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mcrmadness · 1 year

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I tried to google about spring tiredness (in Finnish), why is every article about being burnout and related to work, and not about the phenomenon itself??? Like, I just wanted to know if spring tiredness as a term (well it's one in Finnish at least) means excessive tiredness in general and whether it has something to do with seasons etc. or not, but everything is about "this is why you might be tired at work during spring" - NOT WHAT I WAS ASKING ABOUT???

This is more like a chronic jetlag. I know it takes time for a body and brain to get used to the changes of a sleeping schedule, but I also know my own circadian rhythm is not normal. My sleep phase is delayed, and my day has more than 24 hours in it. I would say 30h is closer to the amount of hours in my inner clock.

But at this point this is getting ridiculous. It feels like my inner clock would be partially broken and only has 12 hours now. It's not the first time this has happened, but it's hella annoying when it feels like my body does not stop producing melatonin at all. It's like having melatonin high 24/7, my whole body is shaky and my muscles feel SO WEAK because of that. And I know I'm not sick or anything like that, because this is how I feel when I have stayed up for 24 hours too, and this time I haven't.

This is now the third day in a row. I have slept at night, I wake up around 8am, I become really tired at 10am, afternoon is the worst, just wanna have a nad at 5pm and then can't wait for it to be late enough so that I can go to sleep because if I go to bed too early, then I will wake up even earlier and will be even sleepier and drowsier the next day.

I woke up after 8am today and I have been awake for 2 hours and I already feel so exhausted. I haven't even eaten any breakfast yet and I still feel like I'm ready to go to bed cos I just want to sleep. I SLEPT FOR OVER 8 HOURS WHY IS MY BRAIN LIKE THIS. Besides, it was MY BODY that woke up. It could have very well kept sleeping for a couple of hours more but no. Just had to wake itself up and be like "oh it's morning :)" and now it's getting sunny outside and I'm getting so much more tired it's insane. I affects my ability to even do things cos my whole body feels so annoying and I can't focus on anything because of the sensory things. Even tho that might be also the key, and it might help me wake up physically if I actually went for a walk or something instead of sitting in front of the pc the whole day doing nothing cos I feel too exhausted.

But yeah, this is my normal. This is what happens with my if I can't follow my circadian rhythm, and some times my brain does this thing especially in the spring where it just randomly clicks and follows the majority's normal circadian rhythm which doesn't fit my body at all. I keep being told you can get used to it and you can learn to get used to waking up in the mornings. No I cannot. I have done that, I have been in schools and had to wake up to those early on for YEARS because my schools started at 8am, I have had a job that started before 8am. My current school starts at 9am. I am able to distract myself from the feels of tiredness with work, especially physical work, but if I keep sitting in one place, I just get so tired. I was always so exhausted at school and even in vocational schools I have had to fight against my body's urge to fall asleep in class. It usually doesn't matter if I have slept enough hours, it's just that I'm forced to wake up earlier than what would be natural for me. It's like if someone with the normal rhythm was waken up at 2am to go to work/school at 4am. I bet they'd get drowsy too eventually.

My own normal circadian rhythm would be to sleep from 2-4am to 10-11am. If I wake up at 11am, I won't get nearly as tired as I get now that my body has kept waking me up between 7-8am after I've gone to sleep between midnight and 2am.

Hopefully it gets better today if I manage to shower after breakfast and then manage to leave the house.

#mcrmadness venting #funny how I always keep venting on Tumblr about me being tired every time this happens #also I've noticed that having 'normal' sleeping schedule always affects negatively my moods #I was trying to maintain one in last autumn because of school etc. and I've never had so much anxiety and intrusive thoughts than then #the second I started staying up at nights again - also my moods got better

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the-great-ladyg · 4 months

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Just some vent and apology under the cut

Sorry to anyone who has sent asks and I haven't answered any, this past weeks or month has been hard, specially this last week. I've had finals at school, plus things are getting shittier everyday at work like sending me to places that take me one hour to go and more to come back home, one of my co-workers was fired and now we have less people for everyday's schedule and I may not rest this Sunday because HR is a shit fuck department that doesn't plan ahead and likes to shit on everyone while not accepting a mistake from anyone, even though I had plans to go out with some friends I haven't seen in months since I started working.

