#i need to email them tomorrow

[georgia-stanway]

Bought Nottingham forest membership so hopefully i can go to some games which should be fun

#once I've got my accommodation and then work out how to get from where i am over to lady bay bridge with minimal walking😑 #i need to email them tomorrow #it's annoying because the place I'm now hoping to get is better in most ways (accessible bathroom and studio) but worse in regards to #location. it's tother side of campus (which is the opposite side to where most of my stuff is) and also further away from the tram network #(multiple wheelchair spaces don't have to rely on the driver to pull down the ramp my beloved) #none of this would be a problem if I'd got the application in earlier but we're not going to talk about that #and when we are we're blaming it on how poorly i was last term #anyhoo getting to go see some prem games should be fun #the only like really big televised game I've been to is the women's finalissima otherwise it's been all lower league

[lavenoon]

kisses him kisses him kisses him

@naffeclipse you've seen this one but I'm posting it today for the serotonin boost, so have a callback to the first doodles <3

*self insert is not a girl (he/ she)

og detective au by sunnys-aesthetic!

#post let luce #dcamv #bloodstain fool #menace4menace #naffeclipse #my art #i did tax stuff and work emails on top of my normal work today and im still catching up on sleep #so i need to set this loose (luce) in the wild and get some serotonin from watching my self indulgence pop up in my notifs #also bc there is simply no brain left to do anything else today #tomorrow. i did all this bs today so id have a mostly free day tomorrow #i wanna just. soak in self indulgence for the evening #eclipse help me do my taxes please i need someone to validate my frustration with this program #how dare they call it magpie? i like magpies i dont want to associate them with taxes of all things #okay no yeah im. getting off track in the tag ramble so im just gonna hit post. gnight enjoy <3

[athetos]

When you tell your manager you know they want to make you team lead and you’re cool with that and the responsibilities but there’s too much stress on yourself right now and so I vented about all the shit heaped on me atm and she said “ash once your supervisor is back we’re all gonna sit around and discuss this because even once you’re promoted you should never be expected to handle this much responsibility”

#it’s not even my supervisors fault… an emergency happened so he’s OOO #but since he’s not here nobody does their fucking jobs #and our regional manager is coming in tomorrow so we NEED to get them done so it’s up to me and my one ride or die coworker #PLUS I have to answer all of my supervisor’s emails and make phone calls!!! #AND one coworker won’t even try to figure out how to use one of our apps and makes ME do all of his shit for him #get the fuck over yourself!!!!

[whentherewerebicycles]

in my dream job era

#I could not love it more #it’s just the perfect blend #of types of work #today I was in back to back meetings but all of them were useful and engaging and energizing #tomorrow more meetings #where I get to do a lot of asking questions and thinking with people to identify issues and articulate priorities #and solve problems #and then like most of the rest of the week will just be like #doing sustained thinking & strategizing & research #to figure out how to flesh out and implement the ideas we generated #it’s just perfect!!!!!!!! #the thing I have learned about myself professionally is like #I just love and thrive on and NEED a ton of people contact #especially the kind where you’re working on a project together #but I also really need quiet no interruptions thinking time where I can shut off email/teams/whatever #and just like #synthesize… reflect… research… consolidate… experiment… reflect some more #anyway every time I see that meme that’s like ‘I have no dream job I do not dream of labor’ #I’m like CANNOT relate #I was a creature made to work #but like #work that is deeply fulfilling and values aligned and pushes you to constantly be learning #etc etc etc #anyway… THRIVING #what a relief after 10 months of being like maybe I’ll never use my brain again

[ouchhq]

>:(

#i need to vent a little im sorry pls ignore this if u are bothered by my thoughts #SH tw !!!!!! #this morning i was supposed to have my weekly therapy session but i had to cancel bc my mom got covid and obviously stayed home from work #and i do online therapy and i didnt feel comfortable doing it with my mom around but i really needed to do it tbh #and then my professor replied to my email with all of the things ive been working on since august and didnt say anything about the material #he just asked to call me on the phone tomorrow and i started to spiral…. like Spiral with a capital s #even now thinking about it my stomach sinks bc i have this feeling that his feedback is going to be negative and i just know my #barely existent self esteem is going to break and idk what im gonna do with myself then #this afternoon while i was spiraling all i wanted to do was /hurt/ myself. i kept thinking that i wasnt good enough and i had done a #horrible job.. so bad that he couldnt even tell me by email but needed to do it on the phone and i felt like throwing up and i couldnt get #/​that/ thought out of my head and i could only cry #and all of this not even actually knowing what my professors feed back is going to be because this is just all in my head #but i was talking to my school friends and they were like oh its gonna be fine even if he doesnt like it u can still put the project in ur #portfolio hes not even our professor anymore and so on #and i kept saying that i knew that but i just could not handle that sort of feedback and rejection mentally #i was telling them that i knew i would crumble if i got real negative feedback and i was terrified of that and they just couldnt get it and #idk it made me feel really lonely #im a bit calmer now but i feel so depressed #i am really anticipating something that will hurt really bad

[worm-in-a-trenchcoat]

Absolutely hate hate hate talking on the phone. It should be illegal.

