#i need to do class assignments but here i am

[amalgamationink]

NAPOWRIMO24 #15: Occultation

#prompt: become inspired by the stamps collected on the stampbot twitter. #so i also needed to write a poem for class that was technically overdue (i have been neglecting my academic prompts for napowrimo ones) #and this week we were assigned to write NATURE POEMS. which i was not a fan of as i am an indoors person lmao #anyway i wanted to write about the eclipse and so i scoured the stampsbot twitter til i found an eclipse stamp. #obeying the letter of the law if not the spirit... but hey killing two birds with one stone! #anyway fuck yeah everyone else wrote about the eclipse a week ago when it happened but here i am a week late w/ dunkin' :) #i don't even really like this piece but gahhh i am really not a nature poetry guy okay. and there were limits with the class prompt- #that i didn't even TELL y'all about. i was supposed to LIMIT METAPHORS. DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT DID TO ME #anyway whatever it's a poem i wrote it today it counts #napowrimo 2024 #napowrimo #spilled ink #poetry on tumblr #poets on tumblr #poems on tumblr #great north american eclipse #solar eclipse 2024 #solar eclipse #poetry #poem #writeblr #damien.txt #img desc in alt text

[residentrookie]

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#dumping out all my issues here so bear with me #but i’ve been in the same room for going on 72 hours #haven’t seen anyone or talked to anyone in person #i have covid so i feel miserable and have no motivation to do literally anything #but classes and work don’t stop so i have assignments piling that i have no energy to start or complete #on top of all this!!!? #my brain has decided NOW is the perfect time to have a crisis about the future #i’m a senior in college and the real world is fast approaching which actually makes me physically i’ll #bc wtf am i gonna do #anyway #i’m having a hard time #and felt like complaining #apologies for clogging the dash #BUT THE ONLY THING ON EARTH RN I THINK WOULD ACTUALLY FIX ME IS A PUMPKIN COLD BREW I FUCKING NEED ONE SO BAD

[ni-ien]

I haven’t drawn anything recently but I’m trying to pick up some old wip’s! 😭 in the meantime have the start of some yuri that I did for a class a few months ago :]

#I posted just the cover awhile ago but here’s the whole thing 🥹 #this is really just an excuse for me to post a lil’ update though and truthfully. I haven’t been able to finish anything for 4 months 😭 #thanks for sticking around! 🥰🫶 #oc #23tarts #actually I was really upset abt this assignment bc the prof gave us so many requirements for it #for a class that was neither an art or a creative writing class #and only a WEEK to do it 😭 #that’s why it’s so. corny :) #but we need cringe lesbians too I am a firm believer in cringe lesbians 🫡 #love wins!!!

[transgenderenkidu]

im so fine right now. im normal, even

#i need to eat dinner but i cant do so because if i do i will cede the study room and theres NO fucking way i'll get work done anywhere else #so i have to wait for my roommates to get here so they can keep the room so i can go get dinner (and also so i dont ahve to write alone) #and aslo i cant take another ibuprofen on an empty stomach adn i am in so much pain rn #my luck has been so fucking ass the past couple of days #nearly fell in the pond and did drop my water bottle in it; scalded my hand while boil washing it; tripped on the way to one of my classes; #slept through astronomy this morning; they didnt have any coffee at the dining hall until after i left; spilled my second cup of coffee all #-over the table in the study room; AND i have a major essay and two homework assignments due tomorrow and an upcoming exam

[illdothehotvoice]

God god God why do I have so much work to do all the time for everyone ouuuuugh

#my ASL professor just piled more work on me can i get a fucking break #here's the thing about the week before finals no one warns you about #all your professors try and be nice and make everything due the week before finals #so you can go home which is great! #BUT OH MY GOD??? THEN YOU HAVE TO DO LIKE 20 ASSIGNMENTS IN ONE WEEK ON TOP PF GOING TO FUCKING CLASS #stop stop stop stop giving me work to do i am already so overwhelmed and stressed that I literally forgot to go to asl and do asl work #all last week #i have 2 whole print projects to finish this week i have 2 whole education projects to finish i need to study for and take my final #for art history and i can't not study for it cause it's all brw information which is actual dog shit #i have to finish my painting and i need to do classroom overvations #i'm overwhelmed as it is leave me alone!!