I don't know if I'm burning out myself just to have my own cash before finally getting the job I truly wanted, but I just sometimes don't know how much I can take before I finally snap and end up doing something stupid at work that could get me fired or just decide to not come back and drop it.

I feel so mentally tired everyday, I lay to rest at 7-8 pm and wake up at 0-1 am and sometimes I'm not hungry at all, I feel like I want to cry at the end of everyday if I don't end up dropping the job, and the only thing that keeps me going during the day is, if not acting like an automatic machine, daydreaming of my F/Os, imagining scenarios, scenes for my fics or like they just come to my job to see me. And in the night I just feel angry because I want to answer asks or write but I just get back to sleep, wake up late to eat the bare minimum and go back to sleep before another day starts and it's just the same routine. I expected to have more time to do anything after finishing school, but it seems like it's even worse, I don't have time or motivation when I'm so tired and so done with shit everyday.

It doesn't help I feel paranoid about my actions everyday, I feel like I have to carefully count every cent or anyone that's missing will come from my pocket, and I'm so fucking tired of having to be careful of every step I take, of having to act like a fucking stalker with customers or having to force them to tell me if they need anything or my bosses will tell me "I'm not that good at customer service", like if they knew people want to have employees over them and not be free to see products and ask for help if they need it.

#vent post #tw vent #I'm just tired so so so tired

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harrysmimi · 2 years

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Slip Of Tongue

Synopsis: One where Harry accidentally breaks the news he decided to keep to himself.

A/N: hi, I am very new to Tumblr. I have never posted any of my fanfics/ one shots on here. Most of my work is up on my Wattpad. I am pretty nervous to post ngl. I hope you like this one. And if you have requests please feel free to reach out! :)

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Harry was the most luckiest person to ever walk on the face of this planet, he thought.

Why wouldn't he be? He was father of the most gorgeous girlie now!

Marlowe Lively Styles-YLN was born four months ago and already have brought so much happiness with her and she continues to do so. She was more of a Mummy's baby though, well, Harry likes to think it's because her mum gives her milk every two hours or so, he would never admit that he is jealous that he isn't the favourite the parent.

Harry had disappeared completely for six months after his last tour with his third album, and his two movie premieres. He was home with his girlfriend, being the most amazing boyfriend that he is he got home just two months before the due date.

Harry, or even YN, haven't had a good night's sleep in last five months. But Harry wouldn't want to change it for anything.

He always wondered how parents did it having new borns and even having multiple kids. It felt like everything came to him naturally. He would wake up every morning at her feeding and diaper change time even when it's not his turn to do that. He liked to be by YN's side, he really know that what she is going through is a lot than he is though his struggles weren't any less, YN just had extra toll on her. She had to have an emergency c-section as Marlowe was too big and heavy for her to be able to physically push the baby out.

Harry could never be more grateful for his girlfriend for doing that!

It was today Marlowe turned four months old, it felt like he held her just yesterday for the first time. The love he had for his own tiny human he have got in his arms was just undescribable!

Everyday the little girlie looked slightly different to him. By now he'd notice she's gotten chunkier, which is a very good thing, she looks like a very perfect mixture of him and her Mummy. Marlowe had her Mummy's eyes but had his eye colour, she had mum's ear whilst she have his dimples. She have mum's nose and his lips. She had his blonde hair but the silky hair fell straight on her head like her Mummy. She was just the most perfect thing ever happened to him.

"You're four months old today!" Harry cheered changing her onsie which she puked on just a minute ago. She kicked her legs excited to hear whatever her dad have to say, "yeah, you're a big girl now!" He crooned.

"Can you not kick? I'm trying to put you in your clothes baby!" He complained but just made her kick her legs with even more force and babble putting her hands in her mouth. "Come on, I know you want your Mummy to change you but he is busy on a call princess. I want you to co-operate with Daddy okay?"

