#i should be more disappointed in myself really

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for pretending I cheated on my partner when our common friend asked why we fought?

It will sound fake and fictional, but please bear with me because I'm getting crazy over it. And also sorry for any english mistake, we're not from an english speaking country.

To give some context: I am a man. There was this person, B(m), which whom I kind of grew up with. We went through the same schools from our 6 years old to 17 but we never were really friends. Then, around our 13, I got into a clique that fed into all my bad habits and I started to actively bully B because he seemed like an easy target at the time. I enjoyed it and was encouraged to do so (because I was such an asshole and I'm not even cringing thinking about it, it's worse. I regret it so much and I was a stupid and bad teenager). It was so bad that after years of enduring it, B changed school before we graduated and I went on with my life.

It' was's been about 15 years ago that I graduated.

In the meantime, I dealt with some problems that I had with my family and I went through intensive therapy which changed me for the better, and I came to terms with my sexuality as well.

Flashforward to 2019/2020, I meet with someone online through some games and it goes very well. Thanks to the Covid and the lockdowns, we play even more and get closer. At some point, I talk about an event happening close to my city, and he tells me that he knows about it as well and that we're living close to each other. Because we enjoyed our time online (ngl, we had started flirting although I didn't know how sincere it was) we decided to meet at that event.

And there, I find out that my online friend is B. It's extremely awkward but only for me because he cannot recognize me for three reasons: 1. I changed physically with my puberty finally finishing the job after my 18 birthday, and I found some love into dying my hair. 2. I changed in terms of personality thanks to the therapy I went through. 3. My legal name was changed when I said goodbye to this fucking family of mine and left without turning back (but I was getting sick just saying my last name).

I, obviously, didn't tell him anything about who I really was because I just wanted to enjoy that evening with a friend, and we didn't see each other since he left high school because of me. My plan was just to slowly distance myself from him after that evening but it failed because we had a lot of fun and we actually really hit off and I was dying constantly at the idea that he could find out.

We've been in a relationship sicne the beginning of 2021 and I was decided to just never tell him (horrifying idea I know, anyone with a braincell would have told me that it was bound to be found).

A month ago, I met with an old friend from high school (so yeah, he was in the bullying gang but more of a followers, so we stayed in friendly terms when we both agreed that it was bad) and as he recognized B, he decided to excuse himself and hoped that B would forgive him like he "forgave" me (I never got to tell that friend to shut up about that) so yeah, B found out that I was his main bully who had lied to him for almost 4 years now.

We had quite a big talk about it. How bad my bullying ended up for B; why I lied like that and never admitted it. And even if it went alright, B told me that he needed a break to think about things and it's going to be one month that I'm crashing at a common friend of us. At first, I just said that B and I got into a fight and it was good enough, but as it's been already a month, the friend asked more about it. Not wanting to bring up B's trauma to someone else (especially after our conversation), I just told the first lie that came to me and pretended that I cheated on B and he found out.

Now that common friend is calling me an asshole and keeps reminding me how much they are disappointed in me to have done something so horrifying to B. I keep wondering if I did well to lie like that, or if I should have found another way out.

#aita #am i the asshole

[lurochar]

Well-Fed

It isn't wise harass Alastor's assistant. A man learns this the hard way.

Human Alastor x Reader

Warnings: Violence, unknowing cannibalism

--

What a pleasant night.

“F-fuck, please – what do you want?! I’ll… I’ll do anything!” The man pleaded, sniveling as he tried to crawl back, “J-just don’t kill me!”

What lovely begging.

Alastor hummed, eyeing the fallen man as he wondered in which way he should slaughter him that would best satisfy him and his current needs.

Should he just blow the man’s brain out? It’s not like he needed his head for anything – nothing really too edible there. It always made such a mess.

Maybe cut the man’s throat and make it a quick one? It always did give him a thrill to watch the life fade from one’s eyes and the absolute terror on their faces when there was nothing to be done. 

Possibly chop the man’s limbs off and watch him slowly bleed to death? He would probably put up too much of a fight and ruin too much of his meat and it would take far too long.

“Do you remember me?” Alastor asked, causing the man’s eyes to finally look at his face rather than the rifle in hand, “Or actually, do you remember the woman at the radio station earlier today?”

“Y-yeah, ‘course I remember you!” The man simpered, as if sucking up would actually save his life, “You’re Alastor Hartfelt, right? That radio host who’s the talk of the town right now?” His face twitched, “So, why you doing this?! Don’t fucking tell me…!” His eyes widened when he finally figured it out.

He wasn’t getting out of here alive.

“I asked, ‘do you remember the woman at the radio station earlier today’?” Alastor didn’t flinch in the least as he pulled his axe from the holster at his hip, swinging it down in a smooth motion, and easily severing the man’s hand.

He was screaming now, of course, in complete shock at the brutal action and he tried to scramble to his feet to run for his life, but Alastor already had his rifle at the ready, easily shooting him in the foot before he could do anything.

“I’d rather not repeat myself for a third time,” Alastor looked on in a bit of distaste when the man vomited, heaving and twitching around in agony. “It is why you are here, after all.”

