could mean multiple things such as him having a panic attack, being actually attacked or worse.

And the imagery of being watched doesn’t stop at just the camera stuff. At the beginning of MeMe in the scene at the train station, the camera moves around from behind a wall to reveal Mikoto sitting there holding a bat, like someone is watching him directly. To further back this up there’s a vignette around the edge of the camera and wee see it blink, like from a POV shot. And after the blink Mikoto disappears, and then we see him outside swinging a bat at the POV (just want to note this is outside and is probably in a different place than the train station, but I don’t know what to make of that right now, and how also the vignette I pointed out before isn’t present here). Then it cuts back to the scene in the train station, now with Mikoto holding a bat and walking towards someone on the ground, attacking them. Noticeably the vignette is still here in this scene, so the person Mikoto was attacking likely wasn’t his stalker, perhaps he just thought they were.

Wait I suddenly just got a theory from this. I just mentioned how the vignette in the scene I just mentioned likely means that Mikoto attacked someone else and the stalker was watching on. Me and basically everyone else has assumed that guy was his victim, but then what about the stalker? I’ve always strongly believed that Mikoto only killed one person but now I’m just starting to doubt that. If MeMe is to be taken in chronological order in this part, he probably killed that guy then realised that he was continuing being stalked. And as I said at the beginning of my analysis I mentioned that Mikoto punching the camera at the end could be representative of him killing the stalker and ending it (also to mention he gets the death card right before hand). And I didn’t think of it when I wrote that but what if he did actually kill multiple people in an attempt to kill his stalker. Hmm.

And going back to what I was talking about before, he probably entered his apartment afterwards and switched to Bluekoto after it was assumed everything was safe now. (Just saying I’m using Mikoto interchangeably to refer to all of the alters as it’s not clear who’s doing what, but this takes the theory of that blue was the murderer and not the other/s into account, because there’s a part of me that feels it wasn’t him attacking those people as red/green has a strong desire to protect blue and hide him from the traumatic events taking place).

I feel like I’ve gone way off track with what I’ve been saying here because while writing this I just keep noticing more and more stuff to write down and I just thought of someone thing again.

Every time it appears that Mikoto killed someone (the train scene, the garbage scene although the bag doesn’t look like a human body just saying), it cuts to a fanservice-y scene right after, maybe implying that the person he killed wasn’t the stalker, and he’s still being watched afterwards. Although this makes the bath scene kinda out of place as it doesn’t take place after a murder I think, and someone mentioned it was before the shower scene which kinda debunks this but I just wanted to mention this because why not.

Mikoto’s mindscape in MeMe:

Another thing I’ve been thinking about a lot is every character’s “mindscapes” as I call them. Yuno has an empty pink void with a tower, Fuuta has a fantasy land, Mahiru has a room inside a birdcage ect. And all of these places represent an aspect of their characters. Yuno’s representing her feelings of emptiness, Fuuta feeling that everything he’s doing is for justice and that he’s a cool hero, Mahiru being trapped and sheltered in an ideal concept of love and stuff like that. I’m going to make a theory on this in the future as it’s very interesting to me but Mikoto’s mindscape is always something that’s confused me.

Mikoto’s mindscape is a parallel of his apartment. Down to the couches, tables and everything, but lacking the bookcase and tv being buried in the water for whatever reason.

(Also I just noticed but there’s a blue thing behind the couch that Mikoto laid his head down on before which could be a bed or whatever. But in the mindscape and this other shot we don’t see it???)

(Actually maybe we do if we squint, oh well)

Okay, okay back to what I was actually going to say. The furniture from the apartment appearing in the mindscape makes sense, but what about everything else? The broken, tiled walls, the mirror, how everything is covered in a thin layer of water, the clear blue sky. There’s a bunch of this stuff I could analyse in my future post about mindscapes but I’ll just say the stuff that relates to what I was talking about earlier. But to say it right now, I think all that other stuff is supposed to be the bathroom we see him in.

Notice here the tiles are exactly the same, and we even see the same mirror he looks at himself in, in real life then Mikoto in the mindscape.

