#i just. ive had A Day and im tired

[obsob]

more kitties that live in my sketchbook

#mine #i just took a huge amount of psychic damage from going thro my facebook page #my GOD. the things i had on there #anyway. i hope u hve had a good week...my week has been mixed but okay! im super tired ugjug #my period was like 11 days late bc since stopping hormones it like has no idea whats going on n my period app was havin a coronary #i got a notifcation that was like ur ABNORMAL!!!!!!!!!! okay and #hmm what am i going 2 do now.....probably som colouring and then some reading #i stopped reading the fantasy book i was reading it was eating my brain slowly . in a bad way #i tried using my lightbox 2day instead of drawing over my sketch n it worked well!! ive bough different paper n it worked way better #am happy !! :))

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I imagine barnaby trying to be all cool and flirting with howyd subtly but his smoke gives him away fjsns

he thinks he's smooth smh...

#cracking up thinking about this ngl #like howdy continues on with work #and whoever's at the table with barn - lets say uhhhh idk julie #is like 'awww your smoke turns pink when you talk to him' #and barn just freezes a la 'excusemeitfuckingWHAT' #aaaand Slam that panic button #bbg didnt know.... #rambles from the bog #wh fantasy au #anyway i think ill never draw a better howdy #i squandered my Him points on an au scribble- AN AU SCRIBBLE #ive peaked ill never get any better! #< lie. there's always room for improvement and reaching new heights #on the flip side i had such a rough time with barn #its always an exchange - i can either draw a good howdy or a good barn Never both smh #still though idk How this came out as good as it has i have not drawn in days #nary a line nor doodle to be found... #but covid is wearing off and babey i am BACK! #slowly. it beat me up pretty good ngl #it took me tf out im gonna be extra tired for a while... #but since my congestion has cleared up and im not Hacking and Sniffling anymore #stream soon probably! Normal Stream To Get Back In The Swing Of Things #it feels like ive been sick for a thousand years but i think its been like #three days??? i really dont know... #i hope everyone is doing well and Not getting covid. wear your mask #i wore mine but my stepdad didnt and Look What Fuckin Happened

[marsbotz]

maybe its already too late for me

#spamton #deltarune #spamton deltarune #spamton g spamton #big shot spamton #animation #fuck it all this took so long i can even tell if its good or not anymore #JUST TAKE IT!!!!! #lol i have.... so many thoughts abt his big shot era. that man is SPIRALLING!!! #ughghhg [starts losing touch with reality epically] #btw the stuff on the walls issss. swatch pic.. cungadero ad (w funny legs).. tasque pic and pipis #and a like 'salesman of the year' magazine cover tee hee #i imagine spamton to rlly like the tasques.. cat guy #and everything else is like his obsessions with his public personal etc etc ehatver. im tired #theres like issues wparts of this but ive been working nonstop on it for like 2 days im so done. im so done LOL #prommy ill do more low effort fun stuff now i jsut had this Vision in my brain. i had to do it like this #sorry if it looks bad on mobile btw. tumblr sizes r so weird #ok. done now #artsbotz

[m00ngbin]

TFS TUESDAY!!! (WEDNESDAY??)

#whoops i had a really long day and i got really tired and fell asleep early #so ik TECHNICALLY its not tuesday but in my heart and soul today is still tuesday #actually i thought it was thursday #all day #but yk #tuesday!! #at least its not thursday like last time #ALSO #I WOULD HAVE GIVEN AN ARM AND A LEG TO GO TO THAT MITSKI CONCERT LAST NIGHT #JUST TO SEE HER SING GEYSER TBH #but its fine. totally fine. its not like im super upset about it or anything. #ALSO. TYLER THE CREATOR IS GOING TO BE AT COACHELLA??? HELLO??? #GODD I HATE THE WEST COAST WHY DO ALL OF THE BANDS AND ARTISTS I LIKE GO TO CALIFORNIA AND NOT HERE #anyways enough about concerts i wish id gone to or could go to #let me shut up for five minutes so i can get to the new chapter #ik ive already asked this but be honest if you guys think these are annoying just tell me and ill shut up so fast and never make another one #ever

[skunkes]

#gnnn ^_^ #reblog locked bc its wip #a doodley #i need to get better at that rib flare #also i dont think his face is super accurate here but im jst messin around and also i hate i felt i had to clarify that ykwim #like who caresss if he's Off im still learning to draw (him) and one drawing doesnt define me or him etc but idk. idk! idk #ill get better... #thje funny thing about this doodle is im freaking out bc my wrist hurts a bit and i was struggling to draw ppl again #after a few days of Blobbish Furs #so forced self to churn this out before sleeps like oh ok maybe it is just the pain thats affecting me (wrist now hurts a bit more) #ever since that one those feratu doodle ive been trying to give him more like. sinking sagging jowls (?) #as contrast to the bone landmark of his chin #i also have to give him more neck fat/loose skin there ykwim #but also have to learn to draw necks. lol. #ok ill fix dis later im so tired

