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elmaxlys · 1 year

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Since I don’t know much about it, how about Tokyo Ghoul for the fandom part of the ask game?

Ohoo :3 many thanks!

001 | Send me a fandom and I will tell you my:

Favorite character:

Donato Porpora (as if there's anyone who doesn't know that by now..)

He is soo!! He's sadistic bastard yet still a loving dad, he's the most powerful non kakuja ghoul around, he is so so extremely smart, he's in jail and holding the very people that hold him captive by the balls and still avoided being executed even after 15 years. He is Everything, I love him sooo much and he is My Dad.

Least Favorite character:

I used to have this group of characters I disliked that I called the T Gang and they were Torso, Tsuneyoshi, Tokage and Touka but I actually love the first 3 and og Touka (still hate her :re self), so that's no longer applicable lmao. If I have to choose, it's probably between King and :re Touka.

King is one Kaneki's alters, from about the middle of :re on. He is one insufferable, self righteous, hypocritical, egoistic bastard that no longer serves any purpose in the plot apart from. you know. being there. He's an asshole to his people and even more to his friends. He looks at the horrors and says "I have the power to stop them but eeeeh why should I. Let's stop the only person who's trying, instead!" I hate him as a person and as a character.

As for Touka, I still like her in og, she's amazing, she's driven and she's strong with a strong character with a dream and a goal. And in :re?? She's reduced to Sad Housewife- oh wait no look she switched to Abusive Housewife- oh wait look she switched to Sexual Harasser But Makes It ~Sexy~ Housewife- oh look at that she's being written out of the story after she got married and knocked out. Damn who could have predicted that.

In Touka's case, it's mostly a case of Writers Hate Women, though, so I'll say King is my ultimate least favorite.

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon):

Utaren (Uta/Yomo Renji) - my all time OTQP

Matsurie (Washuu Matsuri/Urie Kuki) - I love you power imbalance, I love you D/S relationships, I love you one-sided love, I love you willfully becoming another man's dog, I love you closeted flamboyant men of high social status with a hidden identity that could be made disappeared by their own family in the event of disappointment

Shuuneki (Tsukiyama Shuu/Kaneki Ken) - I ship it exclusively if it's og Kaneki (either Kuroneki or Shironeki). Shuu deserves better than :re Kaneki.

Nishikimi (Nishio Nishiki/Nishino Kimi) - the only canon pairing that matters

Amoneki/Amonhaise (Amon Koutarou/Kaneki Ken or Sasaki Haise) - platonic/soft-romo

Bonus: Maruchika (Marude Itsuki/Washuu Yoshitoki) - lowkey but painfully

I'll take this occasion to show one of my favorite Shuuneki illustration

Character I find most attractive:

In very different categories, I'll mention 2: Yoshitoki (very dad-like charm) and Tsukiyama Shuu (World's Prettiest Boy)

Character I would marry:

Shuu, pretty, rich and very kind what more could you want? I'd let him eat me any day

Character I would be best friends with:

One I would want to be bffs with is Amon Koutarou, one I would actually get along with would be Hori Chie lmao. I wanted to say Saiko but that could only work as online friends I think.

A random thought:

I don't like the revisionist history that Shuu always had teal hair and that the purple was an anime invention. The below illustration is from 2013, so before the anime. Ishida drew him with purple hair on more than one occasion, another one being the Past novel cover.

An unpopular opinion:

Donato should have been the One-Eyed King and Kanou did more for society than Kaneki ever will

My Canon OTP:

That'd be Nishikimi. They're so Ride or Die hhhhhh 💕

My Non-canon OTP:

OTQP but Utaren (tho the "non-canon" aspect is debatable in the QP department) I wanted to find a 2nd choice, so i'd have an actual romantic ship but none of my ships is romantic??? I'd consider none of them to be OTP. Only Utaren qualifies, so Utaren it is.

Most Badass Character:

Donato

Honorable mention to Tatara, Uta and Kurona (and half the cast *ahem*)

Most Epic Villain:

MY BABY MY DARLING MY SWEETIE SOUTA/FURUTA NIMURA/WASHUU KICHIMURA/MR. PG/WHATEVER ELSE HE GOES BY!!!!!!!

