The world doesn't have to revolve around me, but I'm tired of being the moon. I don't want to only be adored when I'm at my peak. I don't want to be forgotten once the clouds roll in.
I almost want to be the sun, constantly sought after and loved. I want people to bask in the warmth they find in my presence. I want to be part of the reason a good day is good. I want people to be willing to go out of their way for my company. But I don't want to burn.
Maybe I want to be the ocean. To have people drawn to me from all over, at every point of me. Beside me, on my surface, in my depths. For a photo of me to be kept on your phone, your computer, framed in your halls, kept in your wallet. The memories of me to be so cherished, to be part of the highlights of your life. I want to pull you so far under my waves you drown and we'll drift for a lifetime.
The world doesn't have to revolve around me, but I wish I was loved more.
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So one of the things that made me cry (and laugh) the most, when reading the whole series was in Debriefing when Ice has surgery and Mav kisses him on the forehead, then Ice types out “I am cured” with like no punctuation. (Because of course Ice is the punctuation man 99% of the time.)
One, Ice is actually so fucking funny with the “I am cured.” Like no one would believe how funny he actually is. (And I headcanon that Mav knows this, of course, but almost no one else believes him. Which drives him up the wall.) Two, that exchange was so simple but so loving??? Foaming at the mouth here. Especially after those crazy 30 years. So my question is, what are Ice and Mav’s kisses of choice? Forehead, cheek, regular ol’ lips, the world is their secretly sappy oyster.
I haven’t read that chapter of debriefing since fucking last October! Whoa! not sure how i feel about it .
regular ol’ on the lips :) it means something more than all the rest, it’s romantic in a way none of the others are (which is why it’s so dangerous)
okay yes re: ice being funny yes. wait wait wait let me find it in my doc hold on
here!
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So I want to talk about the altar of Glaust, because it's incredibly important to the story and yet it almost never gets brought up.
What I think most people know about the altar is that its a forgotten artifact that was responsible for Glint, and by extension, Aurene being freed from the yoke of Kralkatorrik. While you can visit it in Arah, it kind of exits the story from there with no character ever thinking to use the sole artifact with the power to grant corrupted creatures free will again. However there's a few details that I think a lot of people miss that I find kind of interesting at least.
The first thing is that the altar itself is only a part of the process, it's just a component of a spell or ritual that does the actual work of cleansing the corruption.
Secondly, the spell needs to be performed at Arah. Though I don't know whether that's simply because the forgotten built the required altar there or because Arah is special somehow.
Personally, I think that there's something special about Arah that's required for the spells function beyond the mere presence of the altar. Zhaitan's presence indicates that it's almost definitely a ley-line nexus, and something about the land there was special enough to call the gods to tyria. So I think it'd make sense that they'd have to do it in Orr (which also suggests, given the forgotten attempted to purify Kralkatorrik, that ol'Kralky used to be active in Orr during the last dragonrise before flying up to the blood lands for his nap)
I think that would go some way as to explain why we're not using this incredible power, as the only way to do so is to venture through an unchained-infested city all the while lugging about whatever corrupted creature you want to cleanse.
And while I'm on the subject of why the altar isn't in the story more, there's also the fact that making corruption being curable more of a thing really changes the nature of dragon minions. Where before they're poor victims who can only be put down for everone's safety, the altar's presence makes them victims who, if you put in enough effort, you could save. Which would probably change the focus of the story quite dramatically as we have to weigh protecting still uncorrupted people against trying to save the corrupted from their fate.
(though imagine if we used purified branded to create living dragonsblood weapons, warriors uniquely suited to fighting branded who are immune to corruption because I don't think Kralkatorrik can brand them twice)
(as a sidenote, if you haven't done the forgotten path of the ruined city of arah you might not know that the altar is blimmin huge, check out the pic below with risen giants for scale)
Finally, just an interesting/annoying note is that we never got any explanation as to how the forgotten purification works, does it block the elder dragon from issuing commands to said minion? Does it work to nullify the dragonvoid lurking at the heart of the creatures magic? Replace the corrupted dragon magic with more benign ley energy? Who knows! Not us, and we likely never will now that we're moving away from the dragon storyline. And I promise I'm not salty about that.
