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aesthetictanuki · 2 months

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I felt like doing a little shoutout to a fanmade Friday the 13th film (dir. Jason West, 2021) Also warning, there are going to be spoilers below!

The movie is available on YT for free by the way, always give some love to indie artists!

Now, I'm gonna get it out of the gate, I don't personally find it the best among all the fanmade FT13 stuff; most of my complaints are about general, technical stuff though.

But damn, they did what most movies don't want to explore (or they don't feel like exploring), and that's Jason's mental state/ mind. I feel like there's some great potential in showing what may possibly be going on with someone who's silent at all times- something that I don't recollect many FT13 media doing (unless you count fans' interpretations, theories and headcannons based on how Jason behaves, along with the Jason vs Leatherface comic that dug into him as a person more), but what would add to him as a villain and a character overall.

In the movie, Jason was struggling with auditory hallucinations (or you can interpret that as his mom actually talking to him from the grave, though I'm personally not all for supernatural stuff) of Pamela's voice screaming at him to kill people. "Punish them for what they did to me, to us" she said multiple times. And damn, did that make my heart ache.

He genuinely struggled with hearing that, seemingly writhing in pain and hitting himself while distressed, shaking his head.

Also, in the scene below, him looking at the picture of his mom was, in my opinion, like trying to remind himself that there's no chance it could actually be her; or maybe wondering if a person who was so sweet and loving to him, who holds her child dearly in the photograph, could really be saying all those viscious things.

I watched all those scenes and I wondered "does this portrayal of Jason actually wants to do all those horrible things?" Sure, in other movies, he is not - to me- a viscious serial killer either. He doesn't go to other towns to kill, pretty much all of his kills are quick, unless the victims struggle. There's no sick enjoyment there to me with killing itself, compared to some other villains. But this one?

He tries to make those voices stop. He can't, obviously he can't- there are no psychiatrists and therapists, there is no one to help him deal with all of this. No one will, considering he already has killed a bunch of people.

Maybe he's aware of it too- he knows his future doesn't exists, because there was just a victim after victim, but he couldn't stop, so he is metaphorically tied to that old camphouse he lives in, since he knows he's not wanted anywhere else- that was what he was taught his entire life.

He can't just stop listening to what the voice of Pamela tells him to do- there is an altar for her in the movie as well, many objects he managed to collect, pictures and newspaper cutouts, portraying the only person who loved him unconditionally- he can't stop listening to someone like that.

And he wants them to stop telling him all those atrocities, because maybe despite his mom screaming "they deserve it" inside his head, they actually didn't- but also, it's the voice of the only person who cared. If the voice stops, it may hit him a little too hard that she really is dead, and she's never coming back.

So he listens.

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sparatus · 5 months

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heyoooo I saw some tags on a post you shared that said something about how the batarian resistance was born, and I'd love to hear your thoughts on a batarian resistance because I also want to do a batarian resistance, but I've been having trouble noodling out what that looks like.

okay attempt two at answering this cause my computer decided to restart itself last time and i got mad and didn't want to retype everything lol

obviously i'm going to start with saying the vast majority of my batarian work is in my no-reapers au exponential differentiation, especially blood in the water where the two deuteragonists working with shepard are second in command of the resistance tarvok shad'derah and his friend and close ally of the resistance gurji taeja, and we're also poised right at the start of the hegemony plotline in in the land of giants and the resistance will be pretty involved in upcoming chapters (and are already there, please come read it i have essays). moving on.

the short answer is... there is no short answer. it's complicated. the hegemony, per canon, is a strict caste-based, totalitarian oligarchy with complete control over every aspect of life underneath them. you can't work with batarians without addressing the hegemony somehow. there's going to be a lot of messy politics, and wildly varying opinions towards the resistance (there's going to be a lot of people who think it's not worth fighting! let them kill themselves off! why are you going to so much effort!), and very heavy topics that need a lot of care to portray sensitively. the hegemony is very clearly based on very real regimes that killed a lot of people and left a lot of lasting damage. a lot of where i started looking at batarians with a sympathetic lens is from talking to a friend of mine who lives in brazil and saw a lot of their own experiences reflected in the batarians, and quite a few other regimes there are still people alive who remember living under them are obvious inspiration for bioware as well (stalinist ussr is the most obvious, but there's definitely aspects of mussolini's italy and north korea as well, to name a few). accordingly, i've been doing my best to approach the topic sensitively; literally the most important thing i can stress with working with batarians is do your research. there's an awful lot of nuance to consider, and boiling it down to basic "good guy rebels vs evil government" does it a serious disservice.

