#i was dealing w stuff :(

[stankworth]

after many years of being strong // may you have the chance to be gentle again

#simon blackquill #aura blackquill #athena cykes #ace attorney #more fanfi c deleted scenes :V this is how i deal w being stressed #i hope its clear theyre getting simons stuff from auras storage unit and putting aura's stuff in while shes in priso n #this sequence is also many headcannons deep. mainly that he was into birds before samurai stuff and also is autisti c #there's scholarship abt the correlation btwn being aut istic and tra ns. not that simon is but he mightve been Bad At Gende r in other ways #as in Let Me Bring My Soft Pink Thing To School. which might lead you to seek out more mas c interests at some point #like strong muscuIar men fighting each other with swords. A very manIy interest for someone whos 1000% straigh t of course #Also if you consider the timing and Auras whole Vibe I think you will agree she was a scene queen #my art

[eggdrawsthings]

Dream

#sorry i have a new obsession #but im having school stuff to deal w now so u might not see me as often anymore #my art #the sandman #the sandman netflix #lord morpheus #dream of the endless #matthew the raven #neil gaiman

[lemongogo]

sry i dont know what 2 draw anymore T_T . elendira portrait #999

#trigun #trigun maximum #elendira #elendira the crimsonnail #my art #im sure u can see it but ive been so uninspired w art lately T_T #ive tried to remedy it by just looking and observing. breaking down other works that i want 2 take direction from #but i tjknk its like . just jamming ME UPPP #and now im tjinking Too much ab it and psyching myself out #help me sorry i blow up the tags on every drawing i post ab my art struggles😭😭 #its like im whispering in here thouggh. just talking 2 myself and no one has 2 know except the ppl dealing w the same feelings #HAJAHA #anyways. i drew this just to say i finally drew smth agajn and im just going to be ok w it #like sure its not exciting but i like the colors and that shld be enough . OK !!!! #smth smth saw a post that talked ab how u get too in ur Head about this and then u dont share stuff and it becomes cyclical #and youll never get anywhere unless u just throw ur hands in the air and let it Be . #creating 4 the sake of creating . love and joy in sharing what we made and what we like #YAAAY #and bc i love elendira so much.. my go to girlie 4 art block #i need to draw her in fight scenes . i need 2 make art of her like sweaty and bloody yah . clenching my fist #maybe a livio fight scene bc i love it so much T_T

[creepfactors]

“can you believe ppl are shipping dhmis characters thats so cringey and-”

where have you been. where have you been the last 8 years.

#dhmis #dont hug me im scared #fluffybird #binged the new content and loved it but checking the new fan stuff and seeing ppl being baffled abt shipping the puppets ages me 20 years #i havent been a fan since the padlock days to deal w this.... anyways heres some funney gay ppl doodles

[quadrantadvisor]

Alright new Jason Todd headcanons in a dpxdc setting:

Danny is a "liminal" ghost, rather than a "half" ghost. He's alive and dead at the same time. (He's like Jesus Christ (in the church denomination I grew up in), fully ghost and fully human.) Danny, in human form, can go through a ghost shield, because he IS a living human.

Jason, however, is a reanimated corpse. He isn't a ghost, wouldn't have a ghost core, etc, he has a normal human system that runs ON ectoplasm. Jason CANNOT go through a ghost shield, because he is always an ectoplasmic entity. Danny can go through the Fenton Ghost Catcher and be split into a ghost and a human; if Jason went through the ghost catcher, he would straight up die.

(For my purposes I'm gonna say that Jason became an ectoplasmic entity upon his resurrection, but wasn't very stable. Dunking in the Lazarus pit stabilized his system but also poisoned his ectoplasm.)

I do think that Jason could learn certain ghost abilities if he learned to harness his ectoplasm, especially if they detoxed him off the Lazarus waters. He's probably already enhancing his stealth and strength in ways he hasn't really noticed. I think he's held back by the amount of physical matter he's lugging around, so maybe he couldn't fly, but I'm imagining temporary invisibility, or intagibility of like, a limb at a time. Maybe he can't walk through walls, but in a fight he can dodge by instinctively making the targeted part of his body intangible.

