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threegunbrainrot · 1 year

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yall wolfwood is so silly goofy in the manga

i'm still not all that far in, but compared to both tristamp and '98, he's so expressive and goofy. sociable as hell, too. he's so upfront kind with everyone, so long as they're not hostile.

he's just like. a complete mess of a man that i'm totally digging lol

he's emotional. he's dramatic. he's a brand new flavor of babygirl all on his own- completely unlike every other rendition of him

he's still got his moments of being a serious, brooding figure, but they're kinda rare honestly. more than anything, he's just Chilling. having drinks, striking up conversations, etc.

it's been awhile since i watched 98 trigun, but i remember that iteration of wolfwood being similar, but more serious overall. he still joked around and had this hilarious funky conman energy, but he still doesn't feel as emotional as trimax wolfwood.

and tristamp ww is basically a completely different person. someone who's pretty much always serious, though still has rare moments of... almost sarcastic/forced positivity. when he jokes around, it's always like there's something else behind it- like when he made that jab at elendira or tried to force-feed meryl bug guts lmao. he's still having fun, yeah, but it's all kinda muted.

idk, it's just interesting to see him so expressive- especially after engaging with fanon ww so much and seeing him portrayed as stoic and brooding all the time. and i wanna clarify that i adore all iterations of wolfwood's personality, all for different reasons. it's just interesting to compare them

...tho his loss of melanin is a crime befitting death. his nose, too. they STOLE from him. what did he do to deserve this.

[EDIT] it's also come to my attention thanks to a lovely someone in the tags who pointed out that trimax wasn't finished when 98 was being made. that changes things! glad i know that now.

#trigun #wolfwood #my post #trimax spoilers #trigun spoilers #trigun maximum spoilers #didnt really have a solid Reason to make this post but i'd just been surprised while reading how.... Expressive he was #i watched 98 first so i started with that first dash of the conman charmer #but reading the manga im surprised to find that even that was toned down #and im finding that basically EVERYTHING was toned down in 98 #vash's anger. ww's amicability. the bloodshed. the pain. the brutality. the list goes on forever #we even lost a lot of really cool characters. idk why they got cut #when i first watched tristamp i thought that 98 would stay as my favorite depiction of trigun but i think it's slowly shifting into the #manga instead. its just so much more expressive and in depth both emotionally and in terms of worldbuilding #everything in 98 is so toned down and everything in tristamp is just DIFFERENT #but trimax is so violently full of SOURCE CONTENT. vivid depictions of the demons nightow has in their hellish little brain #i'm obsessed with how all these characters are portrayed so wildly DIFFERENT

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clay-pidgeon · 6 months

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every day i think about feferi peixes

#krill chirps #my stuff #i feel like shes just. shes an Interesting Character to me #despite being not really any sort of focus character #she was the heiress to alternia and disagreed with the condesce thats Inch Resting to me #idk i feel like having her just be some sort of filler character on par with nepeta or equius was a sort of waste of Something #like. worldbuilding i Guess #iirc ah actually like. Mentioned that meenah is so cool and pretty relevant to sort of make up for pisces who got “saddled” with feferi #it just always struck me as odd that even tho she was like the princess and one of the nicest trolls (which is considered odd in alternia)#she barely had any time in the spotlight #ITS JUST. i think the hemospectrum as a Whole is pretty underdeveloped #its a v interesting piece o’ worldbuilding but not super expanded on when you get into specific castes?#BUT ESPECIALLY FUSCHIAS #bc like. it was just a weird move to say hello heres the Princess of this Fucked Up Murder Society and she Doesnt Want To Murder and also #her mom is an eldritch beast #and then just murder the gal #AND THATS NOT EVEN GETTING INTO HER RELATIONSHIP WITH ERIDAN #or the fact that the fandom boils her down to the sweet irrelvant fishpun princess #(classic fandom misogyny moment. btw)#when in canon shes got a MEAN STREAK!#she is RUDE SOMETIMES #stop flattening her fudusudueusifoekfjej #feferi peixes #homestuck #maintagging them bc i put a shit ton of stuff into the notes #look at my words boy #i dont think its wasted potential for feferi specifically as much as it is the Idea of feferi #its not like she got a whole arc that was abandoned #its more like. she Could have had an arc #it just never started. idk. i like feferi shes cool

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pikkish · 3 months

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breaking news: surprising absolutely no one, pik has fallen in love with the fast paced fps game where the big, silent badass of a main character's sole goal is to protect the small, squishy innocents.