The man didn’t answer or didn’t even hear him as he curled up into a sad little ball, causing Alastor to sigh in slight disappointment that his hunt was already over, but preparing meat took time and he had already invited you over to dinner the next night, so it was fine.

“Didn’t your mother teach you any manners?” Alastor knew he was talking to himself at this point as he knelt down as he reached for his knife from his belt, “I’d rather you not treat women like objects that you can use whenever you feel like it. Far too many men are like this. Imagine how Y/N felt when you cornered her in my radio station and groped her like a mindless animal? Perhaps as helpless as you are now? In any case, I do not tolerate any disrespect of such kind, especially with my lovely little assistant.”

He was rambling, he knew, he always did get like this when it came to you and your wellbeing.

“I’ve spent too much time on you,” Alastor tightened his grip on his knife, “I have a meal to prepare. I do hope you taste better than you look, my good chum.”

He hoped you liked Jambalaya.

–

“This is amazing!”

Alastor smiled, feeling absolutely pleased at your joyful expression as you took a bite of his cooking, clearly delighting in the flavour, “It’s my mother’s recipe, you see.” His eyes flashed, a dark satisfaction building up in him, “I’m glad you like it. I thought the meat might have been of too low quality.”

“No, no!” You went to reassure him, “I’m nothing fancy!” You eagerly took another bite. “You are a very good cook. Your mother must have taught you well. She must be very proud.”

“I would like to think so.” Alastor’s smile softened briefly at the thought, “I do try to be nothing less than a true gentleman. I believe my mother would have liked you very much so. I would like to share more of her recipes with you, if I may be so bold to ask?”

You flushed, looking down at your food before peering back up to Alastor with a shy smile, “I would like that too.” You did not recognize the mania behind Alastor’s eyes as you continued to eat his cooking.

“I’ll keep you well-fed, my dear.”

#alastor x reader #human alastor x reader #x reader

[krowlovesinazuma]

How have you been? I have returned for more headcanons! And I am not insane yet again! ...Ei, Kujou Sara, and Kokomi with a reader that has a gun (pistol in this case) on them

Okay fine I am a bit insane

Read this prologue for context!

Scenario: Reactions to a modern pistol

Characters: Ei, Kujou Sara, Sangonomiya Kokomi

I'll be honest, you should make sure that Ei manages to fully understand the advances and culture of the present day Inazuma before you show her new tech. It will spare much confusion.

Ei isn't interested in military advancements at first, but once you perhaps bring it up as a small comment, or she sees it, she will bring it up, and once you mention it as a weapon, she'll definitely be interested and want to learn more.

Remember, she used to be a military leader, so she still has a keen interest in these things, even if she wishes to not wage a war again if she can stop it. So when she learns about it, she might start to asks questions that not many may know...

How does it work? Why is it so deadly? Can it be mass produced? How does one train to use it? She becomes very curious in very little time, and she may be a little disappointed if some questions aren't answered.

Doesn't matter if the questions tire you out or not, her curiosity is lit up, and eventually she'll start asking about a whole bunch of other things as well! The gun might not amount to much, but it caused a definitive change in her mind about your world!

She doesn't really see it as a threat, nor as a weapon she could possibly use, as she's confident in her own techniques, and power. She leaves it in your hands, and leaves it be, without much hassle.

However, if you're interested in self defense and weapons, she'd be happy to show you how it works in her world, while witnessing it first-hand! She might not be the best teacher, but it's the least she can do to pay you back!

"From your expression, I'm guessing you liked the demonstration. Isn't it beautiful? At first, I didn't think of it that way myself, but the more I thought about it, the more I came to understand how it can be enchanting to watch. Why am I... W-well, it's to return the favor, isn't it obvious?"

At first, she won't ask many questions about your world, or your belongings. It's not surprising, given her tendency to not make small tall, and her respectful nature about her superiors. Get her to loosen up first, then maybe she'll notice and ask.

When she learns about the gun, she'll pay very close attention. She doesn't like putting in her personal feelings towards military matters, but from the way you talk, she eventually notices that it's more of a casual talk than anything.

Once she relaxes, she'll ask more questions, and show curiosity, much like Ei. Her questions are straightforward, and objective, like how to use it, about the ammunition, and its use as a weapon.

When realizing it's value as a self defense weapon, she leaves it in your hands, although she can't help but think about it at random times afterwards, especially when she's relaxing.

After this, she asks about the possibility of other firearms, how they work and what they look like! It might be just memories at this point, but she can't help but be curious... It's a good topic to keep her engaged, and just chat.

This will eventually lead to her asking about military matters in your world! If you do know, expect to be asked about wars, tactics, and other technology used in them. Perhaps you could spare her some gruesome details, but she does listen to whatever you may share.

In exchange, she'll eventually speak about military matters in Inazuma, perhaps some that you weren't aware of when watching everything from outside! Just make sure to let her know that you're actually learning, and not omniscient...

"You don't mind that I'm asking questions like these, correct? I understand that war is now something of the past, and I should enjoy other things in this world now that it's behind us, but... No need to explain? Are you... Hm. I'm... Grateful."