#i saw someone call jason a 'revenant' in a fanfic once and that is juicy as hell so I'm stealing that- that's what he is in this au #Jason's ectoplasm does react to other ectoplasmic entities so they can sense eachother #but for ghosts he's fucking weird because he doesn't have a core for them to resonate with or w/e #danny would probably think that he's another halfa/liminal at first but the more time they spend together the more that doesn't add up #so I know that I'm trying to give Jason ghost powers but honestly this whole thing is kind of a bum deal for him #he gets all of a ghost's weaknesses and barely any of the benefits #honestly I'm conceptualizing this as more of a disability than a superpower #discovering that youre less alive than you thought you were and you're technically just a walking talking corpse running on supernatural goo #is fucked up and creepy and upsetting! #and it's something that he would have to come to terms with before he could start exploring what new opportunities it might give him #and i think that's really interesting #it's part of why I love messing with Jason in dpxdc stories so much #danny is fully ghost and fully human and he never feels like he fits in anywhere already #Jason is not quite human and not quite ghost so you can imagine how that would go for him #anyways i think they should be best friends and visit frostbite in the realms to make sure jason is healthy and also they should maybe kiss #and listen to the black parade together and talk about dying and stuff #danny fenton #jason todd #dp x dc #dpxdc #danny phantom #dc #batfam #my rambles

[marsbotz]

can you even call urself a real ninjago fan if you dont have at least one side character ur weirdly obsessed abt…

#dont take this too seriously lol its fine if u only like the mains #for me its gayle and vinny forver. my funnies 💖 #i love bentho too. miss him like crazy #my most obscure ninjago eepy is rachel sparrow who was jays manager in between s3 and s4 #shes in One book that i have not even read. but i like her bc i literally. PROPHESISED her i was like #Haha what if jay had like someone working on the show w him who he got attached to and they became friends.. #And her name was .. rachel. why not #AND SHE WAS REAL. AND I DIDNT EVEN KNOW #its my hc that they stay in touch and jay occasionally asks her for like tv deals and stuff around s6 #farts #ninjago #dont get me STARTED on gayle and vinny i have so much shit to say abt them. #but. theyre my favourites. theyre cute. theyre besties. theyre trans. epic

[reallybadblackoutpoems]

a tweet ! (2023) - @/bobby on twitter

“’ohhhh boo hoo im unfulfilled in life i dont know what to do’ literally just have a baby. teeth”

submitted by @ladylarco

#blackout poetry #submission #hello!! #sorry i didnt get to this quickly #i like. #have not checked submissions in 1000 years #have been dealing w personal stuff ig #life is so beautiful #anyway #thank you so much for your submission!! #oh edit: #am debating making a post out of james somertons patreon post #would that be too evil

[halogen2]

sorry but listening to gay trans men from the 90s talk about safe sex is like. moving me to tears right now and im not even sure why

#IT WASNT THAT LONG AGO BUT ALSO IT WAS #AND THOSE R PEOPLE LIKE ME WHO ARE DEALING W THE SAME STUFF I DEAL WITH #but also their experiences were so different than mine. but also in other ways theyre the exact same #i love u digital transgender archive dot net #txt

[ink-the-artist]

random question, do you think it's possible for someone who has lost their creativity to regain it? ..asking for a friend..

im not sure what your situation is, but i believe everyone has creative potential just from being a human being and you cant just permanently lose your creativity. i struggle with losing creativity at times, usually its when I go into a depressive period. I usually just keep making art through it, ill look through old ideas I wrote down or work on commissions just stuff that doesnt require a ton of creativity but keeps me working on art. even if I dont feel good doing it just doing the work of making art helps me to eventually want to make art again

#i dont rly have any advice for this sorry #but this kind of sounds like burnout #idk if what I do will work for you or not all i can really do is share how i deal w it #i go in and out of depressive episodes kind of like bipolar but without manic episodes #i just feel like total shit for some weeks or months and then feel normal again and its independent of enviornmental stuff or triggers #i cant rly do anything about it except try to lessen the depression w meds and such

[hawkinsp0st]

holy shit, this post just made something click for me.

both will and mike’s arcs have revolved around being separated from each other again and again and again.

every season they’re torn apart in some way, and one of them is desperately trying to get the other back—s1 physically, s2 spiritually, s3 emotionally, and again in s4 by physical distance…

yeah, their arcs are woven together and it went totally over my head. their happy ending is each other. it’s written this way.