[creaturefeaster]

guy who's 5 minutes away from finding they've been bitten by a tick

#i had just happened to be taking selfies right before i went to like. #strip down and shave. and just by pure chance i found a tick on me #ive never had one. it was so small and recent it hadn't even begun feeding #i went to the ER to get it removed because i was afraid of its head ripping off or it vomming into the wound #and the medic still decapitated it on accident so 🫠 #and so then they had to surgically cut into the skin to remove the mandibles left behind #so that was my night tonight #soooo awsome #freaked me the fucketh out though lyme disease is so scary to think about #anyway i rarely post a selfie unprompted these days #and im not really even a fan of this pic im kinda tired and my hair is weird #but i thought it funny and appropriate to share

[oscar-wilde-thing]

Please stop tagging every Reader fic in the Ted Lasso fandom as Ted Lasso x Reader. You wouldn't tag a Dean Winchester x Reader fic as Supernatural x Reader. I'm not looking for Jamie, or Roy, or Rebecca x Reader.

I just want Ted.

#ted lasso x reader #im grumpy and tired and i just need my mustache man #ive had a shit day and i just need to escape into his embrace for a while #cuz i keep fuxking uo and i cant do anyhting rught and i just need Ted

[compacflt]

what are bradley’s earliest memories of ice and mav? the bits of his perspective on them that you’ve written are so fascinating

fairly unsurprising answer but: ice: when he came to see Carole to apologize for killing goose in ch 2 of wwgattai (sets the tone of their relationship)

mav: something very benign like mav doing magic tricks for him as a little little kid. you know how your earliest memories are always a little fuzzy and always afternoon sunshine? imagine a desaturated maverick sitting crosslegged in the grass in pale afternoon southern california sunshine showing Bradley how he can detach his thumb from his hand and then put it back again. no blood, no bone, no pain, and he’s got this daredevil grin like he’s enjoying separating his thumb from his hand. can’t see his eyes behind his aviators. the best magicians are the ones who can make even their pain disappear. or, playing “got your nose,” holding Bradley’s nose up so he can see it right in front of his very eyes, NO PAIN!, and then making it disappear. “where’d your nose go, Gosling? oh, my gosh, I lost your nose!! how’re you gonna smell? i bet you’re gonna smell bad. get it? get it? —here it is, i found it, don’t worry, it’s all good!” and putting his nose back so everything’s ok. that’s Bradley’s earliest memory of mav.

#Bradley’s nose (mavs thumb) is a foreshadowing metaphor for the academy here obviously #this is just my conjecture as a californian kid who was many times duped by the thumb trick myself. #You know where they screw it off and it really looks convincing #im closer to 10 years old than i am to 31 😞 ten years ago today i was at my little baseball summer camp :) in third grade #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #bradley rooster bradshaw #top gun #asks #also ive had this little scene where he drives to their house in his moms car after some late high school event #only to find ice & mav passed out on the couch together at 9:30 at night with the tv still playing #because mav had made a home between ices arms and (tired fighter pilot after long day of drills) fell asleep there and what #was ice supposed to do; wake up an exhausted American hero & push him away? no. this isn’t so bad. —and then accidentally fell asleep too. #and bradleys just standing there in his homecoming tux going ‘oh this is real. oh they really are. oh. ok i will let them sleep.’ #and sneaking back into his moms car to go to his own house for once. #i can’t find anywhere to put that scene so you’re getting it in the tags of this post

[leenfiend]

i’m listening to those literary demerit episodes on dirty laundry feeling like a klance scholar rn and also shaking my fist at the fucking sky because clearly a lot of klance fic was influenced by it and god.......i wish i could live in a different timeline......we gotta do better this time soldiers. give me in character fic im on my knees begging. 

#the way that sad twink keith had a fucking CHOKEHOLD ON THE LONG FICS #im smacking it away from me i dont want it #this is why i think i like later season fics better usually #bc people write them as like serious and tired and it feels more real 2 me #idk i love the early season dynamic i just wish.......idk #every day i feel like i get on here and complain about the quality of the popular voltron fics im so sorry lmao #ive found some genuinely good short ones i just was always someone who liked reading long fics but i still. cant find. good ones. #also i feel like when i say in character i mean the versions that live in my head but erm im right so.... #me and all my mutuals....we're right.... #colleen thoughts

[ofdreamsanddoodles]

stealing my girlfriend @vaguelyethereal's joke & turning it into a comic bc i think she's the funniest person alive. bonus:

(theyre still arguing in the background)

#sorry i drew clark once & he was such a Shape that i had to just copy paste him for the second picture #kon el #kara zor el #kara danvers #conner kent #superfam #ive been drawing a lot of transfem kon lately #thats because i think butches rock. you understand #odad #supergirl #i like how the art noticibly gets worse as this goes on #sorry i cant draw side profiles #also i worked all day. im tired

[deoidesign]

Melatonin is a delicate balancing act, it took some time to find a dose that helped me fall and stay asleep without leaving me groggy after 8/10 hours. For me, that has been 10 mg gradually increased to such over a few weeks then steady since.

