#i missed the uneasiness

[polteergeistt]

Isolated "I can't hold myself together" is bones chilling it's so scary and then the weirdly edited scream mmmm eating up the insanity no instruments just pained voice

#deadass shaking #it has the same vibe i used to have from people who seemed insane to me as a kid #before i became one of them lol #im glad to have it back #i missed the uneasiness #mmh. #its odd #sleep token but only the vocals #just tpwbyt #spooky af #imma listen to it in my sleep #sleep token #sleep token band #tpwbyt #high water #this place will become your tomb

[redbootsindoriath]

Merry Christmas!

And an early happy new year, since I'll be traveling at that time and won't be able to post anything. Sorry for the long disappearance. I wish I had some exciting excuse like being abducted by the fae or becoming a spy, but really I've just been going through a lot and haven't been drawing much. Here are a couple of fantasy style Klausen (or maybe the more widely recognized Krampi) by way of apology. I hope you all have been good this year.

#my trash #/end classification tags #also for everyone who was wishing me well after toothless died: i've had a chance to adjust #i'm not happy but i've adjusted #i got a new kitten to keep the calico company and so he's helping to distract me and i've been keeping busy training him #i've pretty much finished moving in to the new place but i don't know when i'll be leaving again so it's an uneasy period of peace #not unpacking much yet until i have an idea of where i'll be in the spring/summer because otherwise it could be a lot of unnecessary bother #but yeah #again sorry for the long absence #i've missed you guys #i meant to pop in at least a LITTLE bit more frequently during my hiatus but real life has no regards for my plans

[jessiesjaded]

random picture dump :)

#cat update: theyre good #clancy update: he just ate roast chicken so hes also good #jess update: Im good #im happier rn than anytime since 2020 i think #still up and down but way less up and down- if that makes sense? #its nice its good- its autumn now and i always look forward to winter #suffice to say: i hope you guys are well too #i saw in an email i have messages on discord but last time i attempted to log in it wouldnt allow me so... if you msged there and i never #responded its bc i cant get in to respond and tbh #i think discord was maybe terrible for my mental health #which is a little sad bc that was the main way i talked to people but also... idk #jury is currently out on that front we'll see maybe i'll download it again #but regardless i miss you but im well and i hope youre well and i hope one day coming back wont feel so daunting #relationships are hard arent they? i hate things changing and ending more than anything else in the world #side effect of my dad dying when i was little i think #but the main thing thats been making me feel guilty and uneasy lately is feeling guilt about disappearing from people so again! #im trying and we'll see ! #yeah :)

[favoniuscodex]

anyways unrelated but does anyone else get that tight, sad feeling in their chest when they remember friendships that are no longer with them? like romantic breakups are easy for me, but damn, i sure do take platonic friendship breakups hard despite my best attempts not to

#the uneasiness in my stomach when i remember people who i thought would be in my life forever but they no longer are </3 #i try to remember that quote that is like 'love enters your life when you need it but leaves at the right time' #or however it goes. definitely butchering it #but it applies to friends the most i feel... friends r undervalued and i miss certain ppl but i know my life is better without them #axia screams into the void #there are many people i wish the best in life #as long as their best isnt around me

[forsty]

When Bradley was a kid and Mav was away on assignment, Mav would always call home at any opportunity. Carole and Goose always did this too obviously, but whenever Carole asked Bradley if he wanted to talk to his dad, Bradley often said no because he’d just start to cry and miss his dad even more when hearing his voice. After Goose dies and Mav steps in, he too starts doing the phone calls. 

Carole and Mav always talk first, before she asks if Bradley wants to talk to Uncle Pete before they hang up, and Bradley always says yes to talk to his uncle. He always makes sure to tell his uncle that he loves him before hanging up. If he doesn’t say it, he feels guilty or like something bad might happen. Like it’s important uncle Pete knows he loves him, just in case. 

Though he only does this when Mav is on assignment, and he continues to do it untill The Pulling Of The Papers. 

#top gun maverick #bradley rooster bradshaw #pete maverick mitchell #im basing this on my own experiences lol #all my life my dad has been a 'travel dad' so he'd be away ALOT #whenever he would call i was apprehensive about talking to him cause i always started crying cause i missed him so much #he would call everyday and talk to mom #but now after mom died he does his daily calls to me instead when he's away at work #I DONT START CRYING ANYMORE but i /always/ tell him that i love him #even if we've argued #if i end the conversation withut saying it i immedietly feel uneasy and have to txt it to him instead #i just feel it's important to tell my dad that i love him... he's the only parent i have left #im having some emotions right now i need a minute

[cuntcure]

idk what I dreamed about in that nap but it involved horrors beyond my comprehension

