#i started this FRIDAY hhhhhh

[skeez-queen13]

///HHHHHh///// Well, it finally happened. I actually sat down and considered getting myself an Adobe CC subscription.

On the one hand, the only reason why I've even started considering it is b/c they're having a Black Friday sale & the first year is 50% off.

On the other hand, I'd have to update my entire OS system which means I could no longer use the PS version I have AND I'll be leashed into their ridiculous subscription service from here on out.

Like- no taksies backsies.

NGL, I'm REALLY leaning towards No @ this point b/c I'm not sure that I would use it enough to justify shelling out the money for it every month.

Like, I mean- I do want to go back to art school @ some point and these programs are industry standard, but the cost of living everywhere is ridiculous.

And I went over budget this month, by, like- a lot /cries/

OK, you know what- I just talked myself out of it, nevermind lol

#I do worry about updating my OS at some point though #♥♥♥ #that's a problem for another day I guess #ᕙ(˵◕ω◕˵✿)つ #*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ #Personal #Be Quiet Skeez

[lexyblip]

Long post sorry anyways THIS BOOK

So when I was at the library on Friday this book in the children’s section caught my eye and I thought it looked cute so I looked it up later and found out the author was gay and the main character has two dads and the story features some queer themes so like it was just really heartwarming to see cus when I was a kid I like never got to even see gay families in media at all. And now kids can just read this and like it’s not skipped over in any way, they mention adoption clearly and normally and it’s shown how uncomfortable the antagonist calling his dads “guardians” rather than parents makes the family uncomfortable (it’s also what later drives Charlie to stand up to them later which is a great scene.) with how it undermines his parents well… being parents. It’s probably something the author himself has had to face being a dad which adds another element.

Anyways I wanted to get it but felt self conscious cus it’s a book for 10-12 year olds but I couldn’t resist picking it up in a bookshop after work when also picking up something for my sister for Christmas and I was intending to just say it was a Christmas gift but then the 40 something year old lady at the counter just started GUSHING over the book and how much she loved it and had read it a lot and I was like woaaaaah ok feeling self conscious about this was dumb apparently!!! So then I told her what the queer rep meant to me and she was genuinely touched and said she was really happy for me. She was amazing love her. But yeah seriously it was a lovely moment and after reading it I feel free of any dumb worries over it being a kids book cus whatever it’s good but also not to be mushy but omg the self hating anxious still unsure if a gay or lesbian couple could even be good parents teenage me needed this silly little Welsh gay fantasy book. It’s just such a glow of optimism and it’s really made my day hhhhhh

Anyways yeah that’s my ramble read this book if you want I guess it’s cute it’s gay it’s got a fox that catches fire what more could you want?? Also don’t feel self conscious about what you love just love it as long as you aren’t hurting yourself or others just enjoy yourself :) they kind of thing yeah

#gay #the last fire fox #lee Newbury #seriously that fox is adorable #hope to see that lady again she’s chill asf #honestly Waterstones is mostly kept afloat by queer people and old ladies so I think it makes sense they hire supportive folk #have I thought of a camp camp au where max gets the fox?? yes…

[griefseedgoofball]

Hhhhhh I've been meaning to contact Kos (and Ev ngl) but I keep doing stupid shit everyday and then I'm tired and then I just DON'T. And I'm starting to get sick of my own shit.

I'll try tomorrow but I better get up early then, I'm traveling far to spend time with a friend tomorrow afternoon. Friday also has strenuous plans and I am just. hhhhhff. I need to finish up photos for the shop update but my god I am tired.

#frombambi #dont you just love approaching 30 and feeling so worn out

[darks-ink]

How Rare And Beautiful It Is (To Even Exist)

Hey folks you ever write a 12k story over the course of 3 days? yeah me neither. For Phango19.