Also to point out how the Mikoto we see looking into the mirror here is wearing a sleeve and likely in the mindscape and as someone mentioned, since the ahoge is backwards it’s likely a reflection. Although it’s strange that it has the same green filter both ways.

After this we see bluekoto (presumably) fall backwards into the water. And another strange thing I noticed is that this mirror is behind the couch, but when he falls down the couch is tipped over.

Don’t know what it make of this but again I’m just constantly pointing stuff out I notice as writing this.

So basically I think the mindscape is a mix of the living room and the bathroom. The furniture from the living room and the water, mirror and tiles from the bathroom. But this makes things confusing, why the bathroom? Why would Mikoto project imagery of his bathroom into his own mindscape? This brings me to what I was saying before. The walls in the mindscape are completely collapsed, providing no closure or privacy to this “room”. The sky is also out, so his mindscape feels very exposed. And what I said earlier about my staking theory. It’s likely that someone placed cameras up in/around his bathroom to record him naked, a complete breach of privacy and that’s why this mindscape is so exposed and has elements from there. Even in this world that he created, he still doesn’t feel safe at all.

The audience and the repeating of Mikoto’s trauma:

Basically to sum it up from what I’ve said. Mikoto was being stalked and sexualised by someone. Cameras were placed up around his house to record him in embarrassing situations and he figured out, and attempted to kill the stalker.

But here’s one thing, that story we likely see in MeMe is happening again. But with the audience.

When MeMe came out everyone went ballistic. Lots of people were very surprised in how violent it was, how compared to the calm preview we saw it instantly started off with death metal and destroyed every idea we had about him, and kept switching between being calm and violent. But what I want to walk about right now is the reaction to the fanservice.

As we all know, when MeMe released a horde of thirsty tiktokers came over and started absolutely obsessing over Mikoto and all the fanservice scenes we see. Things got so out of control that people tried to vote him innocent just because he was hot and even jackalope bought this up. But thinking about this, it’s getting dangerously close to what I think happened in his story. Being filmed in embarrassing moments without consent, and having people obsess and sexualise you for that. The music videos are representative of the prisoner’s minds, and in no way would have Mikoto known how he was shown naked and shirtless for a huge chunk of MeMe. Same as him being stalked and recorded in his story if I’m right.

The fandom here is doing exactly what his perpetrator did to him down to a T. It’s almost like what happened with Amane when people tried to reverse her brainwashing by showing her tough love by not forgiving her, exactly like what the cult did to her to try and make her obey them more. This thing is happening to Mikoto as well as Amane and repeating their traumas. And also to mention how Mikoto has DID which is a result of repeated childhood abuse so it’s likely this has been happening to him alot and just can’t escape from this reality. And for the alters to take in all the trauma and leave the host blissfully unaware of everything’s that’s happening.

This brings into account how the guilty prisoners can hear the voices of the audience judging them. Fuuta completely broke down as he was constantly harassed with strange voices judging him and denying his actions. And he’s mentioned a lot of times how he can’t stand this feeling of being watched and this manifests through the eyes in Backdraft. And with Mikoto from everything I’ve been saying before it’s very likely he has trauma from this. And now feeling like he’s being watched and hearing the voices of the audience, who we know constantly sexualises him. It’s likely he’ll have to relive his trauma once again that he thought he finally escaped…

Conclusion / TL;DR

To sum this whole theory up I believe that fanservice in MeMe actually has importance besides just fanservice. And it’s likely Mikoto was being stalked by someone and recorded in those situations, and he ended up hunting the person down and killing them. And now because of the audience’s constant thirsting over him and how the guilty prisoners can hear everything we say about them, Mikoto will have to relive his suffering again.

Other things I’d like to briefly mention but didn’t have any space to put in, Is how since Mikoto rides a bike instead of a train to work as he said but we see lots of train imagery. And I think what happened is that he was probably being harassed on the train and switched to going to work alone. And the thumbnail in Double we see him looking depressed, on a train surrounded by destroyed mannequins.