He is so good!! he is such a good character, such a good villain! he is so smart so destructive so depressed so suicidal so ruthless so manipulative he is everything one could wish for in a villain and antagonist AND he moves the plot more than the supposed protagonist like. So so epic!!

He's the best.

Pairing I am not a fan of:

so so many lmfao I'll mention T*uken tho and, hilariously enough (given the history of the fandom), H*dek*ne

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another):

Touka, oh my fucking god. I mentioned why in the "least favorite character" bit but jfc.. jfc...

(also Amon in :re)

Favourite Friendship:

Uta and Renji win.

But because that's not fair given they're also my OTP, I'll also mention the 4th ward gang (Uta, Yomo Renji, Itori), Shuu and Hori Chie, Urie and Saiko, and one purely from my brain, Saiko and Amon Koutarou

Character I most identify with:

Picture a mix of Urie Kuki and Yonebayashi Saiko

Character I wish I could be:

Haisaki 🥰

(oh to be brutally killed by Donato...)

(but for real, everyone's life sucks major time in TG so no thanks. i want Uta's gender tho.)

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The Ask Game

#thank you <3 #tokyo ghoul #i don't feel like cropping so #long post

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00127am · 29 days

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my urichil :(

#🗯️ titi talks!#please ignore the top of my hello kitty cursor i don't feel like cropping her out #why were they (YUTA AND MARK) in heat in this video #i missed taeil so much :(#and now ty ... i'm done for

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yandere-daydreams · 18 hours

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I'm a big promoter of making what you want to see, I know everyone isn't "naturally gifted", but you can build skill with study and practice.

You wanna see a fic for something niche? Write it! You wanna see a yandere fic for this one character who doesn't have yandere? Write it! You wanna see something cute and fluffy? Write it!

I know that having to write what you want to read can suck, but if you stick with it long enough, you'll start to see other people come out of the woodwork too and I think that's the best part.

exactly!!! i think fandom in it's best form is just kinda one big group project where everyone contributes something to the collective conversation, so it's very counter-intuitive to try and pick on the people who are doing their best to make more of the things they love when you yourself are simply. not. i get that not everyone has time to write and draw for pleasure, but if you're going to bitch about what other people do contribute, you really have to be adding something yourself. if you think there are too many dead dove fics, block the tags/authors and write some fluff. absolutely curate your own experience, but don't try to curate everyone's unless you want fan-spaces to die out entirely.

#i'm feeling very ramble-y today BUT #it just really bothers me when people complain about the type of content that crops up in a space they are not actively contributing to T-T #and then they act like enjoying stuff that isn't squeaky-clean is at all comparable to endorsing unhealthy relationships irl or something #there was a specific post that set me off but #i'm pretty sure the op is a minor so i don't want to reblog it or tag them or anything #so i whine in the privacy of my own blog #personal #anon ask

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beesinspades · 1 year

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happy pride month from vash the stampede!!!! 💜 seeing all the ace vash art makes me so happy I wanted to contribute!

#trigun #trigun maximum #trigun fanart #asexual #vash the stampede #trimax #re: charms if it happens shipping will be from belgium jsyk!!#he makes me so happy!!!#AND WHAT IF I TEAR UP?? WHAT THEN????#you guys i didn't know something i made could make me feel this way #i spent an embarrassing amount of time on it sdfjbkln #i'm posting it now because if I don't i'm gonna spend another 5 hours on it #granted i could still end up tweaking it and just editing my post bUT STILL #for context i'm not great at art i barely ever draw but i want to improve so i decided to draw one vash every day of june #i've been seeing a little bit of improvement and when I drew this one he was pretty flawed but also he made me so happy that i was like #ok i'm cleaning it up and fixing it digitally #and now 12+ hours of work later here we are #ANYWAY ANYWAY I'M RAMBLING #THANK YOU FOR THE ACE VASH ART THIS MONTH YOU GUYS INSPIRED ME PLEASE KEEP IT COMING #it clears my skin waters my crops #also pls don't follow me for this i post art once every six months at best you'll be disappointed!! i'm a writer first and foremost #anyway gotta go draw today's vash weehee!#bee draws #ace vash tag

