#i really dont have any good options

[courtney-deserved-better]

my tierlist for the gen 4 ships

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#i dont think bowie and emma were an option for this (good) but they would go in the platonic category i love their friendship #also i excluded all the ships i didn't really have any thoughts about #td spoilers #<- tagging just in case

[u5an5]

Theory: The Clone X was not Cody like some people think or even Fives (I know he's been dead for a very long time but so was Boba Fett and look where we are. Plus, Echo was supposed to be certainly dead too; making him Winter Soldier-esque storyline wouldn't be that surprising) or not even Slick.

((Also, now that we've seen his face devoid of any tattoos or scars I think first two takes are definitely not applicable anymore; they wouldn't put that much effort to make him unrecognizable))

Back to the point: In my opinion, The Clone X was none other than...

Fox.

Now let me explain.

Who else, other than X, was loyal to the law and justice dictated by it over any moral or ethic code?

Fox.

Who else was portrayed with such single-minded focus on hunting down traitors of the government he served, regardless of what it was?

Fox.

Who else could know not only Coruscant so well but also identify Rex like they knew each other?

He already was a remarkably successful tracker of traitors, why not make him more efficient by pointing them out for him?

Good soldiers follow orders, after all.

#clone assassin #commander fox #star wars tbb #i know that hes got killed really early after Order in comics but i would honestly prefer him to die this way #the bad batch spoilers #commander cody #arc trooper fives #tcw slick #cc 1010 #star wars #sw tbb #sw the bad batch #the bad batch season 3 #tbb theory #we dont even know for sure how he looks like cause in one moment we see corries without helmets all of them have standard paintjob #idk if its just animation error but because of it we cant be 100% sure fox ever regreted it without him being shown grieving with rest #hes just taking a breath when fives is dying and personaly i see it more as him rolling his eyes that rex is being mushy with traitor #but there are 3 clones behind fox when hes shown and then the one taking off his helmet stands beside 2 others so it may actualy be it??? #and if he DOES regret it imo is more in 'shame i had to do it' rather than 'shame i did it' way if you know what i mean #hes just doing his job and hes GOOD at it. not his fault that him being competent is bad for the good guys #my point is: outside of one page incomic that can be at any point made noncanon or recontextualized theres no evidence that it cant be him #they already retconed more important things. why not this? #i think its likely that in case im right we can assume that all named corries were made into CloneX #none of them appeared yet despite how much of action happens on coruscant #and only thorn died on screen; in a way preventing him from being viable option nonetheless #three hits point blank months before Order seem unlikely but theyve done weirder things so him returning wouldnt be THAT weird so uhh idk #but yeah cx-02 is tech #winter soldiering doesnt stop #i mean THIS could be fox/other corrie but it being tech is way too cliche oportunity to waste it on them (derogatory towards disney) #pls disney let corries hunt down traitors like they used to pls

[51ft]

all the bg3 companions have this really well realized conflict between 'want' vs 'need' and it's really cool to see how they get rly nice satisfying arcs with both their 'good' and 'bad' endings

' i just wish the game itself didnt so heavily disincentivise less-good playthroughs by barring you from so much content and making everything you could do so cartoonishly evil it just doesnt make sense

#bg3 spoilers #like as silly as some of the discourse became it was really cool to see the insistence that ascended astarion was a 'good' ending #and honestly all the character writing for the other characters also had that same level of nuance imo #in a different game gale fighting god or shadowheart becoming a dark justiciar would've also counted for a 'positive' ending #but bc the player character themselves can only pick the stupid evil options it makes exploring that stuff feel so much clunkier to me #it would've been cool to do a more morally grey playthrough to have parity w/ the moral greyness ur companions get... #durge is cool but they are also stupid evil bc everything they do is the murderhobo option #they get a better motivation to do those things but its still not the same... #my flavour......... #but im just ranting in the tags bg3 is still the video game ive been wanting my entire life and nothing will change tha #also we dont talk about the lack of any real endings i look away

[ark1os]

