#i want a cigarette so fucking bad

[bibleofficial]

i genuinely think the worst place to live in the world is fucking belgium like bro why the FUCK does EVERYTHING CLOSE AT LIKE 6/7 IN THE EVENING do NONE of yall WORK

#stream #oh my GOD #this is fucking excruciating #i want a cigarette so fucking bad #or a vape #fucking ANYTHING #but it’s ILLEGAL to DELIVER or SELL tobacco products ONLINE bc i guess everyone here is just straight up brain dead & stupid #i’m going to kill someone oh my god i’m abt to go harass other patients like bro lemme bum a cig PLEASE #i’m even wearing a nicotine patch & im abt to put on ANOTHER !!!!!!!! #like #YALLLLLLL #REEEEEEEEEEEEEE #IM DYING #the valium is the only thing keeping me from drinking but even then #I NEED TO FUCKING SMOKE

[crybaby-bkg]

sorry I’ve been on such a Dabi high lately but I almost croaked earlier at the thought of being his college gf and just being so opposite of each other!!!!!! you’re all good grades and perfect attendance, easily approachable and sweet smiles. and he’s all grumpy faced and dark clothing, makes people nervous whenever he stands outside smoking right by the doors.

who the hell would’ve thought you two would end up together? it just didn’t make a lick of sense seeing you two from the outside. but when they get a glimpse of you guys together, alone, everything just falls into place.

he’s so supportive of everything you do, no matter how dumb or nerdy he thinks it is. he keeps count of your stitches for you when you crotchet, doesn’t mind being your model for a cropped hot pink sweater you’re creating, wears the knitted beanie around campus that you made for him. he hates not having your attention but he takes some of the same classes you take so that he can help you study, quiz you when you’re not too sure of the subject, maybe even help you cheat if you want (you don’t, but he always offers).

he buys you your favorite drink at the cafes and always carries an extra laptop charger in case you forget. he helps you pick out your outfits when you’re unsure, and loves the opposite aesthetic whenever you stand hand in hand with him. he praises you when you succeed, and comforts you with your failures. he looks like a dirtbag that hangs around campus to be a creepy bum, but he’s there for you through and through <3

#sorry I just cannot get enough of him #I wanna write another fic for him which is terrible #bc I already have like 8 on my list :( #but he’s just so :((((( #I want him to be my opposite but so supportive bf so bad #he’s all cigarette smoke and I’m all strawberry scented lipgloss :( #why is talking about self shipping so hard for me AKSJDKDJDJ #I changed I’m to yours and back to I’m like nine times lmfao #BUT SERIOUSLY I need him so bad or else I’ll combust #I don’t need to write another college bf touya au I DONT!!!!!!!(?) #I’m being tempted……..he is my temptress in my hero journey……….and I am weak…… #okay bye I wrote this at midnight but didn’t think anyone would see it until this morning anyway lol #I will attempt to do my own cluster lashes so wish me luck #if they fuck w my sensory issues then they are immediately coming AWF #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #dabi treats! 🍬

[ilovemesomevincentprice]

Vincent Price on the set of Confessions of an Opium Eater/Souls For Sale (1962)

#vincent price #confessions of an opium eater #souls for sale #photo #photo edit by me #ciggy #cigarette #he is so hot #those pants tho #god hes sexy #i fucking want him so bad #bicon #bisexual #god #fav #horror #old horror movies #vintage #movie #actor #handsome

[sonknuxadow]

jesus christttt im not surprised at all to hear that the knuckles series focuses on wade and other human characters a lot i saw this coming a mile away with how almost all the news we were getting before the trailer came out was about the human characters/actors and not about knuckles (or sonic or tails or any other animated characters) but the fact that somebody calculated how many minutes of screentime knuckles has and it came out as LESS THAN HALF OF THE ENTIRE SERIES' RUNTIME when the series is NAMED after him is ridiculous. after this show comes out wade will likely have more screentime and overall plot relevance in the entire scu than tails does. did they actually think wade is a popular enough character for people to be down with this. what the fuck