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mayathescientist · 8 months

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aa5 am I right

#maya posts #maya art #ace attorney #aa5 #dual destinies #ace attorney dual destinies #simon blackquill #athena cykes #aura blackquill #I don't feel like tagging everyone #I'm gonna ramble a bit instead #I've been so self concious about posting art that isn't scanned ever since I was told that I should scan it #but I don't scan 90% of the stuff I make so I basically have no art to post #I only post if I firmly believe its good enough #but 90% of my usual art is unhinged doodles for even more unhinged aus or just heads of my favorite characters floating around #but I'm an artist and I want to be considered as such #so I personally consider myself an artist of tumblr even though I barely post my art #I still make it and that's what matters #anyway enjoy the drawing #also yes I couldn't crop out all of the background. and after all why don't I let the world know about the ugly floor I have

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tiny-tf-faces · 3 months

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:0

I didn't even know there were this many tf fans on tumbrl

Welp, I definitely chose the right website for this thing then

When I started screenshotting tiny faces, I had no idea it would one day become my biggest contribution to society. Not complaining, though!

Thank you (yes, you, the person reading this post), for your time, your attention, your delightful additions to my posts, the faces you've contributed, or just the overall good vibes :) You are much appreciated!

I still have plenty more to post, and there is more source material on the way, so let's hope I can one day reach 1000 faces

Until then, drink water and remember you're all really cool and awesome!

#not a face #at this point i'm not even that surprised anymore but this still feels unreal #i guess the main takeaway from this is that if you can't do something entirely new or better than everyone else #then the key to popularity is to repost cropped versions of existing content #just like a yt shorts channel #jokes aside i'm really happy this has resonated with so many people #every interaction i've had with people on this blog has left me with the warm fuzzies #exept that one ask about pinterest 'findings' but we don't talk about that one #just like we don't talk about the pineapple

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moe-broey · 1 month

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Got inspired to revisit this FEH comic redraw I did when it first dropped! Specifically these panels:

Ended up freestyling that second Xane though LMFAOO he is just so impish to me...

If you wanna get Old Art Jumpscared I'll also include the original sketch under cut!

AAAAAAAAA JUMPSACRE AAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!

In a way though, I'm glad that I dropped it and picked it up again later... like I feel like this isn't even from that long ago (guy who has no sense of the passage of time voice), but the characterization and even design of Moe is so different. The Scrunch and :< face were game changers for it LMFAOOO (also just making it autisticer 👍)

Beyond that I think everyone looks a lot better and closer to how I envision them, esp Loki!

#fire emblem #feh #please do not the moe. it doesn't like it :(#TRIED. to capture that really pretty hair gradient that's in loki's mythic but idk if i got it #i am really satisfied w the little changes i made to xane's pallette though! his halloween alt is just. So Red LMFAO #WHICH. UNDERSTANDABLE. that is his signature color. i feel like just a few changes pull it together more though #which does tempt me to do a full body art of him...... but don't hold me to it LMFAO #ALSO DAMN....... moe interactions with other charas that aren't the askr siblings/unofficial extended family.......#like in universe it probably happens frequently/casually but. it's rare for me to actually draw it LMFAOO #i just.... always have the askr siblings on my mind.......#also i am just deeply in love w alfonse here like. this WAS the initial pose i was imagining when i first drew this #i ended up cropping it so much though. wasn't as skilled in Drawing Really Small yet #also just. i feel like there's more layers here w the updated moe characterization like. he's not just In Too Deep for the summoner #he knows it really doesn't like that (being touched ESP without warning/permission).#like beyond his own feelings he has a reason to be so intensely protective. which i'm also sure #is what he tells himself.#they just have a really funny dynamic. that i hope shines through every now and again! 😅#fe alfonse #fe xane #fe loki #moe tag #summoner oc #my art #my comics