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#i felt so good after talking to my therapist about the issue w my dad #and i didnt even come to any new conclusions or anything i just told her whats been on my mind what im struggling with and why im so afraid #to confront him and she validated me #which honestly was so new to me? like everytime italked about it it felt like people didnt see the seriousness and why im struggling so muc #with it #like Why are you so afraid of your dad. Why do you have such a hard time. Just do it . Just deal with it. girl i would if it was so easy #but she didnt react like this at all & she didnt ask anything that implied she might be thinking this way too. im v blessed alhamdulillah #she suggested to tell him that i want to wear the hijab through the phone for my own safety (which isnt an option personally but i #really appreciated the thought behind it) #and she also told me that i shouldnt do it if i dont feel ready yet to face him and its like. the first time ever someone told me this lol #she said i shouldnt put more weight on my shoulders because the situation will be a lot worse if i m not prepared #i do feel ready now though ive been dealing with this for months im just so so so scared. im so scared iwant to cry all the time #anyway. ive been sleeping much worse than usually and im waking up completely covered in sweat which is #so disgusting. i was worried that im sick or smth (cancer lol) but realised it started w ramadan!!! which is when i made up my mind when #i will talk to him #may Allah help me may Allah protect me #im about to cry again aaa

[vegaseatsass]

Just finished Beyond Evil. I can say with conviction that this drama contained the absolute most craziest intricate rituals to touch another man's skin that I've ever seen. Like normally I'm not that into AUs but I would read a million Beyond Evil AUs just to see authors try to capture whatever the fuck was going on between LDS and HJW in new settings.

"You PROMISED you would replace our coffee grinder that burns people but gets the job done with a fancy latte maker! You betrayed the customers, you betrayed me, I thought I meant something to you, I thought we HAD SOMETHING."

A year later, after defeating the evil corporate coffee conglomerate headed up by Han Ki-Hwan "You're - you're installing a fancy latte maker? Now? When I thought we could celebrate-grieve together? But WHY? WHY DO WE NEED A LATTE MAKER?? The customers are fine with the coffee grinder that burns them!! As long as you stay here in this coffee shop with it!! As long as this thing between us doesn't have to end...."

#beyond evil #i dont think my example makes sense at all but i just have to try to capture how funny i think it would be #to try to translate any part of what the fuck they were doing into another setting #i would like to see it #what are the handcuffs SYMBOLICALLY #what is allowing another man to arrest you SYMBOLICALLY #like i really have gone off 95% of cop shows (the thing that kept me from continuing this a few years ago) #but really in a way the cop stuff is just set dressing #for intricate ritual upon intricate ritual #and parents fucking up their kids lol #incidentally who is gonna kiss park jeong-je? #i wanna nominate kwon hyeok one of my favorite character archetypes #kwon hyeok/lee chang jin is another good option tbh. get that dick prosecutor kwon #but i'm getting p far afield here i just wanted to make a quick post before bed #i have so much to say and i can't let myself get started so let's just cap it at the intricate rituals #what a wild ride #dear diary

[sydmarch]

spent months like I need prescription for my mental health give me prescription please please & now that I have it I'm like hm. do I want to have to take meds, actually

#part of it i think is just that typical anxiety that comes before any life change like s new job or whatever but also like #despite never having TRIED stimulants im familar w them i know people w adhd who are on them i had an idea of what to expect & thats what i #i figured id be getting but shes having me try this non stimulant option first bcus 1 apparently its good for people who also have anxiety #and 2 easier to get w the like Adderall shortages & shit rn #& im like ok i have NEVER heard of this drug before and didn't even know there WERE non stimulant options options. #like im doing all my research TODAY for the first time then pick it up tomorrow? #like me heslth anxiety girl just has to be like ok sure i guess. i had mentally prepared myself for stimulants & thats it!!! #i mean worst case i just try it & see if it works or if i have side effects but like. ugh. & i dont like that i dont like my np LOL like id #probably feel less uncertain about trying something i was previously unfamiliar with if she was someone i liked & trusted more #if i knew there were unfamilar drugs they might recommend to me i probably wouldve started over & found someone new to work with. AGHHH & i #didnt discuss any of this w her bcus it took me a couple hours after our session to think abt it & do my own reading & process my emotions #to really come to thia conclusion. & also i wouldnt have wanted to talk to hwt abt this anyway bcus i dont like her & have not felt at all #like cool w opening up to her beyond the minimum i had to do for the assessment #& my therapist is sick this week so im not gonna get to talk to her tomorrow!@ #texticles #anyway i know ive got fellow adhd bitches following me. anyone try guanfacine did you like it or nah