#lines i did #roboquest #i love this game its great #the writing is so goofy and i cant quite tell if its intentional or of its bc they dont have an actual writer on their team but eith #either way its simple and silly and i love it #not to mention its very vague and leaves plenty of space for potential worldbuilding...#and the animations range from wonderfully clean and snappy; like the reload animations for each weapon and the enemies movement animations #to 'lets just obscure the boss under esplosion textures and lower it under the floor so we dont actually have to animate it exploding' and #its still hilarious to watch every time #music is DAMN GOOD #gameplay is comparable to modern doom #a little rougher around the edges but hey its an indie studio not a triple a and theyre still working on it #npc designs are DELIGHTFUL. why does the robot wear a fake mustach. why does the robot with a single optic wear a normal pair of goggles.#they have so much character despite none of them uttering a single word ever #except for max i guess; she has dialogue. but shes also Literally The Only Human In The Game so like. she gets a pass.#anyway more of my mutuals should buy it so we can co-op it together.#(mutuals if u buy it let me know id be 100% down to co-op it with u)

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smallblueandloud · 10 months

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on a much brighter note, i'm thinking about trying to write SNW-era spirk and it's difficult to do, because i cannot fathom a spock and kirk who don't already know that the other is very important to them!

like no wonder the 2009 reboots had to have a character who'd seen the old timeline (much less ambassador spock himself). can you imagine the torture of watching spock and kirk interact without knowing? without being aware of the relationship that would define them and their source materials? like goddamn no wonder you need someone to tell both of them to give the other a chance.

i try to think about SNW-era spirk and my brain immediately wants to either expand on 1x10 a quality of mercy or some sort of soulmate au. but even a soulmate au doesn't scratch the itch, because a soulmate au doesn't even manage to communicate to these characters that they will be very important!! and i can't imagine a spirk without the knowledge of their power.

#star trek #snw #spirk #st ideas #otp: have always and will always #sb and l rambles #sb and l is writing #sb and l watches st #i guess this post can be summed up as: i can't imagine spock and kirk without them being the most important person--#--in each other's lives #but i also know down to my soul that neither of them are love-at-first-sight guys (worldbuilding about t'hy'la aside)#ergo. there must have been a time where they looked at each other and saw Just Some Guy #how do you deal with the fact that these two characters sprung into being entwined? that they exist permanently connected?#it's easier to watch spock without kirk (even though he's always a negative space. there is always an empty space in front of him)#(and maybe that's because spock was created before kirk. he existed without him for a little while)#but a kirk without spock is... william shatner. he's the main character of galaxy quest. he loses his depth and people forget his tendernes #i don't know how to resolve this so maybe i'll just write some time travel fic because then i don't have to!

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himehikoshrine · 3 months

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The Central Nation of Kielce - a History

[I/D : Screenshot for Sissia of the Central Nation showing Levi, Adra, and Crowley on the wall. Crowley is saying "Hahaha! How have you been, little wall?! It’s like you’re a part of our origins!"]

Having now read through every route's game script of the Central Nation of Sissia, I figured I'd tried to put together all the Kielce lore across the different routes into one. If you want to read them yourself, you can do so either on the game menu if you've finished the game, or [here]. This will contain details unique to most of the routes, so technically, there are spoilers, but they are discussed entirely within the world of the play. I will edit in a few minor clarifying details with no route plot information from routes as I find them now that I'm going through things with a finer tooth comb. It will spoil some things that are in the stage script only epilogues too, so please read at least one of them before reading this, or you'll be really confused. Two, ideally, especially if the first one you picked was Crowley's.

Don't ask me why a rather big piece of character information, that is kind of a twist, is hidden within epilogues only on the stage script in the menu. We're nearly the full year into Havenna Lore drops, apparently this is just how Neji writes. (And given all the lore hidden in weird bonus material, also how Ishida and Towada write.)

