#i want to be free from my own mind

[piningprecussionist]

Oh! Fucking. Duh. Obvious Roxie post I can make today: here's an emote I made for the sp:te server! (With variants of different degrees of completion...)

I was gonna go back and shade the comic colors Roxie but. Just ended up going w the colors picked off the screenshot. This screenshot, specifically!

#mind the quality i ripped it from Somewhere but i dont remember where #i still havent gone and continued my Unhinged Screenshot Taking yet. but oh buddy when I do.... #spto #sp comic #spvtw #fanart #art #roxie richter #emotes #discord emotes #blue sparks one there was just testing where i wanted to put some before i decided Overkill was The Way #like w the other ones. please do reblog this if you decide to use them in a server somewhere! i would like to know if they end up other + #+places #ooc #spto fanart #scott pilgrim fanart #spvtw fanart #spto roxie #scott pilgrim roxie #spvtw roxie #roxanne richter #roxy richter #actually. best day for it really. if anyone has any roxie screenshots or panels they want emotes from I'd generally consider them to begin + #+with but For Sure today. (generally if anyone wants a given shot/panel as an emote im happy to at least Try. i just need specifics) #(so far kim ones are my only Successful emote attempts Without panel/shot basis. i do need to try a ramona that was requested again...) #uhhh just to be safe i guess #potential eyestrain #i did try a version w the sparks more like they are in the show but it Didn't Look Good #feel free to try your own hand at it if you want #this post is scheduled btw :3c im still trying to work on another roxie piece... panel redraw....

[darlingsart]

Quick doodle of a not so modern au this time, where everyone is happy and lives and Pat and Achilles build a cottage somewhere and raise Pyrrhus instead of dying in a war lmao

#tsoa #the song of achilles #patrochilles #angies art #Pyrrhus #because he needs his own tag at this point lmao #I like to think in this scenerio Deidameia realizes she doesn’t actually want to raise a kid #bc y’know in tsoa she was kind of pressured into by Thetis so she just gives Pyrrhus over for Achilles to raise and he’s like. #well I guess I’m a family man now lmao thus they mind their own damn business and live their best lives someplace away from everyone #and Dei goes off and lives her best single kid free life with the gals on Scyros lol everyone wins #very similar to what happens in my modern au :v

[averlym]

4 on the angst list with Araleyn please I need them to suffer

4 : "but it's my fault, right?" (prompt list here)

#<blinks> very gently implied angst i suppose. usually everyone makes anne suffer so for a change #here's catherine struggling with the idea that if she hadn't been so stubborn about divorce- #maybe it would have been more okay for henry to divorce anne instead of. yknow. chopping her head off. #gently implied angst with the. well. i hurt this person i care about. unintentionally. but still. hence also the historical counterparts bg #... i feel like this isn't suffering (italicised for emphasis) but unfortunately? i am in a more melancholy mood #and also coming to conclusion that whump isnt really my taste.. so quite literally you'd have to pay me to draw it .. dfdsghjkl comms open #anyways yeah i think the most you'll get from my own stuff is <reference to beheading> <mentioned death> <abstract reds that might be blood #six the musical #six the musical fanart #anne boleyn #catherine of aragon #pssst drew anne extra pretty bc coa pov. if you get what i mean. #oh that got off tangent. but also tldr; requests mean free art!! (also idm if you ask for specific things. like your own aus. just to put #that out there) #but also requests: 1. up to my creative freedom and discretion so you probs won't get exactly what you want + 2. no time limit so #can take literal years to reply to. #so ig ? if you have specific things in mind. that you want me to draw. commissions would be better for you if you'll pay! #but if you don't have the money i'm also. lowkey willing to draw for free.. stick it in the inbox .. there's just no guarantee you'll get it #within the next year.. or at all! but you may as well try your luck o.O #(this plan is terrible for business but because for a very long time i was unable to buy anything online. i sympathise greatly ig)

[nebuladreamz]

*CRASHES IN *💥💥💥

NEBBY!!!

