#i really do get the urge though

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

thinking about puppet tattoo parlors. A wall covered in so many different thread colors to choose from - swatches of different types of stitch for different textures / effects. modified handheld sewing machines for tattooing with multiple settings for the different stitches. individual needles + embroidery thread as stick n pokes...

#THINKING SO HARD ABOUT THIS #wouldnt this be cool though??? #cause i was thinking fondly of tattoos and went 'hm. how would a puppet do this?' #cause ink can bleed in fabric. it can scrub out. the lines wouldnt be as clean and i just dont think it would really Stick? #but EMBROIDERY! STITCHES! COOL SEWING GUNS INSTEAD OF TATTOO MACHINES!!! #and now im wondering Could They Remove Their Tattoos? #it would probably be pretty invasive! #hold on im doing research real quick #yeah looks like they'd need to lift their felt/fleece/skin to get at the back of the stitches #then sew the skin back together afterwards... #so to them tattoos would be just as permanent as they are to Us! because who wants to go through That! #im having a grand ol time imagining the Range their tattoos would have #textures! endless colors! glitter thread! metallic thread! wool! cotton! polyester! glow in the dark! scratch n sniff! #that last one was a joke. #imagining someone with an entire detailed forest scene carpeting their back... it has Depth... #absolutely unprompted #puppets #sundown summer is getting a motherfuckin tattoo if its the last thing i do #resisting the urge to just litter every puppet that i know of with this idea #YOU get a tattoo and YOU get a tattoo and YOU-

[elizabethrobertajones]

why do I not let them hang out more often honestly

#I mean I know why #Lae'zel left about 5 minutes into Act 1 on my Dark Urge run #I knew I was going to replay so I kept going #so actually getting to hang out with her is really fun #I still haven't finished the Durge run I just got distracted by this Gale attempt #mad lad is absolutely speeding through things now I know what to do and how to play #we've rocked up in BG proper to do tourist stuff with Lae'zel that I've never seen #and it's a delight #(and I am happy to leave Karlach behind mostly because as the only tank she's held up her end marvellously for Durge) #(but it does mean she and Shadows are just ALWAYS in the party so I rarely see other interactions) #also realising Durge has missed so much and is over a level behind where I am now even though they've many more hours play #this game is so much easier when you do the content :P #bg3 #bg3 spoilers

[puppyeared]

puppy you are insane for wanting to put ice cubes in your milk!!!!! unacceptable!!!!! it melts and then thins the milk and then it mels some more and then you;re not longer drinking milk it;s just milk flavoured water!!!!!! /lh

i bet you use water to make your hot chocolate (also highly unacceptable) (booooo)

-brainrotbot

i was witness to @crow-cap slapping hot sauce on an orange for "character immersion" purposes so i think i have reason to believe putting ice in milk wouldnt be out of the question /j

#but youre right i do use water to make hot chocolate sometimes. like boiling water and then the packet :teehee: #ice cubes in a dairy drink is a strange experience because ive had iced coffee and i could never get myself to like it. so i think #iced milk would make me explode LOL #yet i have no problem drinking coffee frappes and milkshakes. just milk and crushed ice and nothing else would be very strange #but if you try it i dont think ill really stop you. ill just be like cool!!! why though!!! #ive always had this peeve about letting a drink sit for so long that the water separates from it? it bothers me but idk why #like if i mix juice and water together but i let it sit for so long you can see a thin layer of water at the top. it bothers meee!!!!! #its like that science experiment with the different liquid densities. dish soap water and oil stacked on a glass #its pretty cool but i have like this urge to nab a spoon and mix it vigorously #ask #answered #yapping #guest #crow-cap #puppysona

[pennamepersona]

i've already made a post about "hey where does withers get the blood when he resurrects durge" so here's an extremely specific followup

if we've got an afab durge from a species with a menstrual cycle, do they...also have that cycle? i assume they would when bhaal made them bc he's all into spreading his unholy seed and whatever the fuck, but does withers do a complete factory reset? does jergal understand the ins and outs of living bodies with hormone cycles??