Rating: Teen Prompts: all of them. literally the entire Bingo board Warnings: Dissection (of an animal ghost), referenced major character death, ghost hunger, ghost nip Genre: Hurt/Comfort, family/romance (strangers to lovers) Words: 12.447

[AO3] [FFN]

Note! Due to the length of this fic, and the amount of linebreaks, I’m not uploading the whole thing to Tumblr. Below is the first bit. Click the links to AO3 and FFN to read it there instead.

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Tucker stretched himself languidly, shimmering tail lazily swishing through the air. Even here, in the gravity-heavy atmosphere of Earth, he could stay afloat without it.

Yawning, he nestled his head on his folded arms, peering over the banister he was leaning on. Below him, human bustled around, the soft noise of conversation filling the air. The crowd mostly consisted of adults, but Tucker’s sharp eyes spotted a few children running around among them.

He was drawn out of his inspection by the rustle of cloth next to him. Looking up, he met Danny’s bright eyes, the boy leaping up to sit on top of the banister.

“Hey,” the boy greeted Tucker. “You doing alright?”

Tucker snorted dismissively. “Shouldn’t I be asking you? It’s your family reunion, man.”

“Eh.” Danny shrugged, turning to look down as well. The heels of his shoes beat against the side of the rail. They made no noise. “They’re fine without me. But you clearly aren’t, so. What’s up?”

“Nothing, nothing.” Tucker shook his head, glancing at the crowd so he wouldn’t have to look at Danny. “It’s just… I dunno.”

“Eloquent,” Sam huffed as she stepped up next to them. She jumped onto the railing as well, straddling it, with one leg on each side. “Come on Tuck, just tell us.”

He sighed, but couldn’t stop the fond smile that appeared on his face. Even though he looked forward, he knew that the other two could see it. “I just… Watching that whole thing downstairs, it’s just… making me nostalgic, I guess.”

“Nostalgic?” Danny echoed thoughtfully. “For what? Your own family?”

“In a way.” Tucker turned his head slightly to wink at Danny. “I meant you two, dumbass. It’s making me nostalgic for our family.”

“Oh. Fair enough.” Danny looked down, and Tucker followed his eyes to the massive bulk of Jack Fenton. The other boy sighed. “Me too, I guess, now that I’m thinking about it.”

“Yeah.” Sam’s fingers rattled on the metal railing, the sound easily swallowed by the noise of the crowd below. “It’s… been a while, huh? Good old times.”

Tucker snorted. “Good for who? Because I seem to remember a lot of frustration.”

“Nah,” Danny denied, waving a hand as if he were swatting away the suggestion. “No frustration, just excitement. I think it went like…”

[continue reading on AO3 or FFN]

#phango19 #danny phantom #dp fanfic #phanfic #danny fenton #tucker foley #sam manson #dark writes #hhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa oh im so dead #i started this FRIDAY hhhhhh

[froghwon]

.

#rambling #got the flu :///// #im 99% sure its bc of my dad #my dad was sick all week #and this morning. my mom and i woke up with symptoms 🙄 #hhhhhh #this SUCKS #for the better part of the afternoon i was achy and had the chills #thankfully thats over >.< #still dont feel well enough to go in to work tomorrow ://// #what a shite start to the year #i have a tattoo appointment scheduled friday and i hope im recovered before then D: #all i managed today was to go out for a walk in the afternoon.. #otherwise i've been knocked out #or just watching movies #my appetites gone #and anytime i've eaten today i just got a stomach ache after which makes me wanna eat even less.... #at least the movies i watched today were good #troll hunter and the autopsy of jane doe :] #OH AND I WATCHED scary stories to tell in the dark #and im gonna try to watch mortal before i go to bed tonight :D #im really enjoying andre ovredal's directing #if ur still reading #i hope ur weeks off to a better start then mine <3

[thatwhatthing]

nice

anyway this is on soundcloud now

you can make sure your friends never give you the aux cord again

#fnf #friday night funkin #do the mario #vinesauce #I guess vinesauce #hhhhhh #doin the mario on a friday night #the art is so damn stupid but pico's horrified expression makes me laugh for some reason #it took me slightly under an hour from start to finish

[minijenn]

Anyway I am making a mission statement, right fucking here, right fucking now that I will play through EVERY SINGLE LAST SONG IN MELODY OF MEMORY. All 140 of em. Regardless of how fucking hard it gets. Yep, that’s right. I’m 100% completing a KH game for the first time in my damn life. 

