#i once had this friend i made on tumblr

[eobard-thawne]

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#i once had this friend i made on tumblr #after months of talking and bonding she ghosted me and later accused me of doing something i didn't even do #and rn i'm realizing that i still couldn't recover from that unfortunate incident skjfakfa #bc i have this friend and she hasn't replied to me in months #she told me she was gonna take a break for a few months and she's been dealing with health issues i know I KNOW #but i still can't help but think that i did sth to her and now she hates me kasjdask #brb kms #tdl bc this is so cringe

[aashiyancha]

Puffbun progress report:

-I overestimated myself. Chapter 1 is still not ready for this week.

-Half of the first chapter is all ready to go though! Almost there >:)

- Here's a doodle introducing the main cast

-I did not intend to color code them as obviously as I did in this doodle lol

#sweet hero puffbun! #original comic #artists on tumblr #aashi doodles #man how the character dynamics keep changing #originally bay and ellie were the only siblings and cori was just a long time friend but #i kept making the joke that people thought they might be siblings given that bay and ellie's dad looks a ton like him #then i went occams razor. They're my characters. If i want them to all be tlsiblings #then they are all siblings! #plus earlier drafts of cori's parents kinda sucked and he was a super lonely and depressed guy #he's still depressed but now he's not lonely and honestly i hated how lonely i made him before i think this version is going to make for #a better story #once im actually through first act it will be fun to compare all the different previous drafts i had to the one that made it out #getting ahead of myself tho gotta actually get those chapters done first haha

[derpinette]

sometimes i will get bored & go through someone's entire blog since its creation

#& if they have their blog made unsearchable therefore no archive to pick posts from i take it as a challenge #& i really read every post not just skimming i gave up archives caus i find it hard to pay attention to individual posts #plus you never see the full tags & clearly from my postings they serve as the single most important part of a post #the actual post is more of like a title or a sort of epigraph #& i am interested in the Posters themselves like i feel compelled to absorb&gather as much information about them as possible #in an effort to understand them ( as well as myself Many epiphanies & revelations came to me from this activity i recommend it ) #i just did this BTW not saying who but god if you never knew of her you totally missed out on the best Poaster tumblr has ever had to offer #her mind was unlike any other & her influence on me is so noticeable even today. wishing her well today & always #also (moving on from that) i even constantly have like 40 tumblr blog tabs open at all times #some that are even i think 3 years old now #i never close them they keep me company i will not really click on yhem either To be honest but those are like my friends My chums; #on my phone as well two year old tabs from when i was still in highschool of tumblr blogs i was reading #i just have so much Love in my heart for Posters real genuine love not interpersonal just as an Observer #well kind of interpersonal when it comes to some #so if you have a tracker & you see someone from north africa spending hours or even days or months on your blog #that would be me #i actually did spend months once back when blogs opened on the side i never shut my laptop off & my tabs are always saved #had to go back & scroll a little to keep the page active to not refresh & i got as far back as 2010 i think #because their blog did not have an archive but NOTHING will stop me OK if you got a Beautiful Mind or Gift Of Curation #i will do anything in my power to enjoy it. without disturbing you ( as much as i can anyway )

[korixae]

my sister’s trying to finish doctor who before november 25th right and she’s fucking power watching, like she was literally on s10 LAST WEEK and tonight she’s just started s13. she’s been getting up at 6:30 everyday to watch it before school and then stealing the tv from the moment she gets home to the moment she goes to sleep. i haven’t seen her or the sofa in months

#i am enthusiastically encouraging her ofc #she expressed to me today how she doesn’t know what she’s going to do once she’s finished. she doesn’t know how to return to a normal life #where every waking moment isn’t consumed with doctor who #i’ll have to introduce her to the spin-offs and eu content #is 10 too young to watch torchwood? i’ll set her off on sja #actaully she turns 11 the day after the last special airs #she asked my mum if we had plans on the 9th and my mum was like NO you can’t have friends to sleep for ur birthday and we were just no no m #ther ofc that’s not what she’s asking we need that night free for the 60th you fiend #it’s been really convenient for me too bcs i’ve got a nice little recap #sooo lucky for her tho thats she’s timed it just right so she can finish it the day new content comes out #we watched the timeless children tonight and she was all ‘>:( the masters so evil’ while i was kicking my feet and going aww arent they so #cute so in love hehehe la la la #she’s deeply invested in thasmin #i cant wait for her to watch s13 cus damn she’s gonna love the thasmin-ness of it all #really just typed this all out on tumblr bcs i have no dw friends irl :( apart from her #i’ve really got her with dw she’s forcing her friends to watch it and for world book day they’re going as rose and the doctor #they’ve started a role play where they write letters as rose and ten to each other across universes #she made tea stained paper and everything #anyways stopping myself here goodnight 🫡 #doctor who #kori shitposts #loubatania

