#i don't feel like dying today!

[queerstudiesnatural]

hello! :•D

#i don't feel like dying today! #my stomach is still a bit upset (i need to watch what i eat) but i don't feel so dizzy #i can walk ! without falling ! #yay #i'm staying with my grandparents bc i can't be alone rn i literally can't do anything #and they keep talking about their friends and having their friends over and it's like :) i fit right in :) #we're all talking about how we can't take ten steps without falling down and how we need at home help lol #<3 #anyway i still need help (can't cook and i need to be very careful about what i eat) #(and also if i stay alone with my thoughts for more than five minutes i'll start behaving like a rabid dog) #but i feel better so yay :) hopefully i'll keep improving #and be well enough by the time i get back to work on tuesday 😬 #rain.stuff

[snackugaki]

soft apocalypse 3

training is basically bonding, right? ft. future!venus

#rage #rage against the dying of the light #you want grimdark future you came to the wrong blog buddy #turtlepedia's Rise movie gallery has been the backbone to these #thank you turtlepedia #...I feel like I need to clarify that's a whoopie cushion #like how kids today don't know how to work a rotary phone #how recognizable is a whoopie cushion in this day and age? #the squeaky chicken though has reached icon status #there's something about thee soulless screaming of a rubber chicken staying relevant #over the joy of a particularly juicy fart noise #i don't know what it is tho

[nguyenfinity]

Every time I draw Mamagi it does AoE damage (I am also in the area of effect)

Lighthearted bonus:

#enstars #hiiro amagi #rinne amagi #i don't know if this is a bad time to be amagi-posting given that hiiro's fs2 just dropped but. oh well #also this might be the last thing i draw for a bit because i am in the final stretch of this semester #if you sent in a request. i will get to it and thank you for your patience #anyways i know i'm kinda being like 'haha rinne mama's boy' which like. yeah but also sometimes-- #--sometimes you're an adult in their 20s and like. yeah sure you're technically an adult or whatever but you still feel like a kid yeah? #and sometimes you just maybe want your mom to help you when you're lost or confused or when you need someone to tell you it'll be okay #but you won't get that for whatever reason #sincerely: an adult in their 20s #....can you tell why rinne is like. a vibe to me now #anyways i'm not saying mamagi dying was a necessary evil but if hiiro and rinne had an adult who actually loved them at home they probably- #-wouldn't have left and we wouldn't have the main story #if she was alive today tho she'd be going to their lives sorry i don't make the rules (yes i do) #if she ends up being exactly like the rest of their village in some future lore i'm gonna be so sad. #she'd throw hands with niki's parents #imagine leaving your sons behind because you straight up died (couldn't really do anything about that) #meanwhile your son's boyfriend's parents just. up and left him because they could #also posts with her will be tagged mamagi #if you read all that <3 #mamagi #she'd adopt all the bees and alkaloid too #imagine if they got their singing skills from her #also mamagi 1 rinniki shipper (also does not care it's not legal) #rinniki

[house-in-the-backyard-trees]

Bawled like 3 times today I'm so mentally sound

#i am contemplating calling off work tomorrow and just fucking sleeping all day #I'm just so emotionally exhausted I don't know how much more i can take #like i was full on sobbing in my mom's arms today #i want to be happy again i was so happy before. I'm 1 more inconvenience from checking myself into a mental hospital for a fucking break #like i could tell my therapist I've thought about some pretty dark shit the past few weeks #like I'm just so tired. so so tired. i don't know how people just get their hearts shattered and then keep living. i feel like I'm dying

[feralnumberfive]

#btw I have a major cold and feel like shit and can't breathe out of my nose #if I shovel then I also risk a heart attack #forgot to mention I don't have my winter coat and my snow boots are in my car and the only shoes I have inside are my crocs #oh and it's still supposed to snow until 6 pm today and we're expected to get another 6-10 inches #I feel like I'm dying #poll #personal

[studentbyday]

mood

#literally so behind on school #i did finish some urgent things today #but only tmr will i *really* start working on the big things that are worrying me bc tho they're big they're also due a couple days away #but like... #they feel really big #so idk how much time i actually have to do all the big things that are currently really important but not 🚨URGENT🚨 urgent #studyblr #stu(dying) #istg i gotta fix this school mess (i.e. get ahead) #and physical/digital mess (backburner stressor 😵‍💫😭) #AND figure out how to do this lab thing over reading week #oooohhhh idk if this is just me being delusional about how much i can do in a single week out of school #i need to sleep #100dop #too tired to tag #good night #i did wake up at 7:45 today which i'm considering a win since it's been quite hard to get myself to do that XD #i don't think i've ever gotten up this early of my own will before #so that's nice #rant #chaotic academia #chaotic academic aesthetic

[uncanny-tranny]

Could you describe your gender using words that are not typically used to describe one's gender?

