#i want to scream and yell and cry!!!!

[gingerteaonthetardis]

Ninth Doctor is such an inspiring character, though. For real. Just as you've said, the contrast between his birth (the Time War) and his death (for a woman he loved) is what we'd call a mind-blowing character growth. Also, it's just...so crazy (in a good way) how the person who was broken entirely by the events that weren't up to him and thought it his fault, who was depressed, and alone, and oh so lost, had the strength and the desire to be kind and to help others. Oh my stars, oh my stars, how wonderful that is? How sweet? How inspiring and how very kind and... humane of him? I know, I know, he wasn't human, he never was, but Nine is just so...considerate? Thoughtful? Forgiving? Optimistic and so selfless until the very end? Hold on, hold on, my heart's feeling funny, and so does my mind and my soul, how can a character like this exist...such a burdened, hurt soul, yet he continued to reach out and shine light and hope on the lives of others........and he loved fully, even though he hid it so well, and he lived day after day without thinking about tomorrow and what would be and what wouldn't, and isn't that how we all want to live our lives? To live today and now, and this right moment without worrying about the future, and that what Nine did, and boy, do I love him all the more for that. He's such a role model for me. To be this kind. This helpful. To find every being, no matter how common or lowly, important and deserving of every comfort and respect. To be happy in the moment, and to thank the universe for it.

Abbey, you've opened something inside of me with that post of yours, Nine is just so precious to me...my dear, darling alien of a man ❤️

SASHA!!!!! EVERYTHING YOU'RE SAYING IS JUST!!!! so good and true and i think there's so much power in a character who has seen the worst the universe has to offer and who still can see that every rotten bit of it is worth saving—not just once, but over and over, as an unending task that in itself makes life worth living!!!!! i just—

#i want to scream and yell and cry!!!! #deardiary17 #abbey.txt #ninth doctor

[razberrypuck]

anyway umm gillion's parents are the only people I think gill won't have much of a reaction to seeing. no matter how he decides to approach the elders, he'll be afraid of them, like he always was. he'll openly weep the next time he sees his sister, they'll hug each other and never let go. but seeing his parents again. I think he won't even recognize their faces. barely remember their names. whatever they do, however they react to seeing him again, I think gillion just...doesn't do much of anything. it's uncomfortable and somehow overwhelming and underwhelming at the same time and these people that are crying and hugging him and apologizing are just strangers to him (and he feels bad for thinking of them that way, but what else is he supposed to do?)

I think he'll expect to be sad or angry. maybe happy to finally meet them. but he just shuts down. he doesn't know why.

#he wants to WANT to scream and yell and cry and hug them back the same way he does edyn #because anything is better than this #hes an incredibly emotional person but he just cant and its fucking agonizing #i miss. tghe fish. #jrwi riptide #jrwi #gillion tidestrider #jrwi gillion

[crepuscular-coyote]

Maybe I want to be a damn beast.

Maybe I want to feel strong and scary and powerful when I've been nothing but small and weak.

Maybe I want to strike fear into the hearts of others because everyone scares me.

Maybe I want to hurt people because they've hurt me, and I'm tired of just brushing it off so I don't get hurt further.

Maybe I want to be a beast to protect the pup who lives inside me still, who couldn't protect himself. Who no one protected when he needed it the most.

#otherkin #therian #alterhuman #therianthropy #werewolfkin #wolfkin #I had my typical school nightmare but instead of accepting being yelled at I began to crush the windpipe of the teacher #I was screaming and crying and trying to kill her #I want revenge for the traumatized kid I still am #trauma #school trauma #orias snarls #I've probably posted something similar before please bear with me lol

[im-no-jedi]

GUYS OMG THERE’S PREVIEW PAGES FOR THE TBB COMIC

WRECKER AND CROSSHAIR SIBLING BANTER IS BACK!!!

#the bad batch #star wars the bad batch #YELLING SCREAMING CRYING #THIS IS EVERYTHING I EVER WANTED #IM SO FREAKING EXCITED #star warz

[alchemania]

“Don't you hate her?”

Furina turned, eyebrows raised in confusion. “Huh?”

“Your creator. Don't you hate her?”

The girl pondered a moment, looking unsure. “I..don't know.”

“You should,” he asserted. “All this time you had to suffer alone, for what?? People who didn't even care about the real you?? People who were ungrateful and selfish and only cared about themselves, at the end of the day??”