[vulpinesaint]

witcher reread huge mistake. no longer have power of will to read books for class. mind heart and soul invested in vaguely misogynist 90s fantasy series. no room for. uh. [ checks notes ] postcolonial queer literature and plant-centered critical theory... awful. brainrotting. there are so many more important things i could be doing right now

#AND DIDN'T DO MY TEN MINUTE PLAY REVISION EITHER. CURSES UPON CURSES #guys i'm so fucked for tomorrow 😭 #not really. but it feels like i am. #i should just do my assigned reading now but i want to read witcher and so the forces cancel out and i can't do either :(((((( #FUCK this executive function bitch he's NEVER helpful. #kicking and screaming and crying. i cannot be sacrificing my education for yennefer 'written by a man' of vengerberg #i love her personally of course. it's about the principle of the thing #okay. summoning force of will. picking up trans class assignment. i can do this. don't think about geralt. read about trans person. #FUCK THIS SHIT. I'M ALREADY TRANS. I WANT TO READ WITCHER #ugh. alright outburst over closing laptop placing phone out of reach :( doing assigned reading :( #offer me strength please. i will need it. executive function isn't pulling his weight around here #valentine notes

[zemnarihah]

guys i have so much homework this week:(

#and none of its even FUN i never have fun assignments this semester #i have to finish this huge maze for perspective drawing on tuesday. and i have my midterm essay due for art history on wednesday #thats it basically actually i finished all the other stuff today #it just is a lot i rlly am not sure if i actually have time bc i also have work tomorrow #like if i knew i could spend all of tomorrow after class working on the maze id feel a lot better abt it but i will probably have to do a #decent chunk of it on tuesday before class... hate that #god i was trying to vent abt it but now ive stressed myself out i need to go to SLEEP so i can wake up and work on it before class. OKAY #heres the plan. I can do at LEAST 2 hrs before work. 2 hours after. That is a decent chunk done and then I can wake up early the next day #and i have until 5 to finish it. EASY #THEN after class i can start the essay. next day wednesday i have literally the whole day. its only two pages it doesnt have to be good #also i have to do laundry that day bc on thursday im going to visit erik for fall break:) it will be a good relaxing break i hope

[iron-niffler]

god im tired

#had class at two then back to back exams #and was braindead and crying by the time i got back at like 7:15 so just played video games for a few hours #and now i need to start studying for diffeq on friday #god i cant wait till saturday #would say friday afternoon but of fucking course i have three different fucking assignments due friday 11:59 #what fucker thought “yeah we'll just put strengths of materials and physics back to back then diffeq two days after” #and ofc it's “mEntAl hEalTh wEeK” at my school #so im just sitting here crying for the tenth time today over physics/strengths/diffeq #and the advisors are spamming “come to this three hour webinar about burnout” #like...really #fuck everything why the hell did i ever think i was smart enough for engineering #my senior self was like “ooh this is cool” about circuits and lil robots and power tools #and now im sobbing over free body diagrams #am entirely convinced electric fields are black magic bc none of that shit makes any sense #im just so tired like i spent hours studying for these exams #did 2-3 backexams for each got little sleep since sunday #and i fucked both of them up massively #course my professor was like “if you can do these you can do the exam” #and i did those problems easily the night before and was like okay! let's work on physics! #and then the exam hit me like a fucking freight train #i can't even do the basic shit like stay fully awake for all my classes #bc of course they only offer three of the engineering courses back to back to back starting at 8:30 in the fucking morning #and im fine in thermo but just start completely crashing during strengths and am just half dead in diffeq #accidentally put my head down during a five minute break once and woke up twenty minutes later 😭 #i am not a morning person #starting at 10am is fine but 8:30am? #adrenaline gets me through the first hour but then im just dead

[naiivemelodyy]

banging my head against the wall rn higher education you will suffer for your crimes!!!!!