He did not liked to hold her firmly (yet gently) to stop her from moving whilst changing like YN does. She was sort of experienced when it came to babies as she have nieces and nephews of her own who grew up around her. He thought even holding her like she is made of fragile glass is going to hurt her, he chose to struggle for five minutes straight than having to be more firm with her and put her clothes on.

YN was on a business call, but she moved him to aside. Her phone clutched between her shoulder and ear she quickly put her legs through the onsie and zipped it up giving Harry a fist bump.

"Isn't your mum amazing?" He looked at Marlowe with a shocked face, scooping her up in his arms, peppering all over her pretty face.

They were in a hotel room, in Los Angeles. Harry was there to promote his new album and YN there for a business meeting.

He was so proud of his girlfriend for running her own multi million dollar marketing company, though she had some help from her dad. That's how he met her! His management collaborated with her company on marketing of his new lifestyle brand, and he's been head over heels for the girl from the day one!

"Oh my god, Harry you won't believe what just happened!" YN rushed towards him and gave him a kiss on his lips catching him off guard, "you the clients I have been talking about? The agreed to work with us!" She squealed.

"Congratulations lovie, I'm so proud of you!" Harry beamed pulling her into a bear hug, pressing a kiss on her mouth.

"Thank you!" YN smiled, "you heard that too right?" She looked at Marlowe who was already spreading her arms towards her, wanting to be held by her Mum. YN scooped the baby in her arms.

"I'll be with her whilst you're at the meeting yeah? I don't have to go just yet." He told her.

Harry never trusted his daughter with a baby sitter. It was a good thing both of them were home with her always. YN resumed her work but she was working from home, or his mum and sister were always there to look after Marlowe for a few hours if needed. Or if he have to leave he will force Jeffery to hold her whilst he is done with his interview. He was stern on never getting a baby sitter for his daughter even if that meant he have to put his work to pause to be with her, he's read a lot of horror stories online with baby sitters. He was paranoid.

"Okay, it shouldn't take me more than two hours okay?" YN assured him, "thank you."

"You don't have to thank me baby, she's mine too, it's my job to look after her. Best of luck for your meeting!" He smiled placing a kiss on her forehead.

"Yeah." She nodded and looked back at Marlowe, "Mummy will be back in a few hours okay? Be good to your dad."

"She is always good." Harry defended his daughter and she squealed in agreement, "see, she agrees."

"Okay!" YN chuckled passing the baby back to him.

It was very hard for YN to leave her, Marlowe has never been away from either of her parents like this.

But it was made easy on Harry when Marlowe went to sleep for her nap. He did not realised when he fell asleep next to his daughter on his bed he shared with his girls. He was woken up by gibberish noises and slaps on his face by Marlowe.

"Oh hey, did you had a good nap?" He asked pulling her baby closer, in his sleepy daze it took him a second to take her sad, pre-crying face, corners of her lips tugging down as her pretty eyes rounded.

"No, no, no crying." He quickly got up and picked her up, she needed a diaper change this time. "It's okay, we'll change your nappy, okay? You don't have to cry for that baby."

He changed her up real quick, by that time YN was back too. They all headed to rhe sets of Jimmy Fallon show. Harry requested YN to go with him, that meant Marlowe will be there too. He will have them wait backstage in his greenroom.

"You look very handsome in this suit Harry!" YN complimented seeing him all dressed up in his custom Gucci suit.

"Thanks lovie!" He beamed, "what do you think Lolo?" He looked at his daughter giving a spin of his outfit, her opinion mattered to him. She laughed at his silliness, shying away behind her fists. It's been a very good few hours and she was already ready for another nap.

"She'll probably go to sleep now!" Harry said.

"Yeah, looks like it." YN nodded. "What are you going to say if Jimmy ask you where you've been for last six months?"