“Not everyone is like that,” Furina protested, shaking her head slowly. “I ..did suffer, but it all worked out in the end. Besides, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for her-”

“The same could be said for my mother,” Wanderer interrupted, eyes flashing. “I came into being because of her, but that doesn't make her a good person, or a good parent. She hurt me. These two facts can coexist. Focalors created you, yes, but she also subjected you to 500 years of suffering where you couldn't confide in ANYONE or risk losing everything. Wasn't that awful?? Wasn't it a horrible time? You were all alone living on a hope and a prayer, and if it went wrong, it would have been all for nothing. You were a means to an end, and what do you have to show for it? Sure, everybody was saved and all was well, but now you're just - a person, and people hate you for what you did, people hate you for what you DIDN'T do. Was it worth it?? Are you satisfied?”

“I am,” she nodded, after a beat. “Because, this is what I was created to do. And, I'm free now. I don't know what I'm going to do, but at least my life is mine. I can do whatever I want. I can live.” Wanderer's jaw clenched, and Furina frowned, nervously. “..why are you so angry?”

“Because SOMEONE has to be!” he shouted, voice cracking. “I mean- I heard about the trial, they were gonna kill you- they lured you there because you wouldn't talk, right? And then after everything, did anyone apologize to you or- praise you, for all the hell you went through? Anything??”

“.. Neuvillette is taking care of me.”

The pain on Wanderer's face was almost palpable, at that.

“..anything else?”

“.. it's fine," she tried to appease. "It's not like I serve any purpose anymore. Like I said, I did what I was created to, so I'm not of any use and-”

“Stop.”

“..what?”

“STOP- talking like that,” Wanderer snapped, eyes suspiciously glossy. She sounded so much like him, who he used to be, and it hurt so badly.

A blank sheet of paper has infinite potential, but it is nothing as long as it is empty, he'd said, a good while ago. He'd been wrong about himself, and Furina was wrong now.

“You're not just - what you were made for. You don't - what happened to you is wrong. You're not DISPOSABLE now that everything is over.”

“It- it was for everyone's sake, compared to my suffering, it's obvious what's more important! I had to save them! It’s what I was born for! It doesn't matter -”

“It DOES,” he yelled, eyes glowing an almost neon icy blue, and she startled. “Stop acting like your suffering was something that was necessary. Stop acting like it was just for the greater good. That doesn't matter! The fact of the matter is that you suffered, and you were hurt, and you're STILL hurting! And- barely anybody is there for you..your creator, she should have been there for you, she should have protected you, but she didn't. She didn't. And you - you have every right to be angry with her, for not being there for you. For you being unable to live, until now. It was wrong, even if it was, as she claimed, for the greater good. Don't defend her.”

"She loved me-"

"And she left you, so not enough."

Just like my mother ..

“...Wanderer,” Furina ventured, worry all over her face.

“What?”

“You're crying…”

..oh. He hadn't even noticed, but his cheeks WERE wet, and he put a hand to one with a start, quickly scrubbing at his face. “Ah-” and he pulled his hat over his face, to hide it.

“..it was a lot. I often wondered when everything would end. I wanted, to tell someone so badly what was going on,” Furina admitted, and Wanderer looked up, eyes red from weeping. “There were a lot of times I didn't think I was going to make it, but. But I did, and, and everything was okay.”

“But are you?”

There was a long pause, and the two of them stared at each other until Furina slowly shook her head no, hot tears streaming down her cheeks.

“See? You're - we're both so messed up, from everything, and no one was there,” Wanderer almost whispered, looking out the window. "No one was there to help. ..You're strong as hell, I'll give you that. If I was in your shoes, I don't know if I would have made it. It seems people are stronger than I've given them credit for..”

It was something that surprised him, again and again.

“I just don't understand why you care..”

“.. I don't know why I do,” he shrugged. “Maybe because you remind me of myself, and. It hurts, looking at you and feeling like I'm looking in the mirror. But someone has to be in your corner and -”

“And you want to do that?”

A pause.

“..Well, if you don't stand up for you, no telling who will.”

“You don't have to cry over me. I'm -”

“If you say you're not worth it, I am going to bodyslam you,” Wanderer growled, eyes flashing, and Furina put up her hands.

“I wasn't going to! I was going to say that I will be okay. Not now, but. Eventually. I'm healing. I promise. There's people who care, like you.”