The Nation of Arbine and the Republic of Quatra, which is to its east, were at war for 77 years. Many lives were lost on both sides, and there were plenty of children made orphans in the process. We know little about Quatra before the end of the war, but Levi describes it as having "warmth" and Crowley says it had a very strong culture in the arts, including song and dance. After Arbine wins the war, 20 years before Sissia joins the troupe, Arbine begins calling the 77-year-war the 'War of Joy.'

They force the people of Quatra into servitude, build a wall around the country, and mark them with a tattoo of a horse on their shin. The hostility gets so bad in the upper military ranks of Arbine, that they begin calling Quatra "the nameless country" or "the nameless servant country." The culture of Quatra is stamped out within the nation, possibly beyond simply forcing everyone into labor for the sake of Arbine, and anyone in Arbine who even discusses it with anything but scorn is suspected of treason.

Arbine is ruled by its "commander and king" (always said together like that) who has the surname "Arbine" like the nation he rules. His top advisor, confidant and strategist is Major Azur Hybird. The military elite make up the aristocracy of Arbine, and their positions are expected to be passed down.

Arbine is a strict military state, with border patrols and street patrols in addition to a standing military that citizens are quite acquainted with. They are able to freely interrogate and detain anyone, but murder seems to be considered a crime in Arbine, regardless of the nationality of the person killed, even, seemingly, for low ranking patrol officers. (We only have Crowley's potentially joking word here, though). The high ranks can order and carry out death sentences sans trial of any kind, of course.

The military aristocracy is also the high society of Arbine, and they attend parties and engage with what they consider 'high culture' including national dances - Arbine does have a national dance troupe.

Arbine's language is called "Arbine". It appears to be different than the language of Quatra or at least a different dialect, though one suspects they have some degree of mutual intelligibility. Carlo says the further east one goes in Arbine, the simpler the pronunciation of its language gets. Accents are shared to some extent in the border region, as well as words. Carlo says Arbine has 'a certain roundness' and that the first letter of Carlo is pronounced 'more elegantly' than Sissia's accent usually does.

Carlo illustrates the linguistic drift with the word Kielce - which is the Arbine term for Circus, a word used in Quatra. Carlo says no one but a historian or a suspected traitor would know that word these days, so maybe once it was also used in Arbine, or maybe a historian would merely be more familiar with the arts from Quatra.

So, 20 years ago, the war ends. As for the future members of Kielce at this time, Chance, at least, wasn't born yet.

Levi Caineman, who was born to Arbine parents, was orphaned by the war and was taken in across the then-wall-less border when he traveled there in search of food. Once the war ended, he was taken into an orphanage on the Arbine side of the wall, while his foster mother, a Quatra, was left behind it.

At some point, Levi will meet Crowley. Crowley is, though it's unclear who knows this but him, an illegitimate son of the 'commander and king' of Arbine, so his full name is, in fact, Crowley Arbine. It's never explicitly stated in the play if Crowley creates Kielce as a troupe or not, or the origin of its name "The Central Nation of--" but in the practice dialogue it is confirmed that Crowley and Levi are the founding members of the troupe.

As for when it was founded, Crowley considers the first Border Performance, which takes place ten years before the present of the play, and thus ten years after the end of the war "part of our origins." It is likely the name, too, partially a form of protest. Given the troupe's founders - an openly avowed revolutionary with a personal connection to the throne, and a fascination with Quatran arts, and an Arbine boy raised for a time by a Quatran foster mother, I'm sure this was very much part of their motivations.

Crowley is, after all, enthusiastically a traitor. (He maintains everyone in Kielce knows this, and no ones statements fully discredit that assertion in other routes. No one ever quite says the first performance WASN'T an act of rebellion or treason.)

Crowley says he's the one who brought Levi in and raised him up to be ringleader. At some point, Kielce, including Crowley and Levi, ends up performing at a party for military aristocrats. How this happened or how it went down, we don't know, other than apparently everyone was thoroughly amused. At this point, they aren't suspected of anything treasonous, but are considered 'low' entertainment.