#i am all for gen ed courses. i took more than i needed! #so WHYYYYY do i still have to take classes that aren’t REMOTELY related to my major. for what. #i am suffering this was supposed to be a fun semester instead i am filled w vague apathy and mourning the loss of exceptionalism #like i’ve always been a grades girly but i’m sitting here during crit while people ooh and aah at the chicken scratch realism drawing #even though the assignment was gesture drawings……. and there is not a gesture to be seen in this piece……. #smth smth even when things r supposed to break proportion even when things r supposed to be nonrealstic bitches will always be drawn to the #realism. even if it isn’t the assignment even if it’s less technically impressive OUGH GOD IM SO MAD HOW IS THAT STILL A NOTION EVEN WITH #ART CLASSES?????? ARSGHDUDHS #my other major is going fine tho we j chillin over there #brett.txt

[ikyw-t]

I do relate to olivia rodrigo in some ways for example I did have nightmares each week (every day for months) after that phone call in may (march). I fantasize (once every other blue moon) about a time where you're a little fucking sorry. except I do not hold my undying love (there is not even an iota of love, if there ever was) like a grudge and also I will never ever forgive bc you were indeed filled with vitriol. and unfortunately I also cannot let it go. it was six months (three years) of torture. I did NOT love you truly and I cannot laugh at the stupidity. I may have made some real big mistakes but you do indeed make the worst one look fine. like..............

#sorry i know this is cringe and something i should just journal about #ive just had a very shitty day and also kinda week #ive just been tired and lethargic for no clear reason for the past five days and it's very frustrating #bc i have homework due tomorrow that ive barely made any progress on #and i kinda rly need an A in this class to maintain my gpa. so if one bad week means i tank this assignment and get a B in this class #oh dread. unspeakable unsurmountable dread #also i went on a walk in the park w my mom which i haven't done in a bit and i just was unable to stop thinking #about my high school demon of a boyfriend who lives nearby. altho he literally never goes outside i sometimes get rly freaked out #and panicky that i might see him and have to deal with him again. like he did call (AND TEXT?!?🤢) me last march #and i was having nightmares for months after and feeling so paranoid that he might randomly show up at my house one day #bc that's the kind of shit he used to do regularly when we were dating to keep me from breaking up w him #and like ughhhhhhhhhh it just makes me so upset bc he literally would have the audacity. #it's just upsetting. i am soooo nonviolent as a person but when i think of him i suddenly feel not very nonviolent #again my apologies i know this should be journaled about instead. sorry u had to see all this #feel free not to read these tags like this is just for me. apologies. #while im here some other songs that make me think of him include would've could've should've. atw10 but only the terrible parts #uhh better by myself by hey violet is incredibly on the nose #also it's actually just a rly great song. also get out of my life by little hurt. okay im done now. #gonna go find something funny and cute to watch. maybe little witch academia. #sorry if u read all this 😵‍💫

[orchideius]

genuinely, when will it end??? I am so tired of being here and I am not sure how much longer I can push myself to keep going. i’m exhausted.

#it’s 4am and I am feeling the Deep Darkies #I literally passed out at 9pm from mental exhaustion & also bc I wanted to start to get up early to start a morning routine #so I actually got a ton of sleep but the second I woke up I felt like I wanted to cry and now I feel so depressed out of no where #like girl WHYYYY #genuinely I am so debilitatingly depressed I have suicidal thoughts every single day #and I feel like ive tried everything to help myself like ive been to therapy ive been on and off meds for over a decade at this point #im starting to eat better and sleep more #like what the duck else do I do? #I genuinely feel like my brain is broken #I just want to cry and lay in bed every single day #like I cannot articulate the profound sadness into words but it’s. so bad #and it takes literally all my brain power to do one assignment a day for class like none of this is sustainable #and I just feel so much shame over it bc whenever I tell my mom she gets mad like it effects her or something and the few times ive made th #mistake of trying to confide in my dad he gave me the whole pull yourself up by the bootstraps talk so never again lol #my entire family has made me feel so much shame over it and none of my friends here even bother to ask how I feel and don’t make me feel #comfortable enough to talk to bc i’m always the fucking therapist friend helping everyone else #hence why I always vent on here lol I have no one to talk to #I just really don’t know what to do at this point like I feel like I need inpatient therapy at this point but that’s expensive and I don’t #want to tell my job why i’d need extended time off bc that would be so embarrassing and plus now i’m in school #so like what do I do #im tired of feeling like this I know this isn’t how life is supposed to be but it’s also all ive ever known #and what’s the point of living if i’m going to feel like this everyday? I don’t know how much longer I can take it #personal

[arolesbianism]