Time for something a little different, as Kokomi is naturally curious of other cultures aside from the one in her home! So whenever you mention your past life and world, she naturally starts to ask questions!

If you show her your gun, she's immediately examining it, with just her eyes if you don't let her hold it, and the texture is just so strange to her... She examines it almost as if it's a relic of some kind!

Once you explain its functions as a weapon though, her more childish curiosity drops for a few moments, just in case it's something more serious than she assumed at first...

If you do let her hold it again, she'll be much more careful with it, and her eyes will lose some of that glow, getting sharper... Just ensure she doesn't overthink things, she's already done plenty of that.

Much like the others she'll leave it in your hands, but it's not hard to tell how interested she is! If you bring it up later, she'll definitely show how much she's been thinking about it constantly...

Once you let her though, she'll definitely storm you with more questions about both the weaponry, and the way it's used in your world, amongst other related topics! Much like the others, but there's a tone of spark and excitement in her voice...

She's definitely the one that remains most interested in the weapon out of them all, even if it's not to use it herself. It's to the point you can sorta predict what the two of you will talk about next time you two meet...

"I can't believe how far technology has developed... I can't help but wonder, how else has it developed? Even more, how far have other things developed? Ways of thinking, religion, warfare? So many wonderful possibilities to think about..."

#genshin impact #genshin impact sagau #genshin sagau #sagau #genshin headcanons #genshin impact headcanons #genshin fanfic #genshin impact fanfics #inazuma aficionado sagau #ei x reader #sagau ei #kujou sara x reader #sagau kujou sara #sara x reader #sagau sara #sangonomiya kokomi x reader #sagau sangonomiya kokomi #kokomi x reader #sagau kokomi

[calaisreno]

Couple

865 words / Prompt: Imperfect

“We’re not—” John begins, but realises the futility of saying it again. 

“You’re a lucky man.” Hopkins winks at him. “I’d make a play for him myself, but he’s obviously taken.”

He watches her walk away while he stands at the bar, waiting for another pint. She’s just the kind of woman he once would have hit on. A fun flirtation. 

Now he doesn’t have the energy. And he’s wondering when that happened.

Sherlock is watching him. 

He should be used to it by now. People always assume they’re a couple, and really, he doesn’t mind so much. He’s stopped saying he’s not gay because it’s misleading, and he would rather be honest. But it’s nobody’s fucking business who he is.

Sherlock must know. God, they’ve known each other for years, lived together for months now, since he and Rosie moved back. They’re practically co-parenting, and often exchange the same weary look that only the parents of a toddler can wear. 

But Sherlock looks sad, he thinks. If John is honest with himself, he’s a bit worried that Sherlock is tired of the John-and-Rosie show, the trail of destruction Rosie leaves everywhere she toddles. The cases always used to bring them together, and now, even if they have a babysitter, John’s often too exhausted to go out with him. 

Even this, a night out with the Yarders, Rosie at home with Mrs Hudson, is less fun than John had hoped. Sherlock doesn’t care for pub nights, but he tags along because John presses him to be more social. 

He moves towards Sherlock, who’s sitting on the periphery of the noisy group. People don’t socialise with him much. Even the women who look at him with appreciation give up after a brief exchange. Sherlock can manage social occasions when necessary, but he’s clearly wishing he were somewhere else.

He slides into the seat opposite. “I’m glad you came.” 

“Why?” Sherlock gives him a sharp look. “So I could watch Lestrade’s team get pissed?”

“No, I’m glad because… I like being with you.”

Sherlock’s eyebrows rise. He gives an amused huff. “You live with me.”

“Yeah, I do. But at home there’s always some mess to clean up or Rosie to deal with. I’m sorry, I know this isn’t your favourite thing.”

“I don’t mind.” His mouth curves into a smile. “I like being with you, too.” 

John nods, takes a swallow of beer. “Stella was just making the usual assumption. We look like a couple. And I was wondering, are we?”

“Are we a couple?” Sherlock’s face does something complicated: surprise, discomfort, and then careful indifference. “People are idiots.”

“I don’t care about people. I care about you. Does it bother you?”

“Why would it bother me?”

“Because you don’t… I know you care about me and Rosie, but you don’t do…” The word is on the tip of John’s tongue, but he’s looking into Sherlock’s eyes, feeling completely obvious.

“Romance,” Sherlock says. “It’s a medieval construct, John, an idealisation of a reality that is often messy and contentious. People fall in love and marry; they run headlong into disappointment and divorce. I abhor the idea that we must put on blinders and pretend everything is perfect. It’s not, and never has been.”

John feels his heart sink a bit. “Yeah, you’re right.” He touches the side of his pint glass, watches the condensation run down. 

He’s thinking about his own failed marriage. He’d loved the idea of Mary, an escape from the past, the possibility of a future with a person who loved him. He’d built an idealised life in his head, and it hadn’t taken long for him to realise how mistaken he’d been. The night Mary died, he’d planned to talk with her, tell her what he’d realised about himself. He didn’t know where that would take them, but it had to be said. He’d only delayed because of Sherlock’s text.