In attendance is Major Azur Hybird's son, Adra Hybird. At this point, Adra has already been dancing for most of his life. It is unclear how old he is. But he decides that this is the kind of dancing he wants to do. He leaves the life of a Military Aristocrats son behind and runs away to join the circus -- Kielce.

(It is not implied Adra is younger than the other two - on Levi's route, Adra remarks that Levi has grown into quite the man, which, if anything, implies Adra may be a bit older than Levi.)

By the time of the first Border Performance, which is ten years before the present, Adra is a well established member of the troupe, enough that he is involved with choosing to do it. He seems to be one of the senior members in the troupe.

Fan Carlo Albus, on the other hand, is a newcomer to the troupe ten years ago. It seems she joined enough after Adra that she's talked about as another sort of 'generation' - when talking about Kielce's style being a talent showcase, Crowley says its more pronounced now that Carlo and Chance have joined.

Carlo watches the border performance from the side, not on the wall. Also watching that day is Isaac Bazmaz, an Arbine child from the border region who lives near the wall. He is watching with a friend of his. On Isaac's route this friend is explicitly Sissia, a girl from Quatra who he met through a crack in the wall. Isaac talks about the wall as having always been near his house, suggesting that he is under 20 years old, or at least, not much older. Chance Orlando, as stated, is under 20. He doesn't watch the border performance, but hears rumors about it as a kid in Arbine that later inspire him to join.

Crowley is one of the leads in the performance, which he also wrote. This is, to him, intentionally an act of rebellion and revolution. The fact that it doesn't overthrow the nation makes it kind of a failure in his book. Adra says his motivation is sort of to stick it to the military aristocracy and their backwards ideas, both about Quatra and discrimination and their authority and control in general. Adra is also quite annoyed at their elitism. Levi doesn't give an explicit reason for it the first time, but when asking to do it again, he mentions love of theater and love of freedom as absolute principles he leads Kielce by. One imagines his foster mother on the other side is a motivation, as well.

The performance is seen as treasonous and puts the entire troupe on a watch list. According to Major Azur, the 'commander and king' of Arbine has pushed to imprison everyone in the troupe since that day. (It is completely unclear if either the Major or even the 'commander and king' himself have any idea who Crowley is.) Every member who was around at the time tells Sissia that it was quite the controversy and ordeal, and caused a lot of trouble.

Isaac makes a promise to his friend to one day stand on the wall with Kielce together. Sissia, watching from the Quatra side, is already being forced into labor, despite seemingly being a child. Sissia dreams of one day standing on that stage, too. Both Isaac and Sissia will eventually follow that dream to Kielce.

It seems that despite the displeasure of the ruling elite, Kielce continues to operate and have many fans. Their popularity is seen both as a threat, and, one assumes, a bit protective, as it's quite clear that Arbine is aware of the precarity of it's absolute control.

Adra notes that even members of the military attend the shows. Not all the fans share their ideals, of course, and will report things to the authorities.

Kielce has a standing theater within Arbine, but their base seems to keep a very 'traveling circus' aesthetic. It is possible they are both a traveling company and one with a home base. It's unclear when this was built.

Chance and Isaac are recruited the same day by Crowley. Isaac says that if it weren't for Kielce, he'd 'still be working at a factory'. They are still considered relative newbies by Carlo by the time Sissia is recruited, but they seem to have been around long enough to be pretty established as staples of the troupe.

#sissia of the central nation #jack jeanne #jack jeanne meta #lore hunting #kielce #i told you i have kielce brain rot #yeah the characters are based on quartz and its a love letter to quartz but its not slacking on the worldbuilding or messaging #like the characters may feel less inspired since they're taken from their actors but damn if this play doesn't have a MESSAGE and LORE #if we get an isaac character poem for sou's next birthday i will be digging a grave #i have so many more thoughts to share but lets get the history down first #so many. thoughts.

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lovesickeros · 1 year

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Darling: you hate me, it's written all over your face

Reader's resting b*tch face: what?

darling says it just to annoy you lbr. bc no matter how bad your resting bitch face is, the tsaritsa's is worse. darling has had years to learn how to discern the tsaritsa's mood when shes as reactive as a statue.