#what did i miss #it’s been thirty minutes and i’m still uneasy #yappin.com

[sohelish]

gotta love this gif tbh

the hel-energy is real :)

#faces of hel (faceclaim) #sorry I'm not more present. I burnt out on stuff really quickly for some reason #and I missed an appointment with my friends bc of this which also got me uneasy

[mercymaker]

also, before i fall asleep i thought of astarion trying to cheer mal up by making a massive list of all the ways they could kill her mother's murderers. he just.. starts naming them, brainstorming, coming up with more violent and more vicious methods. it kinda works.

also, might be a good time to let him know how she lowkey tapped into the revenge fantasy aspect of it all when he was stabbing cazador 28 times

#the bg3 adventures #oc: maleane #astarion #maleane/astarion #at first when i played the scene #i thought 'oh mal might be a wee bit horrified by that esp. after all the uneasiness while sifting through astarion's past' #but then i was like nah absolutely not na ah miss ma'am #i think she would relate?? to be able to put a face on all that fear and pain and loss??? to have a chance to make them hurt?? #to express all that rage as you take their lives? make them suffer?? #GOD she wished that were her!! #how much she'd give to make them pay the blood price #how much she'd wish to take their power away... power over her #maybe it would all stop haunting her

[faefrosting]

Challenged my friend to draw the glamrocks and the told me I had to do the same

Can you tell Roxy and Monty aren't my favorites of the main cast ;;-;;

I spent waaayyy too long trying to figure out how to make Roxy not look ugly, I draw furries so much, but Roxy was pain, and so was Monty. They have really cool designs too, but I think because of my distaste for them it's harder to draw them

Chica's beak was a pain in the ass cause I've hated drawing bird's beaks in front view since I understood the concept of what a bird is. Love Chica tho she is bae

#little guy #Hey! Little guy! #fnaf #glamrock animatronics #fnaf glamrock monty #fnaf glamrock chica #fnaf glamrock roxy #fnaf glamrock freddy #fnaf glamrock animatronics #dont mind my complaints about trying to draw roxy and monty #i dislike monty cause he scares me #his personality in the game makes me uneasy #i do frequently call my nephew cause monty's is engrained into my brain from playing the game #roxy is cool but like i miss foxy and bonnie #poor fucking bonnie always getting the short end of the stick #i want my bunny back bro #where the fuck is my bunny and who is this crusty ass old man

[dragongutsixofficial]

Byleth is not defined by their OP powers and I will die on this hill

#fe3h #fe16 #byleth eisner #crimson flower #silver snow #azure moon #verdant wind #byleth discourse #edelgard discourse #kinda i'm not sure #byleth #byleth embraces who they are in every route and that's the point #but that changes with their experiences and that is beautiful not something to blame themselves for #anyways you can think what you want in the end and i won't judge you ofc #but i personally think its a shame so many people miss that in cf =( #byleth positive #is this tag a thing ?? #i mean i myself always feel a bit uneasy about them becoming the archbishop because it's a bit like becoming what rhea wanted them to be #but if i can accept that #i think others can accept that cf is not a bad route for byleth either

[mobolanz]

Y'know what.... maybe I don't really want to have anything to do with here until further notice.

#or maybe just be done with it because one thing for certain I won't ACTUALLY be missed whatsoever lmao #(not in THAT sense. I'm not doing anything dumb. but in all honesty any lasting presence here I try my best not to puke.) #but my resentment is festering to stay and linger for longer than any relationship even lasted. coming across certain usernames I filtered #and blocked too often leaves me uneasy

[lesausageperson]

something about this end card is a little unusual

uhhhhhhhh

UHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

C... CHEF MIKE..? CHEF MIKE LORE????? ON THE KITCHEN NIGHTMARES YOUTUBE CHANNEL????????

WH.

MIKE.

OH FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

good lird

#WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS AND HOW DID I MISS IT. #kitchen nightmares #gordon ramsay #I am thoroughly frightened and uneasy #who the fuck is running rhis channel.