I also take roughly a week without it every month or two, as the bottle recommends. Listen to your body and do what you can. Good luck, and thank you for the sweet gay were/pire comic<3

Yeah, I can tell my sweet zone is somewhere between 3 and 6 mg, at least right now. Or at least I think it is. Admittedly my sleep has been absolutely horrible since I was a kid so my standards on "not tired" are pretty low, so I'm not actually sure if they're any good right now. All I know is I'm getting more than 2 hours of sleep at a time, and I'm not spending every waking moment fighting off a nap!

Thanks for the confirmation I've gotta test with it and go off and on and such, my doc didn't give me a straight answer on that (he just kept saying take it as needed... I need it every night!!!). 75% of the time being good is way better than 0% so I'll take what I can get!

And the gay comics are the least I can do 🧡 thank you for reading it!

#my boyfriend actually commented unprompted that ive been complaining less about being tired all the time..m #like dont get me wrong. im still tired #but it has been a WORLD of a difference. #like. its been every day since i was like 14 that just. all day i could fall right back asleep #and every night i wake up every. other. hour. #ive never really been able to sleep longer than 2 hours at a time #so ive never gotten uhm. good sleep before. #and ive had to stay in bed 14. 16. 20 hours to even feel like i can GET UP!!!! #super bad hahaha #but I'll take a week of that every month or so over every day #im just glad ive found a dose and combo thats workint for me cause ive tried melatonin before and it didnt help #but that was qlso before i used those nose strips. which also help me a lot? #so i think the combo is important #and i wouldn't be shocked if in 5 years i learn of another secret sleeping ingredient #anyways. maybe i can line up the bad sleep week off melatonin with the other week that sucks every month auajjddjdjejdj #see how it goes lol #oh ive also been taking other vitamins which have also been helping #so that combo leaves me with some actual waking time that im not fighting off a nap #this is why I've been posting more recently btw lol #asks #jackedupjack

[soldier-poet-king]

I know I have terminal insane silly brain disease and my feelings on this matter will change in probably the next 5 minutes but like

Damn I am funny and hot and generally trying to be kindhearted and good, and my teasing and flirting and emotional rambling, which is maybe Too Much at times, is still a privilege and a blessing, not a burden, to the people around me

#the duality of fran #i say teasing and flirting but its not even necessarily romantic #my flirting is indistinguishable from my platonic affection because i cant comprehend ever falling for someone who's not a friend first #dating apps??? could not be me. (reason 237384883 im single) #but anyway! i love you! if youre reading this yes you! #standing invitation to come flirt or joke or tease or yell passionately about both silly and also serious things in my inbox always #i contain MULTITUDES and tbh!!! most of them are pretty great!!! #yes everything is bad and I'm work stressed and ive had a 5 day long tummy ache and headache #and its a zillion degrees and the ac is broken and i cant wear short sleeves bc my boss hates tattoos #and id rather not have to open that can of worms with HR #and im so so so so tired and my meeting is tmrw and i havent prepped #and also im having mad scruples and idk if its like the normal flavour or it means smthn #unsettling confession dreams. i try not to read into them bc i have the connect everything to make meaning disease #and it fuels my ocd #but oh boy we live in a but what if state of being #However. maybe sometimes the but what if can be good #but what if things work out. what if love and kindness find you. what if there is joy and beauty not just despite but because of the horrors #what if all shall be well at the end of all things

[softshuji]