#asks #pale-value #sagau #tsaritsa #darling #in the tsaritsa's defense it isnt intentional shes just Like That. shes only expressive when she wants to be unnerving #bc whats scarier then blank faced tsaritsa staring you down? tsaritsa smiling. start counting bc you have seconds left #its like 99% body language and its all extremely subtle though. its an art form atp #80% of that body language btw is her ears. its why she hides them bc they give it away so EASILY.#reader being as stone faced is a challenge to darling though. like oh worm??? bet #darling thrives off chaos bc its the only entertainment they get when ur literally g-d #especially if you do not give a shit abt them being the creator. it just makes everything Worse #they r keeping you in a container like a lab rat #also unrelated but im fully taking over darling sorry comrade. my oc now /j #ive been having brainrots abt worldbuilding w darling. they arent even an unreleased character like tsaritsa. im going 2 eat a brick #WHAT WORLD AM I BUILDING HERE. MY OWN PERSONAL HELL?????????#yes. i am. thanks for coming 2 my ted talk gn

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soldier-poet-king · 1 year

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Whoever told me to read the lumatere books bc it's for qt fans all those years ago. U were correct. Like. It's NOT nearly as good (nothing can be) but also I'm insane for it??? It's first glance extremely simplistic fantasy book (and at times it is!) But it's also this awful gutwrenching look at refugees in Diaspora, intergenerational trauma, ruthless but broken women, misplaced GUILT COMPLEXES, sad dads, how children are the hope of the future and how older generations will suffer so much so their children can maybe have a home, sibling sacrifices and the dead haunting the narrative, about acting like the person you could have been rather than the person you are, about doing something complete unforgivable because you were never told better and were raised as an animal and then trying to choose differently because maybe beauty does exist in the world

And it deals with heavy shit without ever glorifying it or being explicit or relishing the horrors of war and diaspora and slavery and what becomes of people, esp of women and children, in these situations

Like. It's not groundbreaking astounding prose OR plotting and I'm quite blegh about the worldbuilding but smthn about the themes has me chewing at the drywall

#ALSO THE LINE ABT DIVINE FATE #and it is exactly qt #if i am a pawn of the gods it is only bc they know me so well #the lumatere worldbuilding is thin and the magic stuff is dumb and not thought out #and yet i am COMPELLED by the grief and burdens of these characters #evanjalins grief and ruthlessness and her hope #finnikins guilt and determination to duty above all because of it #trevanions love for his SON ;-;#froi. horrible terrible froi. who didnt even have a name beyond boy. who was an animal told to take what he wanted #who attempts this unforgivable HORRIBLE DESPICABLE act.#and blessedly he is stopped. and yet. he finds beauty. or its potential #i know hes the protag of bk2 #and we're being challenged. because hes awful. and yet hes so pitiful #sir topher says not to rage at him but pity him. like an animal needing to be put down #ughhh #fran reads

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ohwormwoodlore · 3 months

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Introducing: Sanguine

Sanguine has been sitting on the back-burner for a while now, but since I started this account I decided that it was probably the best way to start off!

The idea at the center of this all is looking at the trope of vampirism in a different light. Not just humanizing it, which has definitely been done before, but extrapolating upon the actual effects of vampirism as a whole through the lense of modern medicine. When I first had this idea, I kind of toyed with it for a bit, then forgot about it. When I found it again, I proceeded to spend an entire day researching so that I could create an in-depth document that outlines symptoms, causes, and transmission.

That being said, trigger warning! Lots of blood related talk and medical topics, since I know some people are sensitive to that.

To better summarize over four pages of writing, vampirism, formally known in this story as called the Sanguis Endogenus Retrovirus, is a blood-transmitted disease, like malaria or Hepatitis B/C. However, its usually spread through animal hosts. Within nonhuman animals, it's functionally inert, but when the virus finds itself in the bloodstream of a human host, it begins to make copies of itself and insert them into the hosts' genome, causing mutations. Some key aspects are that the human host is essentially mutated to spread the virus, whether they wish to or not:

The salivary glands produce even more copies of the virus, as well as draculin, the anticoagulant (blood thinner) found in the saliva of real life vampire bats

Teeth undergo a process similar to tooth growth in shark, and are able to be replicated if lost

Muscle mass increased, though through the same chemical process seen in muscular hypertrophy (the overgrowth of muscles)