that out of the way, let's get into it after the cut. i'm going to preface this with a disclaimer that a lot of this is my own work and i am not comfortable with others using it without permission. nothing against you personally i just have some bad experiences with people "taking inspiration" from me and literally just lifting my shit whole-cloth without asking me and only crediting me in a separate place away from the actual fic, lol. so anything with specific names or timelines or just anything that's me speculating and not found in canon is not free to use, kthx.

anyway.

in order to write a resistance against the hegemony, you have to start with actually writing the hegemony. yeah i know i know nobody wants to put too much effort into the slaver assholes, but it's important. and we do actually have some canon details about how the hegemony functions, so Reading The Wiki actually a pretty good place to start! based on what (admittedly not a lot) we know about the hegemony, they're a totalitarian oligarchy where the richest rule. you can potentially buy your way to a higher caste if you make enough money, but it's very difficult, and they're incredibly cutthroat. basically, life under the hegemony is very every man for himself.

this is to the upper castes' advantage! aggressive enforcement of the status quo by the higher-ups, using fear and violence as weapons, not only works very well to oppress the lower castes, but it also encourages people to turn on each other and rat each other out. you're unlikely to find a lot of camaraderie among average batarians - if anyone could turn you in to the cops, you're not gonna trust anybody, and that's gonna go a long way to keeping people under the upper castes' thumbs. we can even reasonably infer that family members are encouraged to report on each other - it's happened irl! it's super useful! nobody trusts each other, everyone's afraid of surveillance, nobody is safe. building up any sort of resistance movement is going to be incredibly difficult anywhere the hegemony can listen.

further, it's canon that the hegemony very tightly controls the flow of information in and out of their borders, and that includes information about the other species and life outside the hegemony. keeping the population ignorant makes them easier to control, after all. this is a known and very common tactic in authoritarian regimes. the common batarian living within hegemony borders believes that their way of life is best, this is how things are meant to be, and all the aliens are lesser beings and basically savages, so it's best to just listen to the hegemony and do as you're told and never ever leave :) why would you want to leave when this is the best possible life for you :) most batarians aren't going to be aware that there's anything wrong with the dystopian horror they're living in, because it's all they've ever known and all they can know. so odds of the lower castes all realizing they're being oppressed and agreeing "fuck that" together are uhhh slim to none, to say the least. this shit goes very deep, and the hegemony has been in place for centuries, so they've had a lot of time to root themselves in the populace's collective heads as Good And Correct And The Only Way To Live.

so, okay, let's leave the hegemony. easy right? wrong. sure, omega has no rules, but that means you're unlikely to find a lot of help if the hegemony decides to drag your ass back. you're still going to have to stay vigilant for spies and trackers and unfriendly tech, assuming they're not going to just up and kill you (which is probably more likely, even - out in terminus, nobody looks twice at somebody getting ganked, but a kidnapping will draw more attention, and then you've got martyrs, and nobody wants those). outside hegemony space, you're going to run into two main flavors of batarian:

batarians who were born under the hegemony, but no longer live there. these can be divided further into batarians who are still loyal to the hegemony for one reason or another (money, habit, blackmail), and those who have cut ties. either they managed to escape somehow, they were let go willingly and decided never to go back, or somebody else took them out of hegemony space.

batarians who were not. these will then be divided into those who still work with the hegemony (we know they pay good, after all) and those who want nothing to do with them.

of those four groups, you're going to have to make a hell of a pitch to get allies for any budding resistance movement - the hegemony are seen as an omnipresent evil in terminus, but one you can live with as long as you don't do anything stupid. keep your head down, or take their money even, and you'll probably be okay. they're a big damn government with a wide territory and lots of guns, and we know canonically that they have a lot of tech and stuff that they don't even share with the rest of the galaxy because they're paranoid and selfish, so "just stay out of their way" is going to be a very, very popular method of dealing with them.

oh, and remember what i said about hegemony info diets? yeah. culture shock once you're out is gonna be a bitch. we're talking near-catatonia levels of existential crisis here.

