#i had hoped to be more productive

[acrossthealternateuniverse]

Hello everyone!

Okay so my semester starts on Tuesday, so I’m gonna go ahead and close the inbox. It will remain closed for the duration of the semester (which is 15 weeks if you want to mark your calendars) and then I’ll open it back up again once I’m back on break.

While I’m in school, I can’t promise regular posting but I can promise that I’ll write as much as I can whenever I have free time (I’m also taking a creative writing class this semester and the last time I took cw it really helped me to write more so I’m optimistic it’ll have that effect again).

Thank you so much to everyone whose submitted new requests over the past few weeks!

#i had hoped to be more productive #but my injury caused me a lot more emotional stress than i anticipated #and it’s really hard for me to write when i’m not in a good state of mind #regardless #we’ll see how the next few weeks go #admin post

[canisalbus]

✦ 2023 summary of art ✦

#CanisAlbus #art #artists on tumblr #own art #own characters #yea you can sort of tell when this train got derailed #there's pre and post Vasco 2023 #the good thing is I've been more productive this year than in past 5+ years combined #haven't had this much fun drawing in ages I hope it shows at least in some way or another #unless something really drastic happens I'll probably continue along this trajectory for a while #I might reach a saturation point eventually but there's no way of knowing when that'll happen #so I'm just going to try to make the most of this intense and self-indulgent oc art period #your feedback and support mean a lot to me I hope this year will be as good as 23 #thank you for bearing with me #the missing month is March I didn't post a single thing in March #cw blood #blood #cw gore #gore #cw head injury #head injury

[magnapanther]

FINISHED WORK?? on MY page??? it's far less likely than you'd think. and yet, somehow, here we are. :D

(well, finished enough to post and call "done", i should say. i may yet meddle with some details when i inevitably notice ten more flaws immediately after posting :D)

good old moss knight, such a devout follower of big slug. surely no wandering knight would ever end such a noble creature's life before he had the chance to speak with a certain fellow at a nearby bench! :D

this was essentially just me testing the waters with digital after some time avoiding it, and especially colours/lighting. it's been a while since i actually tried to make something fully fleshed out like this. i don't know, i feel like it could have come out worse :)

#inktober #inktober 2023 #art #artists on tumblr #my art #digital art #krita #hollow knight #moss knight #greenpath #lake of unn #stuff i'm actually somewhat proud of #!! incoherent jumble of words incoming !! #this took entirely too long to finish. i am officially burnt out for the time being and will be returning to a slower rate of production :) #so yeah. gonna be likely stopping inktober here for the year D: #seriously each day was just getting more and more stressful. and i have not been happy with the last few days. so today's the finale! :D #and i can no longer allocate 1-2 hours per day to come up with something different while balancing everything else going on right now :/ #it sucks to have to say that but i'm still glad i made it most of the way. this was my first inktober and i definitely was not ready. #but i had a ton of fun with it!! just need to slow down a bit. for my own sake :) #thus concludes my lengthy tags rambling. i put a lot into this project! (even though i know it's not great) i hope you like it :) #thank you for indulging my scattered and incoherent stream of consciousness. now i'm done rambling for good this time :D

[recurring-polynya]

howl, zabimaru

bonus: here it is in two other colorways

#zabimaru #my fanart #is this...folk art? #this is a birthday present for renji because srsly who wouldn't want a linocut of their own bankai? #happy birthday renji! #i think this was more process than product but i had a pretty good time making it #sorry i couldn't decide between the colors so you get all of them #this is so awful but the purple version is actually based on RENJI'S STUPID TOQUE FROM ROLLING STAR #or at least at made it at the time that i was trying to color-correct that screenshot #i was just going thru the gradient maps that i had and was like 'oh no this looks good' #this is all digital btw #made possible by the bardotbrush art maker's club block print toolkit brushset. thank you lisa! i hope you never see this!! #i actually did take an actual block printing class once. it turned out it was less of a class and more of open studio for 3 old dudes #and as a result it took a ton of time outside of class that i didn't really expect #and i had a baby at the time and i also sucked at art then so i didn't re-enroll when it was over #point being: i think it would funny to go back and do nothing but 20-year old anime-themed block prints #you laugh but there was a big ass print someone made of totoro hanging in the room and it slapped