#i can’t believe this is real life??? #byler #even mike’s arc…….yes el is a part of it bc she’s a main character too and their arcs are intertwined to an extent #but el spends most of her screentime each season dealing with the UD/lab/powers related stuff #not her relationship with mike #but nearly all of mike’s screentime away from el revolves around will and whatever current separation byler is facing #yeah holy shit. holy shit #el’s arc is about finding and accepting herself starting to heal her trauma & finding her real family #byler’s arcs are about falling in love. plain and simple #mike’s arc having two parallel love stories going on……….one with el and the other with will……….it’s done narratively on purpose to draw #attention to mike’s experience w romantic love #we’re supposed to be paying attention to that #i have chills. #narrative tag

[pepperpixel]

- IM A MAGIC MAN -

Betty and magic man art!!!! Cuz!!!! Look me in the eyes and fuckin TELL me these two were not a fucked up / death spiral / make each other worse duo… you CANNOT!!! THEY ARE THE SAME!!! THEY UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER!! IN A WAY NO ONE ELSE POSSIBLY COULD… and! I just rlly wanted to draw them ghghg- cuz! I think there whole thing is interesting! Complicated as hell! Yes! But also interesting! Also made an extra meme thing w em too:

#adventure time #betty grof #magic man #normal man #king man #at magic man #adventure time magic man #doodles #THIS GUYS FUCKING NAME… bane of my existence… #I wanna like. scour the internet for any old fan content of him but it’s SO DIFFICULT… cuz of his stupid fucking name!!! #but uh. yeah anyway… THESE TWO ARE SO INTERESTING TO ME IM SORRY #cinematic parallels… they are dealing w the same fucking shit. #they can see themselves in each other… but they hate themselves… #it paradoxically makes them both viscous w each other yet also having this solidarity and understanding!!! #and I love that!!!!! #i wanna kno wtf they were doing together when they weren’t on screen!!!! how did they meet!!! what got them to first work together!!! #it’s so interesting!!!! I kno I keep repeating that but it’s cuz it’s true ghfh- #ignore the lil bar at the bottom of the meme image it’s from my phone ghg #I guess they probably first met and stuff cuz of Betty’s research into wizards and stuff actually.. that mystery has been solved ghgh #but STILL… I wanna… I want more of them interacting they like scratch an itch in my brain idek how to describe it ghg #also if… any of the words or tags in this post make no sense… it’s cuz I wrote all this after drawing for like 8 hours straight.. #also I refused to turn my music off while trying to write which. didn’t help ghgh- #I stand by the fact that these two have an extremely interesting dynamic that I want to see more ppl talk about tho! #I just. feel there’s a chance I probably didn’t articulate my thoughts on it well on account of my brain being mush ghghg #also n regards to the ‘make each other worse’ thing. I actually think after U Forgot Ur Floaties magic man is actually trying to help Betty #he just fucking sucks at it gHG- but he is trying! #I kinda think betty is trying to be nice to him too honestly… like even tho bringing up trying to save margles is actually SUPER fucked up #I think it IS betty trying to be nice to him.. like ‘ur my friend! I’m gonna save my guy. we can fuckin save ur guy too…’ like!!! #these 2 are both trying to be helpful in there own ways but they both are fucking dog shit at it ghgh-

[nyaskitten]

Listen, this has been a consistent issue I've had to deal with quite some time now, so I'm not targetting anyone specific, this is not meant to demonize or attack anyone in particular, this is just me setting a boundary.

If I say "please do not put X thing on my post" I fucking mean I do not want X thing on my post, whether it be character negativity or a certain ship, if I SAY I don't want it, I do not fucking want it. Keep that shit away from me. I don't CARE how much you hate a character I like, keep that shit to your fucking self!

Now, can I be unclear sometimes? Yes, yes I can, and I'll take responsibility for that. HOWEVER, it is generally a good rule of thumb to follow to... not put things on someone's post if they ask you not to??? 9/10 it's not a secret, disguised invitation for you to add that to their fucking posts.

#after 3 years of being overly active and dealing w this shit its just starting to piss me off too much #ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #raine's rambles #tagging as ninjago bc all the stuff this post is related to is ninjago stuff lol #swearing #cw swearing #swearing cw #i wouldnt normally tag my swears but i say fuck a tremendous amount here.

