#i wanted to you all can fight me later

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Flashback, warm nights.

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#Poorly Drawn MDZS #MDZS #Season 1 #wei wuxian #lan wanji #jiang cheng #should I have a teen tag? for all the flashbacks? Maybe I'll add it later #Linking the song for its 80's vibes + flashback melancholy + I think its fun #We have finally arrived at the cloud recess flashback! Dramatic first meetings under the moonlight! A sword fight! acknowledgement of skill #Its like everything you see in a 'No Homo' martial arts story that makes you go 'hold on that's a little...' #except we rejoice; for these bitches do be nurturing plot relevant homoromantic tension #I have to give a shout out to 15 year old wwx for in all honesty he had no way of knowing who he was facing #on day *one* of cultivation Christian summer camp! talk about bad luck #ok some other notes: I wanted to give non mxy!wwx distinct features while still looking somewhat consistant #and i think im happy with it! Softer bangs + mole + different hair tie ain't much but it works for me #they'll soon all be in white with small accents so I gotta do what I can #What im not happy about is my paneling B*/ theres no excuse for why I went back to the bad 3 square format other than I was lazy #Sadly I do these in batches so my bad habits stick around for a little longer

[chitinleg]

"Mister Bashir, what a pleasure it is to finally meet you."

Julian, why in god's name would you invite him to play the villain?

#my art #ds9 #julian bashir #elim garak #star trek deep space nine #garashir #image desc in alt text #pencil #ok so on the outset it may look to some viewers as though julian invited garak to play the villain to get dommed by the scary lizard #this is not the case. not in my heart #in my heart julian felt a burst of something funny when Garak asked him ''what if you'd killed me'' #and he responded ''what makes you think i wasn't trying'' and garaks face blooms into a sudden understanding and respect. ooh. #That's that heady shit. catching garak off guard. ooooh. that's that High Quality Endorphins Happening. but. gotta pack that up for later #(he will not unpack that later) because garak also just threatened to kill 5 of his friends who are STILL IN DANGER. NO TIME FOR THIS. #so after everything. and MONTHS after OMB. he invites garak to something like a playful rematch. sort of. #after all theres only so long that garak can stomach being a sidekick u know? he needs to be able to do his own machinations. #so they make a character for him thats a villain. a little more cerebral than falcon. a little more ambiguous in his motivations. #now there's also. a secret game at play here (there are always games. doctor) and its actually between garak and his own self #you see garak Also wants bashir to defeat his character. he also wants to be shocked. challenged. a little dismantled even (state forbid!) #and because garak wants that for himself? hes going to fight tooth and fucking nail to make sure it doesn't happen. #that Gayle clip from ''COMPANY IS COMING'' but its garak yelling ''WE CAN'T LET THEM KNOW WE [WANT]!!!'' #and its a horrible idea for both of them but. oh so so exciting #you understand. #these rituals arent intricate so much as they are transparent but all encompassing. a fish doesnt know its swimming in water until its out #you understand? you understand. #thank you to anyone who found the time to read these tags i hope you enjoyed yourself and/or found what you were looking for #also garak is dressed so boring bc hes hiding himself u know how it is

[alexcabotgf]

not to be true crime posting on main but i think i'm falling down the wm3 rabbit hole again