[mrpsychokiller]

made myself yet a new profile picture because i wanted something in my blogs themes palette... peace and love in the world etc

#my art #furry #yet again i feel like my sketches have more personality than the finished products #this is a pseudo redraw of an icon i had last year...... only true ones remember #i am a bitch for the holding telephone icon im sorry spiritually i am always giggling on the phone and twirling the cord with my finger #also i hope this looks good and visible enough as an icon...... i hate profile pictures theyre too damn small #my fursona

[jmflowers]

MayaxCarina. Canon? Out and about. Calm. Casual intimacy. Soft. Really whatever else you want to add to that. I’ll take any crumb you offer from your nice brain. (Mighty one of the few real humans that is an adult and writes characters like real adult people) have a good night! Or whatever it is where you are in the world

You are very kind! I didn't always write with an understanding of real adult reactions and feelings, but thankfully I grew into an adult myself and that's made things a lot easier.

We're rocking canon-compliant with this one, with a dash of Big Feelings to go with all the soft and safe. Hopefully you're pleased with the outcome!

~~~

Liam had fallen asleep in the stroller before they’d even rounded the block, fresh air and the noises of their new neighbourhood lulling him into a much-needed calm. He sighs as they pass the sign and the newly-sprouting cherry blossom trees on their way into the park.

They’re all still adjusting to the new house. To the new commutes to work and the continuous unpacking of boxes and the proximity of new neighbours who wave across driveways as they arrive home each night.

It’s quaint, to find themselves fully submersed in the suburban life. To see kids riding their bikes along the sidewalk and hear dogs barking in nearby backyards.

Maya can only dream of what’s ahead: trick-or-treaters at Halloween and Christmas lights strung up at the holidays, Easter egg hunts in the backyard and fireworks on the 4th of July. There’s a whole community around them now, just waiting to be discovered.

Families with kids that Liam will grow up with, if they’re given the chance to adopt him.

The thought causes a familiar pang in her chest, the tug of a want so deep and so desperate it makes her gasp for breath in the middle of the night.

She instinctively reaches for Carina’s hand, lacing their fingers together to ground herself back into reality. They are together, now – all three of them. Liam is safe and happy and sleeping. In an hour, he will snuffle as he always does before he begins to cry, and his nose will scrunch the same as always when he accepts a bottle.

And Carina will smile that soft, loving smile that she reserves specifically for their son.

“We should plant some flowers in the yard,” Carina suggests, looking up at the burgeoning blooms on the trees overhead.

“Okay,” Maya agrees immediately, already picturing a sea of colour spread across the garden beds situated against the back fence. They’ll have to take a trip to the garden center – get some soil and some bulbs and maybe a few hanging planters for the front porch, too.

“Bambina,” Carina laughs, dragging her back into the present with a gentle tug on their joined hands. She’s getting even better at that, lately, recognizing when Maya’s fallen down a hole in her own thoughts.

It’s just another chapter of their relationship, Maya knows. The story they’d started building years ago, boxes spread about their shared apartment, conversations happening without any words at all. Carina can read the drift of her eyes, can spot the racing thoughts from a mile away.

“I love you,” Maya whispers, suddenly at a loss for anything else to say. It doesn’t feel like quite enough to explain the feelings swirling in her chest, but it makes Carina smile just the same.

“I love you, too,” Carina promises, leaning forward for a gentle kiss.

And somehow, that’s enough, too. The now, for a second, is plenty.

#living in the moment Maya Bishop??? we hope so #minefic #tumblr prompt party #prompt party #janelle's asks #anonymous #maya x carina fic #carina x maya fic #station 19 fic #canon compliant #didn't have a plan just went with that 'started writing had a break down bon appetit' vibe #except without the breakdown #I'm so much more productive re:writing when I can do little snippets in a space that is not my desk haha

[thresholdbb]

S7's The Void is vaguely reminiscent of s5's Night, but they show Janeway in a much better mental state, and how much she has learned to ease up on the distance she maintains from her crew as captain.