#i bet i will regret saying this IMMEDIATELY after starting the game up on friday #hhhhhh #tbh i plan on beating every song on NORMAL mode #fuck proud mode #ive tried it in the demo and hhhhh #preformer mode oh FUCK performer mode #one button mode is very helpful in proud mode lol #if i ever play proud mode thats what ill use like a weakling :P #jen rambles #mom

[burbled]

a new print I finished for youmacon!! WHICH ALSO HAPPENED TO LINE UP WITH PROMPTO’S BIRTHDAY 🎉🎉🎉

#ffxv #prompto argentum #BIRTHDAY BOY #I started this at the end of september because I wanted at least one new thing for youma #aND IT TOOK ME SO LONG HHHHHH #I'm tabling at youma though!!! (on friday) #my dodoles

[sysig]

Welp

From here on out, I’ve only got the last episodes of TAZ: Balance

#TAZ #*distant screaming* #I listened to the last TTAZZ so now all that's left is just #This #Oh boy :') I'm nervous #I am Going to Cry #Anyway I definitely can't start this week it is Way too busy lol #Like the absolute earliest would be this Friday every other day is busy lol #Hhhhhh it will be over soon and I'm not ready ;u;

[tsurumitokushiro]

the age old question: am i sick or dehydrated

#hhhhhh #okay to rb #im going to the doctor on friday which is good #i was sick all last week leading up to my period and then i couldnt go anywhere yesterday bc i just started and my cramps were really awful #so #we’re finally getting that checked out #because more likely than not i have endometriosis so #there’s that ig #life stuff

[cyanotiger]

walking through omonoia at night on my own is gonna be.....f u n....

#and by fun i mean scary #christ i hate men!! why why why #don't worry i'm not there yet #and i was last friday and nothing happened to me #but uhhh #i hate it #it's a place w/ a high criminality rate #and it starts emptying early-ish (like 11) compared to syntagma (1-2 lol) #hhhhhh #daphne talks #emmie's life

[goddamnshinyrock]

I’m going to dream of bleeds and crop marks and margins and fucking kerning tonight

#FINAL PRINT PACKAGE FOR THE EXHIBIT IS BEING SENT TO THE PRINTER A WEEK FROM TODAY #and my colleagues are- incredibly- STILL ARGUING about the CONTENT of the labels #like. guys. you need to decide what words are going on these soon or I will not have time to PUT them on there #we did a ''''final read-through'''' of the labels on tuesday #yet SOMEHOW there are a bunch of new edits and comments in the google doc #hhhhhh #I'm just going to have to start laying in text and be like 'nope whatever you had friday night was final sorry' #I am the only person on this design team with a copy of adobe indesign and I am Suffering #grad school hell #I! am not! a graphic! designer!

[borealopelta]

It is time for the final episodes! Commentary by yours truly

Ep 8 starting off as wonderful as the last 20 times I watched it, Mr Crozier’s little “that’s not how I see you 😳” when Mr Gender insults himself, and them stopping to have a few words while looking at each other… alack! The emotions!! They’re so gentle with each other in the way they talk and LOOK at each other and them calling each other brokfhsd…brothrjhvc…I still can’t say it…they look like they’re about to k*ss and then... cut to them running towards the camp like two little cartoon figures doing a stupid little cartoon dance

Back in the camp tragedy awaits (of course, what else could happen) and we’re back with our regularly scheduled programme of hating Native people and casual gore

