#i just got really really unlucky

[tricoufamily]

once again thinking about how easy it would be for me to be in a relationship if i was cis

#cis woman cis man either way #dude in the neighborhood has a crush on me telling me i'm beautiful like 'thanks! i will go home and cry now' #i fucking hate being trans i wish i wasn't lol #and sometimes i feel like i can't talk about this anywhere bc in a lot of trans spaces it's like. taboo? to express anything but positivity #as if me being honest about how i feel about myself is somehow how i feel about every single trans person jesus christ but whatever whateve #like listen peace and love but i need you to do me a favor and promise me you will not come at me with any 'transness should be about joy' #i know you mean well i know you're right. but transness for me /is/ pain and sorrow. that's all it's ever caused me my entire life #you have to remember that i'm from rural appalachian tennessee with a transphobic family #some of the most deeply rooted self hating repression for years just for. more honest self hatred #i've never admitted this before but i've considered detransitioning and repressing because of transphobia many times #i'm not brave i'm not strong i'm not trying to make some grand statement or be the voice of a generation. i just want to Be. you know #i just got really really unlucky #but i can't repress. i know that would be even more miserable so i'm just. trapped. forever #who i want to be forever out of reach like tantalus or something i don't know #i want to be loved #or maybe i should just watch the batman again

[unreal-sundogs]

#art #doodle #artwork #alan becker #alan becker fanart #ava victim #animation vs animator #song lyrics #song: when i was done dying by dan deacon #i was actually gonna do the last verses but changed my mind falf way thru lol #(⁠・⁠o⁠・⁠) #ava fanart #victim fanart #look #i think hes very cool ok #its probably the evil thing #idk where i can fit this so ill just say it here #hc that the names of the hollowheads are what gives them their powers in victims case he got nerfed #like really bad #not only is he unlucky he is also so fucking fragile #alan is not beating the nepotism allegations #artists on tumblr

[asktidethegastrodon]

Tide: Listen. I know not everyone can enjoy children or even really like them. I can respect people who don't enjoy children. Tide: But to choose a job that involves being around children? To be a TEACHER when you ACTIVELY dislike children? THAT is wrong, no matter how you slice it. Tide: That isn't me assuming either, she is constantly saying how she dislikes children to everyone. The other teachers shrug it off but.. it bothers me deeply... Tide: Maybe I could forgive it if she kept it to herself. Dislike children but still be decent around them, maybe I could forgive that.. But that's not how she is. Tide sighs and looks down at the ground as they continue to walk along the path. Carrot, who had crawled into her purse for the moment, stares at her from the bag with a anxious expression. Wanting to ease her nerves but not sure what to say Tide's expression gets somewhat serious Tide: Not everyone is meant to be a teacher. If you don't have the slightest passion for teaching or even any interest in it... if you don't like children... if you are going to treat children poorly... Then you shouldn't be a teacher. Tide: I'm sure she would be better suited for another job out there. But I don't think she should be a teacher.. I've seen her classes and those kids never look.. happy.. Tide sighs once more, looking mildly ashamed of herself Tide: I don't... enjoy speaking badly of people most of the time but she just... Really gets under my skin. I don't want to be the kind of person who speaks ill of others but.. Tide gives a small pathetic smile, the shame still able to be seen in her expression Tide: She really bothers me as a person. Even if she hasn't.. actively done anything to me. If that makes sense? - - - - - [ @ask-pokecats ] [ Akemi, the 5th grade teacher, has been added to the NPC list ]

#chrono #Tide #ask-pokecats #Carrot #sfw #we all had this teacher as a kid I feel like. that or I just got really unlucky with teachers lmaOO #gastrodon #meowscarada #pokemon ask #pokemon ask blog #Akemi #smoking #swampert

[moeblob]

sorry for ocs two days in a row have some babies from an adult's life time ago (aka 2005 I believe? is when I made them?)

#my characters #this plot was literally too many characters and so it basically become multiple plots #based on who it was the focus but it was all one cohesive .... mess. p much. #and if anyone cares the top two with black eyes are two thirds of triplets and technically very much side characters #the other one that i didnt even draw is part of the more main group lmao #and then the blonde girl judging the pink haired girls comment has a crush on the triplet i didnt draw but she scares him rip #white haired guy on the bottom who got threatened is honestly one of the funniest concepts i have imo #hes just a guy BUT hes also unlucky through life and so he walks into a fortune teller shop one day hoping to stop being unlucky #but when hes there he accidentally knocks a crystal ball on the floor that wasnt being used but was on display #and oops it had five souls in it and now they need a home so they take his body and can take control of it when they want #so hes got himself and five others trying to control his body which is really funny to me #he doesnt even HAVE a super power or strength like the others in the cast hes just a dude hosting five other souls its fine

