#i hope she dies.

[rottingcompost]

the fact that at this point i dont even feel depressed or scared or anxious whenever i get reminded of my abuser and i instead get angry and start thinking and sometimes even saying the most venomous shit about her and wishing death on her. shes not really in my life much at all anymore but it still pisses me off and i still have to see her occassionally and at this point i feel like next time she tries to come to my apartment i wont even let her in and tell her to play in traffic or something.

#ramblings #i just realized while typing this since i wonder why she showed up in my thoughts again this week #her birthday is today #i hope she dies. #genuinely im so angry that i ever had to share my life with her #and im still angry that she still is the tumor on my family that is ruining it #genuinely it would be so much better for pretty much all of us if she died #i have wanted to make fun of her to friends lately but tbh only like. two or three of my friends even know her enough to understand my ange #and even then i dont think it would be very fair to them to basically go on an insane rant about my abuser because im mad #i should get my anger out in some other way #vent #it fucking sucks too because her sister and her mother are extremely sweet and i honestly kinda like being around them #how the hell did she turn out to be such a vile and terrible creature when her sister and mom are absolutely amazing #also doesnt make it much better when she talks shit about her sister and makes her out to be evil when like???? #shes actually a nice person unlike you!!!!

[notablepirate]

Love that Kipperlilly is getting her plans ruined by a cleric that did defy death to return to her party :^)

#dimension 20 #kipperlilly copperkettle #lucy frostblade #dimension 20 spoilers #i love her as an antagonist and also hope she hasn't known a second of peace since Lucy died #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year

[alienstage]

everytime i see that pink haired bitch from csm i get so mad

#🍀 #i hate her. i hate her. #whatsh er name like makima #i hope she dies.

[loneleeghost]

ok so... i have this headcanon...

#ghoulcy #ghoulcy fanart #fallout #fallout fanart #fallout prime #fanart #my art #cooper howard #lucy maclean #the ghoul #vaultghoul #vaultghoul fanart #cooper x lucy #lucy x cooper #cooper’s first love looked like lucy #she’d write him letters when he was a marine #and when he’d come home they’d go out dancing #but it ended obviously :( #I imagine she died or something #but! she reincarnates 👀 #so maybe they’ll dance again🥰 #I’m delusional #I hope you’re happy #no but seriously...can someone write a reincarnation fic please and ty

[somewhereincairparavel]

a little thought to ruin your day: After Piper broke up with Jason, he had to deal with his heartache all by himself, isolated in a mortal boarding school with nobody to comfort him. No family. No friends.

#I hope your day is ruined #bc mine is #This man gives me a heartache it's not even funny anymore. Like it's just one after the other for him tumbling down. #I can imagine Jason looking out the windowsill all sad :( omgg #He loved piper so much :( #He basically died for her even after they became exes #I just wanna wrap him in a fluffy blanket #It's kinda hard for me to not resent Piper for this sorry. #I mean #I'm glad she didnt cheat on him or smth and just broke up w him to not play w his feelings #But yeah. Still pretty upset. They'd been dating for a year at that point. So Jason must've had it pretty bad. #pjo #jason grace #pjo hoo #pjo fandom #percy jackson #pjo series #pjo hoo toa #pjo toa #toa #piper mclean #hazel levesque #leo valdez #annabeth chase #frank zhang

[theveryworstthing]

life has been lifein’ haven’t been posting for a while but hopefully i’ll have stuff to post soon. 

without getting into the full rollercoaster of misery, health problems abound in my loved ones and every year for the last 3 years we’ve lost at least one family member. my gramma Rosezina died on July 1st after 83 years of being A Problem. her funeral was on the 8th during a day so hot that we couldn’t be at the graveside for more than a few minutes, fitting weather for a woman nicknamed Hot for her good looks and spicy temper. i loved her very much, i love her very much, and the emotional strain of everything that came after the Big Stroke fucked me up a little bit.