#xenia.txt #when i tell you this case keeps me up at night to this day #not even the murders themselves as much as the general public's reception to and opinions on the case 3 decades later like #i get why it;s always been so divisive especially after the pl docus came out (lots of opinions on those btw none of them are good #from the bottom of my heart fuck you joe berlinger and bruce sinofsky) #but it's truly baffling how no one is willing to do the research on what is arguably THE most well documented true crime case in recent #history like. everything that's ever been released to the general public is available online and i mean everything #you can find all the court files trial transcripts depositions interogation tapes aerial photos you name it it's out there for anyone with #internet connection to access at any and all hours of the day #and yet people are still foaming at the mouth fighting on reddit abt their innocence based off nothing but a couple of movies like #bffr with me right now!! almost every point the innocenters make can be easily debunked by scrolling through callahan for 15 minutes #'but they've been pushing for dna testing since their release so they can't be guilty' baby the case is closed! #it's been closed the second they took the plea. they can be striking under that courthouse and it still won't change a thing and they knowi #that's why they're pushing for it in the first place but that's just my opinion #^ and i say they but it's really only echols which makes a lot of sense to me personally #and if you want to talk abt dna testing let's talk abt the one that was done in 2011 and how the defense hurried to propose the plea as soo #as they got the results! let's talk abt those cause no one's ever seen them and i would very much like to #braga share the results the people want to know!! #makes me wonder which pieces of evidence they even submitted for that 2011 testing because if i'm remembering correctly #there was one that would've closed this case instantly and maybe that's why the results were never disclosed and the plea was rushed #but that's also just my opinion #and it's also interesting how the majority of people who have in fact deep dived into this case #(and i'm not talking abt big true crime youtubers as i'm very sceptical abt their research abilities) #all collectively lean towards guilty. much to think about #i was hoping someone would make another ~actually~ unbiased documentary for the 30th anniversary and go over all the case files #but i don't think that's even realistic at this point seeing as everyone and their mother has some sort of an opinion on this case #hbo deserves another lawsuit for this. they should've never won the first one in the first place #true crime tw

[ittybittybumblebee]

i want to see exactly how many people actually have thought i am for research because ive gotten this quite a few times from different people i just wanna see how far it goes

#please understand while im not doubting so much now im not going to base off everything by peoples perceptions of my online behavior but #i feel like it does give good insight #i just always have a little hesitation in me because i feel like no one can get a full scope or honest picture of myself to Know me enough #to say that i can trust their opinion of me without knowing me enough in that sense #gahh. cuz i always feel like im doing Just Fine Enough i feel normal enough but im not guhh. #GUHHGGGHGH #it literally wouldnt change anything for me. like im autistic . ok! shrugs my shoulders. i cope i cant to anything more to help myself #than that #do u guys get it. do i have to go eat bricks or do u guys get it. my internal struggle. im like sisyphus #i cant trust other peoples opinions of my and i cant trust my own perceptions #while of course self diagnosis is a wonderful thing i dont want to put a name on myself that serves me no purpose #autism is awesome but do i deserve that title when dont feel like i own it wether i am autistic or not #im just so conflicted. #do you get it. do you get me. am i being reasonable . am i just fighting a truth about myself or are my doubts realistic. but the Evidence. #im so tired #i do not wanna b one of those tiktok girlies saying theyr hyperfixated on cooking pasta #Now do you get me #all my long winded rabbit trail rambles out of me before i finally get to my one point condensed conclusion #and now i just cant delete the rest of my tags because of all my time spent on them #enjoy my indentity crisis lol #i Might delete some of these tags later

[camellcat]

thinking about angel!Liam just absolutely fucking decking demon!Theo

Liam is, at first, completely horrified, right? like, oh, dear heavens, he just punched someone! that's not very holy of him! ...but also, Theo is a demon... surely he's just... acting within his angelic duties... to thwart demon wiles... yeah...?

and Theo cannot decide whether to laugh his ass off because he just got an angel to punch someone or start panicking that maybe he's pushed Liam too far and he'll be discoperated or smth. which ofc he won't be bc Liam (as much as he loath to admit it) does not hate Theo, but they are not at the stage in which Theo is certain of that!!

but once Theo gets him back it (dreadfully, in Liam's opinion, and cruelly giddily in Theo's) becomes a Thing.