"I'll just say I was making this Album." He had his excuse ready. He haven't told anyone except his very, very, closest family and friends about him having a baby. It was just the best for her privacy and his girlfriend's privacy. No one even knew he's been in a very happy relationship with someone from past three years. Well, it was known but no one believed it.

He is very serious when he said he likes to keep his life out of work very private. And he really enjoyed it.

There was a knock on the door, "Harry you're up in two minutes." It was Jeffery poking his head in through the door, "don't worry I'm here with them."

"Yeah!" Harry nodded. "I'll be back in few." He told his girls. Giving one last peck to his girlfriend on her mouth and one to his daughter before he headed out.

He was way too nervous for this interview, maybe because it's been half a year he's been back to work. He was even very much nervous for performing his new single as well, and that's what they started filming with. After his performance Harry went to sit on the sofa there.

"Welcome back Harry, how have you been?" Jimmy said.

"Thank you, I've been amazing!" He said excitedly. "How have you been?"

"I've been very good!" Jimmy nodded, "You've been gone for six months, you just came out with a brand new album, what were the reasons behind you disappearing?"

"You have the reason." Harry pointed at his album cover Jimmy was holding.

"You just completely disappeared to make a brand new album in six months, that sounds suspicious to me?" Jimmy said.

"Well, that's the only reason." Harry tried to keep a subtle straight face. It was very hard to do so thinking about his girlfriend and daughter.

"You sure there isn't any other reason?" He asked again.

"Nope!" He shook his head now not even trying to hold back his smile.

Jimmy had added a new segment to his show where he asked his guests questions by their fans. And of course he had a load of questions from Harries and Directioners.

"First question if frim Potato Directioner: what is the show you've recently started watching?" Jimmy asked the first the question.

"Well, I've been watching a lot of Cocomelon recent—" he paused as he has slip of tongue, "I mean The Crown recently. I've started to re-watch it."

"No, no, no you said you've been watching Cocomelon recently and that's a kids show." Jimmy pointed out.

Harry was annoyed by the show actually. Marlowe loved to listen to the show as she doesn't quite understand to be staring at a screen. It was the most annoying cartoon in Harry's opinion but when Marlowe is grumpy it is always and it always have to be Cocomelon show. Even YN was obsessed with it, she still loved to watch cartoons.

"No I didn't." He squealed.

"We have it on tape Harry!" Jimmy laughed proud of catching him off guard. Harry slapped his own face, he fucked up! "What are you hiding Styles?"

"Nothing." He squealed a laugh, he was not helping the situation at all.

Back stage YN and Glenne were laughing their ass off as Jeffery just stood there with a palm on his face, watching Harry on the TV inside.

Harry knew YN wouldn't mind if he shared what he have been upto from past six months. They've talked about it, but Harry always found difficult to announce that he had a baby when he told no one about his relationship.

"I— uhhh..." He started giggling embarrassed of himself, "I became a father exactly four months ago."

"What?" Jimmy screamed.

"Yeah, had a little daughter. Best thing ever." He admitted, "and that's why I've been watching Cocomelon recently. Great show, hundred percent recommend it." He said the last line with sarcasm.

"No way, how did you keep that secret?" Jimmy was very and surprised and shocked, "wait, this is alot to take in. Harry Styles, you are now a father now to a little baby girl?"

"Yeah!" Harry shrugged sheepishly.

"First of all very, very congratulations!" Jimmy gave Harry a quick hug and pat on the back.

"Thank you!" Harry smiled.

"And second, we never knew you were dating anyone!"

"Because I didn't tell anyone." He answered simply, "my missus is actually very private person and that's all I'd want to share." Putting his hands up to end the conversation there, "for now." He added.

"And now we move on to next question." Jimmy respected his decision and moved on with the segment.

After the shoot Harry had brought Jimmy back stage so he can meet his little princess and his girlfriend. Jimmy was a good friend of his and he knew the guy wouldn't do anything to invade his and his family's privacy.

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YN had flew back home a day before with Marlowe. Harry suggested that so he wouldn't get caught by Paparazzi.