#milgram #Mikoto kayano #milgram theory #cw stalking #cw s3xual harassment #After writing this I’m becoming more and more scared for what we’ll see in double #I’ve never really seen this theory talked about in much detail and connecting it to the stalking theory and this is my thoughts on it #I kept getting off track writing this and came up with a bunch of mini theories I just shoved in there that were somewhat related #ADHD brain working again #I also wanted to point out the parallels with Amane on the audience repeating the character’s traumas #I find it really interesting how milgram does something like that which I have never sen in any media before #I just want mikoto to be happy #I never usually write stuff on this topic but the more I kept thinking about it the more likely it seemed #Repost because it didn’t show up in tags #Also for something I want to note after I posted this is that mikoto is always shown sitting with his legs spread out #To the point we never see him sitting normally #I hope this doesn’t mean anything but I felt like it could possibly be related but I don’t want it to #LanieMae’s theories #To note I had to censor the Tw tag because it blocked my post if I wrote it normally sorry about that

[gods-favorite-autistic]

Love how in Greek mythology Artemis saw what Apollo was doing with his love life and said “none of that”

#she said ‘my brother has enough romance for the both of us I’m just gonna get a group of definitely not lesbians (/s) and go hunting’ #which honestly I would too if I saw how many of his lovers either died or turned into plants or both #never forget hyacinthus #like I love the man but he does not have a great track record with love #imagine being so bad at flirting that someone turned into a tree to escape you and another one literally jumped off a cliff to escape you #and then the one person who did like you back gets killed and you turn him into a flower #then again artemis had one lover one singular love and apollo managed to get him killed too #apollo #artemis #apollo and artemis #greek mythology

[couldbebetterforsure]

You guys have no idea how much I enjoy that Chiaki is both a jock AND a nerd!

He’s athletic and was on the basketball team back in high school, and regularly talks about working out and all that, and nowadays is in his own club that does sports and all that (which makes me curious because I know he was sickly as a child. Is he still sickly nowadays? Maybe to a lesser extent than when he was little? I wonder if another story will go into more details). But he’s also a really good student who reads every night and is good at tutoring and also collects merch for all his beloved tokusatsu shows and all that.

I just find it adorably endearing! Because on paper you see Chiaki and think “oh yeah typical dumb loud lovable jock type”. But then the game is like “yeah he is a loud and lovable jock but the guy’s also a MASSIVE nerd boy, mister smarty pants bookworm over here”!

#ensemble stars #chiaki morisawa #I really like when characters in stories who don’t seem the type to do well academically #are actually revealed to genuinely be good at that stuff #it’s a simple little trope that I’m super fond of #I really do wonder if some of the other stories go into chiaki’s sickly childhood more #by the way ain’t that my luck? First riku and now chiaki #I’ve yet again latched onto a bright sunshine lad with a sickly past #anyways yeah I’m curious does chiaki still get sick a bunch? Is it not as bad as when he was a little kid? Or is that just a past thing? #but yeah getting a bit off track…I love my nerdy jock boyo 🥰🥰🥰 #story time with me

[deci-doodles]

This was originally a request from a friend but I figured I might as well post here coz I think it’s too funny

Audio: Berlioz, Symphonie Fantastique Mvt. 4. March to the Scaffold

Would highly recommend listening to the whole track coz it’s a banger but also it’s literally the composer having an opium-induced fever dream about him getting his head lopped off at the guillotine so

#genshin impact #focalors #neuvillette #I’m not sorry #this whole thing spawned from me ranting about Fontaine’s OST for like the nth time #for context I’m a classical musician and while I don’t think Fontaine’s music is necessarily bad #and I get what Hoyomix was aiming for #the direction they chose just frustrates me so much that I could probably scream about it for a good ten minutes or so #again not saying Hoyomix is bad I love their stuff too it just #FRSUTRATES ME #that the nation primarily inspired by what I’m assuming is Belle epoque France #fails to capitalise off of using French romantic composers from the era #and yes I know they said they’ve used Saint-Saëns #Ravel and Faure but I can’t hear it outside of the original Travail motif which was repurposed to just Arlecchino’s #and no imitation compositional technique isn’t making it super obvious either #but somehow we get a lot of Russian and Soviet composers #and I LOVE their stuff #but I was expecting Shostakovich and Stravinsky for SNEZHNAYA NOT FONTAINE #and also Khachaturian while we’re at it #SERIOUSLY WHY IS THERE A SUPER STRAVINSKY SOUNDNING TRACK IN SOME FRENCH CAVES #for reference the track is Magick Without Tears #I mean if we got Chopin at least question mark #but the dude is still Polish and famously homesick despite living in France #but seriously how did we get fricking Le Mer referenced in INAZUMA BUT NOT FONTAINE #no track names alluding to Debussy’s famous works don’t count either we could’ve had La Cathedral Engloutie underwater or something likE #IMAGINE #*cathedrale oops #and don’t get me started on how one of the few references I can find to French Impressionism is just Satie’s gymnopedie #and they named it Gymnopedie too LIKE #or any reference in the OST to the operas in Furina’s constellations like those are som serious bangers