The wave of exhilaration I got when I finally thought of a story I want to write after being burnt out for over five years, or maybe novels from the romantic movement or the decadent movement, for the latter it would primarily be the manner in which people spoke with each other in The Picture of Dorian Gray

#ask #trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #actually y'all feel free to share your obscure gender descriptions #i still need to finish picture of dorian gray though.. #i just adore the stiffness of the character's speech and the overly formal address they have for each other #i find myself really wanting to imitate the style of the romantic/decadent movements because it's so nice to read #and the things they write that would be considered purple prose today maybe is just... i like it #like yes!!! describe to me in three pages what that grandfather clock looks like i am dying to know <3 #i do find myself writing more... horror i guess so it'd be me describing in three pages just the most grotesque things lol #my hot take is that you should use purple prose and flowery language. doing it well is a different matter though #and horror absolutely needs some level of purple prose i think. the things that horrify me most are the things left to rot in my heart.. #...and that'swhat makes it GOOD! i don't want to be hit again and again i want to SIT with it and let it grow and manifest and be UNBEARABLE #if i read/watch something horror-based or with horror elements and it doesn't do that then i tune it out frankly #that is my hot literature/film(ish) take #(part of the reason i barely watch horror movies anymore is the fact that so many of them tend to be 'hit them again and again' style) #(and filtering those movies out from the movies i'd be horrified by isn't fun or engaging lol)

[hyunrun]

tw ed in the tags !!

#im feeling sooo awful abt my body today its crazy #i dont wanna relapse but also i have prom and grad coming up so its very very tempting #silly side note but ive been friends w some moots on edtwt longer than I've known some of my irls and that's crazy to me #anyway i was looking at tweets of me being so majorly uber excited abt final hitting 45 kg T-T like man omfg #feb 23 me was the skinniest id ever been and i was thriving !! #and i highkey wanna be that again #was my hair thinning and did my face look so gaunt it scared me at times? yes #did i also feel my prettiest + have the most external validation from strangers etc ever? also yes !! #i feel fat and ugly rn but I'm also just very averagely weighted #but i have a naturally broader built but i feel like i look bigger even if I'm not ?? 9ufdkjhjs #anyway its scary looking through old tweets bc I'm talking abt skipping lunch like everyday and stuff like that's scary !! don't do that #but also it makes me wanna do it again like if i could look like that again... id genuinely kill myself for it #i was kinda also p healthy back then LOL only ate god food #cardio every evening + muscle training every morning #anyway teehee thats all i very much dislike my body rn and i hope i can lose a bit so i don't feel like dying <3 #i have hope bc im only 5kg off what i used to be so !! shouldn't be too hard yaaya if i can just get back in the 40s ill be happy like a 47 #i got this !! hopefully will not destroy myself in the process yay #tw ed

[hannie-dul-set]

worked until 5am at a friend's place to prepare for an event, slept for an hour, went back home, and am now on a commute to a district 2hrs away for an assignment i am doing very well.

#no bcs i feel like dying actually HSDHSFJJK #reserving tomorrow for some do not disturb self care #(self care: writing my loser fics) #let's hope i don't pass out today because i forgot to mention that i also have not eaten anything yet HAHAHAHQJQJJQJ

[i-can-even-burn-salad]

What's your favorite thing about your wip and why? For till death

How would you explain your wip to someone who knew nothing about it? - consider this practice for till death lol

Thank you for the ask! From this ask game.

What's your favorite thing about your wip and why?

I'm on the last few chapters of my first re-read. I love pretty much all of it. I love the nasty torment. I love the almost-dying-in-her-arms-x4. I love the fluffy moments. I love killing the bad guys. I love Eilis' little quirks, and my little gw easter eggs, and the little details.