“Love,” Sherlock continues, “has nothing to do with romance. It’s not perfect. It’s a decision, one we keep making because it’s important.”

Their eyes meet. John is looking up into Sherlock’s face, remembering when he said, we might all just be human. “Important. To you?”

“Yes.”

The group is suddenly louder, laughing and jeering at some remark. No one is looking at him and Sherlock. 

Those grey eyes are still gazing at him.

“Love is important, John. I know I don’t often express sentiment, but I do feel it. I do love you.”

At the look on John’s face, Sherlock’s smile turns to something sadder. 

“I adore you and Rosie, and I love the messiness of living with you. I don’t want a perfect life. I want you. I want us.”

“So, you’re saying… you want us... to be a couple?”

“We already are, John. What that means is up to us. Do you want more than what we have?”

“God, yes.” The words are out of his mouth before he thinks them. “I do. Want you. If you…?”

“Yes.” Sherlock is smiling now, a full, bright smile that practically lights up the room. 

John leans closer. “I love you too, Sherlock.” 

The kiss is messy and imperfect. And glorious. Nobody’s watching.

#mayprompts2024

[igglemouse]

It's hitting me today that Love day passed without much romance. Without any romance, actually. While my first season here in Oasis Springs has been a financial success, more than I could even imagine. My social life has been a roller coaster. One with twists, turns, rises, and dips.

I've met a few friends and that's not to be taken for granted, but when it came to romance I'm not really quite sure what to make of my life here so far. There's Pascal, of course, but I'm sure not sure where things are with him. We are a couple but it doesn't really feel like it?

I dig into my apple bacon pancakes, letting the sweetness of syrup mingle with the sour sweet of apple and allowing myself to get lost in flavors for just a moment...

I don't have anything planned for the morning so naturally I find myself settled into my cheap couch and in front of my slightly less cheap TV.

I wasn't exactly sure what to watch so I stumbled upon the first thing that interested me, a cooking show, and just let it play as background noise as I fiddled on my phone.

This is just the kind of day where I'll wander through it aimless and accept whatever it places before me. It's the last day of Spring too so maybe something interesting will pop up?

Or someone interesting will pop up? That's Daniella isn't it? I think I've met her once before? Either way, she's eagerly knocking at my door...

My curiosity invites her inside and right away she's off, thankfully she's a Selvadoradian speaker so our conversation flows nicely. She warms me up with small talk at first, the weather, local news, and then suddenly jumps into what she's really here for. Love Day, or rather talking about the Love day that I celebrated with my amigas and not that romantic interest of mines. She flat out asks if I'm single even.

"There is someone," is what I tell her and I stop before saying more because why does she want to know? Why is everyone so interested in my love life? Maybe my food stand has turned me into a minor celebrity here or maybe my ego is growing a little too much?

"Oh? You're not single?" there is a suggestion of disappointment in her tone. I'm not sure what to make of it.

"Umm, well," I don't even see Pascal that much. "It's complicated? He's a busy man-"

"Perfect!"

"Huh?"

"Well," she hesitates just a little as if she's holding back a secret. "It's a club I'm part of," she reveals, which is vague enough to mean nothing to me and so I sit and wait for her to explain. "An exclusive and invite only club."

"Ok?"

"You don't have to be single," she corrects. "It just helps if you are, that's why I asked."

"Ok..." again, I'm confused and that confusion is enough to turn me off of whatever she's trying to sell to me. "I'm not sure if I'll have much time for clubs-"

"I can show you on Monday, you don't have to join, but you should know what you're turning down, right?" I don't reply because the urgency she has in her recruitment worries me. "Look, it's nothing serious, just think about it, okay?"

"Umm, yeah, sure," but I think we both know that my answer is no.

What an odd conversation, one that has me ready to dive right back into my cooking and try something new for my stand. Spanish omelets! I believe I've mentioned that I always want to present new options to my customers, something fresh every week. I want to show my versatility and flexibility when it comes to my culinary skills because I don't want to be known for one thing and I also want to challenge myself.

Sadly, I did not see many customers today. Strange, very strange, and I'm not sure what to make of it because as I've mentioned my food stand has been such a roaring success that seeing a sudden dip in interest is odd.

Could just be coincidence. Summer is almost here so maybe that has something to do with it? The coming heat might be a factor and perhaps I should have ice cream at the ready?

For now, I'll consider it just a bad day. I'll worry when when it becomes a pattern.

But...It's hard not to dwell on it because it simply doesn't feel right. Nothing changed but the date so what else could it be?

Ok, ok, I WON'T dwell on it. Instead, I find some time cleaning because I could begin to smell, and see, the dust that had begin to collect and I'm not someone that keeps a dirty home.

The day moves on which meant it was time to visit Pascal. He sent me a message letting me know that he was at home and with little to do so why not head over? I worried that he wasn't too interested in me so his open invitation was just what I needed and honestly I had nothing else to do today so why not?

After letting me in I could hear the audio of a game in the background, loud enough that it almost drowns out his greeting.