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vamp-a-day · 4 months

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day 70

learned my art program has an animation feature

#vampire cookie daily #vampire cookie #juice bat #i know there's like a billion dead space in this one but i don't feel like trying to figure out how to crop a gif rn #ibis paint is fucking stupid and locked any kind of canvas options behind a paywall #so this is the best i got #but knowing i can use my custom brushes in a program i'm already familiar with?#i'm about to go insane with power i miss animating

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vurelly · 1 year

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being gender queer is really just a constant battle of “do i look queer enough today for others within the community to respect me” and “i do not have to perform to be worthy of feeling comfortable in my own skin”

#vu talks shit #idk i just ran through three outfits because i wanted one that wasnt too feminine today #even tho i love dressing femininely #i love looking feminine i love the clothing i love the styles i love it and i feel so good when i dress that way #but i don't like being called maam or having people use she/her pronouns towards me #i ended up settling on a crop top and no binder and i still feel good so fuck it we ball

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klanced · 11 months

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this isn’t even about my evil agenda anymore I actually just need to hear your dissertation on voltron/klance x first love late spring

you do evil things to my dick and balls. i hope you know that.

first love / late spring is a very keith-core song, but i think it also applies to both keith and lance... but more specifically, FL/LS is keith pre-relationship, and then FL/LS is lance once they have already started dating.

i'm obsessed with that one interview of mitski where she explained that she wrote this song while she was experiencing her vulnerable first love... and first love is vulnerable. you simultaneously reap the rewards of being known but at the same time, you've now let someone else know you, and now you have to trust them to take care of you. and it's so vulnerable. it's more naked than being naked. and it's so difficult as well because now you're learning a brand new way you can be hurt.

so keith, pre-relationship... he's pining for lance and he is MISERABLE. he's lost control! he feels like he's being consumed by the enormity of his feelings. he's eight years old and small and never asked for this, he never wanted to know he could feel this way. he just wants lance to fucking go already. keith wants to spit vitriol and blame and shame and drive lance away so that when lance leaves him (and he will leave him, like everyone else has), then at least it will be on keith's own terms for once. and keith doesn't, he refuses, to say how he feels. he'll spitefully choke on his confession until it suffocates him. he doesn't want to know what lance might say.

but he also is afraid of lance's reaction because... if lance gives him even a sliver of ground, if there's even a promise of a chance -- keith will fold instantly. he will jump into this love headfirst. he'll do anything if it will make lance stay with him.

and then lance, mid-established relationship... things with keith are perfect, everything is going great, so why does lance feel so anxious all the time? why does he feel so scared when keith looks at him like he's his whole world? maybe the problem is lance. because what they have is real. because he's pretty sure keith is it for him. and that terrifies lance. because lance, deep down, knows he's going to screw this up. and it's not just his heart on the line; he's also going to hurt keith.

keith smiles at him and lance feels sick to his stomach. he wants to tell keith that they might be happy right now, but eventually, lance is going to ruin this. he wants to warn keith that lance is going to break his heart one day.

lance isn't always so negative about himself. during the day, it's easy to let himself be buoyed and enveloped by his feelings for keith. he loves being in love with keith. because the love is real. it's real, and it's there, and that matters. but at night, all those poisonous insecurities and anxieties rear their ugly head, and lance finds himself standing on a ledge over a drop. lance daydreams about spending the rest of his life with keith; lance has never felt so young and small.

#mintcaboodle #klance #voltron #ask #the old child/young adult metaphor is also like. so lance-core. AND THE 'I DON'T WANT TO GO HOME' LINE!!!!!!!!#im in my feels tonight i'm sorry the lance analysis is not fully cooked #also like obviously lance doesn't always feel this way. it's more pertinent closer to the beginning when he #starts to fully realize the depths of his feelings and he's freaking out because he's beginning to understand what it means to spend #the rest of your life with someone and that is a TERRIFYING thing to want and imagine when you're only 17/18 #lance does get better though and his insecurities die out the longer and more stable his relationship with keith is #though sometimes those same insecurities crop up now and again #i talk a lot about pining keith and how like tumultuous his experience is. but once he starts dating lance things even out for him #whereas lance is relatively chill in his pining and then begins to flounder after they get together and after he's realized the Love word #otp: we are a good team #katiecanons #idk i guess #keith #lance

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hannah-heartstrings · 3 months

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Sweet Surprise

During a trip to Skingrad, Lecrinn and Garrus decide to surprise each other. Early in the timeline, though I'm not actually sure how canon it is.