#oh yeah that's right Liam threw the first punch #Theo talked big game but never actually put his hands on the angel for fear of being smited(? smut? smitten.) #Liam? Liam tried very very hard to talk no game and then came out swinging (literally) #and Theo was absolutely overjoyed to take advantage of that #they both have caused their fair share of bloody noses #only one has to hide it and the other gets to revel in tempting an angel to such a petty violence #at first it starts off as Theo egging Liam into fights so he can sock the stupid angel #but when Liam starts getting attention from Upstairs after a few centuries of this back and forth they've got going on #Theo quickly tries to spin it into something positive for the both of them (thinking of 6x16. you are too. we all are) #forces him to realize he in fact does not want to lose his only... whatever Liam is to him #I think Liam would warm up to Theo first even if he will not say it #Liam fell first Theo fell harder blah blah blah such and such and the likes #being creative is exhausting sheeesh can someone make my au for me LOL #anyways this was another exercise in “I wanted to draw this but the drawing was refusing to happen so here it is in words instead” #thiam #theo raeken #liam dunbar #teen wolf #good omens #so sorry go people but I need to find this later and it IS a go crossover au so... I mean it counts... I think

[vigilskeep]

have a slightly stressful thing to do today so i am going to be exclusively thinking about whatever gender fhawke has going on to distract myself and oh boy is it working

#i love women who are their dads and also the eldest brother and also the lady heiresses of an estate and also snarling dog lords #and everyone who meets them is fucking obsessed with them. me too! #in my head fhawke to athenril is like sneaking a taste of the fine goods she smuggles #and then on the opposite end 3 acts later hawke is showing up to hightown parties in bloodstreaked champion armour #and putting her muddy boots on the table #and the young lords and ladies are blushing. giggling. fans fluttering #but i will be quiet before i speak too much. i just think shes. well i think shes very. #the isabelamance is such a fun one to explore hawkes who have that disconnect between their lowtown and hightown selves #‘you can get your thrills in hightown if you know where to look’ and all that #you want to have your cake and eat it too. the fancy estate and the nights in the hanged man #the freedom spent in fine company and the magic crackling at your fingertips #the suitors that flatter you on your arm and the pirate you love in your bed. etc #you think if you just fight hard enough you can have it all but it keeps slipping between your fingers #i love characters with ambition its so so fun

[unfortunatelyilikebnha]

Every time I remember that bitch* jumped off the roof (he was FINE even though he shouldn’t have been but whatever, anime logic) I always get way too concerned abt it like YOURE GOING. TO BREAK YOUR ANKLES BE MORE CAREFUL FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

*kai toshiki

#cfv #kai toshiki #like I know he’s possessed and uhhhh doesn’t rlly care abt himself #but if he wants to fight Aichi and Ren he should not be risking his safety like that #like does he rlly think they’d fight him when he broke both his ankles? #NO BITCH they’re dragging your ass clawing and snarling and all to to the nearest hospital #//aichi voice// uh sorry takuto can we take a rain check on me defeating you I have to drag this dumb bitch to the hospital :/ sorry #actually the thought of them driving r!kai to the hospital chewing him out the whole time while he’s like wtf??? is kinda funny #kai: I am EVIL I’m SPREADING THE REVERSE and I’m DOING IT ON PURPOSE what the fuck are you guys doing #m​isaki: you can be evil later right NOW you’re being told Not To Jump Off Roofs You Fucking Idiot #naoki: yeah dude. not cool :/ #sorry for all the swearing I hate him (/affectionate /derogatory) #clare dont look #elliot dont look <3 #this has been in the drafts for A WHILE* oops #*since february #still true though. be more careful Kai!!

[pepprs]

i literally need there to stop being situations circumstances events developments complications and happenstances. for the fucking love of god