"I like to feel like I'm there on the field even when I'm watching," he says with a smirk, that little curl of his lips always gets me. Everything about him always gets me, if I'm being honest, I just wished there was more time for us.

Either way, we head to his couch. It's about what I expected, fitting in with the rest of the room although none of this place felt like it belonged to him. Perhaps he hired someone to decorate it or maybe he just bought it as is?

We have more important things to talk about than home deco, thankfully, and that's each other. He's asking me in a cheeky little way what I look for in a man. I should have said someone like him, someone well put together, someone sharp, someone that feels familiar to me the day I meet them, but instead I give him a very default answer.

"I think I just know, it's a gut feeling? You know when you know?"

"And do you get that feeling around me?"

I pause for a moment before answering. "I get a good feeling around you," I say, smothering the 'hell yes' that might have burst from my lips had I not paused before answering. I mean, he's hot, I think you all know how I feel about that, and I feel like Sara has the right of him. He's dedicated to his craft, maybe overly so, but I'm not sure that's a bad thing? While Simon presents a more wild kind of life Pascal is one of stability and honestly? After what I've been through? Stability is a necessity for me.

"What do you look for?" I return the question before he can ask another because I can almost taste the curiosity he has for me. "I'm sure you have your preferences.."

"Is it so wrong to say that I want someone to be there, by my side, supporting me?"

"N-no? Why would that be a bad thing?"

"Don't know," he shrugs. "I want a teammate, someone that is there for me as much as I plan to be there for them. It's like when you are in transition and the other team is pushing the attack. Sometimes you have to trust that your teammates will be there for you, that your defensive line will be-"

"Pascal, I've watched futbol like two times in my life, I have no idea what you're talking about," I say with a laugh and that gets a good laugh out of him as well.

"You know, I love that about you. Most women are into me because they know one day I'll be a big star...but you know, I'm going to start making you watch the games so that you can understand my analogies."

"Make me watch huh? How does that work?"

He scoots a little closer to me, close enough that our bodies meet, shoulder against shoulder, and the desire in his eyes for something more is clear.

"I don't know, just with some convincing?"

I think he just might pull it off with me because before I know it I'm in his lap and enjoying the position. Just like last time, the feel of his lips on mine are welcoming. The kiss between us is natural and easy and I guess you can tell that things get very touchy feeling after a few more kisses...

(XXX - Full Scene Here, Nudity, Sex - XXX)

I'm really not sure what to say about my time with Pascal other than, well, I'll happily be staying over for the night. I will say too, more time passed than expected, me wanting more was perhaps being greedy but I shouldn’t be surprised that he has a lot of stamina, huh? 

Anyways! It's a little too late to go home and I won't bother him by having him take me home and I don't mind sharing a bed for the night after my shower.

But before I can curl into the bed with him and call it a very successful day Sara links me a video of someone, some guy named Ray, ripping into my food stand.

So that explains why people were avoiding it today...

Episode List - Next

#The Sims #The Sims 4 #ts4 #Sims #Sims 4 #sims legacy #my sims #generation 1 #soot #sims of our time #frida varela #pascal alcocer #ray booker #daniella martin

[ti-red]

i still like chris hemsworth

#it’s not right #but it’s okay #i shouldn’t have waited for this #i should be more disappointed in myself really #for holding out hope #he did say when anna wintour called him and asked him to “host” #he thought he was going to be on stage telling jokes #said he only recently realized how big of a deal the met gala is #that he didn’t have a say in what he was wearing #was presented options by his stylist and asked his wife to tell him “what was good and bad #and i love elsa #but #this is the blind leading the blind #i still think he’s neat #just not at the met gala #met gala 2024 #met gala #chris hemsworth

[kimtaegis]

I’m feeling quite sad about how much the active bts fandom on tumblr has shrunk and/ or how selective the community has become regarding content interaction. I’ve heard people pointing out a clique-building here lately, and while I’m well aware of closer mutual circles existing – and I can only speak on behalf of my friend group here – these pretty much develop naturally when there’s just no one else who reacts, reblogs from and talks to you anymore except for these handful of people. I don’t like that some people perceive these “cliques” as “exclusive”, for example to content creators only. that’s bullshit; it’s certainly not great to have only other cc’s support your work because they personally know how much time and effort it takes. also, knowing how lovely most of these people are, you’d get immediately followed back and showered with love too as soon as you’d even show a speckle of kindness on a regular basis, regardless of whether you make gifs yourself or not. ccs dedicating sets to each other isn’t a sign of exclusivity, but rather us holding onto and appreciating people who still give us at least some motivation to create and post in the first place anymore, because there’s quite literally no one else left by now.

