#i wish i was loveable

[sensitivegoblin]

Vent

#my life completely sucks #I wish I was loveable #my dads been thinking out loud all day and he's depressed and angry cus of my mom #so I'm sponging it all up #I hate her so much I hope that bitch gets cheated on #I'm so lonely and broken I wish I wasn't in bed alone #I wish I wasn't a sex freak so I could be with someone I love #I wish I was pretty and not ugly and fat and gross #I wish I was enough #I'm hitting a real low point #I'm going to being 25 soon and it's scary #my life is completely empty I'm going to be 25 I'm running out of time #but I'm so fucking hopeless #it feels like there's no point in me being alive #I'm just a waste of space and a burden and thinking about living another 25 years alone makes me sick #I'm so empty and broken

[pinkopalina]

constantly I am reminded

#i wish someone would just stab me in the skull 482 times while i was sleeping #i wish someone would cut me open and hang up my organs like party decor #i wish someone would pull out my teeth one by one and then grind them up and pocket sand me in the eyes #i wish someone would take hold of my flesh and rip it off my bones as if i wasnt worthy of wearing it #i wish someone would squeeze me until my head popped off #i wish people would hurt me physically instead of killing me from the inside out #i wish i was as dead outside as i feel inside so i wouldn't have to keep going through this #a slap in the face would probably feel better #i wish people cared about what I said and i wish i had something worthy to say #i wish i was more than my emptiness and depression #i wish i wish i wish #i wish i hadnt spent my life wishing #i wish i had something more than sharp metal to turn to. dull even. plastic even. who cares #I wish i felt loved #i wish i was loveable #i wish it mattered if i disappeared #i wish i would stop making stupid posts like this #i hope you all enjoy living my dream i hope it fills you with joy and happiness i hope you love life i hope you never feel such sorrow

[lemoonthetwink]

A time when everything was easier

Yppee I finished it

As promised, Escell is here, as well as Florian and baby Felix. It's based on chapter 4's illustration when we first dicover Florian and Scylla

I'm crying a bit because Felix is a child of divorce but well, it happens :')

#fanart #illustration #last legacy #last legacy fanart #felix iskandar escellun #felix fanart #escell mirun #escell mirun fanart #florian anguis #florian anguis fanart #child of divorce #I wish they were a happy family but if so felix would have never been this loveable but still #baby felix

[raayllum]

Drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you!

― Emily Bronte, Wuthering Heights

#tdp #the dragon prince #tdpedit #varrow #virrow #virenedit #harrowedit #if you and your bestie aren't angrily codependent and more than a lil homoerotic are you even doomed by the narrative #varrowedit #quotes #my edits #graphics #viren having a hand in harrow's death with varying levels of literalness (“i'll pay the price for OUR mistakes”) #vs harrow's response to him being the final unknowable blow in killing who viren used to be #like not surprised viren's wish fulfilment of 'i matter to harrow the Most' is also linked to what makes him want to be a good person lmao #like they really do be having the heathcliffe cathy vibes y'know? hand in (un)loveable hand

[starsha-stardust]

we don't talk enough about how Star is effortlessly one of the best Disney sidekick characters

#I have yet to see one person say they disliked Star as a character when everything else in this movie has gotten dunked on #No one can deny he was loveable af #I love that he didn't just exist to be cute he was clever and helpful and had goals in addition to being incredibly cute #More mute genderless personification charas pls #Wish #Wish movie #Wish Disney #Star wish #Wish fandom

