#i feel like its my specialty.

[femme-malewife]

Writing angst is such a breath of fresh air for me...

#ive always loved writing angst hurt/comfort shit #actually in one of my old fandoms i was one of the popular writers back in the day #people would list me as one of the great angst writers #and in another fandom my fic is legit out of THOUSANDS no.7 most popular #Though its actually no.3 if u Filter OUT crossovers #legit third most popular fic in the whole sole fandom #this still shocks me tbh. The writing is rly flimsy. Ive thought of deleting it out of pure shame but... #i cant bring myself to do so.... #anyway. #i rly do love the potential you can do w angst. i love writing it #i feel like its my specialty. #i struggle w fluff fics. i have tons under my belt in the hw fandom but im just. Not interested in them #i feel like my best works have angst in them #yet theyre not quite as appreciated in this fandom.... #sads. But ill continue w my canon divergent fic anyway. Bc i really am excited for it. I rly do love the idea. #and for the first time in Months i was focused on my writing. I was having fun #even my meoto fics and my aiyuu week fics i let my focus wander #and it took me hours to complete all of those. But ch 1 took me only abt an hour and a half to complete. #like??? Thats amazing #i havent felt that rush from writing since i wrote Ikigai #so im really excited for this one and i sincerely hope yall give it a chance~ despite the dark topics it will have

[chrisbangs]

Bang Chan 특 (S-Class) FANCAM — 230602

#chan #bang chan #stray kids #skz #createskz #cb97net #*gifs #*m #flashing tw #this is famously my specialty (fancam sets...) #i have not slept... #i feel like ive been staring at this for ages but #it really only took abt 2 hrs which is ??? fast for me ... #im not mad abt this tbh....... its honestly.... nawt bad #not great but :] im happy with it #p happy with the colouring considering what it initially looked like #i literally have not slept.. im so tired.. #anyway i really do think if i had to say one thing is My Thing its these silly crazy fancam sets with like 492049 gifs... #i think i make these sets saur well ^__^ #anyway

[pipskippy]

reading dungeon meshi for the first time wheeeeeeee!!!!

#pip speaks #dungeon meshi spoilers #very abridged first thoughts #: #(i’m on chapter 12) #i like the main characters all well enough laios is very autism and he and falin remind me of beat and rhyme (blonde siblings where the olde #r brother is a little insensitive and the younger sister is very kindhearted and also (!!!!!!!!TWEWY SPOILERS) gets eaten by a thing. #TWEWY SPOILERS OVER anyways lots of respect for senshi and my intuition is great bc i assumed chi #chilchuck was not in fact a child and just a type of creature that looks young #although i guess maybe he’s a teenager but i feel like everyone is at least 20s by human standards? #marcille very failgirl energy. i like her hair and outfit. i like everyone’s outfits…i love the unabashed love of fantasy tropes… #but also the rly clever creative creatures like the shellfish armor??? that’s so awesome i’ve never seen anything like that. well i hvent re #read or seen that much fantasy….lol #i like how kui introduces the characters by showing their strengths/specialties and weaknesses and how they learn to work together. its cute #and effective and fun :) joys of writing #oh also this is just me being extremely biased about alphonse but laios always reminds me of him just because blond guy + armor + autistic + #carries a little book of stuff to eat in his armor + looks forward to eating etc. lol #speaking of fma i wonder if the leather shoe on the plate is a fma reference about ed and ling eating ed’s boot. or if #i just think about that any time someone mentions that you can eat leather

[goatmilksoda]

You know, when the pandemic hit, I didn't get the horror a lot of people felt. I read 55 books in 2020 alone and aced AP history and pursued every interest that crossed my path with the feeling that I had this beautiful amount of unpredictable time-- so there was no time to waste (jigsaw puzzles, cooking, baking, hiking, reading, woodworking, crochet, writing, knitting all had to happen right then!)! Who knew when they'd call it "over" and I'd have to go back to school! It was magical and I had never been happier.

Now, I feel like I am feeling the horror so many people felt at the height of the pandemic at my 45 hour a week job.