here’s one of my favorite stories about her, stop me if you’ve heard this one:

my gramma was schizophrenic, a fact i didn’t figure out until i was told by a family member at some time during my preteen or early teen years because the way schizophrenia was depicted on tv or movies was so different from what she was. she was an amazing quilter, gardener, cook, baker (i’ll never have a caramel cake that rivals hers), and general gold star deep country grandmother who was always sweet to me, her first born granddaughter, even when she stopped remembering who i was exactly in her later years. 

also, she never liked being told what to do.

also, also, she hung out with the devil for a while.

she said he’d just show up sometimes, the most beautiful, angelic, enchanting man you ever did see. he’d come to her when she was feeling overwhelmed, upset, or lonely, and offered words of comfort and a gentle listening ear. she had a hard life, and that comfort was very valuable to her even if it was coming from the devil, so over time he became her friend and she trusted him right up until the day he told her to kill her kids and free herself from all the problems constantly weighing her down. 

need i remind you, she did. not. like. being told what to do. (especially when the thing she’s being told to do is murdering her own children)

so of course, she told all her kids to walk up the road to my great gramma’s house, and when they were gone Hot dragged the couch the devil was sitting on outside into the front yard and set it on fire with him sitting on it. 

from what i was told he seemed very irritated but didn’t get up as she stared him down and watched him burn. 

afterwards some other family members put the fire out and she returned to her chores like nothing happened. as far as i know the devil never talked to her again.

and that’s why i grew up knowing that the, ‘the devil made me do it’ defense is some bullshit. if the devil is real he can’t make you do shit. he flounces off if told no (and set on fire) once. 

weak bitch. 

#talkin #grief #family death #i come from a long line of feral forest women who could break you in half and i hope i can keep up this legacy #edit: she died in july not june. my brain is still set to when the stroke happened and i totally missed that i wrote down the wrong date

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

a slightly scribbly Eddie for @akemima's promptlist, day one - cool outfit! well, i don't know if its Cool, but it sure is an outfit!

#mannnnn i forgot jewelry existed... could have slapped on some cute rings or earrings... #i forgor... outfits are not my forte... it shows in my choice of daily clothes as well... #i also didn't realize i didn't give him a full body until i was pretty much done so. No! Oopsies! #drawing eddie continues to be comforting and yet a total pain in the ass! #i love him! i hope he goes Through it! i hope he Dies Traumatically! i say this Every Time! #but yes cute prompt list. excited to do more #slowly though... writers brain perseveres rn... #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #eddie dear #looking directly at the drag prompt. yes please yes please #eddie in drag is everything to me she's so gorgeous. augh. ough #i must find the perfect Dress...

[airoarts]

Leader and deputy

[Image description: a digital painting of Squirrelstar and Ivypool from Warriors. Squirrelstar is a small dark red cat with green eyes, standing in front of the much taller Ivypool, a gray tabby-and-white cat with blue eyes and many battle scars. The background is dark blue. end ID]

#i havent read a new wc book in years (They are not very good) but have been keeping up with The Happenings recently cause its fun #when was the last time there was a female leader+deputy? leopardstar and mistyfoot??????? #anyway so happy forthem i hope they dont both die immediately #warriors #warrior cats #wc #squirrelstar #squirrelflight #ivypool #art #2023 #I have actually been doodling a ton of cat designs like in classes in the last couple months lol #havent posted them because theyre just Designs and so many people post those all the time but if i get one (1) ask about it i can post them #also just have not felt like posting art recently even though ive been doing it. LOL #worried about squirrelstar cause um. i know cat ages have been generally increasing but she is older than her dad was when he died #if wc wiki ages are to be believed #her husband just retired to be an old man and she took his job #well whatever... i dont even read the books... i dont care... tch #ALSO EDITED CAUSE I REALIZED I PUT HER WHITE PAW ON THE WRONG SIDE #the first few rbs will have the wrong version but whatever. its fine. its fine