When he was back home he had found his girlfriend and daughter on the floor on the play mat. YN laying on her tummy talking to Marlowe encouraging her to try and turn on her side on her own. That's when it hit Harry that she's going to start crawling in matter of couple of months now!

"Hey lovies!" Harry announced.

"Oh look who's here Marlowe!" YN beamed sitting up. "You came early."

"Yeah, got on an early flight. Missed my girls!" He gave YN a forehead kiss and even his princess. She seemed very excited to see him.

"Did you know you broke the internet yesterday with you announcement?" YN teased.

"I didn't!" He gasped.

"You did!" She laughed.

"Oh god! I'm sorry I just couldn't keep it to myself, had a slip of tongue!"

"It's okay Hazza, we can't keep her a secret forever. She's going to grow up, start school, then college, maybe she'd want to follow your footsteps and become a musician. Or maybe—"

"Okay," he interrupted her, "I already don't want her to grow up." He pouted looking at the baby who wasn't giving him shit and was busy playing with her chew toy, intrigued by the bright and pastel colours.

"Awh!" YN cooed, cradling his face in her hands she pressed a tender kiss on his lips.

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His fans' reaction was hilarious. There was hate but it was out numbered by the funny ones.

Harrybeinghoe Remember when we only used to joke that this motherf*cker will get married, and have baby and we wouldn't know? Bro it's not a joke anymore!

Harryshrooms replying Wait... He— he is actually a motherf*cker now ??? 🤧🤯💀

Those were his favourite ones. He was laughing his ass off reading those.

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I loved writing this! *Cries*

#harry styles #fanfic #oneshot #dadrry #fanfiction #harry styles fanfiction #harry styles x reader #harry styles x you

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esterphania · 3 years

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Gling!Gling!Gling!

This sound keeps on resonating through the colony ,I don't know what making them ring the bell at this time of the day ,such an early hour 😔, oh no ! I know why it's been rang it's because today is the day all young mermaid are to come out for the race before hunting activities begin we do this once every month .I just want to sleep 😴 and cover my ears with the pillows but that's impossible since they are going to still check round all the house for us or wait 🤨 is the colony under attack that's why the bell is been rang so that everyone can come out to fight 😕 this makes me shoot my eyes open to start looking for where to hide as I can't fight for my self I can at least look for how to stay alive .

Am not like every other mermaid 🧜🏽‍♀️ am weak ,slow ,I can't make wave or create storms ,etcetera 🤔who even does that here Lol 😂 but still I can't do anything for my self so I should definitely hide before they get here 😰

Mummy,what about mum ,what do I do I can't go out to look for her I'll die before I make it to any where by now my head has started feeling so heavy I couldn't just get the picture of mom been killed right in front of me ,my hands started shaking I could feel the tears threatening to drop from my eyes 😑😭 why does this always have to happen to me .I have been having this anxiety attack and ptsd as well since when I was a kid ,no,no,no,I can't start thinking of this things I have to go get mum I just have to ,I tried moving but couldn't get my feet or body too as I applied more force I felt my strength dissipate and my eye lids close gradually as I accept the darkness that's comes with it .

"Ada ,Ada,Ada, wake up , wake up baby ,you need to go for the race ,darling wake up you are scaring me "I heard my mum say as I gently open my eyes to find my mum looking at me with worry written all over her face ,I could have sworn she had called my name more than 20 times before I woke up ,

"oh mum ,my sweet mum"I say as I hug her in a rush thanking the water Goddess for keeping my mum alive for me

"Ada ,...Adaobi, what's wrong baby are you okay ?." Mum says as she pulls me out of my daze

"yes mum am fine ,I couldn't be more better "I said to my mum mentally cursing my self for worrying her that much then it me ' the race 'am going to be late and that's if I aren't already late I wonder how many hours I was out for shit I cursed again .