And how could I forget Mr Hickey (I hate his face <3) back on his bullshit, interrupted by the man himself (with that I mean Mr Jopson the ultimate madlad) being sent out to the great emptiness to be confronted with his lies

Good Lord, Mr Bridgens and Mr Peglar standing in the tent, l-o-o-k-i-n-g [at bruises and being ever so gentle even in times of extreme hardship while Mr Collins eyes some bottles very conspiratorially, I wonder what’ll happen (except I don’t)] I did Not pick up on these two the first time around and it makes the things to come so much worse

Oh this show and it’s cruelly casual depiction of death and dying and illness and injuries and overall suffering (I have a whole lot of thoughts about that that I won’t put here but dear Jesus) It happens so often and is such an integral part of their everyday life that it seems so normal to have several dead people lying around, to have people fighting for their lives (looking at you Mr Gender and your St Sebastian looking face) eugh it pains me

Mr Goodsir saying his last words to Lady Silence pain me once more, he seems so desperate for her to stay and you can see the exact moment his oh so fragile heart breaks once more as she walks off into the fog…

Then we have the absolutely fantastic speeches by Mr Crozier and Mr Hickey, I’m vibrating from excitement at how petty these two are with each other

Aand they’re getting interrupted by the Collins one-man-rave. Oh and a giant spirit monster

More Gender scenes from the man himself (the gender is arson) His eyes are like black holes full of trauma…

Collins getting mauled to death and his soul sucked out, what a wonderful way to end an episode right? This got very long and I apologise for that but there are thoughts being thunk so watch out for more

Dearest boaty mcboatface i FORGOT to reply to these but I'm procrastinating on studying for my exam (its on friday!!! wtf is wrong with me!!!) so it's time for Them!

The Big Fitzier Scene is just. Yeah exactly what you said the next logical step was to make out. What's better than dying of scurvy but still snatching a smooch from your captain slash role model slash Beloved™???

I have to ask HOW you missed the bridglar tho like....they are So Tender you look at them and go 👀 a-HA you two are homosexuals!! I see! But dgbdhdndkd yeah everything hurts about them as well <3

What's an absolute kick in the chest with Silna's departure is that,,,, I can't say it without crying ANYWAY Goodsir apologizes to her. That scene fucking unzips me like he apologizes. GOD.

The whole Hickey thing is such a mess and i love it so much...the fog makes the whole mood muted somehow and everything feels urgent and dangerous like the moment before the storm where you're just waiting for that first crash of thunder. des voeux and [idk who the other guy is] convincing tozer to open the armory, little being pressured into greenlighting it, tommy armitage looking cute af (it's not important to the plot but it's important to ME), and then Irving's autopsy, Hodgson (boyfriend) confirming Hickey's lie, the whole got damn thing is just So Fucking Much. And hhhhhh the basis of me making james and dezza friends in every single au aka fitzjender suggesting des voeux to be put in charge of the armoury....he trusts him!!! and that makes me so sad ok.

anyway the hanging scene my beloved. mr jared harris deserves a thousand kisses for that speech his VOICE CRACKS man his voice cracks,,,,i can hear the "thAT was MR HickEY" in my head. also i love watching Tozer's face in that scene as he finds out about this stuff and you can see the horror on his face that hickey lied to him and murdered farr and Irving and alienated the Netsilik. and he was stupid enough to go along with it and now he'll die for it. as we all know i'm the #1 Tozer stannie round here so of course I'll yell abt him anyway. Hickey's speech too....hate the man amazed by his Skills of Manipulation. He talks in this super weird way when he's gaslight gatekeep girlbossing and you can't not listen to it,,,

Collins one-man-rave made me crack up but it really is that,,,the ensuing carnage is one of the worst/best scenes for being so graphic and just dealing with a bunch of side characters efficiently. Love diggle being just wrestled into a harness and made to haul with the mutineers, little and tozer's Talk™ (probably the basis of that ship gdhdhfjd), tommy hartnell the absolute lad being the Best Boy in the show and of course the jender and his rockets!!! he really went all out there <3

Collins' death and Tozer witnessing it is so....once again a thousand kisses to Walmart for using Microexpressions and Body Language because his little twitches and whatever the fuck his face does lives in my head rent free.