[puppyeared]

personal character design headcanons + brainrot

Note: the re-bound!au does NOT belong to me, it belongs to @chipper-smol I’m just not normal about it lol

#I SAY PERSONAL BC ITS MY OWN SPIN ON IT. NOT CHIPPERS CANON UNLESS THEY DECIDE TO OR NOT YOU HEAR ME /LH #I made a banner and everything this time. PLWEASE send them your questions not me JAJFHDSF #I thought it would be cool if macaque has two separate forms as a shadow and inside a mindscape. like I wanted his shadow form to reflect #him in his prime and then the mindscape form as what he looked like when he died. or a more vulnerable state at least #based on LBD appearing to MK as the ivory lady when she died in the S3 special. I don’t know exactly what it was but my first thought seein #the white void was she was appearing to MK in his mindscape to talk to him. so I built on that #I wanted to give him a more ‘Smokey’ look as a shadow just based on how he manipulates them in the show like in shadow play. I hope this #makes it look cool and immaterial. and then his mindscape form would be more battered up and tangible #the last couple images are chippers ideas though since they said the monkeys are drawn to MK when macaque is possessing him lol #and the fact that macaque doesn’t have any senses unless he’s possessing someone + literally sniffing out wukong in the scroll 🤨📸 #I also have a vivid image of macaque moving from the mindscape to physical form like umm. kind of like when he passes the boundary between #physical and spirit/mind(?) it’s like the shadow covers him like ink. or pulling Saran Wrap over your face and it clings to your skin #so it kind of makes the shadow seem like a sort of shell or covering.. and I love the idea of MK meeting macaque in the mindscape for the #first time too. like the moment mac rescues him from LBD and MK sees him all battered and tired looking brooooooo #I’m not even sure if that would count as a mindscape but it rattles around in my brain like loose marbles #god I fucking love this au. gives me imagination fuel swear to god #my art #doodles #lmk #Lego Monkie kid #Monkie kid #lmk au #re-bound!au #rebound au #lmk sun wukong #lmk swk #lmk macaque #lmk six eared macaque #lmk mk #lmk xiaotian

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Call that a Cave Story.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen chao #wang lingjiao #mianmian #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #I had to cut the comic with JC 'holding WWX back from fighting the Wen Assholes' but it is with me in spirit. #It reads (to me) a little bit like JC is scared of Core Melting Hand and wants to have an excuse to hold on to WWX for comfort. #As far as I can recall they are around 15-17 in this arc. #And a guy who can rip out your golden core? The thing we know JC truly puts so much weight upon that he feels meaningless without it? #Yeah that's pretty terrifying. I hope WWX hugs back (he will not) #I have a lot more thoughts on Wang Lingjiao and Mianmian but I will keep them for later. #WLJ is a character I feel got done a little dirty because she has a ton of interesting potential that gets pushed aside for Mean Villainess #Let's be fully honest. Wen Chao and Wang Lingjiao are *THE* characters the Protag of one of those 'Reincarnated as the villain!' stories #Set up to be assholes to the main character and meeting a horrible end in retribution. #Do you think MXTX thought about that? How Wen Chao is basically the original Shen QiugQiu? #Who's going to be the brave soul who writes A transmigrator in wen chao's body (accidently makes wwx fall in love with him) story? #Though If we are going with “any mxtx character sho dies transmigrates to another book” WHO is the transmigrator? #Hear me out. I think it should be Original Liu Qingge. I think he and wwx would make a funny duo and I want to see it so bad. #AND the contrast of womanizer Wen Chao VS 'What is a woman' LQG.