[singsweetmelodies]

what a race from charles

#charles leclerc #las vegas gp 2023 #''oh but he didn't win!'' <- true; but a) he got unlucky with the safety car and b) he truly drove just such a STUNNING race #that overtake on checo... BEAUTIFUL. and the one on max too!! charles is just such an AMAZING racer he really is #AAAAAAAHHHHHHH #and don't forget that this is in a car that still doesn't really suit his driving style... #i hope that everyone who's disparaged him this season has had their mouths properly SHUT after that race #because honestly just wow... WHAT racecraft 🙏🙏❤️ #i've said it before and i'll say it again #GIVE THIS BOY A CAR #give him a car that's capable of fighting for the championship and then let's talk again #AAAAAAAHHHHHHH what a race though

[todayisafridaynight]

sister saw me wearing the puffer that i use for my daigo cosplay since im cold all the time and sweaters arent enough and she was just like 'i really like it :) you look so. 👊💥' and after going What she was like 'you look real cool :) is what i meant :)' like thank you sister of mine youre too silly for this life

#snap chats #like she punched the air and made a punch sound effect fwrjflkjle #i mean she is not. WRONG with miming that about this jacket so 💀💀💀💀 #also funny im wearing my own cross necklace and a black shirt and pants. lmao #also yeah i have two puffers- one's meant for the rain and REALLY cold weather and the second one's just. Casual/Daigo #'why are you like this' cause the other puffer's way too buiky fr casual wear and daigo and the interior isn't black like his is #this one's more slim and has a black interior. which is so funny cause when i was looking for a puffer for daigo years ago #it was impossible finding such a thing specifically but i got bored and decided to look again recently and i found it on the first page #for like. three cents basically too fejLRKjELj so thats cool. cant wait to show it off at animenyc #no im actually so excited bout animenyc ... hopefully i can actually. attend a meetup unlike last time 💀 #i also didnt get to go last year so itll be fun going to a con again .. #im just stoked in general bout the small-but-meaningful-edits-to-me ive done to the whole look #s'gonna be fun .. AND im gonna try tweaking my mine one too since i got compelled to do That with all the mine talk lately #idk when id show that one off if ever. UNLUCKY that i hate taking pics of myself no one ever gets to see my cosplays unless its video form #ok im done rambling i have some stuff to do before i take an exam bye

[queerstudiesnatural]

seeing teenage gays out and about, holding hands and laughing and everything is SO healing. each new sighting puts a new bandaid on my inner queer child

#when i was in middle school gay was still a widely accepted slur and i didn't know a single out queer #when i was in high school i was in a privileged environment in the sense that it was a multicultural school that really put the emphasis #on tolerance #so i wasn't bullied for being queer but i was so terrified of it anyway that it took me ages to come out to myself #because my whole life i'd been taught (and by taught i mean no one talked about it but that was the underlying message) #that gay wasn't okay and that it was something that only happened to very few unlucky people #when i got my first crush on a girl (it took me months to even acknowledge that i liked her) i remember thinking #why me #i was already disabled and i was like why do i keep drawing the short straw #why do these things that only happen to some people here and there keep happening to me #now i know that being queer is a blessing but back then i felt cursed #and discussions of gender were non existent i wasn't even thinking about that #so anyway. it just warms my heart so much that only 10-15 years later kids in middle school and high school are able to express themselves #freely #and be joyful and carefree in their queerness #it makes me so emotional #rain.stuff

[comradekatara]

ok smth that's always bothered me abt this scene is that if zuko had the time to do all that katara had the time to run out of the way. he simply had to take the most impulsive, dramatic route as per usual

#he was rly just like 'i need to take this lightning to parallel aang! for thematic cohesion!! the narrative demands it!!!!' #id in alt text #zuko #'its an act of love' doesnt make it NOT an act of stupidity ! #thats how zuko loves: by being stupid #and frankly hes stupid even for ppl he doesnt love #rmr when he tried to save zhao from the ocean spirit? #now why did he do that? #no self preservation instincts whatsoever #and yet somehow he thinks he's unlucky #beloved u should be dead one million times over by now #clearly la fortuna is in ur favor #also sidenote but why did zuko think azula knew that he could redirect lightning? did he really think ozai would admit to azula that he #got one upped by his limp wristed good for nothing traitor son?? lmfao #unfortunately zuko is so myopic he simply thinks everyone lives inside his head at all times and shares his exact perspective #lmao thats why he and katara are besties!!!