"what about the citadel," you may ask. great question! fair point! we can in fact reasonably infer that the vast majority of citadel species, with the exception of the asari with their """indentured servitude""" and possibly the hanar depending on how far down the rabbit hole of the hanar-drell relationship you feel like going down with me, are very anti-slavery and would support going against the hegemony! except, unfortunately, it's more complicated than that, because the batarians were the fourth species to reach the citadel, can be inferred to have been the "peacekeepers" of the galaxy prior to the uplifting of the krogan (yes i have textbooks of batarian history no we're not getting into it right now go read bitw), and in general are a big damn nuisance that the council don't want to risk war with right at the moment. "but there's more of them then there are of the hegemony!" yeah and you know how many of them are actually capable of war? the turians. das it. until the alliance start getting in slapfights with the hegemony, the turians are the only species really capable of waging war to any meaningful extent, and supporting the resistance in any way, even just allowing them to Exist on the citadel, would cause a lot of trouble for the council that they simply aren't able to deal with while the batarians still have their embassy on the station. remember what i said about politics? yeah you came and asked tumblr user sparatus about this there's so much xenopolitics involved in why the hegemony haven't been wiped off the map yet i made this field up but it's my passion--

ahem. does this sound like more effort than it's worth yet? good. that's the point.

in short: getting any sort of resistance movement going with any degree of traction is going to be incredibly difficult. there's very few places to run, getting recruits who are at least mostly sane will be like pulling teeth, and you're basically on your own. it's even fair to assume that resistance movements have happened in the past and failed. the hegemony are large and in charge, and yeah sure they're falling down on themselves and a shadow of their former selves but that makes them more dangerous because, as we can see in canon, that pride makes them aggressive and very determined not to show weakness or let anyone know how bad things are getting. taking them down is an uphill battle in the blinding snow and brother, the resistance are a beat-up rear-wheel drive with no snow tires and a faulty fuel injector.

no, i don't make metaphors that make sense. i write about political intrigue and the comics characters, it's obscure bullshit or bust over here.

obviously that's not all to say a resistance movement is impossible. i have one myself, hi how ya doin read my fic. that's all just set up. to write a resistance movement against a massive, well-entrenched regime like the hegemony, you first have to have a good, solid idea of what they're resisting against, and all the factors getting in their way. it's hard! it's difficult! it's true to how these things tend to work out in real life!

here's how i have things set up for my own work (again, keep in mind this work is not free to use):

the hegemony's fall from grace following their defeat by the rachni and their job as the main military might being usurped by the krogan and later turians has led to infighting and cannibalizing each other. as conditions steadily declined and the bad parts of the bad system got worse, what was previously a sustainable dystopia spiraled downwards into a ticking timebomb. the conclave (the "senate" which is now effectively no longer elected running everything, the top caste) is inbred to hell and back, because you can't possibly marry outside your caste, and the question of nonviability is becoming a when, not an if.

the arrival of the alliance and the council's apparent "favoritism" (read: not simply letting the hegemony have their way, because no you're both breaking laws actually please just shut up and sit down for mediation) has destabilized their standing in galactic society, causing their retreat further into isolation. this is making everything worse. things fall apart.

some senators within the conclave, particularly senators shahok khor'berran and morem kednelok, have recognized the hegemony is barrelling towards its breaking point and are looking for reform.

morvarn taryn, a cop in dasrak (the capital city, btw i will always be salty bioware didn't even give khar'shan a CANON CAPITAL CITY), has always struggled with having more empathy than a man of his caste is supposed to have. this gets him in trouble when dealing with a krogan slave that keeps breaking confinement, wragg, because damn that poor guy's really fucked up huh. (this also gets into alien slavery and that whole quagmire, but that's a different essay), but he doesn't really actually question the regime fully until a friend of his, air force lieutenant tarvok shad'derah, comes by the bar one day clearly in pain, and morvarn convinces him to come to his apartment for treatment and finds tarvok and his squad have been subjected to sapient experimentation without anaesthesia and the wounds have been left exposed.