#the occasional rewards like 'wow great job on that!' are my sourdough bread #and tbh its gotten better now that I'm over 1/3 of the way #especially since Some Shit I cannot discuss on here has Gone Down and has brought all my coworkers much closer #and also I have found SOME stimulation I enjoy with going to a specialty gym once a week #but like... the isolation and existential DREAD and negative willpower so many people felt then are setting in #I don't know how any of you missed this it fucking sucks #goat talk #'Trying to be funny and stuck in a room there's not much to say about it' was really about how I feel at my cubicle

[potpiehead]

ive been more depressed lately

#if you cant tell #during the summer i had some zest for life and felt actually happy lol but with the turn of the season it just disappeared.. so annoying lo #i keep having thoughts that boil down to "id be happier if i were happier' like lol #i know that spending time with my friends and family; always having something going on; engagine with my interests and keeping myself busy #all make me feel good and i think those things came easier over the summer #when im doing something of interest i just feel this whole world open up and everything feels lighthearted and easy and then when i fall ou #of those habits and start doing less everythig just feels dark #the depression i have now is 100x better than the depression i had as a teenager though. i didnt have the life experience to know that #things could be better #it does make me feel good to know that there are things that help #i just feel so mentally weak like there are times when i think of the thing i want to do but the effort it would take is monumental #and it stresses me the fuck out #i applied to a couple of jobs today because i just need a change of fucking scenery and i feel stagnant. #evereythig feels bleak and meaningless but i have moments where i feel everything open up. idk #i have hope for myself lol just that today in particular has been shitty like a concentrated version of the past few months #but i did apply to jobs which is something i was stressing about! and i bought some shit i needed to buy that i kept putting off #i often have so much on my mind and am so overwhlemed i cant even think of getting shit done. this shit is ruining everything #catastrophizing was my specialty in early high school ive been here before its just that being a young adult is a new frontier. #and i feel like ive been sitting in one place not moving even though i have been doing things i need to CHANGE things #i have moments of strength but i know that overall im struggling. #anyway thanks for reading. i have work tomorrow gn!

[ryebreadlord]

#please tell me y’all have seen this ad bc otherwise i look like an idiot #anyways i woke up at 4am and said ‘I’m gonna turn the cool dog gang ad into a fall out boy meme’ #then i queued it but in the morning light i feel as if it needs this backstory… #producing low quality content is my specialty #the photos are blurry once again on account of the 4am-ness of its creation

[todayisafridaynight]

The bookmark tag was #holder until i think of a tag for these asks but To Be Real even I forgot what it was...

BUT YEAH thanks so much for reading and I'm glad it's :] Intelligible At Least :] obviously I would be up for reading anything that came to mind after putting you and your followers through All That but understandable... A lot of people I've shown the checklist items or pointed out specific behaviors to have actually said similar [i.e. I'm In This Picture And I Don't Like It], so I totally get what you mean, too!

I think a lot of my picks wound up being generalized trauma responses/aftereffects of abuse or neglect [hence I meandered off into just talking about Jo's father half the time], so I guess it's to be expected a lot of them don't read as being CSA-specific or are broadly relatable; it's not like he's supposed to be read that way, after all. I just wasn't able to zero in on many of the more specific ones because I've Never Seen Jo In This Situation Chief I Don't Know What He Thinks About His Name Or His Body Or Mirrors Or Sex Or Affection I Don't Know How Well Or Poorly He Sleeps [Presumably Poorly Though He Has The Second-Reddest Eyes In The Whole Game]

I don't really think I'll have anything to add though unless Infinite Wealth goes off the rails or I actually continue reading the book... so that will have to do... I originally was just riffing on RGGJo's attachment issues, self-destructiveness, and specific entwinement of sexuality/aggression/romance, and his portrayal in my fic lined up pretty closely, so I thought it'd be interesting to apply the same lens to Y7Jo...

But Yeah x2 thank you for the opportunity to talk about it and I'm Glad It's Intelligible At Least x2

THANK YOU i really should change that tag to something better... <- i will immediately forget to do so like a jackass

BUT YA OF COURSE OF COURSE i was truthful when i said it was a real good read (but once again. i have -5 speech skills so i can't properly word SHIT) and was a thorough examination of jo's trauma and how it manifests in him and how it's exhibited through his actions. ALWAYS a big fan of that :)

#snap chats #IN REGARDS TO Jo In Situations that is. VAGUELY my specialty #ive at least thought of jo's attitudes towards affection/relationships #and i Do Not Think he sleeps AS adequately as he should whether it's due to just. Overworking or #If I May Dare To Think he might be prone to night terrors #the Danger Zone of me thinking of Jo In Situations that dont have a lot of background is that i end up projecting a LOT of my issues LMAO #i dont know what it says about me when a lot of those issues seem to fit him #i do try my best NOT to over project of course i try to keep everyone relatively in the bounds of believability to their charas #which is why its funny when i do end up doin a lil projection it works out. Apparently #not sure i could do the same when it comes to jo's POV on his name and body tho. i hate those things bout myself for uh #VERY different reasons LMAOO tho i could imagine jo harboring some feelings of. hm. whats the word. #not Total Disgust But Some and Some Agitation whenever he has to acknowledge he exists outside of being a tool. To Put It Bluntly #cause we know he sees himself as a tool in some aspects- a bullet more specifically. so i can imagine instances where he has to Be A Human #its just. Ew Whats That LMAO YK WHAT I MEAN i do. i know what i mean. mirrors are evil #SORRY IM RAMBLING i shouldnt be.. i got gameritis <- i fucked up my wrists playing sonic riders somehow and it hurts to move #point is i very much enjoy thinking of jo and i enjoy looking at him through a multitude of lenses so AGAIN #thank you much for writing in :] im sorry i have three jewel beetles and a cicada shell for a brain #i am always interested in reading what you have to say tho... cant stress that enough.. #truly curious for how jo will be in infinite wealth now that he Doesnt have to be a bullet anymore. what are you like my guy.. lemme see.. #now pardon me while i fuck up my wrists more. i do not want to do my job today (i will soon im just delaying the inevitable. as a treat)