[dollsuguru]

HI HELLO IM BREAKING INTO UR INBOX W TEARS IN MY EYES…………… 😭😭 i just read all ur tags on my sugu fics and when i tell you i CRIED YOURE SOO??? so so SO sweet and thoughtful????? I HOPE YOUR DINNER WAS THE TASTIEST EVER bc ur tags made my whole weekend <333333 literally every single thing u said made me go YES YOU GET IT like… im just gonna mention a couple things phsjdhs IM REALLY SOSO GRATEFUL <333 

FIRST OFF just . everything u said abt my writing in general??? is soooo unbelievably kind??? T_T like abt the setting and prose and etc!!! i got soooo happy every time u said u felt like u were really There LIKE THAT MEANS SO MUCH…. ”it’s like i’m living inside your words” ARE U TRYING TO KILL ME </3 sob. thank u :’< 

and aaa im so glad u liked all three fics even though theyre a bit different!! 🥺🥺 i just rlly feel like u understood what i was trying to convey w certain characters and lines and stuff and it means soooo much??? SUGU IS A DEVOTED LOVERBOY YESYESYES U GET IT!!!!! U UNDERSTAND!!!! ”devoted” & ”intense” are the PERFECT words for him i cant tell u how much i agree. AND SOO NURTURING YES WE’RE SO LINKED he’s so mother he’s so husbandwife <333 IM JUST NODDING ALONG TO EVERYTHING U SAY like genuinely. food as love was the theme for that particular fic hehe im so glad u noticed!!! 

AAAA AND UR TAGS ON THE CHILDHOOD BESTIES FIC ……. thats probably my fave sugu fic out of the ones ive written ngl i was sooo happy to see that u liked it 😭😭😭 U GET IT U DO… like their love could be platonic or romantic but it doesnt rlly matter bc they just love each other sooo much. HE’S A GHIBLI BOY YES i’m so glad u see the vision <33

IM SORRY THIS GOT SO LONG i just need you to know that i see you and i love you and i appreciate you <3333 tysm for reading my silly lil fics and taking the time to write such thoughtful tags!!! 🥺🥺 im tucking them all away into my heart hehe. wishing u the most wonderful weekend ever !!!! mwah mwah mwah <33

OMG PLEASENDNDNDND your writing is literally SO stunning methinks you have the best rendition of suguru out there… like it’s so TELLING how much you love suguru (and satoru bc TRUST i’m gonna be in the tags of those fics too) and also i just really like how much personality you give to the reader as well! like everyone just is so fleshed out & 3-dimensional like they don’t feel like Just Characters In A Story they feel like real people & honestly magnificent writing to me always makes me feel like i’m watching a movie - and your writing does that! as i’m reading i’m envisioning everything like a movie & that’s the best compliment i can give fr <3 again it’s a testament to your beautiful dialogue, scene setting, storytelling, and YES PROSE!!!!! THAT’S THE WORD I WAS LOOKING FOR THE ENTIRE TIMENFNFNFNF your PROSE is beautiful 😭 it’s very COZY & PRETTY i love it