What's up gamers I'm bored

#rat rambles #Ive been in my 3d animation class for 2 hours and Im gonna be here for another 2 hours god help me #I have a decent start of a draft for our current 2d animation assignment but I am now kinda burnt out so Im taking a break #which ofc means Im bored as hell I should have brought snacks fr #idk I might dip out of class for a sec to buy some since I think theres some vending machines on campus? #idk where tho I forgor #I also do feel like I need to keep pushing forward tho since ngl I havent even touched this project before today #and I wasnt at the last class so idk I feel like I need to prove Im trying or smth #idk either way Im tired and bored and wish I was playing rainworld rn #also Im animating some of my slugcat ocs! the mama cat boon accidentally possessed and her two kids #I was originally gonna animate different characters but then I decided to stick with some simpler designs to make things faster #like I Could animate more humanoid designs but given Im already behind I dont wanna risk it #rly my biggest issue is having to animate at 24 frames per second Im more used to animating at 15 #its not too hard its just gonna be frustrating filling out the like 300 frames I need to do #obviously Im gonna pad with loops and stills this is an animation class after all the teacher will get it #but still thats a lot of frames to figure out what to do with

[gynecologistmsfrizzle]

it is tremendously funny that I made it four and a half years into university before I finally stopped giving a fuck about my grades & when I stopped giving a fuck it happened suddenly and all at once. i am turning in complete dog shit and I don’t feel even a little bit bad lmfao

#my prof is horrible & teaching the most out of date medical-model ‘objectivity’ stuff & giving ridiculously triggering & invasive assgts #and I’m like do you know what Laura? you’ve done it! You’ve finally pushed me over the edge. I am a god among men and I don’t care. #I care about the people at my placement and I care about the knowledge and skills I need to hone #And I do not care even a LITTLE bit about the grades you give me on these terrible social diagnosis assignments. #Mary Richmond is NOT going to fuck you. god bless. #I’m getting this degree and I’m leaving. #rhi talks #adventures in academia #it’s honestly kind of sad but this prof has fully crushed any love I had for this program #I’ve had a lot of amazing teachers here and taken a lot of amazing courses #But this semester is just two classes with her plus my reading course #And I’m learning MUCH more from that reading course & through my placement than I’m learning from her. #much more stuff— and much better and less harmful stuff. #so I’m focusing on that and I’m not sorry! #it’s just funny #like I’ve turned in stuff that I knew wasn’t perfect before #But I always felt like crap about it #now it’s like. give me a 65. Whatever. Full send. Passing grade.

[dullahandyke]

-_-

#11 days to the leaving and only now am i drawing up what all i need to study #chronologically it makes sense to leave latin n music to the last bcos i have like a whole week after history to study for just them #and before that all of my exams are basically in the same week with allowance for the weekend #so i should focus on eng n maths particularly #n then bio and irish and history #but like. my history latin n music teachers r the only ones assigning work. for the exams i have the most time for. lol #like i can ignore the history n music teachers for the most part but like my classes w my latin teacher r one on one i CANNOT brush that of #so im here studying me fucking virgil ig instead of figuring out what im doing w the comparative #sigh. ok priorities ill make up that list of shit i gotta do for each subject #gotta suss out which movie im watching for eng and what poems n stories im studying for irish n what modules im doing for history! lol! #can u tell ive not been paying attention for like. 4 months. #remember kids: cramming is a cool and fun thing to do <- is in a pit #when the leaving cert ends i am going into my room never to be seen again for like a week. #and im getting me mam to buy me something for it. maybe a binder if i come out to her by then #oh well thats future talk. for now. figure out what to study. as ive already said twice #im playinh kh bgm to indulge in the hyperfocus while still getting study done n its kinda working #but mostly i just wanna play kh again... #i havent wrapped up the hades cup n i wanna restart com bcos i think i might know how it works better now #watched a one card deck challenge for recom and its the remake so some shits different but like. i get it now maybe #if nothing else gba com looks rlly rlly cute. the pixel art <£

[pallases]

okay guys i have calculated it all out and even if i get a big fat zero on this race i will still earn a b in the class assuming i get 100% on the other remaining three assignments two of which are a given for 100% and the last of which is like. even if we get a 75% on it (which i do not really see happening) i can still scrape by w a b-