the shad'derahs are a prominent family line due to their ancestor rothok being the second spectre in history and a close friend of gurji beelo. further, as a military officer tarvok is roughly the same caste as morvarn, and they both should be spared from this kind of treatment. the fact that even their middle-tier caste isn't enough to keep them from being seen as tools and objects radicalizes morvarn, but he doesn't realize it yet.

he brings his concerns to a close friend. friend happens to be senator shahok, who sees an opportunity and agrees with morvarn that either things need to change, or the hegemony will fall, and perhaps it needs to for their own survival as a species.

several months pass, with much thinking and discussing of what to do. tarvok disagrees that anything needs to change, and insists this is just the way things are, but morvarn's compassion sticks with him until a fateful mission rattles him, and the hegemony's plan to subject his younger brother thrajul to the same treatment he's had convinces him it's time to leave.

shit happens, blah blah blah, morvarn and tarvok end up fleeing khar'shan with a small group of supporters and also non-supporters who have no other choice but to go with. they run to omega and spend a few months trying to sort themselves out before deciding to keep trying to rescue friends and family from the hegemony.

this evolves into other batarians seeking their help getting their own loved ones out, raiding slavers, deep-cover missions, etc etc, until they're actually a proper resistance movement. they even make non-batarian friends, including gurji taeja, beelo's descendant who has a familial loyalty to the shad'derahs because salarians have like a whole thing about that.

there is no true plan for taking down the conclave, because how the fuck are they supposed to do that

and that's how exdiff and the whole x57 and resulting hegemony plotline tie in, because x57 kicks off the hegemony gearing up for war properly and once [REDACTED] then well the hegemony's the only problem left to deal with and hey look there's this whole group of guys with very intimate knowledge of what to do with them and some guys on the inside,

i have a fic planned for the actual downfall it's called carrion men and i am GOING to outline it next year so maybe i can get started writing it for camp nano or proper nano

..... oh my god this is so much. i am so sorry to anybody whose phone this fucking destroys trying to load it. but also not really. my m.e. big bang fic was an entire treatise of political intrigue and speculation on potential asari supremacy conspiracy, you don't come to me for concise answers on xenopolitical things. anyway hello i have put a completely normal and reasonable amount of work into the hegemony and the resistance and batarians in general

#press conference #cr-noble-main #HOLY SHIT THIS IS SO MUCH LONGER THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE IM SO SORRY FDHSLD #do you understand why i got mad and didnt want to retype it for a while lol #council memos #council records #WHICH ONE WAS MY FANDOM DISCUSSION TAG I FORGET #yeah lemme just make a smart themed tag system i said. i will definitely remember this i said.#demented screaming.#turning off reblogs preemptively. any time i talk about batarians nobody can fucking behave #do you guys remember that time i got accused of supporting human trafficking because i said the batarians have a point #in being mad about the humans setting up colonies in territory the batarians had already claimed and were in. i remember.#i trust none of you. no reblogs.

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bmpmp3 · 7 months

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some fashion dreamer adventures from playing too much in the past two days :) (MY USER ID IS LGXwM6wQk5 FEEL FREE TO request stuff or whatever u do in this game i forgor) :

(ignore shocked shane this aint about him) made my OC dave as my first muse so i am kinda playing hard mode with the type b body situation but im like. determined now. im gonna make the flashiest and cutest and over the top outfits i can muster with the scraps theyve given the the type b (jk jk its not TOO bad its the best we've gotten so far but I do wish i could wear shorter shorts and crop tops and some of those type a socks are so cute i saw some that were like bandage thigh highs. dave should be allowed to wear thigh highs. dave should be allowed to wear thigh highs)

still having a lot of fun tho! sometime i should get around to making a type a muse but most people i meet are type a so i never run out of people to dress either way LOL

like most people i have things i hope they add in the future (like i said before, the lack of zoom is DIRE) and right now some of the currencies and levelling systems feel a little unbalanced (i have so many of the star things and bingo things and a decent amount of gacha things but the photo prop coins are my most coveted thing rn i have like 1 single one JKDLSJFDS) but im enjoying myself a lot like i knew i would

was trying to take a pic of this other player's muse that had this really neat witch situation but i accidentally made dave dab and got really scared <3

in the end we must all go to the photo egg. in the end we all go into the photo egg. the universality of the photo egg.