[vercna]

oh so i'm always going to be fourteen years old crying alone in the dark of my room that's what you're saying got it

#ironically i already had a tumblr at fourteen to deal with the loneliness #the summer before i moved schools i was so anxious and excited to meet new people #i spent my entire summer making up imaginary friendships in my head #and then i started high school and formed the most wonderful vibrant friendships i've ever had #and i'm still holding on to those even though it's all jaded and faded now and everybody's made new & closer friends #and they've got partners to dedicate their daily life to and we're lucky if we talk once a month #but im still in the school yard waiting for them to get out of class so we can get lunch #and the cycle continues i'm back to fantasizing about meeting people and having a tight group of friends #will the agonies ever end

[sureuncertainty]

at least now i've gone through an important tumblr rite of passage, watching a longtime mutual become a radfem :/

#the thing that really got me was that they were talking about their morality ocd triggering them about it #bc of the way tumblr and the internet in general has this black and white approach to things #and one of those i guess was 'transphobes = bad' which like. is not what i'm ever talking about when i say that things have more nuance #that said i DO think that the way this website prioritizing hating terfs over supporting trans people is kinda gross #but anyway this person was so anxious about it and it just was depressing bc i related to that #they were SO afraid of losing friends or being cancelled over it and i was just like damn i wonder if all terfs are that miserable #but they acted like they just had no choice but to believe this 'thing' that they constantly alluded to but never talked outright about #which i am pretty sure now is just that they're a radfem or at least believe in a lot of radfem ideologies #and honestly? i go back and forth between genuinely feeling so bad for them and being like well that's what you fucking get #i wish i'd had the courage to talk to them about it but whenever i thought about it i got immeasurable anxiety #sorry for the very long tag ramble i just haven't been able to talk about this and it's been eating ME up too for a long time #i just feel horrible. i know in the past they've mentioned too how they want people to tell them why if they unfollow/block them #but i can't. i cannot. and then i'm afraid of just feeding into their victim complex by doing this #i just can't win. and it's like. i'm trans i am literally affected by their bigotry that they're acting like is just not even a choice #ALSO I REMEMBER HOW THEY MADE A POST ONCE ABOUT HOW PEOPLE IRL DON'T TALK ABOUT TRANS STUFF #LIEK IDK WHAT PLANET YOU ARE LIVING ON MY DUDE BUT I HAVE LIKE 5 TRANS COWORKERS AND EVERYONE IS VERY NORMAL ABOUT THEM #like maybe YOU live in a bad area #but you're just a really loud minority #anyway. yeah. just. oof. #still feeling some kind of anxiety about it #win rambles

[t4tdanvis]

went from having an ok day to having a terrible day this is awesome guys wow

#❄.txt #got so panicked from seeing my biggest trigger that i left a server and now im scared to rejoin #do i really want to be in that server? no not really i dont like several of the people there and every single time ive tried to talk there #its gone wrong and i just ended up muting the server and not talking there at all because it made me insanely uncomfortable #'theseus then why the fuck do u wanna rejoin' bc one of my friends + someone i wish i had the confidence to befriend are in there and i #wanna be able to talk to them #'well were u actually talking in there' hell no i felt Terrified of that server #is being in that server worth it just to talk to this one person more?? hell if i know #currently i think it is but also i think im having a panic attack?? i feel Sick and my hands are Shaking #it also feels like im kinda in Shock currently which cant be good but yknow what do i nose /ref #if i had the confidence to just actually talk to the person i wanna talk to then none of this wouldve happened. unfortunately i am a Coward #also if discord allowed me to mute words like i can on tumblr. once again this wouldnt have happened #why was i cursed with Exomemories this is terrible #im also in another server with the person but it never talks there so do i just suck it up and rejoin the server i left?? #or what if i just exploded into a billion pieces and died forever i think that would work /j

[awkward-dazai]

IT HAS TAKEN ME FUCKING YEARS BUT IM FINALLY ABLE TO ACCESS THIS GODAWFUL ACCOUNT. i dont apologize for any inactivity and im surely not making a comeback, personally i’d like to forget this fucking blog ever existed. but im back nonetheless to give a life update or closing statement before i log out and finally live my life peacefully or smthn.