Wanderer fell silent then, looking away, and she reached out and squeezed his hand. “Thank you. I'm still wrestling with - with what I want to do and where I'll go but. It's nice to know that I'm valued just for existing.”

“That's all you need to be valued,” he muttered, looking to the floor. “You don't have to prove the worth of your existence. It's fine to just be.”

“..are you talking to yourself, or me?”

He looked to her then, expression unreadable, and she smiled sadly, in understanding. “Both is good. It's okay to just be. We're here, and we'll be okay.”

“Yeah,” Wanderer whispered, giving a shaky breath. “..we will."

#screaming crying #i will probably go back and clean this up later but i just wanted to get it out there and start yelling #i think wanderer would be so so angry about what happened to furina and it just. weighs heavy on his heart and he's like god. GOD!!! #his heart is way squishier than he would like to admit he's ready to square up so quickly and had it not been for focalors being dead #oh BABY he'd have Some Words For Her #genshin impact #wanderer #furina #4.2 spoilers #AUGH I ALMOST FORGOT TO TAG SPOILERS SORRY SORRY #please god i am going to explode i am thinking so hard im in pain #ue ue ue ue ue #loved but left behind..... #a means to an end..you feel me... #im dyin scoob

[evermore-crow]

i was going to only highlight one line but then i realized that this entire chapter is my entire life and i would die happy if only i could read it for the first time again omg i love this chapter so fucking much omg

#six of crows #kaz brekker #crooked kingdom #inej ghafa #kanej #i want to rip something with my bare teeth #screaming crying yelling #fuuuuuuuck

[mrfartpowered]

I have realllllllly big feelings abt baby julian

#rc9gn #randy cunningham 9th grade ninja #rc9gn julian #he makes me want to CRY I am so so maternal abt him I scream and yell every time I see that clip #scooping him up and cradling him so nothing bad ever ever ever happens to him #ninj-originals

[vvitchy-succubus]

When do the waves stop hitting so hard? Tomorrow he gets brought home by a big police escort. The streets will be lined with people who knew him. The service is on Friday. I still don't understand how this is happening. I keep getting messages from people who worked with him, telling me what an honor it was to serve with him, which is making me angry. He was going to work. If they hadn't called him down south because they were scared of prisoner behavior during the eclipse, I would still have my brother. If he wasn't so hell bent on being a good officer, he would still be here. I don't care how honorable he was at his job, he was MY brother, that's what he really loved. Us, his family. And as far as I'm concerned IDOC took my brother from me. I want him back. I want this hell to be over. I'm angry at everything. People keep asking me if I need anything but what I need is my Andrew back. I just want my Andrew back.

#it's ok if no one reads this #it's rant here or just scream and scream #but ive done so much of that that my throat hurts #and my face hurts from crying #honestly everything hurts #all i want to do is scream and yell #like maybe if i just scream loud enough #the universe will give him back #but it won't #and now i have to try and keep breathing #even though it feels like im breathing in glass #and im going to break in half #i still have to wake up tomorrow #and do it all again #how the fuck did this become my life

[theloveinc]

SCREAMSSS YESSS I think the only way he’d be able to communicate his feelings for you would be between the insufferable practice sessions you have… you both have a big concert coming up and you’re seeing him more than just weekly to practice your new routine to perfection, so its unfortunately harder to avoid him because you can’t, you have to stick around because you need his feedback so you can work together in sync!! And while you’re so annoyed about it at first… you start to warm up to him the slightest. Its just.. something about the way he’s so passionate in everything he does, when he criticises your latest sheet for the song and takes apart each note, saying why some work and some wouldn’t, he’s just so honest and raw in the way he works and it gets to you? It somehow inspires you and annoyingly makes you want to do better for him!!! You hate him!! But want to please him so bad!! Bc as annoying as he is… he’s a wonderful musician, a prodigy even

AND AAAAAA HIM INVITING YOU ONE TIME AFTER FOR DINNER bc one thing led to another while you were working and it’s?? 7pm??? So he’s apologising for keeping you out so late and insists he takes you out to eat, after-all it’s his fault for not being able to settle for the tune you composed until it was perfect down to the very last note… and he hates having debts!! So he takes you out, and it frustrates you somehow even more?? Because you can distract yourself from him when all you have to think about is music, but now with him sitting less than 2 feet away from you, raising his hand for a waiter and ordering food…. You’re forced to really see him. His face, his hands and the way they clearly look like a worked musicians hands, the way his voice sounds when he’s speaking to strangers, and now you’re more annoyed!! In a different way!! Because he will just not!!! Leave!! Your mind!!!