kinda wacky from daylight savings time changes i always get wacky i dont know what year or time it is. i spent twenty minutes scouring the ACT cocoon for the showroom stream 'cause i couldnt find it until i accidentally went into this like. basement alley. its in the basement alley <3 <3 <3

i guess we dont just go into the egg. we also. go into the. cocoons. the cocoons. in eve? cocoons in eve have. eggs in them

anyway i just unlocked cocoon FUN and its so awesome and scary and so so scary look at this bear

free this bear somebody please free this bear ignore dave posing free this bear cocoon fun has bears behind bars and gazebos that raise you into heaven its so scary and awesome

going back to the photo props my favourites so far are the flowers theyre so cute

i dont do the vertical photos that often because theyre kinda hard to do (u have to like. turn ur head or the switch to the side..... im nearly exclusively a tabletop switch player so i cant imagine what its like for docked player LOL) but this ones cute!

but yeah very fun and extremely addicting i need to go to bed. i need to go to bed. i have assignments and i need to go to bed. but i want. to make outfits..........i must.....make outfits......graaaaahhh........GRAAAAAHHHHHH (turns into a zombie before your eyes)

#i dont do enough of the making of clothes tho i keep forgetting #i think they do need to expand it more. i understand not having like patterns people draw like animal crossing #(hard to moderate for a very online game)#BUT i do think they could do some WONDERFUL things with the system they already have for making ur brand logos #like that brand logo maker is UNREAL do u want a logo of a toilet in a heart with a forest background? you can do that if u want #you can do anything in there its absurd #but if they added the ability to make like tshirt graphics or maybe even repeatable patterns with that system it would be awesome #but i do need to make more designs. my brand is in SHAMBLES #also this is besides any point but its wild playing the type b body at the default height in a world of type a's at their default heights #everyones always looking up at me. is this what its like to be tall. is this what its like #why are you looking at me like that. whats going on down there. is this what being tall is. strange and unusual #although speaking of height its awesome the height varieties between the two body types like #the default is like slightly short type a and slightly tall type b but if u want u can be the shortest little guy or the tallest lady ever #its fantastic. i think the tallest type a matched the tallest type b pretty close and same with the shortest type b to type a #u can be small. u can be big. the world is our oyster. takes your hand and we run together into the sunset

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ghostlyheart · 10 months

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"The patriarchy sucks for everyone" is a phrase that irks me to no end when it's used to derail conversations about women. Like yes that's true I guess but the way it sucks for women is a lot more materially and physically violent. The suckiness is not equally distributed

#and im not saying we SHOULDNT talk about how it affects men but also #that should not be the center of every conversation. there's a time and a place #sure it hurts men's self image but can we pls not forget that not only does it fuck with women's sense of self it also very much kills them #i do not want feminism that dismantles toxic masculinity without also tackling the structural barriers #that keep women from political/social/economic equality #and when people say this is a TERF talking point??? why would you concede that to them #the way parts of this website talk abt feminism scares me #sorry it seems like im making up a guy to get mad at i just need to get this out of my system

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saltycharacters · 1 year

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Can I be livid for a sec? Ive spent all these years in the pandemic being one of the few doin my part, vaccinating as much as possible and social distancing and wearing masks everywhere and not even leaving the house unless absolutely necessary. A sisyphean attempt to do literally anything about the spread of covid, because so few even care to do the bare minimum at this point. So I have to sit and watch while this small group of people on this godforsaken Earth are giving up opportunities and funtimes left and right to protect our loved ones, and the immunocompromised, and ourselves and everyone else, while the selfish majority don't give a shit and literally do whatever they want, passing strains of covid amongst themselves like its a game of hot potato and. Usually I can ignore any pings of jealousy and reassure myself that at LEAST. There's one less vector to spread the illness, and that keeps at least those around me safe, and I continue finding enjoyment in safe and quarantine-approved ways, but.