& OMG I WAS ABLE 2 UNDERSTAND BC YOU CONVEY EVERYTHING SO WELL!!!!! i was never confused i was Always In It <3 AND YES YOU SPOKE #REAL bc sugu is the ULTIMATE devoted loverboy… & i love how his intensity is just innate to him like he can’t help but love fully and with his whole entire mind, heart, body, & soul! and i also like how it isn’t an uncomfortable intensity or overbearing in a bad way - it’s just like a really nice weighted blanket and i LOVE that. & omg i’ve come to love food motifs so much………. whether it be hunger for something, cannibalism to get to the core of someone’s being, peeling clementines as an act of selflessness/love for someone else, or just sweet soft feeding your lover in bed bc you want them to eat well… that’s some delicious fucking food. & YESSSSSS nurturing caretaker sugu my beloved………. i think i read somewhere i forgot if it was just a random post here but someone said that suguru has such natural paternal instincts and that’s so real… like he’s mother he’s father he’s husbandwife he’s Transcended everything… the ultimate DadMom of the group… i just know his tote bag has bandaids, water, & snacks for everyone and he’s just the One you go to talk to about anything (again just like your sugu <3) OH AND ALSO i really like how devoted the reader is too! i Myself am a devoted lovergirl so i Feel seen

THE CHILDHOOD BESTIES FIC WAS SO FUCKING &/@/$/&//@/&:! why’d i get transported to a quaint town w the boy i’ve been in love since childhood and now he grew into a wondrous handsome man… trust that for Me if it involves sugu i’m immediately going romantic mode like i’m sorry i’m so Desperately In Love with him i can’t be normal <3 that fic is so fucking rich and filled w real problems that teens/ppl in their twenties face! the fear of the unknown but it feels like anything is possible and doable with someone like suguru by your side! AND YES HE IS SOOOOO HAKU-CODED TO ME (my first bf since i was a kid… coincidence? methinks not…) and also i reallllllllly love your fic of suguru going to reader’s apartment to declare war but he instead goes & has tea & cookies instead… i think i read that fic ages ago on ao3 and i could never find it again so it’s so Poetic Cinema that i found it here and that it was YOU and that you created so many more amazing fics… like i’m so well fed omfg & i’m super excited for anything you have coming out next!

AND OMG IT’S ABSOLUTELY MY PLEASURE! THANK YOU FOR CREATING SUCH BEAUTIFUL STORIES THAT I WILL KEEP TUCKED IN MY BRAIN & HEART <3 i will never forget you twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat… for as long as i live 🫡☝🏼 BUT FR!!!!! thank you for creating such wonderful premises for stories! i’m ecstatic to read anything you come out with next <3 mwah mwah mwah

^ me when reading your fics

#asks #i could say so much more but i just Woke Up and my brain is smooth #ALSO I’M ABT TO GO HAMMMMM ON THE SATORU FICS TODAY #i took a lil sneak peak and… thank you for making satoru a loverboy and making reader a lover too #i don’t often get to see reader also be extremely devoted to satoru which is so sad 😭 they always are the Serious Mean Ones which like. + #isn’t bad but i myself love my silly little goofball lover devoted readers… bc that’s Me and if satoru was mine i’d treat him so good #like babyboy let me treat you to some fine dining… he’d blush when i take him to cheesecake factory 😋 #suguru & satoru my two pretty boys… my Husbands… my devoted lovers #ANYWAYS I’M GOING OFF TRACK NOW NFNFNFNFFNNFNF #you will see me soon in your tags once again user twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat… a promise not a threat ☝🏼 #ari tag <3

[lambs4slaughter]

what if. You wanted to get rid of the slime in your ear during the blood moon. And God said: 4 different encounters in the forest back to back

#possibly worst funniest in game experience ever #Ended up letting the wraith take pc to the lake because if I let them go there during the night it wouldn’t negate the encounter fully #(Learned the hard way) #And I’m trying to keep the chastity vow intact you know. So that happens. Unfortunately I didn’t keep track of the stress counter #Passed out trying to leave the forest. Boom. Cultists. Scream for help. Wraith saves omg yayyy :) #Pass out again because stress is still high. I notice it’s still not 6 am. Wraith gets my ass. #Uh oh pass out because of stress again. CULTISTS. AGAIN? Couldn’t fight it off this time but #Managed to get out of that chastity intact.Now to get out of the woods. Can’t take shortcut so end up walking. EDEN. #PC FUCKING. HAD ARMS BOUND BECAUSE OF THE RITUAL. COULDNT USE PEPPER SPRAY. I was like fuuuuuck..: this sucks… #Managed to avoid Stockholm this time though and escaped :evil: eden please don’t hunt me again #I want to draw this out because it was genuinely just ridiculous but for now I keep it written so I remember later #I NEED TO STOP TALKING IN NOTES

[quirkeduptransguy]

YES my username on yt is a blood bros reference :33 i need to go to crimes world again i know in my heart and soul that i love her but i seldom show her attention .. i need to care her more ..