The lost sweetroll prompt fic. I spent half a month writing this, finished it, and went "meh." By then I'd worked on it to the point of not being able to tell if it was good or not, and I still can't tell.

So I'll just release it into the wild and you can tell me. (I do know some things I do and don't like but I decided to keep them to the tags.) From October 2022 but I'm still accepting concrit on it.

@druidx @babyblueetbaemonster @inkysqueed

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Cradling two sweet rolls in one hand Lecrinn held them close as she pushed the heavy door with the other. She opened it just enough to slip out, leaving the chatter and warmth of the busy inn for the street outside. It was also busy and warm but more tolerably so.

She squinted against the afternoon sun. Now that she had the sweet rolls it was time to find Garrus, after she dragged him all the way from Cheydinhal to Skingrad it was only right he get something out of it.

The roads were narrow between the tall stone buildings that arched above them. She weaved through their hustle and bustle. The street widened out into a fork, forward continued to more buildings and to the left, a statue of a horseman. There gazing up at the statue she found Garrus.

Catching her from the corner of his eye he turned and beamed at her.

She couldn’t help but smile back.

“I have a surprise for you,” he said as she walked up.

“So do I!” She stopped, both their smiles falling at the sweet rolls in the other’s hands. Looking back up at the other’s face they gave laughing smiles.

“I suppose we had the same idea,” he shifted.

She shrugged. “It’s a good idea.” His smile looked forced, he seemed to feel awkward, she didn’t know why and it was making her feel awkward too. “Well… this one’s yours,” she held one out and they swapped, both laughing a little. She noticed he only held one. “Did you already eat yours?”

“I uh,” he glanced down, “I don’t know how much money this trip will end up costing so I only bought one for you.”

“Oh…” she looked to her second one.

“You can keep it.”

“Nah, lets split it later.”

“No, you bought it for yourself, you can have it.”

She walked passed him. “One and a half sweet rolls is still more than I planned on getting.”

He tilted his head, he supposed that was true. Turning he saw her sitting on the round base of the statue. He looked startled. “Are you allowed to sit there?”

“I don’t see anyone guarding it.” Pulling the pack off her shoulders and beside her she rifled through it.

“What if you get in trouble?”

“Then you can just arrest me.”

He looked around before going over to sit beside her.

Finding a small cloth she wrapped up one of the rolls and put it in her pack. She then turned all her attention to the one in her hand, closing her eyes as she took a bite, savoring its sweet spice.

“Mmm!”

She looked to Garrus who was looking at his sweet roll surprised.

“They really are better in Skingrad.”

“Salmo’s sweet rolls are famous for a reason.”

“Perhaps we should get more of these before we leave.”

Her smile widened. “Does Cheydinhal have its own desserts?” She took another bite.

“There’s the thirty layer cake.”

She had to quickly swallow the bite. “Thirty layers?”

“They’re thin.”

“Why would you ever need thirty layers?!”

“No, they’re very thin, it isn’t much taller than a regular cake.”

“Oh… I’m having a hard time picturing it,” she gave a smirk, “I think I’ll have to see it for myself.” The smile turned more genuine. “Is it good?” She took a smaller bite.

“I haven’t got to try one, they’re expensive.”

The smile fell. “Oh.”

“I like the spiced root cake the Dunmer make, and there’s one made from something called marshmerrow, it’s a little too sweet for me but I think you’d like it.”

“I’ll have to try them next time I’m in town.”

“I’m also quite fond of the bread they make out of yams, though,” he lowered his voice, “I’ve been afraid to try it with scrib jelly.”

“What’s that?”

“…Maybe when you’re done with your sweet roll.”

Her brows rose.

As they continued eating she looked around, gaze catching on the red leaves of a nearby tree, its branches bobbing slightly.