#purrs #but there will never stop being any of those things so actually what i literally need is to learn HARD AND FAST how to stop getting so #fucking triggered over a situation i know is NOTHING so bad that im anxious for the entire rest of the day and can’t even get any work done. #like (jade from tesco voice) girls… im not gonna lie to you. i think therapy is not working. i think i am not mentally or emotionally strong #enough to work in this job and i think i am never going to get mentally or emotionally stronger. ive been stuck in the quicksand too long #and now im atrophying. i cannot develop the situational awareness and motor skills or awakeness (and i mean AWAKEness.) to safely and #consistently drive a car. i cannot develop the intellect and drive and courage to get an advanced degree or be in a leadership position that #everyone actually sees as a leadership position lmfao. and i cannot develop the emotional intelligence and inner peace to not get triggered #out of my fucking mind at work to the point where im having anxiety heart palpitations and fighting back tears. i am just stuck as i am #forever. and you know how i know that? BECAUSE IVE WORKED AT THE NATIONALLY RENOWNED CENTER FOR YOU-ARE-NOT-STUCK-AS-YOU-ARE-FOREVER FOR #FIVE FUCKING YEARS SINCE ITS LITERAL FOUNDING AND HELPED TO FOUND IT AND IM STILL LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!! i go back to square one EVERY #FUCKING DAY!!!!!!!! how am i supposed to tell other people who they are is what they bring and the world can change and whatever when i am #the fucking antithesis of that. when i don’t even believe my own words. like the way i want to punch out every window in this building rn i #HATE BEING LIKe this i hate being in the psychic prison of scared little girl mode all the time forever no matter what and being beyond help #and disappointing and burdening the people around me because i can’t be fucking normal about like. hierarchy and institutional politics LOL #delete later

[orcelito]

Went skimming thru late trimax For Reasons, got caught up reading the Legato fight, realized things about the fight that I never had before & went WOW, I kind of want to write an analysis post right now!

Felt the same kind of insanity grip me, however momentarily, that fueled all my analysis posts however many months ago. Too tired to actually word things coherently right now, but...

I May or may not have a full(ish?) analysis of the Legato & Vash fight a la style of This post analyzing the Trigun: Multiple Bullets fight that got unexpectedly kind of popular. People seemed to really appreciate that one, & I even had some ppl saying it could be cool if I did that for others?

So. Legato fight. Maybe. Feel free to remind me later if u see no mention of it again for over a week lol

#speculation nation #ive been wanting to go back into reading the manga again #ive only slowly (VERY slowly) been puttering along with where i am in my fic #for research purposes with the fic. #i do want to go back through the manga bc i STILL havent done a full reread of it #ive just reread so many different parts of it for assorted research that im probably getting to some 10 or so reads total lmao #i wanna reread it in full tho front to back to sort out any stray details and remember any timeline things i might have slightly skewed. #the problem with reading the manga though. is that every fucking time i look at it. i am consumed by a drive to research EVERY little thing #so me reading turns into 'hm thats interesting. that reminds me of this thing that i know happens in volume 8. let me just check that now--' #and i end up so dreadfully distracted every damn time. bc i end up with all my wires crossed and my attention pointing a million ways #it's exhausting. and so i havent been reading the manga outside of random research dives. #im very good at that. i know every volume of the manga and can find Anything within 1 or 2 mins (at the Most) #which is also kind of the problem lol. fingers in too many pies. so many things to think about. #if i get back into Actually rereading the manga tho you can bet ur ASS ill find more things to make posts about #every time i open up the manga i find new things that i could analyze. #i just havent. bc i dont have time. but. ykno what. maybe i Could get back into it... #remind me later. this is one of my favorite fucking fights with my favorite Fucking panels #and i realized smth about the shit Vash is doing that was making me lose my MINDDDD #later tho. ive been sleep deprived today. and it is time for me to rest. #& yea yea ITNL is still the main focus. but idk i have such a mind for details and i remember So many things about the manga #i wanna show that off to people again. and thus. Analyses!!! :D #later. goodnight for now

[orthopoogle]

To be brutally honest, a lot of the issues with public school are because of parents. Negligent parents don’t give a shit when they get a phone call about their kid cussing out a classmate or throwing a chair, but they sure as hell care when they hear their precious baby got recess time taken away for acting up in class. Problem kids don’t care about getting sent to the office or being put in ISS, because to them, it’s a free vacation out of the classroom, and their parents don’t hold them accountable for their behavior, so they’re not scared about consequences at home, either. So then, teachers are facing pressure from “customer service mindset” admin to “handle it on their own,” which means teachers are having to constantly stop what we’re doing every five seconds to address behaviors instead of actually getting to teach the rest of the kids who do want to learn and get their work done, which ultimately puts everyone behind.