[dykesevika]

simple background/environment practice with Sevika <3

Men DNI

#i don’t know if I’ll ever finish it #I’ve just been thinking a lot about retired cowboy/farmer sev #oh to be a small baby cow sleeping on the lap of a muscular lesbian #I tried posting this like 2 times already lets hope it’ll work this time #when she inevitably dies in like 6 months im stealing her she’s mine now #she’s my oc and I’ll take good care of her #I’ll make sure she lives happy and stress free #sevika #arcane #my art

[haunted-xander]

That's a roundabout way of asking "is it okay to be trans" Xion

#xions supernatural transgenderism is so important like genuinely #like she was specifically designed with a teenage boy in mind #to absorb his memories & stuff #and like yeah the intended explaination for her being a girl is probably bc of her primarily absorbing soras memories of kairi #but also. those are memories from SORAS perspective so 🤨 #also i think its frankly impressive that xions newly forming heart ended up female despite her groeing up in an enviourment of 90% guys #the only other woman here is larxene and she fucks off to CO and dies almost immediately after xions joins #anyway thats not the point the POINT IS i love her and i hope she gets to feel comfortable in her own skin as herself going forward #xion #axel #lea #kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts 3 #kh #kh3 #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art

[kr1osz]

I'm sorry but ppl have been DEFENDING ALEXIS!? Like people have been genuinely upset at Sam for calling her a bitch???? I'm sorry but who in their right mind could defend Alexis turning Sam AFTER HE SAID NO? HE TOLD HER TO STOP! HE WAS PUSHING HER OFF HIM UNTIL SHE FORCED HIM TO OPEN HIS EYES AND TRANCED HIM

Y'all are fucking insane for excusing Alexis' actions because "she's hot.", Sam had all the right in the world to call her a bitch and honestly he could've (and should've) called her worse because she is.

She assaulted Sam. End of story. AND she's not even sorry, she said it herself!! Now I'd get if y'all we're mad at Sam for calling her a bitch after she tried to apologize and if she was actually sorry and trying to make up for her actions but she wasn't, and I doubt she ever will.

Y'all have taken pretty privilege way too far.

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #redactedverse #redacted sam #redacted alexis #yall are insane #in the worst way #alexis solaire #sam collins #i hope she dies #rant post #first post

[bonefall]

The fandom making fun of a character for disabilities reminds me of when people made aus where Rainflower became disabled as “karma” for how she treated Crookedstar. If the character is “messed up” enough some people in the fandom will have no problem with treating them as if they deserve to be disabled as if it’s a punishment.

The leftism LEAVING people's bodies when they think that a person deserves to become disabled as a punishment. The leftism being downright EXORCISED from people's bodies when they can frame a baby being born disabled as a consequence for the sins of their parents.

#I'm not kidding I am actually fucking fuming #The writing team makes a silly goof about a common tortie fur pattern and the fandom goes into ableism withdrawls #''shes a chimera bc shes so inbred i hope she dies of complications'' what if I remove ur 3rd dimension and feed u through a shredder #INCREDIBLE how fast this fandom turns to ableism in the absence of it #mooncourse

[arlene-needs-a-break]

need friends who will listen to me vent about homicidal thoughts without reporting me or thinking I'm actually insane

#columbine 1999 #dylan columbine #truecrimecommunity #eric and dylan #eric columbine #tcc fandom #tccblr #tcc tumblr #tcc columbine #rebandvodka #ventblr #vent blog #vent post #vent #homicidal ideation #i hope she dies #homicidal thoughts #homicidal tendencies #i hate her #im sick of her #i hate this #988twt #988blr

[murdermitties]

And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks, and I Saw your mom she forgot that I existed and It's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas And I'll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have, but I did not lose

Stick Season - Noah Kahan

#mothwing #leafpool #mothpool #mothwing x leafpool #warrior cats #wc #apparently i have a thing for tragic lesbians #these two and daisy and squilf too #stick season by noah kahan lives rent fucking free in my head as a mothpool song #what if your wife died and you had to hear about it second hand #and you dont believe in god so you can never see her ghost as she sadly follows you wishing you'd look back at her #i know I KNOW thats not how starclan works in the books BUT I DO NOT CARE #tragedy is my bread and butter when it comes to these two #what if you haunted only the places where you and your wife went on dates and met up #but she's always somewhere else and you never guess the right location and you dont hear her talk to the air hoping youd hear her