"Is Durge Undead" 2.0: can the vampire lick up some period blood

#bg3 #bg3 dark urge #bg3 withers #bhaalspawn #menstruation mention #three guesses what made me start thinking about this #but for real though. like for REAL though. #i am once again asking!! is durge undead now!!! #what's bhaal's blood type! would an afab durge have a menstrual cycle! #these are the questions sarevok anchovie does NOT want you asking! #...does orin have her period? surely she does. do you think she like. gets...really creative during that time #not necessarily using that blood just like #as a pick me up? #if your favored medium is blood and pain and you start to produce those yourself surely it's like. gonna spark something. #you can tell when orin the red is on her period bc the murders spike

[outeremissary]

🌺 Ok one for the new kid! Kasander likes animals but keeps their distance from them, on account of not trusting the Urges

6/10 on average, I think, spiking to a 10 depending on recency of the last Incident. Kasander really loves animals and is someone who talks to them a lot, and they struggle to balance that with the precautions that would keep other creatures safe. In the end it's the same way with their companions- they could easily hurt or kill one of them by mistake, but they still travel with others. They're learning themself better all the time, and they hope that will help them have a better sense of when it's about to take them and they need to get away. They withdraw much more completely when something has gone wrong recently though. It's hard to maintain that optimism when the strategy has just failed.

[headcanon prompt]

#thank you for thinking of them <3 #I think kasander has a way of managing the urge that's very high risk high reward compared to how asperia does it. #asperia feeds it very frequently at some low level (better not to think about that relationship with animals) #and by always leaning in and going with the flow they're not getting swept away. there's some direction to it and less total loss of contro #it helps that asperia (like most of the others) has very little empathy. kas couldn't do that. #kasander is much better at blocking it out completely for periods but has absolutely no control over it as a result #it's not really possible to block it out forever though. it's a lot more sustainable to let asperia take charge of it sometimes #but kasander is stubborn even when they're getting along. #now let's see if the xkit autotag thingy works. I wanna see. #kasander #ask game #emi plays bg3 #EDIT: IT DID NOT. #arendaes #ask me emithing

[dutybcrne]

Kaveh definitely wants at least one child of his own. Partially to continue his family line, partially bc he himself loves the idea of having a family of his own. He would however like to move out of Alhaitham’s place before he even dares consider getting a partner to begin with. And the longer he stays there, the more stress he feels thinking about it. He even has sketched out nursery ideas and plans on how to raise them all set to go, if only he'd get out of debt fast enough-

Furina also really wants to have a child of her own. She adores seeing the families around Fontaine, and has dreamed a great deal what parenthood would be like. Nothing brings her joy than when children about Fontaine invite her to join in on the little games they are playing, leaving her giddy and smiling bright as sunshine on her way home. Of course she knows that to be a parent, she really has to get her shit together. One can't just rear a child on macaroni and residual payments, after all.

#hc; kaveh #//Mans is stressing #//He’s like ‘I’m damn near pushing 30; I should have my life together by now aaAAAA’ #//Do like the idea of Haitham & Kaveh coparenting though #//Them raising a kid together; be it romantically/qp involved or just like #//Some Full House situation type beat lol #//Haitham does like helping kiddos learn after all. And it would make SO much a lot easier for Kav #//Kaveh would preferably want an even number of kids if he has a partner; so they don't ever feel lonely #//If it's just him & his kiddo; then yeah; he's a little more fine w only one. But he really wants them to have someone to fall back on jic #hc; furina #//She's had thoughts of having children of her own for damn near 500 years #//Which she knew would be Impossible; her role came first and foremost #//But now that she's free from that obligation; the thoughts came welling back up #//It's not entirely why she wants to stand on her own right and get better at so many things; but it is part of it #//She'd love the idea of having her own little family at last #//Though her Salon Solitaire buddies will have to do djbhgjfd #//She doesn't actually know how many she wants tho; maybe one if she's single; but whatever her partner is down for; she would be too #//She would be such a doting mom hjcbffg #//She genuinely wouldn't even mind not having a partner if it came down to it. She will most certainly be able to handle a kiddo on her own #//She thinks that; yet she also most certainly get overwhelmed Real quick at first #//Esp since she'd be such a sympathetic crier when it comes to her babu. & bc she already feels the urge to cry when frustrated #//But she would try her best #//Would absolutely consult with The Gals each and every time she needs anything #//Deffo would be the type to get matching outfits for her and her kid jffghh

[devotedlystrangewizard]

anyway hell when the dark urge breaks in for the third fucking time except this time the one person who can keep them from going on a rampage isnt with them