Today I got a text message from my dad, which is not unusal in itself, but opening it I realized it was a photo of my abuela. Sitting across the table from my dad in her rustic little house in spain, in the rustic little village that I've visited every summer for most of my childhood. The place I've considered my favorite on earth for most of my life and that I've held in my heart so fondly that nearly every night, I dream about being there again. The place I haven't been to in years as part of the many sacrifices I've taken to combat the pandemic. And yet my dad, part of the selfish and skeptical majority, took the risk without a second thought and unceremoniously come into contact with the disease-spreading, equally uncatious masses at the airport, sat in a largely un-masked airplane for 11 hours and is now having supper with family I've been trying to protect this whole tine. He doesn't consider whether he'll bring covid to them first before bringing it to his family back in the US, he doesn't think about the likleyhood of grandma, nearing her 90's, being able to survive such an ailment, and I just know that he will not give the fact that he couldve spread covid more to the hundreds of other people a second thought. He'll sleep soundly in my favorite room, he'll have fun in my favorite places, and he'll see my favorite people all while being so in-denial about the pandemic that his conciousness will remain clean the entire trip. And this time I'm dizzy with jealousy and rage, I'm sad and homesick and frustrated and worst of all, I can't express any of my feelings to my dad or mom or any family because they'll just laugh at me for being so paranoid and tell me to come over anyway. I'm not sure I'll ever see my beloved Requena ever again, nor any of my family nor resident friends because it seems that almost everyone in the world has forgotten that we're still in a pandemic, yet those self-entitled enough to participate in this collective amnesia can have fun and do whatever without a thought for the consequences they bring. I'll be huddled at home with thise large, gaping, emotional hole in my chest while people like Dad continue on like nothing's ever happened and we all have to suffer for it. It's not fair. I'm so close to tears, I'm just. So devistated and heartbroken. If you don't do your part to quarantine to the best of your ability and practice basic pandemic saftey when out, I hate you. You're awful and I hate you.

#face in my hands #im. im getting a stress headache im so so close to bawling #i miss spain so much i miss grandma i miss my cousins i miss my aunts and uncles #i miss the house i miss the cool cellar and stairs that scared me at night #i miss the family gatherings every weekend and i miss my abuelas frijoles and paella #i miss the village i miss the rustic architecture and the stone streets and the large fountain that was in the middle of it #i miss the large walkway lined with trees and the way it stretched for miles and how beautiful the sunlight shone through the leaves #i miss the sloped walkways that id have to take to get to the stores i miss the small family buisnesses i miss the parks #i miss the closed church and the castle ruins and the cave system that they turned into a museam #i miss it all so much i. at this point forgetting it all would be the best medicine but i just. i cant stand #this one time i wish i was dad. just so stubborn and self absorbed that im brave and uncaring enough to go to Spain #And im suppose to get this fucking coding project done how am i suppose to work when im getting a stress headache already #if you want to reblog go ahead maybe this will motivate people to actually do their part #and maybe then i can hope that i can visit spain someday without risking everyones saftey #although grandma will. probably not be alive by then. and. i mis ther the mostn

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mythvoiced · 2 months

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OPEN STARTER | Baek Eunjae

"Science can explain fuck-all about bees and their fat bodies and their tiny wings, but we're definitely equipped for space-travel, sure, why not, sounds logical."

#;open starter #the social worker;eunjae #the social worker;open #you know i started writing these at around 22:50 or 10:50 PM or somewhere there #and i am very tired and have been for the past however many days #so if these one-liners seem stupid as hell please be kind to me i am just a GOON #this is eunjae energy tho don't worry the folies des hommes piss 'em off leave the moon alone #eunjae is they/them icon a social worker 27 ish somewhere they have a younger brother that #they basically raised and he depends a lot on them and they're very close so good family system #they're also a MIND READER it doesn't pop up a lot in threads because i get so excited about getting to write #their personality i forget all about the mutant aspect KJDFLSFLKFJDGFLKJ #but i'll only throw it in after prior discussion #honestly if you're familiar with apoth*cary diaries eunjae's a LOT like ma*om*ao in terms of #prioritizing and not fucking with others and display of energy #;queue #they're not even talking about whether humanity is equipped to handle space-travel in a technological sense #or even from a scientific point of view-- ATTITUDE!!! it's about ATTITUDE!!!!#humanity is still scratching their head about bees unwilling to admitt nature does whatever the fuck IT wants and not what we determine #it should do what the HELL are we gonna do in SPACE--#it's also about the bee movie ngl