#this is rather general so I’m putting more personal thoughts in the tags here #I really don’t feel like creating anymore :( #like I genuinely only post for birthdays or gifts cause I see no point in anything else anymore #at least that one person will care you know #I don’t post that much anymore but when I do I put so much love and effort into it #and it never feels good to click that post button anymore #also. #man it fucking stings to realise that people who follow you definitely scrolled past your own post #cause they reblogged sth from you that you posted before your self reblog #it makes me so so anxious and insecure #I’ve been pressuring myself to post so much only to be met with dismissiveness when I do #that doesn’t feel great in the slightest #I said a while ago that I don’t want to take a break and that I want to keep creating #but the disappointment lately was pretty drastic #I’ve been at this point several times before so it’ll probably pass again #but it’ll never not suck to see your days of work and creativity be ignored #it feels once again pointless to try to make original things #should just stick to 10 gifs of the same clip #or shirtless tannie gifs #it’ll get me the exact same recognition if not three to five times more #and takes so much less time

[marshmallowgoop]

Repostober Day 30 | October 30, 2008

The first episode of Wakfu premiered October 30, 2008! These are a few Wakfu pieces I drew in 2011.

#repostober #wakfu #goop draws #at least i *think* the grougaloragran and chibi was drawn in 2011... it wasn't dated unfortunately ^^; but 2011 would make sense #sadly i was so disappointed by the season 2 finale that i kind of never really looked back at wakfu #but it's got more seasons now and an english dub with some big-name actors? haha idk maybe i should give it a chance again #it's not like i even fully understood the finale anyway--i watched it raw in french on the france 3 site when it aired and idk french ^^; #sad that apparently there's nothing new about nora? 'islands of wakfu' really got to me evidently... #and while a lot of the anatomy is super whack on these pieces i am proud of myself for attempting a bg in that one with nora and the tofu!

[justanotherghostwriter]

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#I stand by my 7/10 rating for NATLA #But I'm watching the episodes in full (as opposed to flipping through them as I did before) #And I still don't like Bumi or Katara or Iroh's characterisation #But Ozai's is really irking me #Just because I love how the animated version of Ozai is so arrogant #He's not manipulative #Even when going to Azulon to ask for Iroh to be dethroned it's not very subtle. #It's what really sells the “of c I should make a position for myself and rule the world. I'm just that great. And my kid is that great too” #I get what they were going with in NATLA about manipulating Azula with fake affection for Zuko to pit them against each other #But I really think that the animated show's Ozai's abuse is just as damaging. Just different. #“You were born to be perfect like me and every single sign you're not is a disappointment of what you could achieve” is a #psychological MOUNTAIN to put on your kid #IDK. I know it's not a HUGE difference like Bumi but #It irks me. And it's irking me continuously. I liked OG Ozai and his flaws and his methods. #You know in a villain way. It just... #There's a line from “Stormbenders” (yes I've been in fandom that long) where Katara's like #“I have just realised that Ozai and Azula are petty... and that makes them so much more dangerous than I thought” #Similar vein to Yon Rha being “sad and empty” #And for Azula's eventual (need-to-be-hard-earned) redemption arc I just... I want OG Ozai and his nuances #That is the end of my rant I'll go re-watch scarf again

[thefirstknife]

The destiny reddit is an absolute warzone right now. Do yourself a favor and avoid it like the plague

Oh no. I saw a lot of negative comments overall and while I understand where they're coming from, I think at some point, some people should calm down.

I mentioned some of the issues I had with the campaign and I stand by them, I think some of this stuff definitely felt rushed and that we're sorely lacking basic information to understand the plot. But I can get over that if it's fairly reasonable to believe we'll find out eventually (and it is) and if the rest is solid. And to me, the rest is solid.

I know people have issues with strand taking too much time from the campaign, and I get it. But also to me, strand being such a huge part of the story made the campaign feel more personal and invested for US, the Guardian. To me, that was the point. I do wish the campaign was a bit more expansive, perhaps another mission or two would've been perfect imo. An extra mission could've delved into the history of the Veil and what it means. It's a legitimate complaint that I share, but also some people online have been expressing it... rather explosively.

I'd also add a counter to my own complaint; when it comes to the plot about the Veil and the Witness and the Traveler, it's clear that this isn't the end; it's a setup. Everything that happened here we can learn about retroactively in a month or six months or a year. It may suck because it's content for THIS expansion so we want to know now, but it CAN be explained later.

But strand? Strand can't. We have to learn it NOW. We can't get strand and then have a really cool personal discovery quest about mastering it in a month or six or a year. So if they didn't have time to fit another two missions into the campaign, it's fairly obvious what is being cut.

Is it clumsy? Yeah, definitely. I definitely feel like some crucial information has been deliberately cut away and removed, possibly waiting to be delivered during the year to prepare us for The Final Shape. I'm not a fan of that method, I would prefer a solid chunk of lore about the current story to be delivered in the current story. If anything, then for clarity. Especially because the majority of the players will not be waiting around to read 15 lore tabs during the year to figure out what's the Veil. A major expansion should be self-contained.

But for the love of god, some of what I've seen online is basically some players acting like we have E.T. (1982) on our hands. Like, I agree that there's issues and I've spoken about them and I can do it again at any point, but at the end of the day, I had fun and the good stuff was good. Literally my only true complaint is that it feels like a mission or two are missing. Pretty much every problem I have would've been solved with that. But that's an unknown amount of extra time of work so I cannot make a comment whether they could've done that or not. I will assume they couldn't so they didn't. Generally don't like assuming that they did it maliciously because then we go into dev harrassment territory.