[communistkenobi]

I keep feeling like I should find the boys (the show) cringey or bad but then end up being pleasantly surprised. and like the show is not perfect by any means and there are definitely things to cringe at, but I keep expecting it to take a very wrong turn and it doesn’t. and like I might just have very large blind spots that I’m not aware of, but I think part of the reason why is because while the show is very concerned with the current cultural moment (which makes it prone to dating itself very quickly), it avoids trump entirely. like he’s just not in the show at all. they address the political response to him while removing him from the equation

#tbposting #<- I won’t be posting about the show a lot on this blog but this is the tag I’ll use #so blacklist if you don’t wanna see it #anyway idk I always feel very uneasy singing its praises like I’m missing something #but idk it’s good! #the lack of trump makes me respect its commentary more #and it also feels like the show is respecting the audience by leaving him out #like the show is not subtle at all lol but if they’d included a trump/trump like figure I feel like I would hate it #bc like most impressions/satire of trump suck ass because they’re overtly moralistic #the best way to make fun of him is to just verbatim repeat the things he says or does

[doofus-and-dragons]

After listening to TMA (I'm on episode 55), I find myself zoning out while Jon (or Gertrude in one case) is reading the statement. Idk why. But I tune back in when the statement ends, and he's either talking about it/giving a supplement. Then the next episode will start, and I'll tune out again until he goes to talk about it again. It's not even that I've burnt myself out on it, I haven't! I want to listen to it, but it's like my brain shuts off when an archivist is giving a statement! I know i need to pay attention because a lot of the stories connect, and I know from the statements in s1 that they further the plot. But I can't focus on things that my brain doesn't deem "important" enough to the main plot. It's frustrating. Between episode 50-55, episode 55 is the only one I remember listening to. I'm frustrated, but I'm gonna keep trying.

#i hate this #sometimes i wish my brain would just #work #im frustrated #i really want to listen to these stories #but im not going back to the ones i missed unless i have to #the idea of doing that makes me so uneasy #anyway #personal vent #vent post #vent #the magnus archives

[susann-noir]

Last Written Line Tag Game

Rules: share the last line you wrote in your WIP and then tag as many people as there are words on it.

I was tagged by both @nemo-of-house-hamartia and @thatcrazycrowgirl (thank you, ladies!💕). I guess I really have no excuse to wiggle myself out of this one! Suddenly, the thick wall of black smoke split apart, revealing the three men who stumbled out of the blazing building arm in arm and collapsed onto the pavement as a loud explosion boomed behind them, raining with fiery embers, glass, and splintered wood.

And as usual, I’ll break the tagging rules here and simply hope that some of my followers might want to do this. If that’s the case - consider yourself tagged!

#meme #friendly chit chat #this is probably as close as I'll ever get #to sharing any of my writing on Tumblr #I miss lj and its posting options #making things visible for a certain group of ppl only #sharing even a single sentence is making me feel uneasy #and vulnerable #but it's for my friends <3 #I'm pathetic I know

[fideidefenswhore]

“In July, the ‘most Serene Queen of England’ received, along with Henry wedding congratulations from the Venetian Doge, who informed her she would be visited by the ambassador Zucato to deliver this same message in person. Although Zucato was carefully instructed as to how he was to present himself at the court of Henry VIII, there is no record of Jane having an audience with him. 

In essence, any desired intervention into politics by the Queen or her ambitious family, to assert herself in any political role was denied her by the king who seems consistently to have ‘boxed’ her into a very passive, ‘silent partnership’. The ultimate definition or image of Jane’s limitations came in the form of threat from Henry in October 1536:

During the rebellion of the northern Counties, the Pilgrimage of Grace, Jane is reputed to have begged her husband to restore the abbeys under suppression for she “...said to the king that perhaps God had permitted rebellion for ruining so many churches, to which he replied by telling her to attend to other things, reminding her [of] the last queen....”

She had indeed watched and been part of the process that judicially murdered Anne Boleyn for the satisfaction of the king; Jane Seymour knew full well that Henry was very capable of removing her should she give him cause to do so. There is reason to wonder how this moment became public knowledge, [however], if one reviews the [evidence], Jane had for five months made repeated attempts to interfere [in political concerns] and was consistently placed into another role by [Henry VIII]. After five months Henry himself determined the end of her attempts by pointedly reminding her where own position originated; after October 1536, Jane Seymour did indeed tend to other things and limited her exercise of authority to the female realm of the Queen’s chambers.

For her party at court Jane Seymour was probably not the diplomatic success they had hoped for: the king withheld that power from the Seymour faction. They rose in rank and favor without her help although she was possibly, until she bore the redemption of a male heir, a disappointment to them politically.”

Jane, The Quene (Pamela M. Gross)  

#well; unfortunately she didn't go over the thing i was curious about (it is NEVER talked about in any biography i have read #probably bcus chapuys' dispatches are so long-winded it's easy to miss stuff) #but sort of alluded to it... #so according to chapuys by word of cromwell (and henry himself? maybe? idre) henry was #for some inexplicable reason #angry that the signory congratulated him on his marriage to jane #all in all there is very little information about this relationship but it seems like it was a decidedly unpleasant/ uneasy partnership by #and large...there's reports that they're 'in good health' but very few reports of them being 'merry' #pamela gross