[bowithoutadaemon]

Maybe some other Palia player here knows if this is a bug or if I am just incredibly unlucky.

I now found the Jolly Ormuu rug 4 times and still don't have the recipe. Like, sure I don't plan on using a whole bunch of that rug. But I still want the recipe, ya know? For completion.

Is it a bug? Should I have gotten the recipe when I first got that rug? Or is it only a chance to get the recipe when you randomly get the item from the daily pile?

#Palia #palia mmo #palia game #It seems unlikely that I got lucky with all the other ones and got the recipe on the first try #but haven't gotten lucky enough in any of the 4 times I picked up this one #But I don't wanna write to support about this if this is actually just me being unlucky. I bet they get enough emails already xD #But also I really want to mentally mark this event as completed. So I can just look forward to the update #instead of the feeling I got now which is ''Oh no what if I don't get to finish the event?''

[byanyan]

aaaand tonight i'm thinking about how byan was originally meant to be this irredeemable little shitbag who was a problem just to be a problem... but now they're a lot more sympathetic and much more just this traumatized kid who's been done so dirty their whole life. like, they're still not a great person or anything, but it's a lot more out of necessity than actual nature...

#don't get me wrong; there's always been this underlying theme of them being shaped by their surroundings and unlucky situation in life #but once I stuck them into a modern setting and adapted them to it they just naturally became a little more tragic? #their backstory was always rough but idk man it took a turn somewhere to them not being as bad as they actually try to make themself seem #they're still a shithead they're still nasty but they've got more redeeming qualities and potential than they used to I guess #but I suppose that's also just the nature of developing a character over time 🤔 #there's a good chance they'd have ended up similarly even if I hadn't changed their main setting once I got deeper into their background #IDK whatever the case they've come a long way and I really love the way they've developed #and a lot of that will always be thanks to those of u who have allowed me to torment ur muses with my beastie 💜 #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[beautifel]

seems like my heart does nothing but break lately

#oh my god dont read the tags. it breaks for everyone :( but on a more personal level #for my gf whos sinking deeper into something n i cant even help bc im a wreck myself but i am so so scared to lose her #still havent even been able to book a psych appointment n i rlly dont know where to go with all these ..em*tions #Guys i rlly dont understand one thing. how come one random freak whos in ur life at some point can derail a whole person like eons later #jeopardise their whole future just by crossing some lines for funz i really dont understand this #not fair not fair at all this is evil #and becasue u got unlucky someone wanted to be disgusting u have to carry the consequences #i rly still cant even say it i still cant even write it #i dont even know how . irl the only perosn i told in some capacity #is dealing with her own trauma and i hate that jsut being understanding is not enoughlike #Wow Lmao Its just Funny How it Shapes You. & U Can Never bury it forever becuz it will always catch up to you😂😂😂😂😂😂 #AND THE PAST CAN NEVER BE ERASED 😃😃😁😁😂😂😂🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔪🔪 #at least my gf has been taking steps to deal with it for.3 yrs and i just never even #LOL i feel like such a coward but the sh*me and the g**lt associated with the Thing..r so overwhelming i cant even admit it #what would i even do at the psych appointment like straight up what am i gonna say Lol #hai iam here to process something i dont actually remember probably becasue i was a child but imnot sure. n id rather #kms than tell u how i know 😂. So thats also why my heart breaks. for that little girl who was a ball of shame i guess and no matter #how much i cognitively.like rationally know its not my fault the ball of shame n guilt is still there #n it swallows me every time i vaguely start 2 think about acknowledging the Th*ng #or whatever. And thats just my end of the deal but my gf has it worse genuinely bc she remembers everything n still has to see the freak #n it went on for yrs n her family doesnt know n heres the worst thing hes a beloved family member a sweet boy with struggles of his own #well i hope he walks into traffic for doing what he did to her

[braceletofteeth]

Congratulations to Never Let Me Go for being the second drama to get the highest rating from me this year. Currently preparing my mind and body to be insufferable about it forever.

#haha! sike! I've actually already started- #(list of things I did BEFORE finishing NLMG tonight: #1. downloaded the episodes to cherish and protect in case the downfall of internet is tomorrow/other disasters #2. bought a replica of Nueng's necklace for the price of two croissants in the not-very-legal market #3. included a shot from the series in a special gifset #4. had heated mental arguments with the people making negative comments about it #5. .......... considered giving FUTS another chance out of gratitude to PP (not sure yet but just the fact that I gave it a THOUGHT-)) #// #well now that being said #I'm kinda disappointed there are only 2 new dramas in the annual list that got the ''I will definitely rewatch this'' badge #last year there were 3 BLs alone. not even counting OTHER genres!!! and in 2023 I watched many MORE dramas!!! what is this!!!!!! #was I unlucky. was I going after the wrong stuff. I keep thinking about that. #but there were also a good number of dramas that got the ''I might rewatch this'' badge #and even the ones I didn't really enjoy were important to give me perspective/parameter #so... no time was wasted. and I was doing what I like to do? so I guess it's ok...