Hate hate hate it 😭

#had an issue with a chewy order and got an email saying to call customer service in order for them to ship the order #for like security reasons?? #and I was totally expecting to get a robot person not an actual person #so when dude answered the phone and asked what I needed help with I panicked #and I was so nervous and I think he could tell kfjfkfk #cause I gave him the wrong email at first #and when he asked for my name I only gave him my first name at first until he asked for my last name 😭 #and the. he asked for my address and I only gave him like my house address not my area code or anything until he asked for it #and I kept apologizing and he was like ‘it’s okay’ in a very nice way which was nice but also awful #and then I hung up too early 😭 #like he asked if I needed help with anything else and I said no and thanked him #and then he like kept talking and thanked me for calling and he was gonna say something else but I thanked him again and hung up #cause I thought he was done 😭 #this is gonna keep me up at night for the next 3 months jfjfkfkk #personal #tag rant #I think he was gonna say have a good night or something #idk but I feel bad 😭 #my anxiety is so high rn lol it’s 2 am 😃 #at least I have something to talk about in therapy tomorrow now jfjfjfkfk pls 😭

[supercantaloupe]

my roommates said they're gonna get tickets to sound of music next friday and one of them said she'd get me ice cream tonight for a post performance treat.......sometimes things are okay and sometimes i do remember that people like me

#i wanna talk about me #i need to stop being so. self isolating when i'm upset. #beating myself over the head until it sinks in that people want to help me and don't want to see me struggling #but they can't do anything if i don't let them KNOW #i also emailed my professor to ask for an extension on my assignment and he said sure and asked how long i needed #i'm asking for a week...i hope that's not too much but i think that's like the minimum safe amount i can realistically get this done #without drowning myself in work over the next couple of days #and. figaro tomorrow with my friend !!!!!! gd i need that

[siobhanromee]

ugh I hate dell

#They give me a nine hour window that I have to be available for their guy to come #So I cant fucking do anything #And then their repair guy breaks the motherboard when repairing the hinge #And they said he would come back tomorrow to fix it and tomorrow was yesterday. And no communication from them except an email that I canno #find. Ughhhhhhhhh #And I might have to miss class next week bc of this bullshit. I need my laptop....

[bugmistake]

ive gotta. get it together a little bit i think. holy shit i really did not mean for the tags to get THAT long

#i have a colin provolone in ny head rn. i just need you to lock it in a liittle bit. #it’s just the worst possible time. #i do actually have to do the hard scary stuff. #and i am fully capable of doing them and i am a competent adult even if i’m realizing need a little more support than i’d like to admit #and actually i feel much much better after those things are done #and ACTUALLY i’ve also made a lot of progress!! i think 14 year old me would be like. shocked to see the person i am now #but either way. gotta lock it in a liiiittle bit. #tomorrow will be. a lot of texting and emailing back. #a lot of ‘hi sorry it’s taken me so long to get back to you!’s tomorrow #AND ONE PHONE CALL. im way better at those now! pretty cool! #also getting my car inspected this week. miiiiight need to bring a friend for that one #sometimes i get scared at the mechanic because there’s always a 90% chance that one of the mechanics will be the most drop dead gorgeous ga #**gay person #person ive ever seen in my life and then i have to be like uhhhhh. ahahaha. heres my shit ass car with the elvira and snoopy #bumper stickers on it. thanks so much! #OKAY. alright. hello. hyping myself up for the rest of the week #ive been a little bit off kilter bc i didnt have a whole lot of structure last week or this one since my classes ended #but im feelin a little more optimistic #i am a competent adult who is good at his job and has many good qualities and frankly he is getting hotter and more confident also as well. #<- affirmations btw.

[the-kipsabian]

considering that i slept like max five hours this morning ive gotten an unbelievable amount of stuff done today????

i managed to get through the phone appointment. i actually went outside and to the store. discord streamed and finally finished mgr. i also made dinner? i sent a job application???

what

#i have two more things i need to do but im pushing them to tomorrow since they arent urgent. just some emails i need to cover #considering how completely fucked up ive been the past like two weeks especially this is. a lot #i know it sounds like an amount of stuff a regular functioning adult human should be able to do but. im not regular or functioning tbh lmao #its baby steps but its progress. now hoping for something similar tomorrow. my apartment needs to be cleaned so badly ough #but yeah im just. proud right now ;; #thats all 💜 #night is an absolute mess on main

[newtness532]

okay things might be okayish after all

#called the εσπα office and the lady there was kind #my problem is not solved bc they might not send the paper i need until after tomorrow morning #but I'll send an email to the hospital to let them know and im hoping that they'll be understanding #at the end of the day it's not my fault and there's nothing i could have done to change it #anyway i think i can lower the anxiety about this a bit though which is good #now i need to just stop the crying and make sure that i wont cry at all while i am not home #jo says stuff #university update

[ambersky0319]