#long answer to a long ask i am SORRY i forgot #also dont take this as fact but iirc there was a rumour (or it was actually said in an interview or smth) that harris and menzies were told #to act like they're in love??? plus the i think we're supposed to make out thing #but again don't take this as fact #anyway episode 8 my beloved truly the most episode of all time #asked and answered #anonymous #⛵ anon #the terror #long post

[inkofamethyst]

March 10, 2021

Was denied from an REU today!!  I applied to Cornell’s summer genetics program and they were like “sorry hun 500 applied for 10 spots and you won’t be one of those 10, better luck next time tho!”  It’s chill.  They weren’t super high on my priority list to begin with, frankly, but man a 2% acceptance rate is crazy low.  I mean... I’ve done it before but still.  Ah well, I’ve still yet to hear from a ton of other programs, many of which should have decisions within the next two weeks, then I’ve got a wave of decisions in early April, too.  (I will admit... we’re closing in on mid-march and I am mildly worried about not hearing from any of the universities that I thought would have been matches for me (especially those with typically high-ish acceptance rates for the university as a whole).  Hopefully I’m offered something.)

Wow, I haven’t been denied from something since... I mean I suppose I didn’t receive any of the full rides that I explicitly applied for.  I only ones I knew absolutely nothing about lol.

Anyway, on this day a year ago I first acknowledged covid-19 in my journal.  And we all thought then that this would be finished if we only took two weeks off to stop the spread.  How naive we were then.  How hopeful that we wouldn’t turn out like that one place in China.  How wrong we were.

I’m really wondering whether this will become something endemic to our society.  Like, getting yearly booster shots, wearing masks (though, I would actually like the idea of wearing masks when you feel sick but still need to go somewhere).  There’s a lot of uncertainty about all of it, you know.

OH OH ALSO my sword came in today!!!!!!!  When I tell you that this thing is going to fuel so many self-insert fanfictionsssssssss...  I’m literally going to spend my spring break learning a bunch of cool flourishes with it omg.

Today I’m thankful that my first purchase of my twenties was a sword.  I’m entering my third decade of life (!!!) full ~swing~ and it feels fantastic (at least I feel fantastic right now, as I haven’t gotten the grade back yet for that lab that I skipped :/).

By the way, I still haven’t watched that one stream yet.  Actually... I sort of skipped it in the timeline and started watching Techno’s stream today, but I promise I’ll go back and watch Tommy’s stream I promise.  I just...  hhhhhh I just need to kind of be... prepared for it, you know?  Perhaps this Friday?

Alright, I’m off to much on some Panda Express and finish some homework lol.  See ya!

[madscientiststvstatic]

Hhhhhh very stressed because I lied to my mom yesterday and said my French homework was done but it’s not (and it’s due today (plus I have homework for French that was due Friday that I forgot about)) and I also promised her I’d work on my history homework in coaching today but I got distracted and I’m at my dads house this week and he’s less strict about homework so I’ll probably get distracted and start too late and not get it done until way too late at night and then I won’t get any sleep and I’ll end up nearly falling asleep in math class and I’m pretty sure the math teacher already hates me :)))))

#stress tw #ignore me

[madefate-a]

hhhhhh february tricked me into thinking i had an extra week of prep but !! i don’t! classes start this friday so i’ll be a little more scattered & sporadic than usual, sorry! 

#( ooc. ) #( housekeeping. ) #by which i mean !! i start T E A C H I N G this friday #amidst a fairly traumatic™ stretch in my life these last two weeks #finally some good news :') #but march is teaching + class + thesis so!! whomst knows where i'll be #besides midtown i mean skjdhg