#bg3 spoilers #it is the 3rd time isnt it #bc theres a note thats like. them leaving the devils fee with gortash & he says 'if she can get us into the house she can get us further' #so i imagine they actually did go in. no fucking clue what they would do there though #and if they didnt. that sucks i guess. helsik when the dark urge walks in to go to hell but without their emotional support tyrant #elaris breaking into hell just to kill raphael #helsik watching them go in with gortash the first 2 times like 'wow this bhaalist is shockingly well behaved' #what was that one post characters that are guard dogs #bc thats el. a really fierce guard dog who would do anything for those he loves but becomes practically feral when not handled right #THINKING ABOUT THE DYNAMIC AGAIN SHIT

[coquelicoq]

I don't know if it's rude to ask, so apologies in advance if I sound mean, but… how come you repeatedly bring up old posts of yours from three or more years ago? Do you remember each original post you make and intentionally bring them back? Like, I don't think there's anything wrong, your blog can be whatever you want, obviously, and your stuff is always funny or curious in some way, just… I'm kind of lost as of how it came to be, I guess? I don't think I remember my own posts after 6 months, much least if I have to go back to 2020!

ahaha no it's usually just because i'm going back through a tag looking for something else! i recently went back through my entire "my posts" tag (which contains...1468 posts, dear lord) and while i was doing that saw several posts that i felt like reblogging for whatever reason. so it's usually not that i remember them and go looking for them on purpose, it's that i come across them incidentally in the course of doing something else.

if you want to know why i reblog them after coming across them, 1) usually i don't! you are seeing the tip of the iceberg lol, and 2) it's mostly because it's hard to resist the "sooo true, bestie" urge, even when the bestie is just...yourself.

#sometimes...things that are written by me...are things i agree with #but oftentimes they are not once a few years have passed lol. i mean i just looked at 1468 posts by yours truly #and queued probably 1% of them #oh i also went through my asks tag which was another 500 or so posts #if you want to know why i'm putting myself through this it's for a really ridiculous reason #namely: several nights ago i had insomnia brought on by (get this) being too excited to sleep because my brain wouldn't stop #coming up with crosslinguistic french/english puns #and a couple of them in particular i was like oh god this would be a great tumblr username! #however as i've said before i had no plans to ever change my username (even though i don't like it) #because doing so would break any links that contain my current username #i had resigned myself to just living with this username forever. but once i thought of some usernames i actually like #it became harder to resist the urge to change it... #so now i have this convoluted plan to try to identify and tag as many of the links as i can #so that after i switch names i can go back and fix the links #however i'm not sure how feasible this is. there are a lot of links #and no matter what i do short of going through all 45k posts on this blog i will be bound to miss some of them anyway #(i think getting a domain would solve this problem but i don't wanna get a domain bc i'd have to give wordpress my legal name) #indecisive superhero meme w the buttons 'the need to have punny username' vs. 'the need to be able to find things on my blog' #asks #anon #actually anon probably the majority of the time i rb something i wrote 3 years ago it's bc i forgot about it #i come across it and am like oh yeah! this! and it's like a brand new discovery so i put it back on the dash lol #anyway thanks for your ask! i got a kick out of it 😂

[starrypawz]

Had the experience of hearing my eldest brother basically talking shit about me and going down his 'i'm implying my sibling is an idiot' routine yet again

🙃

#like anyone else have the experience where family members go like 'you're smart' and then #you also at the same time get treated as though you're not actually an autonomous adult who can be trusted to make decisions #like for context my brothers and my dad were in a zoom apt with a psych to help brother 2 out #and it was related to weight stuff #and then yeah i overhear a bunch of shitalking about how i actually apparently don't know what 'healthy' eating is really #and how i shouldn't do the food shopping apparently #and also eldest brother going on about how much i weigh #and it's like... besides the point but i've actually LOST weight in recent times so like FUCK YOU #but yeah i had a REALLY strong urge to come into the room during the appointment to be like HEARD UR TALKING SHIT #but it wouldn't help probably #but also yeah like... fuck you dude #like just... wow nice to know what you REALLY think of me you piece of shit

[rouge-the-bat]

i could not specify what exactly draws me to twilight princess so much but its the zelda game ive replayed more than any other. i cant get enough of it. what the hell did they put in this game