#personal #the engineering chronicles #tbh makes me feel SOOO much better like it will still suck to get a zero on basically our final exam (but it isn’t like weighed like a #final exam we can fail it and still pass as long as doing so doesn’t bring our team assignment average down below 70% which it doesn’t in #these calculations) but like. at least it will not lead to me failing the whole class yknow WRDJFN #on the flipside if we get 100% on the race my grade will boost just enough to take it from an a- to an a. but i do not foresee that #happening LMAO we would have to earn first for that which. our robot is barely functioning atm as it is #whatever i had going on last week was FINE it was not perfect but it was working. then we redesigned and it has all gone to hell 😐 AND we #all have like separate redesigns now which! we cannot do for the race! they need to be identical! #and BEFORE the race we need to submit an assignment that’s like. ‘here’s what our final identical robot design is’ w a SHIT ton of cad #models and drawings. and the race is on saturday. and as none of us have decided on a design yet that works for all of us. we have not #started this giant assignment yet. which. hello #it’s so bad. don’t even get me started on my unrelated exam on friday and also a final paper again on friday… 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 death #this class has actually taken over my life like most of the time it literally feels like i am not enrolled in anything else. which is like i #am SO lucky none of my other classes are giving me trouble but also. it makes me wonder. how i would be doing if i had chosen another major. #not even one outside of stem like linguistics is my only non stem class this semester and i am straight up vibing in everything except this #robotics class. and that can be said for most of the engineering classes ive taken where they’re really the Only classes that give me any #problems. like how stress free would i be rn if i had picked chemistry or applied mathematics or smth 🤨 #but also i don’t regret it. i mean i am learning so so much that i never would have imagined knowing how to do a year ago. but also. AAAAAAA

[verystressedcollegestudent]

if there's one thing i hate more than slackers in group projects its goddamn hypocrites

#this guy did jack shit for two full weeks when we're building the damn prototype #but STILL brought up the fact that most of our team blew off a report till the last minute in the beginning of march #*prototypes don't work* “sEe tHis iS wHy wE nEedEd tO hAvE a cOnvErsaTioN aBouT MS3” #like hon you lost the rights to the “y'all need to contribute more” argument the moment you left me hanging for 2-3 FUCKING WEEKS #like excuuuuuse me you been prioritizing extra curriculars all week get off your high horse stop lecturing everyone else about contribution #he made maybe 3 contributions? maybe? #first he 3D modeled an adapter and sent it to someone else to print (couldn't even do THAT himself smh) #then he sent the gc a sketch of an idea i roughly proposed literally the NIGHT BEFORE as his own contribution (that I ENDED UP BUILDING #then he...screwed on a few pipe fittings and called it a project :) #would be a LOT less pissed if he didn't show up to One Thing outside weekly team meetings/class #then apologize for slacking off BUT then launch into a FUCKING SPEECH ABOUT HOW HIM BEING HERE PROVES HIS COMMITTMENT #all because he DOESN'T LIKE GETTING UP EARLY. like sir. sir i am rIGHT FUCKING HERE. i was up till 4-5am working on this stfu #we've been building for three weeks and he's come into work on stuff wo me there ONCE for an HOUR #for context id spent about fifteen hours in the shop alone working on the fucking thing that WEEK #like im trying to be understanding ik tech week is hell #but i took “stepping back” as “i only have a few hours here and there to be in the shop and will do the writeups” #NOT “won't show up outside meetings AND we're splitting slides and writeups 80/20” #like id been in the lab all fuckin day and notice we have an assignment due (missed a SINGLE meeting due to exam) #and i ask him if theres anything i can do (and im thinking like look it over maybe add a spec or two) #and this fucker has the AUDACITY to ask me to write the full four paragraph summary cause he #*checks notes* copy-pasted some specs from milestone 3 so of COURSE its only fair that despite the fact I've been in the lab ALL DAY #that i write the four fuckin paragraphs too #course we're troubleshooting and he's like “did you clean the pump? did you disassemble it and rinse it?” like yes??? #i did EVERYTHING i could think of before i even bothered texting you cause i know you're fucking useless #and then he raises fifteen different concerns which while valid would have been NICE TO HEAR WHEN I SENT YOU MY INITIAL DESIGNS #y'know BEFORE i spent over fifteen hours of my free time building this damn thing #with slackers i just pick up the work and move on with my life this idiot is trying to gaslight me into thinking that he contributed fairly #when i heard “i need to step back due to play stuff” i thought we'd be splitting it like 65:35 NOT FUCKING 95:5 #and now hes probably going to give ME a poor peer review because I've been passive aggressive with him in the few meetings he showed up to #like i got shit going on too? how the fuck does he expect me to respond to being abandoned to do this shit myself