He stared out at the street. “I have been trying to learn more about Dunmer culture, and not judge things that are different too quickly.”

She smirked to him. “Except for scrib jelly?”

“Well some things are easier to respect from afar.”

“Ah.”

“It is admirable though, because not much grows in the ashlands they have to find food elsewhere and they managed to get multiple food types out of something others wouldn’t see as such, they’re survivors, no matter the situation you put them in.”

She furrowed her brows. “I really don’t want to know what a scrib is, do I?”

“No.” Tearing a piece off his sweet roll he rolled it between his fingers. “I hope that learning more about them will help me be a better guard to them, like you said, at the very least, perhaps I’ll be a better man.”

Her smile lessened but turned more genuine. “You are a good guard.”

“I hope so, protecting everyone is why I became a guard in the first place.” Eating the bite his eyes lit up. He turned to her. “Does the Merchant Inn still make those blackberry tarts?”

“What?” She blinked, brain taking a second to keep up with the sudden topic change.

“I use to get them sometimes when I was training in the Imperial City.”

“Um…” she glanced off, thinking, before turning back to him. “I don’t know, I’ll check. If they do I’ll bring you some, unless they wouldn’t stay good… Maybe I’ll just have to bring you there,” she smirked.

“Hopefully that can be soon,” he turned back to his sweet roll.

She looked surprised. Did he mean he wanted the tarts soon or did he like her dragging him places? She looked away as she couldn’t contain the grin spreading across her face.

Turning back to him she saw he was staring at his dessert, the same awkward look as when she gave it to him. Seemed whatever had been bothering him never really went away. “What’s wrong?”

“I am grateful, truly, but since I wanted to surprise you didn’t know what I was doing and bought some too.”

“So now we have three sweet rolls,” she was confused as to how this was a problem.

“I just feel bad you had to pay for two.”

“Oh…” she glanced off with a smirk, “don’t worry about that.”

#tes oc #oblivion fanfiction #oblivion #the elder scrolls #tes #hero of kvatch #garrus darelliun #fanfiction #my writing #lecrinn #thiefguard #i don't think i like how they're talking about dunmer culture #it feels off to me #i do like the last line though #and though this scene might not be canon garrus liking ash yams is because it keeps cropping up in fics that don't get finished 😅#also when she says he's a good guard i thought it also said she looked sad because he didn't know how much that meant coming from her #but it's not there? or in my cut file? so apparently i didn't write it?#i think it would've been better with it #also their reactions to the thirty layer cake came from me reading about it on uesp and thinking the rich of cheydinhal had gone too far #and my mom pulling up a picture to show me that the layers are paper thin XD

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mattodore · 9 months

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Did Matthias do anything illegal in his life? What I mean is morally unacceptable behavior that hurts people. If so, why did he do that?

I mean, has he killed someone? Has he beat someone up? How many times has he done it or has it only been occasionally? Do people find him rude? Should people be afraid of him?

I’ve said this about Matthias before, but he’s someone who’s had violent thoughts and urges ever since he was a child. I do think there’s a possible genetic factor at play there, but I also believe that the way he grew up left something chasmic in its wake, this gouge in his chest that he’s been clawing at ever since. Matthias was severely neglected as a child and his development was… slanted, for lack of a better word. There’s something warped in his head, you know? He’s a product of his upbringing.

To give you a picture of Matthias’s childhood, I want to make it clear that he never had any toys. His nursery was nothing more than a crib in a room. No bright colored walls, no alphabet blocks, no pop-up books. He didn’t play, or… not like most children, at least—not how you’d normally picture a child playing. His childhood was spent alone despite the sheer number of staff on the grounds of the estate. If Matthias reached for a hand or wanted comfort from a nanny or another member of the staff, he’d be pushed away. There was no emotional or physical warmth in the Evanoff household and a harsh line had been drawn between Matthias and everyone around him, including his parents, who he saw no more than a handful of times when he was young. What little socialization Matthias had was… well, it was nothing more than giving orders to attendants or having discussions with his tutors about the subjects he was studying. The staff were forbidden from interacting with Matthias more than was strictly necessary and the effect that had on him can’t be understated.