HOOFRAY!!!! also pretty please do!!!!!!! for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#such a good album it is Insane that like. you never really see it talked about outside of certain spaces #and even then it was originally derided for being much less heavy than its predecessors #such a smart album lyrically and even in just like certain songs like peacock skeleton with crooked feathers #which btw is my go-to song to introduce people 2 them #for obvious reasons. the way the vocals play off each other #the keyboard #aforementioned lyrics because man they’re good at writing political lyrics that are simultaneously very pointed and relevant to this day #and also just plain fun. the way they word stuff rolls off the tongue very well #which I suppose is very much in part to Whitney being a very literary guy from what I’ve read up about him #SPEAKING OF!!!!! Jesus Christ the vocals. the vocals #(positive) #very very powerful for a guy who was like…. 21-22 at the time of recording I’d reckon? #I know whitney’s vocals are a turn off for the band for most people but imo? it’s one of the main appeals. 2 me he is like an insanely good #vocalist. almost jealous that he can hit those notes as a cis guy and I can’t cause omfg in like. wolf party near the end #HOW DOES A GUY MANAGE THAT….. #I love how they incorporated elements of other genres in it. like I don’t see them as indie rock like people #for whatever reason #like to describe them as in that album #but you can hear the elements. bringing up wolf party again cause nick zinner did some of the guitar in that and he’s in an indie band no? #yeah yeah yeahs or whatevs. they’re cool seeming I should check ‘em out #ALSO sorry I kind of glossed over Blilie. he’s really fucking good in the album obvs!!!! #pretty sure he did the album art which. omfg it’s had an aesthetic chokehold on me as of late #and also just. he has a nice voice #the sort of warbley thing he has and also his screams… goated #contrary to my posting #I’m actually a bliliegirl I’d consider myself lol. Whitney happens to also have a psychic chokehold on me #this is obvious. I go by Johnny and want to go blonde HMMMMM I WONDER WHY.. #my bad for rambling in tags I just. I love that album so deeply #it’s very meaningful to my identity and songs like the title track and beautiful horses just. get me right at my core #evil neighing compilation

[bisexual-birdy]

i want a meemaw like sheldon :////

#just watched young sheldon and i have feelings #i’m gonna wait till s7 drops or they start releasing the eps again #young sheldon #this is gonna convince me to finally watch big bang theory #i feel like they stopped doing the voice overs from jim parsons (?) as it went on and it made the show feel more chaotic #bc it stopped focusing on sheldon as much??? i simultaneously like and hate that #i like it focuses on the family more now but i am not liking that the main point of this show is getting kinda side tracked #also i love georgie but i want more content out of the fandom than just everyone thirsting for him 😭 #like go off thirst for him but i also want to explore the relationships george and mary had w brenda and rob #a lot of thoughts but anyway

[debrouiller]

spent my whole shower trying to sort out my feelings about ootd lol.

relistening to the ep rn and feeling very reassured that even if ootd isn’t my fav title track they still know how to make bangers—shatter and rising are the typical high quality bsides that i am very into

#might make another post for my thoughts on ootd #rest assured i do like it just not as much as usual title tracks #i think what bothers me at an essential level is that it doesn’t have the element that other title tracks have: #that being the ‘who else could pull this off?’ factor #and while the members add their own flair to it #it is worth acknowledging that this song sounds like something other groups could and would do #this might just be bc i’m a dami bias but she is doing some heavy lifting in that regard #idk if there are other rappers in currently active girl groups who could have pulled off her verse this time around #so that makes me happy lol #like maybe ryujin (MAYBE) could get some relaxed deep voice charisma on it but idk dami delivered #and then again itzy would not release ootd i don’t think it’s too dark sounding for them #like literally dim not enough pops of color for itzy #gonna stop here before i write that whole other post in the tags #dreamcatcher #o

[cerealmonster15]

Oh my GOD I need to assign fursonas to my ocs. for character growth. Bc it’s Fun.