"Ada prepare for the race you have twenty minutes to get out of this house and show them how strong you are " mum said knowing fully well that I was so impotent to do that 😓but still she has faith in me

"Alright mum I'll be down in a sec ,you really know I have to stop going since I haven't made any improvement since then "I said with a worried look on my face "but I'll be down soon never mind ,so no if you don't mind can you leave my room so I can get dress up ,thanks " I said as I gave mum a kiss on her cheeks

As soon as mum shut the door behind her I feel to the bed out of exhaustion am so tired of this stuff

FLASHBACK

The coach was asking all of the racers to a queue for more co-ordinance and here I was just staying in a corner as always . Coach is a man in his late forties ,it seems like he was well structured by the water goddess as he has a handsome face for a man his age with prominent jaws ,small pinky lips and attractive dimples many unmarried mermaids often go after him seeing as his wife passed away leaving him and his two children James and Julia martins and ever since then he has refused to get married .

Coach has always been one of the three people who have been nice to me although he shows it more privately than publicly ,according to him people find fault with what ever I do I'm and he won't want them reading meaning into what doesn't have a meaning although I don't care 🤷‍♀️ or maybe I do care but what can I do 😩.

Well as for his race I don't even know what an doing here ,this race takes place every month on the day which there is a storm ,not the very very troubling storms ,just the light ones as we are still young stars ,I always lose the race because I'm slow and can't challenge my self to do anything .All of my pair are better than me ,I'm ten years old now and am still as incapable as a three year old child I just pray he doesn't remember to call me .Just as I am liking my wounds I begin to hear my name from a distance

"Adaobi,come join them for the race "I felt like swearing at myself as I walk to join the others ,I mean who knows that the mind is powerful as well I thought it was just the tongue that's powerful what a mess 😪.i have never won this race before neither have I gotten between the 1st to 15th people who has been wining since I was five ,so I cant definitely win this. I'm just been put here to be the laughingstock of the community again so here I go as coach blows the third whistle ,the race begins and every one has started swimming they are so very fast and I'm still so slow .

The race is to go around the temple of the mermaids and back to the starting points before the time is up every time I pass there it seems like there's more to it although I can't quite figure it out but this time around as I passing the temple something begins to call me ,to draw my attention to check it out ,to open it , to be honest no one has been able to open the doors to the temple talk less of cracking. It was so real right here at the side of the temple As a noise begin to rise its tempo in my hears I recognized it as clattering sounds of plates and dishes and then cries then it starts to make me slow down making me want to pass out there then am sure there was something being said between all of this but I could hear it as I was almost out because of fear ,then before I know it all I begin to hear is run ,run Adaobi run ,of possible fast ways I could think of swimming nothing came through .I just did the only thing I could that was to swim as fast as I possible could to get out of there .

I got to the finishing point where I began seeing people again before my heartbeat subsided and I realize that everyone was looking at me which face of a WOW and question of 'what was pursuing you 'then I turned to the board to find out that I came in as the fifth person in the competition I couldn't believe it ,isn't it I who had never gotten past twenty second in the race is now the fifth .

I was over joyed ,confused but still happy 😆 because then I began to think that I had hope that I wasn't useless at all just then I took a look at my clothes and I think everyone had started seeing it too and started laughing at me.Well at the end even though I passed that day I never passed again which still means that no one recognized me as a winner that month they all still laughed at me .

FLASHBACK OVER

So now since that one time i thought I won till now that I'm eighteen years old I still haven't won at all am still the slowest amongst the set of people am competing with as my pairs have all graduated to another level of train about two years ago but I still continue going on my mother's request and yes if your asking whether the noise continues then I'll be glad to say 'NO big 'NO' but oops who knows what today will bring .