[liebelesbe]

hyping myself up to go buy eggs!!!!

#I don't even have to talk to anyone unless I'm really unlucky!! #it's just. a shelf in someone's yard & I just have to put the money in a box #but that's also the scary part bc you can't see the shelf from the street and have to walk into the yard #without a way to be really sure you're in the right yard #bc they don't have a sign up saying they're selling eggs 😑 #doddie redet #I'm can do this!!! Seriously I'm got this!!

[vox-off]

brandon and i have been saving up since the set announcement to get three boxes of thunder junction boosters - one to open and two to draft out of while we wait for bloomburrow - and i gotta say, the sheer number of duplicates we pulled was a big disappointment

i mostly stopped seeing new cards after the third pack i opened; there was an occasional new card but 99% were repeats, even the prosperity post frame cards. from pack 4 onwards, it was pretty much the same 50 cards in a random rotation. we have - and i'm not kidding, we counted - over 15 copies of most cards we opened

we drafted half of the second box, then stopped and just opened the remaining packs. it felt like we were drafting the same decks over and over again, it was getting monotonous. we still have one box left and neither of us is particularly excited to open it; it's probably just going to be the same 50 cards again

#voxbox #mtg #magic the gathering #outlaws of thunder junction #i hope bloomburrow isn't also like this #i feel so bad for brandon he was SO excited for thunder junction #he stopped mid game after our fourth draft and said he'd rather just open the rest of the packs. all the drafted decks felt the same #this boy loves drafting. that was a condemnation #maybe we just got unlucky for two straight boxes. maybe the third box will redeem our thunder junction experience #but if i'm being honest i'm not hopeful #it normally takes us about an hour to get through a box. thunder junction took us about 30 minutes #takes a lot less time when you don't have to really read the cards past pack 4

[bmpmp3]

the epic highs and lows of trying to read an ongoing shounen manga

#for me it uh. tends to have more epic lows than epic highs. im very unlucky with shounen #occasionally a few years after something i start reading it'll turn out to be good #but any time i follow something from the beginning it starts getting. worse #is it me? am i doing this? dont tell me to read your favourite shounen i'll turn it bad #did i ever mention that one manga. the moon is beautiful but first die #a mouthful of a title. it started kinda goofy but i really adored the main character for some reason #im still a bit attached to him. he cleans so well that he got the magic power to see real good. and now he can matrix bullet time #hes just like me for reeeeeeeaaaal hflkanjvdkfljfds but yeah that manga was. weird but fun BUT THEN #it got so wack you guys you dont understand. the first like one or two volumes? fun #everything else? god knows JHKFDJFDK i still read it all tho. i was invested in my guy with seeing real good powers #and im sorry to say. unfortunately it seems. a certain manga with a big tv adaptation that is pronounced oh she no co #my curse. its started. although that ones very much a epic high and epic low situation like itll be so so wack one minute #and suddenly get good again and then plummet back down HFKJDSBHJds we will see how it goes on #i started getting annoyed with the writing after the stageplay arc because they kept like. time skipping over so much #which i thought was a bit of a waste because there was a lot of interesting potential in a lot of the showbiz storylines. but we shall see #thats not shounen tho thats seinen but my curse applies to some seinen too LOL but most seinen i read is already finished #and shoujosei is spared from my curse. i think just because most i have the opportunity to read in english just tends to not #be drawn out or have weird scheduling things messing with the pacing. are there any weekly shoujosei magazines out there #i dont think weekly manga is good. for a lot of reasons mostly the mangakas health but also i find more weekly stuff i read #that isnt like. 4koma stuff suffers in its pacing a LOT. but again that might be my curse. the second i lay my eyes on it. the curse #(sorry ive been catching up on a lot of manga recently LOL ur getting my manga thoughts now)

[hillbilly---man]

Making fanart makes me feel so powerful

Like yes, I will make the executive decision to give this character crooked teeth for no reason! She doesn't have freckles in canon? Well now she does!! Where'd that scar come from? Don't worry about it!!

#the drawback is that sometimes these things are difficult to draw. but it's worth it #(though tbh i will say that giving Suzumiya Hii a scar is not really out of left field knowing her character lol) #i just hope the crooked teeth read as 'naturally crooked' instead of 'her unlucky ass got her teeth fucked up accidentally'