#it’s admin too tbh #in my school last year I saw two students get into a fight out of the blue from across the classroom #I called admin to come take them out #the AP emailed me later on all ‘’well what were YOU doing when this happened?’’ #basically passing the blame onto me lol #apparently I’m supposed to have magic powers to physically control each kids at all times from every point in the room #meanwhile kids were back in my class the next day like nothing happened #parents were called and did not care #although one of the kids’ parents had called the office about me taking their kid’s recess time away another time #and I got in trouble for that #so basically these kids are learning they can do whatever they want with no consequences #whatever I’m done with teaching after this year #no one gives a shit about solving any of the real issues. I’m done!

[death-rebirth-senshi]

The depression has been really really bad this week and bloodborne's been the only thing keeping me afloat kinda.

#I've frequently not had the energy even to play video games which is when you know it's real bad #I haven't had a full week like this since I started taking my mood stabilizers. #personal #Where I'm just fighting with myself to get up and get anything done and only making it out with a fraction of what I planned #I do feel a little better right now though. I think I really needed that shower. #didn't get my sheets washed like I wanted. Did make chili. Turned out good despite me getting it started way later than I planned. #I basically planned to make chili yesterday because I was like. Well I *have* to get up out of bed early if I'm gonna do that #hahaha. #mostly to take the meat out of the fridge and let it finish thawing #but that at least was a success. Plus I showered. And cleaned the litter boxes. #is this really it. All I can squeeze out of myself. Is it something anti-depressants can really help with. Who knows.

[philsmeatylegss]

Today is like the last hot-ish day (not hot is wearing leggings without sweating) and good timing because girlie is having body issues more than normal

#I say more than normal because there has not been a moment that has passed since age 13 that I have not had body issues #it’s okay you can laugh it isn’t tragic when you think about it for too long because of the fact I was a child and so fucked up I was #was starving myself lololol #don’t even get me started on how I wanted to kms and was sh constantly when I was 14 and that truly just is devasting purely just tragic and #a waste of life lolololol #and it doesn’t matter how healthy I am now or how healthy I will get #I will never be normal #childhood trauma fucking rewired your brain in a way I cannot change ever lololol #no matter what restrictive ED’s don’t fully go away lololol #I want to have a healthy relationship and learn what love looks like and what healthy fights and proper communication looks like #but all I bring to the table is a shattered glass that I taped back together so like I can still hold water and I’m a whole glass but I will #always need this tape to keep me from breaking and I will always have cracks no matter what #wow this was a random rant😭😭 #rae’s rambles #delete later

[tart-miano]

my versions of Hyde and Utterson in tasteful fashion (based off of this post)

#jekyll and hyde #joapot #eddie haggman #sherry uttanka #my art #oc #sorry i saw this and i was like 'THEM!!' #i can see them in a target. sherry likes to shop for new hairclips. eddie pockets the ones she cant afford and gives em to her later #also. 'we should get matching shirts! but idk what you'd like...' #eddie: (gestures towards the shirts above like its so obvious) '...........do you even know me' #context (since i havent made a bio for Sherry yet)- #When Historian/Eddie graduate and move back hometown for work they reunite with their beloved old friend- #yk the song 'Who is She?' by I Monster? thats the way Eddie feels for her. he was born with Historian's memories- #and Historian had a huge squish on Sherry- so eddie inevitably wants so desperately to meet her and be with her too- #based off of how happy those memories he shares are. the two boys hang out with her all the time- #and act as partners in battle when the magical girl fights eventually happen later on in the story #someday i'll explain all the characters and story indepth but for now. there must be writing. or there shall be no story to talk about #such is the predestined fate of man. want to talk about ocs but cannot bc there is no finished story to give full context with

[deus-and-the-machina]

I havent really been into the current state of the JJK manga for a while, im at the point where its ending might hold some value for me as someone who was already invested in the characters but largely aside from seeing how a few things pan out I just really really couldn't care less. 

that being said I have to thank gege for every new chapter giving us more and more good looking Gojos. the more feral and covered in blood the better, and hoo boy am I getting that.