#destiny 2 #destiny 2 spoilers #lightfall #lightfall spoilers #ask #i've seen some really bad outrage out there and i just don't get it #it's fine. there's some disappointment but also a lot of really cool stuff #listen. i was on the front line during ME3 ending apocalypse and I equally did not understand it then either #it was a slightly disappointing ending (last 5 minutes more or less) but not worth the massive outrage #and if people genuinely just. do not enjoy ANYTHING about it i personally think that's a sign they no longer like the game #just speaking from my personal experience because i went through that myself #when i found myself scoffing and huffing and getting angry at every new bit of info about changes in forsaken i figured. hey. #i don't like this game right now. bye. #sat out an entire year and came back to check shadowkeep because the game moved to steam #like i genuinely do not mean this in any negative way but some people just do not like destiny anymore and should probably take a break #not talking about anyone specific on tumblr. i know some people are disappointed including some friends #and i understand their complaints. but usually most of them also have something they liked so it's not all horror and doom #and even if they didn't. who cares. if you don't like it hit da bricks #we have limited time on this earth please do something you enjoy

[camelspit]

succumbing to the demons and dnfing a book for the first time in years 😔

#im so sorry but. I just cannot make myself care. #the first book was so so good but this second one. ough. #this feels like the same fantasy story ive read 500 times already #the usual sequel 'we have to reclaim the kingdom'type thing #and the magic system started out so cool but. now it just feels like the same thing over and over. #like how in house of night they solved every fucking problem with a ritual circle #idk man im just not feeling it and. #the worst part is its not even a bad book! its just really disappointing compared to the first one #and im haunted my the knowledge that i have a tbr with books that are. a lot more interesting. #i think another factor is also that ive been reading really really good books lately #so in comparison this book is just like. yeah. #freeing myself because i do not have an obligation to this book or whatever and reading should be about enjoying yourself <3

[steakout-05]

i was thinking about how it took me a while to figure out i'm aegosexual (which basically means that there's a disconnect between yourself and being the subject of attraction) and i thought about how much i really dislike and just cannot see myself in slash reader fics. i tend to dislike these fics for multiple reasons, but some of them include that the reader self insert is usually really boring, has no personality outside of being lovey dovey and isn't unhinged enough for certain characters for reasons outside of contrasting personalities for my tastes (like spamton for example, why are you writing a normal protagonist to pair with fuckin spamton of all characters). but another reason is that i literally cannot connect myself to the reader self insert. like i cannot imagine myself in their place at all, it's always another stand-in that i imagine instead and thinking about myself in their place makes me uncomfortable. i can't see myself in their place because i don't see myself as a subject of attraction, and i'm repulsed to that idea. so i imagine someone else instead because that's better to me. and also because of the aforementioned reasons that have more to do with the writing of the self insert, i just cannot imagine myself acting the way the self insert does because I Personally Would Not Fucking Do That™. like i would not be romantically kissing a guy on a date, i would be infodumping about my special interests for 3 hours and then start ranting about how funny cars are while he just smiles and nods lmao

this is why i've never really self-shipped with any character. like i can be attracted to them and be like "i wanna hold his hand/kiss him/do inexplicable things to his psyche", but in reality i could never actually see myself as a subject of attraction by this character, so i'd either ship them with another character i like or imagine a sort of stand-in that has some of my traits and lives out my fantasies but still isn't me. i can fall in love but i can never connect because ew that's gross and weird. watching from the sidelines by reading fics and looking at fanart about characters being shipped with others and being intimate with each other is more my cup of tea.

#aegosexual #also i'm not like. sad about this or anything #maybe i'm a little disappointed that i probably won't experience some things but i'm not like. crying about it. #i literally don't care about it and i think i actually prefer it this way #being seen as something arousing is fucking disgusting and weird in a bad way to me and i don't think i should ignore how i feel just to- #-experience something i won't enjoy. #i just want to watch my little fictional men hold each other and kick my legs like an excited schoolboy about it in peace #also unpopular opinion but slash reader fics SUUUUUUCK and i'd rather read something else instead #now let's sit back and watch literally everyone get mad at that opinion lmao #i'm kidding i'm kidding you're obviously free to enjoy slash reader fics #i just find them to be completely unrelatable and i feel like throwing a self insert into the mix kinda ruins the whole dynamic for me #like i just personally find the idea of meddling in that character's life and being their hubby to be very unattractive #especially when the self insert is so barebones that there's no chemistry #we need more slash reader fics that are just an expression of how much the reader admires the character and nothing more i think #idk maybe i just haven't read enough slash reader fics to appreciate them as their own thing disconnected from me but i really just kinda- #-don't like them because the ones i've read were mostly kinda boring..... sorrgy #i always preferred projection anyway #although i do like dating sims. of course i don't attach myself to the MC but i do like them more than reader fics. i wonder why that is. #probably because the MC tends to have more character traits i guess? so then i can just consider them to be a different person- #-and i'm just pressing buttons for them #it's more free and directional i guess