#idk if i would have the most *time* spent playing it bc well. ive spent hundreds of hours in botw #but ive only done 2 playthroughs of botw so tp still has more playthroughs at least #AND LIKE. i can certainly explain various things i like about tp #but why am i drawn towards it constantly. at any time im wanting to replay it again even though i have so many games i need to beat #its one of the few games i just dont really tire of #twilight princess is very special to me ♡ #if they bring midna back someday im gonna go feral #tloz #twilight princess #whenever i see anything from tp i get such a huge urge to pick it up again #i would say id maybe pick it up soon but since sonic and pokemon came out recently and im prob gonna get more games on christmas #it might be a few months before i do that. maybe #ouh maybe ill do a playthrough of it as a celebration before totk comes out #since totk comes out just a few days before my birthday :D

[forcedhesitation]

I'm actually still pretty disappointed about the changes that were made to implicate a canon relationship between gortash and the dark urge. you are given so much choice in this game! so it feels shitty that they took away your choice to interpret that dynamic how you'd like.

I had a dark urge campaign that I started and no longer will finish because I don't want that to sully my character's romance with wyll. it angers me enough how wyll is given barely any material for not just his story, but also his romance. like it's so unfair that rather than new material added to wyll's romance, all I was going to get was lines about how my character had a relationship with a fucking fascist. load of shit that is.

#bg3 #thoughts about media #I'm deeply upset about things to do with real life that are unrelated to this and that I do not want to talk about. #but justifiably complaining about media I care about? I have a degree in complaining about media. I can do that. #anyway. I had a really cool character planned and now I have to now reinvent him or make a new one. #likely the latter because he doesn't really make sense as a character at all if he's not a bhaalspawn. #and no I refuse to romance someone else. I want to finish wyll's story with the romance involved. #I only recently managed to finish astarion's because I finally got myself to focus enough to finish ONE campaign. #I really wish I had finished two by now. so I could have finished the dark urge and seen what the story was like without any changes. #also no I cannot ignore these changes. I think gort's a GREAT villain. but I don't want to fuck him. I don't get how people DO. #out of the chosen three he's easily the fucking worst and a kind of evil that can't really be understood as “fun” or “fantastical” #whereas ketheric and orin are largely fantastical in what they do and what they represent. #that people cheer over canon durgetash despite the atrocious way larian continues to treat wyll? #I loathe it. #I. have. a few ideas for a new character. I know I want him to have daddy issues because that's what urged me to romance wyll with durge. #boyfriends with daddy issues is not only interesting. but hot. so I want to keep that element. #idk if I'll keep the paladin I made though. or go an entirely different direction. #because in the process of trying to reinterpret my bhaalspawn into a tav...I had a rather clever idea that I'm liking more and more.

[gregmarriage]

genuinely so fucked up right now, and so desperate to leave the house, that i would consider my pap smear, a holiday

#a doctor sticking a brush up my vagina would actually be a welcome change of pace to the monotony of my life lately #it’s the closest thing to action i’ve had in a while #and the only woman who’s been near my vagina in a long time soooo yay? i guess? #idk this is so stupid #genuinely though i would take any change right now #it’s like wow autistic fear of change and like yeah i feel ya there but also if things don’t change soon im actually gonna need to be #committed #barely getting through the day #i’m just doing everything on autopilot and i don’t feel anything but completely numb #oh i guess i do feel something: exhausted #then i feel hyper and jumpy and am practically climbing the walls #manic depression is literally soooo much fun!! #can you tell i’m being sarcastic because if i don’t joke i actually want to do something drastic #really feel the urge to isolate myself from all my friends and family #like i’m *this* fucking close to just vanishing off the face of the earth #i wanna walk into the woods and never come back #bye all i’m gonna go become a deer let’s pray i get run over 🙏✌🏻😂

[angerygoomba]

is it weird that i dont wanna change my pfp—even though ive had countless moments where ive seen something, thought to myself "this would make an amazing pfp" or "i really wanna make this my pfp" and then like seconds later lose the desire as i remember my relationship to my pfp and how everything about my online persona from the past 5 years would change—and im okay with that?

