Followed your blog for a little while but I just started watching Hannibal and... uh...
I binged the first series in one day. This show was made by gods I was working and the entire shift I was just turning the dialogue over in my head like "omg that's related to- that's what he meant when- and then" completely incoherent and dead to the world around me. And Oh my the sets and the costumes and the editing and the everything!
So uh. Yeah. I geddit now
(Also spent the back half of season one calling Hannibal a bitch whenever he was on screen)
it absolutely stuns, amazes, and bewilders me (affectionate) that people who havent seen hannibal follow my blog considering its like 99% hannibal or hannibal adjacent. yall are on a whole different level and i respect it
welcome to the hannibal brain rot though, there is no cure but at least you aren't suffering alone <3 it has absolutely infiltrated so many aspects of my day to day life and rearranged my brain. just wait until you finish the show, the brain rot is not yet in full bloom until then
(hannibal is definitely a bitch dw)
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Strangers by Ethel cain is the most billy hargrove song to ever exist
Literally I can draw parallels on like every line and harringrove-ify it
“In your basement, I grow cold”-
Billy’s body left in the morgue after starcourt, waiting for Neil to be bothered to organise a funeral
“Don’t talk to strangers or you might fall in love”-
Billy being forced to move to this new town, and meeting Steve, and being devastated that he can’t stop being everything Neil hates.
“How funny, i never considered myself tough”-
billy being forced out of his pretty embroidered clothes and the things he loves Into this sporty badboy persona to stay safe from his dad
“You’re so handsome, walking over to me now”-
the whole “yeah it’s me, don’t cream your pants” scene at the Byers’. No other notes.
“I tried to be good, am I no good? Am I no good? Am I no good?”-
billy being everything his dad wants him to be and it still not being enough. No matter how hard he tries, he can’t be straight enough, can’t be tough enough, can’t be respectful enough.
“With my memory restricted to a Polaroid in evidence”-
the fact that Billy’s entire existence was just like, forgotten (and actively and wilfully ignored) by everyone but max, and Jason that one time.
“I just wanted to be yours, can I be yours, can I be yours?”-
billy just always wanting Steve’s attention at every turn. Just wanting him to look at him. Pushing him around in gym, staring at him in the showers, doing whatever he can to get his eyes on him.
“If I’m turning in your stomach and making you feel sick”-
in a literal sense, getting half eaten by the mind flayer, figuratively, his memory haunting max and never giving her peace, no matter what she tries.
“When my mother sees me on the side of a milk carton——she’ll cry, and wait up for me”-
The idea of Billy’s mother finding out her son died years later from a random newspaper article or something, not knowing how she didn’t realise he’d died. How she didn’t feel her child dying.
“I’m happier here, because he told me I should be”-
either the MF getting in Billy’s head, telling him he’s doing the right thing, telling him he likes it, or Neil forcing them all to Indiana and demanding a new start, to be the perfect family, to not cause problems.
“You’re so handsome when I’m all over your mouth”-
the fight at the Byers def crossed some wires in that boys head seeing Steve all bloody. Boy ain’t right. But neither am I
“Found you just to tell you I made it real far”-
one of the last things billy sees is the memory of being back in California. Just for a moment he got to be home.
“And I never blamed you for loving me the way that you did”-
billy thinking Neil is justified in what he does because he’s been to conditioned to hate himself, and his mother leaving just creates a whole mess of self worth issues.
Alternatively, max getting older and understanding the nuances of what exactly was going on in that house, and finally forgiving billy completely.
“While you were torn apart, I would still wait with you there”-
max holding him as he died, despite everything, so he wasn’t alone at the end.
“Don’t think too hard about it or you’ll never sleep a wink at night again”-
max not being able to move on, blaming herself for not saving him. Plus the whole eddie parallels with vecna.
“Don’t worry bout me and these green eyes, mama just know that I love you, and I’ll see you when you get here”-
billy knowing that the only chance he’ll ever get to see his mother again is in heaven, and finally being at peace with dying because everything will be okay once he sees her again.
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