[cheapbananas]

the thing about dan and phil is that since the beginning, it has been a beacon of hope for young losers like me. the beauty of dan and phil is that they found eachother. awkward emoboy who feels horribly lonely meets someone on the internet who he connect with and then they move in together and become partners in everything and genuinely love eachother? that meant the world to young me. i started watching their stuff at like age 11 and i was a loser with no friends stuck in a town full of people who didnt accept me and i didnt really see a reason for living but dan and phil found eachother so maybe, just maybe theres hope. thats what it was and still is for a lot of us. this is why a lot of little gay and trans teens found them. dan and phil was about how sometimes things do get better. sometimes love is out there. sometimes you find your person. and online spaces for dan and phil fans were full of people just like me back in 2015. we were all lonely but we all found comfort in eachother and these two guys on the internet who actually made it work. they were living proof that there IS something to hope for. and i would sit in my room alone in an abusive home, feeling like this was all life would ever be, and then i would open some computer or phone or tablet or smth or whatever i could and i would watch two best friends bake the worst baked goods youve ever seen and laugh about it and i would scroll to the comments and talk to people just like me and i would think, 'okay maybe things can get better. maybe if i just tough it out, love will find me' and i was right. i was so so right.

#i wish i could tell little me that they came out and now make an unholy amount of penis and catboy jokes #and that i saw dan on tour #and that fob still releases music and its good #and that everything changed #and that i am loveable actually #im glad dan and phil could do what present me cant #theres always hope #dan and phil #dnp

[oohbuggypie]

EXTREMELY DUMB AND NOT SRS DON FLAMENCO DOODLE PAGE JUMPSCARE

holy hell on camera Don's skin shows up so grey ..? I THINK I USED THE WRONG CRAYON OR THE INK MIGHTVE SMUDGED WHEN RUBBING IT AGAINST THE OUTLINES .. srry abt that i promise i would never make him that pale 😭 but anyhow:: a green and pink Don cuz why not, pose ref practice of a flamenco dancer but i made him Don duh , silly Don standing dumb with tiny legs, expression practice where he looks quietly disgusted by whoever just passed him, his lil head thinking thoughts about his super sick Guy Friend who he thinks is really Cool (Bull) , and last but not least a BullDon peck !

English Text Reads:

"My name is Don Flamenco I love cars and I kiss men!"

"I love my guy friend (they r kissing)

"he just heard u say some wack shit"

scratched these out completely for fun and not seriousness heeheezz .. Don on the brain 🩷

#punch out!! wii #punch out wii #punch out #don flamenco #bald bull #bulldon #dewdlebug #i love him so much i wish u guys could examine my brain and see just how much this goofball is in there #like Don is literally just an entirely separate being of loveable hes just AUGH #smooching his abundantly large forehead

[eliasbouchardslut]

#ugh. ugh. my mom said some shit to me and now i'm all upset. lord i wish i was loveable

[renegadeontherunn]

hi! this is my small, gentle reminder that you don’t have to be like other people. I know the best parts of other people are beautiful and exciting and just so cool, but you don’t need to be everything. it’s okay not to be as good at watercolor as your sister or not give good advice like your mom does and it’s okay to love qualities in other people. sometimes other people’s words or their idiosyncrasies or the way they part their hair is so wonderful that you want to join, you want to feel the way about yourself, about the not-as-great parts of yourself that you do about the best parts of them. and it’s okay if you start listening to The Killers because it’s your brother’s favorite band or if you decide you want to get red converse like the ones your best friend has. but it’s okay if you can’t “keep up” with their grades or will never be able to do eyeliner as well as they can or maybe it seems like they just love life more than you do. I just want you to know that there are unattainable parts of you too. you can like things about other people that you don’t have, and you don’t have to give a compliment thinking god I wish I was like that. you don’t have to be like that. it’s okay to just be the things you are. you don’t have to be everything. 