#I don’t even have one how am I supposed to do it for my children #whatever ill figure it out. eventually #at least like species assignments I can’t draw them but I’ll. imagine in my mind snndncnfnfgjtnhjhnnntnt #what about the ones that are already creature #like the merfolk and sangaki the snake person. #HMMMMMMMMMM #Orion will probs be some sort of reptile #bc I already base his demon characteristics off of reptiles and bats slightly #but. we’ll see. he could be a spider. I’m sure bug furries exist (???????) #I’m already going off the rails I think #yale my first thought was literally ‘dragon bc dragons are cool’ #bro his whole deal was wanting to turn into a merman he’s gotta be a fish or some sea creature #but then his bird wings arc was bluejay(don’t worry about it) #and his merform was a mandarinfish #BUT THATS NOT THE SAME AS A FURSONA IM OFF TRACK AGAIN #somehow I’m both wound up in the Unspoken Rules #while also completely getting distracted #girl help LOL #ok I have to think now 🧍

[bambino1294]

the absolute severity of the change in my ability to work quickly post-covid is insane

#rambles #I don’t think I’ve talked a whole lot about my post-covid issues but 🤩 thriving #pretty much confirmed that I will be failing my third year because I’ve stared at the same documents for two entire days #and nothing has changed #and I keep going through these phases of trying not to feel like a failure or like I’m a complete idiot #but it’s kinda hard 🧍🏻‍♀️ #you go into something like university with a goal or an expectation #and then thing after thing keeps going wrong and you don’t know if it’s your fault or if there were things you could’ve done differently #I have a lot to talk about with my therapist when I finally start that up again 😀 #but I’m trying to find joy in my writing #finishing projects and working on my original wips #just anything that won’t make me feel as useless and stupid as my uni work has this year #and I have hospital appointments to go to and friends to see and job hunting to do #so I’m hoping it stops feeling like my life is over sooner rather than later #and maybe when I’m up for it I can redo the year someplace else #and get away from the the admin team that’s been useless all year #anyway I got off track #health = sucks #but I’m a few steps closer to official diagnoses for my physical pain at least #and one waiting list away from dealing with my brain 👍🏻 #that’s my second rant of the week #I won’t be personal again for another 28 business days at least #rant

[quibbs126]

I haven’t been doing these for a couple days, so I decided to do another one of these OCs, this is Fudge Sundae Cookie

The top of her head had berries and a lot of pink, so I was considering giving her another name that incorporated that, but she also looks like she has a lot of chocolate, so oh well. The colors of the lines are bothering me though. Ah well

So Fudge Sundae here is an actual child, and I don’t really have much for her other than she’s a wide-eyed curious child who probably asks a lot of questions. She probably wouldn’t be playable, just an NPC or something. The only thing I can say is she could be related to Parfait Cookie? But not like, a little sister, more like a cousin or maybe niece. I dunno

To be honest, I don’t really have that much to say about her or the drawing process. I got her design down pretty quickly (heck this didn’t even take an hour) and there isn’t much I have for her, so yeah

#my winter break’s almost over so I’ll probably be drawing more often #I’ve been trying to do sketch pages again where I just draw a bunch on one canvas #but I can never keep my focus on it for long #maybe that will help #or it’s the fact that I seem to now be thinking the entire page needs to have a consistent theme/characters #I dunno I’m getting off track #cookie run #cookie run kingdom #cookie run oc #ai generated cookies #ai art generator #my oc #my art

[gonzogender]

I’m so fucking done I can’t even enjoy the classes I care about because of the fucking Symptoms

#I’m never gonna be able to double major in studio I’m never gonna be able to take only art classes #cause at a certain point it gets subjective and I won’t have anybody trying to tell me what to do with my ideas rather than technique #plus like getting interrupted throws me completely off track and I can’t focus or figure out where I was again #mine #dl