#was gonna pirate the series but at this rate i might not watch it at all LMAO or at the very least only watch the parts with team sonic #because my interest in this series is dropping every second and i already wasnt very interested in it. #and i love knuckles so you know theyre doing something wrong if knuckles getting his own series isnt interesting me #the thing about wade is i dont even hate the idea of human characters. i dont think its bad for human characters to be present #and i dont think its bad for them to be involved in the plot and have relationships with the existing sonic characters #i personally didnt mind the wedding subplot in the second movie and i know a lot of people hated it #but. it becomes a problem when the random humans are overshadowing the characters people are actually here to see #like the show is literally called knuckles and all the marketing focuses on knuckles but its mostly about wade. allegedly. #and . i wouldnt have minded knuckles having a human costar. but again. they should be getting equal or less focus not more. #and also. its fucking wade who cares about wade enough to want this. would have been more forgiving if it was maddie or jojo or something #because i actually care about those characters. and also theyre not cops #for a moment i was willing to believe that the complaints about wade having way more screentime than knuckles #were a little exaggerated since a lot of people just get mad when the human characters have any screentime at all #but then i saw the article showing that knuckles really did show up for less than half the show and i was like Ummm. What #sorry for being so negative lately #its just that every new piece of info we get about upcoming scu projects has me like that reaction image of the guy holding a cigarette #like WHAT ARE THEY DOINGGGGGGG

[autisticredhood]

Does jason smoke in canon?

quick response is here is him post-crisis shown lighting a cigarette in batman #408, so yes he did smoke. can't recall a panel of him post resurrection smoking but wouldn't be surprised if there is one, if i remember later I'll add it on. smoking isn't a BIG thing with him, not like fanon can emphasize, but there is an origin to him smoking when he was younger

[ID: two images of young post-crisis Jason Todd. First image is a panel of him sitting on a mattress in the apartment he's squatting in lighting a cigarette to his lips as Batman watches in the doorway. Second image is a close-up of the next panel where the cigarette has fallen from Jason's lips in shock and there is a little swirl of smoke. End ID]

#anytime i answer a question i feel like someone is going to respond r u fucking stupid hes smoking in every panel. like maybe im insane and #just blocked it out but i feel like theres a chance red hood jason smoked a cigarette u kno so dc can push bad boy aesthetic of it. but i #just cant distinctly recall a panel of it atm but also im tired #i do think theres something to be said about sheila smoking while he was beaten up and maybe that turned him off. but also i can see it as #him being triggered by cigarettes in certain ways/on some days but also enjoying the calm a cigarette can give him in the way he did as a #kid. but also he soooooooo about control & i could see him as viewing smoking as a weakness. like he does not need help. personally i dont #have a huge stake in him smoking. i dont think he would care for health reasons. i think he would do it to piss ppl off. and then maybe #v v rarely having one as a treat to show he can smoke if he wants & enjoy it but he does not succumb to addiction hes in control #<- not a reflection of how i view addiction this is jasons fucked up world. addiction isnt something you succumb to or weak for hes just a #stupid babygirl

[martyrbat]

action comics #434

[ID: Clark Kent looking at a box of candies after it was delivered to his desk. The card that it came with reads, ‘To Clark Kent, the niftiest newsman on TV—from the faithful girls of your new fan club!’ The mild-mannered reporter affectionately reflects, ‘Imagine that—I've got a club of admirers! As Superman, I'm accustomed to the adulation of millions... But to know Clark has fans of his own really chokes me up! Might as well sample the merchandise! Nothing says the Man of Steel can't have a sweet tooth for chocolate-covered cherries...’ He ingenuously puts a piece of the candy (that was sent by literal strangers) in his mouth, his eyes closing with contentment. END ID]

#this is a man who says ‘oh ill be bad~~!’ before ordering the most sugary drink at a starbucks #(lois is drinking black coffee and a cigarette) #(i meant shes smoking the cigarette but like. i can see her dropping it in there accidentally and still drinking it. we've all been there.) #but also just... clark being so touched and honored people like *him* instead of just superman.... hnghhh...... #i love clark so much because he can say or think the most innocent dialogue but if you think about it for any longer than 5 seconds then its #just SO fucking depressing #he can basically be saying he wants to kill himself as he eats a hot dog and spills mustard on his shirt its great #c: action comics | i: 434 #crypt's panels #clark kent