#romance #romantic books #mermaid #love quotes #love #business #trending #underworld #reading #Spotify

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punkscowardschampions · 5 years

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Grace & Janis

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Janis: Your pathetic lack of self-esteem Janis: if I liked you I'd be sad, tragic 😥 Grace: Mine? 👌 Love yourself first, babes Grace: think about the barista if it helps Janis: save that for your private time Janis: keep me out of it though, people'll talk Grace: 🤒 you're such a freak genuinely Janis: 💔 unlucky you'll never know Grace: EW STOP Janis: what a surprise, gracie can't hack it Grace: If you wanna follow in Ri's footsteps, pick a willing family member Janis: yeah, that's me Janis: desperately tryna be like her in every way ⛾ Grace: if you're gonna be all 😍 for my barista you could do worse Grace: least she knows how to flirt Grace: clueless virgin won't get you very far Janis: 'cos desperate slag's done wonders for you Janis: if I needed advice, I wouldn't go to either of you, but at least she has got somewhere Grace: 👌 devastated obvs Janis: everyone can see it Janis: sad face Grace: 😂😂😂 Grace: you've shown yourself up WAY worse with that boy, trust me Janis: Not up to you, gutted Janis: he didn't seem to think so Grace: oh please Janis: nah, no matter how nice you ask Janis: he just ain't feeling you Grace: what's the truth, Jan-Jan, did you talk about me or didn't you? Grace: 🤔🤔 Janis: get a clue, gracie Janis: your details are just as easy to find as mine Janis: easier Grace: like I said, get one yourself first Grace: its as easy to work out we're related, worst luck Janis: you ain't hard to get Janis: just want Grace: says you Grace: can't get through the door for your admirers, can we, babes? Janis: not tryna make it a family affair like you 👌 Grace: not trying Grace: until now, but you went too hard, shame 💔 Janis: surrounding by such great influences Janis: 🤷 what can I do eh Grace: OMG YOU LITERALLY DID NOTHING Grace: 😂😂😂 Grace: I wouldn't be smug if I were you though, girl Grace: Such a cliche & not the first time he's tried it Janis: Who's smug? Janis: Just you sounds of Grace: I'm just trying to warn you Grace: I won't bother next time, bitch Grace: OMG so rude Janis: Don't, like Janis: if you had any idea you wouldn't have all the shit exes you do already so go off Grace: if you had any idea I wouldn't have to Grace: this is so embarrassing Grace: he's gonna make you look even more tragic & I can't pretend I don't know you Janis: nah Janis: i don't let boys do that Janis: your kink, not mine Grace: he already is Grace: flirting with you to get MY attention, hello! Janis: is it comfy in there? Grace: 🙄 Wake up, Janis OMG Grace: he's been flirting with me since he got here Janis: Filling your order isn't foreplay Janis: actually gonna catch a case if you don't calm down Grace: cos you'd know Janis: yeah? Grace: You're making me die Grace: cringe fest Janis: 🤞 Janis: 🎂 wishes coming through at last Grace: focus on that cos he isn't gonna make any happen for you, hun Grace: unless you're hoping to be used by a boy who likes me more Janis: that's what boys are for, right? Janis: 😂 Grace: 🙄 Grace: that's why you like girls more, yeah? 👌 Janis: you're the one constantly surrounded Janis: i wouldn't let one sleep in my bed Grace: cos you're too 😍 Grace: it's okay Janis: love the queerbashing Janis: very in Grace: Excuse you Grace: I am not Janis: Yeah you are Janis: stop being a total cunt just 'cos you're sad Grace: I could care less if you're gay Grace: that's not why I don't like you, babes Janis: Yeah, you're just a bitch, cool Grace: You started it Janis: Where? Janis: I got your coat for you Grace: You know I like him, you're breaking girl code Janis: Well I ain't one of the girls, am I Janis: bit late to include me now 'cos it'd benefit you Grace: you're my sister, that's worse Grace: duh Janis: I think you'll survive Grace: like you care Grace: but I'm the bitch, sure Grace: 🙄🙄🙄🙄 Janis: You're just mad that he doesn't want you, that ain't my fault Grace: Stop saying that OMG Grace: you don't know what you're talking about Janis: well I'm the one who managed to have a conversation with him so I know more than you do Janis: doesn't