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angelicspyder · 2 months

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hii :3

call me angel, oooo intro posts are so scary and i am trying my best

i am an angel dust fictive !! host yada yada yada things

basics:

19 (bodily too)

any pronouns (no she tho) transmasc nonbinary

autistic + disabled + DID system (traumagenic)

i needed a silly little place to ramble / rant / talk about source things

any sourcemates please interact!!!! any kind!!!! doubles especially!! (i ask very nicely)

blog will handle nsfw \ nsft topics sometimes + a few triggering topics below cut, so no minors please!

more info under cut <3 thank u for reading!

stuff about blog stuff.. ! ! !

few facts abt me: dance is one of my special interests, i like cosplay, kandi, monster high, n i collect LPS! trinkets! i am also aro/ace spec and mlm!

i like to rb a lot, fanart n stuff and pretty things! i made this blog bc the source memories have NOT left me alone LMFAOO so im like damn ok fine ill make one!! so id love for any sourcemates to interact at all.. . .. silly friends in my computer....

that being said though some rambles will have stuff thats triggering, involving: hypersexuality, abuse, s/a, probably anything that is manic related, so on. but it will all always be tagged for the proper thingy! (also some posts will be kink / nsfw / nsft talk but ill keep it down most of the time) (oopsies)

i will also specifically post a lot about either vox, husk, or val. source memories + i just love vox LMFAOO but will always tag as always!

there might also be a few vents but ill be sure to tag n all that stuff!! always feel free 2 ask me if u need me to tag something specific as well!

i think thats it..?? oo that was scary..... thank you for reading this far! take the trinket

#hazbin angel dust #hazbin hotel fictive #hazbin hotel #intro post #aaaa so scary #fictive #introjext #angel dust fictive #angel dust introject #hazbin hotel intoject #i dont know how to tag #hazbin hotel alter #i hope im doing this right sorry socializing is hard LMFAOO i usually just sit w my thoughts in my head #system #did system #HOW DID I FORGET TO TAG THAT THATS LIKE THE ENTIRE POINT #WHY AM I RAMBLING #sorry have a nice day

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nibeul · 2 years

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the more I learn about this omega verse shit the more I want it as far away from me as possible. like it really just boils down to weird ass transphobic and misogynistic rhetoric from everything I've seen which I guess makes sense as to why it's so damn popular

#I should really remember to log in and get a filtering system working because I always fucking forget #but if I have to see the 'omegas have pussies' tag one more time??? I'm gonna strangle somebody??#nsft #like what is the point.#I see it most often with gay couples it feels like a weird way of making it heteronormative while simultaneously being transphobic #if you want mpreg learn how to write transmasc characters dumbass

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komashkathesilly · 1 year

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hum hm hi i wanna do a silly talk. that question or just a point that pops up when ppl sometimes discuss tsukasas sekai is how full and especially full of individual personalities it is besides voaloids which seems wild compared to other sekais created from more like. collective feelings than of one person. but um i feel like its kinda self explanatory cause its pretty clear hes got rlly bright imagination and rlly loves shows for which he makes up script in most of cases with wxs but thats also what he used to do when he was younger for and with saki and toya(tho i dont rlly remember where exactly its mentioned and some details abt it sorry i might be wrong somewhere bc of it idk) in which characters seemed to have also had distinct personalities throughout each show but also for most plushies in general and other toys probably which may mean he got to feel kinda close enough to them for them to even materialise as part of his feelings in his sekai and continue living and helping him on their own? in a they probably even at that point were like his imaginary friends that were alive to him kinda way?

and seems like since at that period of time he spent lots of time on his own thats probably what he used to do mostly? and thinking and imagining the plots the dialogues personalities environment like all that and then playing it might be so much more entertaining than the reality especially if a lot of time u spend alone? so much that it can kinda lead to disassociating? or at least just getting a bit too into it that u forget or stop noticing or ignore the day to day life idk idk. like that kinda thing can at least a bit damage ur memory is what i mean even if the overall experience and situation ur in is not that bad u can be just at least bored and/or stressed enough for that to happen

#it might be a stretch or already a common knowledge but i just wanted to get it out of my system #i rlly need to catch up to event stories and reread the main one cause #yeah i dont remember a lot already but still #tsukasa tenma #tbh i feel like if thats the case it ties so nicely his overall experience w his own sekai and how it works itself #the little world he may have lived through at one point will always be a part of him consciously or not even if he forgets it teehee #ok good night👍#i think i lost my thoughts and how i wanted to tie the conclusion to the beginning??? i hope it anyway makes sense sorrey

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dustylovelyrun · 1 year

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Last Line Tag

Rules: Post the last line that you wrote, then tag as many people as your heart so desires, humans!