[inniave]

after surgery i'm buying myself pentiment goddamnit

#reasons to live #also new doctor who episodes #i've been wanting to play for soooo long but haven't really had the money to spend #so i'm using this as an excuse #trying to focus on all the fun/good/cool things that i can do after #seeing hozier later in the summer #watching the wild flowers come up in the backyard #this is hell but i will get through it and there WILL be an other side i will make sure of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #there's a chance we can get it done tomorrow if the doctor thinks it won't be super complicated #i hope we can cause the longer this goes the more we suffer #i just want it to be over #once i'm all healed i am going to smoke a cigarette and savor every fucking puff i haven't been able to smoke for over a k month now :/ #another thing to look forward too #and i think i have a vinyl preordered???? am can never remember what other parts have bought #oh and i'm going to binge rewatch the hunger games (all of them) after surgery #been meaning to do that & im using this as an excuse to do nothing but watch movies all day #got some audiobooks downloaded that hopefully they'll let me listen to during (unless it's going to be loud (??) then i have music) #i'm taking my puppy stuffie husband got me when we had to live apart for a summer before we got married #puppy is so special to me #he goes everywhere with me #i love him so much #i would just hold him and cry and cry and cry when husband had to leave :(((( #i am so scared #there's so many young parts too who are just i mean they are the ones holding a lot of this shit like i cant imagine what it's like for the #the little bit that leaks through to me is horrific and makes me want to fucking vomit #i'm worried for them #they're splitting bad :((( and i don't have any way to help #we're doing our tapping and tre and everything but idk how much that helps on the inside #idk man #it's all so much

[salad-storm]

Smoking isn't cool

#look. look. i hate smoking i hate it a lot. but if my friends want to smoke im like okay sure im judging u a bit but its your life whatever #BUT it annoys me So much when someone goes oh smoking is so bad and hurts you and ive been trying to convince person that smokes to stop !! #only to immediately start when Someone Cool offers them a cigarette. like?? if u want to ruin ur lungs fine its your body #but at least fucking Stick to your own words. dont try to be all holier than thou only to immediately succumb to peer pressure #GROW A FUCKING SPINE. either stand up to Me or to the person offering you a smoke/drink/whatever #ull need to learn to live w ur decisions eventually why not start w me when i at least try to be a bit nice n understanding #this isnt even about smoking tbh this is about my friends not listening to their own goddamn morals and reason #me when my friend doesnt tell me smthing bc they think ill judge them for it. like. yes? i will #if you were being stupid? but if you stand by your decision then you should still be able to tell me?? despite Oh No Friend Might Judge Me:( #idk. annoyed. smoking still isnt cool so stop acting like it is #stormy in here

[milkweedman]

ah, the ever-more-frequent Urge To Explode My Brain from unending migraines. a migraine that just lasts the day already sucks so bad. whole day is gone in a blur of pain and misery, right ? a migraine that lasts multiple days is sort of like if hell was real and you were in it. time has no meaning, only pain, etc.

months of migraines... with no break or end or effective treatment and also you still have to work and behave like a normal person because you cannot lie in bed for months not paying rent. well id describe it you but ive fucking lost the plot. its gone on so long and its so bad that when the migraine ISN'T at its peaking on the pain scale and making me feel like if i was hit by a truck that would be an improvement, i start to feel like my head is a vestigial organ that has been removed. cant access sensation in my head and it feels literally disconnected from my body. meanwhile the pain is still there (along with the brain fog, vertigo, nausea, etc) but it feels like its happening to somebody else.

#im kind of impressed that i can at this point carry a normal conversation (as good as i ever can. which is bad but irrelevant) #while being in agony and having been in agony for as long as i can remember #usually also with something dislocated just for some extra fun #because what i actually feel like doing 100% of the time is lighting myself on fire and/or screaming forever until i die #however thats the kind of shit that puts you in the psych ward again #so i am. smiling and making small talk while migraine auras wash out my vision and i try not to visibly dry heave #its really really really fucking bad. all the time so fucking bad. #i need to message my neurologist but likelihood of me doing that is low #because 1) the stuff she's put me on has so far done nothing but add intolerable side effects to the hell that i am already existing in #and 2) its fucking hard to do anything. even the bare minimum im not doing. so extra shit is just. not happening #i want to scream. #i am gonna. go for a walk and smoke a cigarette instead and then get really high because at least then i dont really care #the auras are making it really hard to see though. theyre like bleach all over my vision. just this wash of white #hhh. #chronic illness #chronic migraine #and its like. when my knee also gives out and it feels like theres metal in there slicing everything up with each tiny movement #or any of the other one million goddamn things broken in my body #i end up so overwhelmed by pain that i just want to lay on the floor and cry #at which point everyone around me gets mad that im not being productive and im costing them money and im not good enough #like ok kill me then. cheaper for you happier for me. just get a heavy object and go to town i would thank you for it #but i cant even say that because openly expressing suicidality just makes people angrier #im rapidly running out of fucks to give but also i will do anything to avoid returning to the psych ward #literally anything. morals out the window. i dont give a shit. #so its a catch-22. #vent