I JUST REALIZED I DON'T KNOW JACK ABOUT YOUR AUS OR OCS PLEASE SLAM AN INFO DUMP ON ME

WAUGH UH

OKAY OKAY UH VERY SHITTY SLIDESHOW GO

#nebula answers #saltyfryz #on one hand #i so badly wish to go off on main #because the amount of shit i have on ALL my creations from my mind resides there rent free #but on the OTHER hand #brain being a bitch on if people would be interested in hearing about the insanity that goes on in my brain /lh #i prommy guys im normal <- lying #i shit you all not there is LAYERS TO SHIT #like how there are redesigns ive been working on #hushabye's? my ass needs to touch up their designs and work on their lore #both for their own restaurant and for if or when i transfer them to the plex #diego? dinosaur man pictured with the others?? bro he got a glow up and i STILL need to touch up his lore (and design i need to properly- #-draw him a fullbody ref) #fucking MONARCH PRISCILLA OCTANTIS POLARIS AND THETA?? #polaris and octantis have their own shit with each other #theta is a blunt bitch who's just Doing his Job #and then there's the layered hellscape that is monarch and priscilla's whole deal #which i STILL WANT TO DESIGN THEIR DAYCARE I WANT TO DESIGN AND MAKE ENVIRONMENTS!!!! #the same with hushabye gang's restaurant too!!! #oops thats a lot of tags uhm. #shaky thumbs up example one <3

[ursie]

Whilst I live in fear of said statement especially knowing how some core cast feel about the us military it’s insane that Critical role has not released a statement of any kind about Palestine. Knowing how large their audience is weekly..they haven’t even called for a ceasefire

Even if they two sides it (which is regrettably the most likely outcome) like. At least say something..trying to skirt by a genocide w/o saying anything at all?? Insane they literally have their own charity foundation they could help if not in Palestine the people arrested protesting for them here

Like now that Brennen’s made a statement there no reason Matt can’t. I genuinely don’t feel comfortable supporting them w/o knowing where they stand on this even if they as a company can’t issue a statement the core cast can individually like..

#I get they don’t want to get blacklisted but at a certain point.. #Matt Mercer and Laura Bailey are not gonna be blacklisted from voice acting like be fr 😭 #critical role #free palestine #matt mercer #laura bailey #liam o'brien #marisha ray #ashley johnson #sam riegel #Travis can stay quiet for my own peace of mind 😭 #I babble #cr #cr1 #cr2 #cr3

[yoshipea762]

You know something is bad when even your mother knows something can be misused for evil purposes.

As far as I can tell, KOSA seems to ignore the fact that people on the internet want to express their true selves or seek help. They have good intent, but mass surveillance and denial of vital information just... Isn't the way. The internet already has privacy issues, and the US is already a shithole with leaders that don't care about us.

Hell, the US is more focused on aiding Isreal's attack on Gaza rather than helping Gaza survive or... hell, helping their own people! This is weird for an American such as myself to say, but even China's government aimed to stop poverty while being poor is basically illegal in the US, and that says something.

Let that sink in before you read on.

Poor people, being thrown in prison and having their rights removed instead of being helped by the locals or even state officials. All because they can't afford crap.

Fucked up, ain't it?

They don't need to make the problem worse by making the internet basically inaccessible to us Americans. If protecting children is your only real concern atm, look for another way to solve the problem instead of stubbornly pushing to pass the same bill every damn year.

Sure, you gotta break a few eggs to make an omelette, but these aren't the eggs you're meant to crack. Shutting out people of different sexuality, race, religion, or whatever else makes us ourselves for the sake of protecting kids isn't it.

Besides. I don't want to kiss the internet(and everyone I met here) goodbye. I don't want everything I've created and shared so far to be in vain. And I don't want to wake up one say to find out that I need to reveal my own face just to watch Youtube for probably a few minutes.

Nobody does.

Please put an end to KOSA. And while you're at it, look for ways to make the world a better place. Assist the poor and back them up, even.