So yeah, that's pretty much it, the altar's a pretty cool object and, for how little it comes up, a really important part of Aurene's ascension to non-mad elder dragon. Hopefully it'll one day get more attention, if only so we can have the commander go "Wait why haven't we been using this the entire time"
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Honestly I think I do want to have kids someday. Definitely not bio kids but kids of my own all the same. Maybe just 1, maybe an entire 2.
I want to give the love and support that was not afforded to me. I want to watch them grow into amazing adults and know that I gave this child/these children the opportunity to live a good, fulfilled life. I want to instill in them my love of books; teach them important things like courage and bravery, kindness, respect, a sense of genuine wonder in a world so empty of it. I want to encourage their interests and pursuits and congratulate them when they work hard no matter the end result. I want to be the parent I never had, the best one possible.
I don't know where that fits into the rest of my life plan if it does at all. Idk. Sometimes when I experience something cool and whimsical I think; wouldn't it be awesome to share this with my own kid? A nice book or a pretty landscape or when I'm thinking about advocacy for good public schools. The thought creeps in, wouldn't it be amazing to keep even one person safe from the foster care system? Wouldn't it be lovely to have someone to nurture and support? Wouldn't it be awesome if because I was such a good parent my child lived a happy life where they felt free and safe to follow their dreams and be themselves and things?
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One of my favorite tropes is characters who fully and completely believe they aren’t morally good. And yeah, maybe they’re rough around the edges and maybe definitely they aren’t “nice.”
But when you really dig into them, you find a moral code that’s been tried, hardened, and tested more than most people have ever had to face. You find out they’ve had to face and make decisions with no good answer and then somehow had to find a way to live with that. They’ve left conventions and social niceties far behind because they’ve encountered the situations where those just don’t work. They’ve faced the brutal, hard reality that you can’t save—you can’t even not hurt— everyone. They know sometimes the only person you can save is yourself. Sometimes you have to betray or hurt more than a few people to save yourself. They know Do no harm is an impossible lie. And yet under that forcing pressure, they have forged a moral core stripped of all bloat or arbitrary hangers on and tempered in brutal, honest assessment of reality.
And yet. Because they’ve seen the world for what it is rather than what is the sorry being sold. Because they don’t buy into the hypocrisy of “innocent” and “unblemished” and “pure.” Because they don’t look like what society says good should look like, because they don’t think like society says good should think, because they have faced impossible situations and made decisions instead of looking away and pretending that was not also a choice—
Because they are human and imperfect and feel the pain “good” is not supposed to know—
They assume they must be not be good. No matter how hard they try, how brave they are, how much empathy they extent or how many sacrifices they make to help others. They assume they must always be fundamentally Bad.
Because Good people don’t see the complexities, don’t struggle with the complexities and failures, like they do.
Right?
I love when those characters are the kindest (not nice but kind), strongest, most truly brave characters in their setting. Who can reach others who are also imperfect and struggling and broken and beaten down in a way those who are that golden, innocent “good” never could.
I love when good is not being above, separate, untouched by ramble masses and evil. But instead are right in the thick of it, scarred and broken just as much as anyone else, but made the decision to try. Even if they do not believe they are good—or ever can be. Even if they think their efforts are too small. Even if their attempts are small.
And I always hope for those characters to eventually find enough healing to see how strong and good they are.
But in the mean time, I love them for hard they try, even while believing there’s something wrong with them, forever staining their soul.
(As if there isn’t something wrong with all of us. As if the definition a good person is not innocence from bad actions but the choice to do better. As if that single choices doesn’t take more bravery than the most fearless warrior.)
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"Selfishly hoarding your college money, cause you only care about yourself!"
that's... that's not how grants work, Stan... Ford's not being selfish for not giving the money to you, he's actually being a responsible grant recipient and not using the money to commit actual fraud by using it for anything other than research purposes. He has to justify his expenses to the college he earned it from and if he's caught wiring grant money to you via unreported/unjustified expenses, he'd get the grant revoked and probably go to jail. And, depending on circumstances, it might even get you in even more trouble than you already were for accepting it. Is that really what you want? Honestly wouldn't even be surprised if his grant had already been revoked at this point.
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