[monty-glasses-roxy]

On another note, it's actually kinda hard to draw references for all the guys I wanna draw references for because of the simple fact the vast majority of my drawing ability is hyperfocused on quadruped animals.

If you're a visual artist of any kind and you see this post, I am challenging you to go and draw something you've never drawn before right now. Like if you draw humans, go draw some hamsters and if you draw dogs go draw some chickens or something. If you've never drawn horses much before go draw some of them and try your best not to make them look like a dog with a funny face. Go have fun with that right now

#pop rox talks #obviously this is an optional thing lmao #nothing humbles you more than laughing at your fucked up little guys #I'm messing with this post but if anyone actually does this... can I see? #and yeah horses are really funny they're naturally just Like That whadda hell #anyway anyone wanna collab a roxy and cassie piece with me so I dont have to draw cassie /j #anywhey wait #wait a sec I used to do commissions when I was in sixth form (for in-game money not actual money) #most of those were furries #how did I do that wait god damn was I any good at it then did I just Forget how to do it #wouldn't be the first time ngl #I know I wasn't as good then and I've definitely improved in some aspects but #did I do this okay???? did I???? well shit guess who's going through their old artwork!!! #I love that actually it's very fun and feels amazing to see where you came from #but also maddening cause sometimes you look at it and go 'wait how did I do that????' and you have NO IDEA how you did it #like!!! I used to be able to paint digitally!!! me!!! painting digitally!!!! #I could do that!!!! can I do it now? NO!!! I have NO IDEA how I did that!!! #I mean I could if I put the time in to figure it out again but I just!!! picked it up!!!! back then!!! like magic!!!! #how the FUCK did I do that???? #anyway that's it that's the post bye

[soldier-poet-king]

Made the most unhinged existentialist agony reading list for Lent and I'm not technically offline til Easter but I might just be mostly absent in practice bc I'm too busy having a mental breakdown since this seems to not be one of those one day and it's gone episodes

#franposting #i must stress. this is NOT a good idea and i shouldnt do it #but im gonna anyway. at least until we reach critical breakdown poiny #there's no other option. i am simply in need of a reaching a critical point #spiritually emotionally and psychologically #insane person list is: #last days of judas iscariot. sparrow 2. reread Krista's book.silence. kierkegaard. #space trilogy. dare we hope al will be saved. brothers k. possibly reread twhf or the greay divorce #also siken because im just. gnawing my own limbs off #oh and wind sand and stars #and this is just what i had immediately on hand. i may get some library ones too. alas i cant annotate and literally tear apart those #i absolutely will have a complete break and wont get thru all these before easter #but I'll try anyway. i dont really have any other choices #not with me as i am #maybe im insane or maybe mental illness + february just is Like That

[beauceronn]

Me: be patient

Also me: *refreshing my email every 20 minutes*

#tomorrow ill be doing dog stuff all day so i wont have the chance god bless 🙏 #im also hopefully starting handling classes next week! #which is why i really need to start setting up a store to sell my art #on account of im literally on a 5 month timer before i get kicked out #on a lighter note also hopefully joining a local kennel club so thats cool! #im so stressed genuinely i feel miserable and anxious but alas so it goes. #minimum wage here is reasonable but not really when you consider how much i am paying for gas to drive to work/school/dog stuff #im just very lost. obviously cant work this job forever because it is so physically taxing and inconsistent but i dont have any other - #- options #like how do i begin going about peddling my art? how do i begin building a portfolio? #i HAVE a website but im not even sure what to post #what to write about #etc etc etc #i am a good writer too! i know im a good writer but i just dont know what to write ABOUT #what interests people? #what would people want me to do a deep dive on? #the blessing of being autistic means i love everything about purebred dogs and love doing deep dives on different topics #the curse of being autistic is i can leave no stone unturned and then it becomes overwhelming and i cant put everything into a cohesive - #- piece. #anyway. my situation is not unique but it is to me and the doom and gloom is setting in #apologies if you read this far.