#found this in my drafts from a couple years ago & thought it was still pretty relevant haha #this isn't at anyone other than myself but #sometimes i look at the people i love and think !!!!! this part about them is so wonderful!!!!! #i want to be wonderful in the same way!!!! because i love it in them and so i want to love it in me too #but you can't have every quality and you can't be good at everything #it's okay to be what you already are #not to say that you can't try to emulate your role models don't take pieces of your loved ones for yourself #we are collages of every person we've ever loved ever known #but you don't have to #you don't have to take everything you don't have to be everything #you don't have to be like someone you love #someone you know is loveable #to be loveable too. #you can. i started listening to the magnus archives because of my friends and i like to try my hand at aus i loved reading #and those things bring me a lot of joy!!! and i love them!! #but sometimes it can turn into. why isn't this as good as theirs why can't i look like them or have as cool clothes as them or whatever #'i'm so sick of myself / rather be rather be / anyone anyone else' #'i know their beauty's not my lack / i know their win is not my loss' #maybe this is a very selfish mindset. it feels like it and ha #i wish i wasn't as selfish a friend as my friends are #do you see how this works #hm. this probably doesn't make much sense. #i just. you don't have to be everything #you are already the things you are and that's already enough #fiona speaks #i just think comparison #comparison and shame are at the root of so many of our problems. they are one of the greatest enemies to us #take pieces but. ha a uquiz told me once that your fuel does not have to be shame #idk just. yeah. what other people have is not your lack #idk

[miakilledherself]

finished reading exquisite corpse

#i feel.. empty #i feel like i would’ve had more fun with the book if i didn’t feel so much for the victims #tran was so loveable i want to cry for him #forget that #i would’ve enjoyed all of it much more if what happened to tran wasn’t so obviously based on dahmer’s victim #i feel hurt #everything about tran’s character makes me want to cry #i wish the book wasn’t so heavily inspired by dahmer #especially what happened to tran #there’s pain in my heart!! #i loved so many things about this book but the ending made me feel so much all i can do is stare at the wall and suffer #exquisite corpse

[riddlingwife]

mmmmyea i feel shitty rn :3c i might be being a bit of an asshole rn tho

#vent / rant in tags #lily's vent tag #gonna just. reject the sweetest guy i've ever met because it's so excruciatingly painful to have somebody who genuinely likes me #does it make sense? not at all #actually hah i dont think he even likes ME. he likes the idea he made up of me. i'm not that sweet or admirable or loveable. i wish you #would stop telling me that because i'm not worthy of that shit man you barely know me youve known me for 3 weeks

[mechawolfie]

i understand it's ok to feel my feelings, andi know a lot of these feelings are a result of my upbringing, but I really do wish I didn't feel this crushing loneliness at seeing my friends have fun without me

#smudgy.txt #.vent #its just the knowledge that i am Stuck. in my house and in my head and in my body #and feeling like im not.. Enough. bc of all of that #now im workibg on accepting the fact that life simply Happens regardless if im involved or not #and i can understand and appreciate that fact #it makes me happy to know my friends are happy #but the feeling is still there. and makes me want to isolate #result of feeling Other as a kid i guess. of thinking theres smth inherently Wrong w me & so i should spare others my existence #i wish i werent so closed off. i wish i were more extroverted. i wish i were more confident. i wish i felt real and loveable #etc etc etc

[poppy-metal]

#sudden sadness #oh how i wish i was LOVEABLE #for the love of GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDD

[bunches-of-lilacs]

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#close to crying and idk i just wish i felt less alone #i wish i felt loveable #its strange...ive had so many people express interest in me #but it hasnt helped at all #because theyre not really seeing me anyway #and its ruined things in so many ways #and i just want someone to love me and for it to feel right and not...i dont know- objectifying? #like i know they dont mean it that way but #i feel like an object of desire #not a person #idk i just want forehead kisses and for someone to tell me its okay #i want cuddles and to be called sweetheart #i want things to be easier #and yeah these problems are fucking tiny compared to so much thats happening #so im sorry for that #if anyone reads this i mean #totally fair if you dont hah

[retiredtothebriars]

i feel like i have worked so hard and improved myself so much especially this year but i also feel like i will never be like a natural Person it will always be a performance and everyone can sense it

#i dont want to even be Normal i just wish i was loveable

[housewifebuck]

Bambi looks like toothless in the last photo. She looks loveable.

UR RIGHT SHE DOES AHHAHAH

#she is sooo loveable btw #like everyone she meets she just wants to be held and loved on #just falls asleep on u instantly #she would make a really good therapy cat #her adopters are gonna be very lucky people 😭😭😭 I wish we could keep her #Jess said no 😔😔😔😔 #asks #anonymous #office hours