[girlmetalsonic]

WHOAB NEW TOH EPISODE SO GOOD!!!!!!! BUT ALSO RIPPING MY HAIR OUT PLS WHY CLIFFHANGER

#toh #toh spoilers #i got spoiled for luz's palisman so that kinda sucked #also im really not a fan of huntlow but i thought it was handled pretty well although yeah i can admit it cant really be read as platonic- #-anymore the intention is clear sorry huntlow haters but its copium now #honestly like how they did it though. even if not rlly my thing i dont hate it in the show like i thought i would #also collector plotlines. whowhowhowhh i did not think i would care that much but like wow i think they were the best part of the episode- #-for me #the belos stuff was like. wow thats really really cool. i dont personally like the lying to the collector thing bc its just gonna be like- #'ok when r they gonna find out' #but yknow i feel its building to an emotional payoff so its fine i trust the crews writing they make me end up liking stuff i thought id hat #the grimwalker stuff. like with belos. i thought it was cool and creepy but like it felt kinda rushed esp since he didnt even end up using- #-them? #but i cant fault it for pacing i mean cmon they got 3 episodes #overall i really really liked it #also called kikimora INSTANTLY LULZ #i saw her for 2 seconds and was like 'OMG...' #youre welcome my followers i give you my specialty: post with nothing and all the talking is in the tags

[kellystar321]

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#periodical life updates #hi! still sleepy as hel!! thank you for being kind to my poem!! :) #i go back to college on the 6th; ive been thinking of opening ko-fi requests? i already have requests open for free but if people wanted- #to tip me for it it'd be available. im running low on funds and i still need textbooks :'/ not to mention getting lunch sometimes #college is so expensive u-u #i'd be pretty chill if no one requests; i still have enough to scrape by for now but its nice to have the option open #it's mostly going to be sketches; yall know the ones. what i usually do. high effort commissions are a bit overwhelming for me #especially with college work?? bleugh;;; but sketches are my specialty; i could do that probably. just gotta make example sheets #figure out pricing. i might make them 5$ bust/halfbody sketches and if you pay more i'll do more; like draw more of the body or- #add some color and/or simple shading or just draw more shots/add more characters; but it'll be up to how i feel #also how do i get them to people;;; hm. much to figure out. but yeah!! ko-fi requests! seems fun <333 #im not /as/ stressed about college this year but we'll see how it goes folks :P the household is a bit of a mess at the moment. #anyway! might make some food now; or draw; or go back to sleep <33 i love you <33

[howaboutalittlehelpneos]

Mmm I love writing about breakups they are so much fun for me to explore

Gimme that week long depression of just laying in bed letting your body rot because a boy broke your heart, drowning your sorrows in unhealthy food and bad coping mechanisms before eventually, finally shaking it off and learning how to move on for real

#they are just my brand... my specialty #that and horribly depressing tragedies #my favorite things to write are romance and angst #and also smut but i mean that is a given #just wrote up a chapter ending a while ago and while i still need the rest of the chapter i am loving what ive got so far #bitches love to isolate a single scene out of a chapter and go nuts writing it then feel like theyve written the whole chapter #its me im bitches #zen texts

[pinkopalina]

server was discussing if eggman was a troll what his horns might look like and i had two ideas that might go with them! a sexy one and a silly one

#my art #i dont feel like tagging anything else tho and its not a huge thing im super into #but picking the au versions of things and then immediately dropping them is my specialty #wow i guess gamzee has never been called an indigo blood it was a fandom being confused thing #so i meant he should be purple not indigo #but i dont care enough to change it because the only people who are going to care #are people who are going to pick my shit apart for not being perfectly canon anyways #and i could really give a fuck #im keeping it indigo nust to be even more annoying now LOL

[monsterbisexual]

im maybe mostly kinda ok mostly i guess but i do feel like maybe if i think too much abt Things i will just fall apartttt (not in emotional release way just. like into lil tiny bits idk)