1. im not like this anymore. jesus christ. fortunately i’ve matured as a person now that i’m nearly 18 years old and i actually understand bungo stray dogs now.

2. nothing on here reflects who i am now. i fucking hate soukoku. i hate sskk. i hate bsd ships. i think a lot of the jokes on here were in poor taste and the whole schtick was character inaccurate… it was definitely fun at the time, but, alas, it is not that time anymore.

3. i have a new tumblr tjat u should probably go follow instead of this one if u ever want to see content from me. @nouveauxamoris 👍🏽

4. this has no relevance to anything else im just spreading my propaganda . chuuya nakahara is a trans woman . dazai osamu is a transmasc lesbian. dazai and chuuya have the exact same relationship dynamic as branch and his sleazy older brother from trolls. skk yaoi was never real and i no longer pretend like it was

#Im free from my shackles #no lomger held down by my haunting past that is awkward-dazai on tumblr dot com #nobody should have ever let me have access to tumblr at god knows how old i was when i made this #i promise im normal now #Not really #ive just learned how to be media literate and have gotten progressively more autistic abt bsd #I also realized that bsd ships kinda suck and really i shouldve jsut embraced my true nature instead #selfshipping. I wanted dazai osamu. I want him real bad. And now i self ship. #word of advice from your good old friend amoris awkward dazai #your enjoyment of anything media related will definitely improve once you embrace self shipping #you can do tjat. Its fine. nobody can stop you. be free #awkward-dazai #i hope u guys had fun w this blog im pretty sure i did #i loathe it now but it was 13 year old me’s pride and jou #i want it to become lost media so i can pretend like it never existed but #alls well that ends well or some bullshit like that #happy 2024 guys

[bayrut]

she gave ur blog 10/10 without looking she says u r didi's didi (didi is older sister term)

oh 😔💗👍

#thats so sweet im gonna cry. #i love your sister even though ive never interacted with her #she seems fun and she likes trc and she's related to you 10/10 from me too #asks #jiya #also you absolutely are like a little sister to me like emotionally #Edit: oh wait i never told you but once at work i was wearing earrings i made and i got compliments and i told my cowokers wait no #These are nothing compared to the earrings my good friend jiya makes #and i opened your ig and i showed them your earrings etc etc #and I talked about other ones you had sent me over tumblr but hadnt posted on ig

[eggmeralda]

can you get burnout from doing nothing

#or am i going through a mental breakdown. based on the symptoms matching whatever the past week has had going on #unless it was caused by trying to socialise online #which i am so bad at and i guess seeing other people easily be all friends with each other kind of made my brain go 😨😱😖🤯 #<- along with various other surrounding emojis #i'm stuck at uni rn bc my band has 2 gigs coming up + rehearsals so i have to be here. but there is nothing to do except Think #but yeah there was the alienated fandom feeling bc idk it always feels like everyone speaks to each other in dms and has all this like #lore with each other and i have no idea what's going on #and trying to actually interact is soooooooo exhausting and i always feel like i'm too slow or behind everyone else and yeah #and then camp weehawken began and i couldn't even deal with seeing everyone doing that and all knowing each other really well and idk #so i just left tumblr briefly. bc of everything. bc i'm irrational #basically the worst feeling is when you have friends in a fandom but then your hyperfixation starts to wear off and turns out they weren't #close friends they were fandom mutuals. btw this isn't about anyone in particular this has happened for most fandoms i've been in #it was more of a sudden realisation that's been creeping up on me for years. so to deal with the fading hyperfixation i just had to Go #and now i'm obsessed with threads. which has like no fandom. so at least the hyperfixation fadeout will be easier to deal with lol #but yeah it's that sort of feeling when you finish at some place and you make some friends but once you leave you never talk to them again #and knowing you didn't really leave a strong enough impact on them that they still wanna keep in contact with you #pretty much like that #at the same time though there's nothing to do atm so maybe i am just bored and overthinking #but still it's annoying to go through especially when it's happened for almost every experience in my life #also like I'd occasionally log back into tumblr to see what's going on but i'd see people liking posts on the swag archive and it's like #cool at least people like the archives :') but anyone could've done those #idk it's like i have to do something like that for people to actually care and as soon as i'm not contributing anything then i'm just #forgettable or something #i wanna come back to tumblr but idk if my brain is ready for that dsjkljf. i told myself i'd only come back when things feel stable #but also i'm impatient lol #again this isn't about anyone specific my brain just LOVES to malfunction it's actually its favourite pasttime <3 #but either way if i seem really negative lately or just. weird. it's just my brain being its classic overdramatic self #i mean the thoughts are very real and based on vaguely true evidence but also my brain loves to exaggerate things to sabotage my life #i'm hitting tag limit so anyway. at least threads isn't happening rn so that's pretty good #ramble