MENDJDH SORRY FOR RAMBLING I HAD THE BIGGEST CLASSICAL MUSIC PHASE AT SOME POINT AND NOW ITS ALL JUST RESURFACING

(cello bakugo au tag here!)

NONONO don't be sorry, i'm really glad actually cuz here u are adding all the substance and accuracy for me!! it's truly allowing me to live out my 6th grade romance novel dreams sdlfadsklaa;dsjf...

BUT YES UGH, you swear if it weren't for the recitals you wouldn't be anywhere NEAR him in your spare time, but... there's something about seeing him outside of normal performance/practice circumstances that has you a little less frustrated, a little more willing to work at things.

Maybe it's the casual jeans and flannel he shows up to the studio in rather than the slacks and button-up you're so used to? The bags under his eyes and unbrushed hair proving he's only human, just like you? his sudden need for (unsweetened, damnit!) lattes and all the phone calls he gets from his own instructor (aizawa) yelling at him about this and that (and remember to dry clean your silks..... and be on your best behavior because eri is coming, too).

it's like.... who has he become? where did the REAL bakugo go???

AND THEN HAVING THIS REALIZATION AT THE DINNER, TOO... where's he's acting like a proper gentleman and ur suddenly aware of just how much you actually look like a couple alongside everything else, too??? it's would def not be the first time people have asked if you're together (even if now you wouldn't really know what to say)... but it's just so AHHH to be faced with because you've been trying so, SO hard to deny it. i'm crying :(((

(and yes he orders a dessert for you to share and that just makes things WORSE)... GOD. i'm sick. i'm SICK!!!!!!

#bakugo #cello bakugo au #brb screaming crying yelling #WHEN DO U CONFESS? AFTER THIS? AFTER THE CONCERT?????????? DOES HE ASK U ON A REAL DATE??? #S;KLDFJALJSDFJAJKSDL KL #IM ILL #GOD AND AI the imagery of getting lost in him ordering.... i can see it... i want it #and him trying to snap you back to reality when its ur turn to order #i need to go d*e now #caitie things #gen #aikugo #ai!!

[wibbwoby]

i cannot express my hatred for marvel and their ways of fucking up a perfectly beautiful character with so much cultural significance in every minute detail of her

how do they look at kamala, strip her of everything that made her relatable, unique, and an inspiration to young muslim and poc girls. and go, yep this will make a good comic. this will be fkn profitable.

#my insides are burning with everything i want to yell #fucking hell #her x-man suit looks so crap and removes all the cultural significance and how she literally represents those communities #she isnt afraid to look muslim #or share her pakistani background and culture #i want to cry #i knew this was coming when they killed her off DURING AAPI MONTH #kamala khan #ms marvel #ms marvel comics #newt talks #and screams

[makkie-is-screaming]

I should fucking kill myself

#I have this anger and dislike towards my little brother that’s totally unwarranted like he’s 10 it’s just my issues #n whenever I feel his hatred towards him I want to gut myself like #it’s not his fault that my moms a better mom for him n that he’s not scared of her #It’s not his fault that my dads sober and present for him #it’s not his fault that my older brother is a good brother to him n has never hurt him #it’s not his fault he’s not scared of telling someone he’s hurt or of getting food #it’s not his fault he parrots all of my parents insane conservative views #but I still hold so much anger and resentment #When I look at him I see him getting all the things I never got and being free of the traumas I went through #and I know it’s good and I’m happy he’s grown up in a safer environment but I’m so angry that I didn’t have those parents #and I know he’s also missing so many things I got #But it fucking hurts seeing how loved and safe he is and wishing I had been that innocent at that age #like when he’s fighting with my mom it’s over school work n video games n then he thinks he can talk shit ??? #when I was fighting with my mom it was bc she came home from work in a rage #when I was mad at my dad it was because he got drunk n came home n yelled at my mom until she was crying in a corner then left #When I was screaming at my older brother it’s because I was tired of him hurting me not because he called me a name #I’m a horrible sister to him and I hate it because when he was a baby I was so fiercely protective of him and so happy to be his sister #I watched his shows with him and kept him entertained when my parents got bad n I promised myself I’d take care of him the way I never was #but I failed n now I can barely stand being around him #like I’m such a good sister to my sister but that’s it #n it makes me feel worse about my relationship w my brother bc I know I can be better but I’m just a horrible jealous bitch who should die #screaming