#everything felt like it was so hard all the time i was (am) tired hurting physically havin too many feelins #but now its just worse idk #n im doin nothin abt it which is my specialty ofc #ok done thinking abt Things #but mannn i rly do wish shit w my irl friends was back to normal i feel lonelier than usual now idk #like i feel so anxious even talkin to the 2 that are like left cuz its all fucked now idk! #pity party = over (for now) gonna have a piece of cake maybe watch smth stupid lol #p

[chisatowo]

Scribbling ideas for stalien numbers and god this is breaking my brain fgnsjdnd

#rat rambles #oc posting #probably wont post it since Im not sure I wanna fully make official characters for them yet since again graphic design isnt my specialty #well more so Id need a lot of stuff I dont have to rly get the ~realism~ #for example stalien hands lol #mainly what Im stuck with is weather their characters would have any curves or not #their writing is traditionally carved with their thumbs so I feel like theyd naturally arc #but most of the actually movement is usually done with the arm #which I think would still probably have an arc but idk #also the shape of the fond itself rly depends on how indented it would be given that its done with their finger tip hoove nails #now either way I imagine itd look different if it could be seen on their like messaging apps and such #since usually most touch pads made for writing on their phones or computers are more made to be used with just movement of the hand #not that stalien tech has visual screens that you could see the writing on but still #this honestly probably means that if most modern staliens tried to write on clay traditionally itd look a bit slanted and sloppy #again I cant rly know for sure though since yknow. I dont have stalien hands gxngskdh #but yeah the bigger thing is abt actually knowing what to write for whatever numbers #because their number system is broken into threed and sixes #and also another part of designing the initial 5 numbers I need is makinf them all stackable ontop of eachother since thats how they write #double didgits and such #for example their number for 6 would be their 1 and 2 overlapped and up til 12 would be followed by the other single digit #and then once reached 12 the 2 in the combined number would be switcher with a 3 #and once they run through that past the 5 digit the first 1 would be switched to a 2 and would be overlayed by a slightly deeper 1 #oh and the second number overlayed is enscribed deeper to differenciate #oh and if both numbers are the same the second is made a lil shorter #and this goes until we get past 5 5 at which point the 5 5 is preserved and another 1 2 is added #and yeah you can see why this breaks my brain lol #its hard enough to read let alone write a specific number intentionally #like smaller numbers arent too hard but I think once you get past like 36 it starts getting rly confusing #cause thats when we enter the 3rd digits #wait itd actually be 43 my bad hmdhdkhd

[a-sleepy-ginger]

3/4/24

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Baby potato

Finished hime Sama goumon no jikan desu anime and it was really cute

Fruit

#happiness diary #happiness diary: april 2024 #spent the day brain empty cus i didn't have anything to do #well i say i had nothing to do #what i mean is that i don't have any college work to do #i could have done alot like draw or write #but i basically did the equivalent of watching paint dry #so uh thats not great #i dont know why i dont do things which makes it hard for me to fix it #things are easier to sort if you grab them by the root #but i think i need a therapist to find this root cus i just don't know where or what it is #but i don't have access to a therapist so i have to do it the hard way #by just doing stuff #which is hard cus my specialty is not doing stuff #hmm thinking about it i always have the feeling that its not the right time to do leisure stuff #like i ahould do that later cus i should be doing something like work now #but i dont have work to do but my brain doesn't accept that so im left feeling like i cant ro anything #hmmmmmmmm #annoying #im gonna think on this more until i sleep maybe ill get more of an idea #night

[simonstamenovic]

i need hot wings

#bloodletting #its hard to get any that arent pure vinegar from anywhere except like buffalo wild wings #specialty wing restaurants i love you your sauces are my only hope #i feel especially sadistic as s person too

[eternally-tired-cryptid]

.....i need to get therapy again

#like in general yes. #but lately ive been struggling with a very specific issue. and i have no idea how to seek out support w it #bc like. a lot of my trauma is stuff my family went thru together. even the not whole family stuff me and my brothers went thru together #like most of the Big Shit i can at the very least turn to ky dad or brothers or even my gma and be like 'do you feel this too?' but with thi #s specific traumatic issue. i... i cant. they may be able ti see where im coming from and sympathize and validate the struggle. but they won #t have the same specific struggle due to our shared trauma. and its kinda terrifying??? bc like. the people around me can support me and lov #e me but. no one has actual solutions on how to cope w the fear of it. i just. i dont know. #the problem is. i have no idea how to find support groups. so i dont even know if thered be some sort of. like. therapist type.or specialty #id look for? tbh i should just look for therapists who can help w depression and trauma and hope they can help w the specifics