#god can he just kill sukuna already tho. like idc about this I want gojo v kenjaku #im of two minds on the megumi thing bc I do think its weird that gojo hasn't had any strong thoughts about potentially killing megumi #(tho i do think gege is like. holding them back rather than ignoring them) but I also think the fandom forgets their canon relationship #like yeah its nice to imagine them as a wholesome family but I dont think they even think of themselves as father and son at all lol #guardian and ward morelike. and I do think gojo was a decent guardian but I also dont think that recently traumatized and also annoying #teen gojo was ever like. very emotionally available or comforting. not to say it shouldn't be expected for gojo to be upset about this but #also I think people can get a little too wrapped up in their wholesome family pics. bc for one you can bet your ass gege doesnt care about #tsumiki enough to consider whether gojo was technically her guardian as well and how he'd care about her fate. or even nobaras it seems #holding out for gojo to be simply repressing his feelings and it biting him in the ass later but idk #he DID look strained when realizing megumis soul recognized ultimate void tho :(((( that does make me said :(((((( #anyways sukuna was a fine enough villain for me but ngl hes gotten a lil annoying likewhatevs dude idc. kenjaku is hells more cunty than you #normally I wouldn't mind his shallow motives and didnt bc he was a threat that contributed to the plot but now that hes out and running #loose hes just so boring idk. like you're just gonna fight stuff. ok. lame. kenjaku vs gojo might actually have some emotional weight to it #idc about this fight and idc about sukuna #like when gojo mentioned his students and they all grinned. that! that that that he cares about them ok gege! #jujutsu kaisen #jjk 230

[chirpsythismorning]

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The Chain by Fleetwood Mac

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#stranger things #bizarre love triangle playlist #el hopper #els pov #fleetwood mac #there are a lot of el coded fleetwood mac songs holy shit #but this one whew #'damn your love damn your lies' #GET HIM! #“and if you don't love me now (you don't love me now) you will never love me again” #it's basically a big testament to the fact that this is a big fight you can't come back from #if after all of this time after him already apparently saying it and after her saying it to him and writing it to him... #him not being able to say it even when she's practically giving him an ultimatum #then that must mean it's never going to happen #'i can still hear you saying we would never break the chain' #'you can't let these mouth breathers ruin you. ruin us! they're nobodies. they're nobodies! and you're a superhero!' #i just realized that mike corrects himself from you to us....... makes the whole what about us line from will hit different #knowing he tries to use it on el later to attempt to make them more romantic when in reality......... #he is trying really hard here #he's trying to dance around what she wants him to say without outright saying it #but el's not having it #not anymore #'chain keep us together' #begging 'the chain' to keep you together... it doesn't get much more forced conformity than that folks #4x03 #gif

[keeps-ache]

oooooo what if i reblogged literally everything i've ever drawn for pink space

#just me hi #oooooooo #yelling at the sky spinning in circles !!!!! #/i'm trying to work on that thing (you know the thing (small writing wip explaining some world lore bc my brain is v disorganized + i #want to explain quick n neatly lmao)) and i forgot once again how cool this is to me hfhs :D #/LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE [simply stares at you] #i just think they're so neat (<- just some guys and one (1) thing standing there) #though technically they're all Things that either forgot or confused themselves to be human #that or they're lying to themselves. very neat! #see that sounds much more interesting than what's in my brain hfhs #/anyway i hope one day i can get my. things in order enough to finish it bhvfsh #i've come to the time-old trouble of 'but it won't be as good as i want it to be' and so i'm fighting that behind a 7-11 later lmaoo :> #//i hold hands with cosmic entitiesss i'll take this tube out if i pleASE i got this sweet tooth baby YEAA i got this sweet tooth baby- !!! #//okey on my way now hfvhs :D