[quasieli]

Just one of those days where I already felt like shit cause rain = migraine and my family decided to up the ante by giving me a sensory overload 🙃

#Eli Speaks #im okay ig #this happened hours ago but im still kinda jittery #love living here #and also found out that i prob dont have many options to do anything on my bday so thats fun #i typically dont really want to do much on my bday #but after all the shit ive been through for the last 6 months I just wanted one fucking good day for me without any strings attached #cause even when i had my best friend here i couldnt do much cause i was broke #and that's cause i cant find a fucking job here without a car #im just angry and anxious and tired #and i want to just go back to ny and forget all this happened #today fuckkng sucks

[aroaceleovaldez]

okay that is all i can muster for tonight. my insanity will have to wait.

#AALV TSATS liveblogging #please just mentally picture me chewing on this book #luckily i dont follow too many RR blogs so i am relatively safe from spoilers *[STARES POINTEDLY AT ALL OF YOU]* #nobody send me spoilers i swear #ftr i am still taking literally everything in this book as Optional Canon #im enjoying the writing so far but. bro. you cant drop a major continuity error like that. its just blatantly incorrect. #and then say it's Totally Canon And Actually A Major Thing For These Characters IT DID NOT HAPPEN!! #IT PHYSICALLY COULD NOT HAVE!! #do not misquote the ancient texts to me witch. i was there when they were written #but Writing Is Decent. thankfully Nico's narrative voice is not as jarring as i was expecting #tbh he's actually written here kind like how i write him which is. delightful vindication. #also if we could STOP RETCONNING THE UNDERWORLD that'd be GREAT #will we ever get one trip to the underworld where it is consistent with literally any other trip down there? nope. #none of the details line up. none of the descriptions. ever. any of the times really. in any part. #youd think theyd make anything with Nico and the Underworld and Hades and their powers consistent for this book #based on the book tour is sounded like Mark sure tried #but like. yknow. Nico has a room in the underworld! in BoO his dad literally says ''Yeah you always have a place down here'' #and theyre on good terms! also in BoO Nico uses dream powers! it's heavily implied he can inflict nightmares on people #we've known that since TLO actually #anyways. hrmhrhrmhrm grumble grumble #writing good. details i am biting. will keep posted #if yall do want my more unhinged thoughts i am also posting updates as i read in the discord #the ones im posting here are curated for your enjoyment

[mejomonster]

Im doing the fun part of writing: just wrote my cast, the locations, now jotting down the key scenes <3

Thw hard part: knowing once im fleshing this put eaxh key scene is going to blossom into 4-8 somehow and turn into 2k minimum each but possibly 10k words and then. And THEN. Hardest of all my adhd kick my ass and ill get 20,000 words in and lose my ability to focus for several weeks and be so sad i cant fucking focus and write and like 200 words will come out after 4 hours of effort and damn it

#rant #mejo writing #i looked up over the counter options for adhd and im crushed tbh #it said caffeine was pretty much the only option that worked. i already drink 1 pot a day #i dont think more coffee will have any additional help for me. i already drink primarily coffee from 8 am to 6 pm #the other suggestion was nicotine and nope not doing that #the last was Alternate caffeine options like 5 hour energy or mountain dew. and again #im already having a pot of coffee i dont think more caffeine will do anything to help #im lucky coffee doesnt make me anxious doesnt upset my tummy doesnt really do anything to me except taste good #so if its helping focus its a win win since id drink it anyway #but it clearly aint helping enough ;-; #im very scared to even try asking my new therapist for help #cause 1 im succeeding at my job! i do ALL the fucking adhd coping strategies so yeah. im doing fine at work #exhaustsd but managing. so i doubt shed give me medicine since im managjng even if it runs me down #and then 2 i got gastroparesis that acts bad with all mental health meds ive tried #(as in my gi tract just stops moving more. even oj ones meant to speed the gi tract up like setraline and prozac #so i dont kjow if an adhd med would also freeze up my gi tract more. which. i just cannot do that #i cant deal with Worse gastroparesis again im not vomiting daily again straving for weeks again im #not willing to suffer that again. so if i had that reaction id try like 3 days) #i am so jealous of ppl with meds. id do neurofeedback for adhd again but it was exoensive and im tired 1 session a week was a lot #and it kicked up my panic attacks which. is why i stopped)