The openings of the two episodes have a much different tone. In Night, there's a distinct lack of Janeway. She's MIA, and crew is anxious and antsy because of their situation and missing leader. In The Void, they open on a scene of the senior staff enjoying their time together. They're laughing and sharing a meal, teasing each other like a family. Then they're thrust into the anomaly. Both instances of "the void" lack stars, both are potentially long-term situations without a clear means of escape besides getting through it. Night has a tone of uneasy calm, but there are other ships and adversaries in The Void, adding an element of urgency.

When we finally see Janeway in Night, she is kicking herself for her decision making:

CHAKOTAY: We were faced with a difficult choice. We had the means to get home but using it would've put an innocent people at risk, so we decided to stay. JANEWAY: No. No, no. I decided to stay. I made that choice for everyone. CHAKOTAY: We're alive and well, and we've gathered enough data about this quadrant to keep Starfleet scientists busy for decades. Our mission's been a success. JANEWAY: The very same words I've been telling myself for the past four years. But then we hit this Void, and I started to realise how empty those words sound. CHAKOTAY: Kathryn. JANEWAY: I made an error in judgment, Chakotay. It was short-sighted and it was selfish, and now all of us are paying for my mistake.

In The Void, Janeway and Chakotay have a similar conversation, but she accepts her error and her support network with less resistance and less self flagellation. With the urgency of the other attacking ships, there is less mental space to become concerned with mistakes, but her dialogue shoes that it is still a thought that is ever present in her mind.

JANEWAY: Impulsive and self-righteous? Is that what you think? CHAKOTAY: You did what you had to do. JANEWAY: Still, I made a mistake. ... JANEWAY: Maybe not. But if I'd listened to my doubts in the first place, we wouldn't have lost the other two ships. ... CHAKOTAY: B'Elanna and the other engineers are working around the clock to build one. She thinks they'll be ready to test in a couple of days. JANEWAY: So everyone's pulling together to make up for my mistake. CHAKOTAY: They have to. It says so in the Federation Charter.

Granted, it helps that she has some rules to point to for accepting Chakotay's insistence that they're in it together, but the situation in The Void very well could have had her fall back into old patterns we saw in Night. One of the reasons she fights so hard to create and alliance and get the ship and crew out of their situation and back into normal space is because there is an "echo of the void." This time, she isn't as inwardly focused. She is listening to her crew, even when they're being critical. You can see the impulse towards blaming herself for the whole situation, but she's pulled out of her pattern of thinking much easier this time.

#desperately hoping someone else had already written about the parallels but a cursory search didn't turn up much #ok i threw this together very fast and i have more thoughts but i need to go be productive for a bit #star trek voyager #night #the void #my favorite dysfunctional found family #the two episodes always remind me of each other and they do have kind of similar aliens taken into sick bay #someone more eloquent than me make it better thank you Ilu

[chimchiri]

Another art summary! Can't believe the year is already over!

I drew a lot this year with only November not really drawing anything (as per usual, work related). It's nice to see the change and I'm feeling more confident in some aspects - but also seeing others where I wanna improve or work on more.

No surprise - it's all MLP lmao.

Previous summaries: 2022 | 2021 | 2020 | 2019 | 2018 | 2017 | 2016 | 2015 | 2014

(Damn next time I'll have 10 years to compare...)

#I'm pretty happy I actually had many colored pieces - even if there is no background #let's hope for another productive year! #I've got some goals set #as in being more purposeful with my art training and studying #my art #art summary #art summary 2023

[skwtches]

once again, it is indeed Chaggie Day on twitter

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel charlie #hazbin hotel vaggie #hazbin hotel fanart #fanart #chaggie #charlie x vaggie #shipping #these two r very cute i love em #rly wish we had more of them being a couple in the pilot bc it’s rly obvious just how last minute the decision to make em girlfriends- #instead of just Besties(tm) was #‘but *i* never refer to my friends by calling them hun-‘ one of my friends calls each person in our friend group ‘darling.’ #friends giving each other platonic petnames isn’t out of the ordinary. just depends on the ppl #y’all don’t have to keep defending the way they’re written in the pilot y’know. it’s already been confirmed that they weren’t supposed to - #be a couple until DURING the storyboardung process when ppl on the crew began shipping them #also don’t make me bring up the character sheets that vivzie made during production where vaggie was only referred to as charlie’s- #best friend #BUT ALL THAT ASIDE #from the looks of it they’re most likely gonna be more openly romantic in the show and i’m looking forward to that #in addition i’m hoping for more substance in their dynamic #the pilot gives em an interesting base for a relationship but i rly wanna see more of what they have in common + how they express affection- #for one another #also hoping that neither (mostly vaggie) loses characterization in favor of only being characterized by their relationship #like- i don’t see them becoming as bad as m&m where millie is barely a character in comparison to moxxie #and to be fair charlie IS the protagonist so it’s no surprise if she has more characterization than everyone else in the main cast #all in all i just hope vaggie gets enough time to shine as her own character outside of her relationship & physical capabilities #tl;dr: lemme get inside vaggie’s head goddamnit

[shitswiftiessay]

listening to the 1989 re-recordings has made me realise… how good the original versions were.

#anti taylor swift #<< since she ruined 1989 #lol jk #but man i do hate a lot of these re records especially wonderland that one pissed me off #no emotion whatsoever it’s like an AI bot singing it #and i’m not mad about her voice changing i was actually looking forward to hearing these songs with more mature vocals- like with WD #but the production… god the production 👎 #wildest dreams tv was SO GOOD so i had high hopes for 1989 tv and then we got this :( #if she wants us to only listen to taylor’s version #then she should make the re recordings as good or better #anti 1989 tv

[xray-vex]

HOW YOUR EMAIL FINDS ME

#literally. re: email from my ex this morning #every day it takes every ounce of mental and emotional strength i have to get my ass out of bed and face the day #today i begin packing to move the fuck out of here #everything fucking hurts and i hate this so much #i'm not feeling brave about any of this #one of the worst things about a breakup is that it damages you for any potential future relationships #in the sense that “how can i ever trust anyone with my heart and my love ever again?” #as if it's not bad enough losing someone you thought would be in your life forever #but the deeply cutting betrayal of finding out that this person you actually trusted with your literal life had led you on FOR YEARS #ESPECIALLY in the sense that this whole scenario is giving me intense flashbacks to the ending of another relationship #that broke me so bad it almost killed me #and it's easy for them to say “i hope you find someone who makes you happy” when they have someone new in their life #if i believed i had prospects for a new romantic relationship then it would be a little easier for me to collect myself & regroup & move on #but i don't think i have it in me to go thru any of this again #and that gives me even more layers of anger and rage and grief #as if it wasn't enough to betray me and break my fucking heart #but it broke me FOR ANY FUTURE LOVE AND HAPPINESS TOO #i know it's not productive for me to think that way #but right now i am fucking drowning in my fucking pain and fucking grief and fucking rage #i wanted stability and love and trust and someone to come home to every night and someone to come home to me every night #i just wanted to love and be loved #i wanted someone who i could call home #I JUST WANTED TO BE LOVED #rage #grief #trauma #edward teach #our flag means death #ofmd

[keepthetension]

man, i really hope they drop the photos from the wedding photo shoot at some point! look at them!!!

#last twilight the series #was there no product placement this episode? lol #!!! i was really hoping to see aon and pla one more time! :( #at least we saw aon briefly #but i figure they must have had a kid too? what happened there! i want to know!!

[ardate]

sniffs. man. i really want this job :(

#misc #TLDR: #a recruiter calls me coupla weeks ago; says she wants me on their production - and in that same exact call ends up saying #“oh actually i'm not sure you fit. this might not happen” cuz she actually read my resume this time.... while on call with me? #how about you take a proper gander at my resume before calling me to offer me a job and then change your mind.... #ended the call saying “contact me again on January 8th if you're still interested and i'll see if i can squeeze you in as a junior” #(which. okay. first off why would you have to “squeeze me in” when you actively called me for the job. #Also i'm not a junior. but sure we'll see what the pay is like) #so i contacted her on the 8th and she was like haha actually i doubt we'll have any spots left for you! smiling emoji #and just earlier rn she sent me a new DM asking if i have an updated portfolio since the one they have is from 3yrs ago #so she revived a little bit of hope i know i shouldnt have cuz i HIGHLY doubt they'll hire me for this prod given how things have been goin #its late now i doubt ill get any news one way or another before sometime next week (hopefully) #ugh...... i really want this job man. #i've had too many feature film opportunities slide from my grasp. please let me have this #having this one experience will make it easier to get hired for more. i'm fucking begging on my knees