take a genius, come on Grace: You're calling me stupid now too Grace: So rude Janis: You're being it Janis: you don't need to Janis: plenty of boys, plenty of baristas if that's really your speed Grace: Obvs Grace: I don't want your sloppy seconds, thanks Grace: I respect girl code, if you like him then whatever Janis: Nice to know you respect something Grace: Bitch Janis: 👍 Janis: Pleasure as always Grace: Yeah, I know you love coming for me Grace: no secret, babes Janis: Be nice to think this was all about you, I know Grace: You expect me to believe it's about him? You saw him for the first time today Grace: thanks to me Janis: Don't be stupid Janis: he's in loads of my lessons Janis: as if I could ignore the new boy hype you've all been on Grace: Finally you're admitting it Janis: What? That I'd noticed the change in the furniture? Janis: I'M not an idiot Grace: That you're not immune to a hot boy Grace: It's taken you long enough Janis: 😑 Janis: That's what you're taking away from this Janis: really Grace: I know you want me to take away your life changing advice that I'm the worst but Grace: Like I said, you're a bitch Janis: It's not advice Janis: inspiration to change at best Grace: Whatever 🙄 Janis: too much like hard work Janis: it's alright Grace: Excuse you Grace: I always put work in Grace: unlike your effortless chic you're trying to make happen 🙄 Janis: yeah that's what we're talking about Janis: fashion Janis: jesus Grace: Attitude Grace: and yours does need work, babes Janis: 😂 Janis: Where's your getting you but 2nd in command to a cunt and pied by boys left and right Janis: inspirational, truly Grace: Shut up OMG Grace: you don't like my friends or my exes, I'll get over it Janis: No one does Janis: you deal with the leftovers, don't be pouty no one's jealous Grace: You sound soooooooo bitter 🍋 Janis: 💔 Janis: if you like, babes Janis: have that for free, as you're struggling so much Grace: Just 'cos you love a freebie from barista boy Grace: I'm good, thanks 💋 Janis: If you say it enough Janis: you might believe it Janis: positive thinking, yeah, babes? 👍 Grace: 🙄🙄🙄 Grace: try it for me, yeah, babes? ty Grace: you're gonna need all the help you can get now you've got a boyfriend Janis: Behave Grace: You will enough for the both of us Grace: I give it a couple of days before he's bored Janis: 😂 Janis: so concerned with MY sex life Janis: how long's it been, babes? Grace: the day I talk about mine with you is the day I off myself Grace: it's cringe enough chatting to you about things you think you have a clue on Janis: please Janis: you don't talk about anything else Janis: you've got nothing else Grace: you wish, weirdo Janis: 😂 Janis: awh, your comebacks haven't gotten any better Grace: You don't deserve my best, hun Grace: 😘 Janis: I can't begin to get into how tragic you are Janis: at least Monroe had an honest to God sad backstory and drug habit Janis: sort it out, do us all a favour Grace: I do have you as a sister, that's really tragic Grace: Sadly you won't ever let me help you sort yourself out Janis: You're a mess Janis: you have no business trying to sort anyone, state Grace: 😂😂😂 Grace: sure Jan Janis: Laugh it off babe Grace: I'm trying Grace: But you're not very funny Janis: It's your life Janis: I'm telling you, it's really sad Janis: but you insist otherwise so you deal with it Grace: OMG get over yourself Grace: I'm not here for a counselling session Janis: Thank God Janis: you've not got the self-awareness, I've not got the relevant qualifications to deal with your insanity Janis: disaster Grace: It's called self awareness not 'Janis tells me what I am' Janis: And you get neither Janis: boo hoo Grace: I'll get over it, I'm sure Grace: God, if this is what that boy likes, I'm well out of it Janis: Bold Janis: When have you got over anything bigger than split ends, Gracie Janis: and I ain't trying to chirps you Janis: something you seem to be having a lot of trouble with Grace: We've established my backstory isn't tragic enough, sorry babe Grace: Even with you trying to 💔 Janis: 😂 Trying Janis: that's your game Grace: 🙄🙄 Janis: i'm off Janis: be sure to check your pockets for secret love notes i'm sure he left you Janis: 🤞 Grace: yay Grace: let the door hit you on the way out

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