[yourheartinyourmouth]

Organization tips that start with “de clutter your junk drawer” have already lost me

madam the mere utterance of the phrase “junk drawer” gives me hives

no, bring me someone serious

a master

bring me….Kondo-san

#marie kondo #organize ur life bitch #it’s me I’m the bitch who is organizing their life #or trying to anyway #getting back on track to getting my shit together #the pandemic hit me like a freight train so I got off course for a long time #but I’m trying again #I’m getting back on my feet slowly

[crossbackpoke-check]

this is weird, but I know you've talked about the ear piercing thing, so just fyi I think in bordy's new ig stories you can see both his ears?

homie. bestie. bruh. beloved. please insert your preferred endearment here anon this is not weird you are a) always welcome to send me asks about anything and b) 🥺🥺 i love when y’all enable me and send me asks about things which i will probably go screech into a hole about, such as this:

per thom’s insta story 6.23.22, i zoomed in an unreasonable amount of both of his ears and now feel like this :/

[a brief aside: my GOD does he have a crooked smile i’m obsessed with it and also the family resemblance is real]

anyway after much consideration and absolutely Losing it may i present this, which may or may not be but i am choosing to believe is, thomas bordeleau’s pierced left ear (earrings not included)

#thank u for coming to my ted talk or possibly my villain monologue before i am ko’d (thom wears earrings again) #t h o m r i n g ? r i n g ? which hand is the marriage hand someone help me where’s liv when i need her (on twitter) #in other instagram related breakdowns briss made a post and tagged thom as merida and i HATE IT HERE WE ARE THE SAME STOP THAT #my family… actually… jokingly calls me merida when my hair is frizzy… wish i was kidding! i hate it here thom LEAVE ME ALONE #@ thom stop hiding your infected ear piercings with airpods 😠 i Want To See #the white woman math blinking unhinged red string meme of it all #me who cannot tell right from left like: ok but if i reference the thom lightning bolt racing stripe photo he always shows us his right side #because his right profile is better which. king. know your angles BUT if we look at the umich ear piercing photos i am 99% sure the piercing #is in his left ear & most of the photos i’ve seen since then have been side profile based off of camera flip geometry & his right ear #definitely is not pierced but the shape/shadow of his left looks like the indent of a piercing which tracks so either he took it out because #it got infected or he wants it to close up or he just like me fr and frequently just. forgets to wear earrings which tHoM i’m gonna yell @u #about piercing aftercare if that’s true has it been enough weeks for you to have taken it out when you did? or maybe he has a nickel allergy #calling in the experts if u know the answer pls tell me or if your zoom in provides better clarity than my terrible screenshots #IS borde’s ear pierced my vote is yet but also y’all know i’m biased because. #@ thomas bordeleau pierce your ears #i think he should pierce both of them and get constellation piercings and he IS a man that loves jewelry @ thom it’s more to wear 👀👀 #thom’s crooked smileeeeee laying on the floor rolling around giggling i am smitten i’m putting that detail in all the fics ever #also that shirt sure was a choice bud. but i’m not complaining since it gave me #nemcklance #thomas bordeleau my worstie my hatred spirit my incorrigible terrible meow meow #i am not adopting another umich boy this is not gonna be a comtois situation i am not going to be sucked in by thomas bordeleau #have been terribly endeared by his father’s day post and being home for his sister’s prom which im assuming is mad late in the yr bc canada? #keep thinking he needs an eyebrow barbell but also insisting to myself that i didn’t paperdoll him into 1 (i did actually lmao) so on record #left ear: (current lobe) paperdolling bords into a helix or auricle (snug?) cuff and a rook if he gets the helix he can have a conch #on his right ear he needs a daith and four lobe piercings with a forward helix alternately and/or a scaffold if it’s not too crowded #also the way the shadow falls in the second one kinda looks like a snake bite… bordy do that one too & match it with a left eyebrow barbell #although with his crooked mouth now idk like is it gonna wreck the effect or just draw more attention to it? maybe no snake bite but… #kinda love the idea of a smiley 4 him half of it showing out also his teeth are so nice i’m kinda mad about it like??? how are they so white #liv in the replies