eldest daughter syndrome really do be kicking my ass tbh

#i just find it like so unfair yknow #im the only one who works in myhouse and full time #but i come home and the house isnt clean and i tidy up and sort everything out and tidy the kitchen anf living room after dinner and put #my sister to bed and yk if there was no one else to do these things id understand but #i have 5 brothers all of whom are adults and they dont lift a finger #its not as if any of them work bec they dont and neither does my dad #and im so so so exhausted yk? bec not everything is my job or responsibility #and i keep blaming other things for me getting sick but yknow what maybe i just dont rest enough #and the other day i was upset bec i'd had a tough day at work and i felt unwell and i cleaned up everything after dinner and my brother #said i didnt have a right to be upset bec i “chose” this. like as if i chose to work full time nd do all the chores for a family of 9 #and it just really upsets me bec no one sees an issue with it and im so mad at my mom at rhe same time #constant therapy sessions w her bec shes mad at my dad and wants someone to vent at and then he does the same abt her and my brothers #and im so tired yknow just sososos tired bec she'll complain abt how they dont do anything but then she wont ensure they do either #its just empty complaints whereas she thrust responsibility on me when i was 9 and yet my brothers are 18+ - all but one that is and they #cant even do their own laundry bec she just..... did everything for them all the time but now is mad that they cant do anything. #like yes i know my dad is a failure of a husband and a father i expected that i'll never be a good enough daughter for him and that the onl #thing he has to say about me is that im bringing shame on our family despite everything ive done but come on #im just tired and upset #its hard not to see yourself as a robot or machine when theres little room to be anything else. #and even on a day like today when i dont feel well it never stops and i just keep doing #im sad i want a hug from my gangster bf #oh god i am sorry pls do not perceive me for this #and yk what #thats why i cant stand when people are nice to me bec all i can think of is #i havent done anything to deserve this? i should have to give something in return #or if not #theres something this person must want because why else would they be nice to me when i havent done anything for them #i cannot fathom the concept that someone just wants me because its me #its literally just not possible why would anyone fo that for me

[echo-s-land]

It's insane how most of the time I don't get how ppl interact and I also Don't Fucking Care

#vent ig #i wish i could #but unfortunately i havent had the occasion of sharing one of my interest with you in the past three months and when i did it didnt go as i #wanted and now we're supposed to talk through smalltalks except i dont know how to do those so im awkward as hell and unconsciously cut the #short and now im being hated (?) even tho that wasnt my intent #but i guess no matter how trustful i am i just look like a liar #and i cant even bring myself to care bc how am i supposed to explain myself when youre convinced what i say is a lie #we werent even supposed to be this close so sorry if im stiff. i tried to get along but i just cant #the never ending circle between 'i want to have ppl to interact with being alone to experience this world is exhausting and dreadful' and #'im not even remotely interested by any of you' #its different on tumblr bc i can curate my own experience & nobody comes @ me when i dont interact with them for days or weeks (BC IVE GOT #NOTHING TO SAY) and its okay and its normal and we dont have to do the 'hi how are you wyd' script every single time (sure we can check up #on each other once in a while but it doesnt become a script. it feels genuine.) #anyway. im so normal. i can def care about ppl that have never been as insane as me about something we both love(d at some point) #am pretty sure i developed 'i perceived you saying/thinking One(1) bad thing about me and now i dont care at all about your existence' as #a child as a coping mechanism but goddammit i feel like an asshole everytime it happened #i hate feeling apathetic #and i hate lying too so i cant just say shit to reassure them when i dont mean them #cant tell them im sorry about how my behavior is perceived when im so damn tired and would rather they disappear of my life

[dailydragoncookies]

todays dragon cookie is: have you no pride?!

#dailydragoncookies #cookie run #pitaya dragon cookie #ananas dragon cookie #lotus dragon cookie #lychee dragon cookie #longan dragon cookie #had technical difficulties posting this one lol #ALSO ive had a headache for two days straight i took medicine but it keeps coming back so #i'd do an edit. like a shitty lil edit. but im so fucking tired lol #if you have requests you can send me an ask btw. if i refuse dont take it personally just might not be comfortable

[needylittlegirl]

theres a 99% chance we’re gonna move so i have to start packing little things now cause it makes the transition easier but i hate it i dont want to

#i know i sound like am immature little kid just pouting and stomping my foot #but i’ve had to move every two years since i was like 14 for so many different reasons #each place ive moved to just got increasingly worse so i think i have the right to pout like a 14 yr old girl #but its just dumb #if i start taking stuff down now itll make it easier to leave cause it wont feel like my space by then #its what ive always done #if i pack weeks ahead of time it just feels like im leaving a hotel or something #but right nows the hard part #im not even over my childhood home/s #i cant talk about those without crying and its been 20 years #i’d just like to stay in one place for awhile #we wont be going far cause me and my sister both have jobs right here but #its still different #im tired of seeing my stuff in boxes im tired of not feeling safe in my own space #it all just makes me so unstable cause i cant plant my roots anywhere #idk maybe its stupid #if everything goes according to plan #we’ll probably be moving a little after memorial day #and all i want to do is lock my door and refuse to let anyone do anything #im still just that little girl that was leaving her childhood bedroom and moving hours away #tbd #i didnt even get to skate today cause its raining #whatever im gonna get in bed and watch movies til i can go to sleep #if ive been bad at responding to msgs or not posting as much . this is why 👍 #any sort of change like this makes me isolate myself like crazyy