Tumblr's freaking out over KOSA, the world's a shithole that needs to be fixed(moreso in some areas than others), and I get it. Our own rights are at stake here, and so are the people of Palestine.

And it upsets me just as much as it upsets you.

We just have to put our differences aside, and fight for what's right.

#not art #Sorry... just thought I'd say what's on my mind. #stop kosa #stop the genocide #stop the hate #I've reblogged a lot of posts on this topic #But I didn't feel like that was enough to make my stance on this clear #I want to live a happy life! I want to make stuff and bring them to life! I really do! #But it's hard to stay positive when you know your own country is going against the freedom they claim to support. #You know something's off when the freedom country's assisting in a genocide of people who want to be FREE from Isreal #All while a bill that limits information accessed on the web is trying to become written law once again. #We NEED to do something about this.

[s0fter-sin]

Thinking you shouldn't have to pay for Watcher content is you being entitled, actually.

did i ever say i shouldn’t have to pay for it? no, i said it’s disappointing that i would now have to after years of it being free. it would be easier to take if they were completely changing and upgrading their shows or established that the stream wouldn’t just have their current shows and maybe discontinued ones, that it would be different from their youtube channel and worth the sudden charge, but it’s hard not to feel like they’re throwing their audience under the bus

#from what weve seen the shows will still have the same number of episodes so we arent even getting more of the same content #just nebulous ‘better’ content which could mean anything and also nothing when the shows have gradually started to feel overproduced #it is my and anyone elses right to be disappointed by this #and its a personal choice #if you think its worth the money or if youre in a place where you can afford another service then thats wonderful and i hope you enjoy it #but that doesnt make it any less tone deaf to say we as a company need more money when people cant afford to eat #plenty of creators have successfully crowdfunded their own shows without putting all of it behind a paywall #critical role immediately comes to mind #they have literal thousands of hours of content for free and when it came time to ask for money people showed up for them #the answer didnt have to be put everything on a streaming service when there were plenty of other options #its also just a bad business decision but i dont have the expertise to talk about that #tldr people are allowed to feel however they want about this #also acting like its somehow more ‘authentic’ to get money from your audience #instead of advertisers and sponsors who can actually afford it is sus as hell im just saying #mailbox #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #watcher #shane madej #ryan bergara #steven lim

[neverendingford]

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#every time a character does the whole “talk softly and reassure the dangerous person” thing while also walking ominously towards them ughh #it drives me absolutely nuts. like. you're trying to talk them down from paranoia while you're threateningly walking towards them? #someone does that to me and I'm shooting them at least in the leg or stabbing with whatever makeshift spear I've manufactured #anyway. criminal minds is getting real annoying with the whole pathologizing of people. #like. guy shows signs of being very good at torturing people and they go “ah yes.. a pure sadist” or whatever the fuck #I get that it's shitty crime drama stuff but still. ugh. #I just. I fucking hate when people take the obviously wrong route when talking to mentally destabilized people. #like. people are shit at talking to suicidal people. are shit at talking down irrational fears. people are shit at talking down paranoia. #I hate how people don't fucking know how to interact with freaks I hate how people don't know how to interact with me #everyone acts on their own level without understanding what it's like in any way #and so everyone just projects their own reality onto you without performing any sort of empathy or exercising any sort of understanding #and I want to scream so fucking loud #you're all living in a cotton candy world and your words disintegrate in my humidity #and it's so fucking lonely #and my mind has been clear this past week. the autistic need for pressure satisfied by this prescription pushing on my brain #and I can feel the cogs turning. the wheels and pins and linked gear trains and drive shafts and traction band motors. #all the parts of my brain churning around and I can't get close because the heat from my motor makes my hood hot to the touch. #I burn your hand as you try and press your palm against my flanks. #only think saddle and tack make contact. strict guidelines and harsh rules to govern me. #when I am free I buck and I shift gait and I drag you under too-low branches #also. compared to Hannibal I can basically listen to criminal minds as a podcast. none of the visuals really contribute anything to the show #like. feels very shallow

[dutybcrne]