I don't think any of it would work on its own. So perhaps my favorite thing is how well it all came together, despite having no fucking clue what I was doing?

How would you explain your wip to someone who knew nothing about it?

Ohgodohgodohgodohgod.

"You know that book I've been talking about nonstop for the past 4 months? Please forget it exists." 😅

On a slightly more serious note, that depends on the audience. Here on tumblr, where it's pretty clear what I write, it's not that hard. I could slap a few tropes, content warnings and representation notes on a dead dove sticker.

Disabled trans guy with a horrible past gets repeatedly tortured, and autistic ace non-girl with a horrible past patches him up every time. Hurt/comfort 🥺 Forced to watch 👀 Despite all the guilt and horrors, they fall in love 🥰 Heed the warnings!

Real life, I already wanna jump out of a window rather than mention it has a trans protagonist 🙄 And imagining my coworker might read the graphic noncon I wrote makes my soul leave my body...

I can defend Thorns. I can defend HmW. I can defend Glass Shards. They're "normal" novels.

But this one and Undeserved have been written pretty much only for the pain, and while I am still proud of the stories they tell, it's hard to explain — and I will have to find a diplomatic way to explain that half of the book is misery and graphic violence if she wants to read it 😅

"So I saw a really shitty horror movie, and I thought I could do that better..."

#salad-ask #starlit-hopes-and-dreams #wip: till death #Just so you know #I am internally dying typing that first quote alone #I think I need a shower now #I don't know I think I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today #(is that the english saying? It's so weird.) #But I think all that nastiness isn't uncommon #it's just that it usually doesn't have a happy end #which once again makes me feel like I belong in no genre (:

[todayisafridaynight]

i think ichi would still go into work while suffering from *gameritis and hes so brave for that he's so committed

#snap chats #*aka playing videogames too much to the point of his wrist hurting from pushing the buttons so much #aka. me LMAOO OWWW OWIE OUCH VIDEOGAMES ARE SUPPOSED TO BE FUN NOT PAIN #the alternative is him calling arakawa at like 8AM in pain and shit all 'boss... im real sorry... i wont be able to make it today...' #and then instead of ichi like. Dying it's just cause dragon quest 6 came out and he binged all of it over the weekend #CRYING at the thought arakawa keeping up with videogame releases just to know when to esp look after ichi #like Hey Totally Unrelated Don't Think About It But I Got Someone To Cover You This Weekend.... that kinda b ☠️☠️ #and then its like Oh Wow New Game Coming Out Friday What Luck :))) ☠️☠️☠️ #sometimes he'll put his foot down dont worry.... theres SOME limits to how lenient arakawa can be.... #n e way. i cant feel my thumb and my tendon feels funky.. so i am no longer playing games and i am Doing My Job.... #luckily my drawing wrist isnt affected but still.. lmao.. #im almost done with the sketches for them so then i can just send those off to my commissioners and then ima do a quick lil doodle #either that or ill sketch a comic... tho whenever i do that i end up never doing them.. #might convert it to a fic but anyway back to work

[oifaaa]

tim could be called icarus lol

I mean he does get burned a lot

#Ask #Anon #Side note tho #I was driving through a prod part of the county today #And I saw all the union Jack's being flown half mast #You bc of the queen #And all I could of #Was how easy they'd be to just rip down #They're so close #Like I didn't bc I don't feel like dying today #But like just a suggestion for anyone who might be a bit faster then me

[confinesofmy]

shopping in the big city with my cousin and grandmother was waaay more pleasant than i thought it would be. :^))) we stopped literally 8 different places and it was not a bit of hassle at all. i think the key to me having a good time is me being the driver and itinerary maker. and everybody else seemed to like it too. :^ <-the face i make when tumblr doesn't allow you to end a post with a parenthesis... for some reason..... they took my smile y'all. 😔

#fr think we saved like $400 on groceries combined today #and they both liked aldi #i'm so glad i don't have driving anxiety anymore 😭 today could've been hell for absolutely no reason #but because i'm not pure dying of fear behind the wheel now it made the whole day like 10x better for me and everyone else #and everybody in all the stores was super niceys :^) #maybe i'm just happy to be alive or whatever idk. like i feel really good about every aspect of today. #adam yaps