[foxsnails]

i currently have mild nerve damage in one of my fingers bc ive started mass-making stickers by hand, using a scalpel to cut out every single one

i really hope its worth it oughghhg

#yaps #i had this brief turmoil over the sustainability of my work #like i print all my stickers on paper then add a thin vinyl coating to them #which i hope is better than a full vinyl sticker #bc man vinyl is not good for the planet but i want to make products that last #i do this bc its way more cost-effective but i hope it also kinda offsets the carbon footprint of using vinyl? #its def better than getting a company to make them for me #a lot of my art is about loving nature so i want my physical products to reflect that where its possible #yeah no ethical consumption under capitalism but i wanna do what i can #i do miss my fingertip tho #if anyone has any thoughts or suggestions lmk #its such a tricky thing to navigate esp when you're poor

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

also fun fact. you can effectively punch holes in plastic glow in the dark stars using a push pin and a rock and just pressing it really hard into your carpet or something so it doesn’t damage anything once it penetrates the plastic. in case you ever needed to know that

#i hope all my actors come to the premiere because i do not think i will be finishing this shit by sunday when we stop filming #going to need to tell them i have surprise presents for them all and use that to make them come see my mid short film #i have to stop putting down my own film. it’s not going to be mid. it’s going to be good. perhaps not as good as some others in the class #but it will not be as bad as the annoying ‘men’s mental health story’ bs one group is doing #frankly i don’t give a shit about men’s mental health but whatever #actually it might not be bad as a film idk their skill levels. but i won’t care about it due to there being no women in there #actually another group is making a film with no women (except the firdged mom) but i think theirs will be good #they have a cast of two people it’s not insane that there’s no women so i’ll allow it #and also of course that guys script was very good and he was actually my first choice when we voted on who’s scripts to make #no i was not my first choice…. i was trying to be humble…. #also i wouldn’t have had to be director on his film. i could have been the bitchy production manager….. #i also would have had to go on multiple hikes due to the locations they needed. so perhaps it’s a good thing my script got voted in too #and i know i complain but i do actually like my group they’re great people to work with #even if the Annoying one and i clash sometimes. i like to think of our dynamic as Divorced Coparents #which sounds more sexy than it is. it’s not sexy at all. there’s no sex going on metaphorical or otherwise #i just mean. we clash sometimes but we also have good rapport. it’s like a tense middle school friendship #and the other guy. he’s great. cringe at times but we love him #i wish i’d known him before this semester so we could have had more time to become friends this timing kinda sucks #anyway. i don’t remember how this post started. #ok bye

[vitamin-zeeth]

every time I see someone with a doctor who take or theory or anything that puts any weight whatsoever on 13s run I like immediately stop reading and just skim the rest of it. No hate to them I just

- didn't like the run

- gave up watching it during the timeless child arc cause the lore inaccuracies pissed me off

- generally ignore its existence cause it's easier

#to me everything osst like her first season is not canon sry #i didnt like the direction the show took i didnt like thewriting style or the general production style #it kinda felt like a weird dream id have when i was ill and had just been watching a bubch of dr who #also im a jay exci fan forever and always so the 5 Hour Dr Who Video Essay is a big part of my dislike #they made some great points and put ibto words loads of vague feelings id had about the series in a way i really liked #i only realised recently that a lot of dw tumblr is actually way into 13s run lmao so maybe this is a controversial take #but if it is then BREAKING MY SILENCE EXCLAMATION MARK EXCLAMATION MARK SHOCKED FACE SERIOUS FACE F WORD FACE #sorry non dw mutuals for putting more dw on your dash also trust me on this im really correct and cool and you agree with me B) #i also really hope this doesn't come off as passive aggressive towards anyone other than chris chibnall idgaf what you guys vibe with #anyway #dw #doctor who #look. chibnall made some wild lore decisions in his run that imo he did not by any means earn. so for that fuck you chibnall