Headache when I have an essay draft due 🙃

#its not even a full draft technically thats due but like #im still... kinda confused? on what my professor is asking for for the rhetorical analysis essay? #so #a headache even when i have sources i need is just. not useful #so! Im gonna finish it tomorrow #and just take any late penalty #i also emailed him about example essays he said hed post and he did... for like 5 minutes. Then they became unavailable #and he hasnt made them available since #:/ #:/ sigh

[serkonans]

the way we handle medical leave in the states even for people with good benefits is cruel

#the number of hoops i have to jump through. the way that my requirements for one surgery are apparently different from another surgery #even though there's nothing in the paperwork to indicate any need for that and the surgeries don't differ all that much #the way that they lost my initial letter and now i'm up against my deadline next week and they haven't even told me what day next week #so i'm worried that it's literally tomorrow #the way i am not receiving ANY pay for an entire month because of all the delays so i'm having to live off my savings #the way that every single person i've talked to has said something different about what is and isn't required #the way that for a lot of this i had to be navigating it while high on painkillers immediately post-surgery #the way that the group my employer contracts through has two different emails and names and flips between them constantly #the way that my healthcare provider does it differently than every other healthcare provider so i need special forms from them #instead of the leave group but then the leave group doesn't seem to accept the forms that they send #the way that the doctors office has seemed incredibly confused by my requests #the way that the ROI office told me they'd send over a completed form and never did #the way i literally don't even know who to call next to try and sort this out or if it's possible TO sort out #like i guess i'll call the leave group tomorrow and cry and beg for an extension. i guess i'll grovel bc it's the difference #of getting a few thousand dollars or not and i can't just be like oh well guess i won't get my short term disability pay #especially bc none of the hospitals have billed me yet and i'm getting scared bc i don't know what my ER bill is going to look like #bc they did xrays and a CT scan and they gave me a splint and a sling and a lot of drugs #so i do need the money. just sitting here like. idek what to do lmfao. #not tagging this bc i'm on desktop and i can't do the accent mark easily and idk where my phone is rn sorry

[guinevereslancelot]

people trying to help me in too pushy of a way <3 how do i say thanks so much but leave me alone <3

#i literally dont WANT you to cc the ceo of a center for helping small businesses in an email to me im not in business yet 🙃 #she literally immediately scheduled a zoom call for tomorrow morning to talk abt applying for a program im not ready for!! #i dont want to apply for a loan im not ready for all that!!! #i literally wont be opening for almost a decade im just planting trees every spring i dont need to do anything else #in ten years i might want to buy some used equipment #aaaaaaaa #this lady i know has been telling me abt this organization for months which is very nice and encouraging me to reach out to them #but i have literally no need or reason to do that yet #and wont for a few years probably #but she got inpatient ig and just reached out for me and now things are happeninggg #i literally have no pitch for my business it barely exists <3 #i registered to claim the name so technically it exists and i planted a crop this spring that wont be ready for 8 years but thats it lol #we dont exist exist #anyway this lady means so very well and wants to help but im so stressed abt this i wasnt ready to deal with this lol #anyway its an organization that helps women and minority businesses or somethingggg idk anything abt it 😭 #and im pretty sure the program she's signing me up for will cost money that i dont have 😣 #i literally dont need to do a small business workshop at this point im just starting out and wont be open for years #ughhhhh #now i have a business zoom call first thing in the morning like an actual professional adult 😐 #this has been a shitpost #anyway its probably a good and wonderful thing that i should be grateful for but its happening too fast and im not prepared #so i dont want to ruin the opportunity by being a dummy who doesn't know abt business ten years before i am even ready for the opportunity #😣😣😣 #im sure its all good and fine and helpful but aaaaaaaaaa

[diah-the-demon]

i think my star wars helmets got lost in the mail

#the tracking on them hasnt been updated in 3 weeks apparently #i need to call them to see if i can find out where tf they are but im busy with other shit rn so il try tomorrow #ughhh why does royal mail only allow fucking phone calls and not emails to inquire where the fuck my package is

[dragonatthedinnertable]

Let's recap my day so far (it's not even lunch time):

I got woken (again) (as per fucking usual) by the road works outside the house (as opposed to the endless construction next door) (no it doesn't make for a nice change)

Spent half an hour stewing in dysphoria (it makes me miserable that my doctor refuses to prescribe progesterone) (other doctors in this city do) (you can get fined for importing it without a prescription I checked) before getting up

Walked to the mall for a very specific soda (that only this one grocery chain carries) (I've only seen it in this specific store) (they didn't have it even though the website said they did) (yes someone checked the back for me)

I lost my gorgeous clip-on bow (an anniversary present) (from literally a week ago)

#personal #vent post #not to mention I'm tired from multiple late nights #and I can't even try to sleep in tomorrow cos I'm seeing the health coach #and I haven't been keeping up with my yoga #I'm on day 4 of trying to apply to polytech for this diploma #back and forth with them & the university over transcripts & exactly what is needed #(which naturally involves my deadname coming up) #my employment consultant emailed me about a potential job opportunity #only for it to turn out that email was for Mina not Nina #I've got to drag myself through today #and tomorrow #and then it will finally be my birthday party #and everything will be fine again