[comixandco]

ik that taako’s voice in the first episode was because justin was still figuring out his character but i like to imagine that before joining bob taako put on fake accents to avoid being recognised, since he was wanted for the whole poisoning incident, but also for the bit

and then kravitz changes accents mid-fight in crystal kingdom and then drops them during their date at the chug ‘n’ squeeze and taako’s like oh 😳 same hat 😳

#taz balance #the adventure zone #taakitz #taz taako #i’m relistening to the entire balance arc and idk i just think it’s fun to take little abandoned details from the early runs and make them #into headcanon’s. like the whole taako and lup went to a religious boarding school headcanon bc of justin’s one-off comment about olmec #taako can’t even remember his god’s name but he is very religious you guys. they definitely got expelled from the school. #merle gave up on pan between the beach and bob bc his most religious experiences and connections w pan were wiped from his memory. but #exploring and something about his new boss sparks a nostalgia for his og god and he tries to re-build his faith. #magnus’ knife is lowkey prophetic but nobody notices (while riffing on it they mention a +8 weapon that deals an incredible amount of damag #e aka the sword of doom; and they say how in the final arc a dragon will appear from nowhere and has been there the whole time and it loves #you aka lup) #merle doesn’t trust gundren because he has so few memories of his cousin/his family there isn’t anything to gauge his intentions from #sildar hallwinter is barry’s go-to undercover name #y’know. stuff like that #i like re-contexting old information to fit with the new

[stuckinapril]

I’ve always loved medicine bc it’s the perfect intersection of science and humanity—the two things I value above all else in this world. Truly adored it since I was in the cradle. But now I’m thinking about how so much of my journey to neurosurgery will have to involve KILLING my feelings essentially bc how do you survive otherwise

#Not to mention the surprisingly high suicide rate of surgeons that’s been brought to my attention lately #Honestly I just started my neuro internship and just saw my first patient in clinic #And on the day I did I was critical of my neurologist for being so robotic about it #Now I can see why #I’m still at a point where I can’t even do a chart review for a patient without feeling so fucking sad #And I can see how that can get unsustainable after a while #But it’s like if I kill the feelings that drive my passion for medicine to begin with then what’s the point #It’s not like I’m in it for the money or prestige bc that’s so dumb considering how long the schooling is #But literally how to deal #My supervisors at the clinic very much all speak about the dementia patients w a learned impartialness #But I don’t wanna be that way one day :( but how to be anything else and still survive #I’m pre med so I still have time and maybe my opinion will change and I’ll wanna do another specialty #But when it comes to this every specialty will involve human lives and navigating that regardless #That said I can see why surgeons are at higher risk or depression suicide etc #The whole point of this internship is to teach myself how to navigate this stuff but. Hate it #p #med tag

[the-scintillant-sys-sideblog]

i saw a stupid post full of exclusionism and was. tired anyways shoutout to system members who are transfem, transmasc, transneutral, and/or any other trans modality i'm forgetting - whether it "matches" with the body or not we put up with so much bullshit sometimes

#cy.txt #pluralgang #endo safe #plural system #...i want to add trans specific tags but. ough my fear bc we have less exclus blocked here and i Cannot deal w that #anyways i'm tired especially when it's other systems that try to dictate what can and can't be used #like buddy you don't know the specifics of our situation and even then it's weird to be policing labels as heavily as you are. fuck off #idk if i'm explaining this right it's 2 am in our timezone and am multitasking other stuff at the same time #i'd love to explain this further from a personal lens but also there's information we are Not sharing about us bc too personal so. No </3

[pocketgalaxies]

oh also still still STILL thinking about "people hate me because of you. and i'm a victim." just bc it's so simple and heartbreaking and unfair

#like. what do you do when you go back to your own torture chamber and you're attacked for being the torturer. #how do you DEAL with that. without losing your mind #obviously i'm extrapolating i doubt that was her Literal Torture Chamber but you get what i mean #and ofc w gwen. when this hatred that doesn't even belong to you is so strong and present within your own chest #that this girl can't even look at you anymore #text #nova shh #critical role #cr3 #laudna cr #angst tag #delilah briarwood #hi natalie reading this! i'm trying to put some stuff in the delilah tag but it's 11pm this is all i got rn