The immune system becomes even tankier, as the virus attacks any other foreign bodies to maintain control

The eye changes to be able to see more UV light than average

On one hand, a lot of these seem like they'd buff an infected person, but the "pros" (if you can even call them that) are significantly dimmed when you take into account the cons:

A lot of traits consistent with sickle-cell anemia like fatigue, dizzy spells, weakness, and paling of the skin become chronic

The stomach, kidneys, and bladder all mutate, making the host unable to consume plant matter (aka become an obligate carnivore), while still being able to survive the resulting increase in protein and iron

Eyesight in daylight grows increasingly more sensitive, to the point of migraines

Skin blisters in any kind of UV light, and takes even longer to heal than average burns

Can cause effects like coughing up blood and frequent nosebleeds, which can lead to further exacerbation of the anemic traits mentioned before

The glands that produce adrenaline begin to work overtime, alongside the amygdala, which controls survival instincts and causes extremely heightened levels of anxiety and paranoia

The body requires much more sleep than before, up to 18 hours a day as a means to compensate for the energy needed to sustain the body and the virus

Overall, it becomes something of a very aggressive chronic disease rather than the Twilight sparkly vampires or demon-like Nosferatu equivalents. And because it's remains dormant when inside of animals, its hard to predict or contain the disease. However, the upside is that it is incredibly rare yet fast-progressing, meaning that "damage control" is often able to be conducted early on.

By "damage control", I mean the general detainment and capture of people who have contracted vampirism and the overall proliferation of an intercontinental conspiracy to suppress the existence of the disease from the public.

So, like with everything, the government(s) are in on it. And they're not afraid to commit crimes against humanity to keep the social order in check.

This brings in the Seward Institute, a medical research and technology company that specializes in blood-related diseases, developing treatments and medical technology, all while beneath the surface performing (wildy unethical) government-funded studies on individuals infected with vampirism.

Because of their massive global influence, medical technology (and the medical field overall) have gained an even higher status, and STEM research within colleges has increased tenfold. Seward hands out internships to those who seem promising, and this is exactly where we find one of the main characters of the actual story behind this project.

But that's for another day :)

I gotta keep some kind of other content to show you guys for later. Can't reveal all the secrets at the very start!

I'll keep on posting more as we go, so tune in!

#worldbuilding #characters #sci fi worldbuilding #vampires #vampirism #psst... if you got down here i have a secret #this is secretly... a midwestern horror project #you'll see in a bit

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planet4546b · 4 months

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i love writing signoise i love writing signoisiiiiiiiise i love that this format change means i can just start publishing things that have insane incomprehensible plot significance i love layers i love theme i love allegory i love being obvious i love sitting in front of a google doc with the face from that one poison comic i love allusion i love inspiration im jumping around saying YAY YIPPEEEEEE

#pers #literally jumping up and down clapping writing this excerptttt oh my gosh. you have no idea #MY CREATURE AND SHE LOVES ME <3 #idk im planning on soon sitting down and mapping out how all of the side stories overlap and interconnect #but im ok wtih writing pieces of them now and then going back and changing things later if i need #and HOLY. SHIT. THIS IS FUN #like i was already enjoying working on the website bc ive loved doing these side short stories even when they were JUST for worldbuilding #but now that they can be world AND character AND plot im like. my brain is running so fast rn. HAVING FUN!!!

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camifornilla · 2 years

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Blue Exorcist got its anime adaption too early and that’s a damn shame. iirc they started making the anime while the manga was less than like 5 volumes in so they wound up overtaking the manga almost immediately. Like the last like 6 arcs of the manga have been incredible and it sucks that that’s not gonna be introduced to a wider public.

I wish that Blue Exorcist could get the same treatment that other shonen manga get but I also think that it serves as a reminder for anime creators to just stop a season when they run out of material.