[hella1975]

the boys' first commentary on keating's lessons being cameron and neil saying 'that was weird' / 'but different' is getting to me like the entire film is a narrative on the suffocation of heavy academia and how it prioritises certain subjects (medicine, law, business, engineering) while condemning creativity and passion and how institutions are promoting conformity and grades-over-wellbeing teaching methods more and more as you both move up the elitism scale and as time goes on, and how that was okay for these kids and like so many generations before them they were going to let it happen to them, but one teacher was different. one single teacher told them to seize the day and make their lives extraordinary and he made them look directly at the state of things, and for a little while it was beautiful but they're just kids; how could they ever change things? and sure enough it catches up to them and the institution wins because it always does and suddenly the suffocating thought of what neil is so sure his life is going to be is so daunting and terrifying that he cant even face it

#he's just like me fr just without the gun #like yeah the world is actually a harrowing monotonous place and my generation is the last one to play outside as children #and if you dont chase a certain career path or excel in certain subjects then you're deemed inherently lesser #and your success is measured by your bank account and there is no warmth #like damn this film realeased in the 80s and set in the 50s had no business capturing the terror of being young in our society so perfectly #the ONLY saving grace is the 'o captain my captain' scene at the end #it's proof that the beautiful passion-filled independent lives the boys dreamed about #dont just become food for worms and we dont just go right back to the beginning #there's hope at least even if half the time im too busy BAWLING MY FUCKING EYES OUT to even see the screen at that point #godddd girl watching this doing an 'academic subject' that you despise and on bad days think might be the thing to beat you #but you do it anyway bc you're stuck now and besides your parents kinda made you do it when all you ever wanted to do was write #but that cant happen bc writing isnt 'good' the way economics is 'good' and maybe #maybe all that'll happen is i'll lose and start a career in business and work an office job for two decades #in a world that's melting and owned by corporations that want to bleed me dry #maybe that's all there is #i need a fucking cigarette #dps

[kralmajales]

The world is lucky I’m a nonbinary lesbian because it would be OVER for everybody if I was a straight girl.

#dude saw me light a cigarette with a match at a hardcore show and fell in love with me #he got me a tequila shot that cost $55…. #but yeah apparently the whole time I was struggling to figure out how to break the news to him #it came off as me being the ultimate manic pixie dream girl #imagine my power if I was into men at all #he does have awesome weird 80s gore flicks on VHS so I’m gonna try to keep the friendship going because I want to watch these movies so bad #fuck off feliks

[demobatman]

Holy Fucking Shit.

#I WANT. THIS BAG..... MMMMMM SO BAD? #im twitching #im thrashing #eats a cigarette off the ground I Want Her. #stranger things #FUCK

[murobrown]

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#i just got back to my place after holidays and I'm feeling so homesick #i want my family closer to me #i want to see them more often and for longer time #and I hate that whenever I come home i have to split my time between mom and dad #and now my dad os going through something and it's breaking my heart #because he's always the funny and silly one...always happy and now he reminds me of himself when he was divorcing my mom #i am so grateful that I spent new year's with him and that he wasn't alone #i even miss his cigarette smoke infused apartment #and my mom's weird cooking and her her candles and essential oils #and I wish my brother would appreciate all this more and not see us as a burden #i love him but I want him to grow up finally #and today before I left everyone hugged me a little tighter and a little longer #and now it's making me cry because I won't feel a human touch like that until next time I get home and that will be easter #those holidays went too fast and I want at least one more week like that #and it's all about those mundane things that make my heart beat faster #like when I went grocery shopping with my dad on new year's #or when I was just sitting and watching my mom cook #and I miss my cat so fucking bad #I'm so happy he spent another year with us #i don't even want to think about it but each year I get worried that it's his last Christmas with us because he's getting so old #and now I'm here alone and I love it that I can do my own thing and I don't share my apartment with anyone #but I just want them a little closer #i don't like how limited is my time with my own family #I'm super emotional tonight #I know it will pass in few days but today the feelings are super raw #because for more than a week I was never alone and always surrounded by love and my favourite people on Earth #and I went to being totally alone right now #i should go to sleep because I'm exhausted and I'm waking up at five tomorrow #guys...i hope you all had wonderful holidays and i wish each of you all the absolute best in 2024!