[byanyan]

byan "i thought being a vampire would be sick as fuck but instead it's turned my life upside down, caused me to lose the few safety nets i actually had, and somehow given me less freedom where i thought it'd give me more" byun

#yes I'm still stuck on fledgling verse ok don't look at me #I JUST...... i have a lot of feelings about them discovering that becoming a supernatural creature is not as neat as they thought #I mean it's not like they made the choice themself or anything... but u know... #they had their hopes after the shock of their embrace wore off #but then it turns out they have trauma over the event??? and now they have to leave everything they knew behind??? #gotta figure out everything for themself and have no stable place to live so they're at risk of dying EVERY DAY bc of the gd sun #somehow they've become even more of an outsider & now they've got a hard time trusting other vamps bc most consider them better off dead #they're isolated and traumatized and overall just Not Having a Good Time #they're so ANGRY but at the same time so CRIPPLINGLY DEPRESSED that on any given night they're either breaking shit & getting into fights #or they're having the most impossible time finding the will to crawl from their hiding place to feed themself #and don't even get me STARTED on instances where they've lost control & hurt someone they care about UGH #yeah....... i love this verse it's so deliciously angst lmao #all this to say I'm gonna try to poke more of the prompts for it in my ask today #once I complete the last two full name prompts ofc uvu #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ verse: fledgling. #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[aberooski]

I'm seriously hanging on by a thread right now I might just go drop dead 😭

#work has just been really overwhelming today I'm going to crack #I hate people #I almost broke down in front of the usher manager today because our radio died while we were falling behind becaus3 #one of the theatres got out slightly late and set us back for like 45 minutes because everything was gettinf out one on top of the other #on complete opposite ends of the theater #amd it's not a small building guys #and I was already angry because there was a huge spill in a theater earlier I had to get a mop for and it was a pain in the ass #then we started falling behind and when we fall behind I get really stressed so I jad to ask the usher manager for help to catch up when we #were switching radios and even with his help we didn't catch back up until JUST NOW because we're on a 30 minute set break #and I've jusy been stressing and running around the theater and I want to go home and cry and drop dead #I'm so hot and tired and drained amd my legs have been sore for DAYS and this is NOT helping and I hate it here and I qant a real job #like I'm fucking 24 years old this shouldn't be the best I can do but trying to find anything else to get out of here has been IMPOSSIBLE #and I just feel so hopeless and helpless and trapped and miserable #I'm so angry and sad and tired and in pain and miserable all the time now #and it's awful and I hate it I don't wanna be that wah anymlre #I can't even type oh my god #I'm dying #abby's having a crisis

[earl-grey-crow]

✨pond theories✨

#I don't have pond theories I have commentary on the latest episode which I got around to watching today #because I was watching gran turismo on sunday (amazing movie) (maybe an even better soundtrack I'm listening to it for the third time today #I just really love kat and thomas's dynamic I'm not saying I ship them I'm just saying they're just really fun to watch together #I know it was unrealistic to expect kat to smash a bottle of rum on thomas what with jacob dying in the background but can you #can you just imagine. if she did. can you imagine how great that would be. #and can you imagine how great it would've been to see him unceremoniously drop her into the ocean like. get drenched idiot. #the way home hallmark #also NOAH we finally got a NAME my word #it's so strange they waited this long to mention it like did I miss it before?? #right now he's barely interesting but idk after that scene where they're singing in alice's room #I feel like he might have the potential to be a friend #I just don't want them to make it a ship because good grief do we need it (no) #and not everything has to be a ship #and also girl. alice. you barely know him. why?? #alice asking why guys can't just say what they mean is the most relatable thing I've ever heard lol #I think it'd be interesting if nick put the pieces together that his alice and this alice are the same alice #it'd add to the chaos which would be fun #that look elliot gave nick at the fire on the beach was soooo so tired. he's just so tired. #and please WHAT happened at the estate WHAT went down at the party and WHAT happened in the past that elliot's so worried about #the way they're drawing this out is sublime #also how painful this is for kat?? and for del?? but especially kat in this episode?? wild #what a good episode #earl crow ramblings