[driftpng]

it feels kind of weird being an artist that mainly draws animal people n anthros & that being the main kind of thing people usually come to my page for, but not being able to relate to like most of the furry community in general (specifically when it comes to art + kind of characters i draw)

#this isn't supposed to be anything negative abt furries i just feel like my characters do Not really fit the category of “furry” #or at least when you think abt what a furry “Should” look like by the community or every1 else #folks tend to find my anthro art first and like those more than anything. but find that most of my art which is just my ocs mind you #isn't just your generic furry Art bc my ocs are either very humanoid or flat faced lil guys & disappointing ppl scares me lol #i feel like they're in a weird limbo between “too humanoid-looking to be anthro” and “too many animal traits to be humanoid” #but maybe that's just me idk how to really word this correctly? #i have a few reasons why i don't rly call myself a “furry artist” or my ocs “furry” & this is one of those reasons #but i'm not getting into those other reasons cause. yeah lmao??? #yadda yadda my art + ocs are too niche to belong in the community but it's not like i ever called myself part of it anyway & don't want to #wolfe.txt #vent-ish post this got a bit long here sorry o_o

[todayisafridaynight]

twitter having 'national girlfriend day' trend tonight is so funny like how did they know i was thinking of masato

#snap chats #he's still my toxic girlfriend sorry #i was sitting by the road today and being emo As Per Usual and i thought about comin on here like #'maybe if i looked at pictures of my evil toxic girlfriend ill feel better' #maybe i should just draw him... idk im not really feeling like. EXISTING tonight #i keep hoping ill die from high blood pressure soon and its just not happening like cmon....... dont play with me like that blood pressure. #ok bye im gonna. idk. #drink matcha ig #i called my dad just to say hi because im trying to do that more and i just ended up crying like a BABY #and he just told me to eat cause he knows me and he knows i hate myself and that means i Wont eat 😔 #i mean he said a LOT more obviously but yk.. the eating part's relevant since im talking about just drinking matcha and calling it a night #prrroobbbabblyyy not the best hting to do.... not when thi smatcha apparently got creamer and sugar in it The Fuck #I DIDNT KNOW THAT my disappointment is immeasurable... i just wanted pure matcha tyvm... #maybe i should start odering it online since i know i wont find any locally... #but those are plans for when i have money and dont feel like lying on the side of the road #for now uhhhhhhhhhhhhh i GUESS i'll have tea... and quiche... so i dont disappoint my dad.... #he'd never know but i'll feel bad.... ok bye... #we'll see what i do in the next couple hours but one things for certain i WILL think of my evil toxic girlfriend <- masato

[the-kipsabian]

im really just struggling at this point again to think that i can do anything with writing. or that im any good at it, that the things i make are any good or worth anyones time. that what little i manage to push out rn is even worth the effort of even making

#idk. i keep looking at the hanahaki and that bombed pretty well. just like everything before it #and yeah sure maybe i should give it a bit more than three days but in the hell scape of online its already been forgotten #ppl arent gonna find it going forward either if they havent looked at it already #just.. its not that just with this. its everything. it takes me so much to get writing these days and its just not giving me much back #i mean it makes me happy to create (i think) but beyond that its just a waste of my time and already limited energy i have #its just not worth it i think. who fucking cares #i know i keep saying this and then turning around to make something again just to burn myself again and repeat the cycle cause i never learn #it is what it is. i know i cant make people care even if i try. i honestly dont know why im trying #maybe i just really actually need to step away. like. for good #im just not good at anything maybe i'll get it through my thick fucking head one day #how its nothing but disappointments and misery one day after another. and almost always self inflicted. yay #sorry you dont care its fine im just sad again

[digyoman]

thinking about earlier this year and even last year when i was so deeply hyperfixated on lloyd & he was all i could think about and yet i barely shared any of my thoughts on here. i kind of want to kick myself about it now actually because i know i had so many things to say and so much i wanted to do but i never made it happen. why was i a coward.

#raaghhh i’m just so disappointed in myself :( #it would’ve been so cool to have those posts to look back on now!!! #technically i still can because it’s all rotting in my notes app. but that’s not as fun. #and it’s not even really about that it’s more like. knowing there’s so much that i’ve missed out on #i never shared any of my writing here (despite saying that i would like. 5 million times!) because i was so so scared of it being perceived #so i never got to experience what it’s like to get feedback!! #and then there’s the lloyd roleplay blog that i’ve wanted to make since very early 2021…. #i got so close to doing it last year and i put literal hours of effort into the blog but then i just. decided not to use it. #and i think that makes me the most sick because like. how many interactions do you think i missed out on?? #maybe it wouldn’t have gone anywhere. maybe it would’ve sucked and died immediately but i’d never know unless i tried!!! #and now i’ll never know. #‘just do it now’ well you see. I Am Still Scared :) #idk i just find it so difficult to put myself out there #even in a fandom that has a grand total of five people 💀 #but i am thinking about it!!! and that should count for something #anyway wow i can ramble! #if you read all this…. hi :) #i’ll probably delete this later but it was good to get it off my chest!