Kaveh definitely wants at least one child of his own. Partially to continue his family line, partially bc he himself loves the idea of having a family of his own. He would however like to move out of Alhaitham’s place before he even dares consider getting a partner to begin with. And the longer he stays there, the more stress he feels thinking about it. He even has sketched out nursery ideas and plans on how to raise them all set to go, if only he'd get out of debt fast enough-

Furina also really wants to have a child of her own. She adores seeing the families around Fontaine, and has dreamed a great deal what parenthood would be like. Nothing brings her joy than when children about Fontaine invite her to join in on the little games they are playing, leaving her giddy and smiling bright as sunshine on her way home. Of course she knows that to be a parent, she really has to get her shit together. One can't just rear a child on macaroni and residual payments, after all.

#hc; kaveh #//Mans is stressing #//He’s like ‘I’m damn near pushing 30; I should have my life together by now aaAAAA’ #//Do like the idea of Haitham & Kaveh coparenting though #//Them raising a kid together; be it romantically/qp involved or just like #//Some Full House situation type beat lol #//Haitham does like helping kiddos learn after all. And it would make SO much a lot easier for Kav #//Kaveh would preferably want an even number of kids if he has a partner; so they don't ever feel lonely #//If it's just him & his kiddo; then yeah; he's a little more fine w only one. But he really wants them to have someone to fall back on jic #hc; furina #//She's had thoughts of having children of her own for damn near 500 years #//Which she knew would be Impossible; her role came first and foremost #//But now that she's free from that obligation; the thoughts came welling back up #//It's not entirely why she wants to stand on her own right and get better at so many things; but it is part of it #//She'd love the idea of having her own little family at last #//Though her Salon Solitaire buddies will have to do djbhgjfd #//She doesn't actually know how many she wants tho; maybe one if she's single; but whatever her partner is down for; she would be too #//She would be such a doting mom hjcbffg #//She genuinely wouldn't even mind not having a partner if it came down to it. She will most certainly be able to handle a kiddo on her own #//She thinks that; yet she also most certainly get overwhelmed Real quick at first #//Esp since she'd be such a sympathetic crier when it comes to her babu. & bc she already feels the urge to cry when frustrated #//But she would try her best #//Would absolutely consult with The Gals each and every time she needs anything #//Deffo would be the type to get matching outfits for her and her kid jffghh

[crunchchute]

more help wanted 2 stuff (short) (i promise)

i think im just feeling a bit off because lore and story wise it didnt really bring anything big, it didnt answer any questions nor confirm or deny any theories and like amazing gameplay aside, its a bit pointless in the story part. there might still be a dlc in the future like for HW1 that will bring more answers

and for the 1970s lore oh man i dont know! i dont know if i care. honestly if we do get the carnival plot and some origins in the form of a carnival, im afraid its gonna be some mimic bs and i wont care about it. i dont think theyre ever gonna show fredbears.. and william and henry or anyone else and if they did, im afraid they would butcher it like they did with vanny and vanessa. might be harsh, but vanny had such potential and they just didnt use it at all. she was my fav character and once SB came out i just stopped caring about her. literally just the movie saved vanessa for me now.. and the bar is low for me but theyre very good at limbo dancing

lore aside i loved hw and im enjoying hw2 as well gameplay wise, sb was okay, i absolutely loved ruin. they can do good stuff but new fnaf lore is just not for me i guess.

once again asking myself to just go read the books damn

#im taking this way too seriously but thats just cause i love the franchise okay #i took a walk today to clear my mind and for a moment i was free from fnaf. came home turned on my pc and went right back #thats the kinda relationship with it #help wanted 2 spoilers #fnaf help wanted 2 #time to really get into my own AU and ignore everything else #crunching

[atomicc]

furari mens

#allllrrrriiighhhtt time for trigger tags letss goo #body horror #parasite #parasitism #bugs #insects #eyestrain #animal death #ask to be tagged #weirdcore #alterhuman #I GUESS #kinda embarrassing but I want to upload it anywaysss #all the images are from my own camera or are free to use #text in alt #again ask if you need this tagged i dont mind #my art #..kinda? i made it at least. its a personal piece lets call it that #😈