[milo-is-rambling]

I am so high I love you dabs I love you big bong rips I love you huge heavy bong I love you only having 20 dollars to my name and no plans but getting high and ignoring it I love you oh no I’m thinking about it

#I want to take an ice cold shower and scream and smoke a whole pack of cigarettes and lock myself in a closet for 72 hours in the dark with #no distractions to figure out what I actually want to do with the rest of my life and to face every bad thought I have and struggle to #ignore even years later like ugh I just need to be at the bottom of the ocean floating sinking alive dead in between for like a month and #then pull me back up and either I’ll be normal or I’ll be so fucked up they just put me back in there #like either way I am vibing at the bottom of the ocean (I have been desperately imaging a sensory deprivation tank all day) #(put me in a fucking sensory deprivation tank until something in my fucking brain rewires and I get worse or better than I am now this #inbetween stage is fucking killing me like what do you mean I’m not a horrible person but also what do you mean I struggle every day but I’m #normal but I have things about me other people don’t and alienate me to the point of near total isolation but also this is just how humans #are and I need to take meds and actively struggle to fit into a perfect little box of what a person should be like god damn I am so tired of #getting better and worse and better and worse and better and worse and better and worse and I’m miserable and I’m happy and I’m sobbing and #I know a month from now I’ll be depressed again or I’ll be the best I’ve ever been and it’s so fucking horrible to be in the middle stage #where I actually have to step up and admit shit is wrong and face it like why can’t I just lay in bed forever until I become the bed and not #like get a job and have a future. ugh. depression is so fucked esp bc most things in my life are normal I guess or like easier than my #friends like we all have seperate challenges but I’m the only one still living off their parents (ha. parent. forgot for a second.) and the #only thing wrong with my life is the mental health issues but I won’t step up and deal with it bc I feel like I’ve been depressed for so #long I like fucked up the foundational shit and like I know it’s fine but also I feel so behind and I feel like I’ll be behind and unhappy #forever even when im happy I know the next depressive episode is right around the corner and I give up again. ugh. I hate knowing that’s #what’s wrong with me but still not having the energy to step up and fix it. im so pathetic I want to cry. my brain is me but my brain is #destroying my life. anyways. im high and now im sad and have dry mouth. I think im gonna drink ice water and change into shorts+lay in bed)

[zanderism]

wish i had a truck so i could drive and drive and drive and drive and

#personal #me #shut the fuck up zander #i don’t wanna leave. i just don’t want to be here #the way id be the first to get myself killed flying around the wrong corner angrily #sleeping in an old grocery store parking lot in Oceana just to be away #i want a cigarette so fucking bad right now

[missshame]

Guys guys guys I decided to quit smoking wish me luck

#Like I just threw my pack away #It's not the first time I sorta try to cut it but usually I'm like I'll finish this pack and try to wait a little before buying another one #Which I usually manage to do since I'm fucking lazy #But idk it's starting to piss me off like since I can go without smoking for quite a while why do I always go back to it #I mean I know the answer it's because I always end up wanting to smoke because of a stressful week or event or whatever #And in these circumstances I tend to be in a shit mood and when I feel bad I'm like well I don't even care that much about my life so let's #Not give a fuck a buy some cigarettes #And idk #The truth is I know deep down that I love life I just struggle but I don't want to die like I do have these Thoughts sometimes but #The Thoughts are lying to me #And I'm not letting them have me!! #Not with a rope around my throat and not with a cancer inside of it neither lol #Fuck you Thoughts! I'll live even if it feels like dying sometimes #and if you're not happy with it why don't you go k*ll yourself instead yeah? #Anyway lol I know I'm gonna have a hard time with it but I gotta try at least yk #If you read that thank you for coming to my Ted talk lol