[20cm]

♡ megbias highlight reel — heart boys, if you will . for meg @slowrabbitpd , happy birthday . ♡

#caleb.gif #i could tag all these guys but honestly this is For meg <3 :') its rly not fandom related its just going to be posted on tumblr dot com #( if anyones curious tho: changkyun + yeonjun + kang daniel / kihyun + junhyeok + taehyun / seungyeop + steve + romin ) #meg!! happy birthday bestie 💕 #really i hope you have an absolutely wonderful day ahead of you and are able to enjoy it w/ your People whoever they may be #and that you get to treat yourself to something fun <3 and have a wonderful meal 💖 #spiritually i am making you egg on rice right now.. or go out for kbbq or w/e u kno.. #truly its been an absolute pleasure to have met you and become friends outside just being mutuals on tumblr #youre such a fun and warm and funny person whos just . smart as a whip and have a killer sense of design and general eye #ur an absolute joy to talk to nd i cherish all the roller coasters we've been on together since last year .. theres no one else id rather - #be SO so normal with <3 u just Get it. and i appreciate that more than i could put into words. i love all our shared megrook bias boys + #biases in law? is that what we can call it. anyways. megbiases are treasured <3 so i wanted to include them in a little something #all for you <3 including some very special sky pics !! bc u sent them to me a while ago and i treasured them!! so. have some megbias boys #peeking into ur photos. thats the concept yup fkgjkjdgf idk i just had an idea of sort of .. flipping thru photos here. #anyways. love u bestie! very much. sending u big warm hugs #we are the [deep breath] #taejunist high school yearbook editor freshman orientation leader magic and hiyyih defense squadists kep1er detectives #the boyz gatekeepers woojinist dailytaehyun and soobinsource admin team •_• (witnesses of the horrors) + peer review service #^ that gets longer EVERY time. lmfao 💕 #ill shut up now but <3 just thank u for being here and being u. i admire u and cherish our friendship + thank u for ur endless patience #bc ik the last few months i was sorta awol but u never once made me feel bad for it and its that sort of level of Comfortable that means - #the world to me<3 so im glad i have tht w/ u <3 #MWAH ok [posts]

[concerto-roblox]

found pictures of me and an old friend i haven't spoken to since i was 17 this isn't gonna be good for my evening

#jesus christ i can't believe it's been that long #we were so close and then one day they just decided to stop talking to me and all our other friends #except the girl who bullied me and made my life hell #but now i don't even know if i resent them for it because i'm pretty sure they were going through something i didn't really know about #and it's been so long i can't even be bothered to hold a grudge anymore #the problem is if i wanted us to reconnect the responsibility is on my shoulders because i've changed my number since we last spoke #and i didn't have instagram or anything when i was 17 #and i just know it's not going to be how it was before because i'm so different now and there's nothing i hate more than trying #<- to build up a relationship from the beginning #and i don't even know how to go about it since it's already broken down #but i don't know if i want to lose them forever because they were one of the two people i was closest to in school #and they stuck by me when i got horribly bullied #i just don't know if i can stand the idea of trying to rebuild what we once had and failing :(( #oh my god i never normally get this emo on fucking tumblr wtf is wrong with me #anyway #how to be cringe 101

[multi-realm]