[storm-of-feathers]

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#very small yell bc yall are making me cry in good ways now thank you for rhe kind replies i will not fake my death #except if i need to commit insurance fraud #jokes aside bc idk how to Not use humor to cope im like #my vent posts are me screaming into the void most of the time this blog is an open diary #and. yk. yk. yk. #its nice that the void heard me screaming and hugged me #its #its a nice feeling #to remember that i dont actually exist in a void or a vacuum #and other people... wqnt me. they want me aroujd

[sigurdjarlson]

If we get no reaction from Med about what seemingly happens in TWW I’m gonna be..not at all surprised bc blizzard but annoyed

#wow blogging #I want him screaming crying throwing up but alas #…what if he resurrects Khadgar like Aegwynn did him #It would destroy me #concept: he shows up in TWW and is like ‘yeah this ain’t it champion we’re bringing him back’ #and then proceeds to put you threw absolute hell to bring him back in a questline #we thought the wod legendary Khadgar quest was rough? #through* #something something it’s not khadgar’s time yet and azeroth needs her guardian #(khadgar yelling in the distance: I AM NOT THE GUARDIAN) #don’t mind me just spit balling and trying to find a way to cope with my inevitable heartbreak #tww spoilers

[ventiswampwater]

"yeah, people used to come to see it from miles away. and trudy was the main......uh........I guess "artist" is the appropriate word." the subtle mom shade of it all

#he's so wild #his theater kid ANTICS and SHENANIGANS #god. somehow I'd forgotten the sheer volume of facial expressions this man pulls in this fuckin movie jdffdshjhfds #he's so fuckin goofysilly w/it #I want 2 eat him w/a spoon. or whatever #idiot...................................... #sam speaks #I missed this scooby doo ass movie sm. crying and screaming and yelling abt it

[kyouka-supremacy]

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#I was to answer the latest Beast Anon gem today and??? Tumblr deleted the ask??????????????????? #I'm going to scream. I'm going to yell and shout and cry #I *am* waiting to panic because sometimes the Tumblr inbox is just like that and sometimes asks disappear to come back a day later but. #My God I am panicking #I just hope Beast Anon hasn't deleted I was literally going to ask them to merry me. The ask reply I had written literally opened with #“Beast Anon far from wanting to being too straightforward but. Will you marry me” #Beast Anon if you're out there. Don't leave me you're my greatest source of joy #If the ask isn't back in 24h I'm filling out a support request #Sorry I don't usually make this many rambles posts but I have class in two minutes and I know I can't focus because I'm too upset over this #Literally praying. I'm sorry for taking this long to answer but it's literaly because I've reread that ask sixty times #Beast Anon come back to me #There's literally a word document on my desktop named after you #Besides I *had* already written down most of the answer what to do now... I feel bad you deserve to be answered #I'm praying every god to have that ask back #random rambles

[tothefiniteyou]

everyone's takeaway from blind sight should be this single message i sent my best friend at way too late o'clock while slightly delirious /hj.

slight spoilers:

obviously what splinter was really getting at is that the poison already wore off, and this is just a more psychosomatic issue due to leo's guilt from thinking he killed an innocent man, but like. these issues are riddled with daddy issues and it isn't subtle. i already talked about it in my little think piece here, but you can realistically say that none of this would have happened if splinter hadn't trained them. or if he hadn't been so set on getting revenge.

gripping the bars of my enclosure, resisting the urge to talk even more about blind sight. there's so much i didn't even touch upon

#tmnt mirage #2u thoughts #or rambling. either one #tmnt 1984 #i could talk about blind sight all day do NOT test me #i was crying screaming throwing a fit for more than an hour in my little banishment channel #2003 was good at showing it but goddd mirage leo really was acting like a mother of three at fifteen and beyond #it's not just “i need to keep them safe” to him #but also “we're all we have in this world." does that make sense? #leo is all about control and this is no different. his self-worth is tied to being a weapon to protect #< yelling into the void #this reminds me that raph and leo actually butt heads because theyre literally the same and it was never really about leadership #it's just their different ways of wanting to protect the family that clash