[mummer]

everybody put your heads together and pray for me that i get good news from this job tomorrow or alternatively do really well on my other interview that is also tomorrow or ideally both but really probably the first one

#because i have been absolutely shitting it with panic all week #because like. I dont really have any options left lol #like i cant sleep and my stomach has been CLENCHED for the past 24 hours #i cant get good news!!!!!!!!! physically incapable of receiving a W #like i just need one thing to go right for me. just one thing please god just one thing please. #like ive literally been rejected after 6 different job interviews. somethings up. or im just insanely unlucky #and some of them were 2nd interviews!!!! fuck you pay me!!!! #if anyone has any quick tips or breathing exercises etc for anxiety pleaasse lmk because i am BACKSLIDINGGGGGGG #like girls this is not okay lol

[caruliaa]

yk i think like. im trying desperately not to depress people around me w how close to doomerism i can veer but like. at a certain point its like. the effort and exhaustion that goes into maintaining just being alive in this world is not worth what comes from being alive and like. girlies we may have reached it. el oh el.

#like obvs its different for everyone like. what i really mean is that i have reached it or like. tht was always inevitably the case #for my life. which ik feels really depressing to say nd im sorry tht it makes ppl sad but idk like. its just true at a certain point #absolutely not from a lack of trying from the good things within my life to be clear not at all like. ik have sm great parts to my life #tht like. just mean so so much to me and im so so lucky to have but as upsetting as it is to say and think abt #at a certain point having to choose between being trapped in a situation were you can never authentically exist or like #have any control over your life and exist on your own terms even in v small ways while having to constantly be around people whove #caused you so much pain and trauma and hurt and being is a situation were like. at best your constantly working to afford living and you #are constantly exhausted by this and have no time for being yourself anyway and at worst you just cant afford anything and you die #and that could happen to you at any point idk like. these are my two options and i cant change anything about that fact #no matter how much i want to and that feeling is just. so so crushing and inescapable and just idk i dont know how to deal with it #like. idk iv done everything to try to but its only ever a temporary distraction #bc the problem isnt fucking like. mental or emotional its the facts of my reality and that cant be changed #so ofc im going to be constantly fucking miserable things just. are misearble #and idk. im sorry tht thts something other ppl have to deal with when it comes to like. knowing me bc genuinly its like. #they dont deserve that its sm pain for somoene to deal with and if that someone isnt. somone whos come to term with what #my fate invetiably is like have ik its too much nd im sorry for like. putting that on ppl i just. idk im sorry #idk what up with me suddnely. i mean i do but like. idk why i cant just hold it together like. this has always been the case idk why #im letting it upset me sm suddenly . ig bc i let myself have hope at some point. like an idiot. #idk im sorry. and its nearly 1am so i think im just going to go to sleep.im so sorry for just. all of this. #lucy if your reading tihs im so sorry for not sending and answering asks but i want to say that i love you so so so much. and im sorry #flappy rambles #vent #ask to tag

[nerdie-faerie]

Should get a wearable sleeping bag or something to whip out while I'm travelling

#travelling tag #it wouldnt be convenient the temperature is so inconsistent throughout that it would just be unnecessary luggage #but it sounds like a good idea right now while im freezing my ass off in the bus station for my coach that has been delayed and they dont #even have any good food options which is really the real source of my current grouching - cold and hungry bby #i just think i need to be all bundled up while i wait in bus station with something warm to eat but alas the world is a cruel cold place