#Ao No Exorcist #Blue Exorcist #the entire cast of this series has been EATING for the last several arcs #but especially Yukio and Rin thanks to that freshly finished Journey To The Past arc #I hope they remember to return to this series at some point #because the art and the story are so frickin good #I’d say FMA meets My Hero when it comes to worldbuilding and time devoted to building multiple characters #like Kazue Kato has whole ass character sheets for all the types of monsters coming out of the woodwork #I hope her efforts are recognized #edit: I take back what I said about My Hero cuz the character building and arcs have severely slowed down in recent years #it’s just the Bakugo Todoroki Midoriya show now #getting no follow up for all of these other characters that exist and could potentially have rich stories #but we aren’t gonna get to them at all

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dandyshucks · 1 month

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me making myself a fae in the worldbuild: :D

me when i realize im going to have to somehow mix my own personal way of speaking with the fae speech styles: .... D:

#its not actually all that bad though fdsjkl #its just a bit of a puzzle #the way i talk normally does not mix well w the fae etiquette rules buuut it also doesnt have to be perfect #because 1) nobody knows these rules except for me (one friend knows a little bit but not all of it fsjkl) and 2) Dandy is an outcast LOL #so theyre gonna be a little weird compared to the other fae #speaking of. i need to figure out which of my five billion notebooks has all the fae etiquette notes written in it so i can refresh myself #on all the intricacies and rules fhdskl. hm. im gonna have to do some digging to find that RIP #i think i typed out a digital copy last year at some point though (just in case i lost the notebook which... seems possible rn HFSDJKL)#ANYWAYS YAYYY I LOVE WORLDBUILDING I LOVE CHARACTER DESIGN I LOVE CHARACTER VOICES AND SPEECH PATTERNS #but also OUGH they are so difficult to nail down sometimes #dandy.cmd

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mejomonster · 3 months

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Coming up with ideas for writing 💜💜💜

Actually writing ;-;

#rant #ToT #upside is i have solved some lore loopholes which. if u know me u know how rare i actually didnt alreayd have way too much worldbuilding #decided on. but finally nailed down a bit of worldbuilding i was foggy on.#also i am SO hype for magic to come into the story #downside: i have 40k words to write before i get to be writing that part ;-;#also? idk if yall are like this. but like whatever i Actually write always comes out significantly different than The Plan #like. fact: i have every single major scene in my summary to write.#reality: at least 70% of those scenes will likely be different than the summary once i actually write them out.#leading to possible new avenues ill utilize vause they work better/more theme cohesive/more in character #so like. i love my summary abd im clinging to it for dear life #but also terrified in the knowledge reality will be way more complex #like. i wrote this week what SHOULDVE been a simple scene #but upon actually making it. the characters chemistry was so AMPED up i feel i pretty much need Some relationship development in the scene #even tho i didnt plan that in my summary. but even if irs just AWARENESS OF LUST these bitches are dripping chemistry #also the scene turned out way fucking funnier than i planned. so like. to not fully utilize the comedic execution would be #throwing a gift away.#so im now stuck tryjng to Add Onto the intended summarized scene. since i didnt plan #to write 1 an almost kiss/desire to kiss 2 embarassment the likes of which only this dork couldve created for himself

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angorwhosebabyisthis · 1 year

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five's character suddenly makes a lot more sense when you look at it as a metaphor for a kid indoctrinated into an abusive evangelical church, who has been convinced that hell is real.

[longpost, talk of religious abuse--mainly the evangelical christian variety--after the cut.]

he's convinced that everyone who doesn't comply with the church's rules will go there; that leaving won't save you, because hell will be waiting for you in the end; and that everyone who claims to believe differently is lying and knows better, they're just pretending they don't because they don't like the idea of acknowledging authority in the time they have before hell catches up to them. and as much as he's been taught to be self-righteous and unsympathetic about people who '''choose''' hell, in practice he's the kid who goes around trying to have the 'so have you accepted jesus into your heart' speech with everyone he even remotely cares about, and won't back off about it even though it goes over Absolutely Fucking Terribly and he's being an asshole, because if he doesn't get them to convert when (he thinks) there's any chance they might have done so they will go to hell and it will be his fault.

and like, this adds a lot of layers to his hatred of nine and what he thinks (and in some ways is correct 🙃) that he stands for. but one of the big ones is that as far as he's concerned, nine can and will snipe people to send them to hell out of spite for converting to save themselves. one of the things that made him hate him so much--decide he Needs and Deserves to Die--is that he was told sandor made the decision to comply with the mogs because it was the Smart Thing to Do... and that nine punished him for it by murdering him brutally. and that given half the chance nine would do it to him.