[databent]

[pained wailing emoji]

#.pdf #rd #THE REST OF THIS IS JSUT ME WHINING. FEEL FREE TO IGNORE #i dont wanna go to work ‼️‼️‼️ i feel like i am nearing a breaking point i am sofucking burnt out #every time i go to work. my brain gets Scary at me. stresses me out. dont like it ☹️ #im supposedto be going in tonigjt but im dreading it sososo much #my work hour options have changed from “fully flexible” to “7am-9pm only” whcih yeah i know that doesnt sound that bad. but i have non-24 #(circadian rhythm disorder that makes me sleep progressively later every day circling fully around the clock over ~3 weeks or so) #and bcos of it often i have to force myself out of bed in what my body thinks may as well be the middle of the night just to get to work #and then i dont ever get enough time to recover from that to actually let my sleep fall back into its natural schedule wjich is the only #time i feel properly rested. so essentially im chronically sleep deprived which is making me chronically stressed and way less productive #i just reslly really want to fucking save up a little money and just Not work for a week or two. bjt. with my sleep bullshit i cant really #work enough to be able to put anything aside. at all #so. kind of an unrealistic desire i guess. lol #ive been feeling like this ever since like early january when i was told i ahve to stick to a more normal schedule. & its only getting worse #idont know i just wishthere was something i could do that was fully flexible on timing but also doesnt havw the kind of workload that would- #-stress me out like basically anything with longer-term projects so ykmow Most flexible schedule jobs. #i do have one thing in mind i could do on my own but its dumb and probably wouldnt make much money and has startup costs i cant afford rn..

[tariah23]

Still crying over my friend telling me that they’ve never heard of Chief Keef-

#put me on my ass like heavyweight #rambling #he’s a legend if you never minded drill music and even if you hated it he still kind of became the face of the entire sub genre at such a #young age and he had white kids and nbs in the suburbs and other countries wanting to be a black kid from the hood like he had grown men #growing out their locs 😭… #everyone wanted to be chief keef lmfao #insane #he hasn’t been back to Chicago ever since he left all of those years ago but it’s Better if he never came back anyway for his own safety #tbh #I’m glad he’s still alive lol #lil Reese went to our hs and was in my sisters class and was one of the bad ass kids #one of CK’s friends and stuff #i probably saw him myself before since one of his friends or himself was passing out mixtapes and i remember taking it since it was free #and I didn’t want to be rude #i remember being on my way home back from school I was probably a sophomore in hs or so and it was raining #I felt so bad for throwing it away since I didn’t like drill at the time but after giving his music a chance I was like NOOOOOO #I felt like that person who bought that nge character book and scrubbed off Anno’s signature because they thought it was scrabble bro

[eggpunkhouses]

the death of art the death of education the death of childhood the death of narrative the birth of christ as we believed he was a zombie and our father

#talks #anyway im having some sort of reaction to seeing a lot of people discussing the collective trauma of gen z #as it correlates to nostalgia for corporate products and the exploitation of children #i feel odd being in this position as i feel like ive already emotionally unpacked this with introspection of my own childhood experiences #and current day struggles with parental abuse & emotional neglect #but what im mostly scared of is the idea that people will refuse to reclaim what once brought them joy through a dark period #as well as a loss of hope that im starting to see manifest in real life and on social media #the last thing id want is for people to give up on art because of what they fear may happen if they do #if somebody gets hurt because of it #keep it in your mind that ​hollywood was built on voyerism and exploitation #(aside—please read laura mulvey’s visual pleasure & narrative cinema) #(and bell hooks oppositional gaze) #but personally im not waiting on any internship applications so I can one day make it to LA and maybe get my cartoon produced #with 500 pages of censorship notes from S&P #im making my cartoon now because ive worked hard to get here and i have the resources to do it #it will be free for everybody to watch on youtube. i just want people to see it and have a good time with it #also i might just be wiccan now

[bijesperfahey]

Thinking about how Lark and Normal had such different reactions to what they saw on the throne and how ‘Larks’ entire monologue was about how it was all his fault, about how Lark blames himself for everything that has happened, and earlier in the series Sparrow refers to ‘what they did’ but Lark says it’s what he did

Thinking about how when Henry touches Lark on the throne he feels Love, Confusion, Betrayal, Sadness and Anger.