Okay, so this was the first draw of 2023. Love me a good Terrence variant

#digital artist #animation #animated #dragons #original character #terrence cursor #multirealm art #i was suffering from some serious burnout after i had done some friend art so i rolled back over to old faithful #and made my life more intense by turning it into something animated because i don't know where the off switch is lmao #i'm actually pretty happy with how this came out though! i had more planned but i've learned to not stress myself out #once i get to the point of 'do i like this enough to keep going' #and honestly? the tail doesn't change shape too often so i can't complain #ocs #my ocs #artists on tumblr

[wasabikitcat]

the loneliness of not having close friends vs the desire to not Be Perceived

#im not an especially closed off person. at least not intentionally. #i just intensely fear violating peoples boundaries to the point where i only speak when spoken to. #which becomes a problem once you reach adulthood and are no longer obligated to speak to anyone #and therefore no one speaks to you. so instead of speaking when spoken to you just. don't speak. #for my entire life all of my friends have been made by other kids at school reaching out to me to talk. not the other way. #now that doesn't happen anymore and i haven't kept up with my childhood friends for various reasons so i just. don't have friends. #i would say i have online friends but I don't know if they consider me friends and im too afraid to ask... because i speak when spoken to #I guess my biggest regret is that after a certain point in my childhood i have never had a friend that i could just call on discord #or Skype or whatever chat service at the time and ask if they want to play a video game with me. #because I've never had a friend that shares those interests with me that I was close enough to to feel comfortable asking. #sorry tumblr is my therapist now. i just needed somewhere to say this. pretend you do not see. #(thus reinforcing my 'desire to not be perceived' point again sghdhsk. do not perceive me but also do but don't. hope that makes sense.)

[fceriestcrdst]

does my sw oc have a ship name with cass & one with poe you ask?....yes...yes he does...

#sephicaptain & sephipilot respectively <3 #i've taken some uh--creative liberties (not many tho) with sephi lore bc i do what i want #its all mostly canon tho--the changes made are like very very very minor!! #just had to tweak bc transmasc sephi <3 <3 <3 + i went the palelavamder skin & pale sky blue eyes <3 #may actually start writing fics of my oc x cass & my oc x poe #there is potential for my oc x cass c poe as like a poly collective but we shall see if i wannt break timelines that badly #that may just remain a selfship thing day & i yell about in discordfor hours <3 #& of course my marvel oc will always have content bc the star to their moon is full my oc x the boys just without saying their name #but it'salso kit bc both these ocs are me & i regret nothing!! #he /was/ ranni but i renamed him & worked him a teensy bit so he's kit spector (grant/lockley as well but legally spector) #even tho in my series you marry steven but thats bc i went a very specific route with it & not my self-ship route that alters canon a #teensy bit (mainly with the marc & layla marriage but that was bc i didnt wanna feel like i was ruining something. yk? its why even in my #-series they are implied to never have dated essentially!!) #i'm rambling bc im excited & content in what i've done for myself---i just!! i dunno!!! #the sephicaptain fic is making me so excited because like--it really /is/ for me & i helped co-write a good chunk of it so i just!!! am so #so so excited for it! #i'll probablypost these fics on tumblr just bc i like posting to tumblr but i'm also gonna post on ao3 & idrc if no one read sit--or cares #--about it bc these are for me & me alone. #i just idk. i feel at peace with how i made graphics for myself. i'm writing for myself & my friends. i'm not longer trapped in a hyperfem #space anymore. my dash feels safe. i feel safe. i feel safe with my friendships for onc ein several years. i just feel safe & feel like me. #i'm truly starting to think th oscar isaac fandom & mk may have genuinely saved me from myself because i don't feel selfish- #-buying stuff anymore or writing for myself anymore. for the firts time in years i'm hanving fun in fandom & it's so refreshing & #comforting. anyways--i'm going to offically shut the fuck up now <3 i just wanted to gush!! gonna go back to dming my bf now <3 #kit rambles

[euijin]

happy new year from est everyone wooo 🥳🥳🥳

#carly.txt #last year i made a big shoutout post but i don't have the energy this year aklsjdfjksdglkj #but thank you everyone for making my tumblr experience lovely even though i come on my dash like once a week now #thank u to my friends for being my friends #i had this post open for 10 mins and got distracted help