#like im trying not to be sound entitled to being unique and special #but it feels so much like the opposite of what a normal person would do #like i get a lot of urges of wanting to have another pfp to the point where i have a photo album of potential pfps #change bot contacts pfps to see what they would look like #and even had an old discord account that i would change pfps so that i could express myself in that way #and its not like i feel forced to keep this goomb persona up or anything #i genuinely feel so connected to it #especially since half of my teenage years were spent online due to quarantine #and i got to dissociate from my actual physical self (even though at the time i didnt realise i was doing that) #cheesy it may sound but this just IS my online identity and to change that just feels unnatural #but i still naturally get urges to see what its like to have a different pfp #and honestly i love the system i have cause if i didnt have this i would probably change my pfp every day #so what im doing right now is basically perfect for me since i actually do have a solid online identity #it could also be because i tied my username to my pfp and therefore would have to change my username when changing my pfp #and thats really where the root of the persona comes from #because it makes no sense to tell my real life friends my username is angerygoomba if i have some random ass pfp in conjunction with that #but i will maybe never change my username because i absolutely love how it looks and feels to say #especially goomb #cause that just feels so natural to say that im surprised its not a word #or even a common username at that #also my nd ass will have to find a completely unique username without _ or . cheating cause i cant stand how they look #like it isnt transferable to the english language to have underscores or dots or dashes or whatever in a name #but whateva #goomb thot

[emmodii]

22/11/2023, 1.18am

#beejee3 au zeli'tael #legit i thought durge's plot was straight-up just that they had murderous compulsions. maybe serial killer or summat. bhaalspawn etc. #and then the end of act 2 comes and act 3 follows after and suddenly- JESUS CHRIST DURGE WHAT THE HELL #no complaints from me though. i had a blast LAUGHS #my durge though? i think he'd say otherwise #zeli'tael really went from intimidating in act 1 to 'i'm about to have a complete mental break down' in act 3 LOL #i do hope the dark urge's origin gets updated in the future to have more companion reactions and such. definitely could have more of those #.......anyway have my loser whom i'm probably gonna oc-ify afterwards. but thanks to the game for giving me an opportunity to make a #character that i can project my daddy issues and obscene obsession with violence onto. ALFJELWKJRWKLRJWE HAHAHA #.....and religious trauma. and identity crisis. and uncertainty about morality- #difnjfjfksbfkd

[tardis--dreams]

The amount of energy and motivation my adhd meds give me these days is truly unmatched. Would be great if it lasted longer than 2 hours but i sure write a lot of stuff on my to do list when they kick in

#kill me #i was seriously so dedicated to reply to everyone I've been 'ignoring' for days #to clean my room #to write another cover letter #to finally get some pictures from my phone onto my computer and get some physical copies #to sew a button back on my jacket #and make a doctor's appointment (tomorrow) #well #i had to eat and walk the dogs before all that though #and then i felt like a corpse again #also probably won't call the doctor's office tomorrow then #(the meds are the extended release version and are supposed to work for 6-8 hours #what now #i can't take more #i could try adding the 10mg short acting tablets in the afternoon but i don't really think that'll do much #) #i should have stayed home instead of joining the walk. this way i could have used my energy to clean my room or reply to some people #idk #i hate everything lmao #(they also make me feel more social. i really get the urge to talk a lot and then everything crashes and i just wanna hide in my room again) #void screams

[melto]

something just like snapped in the back of my head like i Need to go like curl up in my room for like 5 days and play video games and not speak to like anyone

#^ guy who is not out of a depressive ep like he thought he sorta was #dont even like particularly feel the old urge of the anxiety/need to hurt my relationships like i used to..i just feel like shit. #short list of people i think i could handle like really speaking to rn but ultimately. i just want to be somewhere safe and easy #even if that feeling is like making me feel sorta suicidal still. #just dont have it in me to like figure out how to act normal right now. something i have to do around most people and nearly everyone #i intreact with irl right now #not healthy. Ofc naturally i know this. and i can push through it. im just not excited about it. #the exhaustion to like contain myself is greater than my lonliness even though that is rather large #and i would like to get this out of my system before like. the semester starts next week. which i know i cant like control but whatever #this is all sooooo stupid. i need to be alone but i need compaionship of someone i trust. #it feels like there is glue in my mouth and i can barely speak to people im not close with bc of how exhausted and anxious i am #man. thearpy is like. going to really . idk. probably not help my mood. bc it has been hard for me to word what has been happening to me #and im always so scared of saying something that will get me hosptizaled again. Even when it shouldnt. bc im not going to do anything. #but i am scared and tired simply. and while so much has gotten better and ive gotten so much better there are some things that i just. #cant seem to figure out how to fix or ask for help. whatever. Guy who is stupid and helpless and will have to just get over it at some poin #sry i just feel like shit. i should probably just eat something i havent been eating much. and then i will probably feel a bit better #news with isaac