How Anthony says that he looks at Lark and sees sadness and self hatred in his eyes

How in Anthony’s monologue the Doodler specifically feels Lark’s self hatred and resentment. How it’s that that grows into the resentment for everything in the world.

It’s your fault and everything is bad- and it’s obviously not just the Doodler that feels that way

About how the Doodler looks at humanity as it’s dad, but also it resents humanity as much as it loves it and wants it’s validation

These flashhbacks are only a few years post season 1- sure he’s older but he is still a literal child being confronted by the weight of these emotions from an eldritch being that directly parallel so much of what he’s gone through and actively stem from the choices he made

Does he say they have to kill it because he knows what it’s like to feel this way? Because he knows what that rage and resentment feel like to him, a human being, and knows what it grew into for him, and can you imagine how much worse it is coming from the Doodler? They can’t risk not stopping it and the surest way to do that is to kill it?

Does he say it because killing the Doodler is the only way he’ll be able to forgive himself for releasing it? To make sure this can never happen again, by getting rid of it completely?

Or does he say it because he can’t imagine a way to help it? It’s just something he can’t comprehend, there’s no other way to end it, there is no happy ending.

And Normal now is the age that Lark was then, and he’s going through it too but in a completely different way! Normal is also dealing with a lot of incredibly complicated feelings, especially regarding his parental figures. He’s darker than he was at the start of the series, but all he wants is to be loved respected for who he is.

And maybe it makes a difference, but he has a support system that’s not just one person (Sparrow for Lark)! He has friends, and people to talk to and he still has so much hope for himself and compassion for the world, so of course that’s going to extend to the Doodler. This entire time the teens have been saying they need to find another way, that they can’t doom a whole planesworth of people just to save their home

So like. Why wouldn’t that extend to the doodler, now that they know it’s an option??

#I say parental figures and not parents because Lark&Sparrow #anyways can you imagine being like 12 and the eldritch being you share with your family brought an abusive asshole back to life & then #that guy gives you the information you need to release said eldritch being inadverdently causing the apocalypse & it's all your fault #then you're like ?? 16 and you get a glimpse into that beings mind and it's feelings DIRECTLY PARALLEL YOUR OWN and like #the world is horrible & you're a teen full of guilt & rage & you're dealing with all this? Of course the only way out is to kill it #(I'm also a little worried the only way he sees out is to kill the doodler or die trying but that makes me too damn sad) #anyways heres how normal can save the doodler & the world & lark with the power of LOVE because the doodler also just wants to be loved #Hildy is brought from earth to the forgotten realms and the doodler becomes a part of her- Norm goes from the forgotten realms to earth and #Hildy is brought from earth to the forgotten realms by the doodler and it becomes a part of her #Norm goes from the forgotten realms from earth to stop the doodler and ends up freeing it from its anchors. I am MANIFESTING #sorry for my post within a post xoxo (not really) #dndads #dungeons and daddies #dungeons and daddies spoilers #dndads spoilers #long post

[orcelito]

Do u ever just see a take that is so incomprehensibly bad that you consider blocking? Like.

"Legato deserves a human pet."

What. What. What. What. What.

#speculation nation #even acknowledging In The Post that he has experience with that same sort of fucking thing #why would he EVER??? WANT THAT??????? #the Single time we see smth like compassion from him is when he frees some girls from their slavers #and youre trying to say he'd want to OWN SOMEONE? are you out of your MIND? #im. listen i dont care much for him personally but some people are just so fucking weird about him & his backstory #yes he's done a lot of horrible shit. but he has Never done anything like that. #im just. rubbing my temples. what the fuck are you Talking about...