Tagged by @atomic-insomnia. Round one of the (logged) owed three, my human! If I owe you more, we’ll find out as I go poking throughout my notes again. Thank you so, so much, and I’m sorry for leaving it for so long!

“Thanks,” and, though visibly displeased with the situation, Kolisnyk eventually accepts the wordless offer, body unfurling from his admittedly entertaining slump and reaching out with his unwounded hand to grasp onto Calleum’s own. With little regards to either proper wound care or medical hygiene, Kolisnyk uses the bent and twisted fingers of his injured hand to drive into the soft earth, regaining purchase with the claw-like movement, before pressing the laceration in his palm down into the blackened topsoil. It’s with an irritable hiss that he then pushes down, using the combined momentum of his motions and Calleum’s swift tug to haul himself upwards. A momentary stagger overcomes him as he rediscovers the world on both feet, and Calleum’s hands hasten to balance him by his lower back and bicep, while Kolisnyk tilts and throws the other hand back out for some semblance of balance. He looks rather wretched, Calleum notes, while Kolisnyk continues to be quick as ever, readjusting and canting to the side, stabilizing as he shifts his weight onto the notably less muddied part of his body and the leg that doesn’t look half-beaten in its war against nature, and Calleum soon finds that he isn’t quite mature enough to reign in the soft breath of laughter that wells in his chest and releases with his observations.

From Pulse. This puppy took a little bit, with the brain constantly shifting words around and leaving me very, very confused every time I read it over. Hoping it ended up coherent. Kolisnyk is Riley, and this is the aftermath of what happens when he isn’t paying much attention, falling down an embankment, and he just so happens to do so while Calleum is absently wandering about the forest that surrounds their school somewhere during the low light of dusk, too. Riley then reveals himself to be much like any doctor, with an apprenticeship steadily underway in healing, but still making the rather poor choice of disregarding his own basic health - like slapping down a newly attained laceration in his hand into dirt.

Anyway... how are we liking the new tense? It gives me Hell~ But it’s functioning far better in terms of comprehension for me than past tense used to, and it’s all starting to flow quite nicely during the writing process, too.

Tagging: @trashplanetsandmagicforests, @aziz-writes, @thewalkingnerd, @writingamongther0ses, @rubyleaf, @juleswrites, @emelkae, @stories-by-rie, @pen-for-sword, @akindofmagictoo, @writerfae, @drippingmoon, @ineffablyendless, @oh-three, @oh-no-another-idea, @keen2meecha, @winterandwords, @writingpotato07, @bloodlessheirbyjacques, @aelenko, @maybenow22

#writing #my writing #last line tag #wip: pulse #A). WHAT DO YOU M E A N #What do you MEAN the LAST TIME I posted ANY SNIPPET was during MARCH??#B). I'm not quite sure when references with surnames became a thing but it's working quite well to establishing slow shifts in relations #and giving me an idea of where they are within each other's minds. there's a variant of some sort for everyone it seems #surnames being the most common as they accumulate partners in crimes like pokemon cards #and C). while rewriting the tense and figuring things out I've decided that it fits much better. Present. And I need to reevaluate ages #I had the unfortunate experience of interacting with folks around their canonical ages a month or so ago. It's not bad #but I've also never felt so out of the loop and old as well #I'm also steadily and slowly making Milena older and older to adjust and really need to stop doing that because soon she'll age out #even with the weird kinda school system I've got going on for my magical alien school #oh and bonus D) point -#screw the moving house thing. that's one of the reasons I've delayed stuff. I've given up and won't be leaving things hanging like that #probably to some degree at least but monthly stirring needs to be a thing again #I'm slowly forgetting how to do things and that just isn't on #if it means participating in writeblr while passively squishing my dog as she bowls over moving company employees so be it -#going to make myself be active again come hell or high water

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