for all he's been indoctrinated to value Having Power Over Other People and Deserving It Because You're Special, at heart five has major just world fallacy going on because he desperately wants to believe that everyone can be safe, and happy, and understand each other. that all that needs to happen for them to have that is to make the right choice. he doesn't actually believe the mogs are inherently Superior; he thinks they have the same fair shot as everyone else and that the only difference is that they will take that shot, and are honest that they're doing so.

whereas what is one of the other big things he hates nine for? the one that fills him with so much rage he has to stop reading about him? the idea that nine is inherently superior to him and the others, and deserves a better life, regardless of any choice they ever could have made.

he's told that the elders saved nine for last because he was strongest, and that the earlier numbers were cannon fodder because they were weak. he's told that he and the lower numbers were forced into hiding, made to suffer, to buy nine a little more time. and he's told that in the event he managed to survive that far, he would be nine's inferior--his servant--because he's a lower number.

five talks about how he's superior and deserves to rule everyone else because he has 'potential,' but it's not about how powerful he is because of his legacies; it's that he thinks he's willing to make the right choice. he thinks the idea of treating someone like they don't have a right to that choice because they're inherently worth less than others is absolutely fucking repugnant. and where the mogs get him is by twisting his idea of what constitutes Everyone Being Happy so far that they convince him their cause, which is doing exactly what he hates most, is the one that's fair.

add onto that that he's terrified of the idea that you can in fact just be completely fucked no matter what choices you make, and just gets more and more invested in coping via denial the clearer it becomes that he is the one who is utterly royally fucked no matter what he does, and... well, you get some real unfortunate end results to say the least. but like, that's where he's coming from.

so to wrap this back around to the evangelism metaphor: if you believe what five believes, the idea of someone being willing and able to do what nine does by sending someone to hell regardless of their own choice would be Existentially Horrifying to begin with! but it also goes against one of five's deepest core beliefs, both reasonable and Unfortunate Coping with Trauma. and when you pile that on top of the immense suffering he's gone through over it, the result is going to be visceral burning hatred.

anyway this post is already Long and i've got a lot more thoughts in me about it, but suffice it to say five absolutely is a metaphor for evangelical trauma, and how victims get weaponized into extensions of their church's abuse. and it's an evangelical survivor's nightmare, because the version of hell he's been taught to base his entire worldview around fearing is objectively real. 🥲

(the real smoking gun here? not only is the Great Book a really obvious analogy for the bible, but the name is a retcon. what was it called before that, while he's evangelizing about it no less?)

(the Good Book.)

(welp.)

#lorien legacies #LL number five #LL number nine #LL sandor #LL tag #cws in post #looking back at the characters and parts of the worldbuilding i got most invested in back in the day i am seeing a Pattern #and that pattern is called It's Religious Trauma All the Way Down #on both an individual and community level #the mogadorians and five /could/ have been a really good raw painful narrative about the grief; ugliness; and difficulty holding onto hope #for the culture you grew up in and the people who escaped it and the people who haven't and the people you couldn't help #and for the people who never wanted any part of it to begin with and are having to suffer for your community's systemic upfuck #it's why rereads have left me increasingly soured on adam; and made me appreciate rex more despite his own moral dubiousness #i thought adam represented grief and hope for the culture and community that traumatized you while refusing to go back to them #and instead he represented violent dehumanizing fuck-you-got-mine hatred and victim-blaming for Every Other Victim #instead of 'i recognize that the work of engaging with the community to help the victims inside of it is important and worthwhile'#'but i cannot be the one to do it because i cannot and will not have that community in my life anymore; therefore i will focus my efforts #on helping and protecting people who are targeted by the community from the outside when internal damage control isn't enough'#his narrative was to pull the ladder up after him; then torture every other survivor for the rest of their existence to atone for their sin #which...... hmmmmm....... sounds familiar..............#whereas rex represents being able and willing to go back into the burning building as many times as he needs to #because there are children in there #anyway. subject for another post #dyn: lost boys #dyn: but i'm helping you anyway

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