You can see, then, these early building blocks for cruelty being laid out. As a precocious child whose only real social connection with others was formed through analysis and study, it only made sense that Matthias found himself reaching for the books in his father’s library whenever he could, and through that those very same blocks began to stack. Play for Matthias was deconstructing humanity through history, through fiction, parsing through dense text in the ever-present child’s curiosity: but why? And Matthias’s father was an excessively cruel and frighteningly violent man, so his taste in literature certainly reflected that. This is also what I mean when I say there’s a genetic factor at play with some of Matthias’s impulses. Some of it’s inherited. In a way, he gets this from his mother’s side, too, although she’s a different kind of violent… a hands-off kind. I mean, that violence is how Matthias wound up being tortured for three years while trapped in a “therapeutic” reform school. It’s just as cruel, but it pretends to be righteous. So there’s this snapping violence and this opportunistic kind.

I’m saying all of this because I think it gives context to how much control Matthias exhibits over himself and his violent urges now as an adult. Sure, when he was younger he would react, he’d deride and break and hurt, but he doesn’t do that anymore. It’s not that he feels guilt over the impulses he has—there’s no shame there at all, really. To him, it’s just in his nature to get these flashes, these sudden images of brutality. They’ve been there all his life, you know? It’s normal to him. The only reason he doesn’t act on them is because he had impulse control beaten into him at the reform school and because he’s learned that the social contract is something that he can use to his advantage to get whatever it is he wants. He charms and obfuscates now. In that same vein, it’s not often that people find him to be rude, because he keeps his disdainful and unsavory thoughts to himself. You’d have to be someone who’s incredibly perceptive in order to see through Matthias… which just so happens to be Theo to a T.

So what I mean by this is that now when Matthias does actually act on these thoughts, these urges that dig at his brain, there’s normally a catalyst to them—this trigger that sends fire all through the synapses in his body. Matthias is incredibly loyal to Imani and Theo and he’s someone who’s very protective of them. Throughout his early teen years, back when he and Imani went to the same boarding school, he was constantly shielding Imani from the brunt of the corporal punishment that came with the turf. At that age he was volatile and would even hit back at times, but he knew that would land him in solitude and separated from Imani for days on end, which he just couldn’t have—not if he wanted to make sure nobody hurt her. He learned restraint for Imani’s sake then, but it wasn’t until he was trapped in the reform school that that restraint was fully drilled into him as a result of psychological torture and abuse.

He’s quick to offer a slicing comment, to give a chilling smile, to go eerily still and intimidate with his stare alone, but now as an adult he doesn’t often get physical unless provoked. He keeps it in and he holds himself back, this taut tension in his jaw only there for a moment before the mask submerges him again and holds his head under water. It’s really only when Theo’s involved that Matthias just… God, he really just can’t help himself. The cracks widen and he gets physical. It’s vicious. He has all this strength now, this imagination that only ever comes alive when he’s thinking of this, and he’s had years of experience in actual brawls that were just horrible—he’s been ganged up on, hit with metal chairs, humiliated and jeered at while bleeding everywhere, ripped out of bed and kicked until his ribs broke… It's safe to say that he takes pain like it means nothing to him now. So he swallows the blood he tastes when a hit lands and just plows through like it’s the only thing he knows how to do, like it’s programmed in him. It’s animalistic. It’s vengeful. It’s rapturous.

Like I said, seeing harm come to the only people Matthias loves has a disastrous effect on his self-control. Imani’s in a better place now that she’s an adult, but Theo… well, Theo’s been hurt by a lot of people—his parents, faces at clubs, ghosts from his past… too many instances to even begin getting into each of them. And Matthias has to unravel red yarn before a board and string together all of these physical reactions Theo has around some people, has to tilt his head as he replays the tapes and rewinds through remarks Theo’s made that felt off even before Matthias knew there was something going on there. Theo doesn’t talk about his hurt, doesn’t talk about anything that could make him weak, that exposes the nasty underbelly of his private life, so it’s up to Matthias to pick up on what’s been left unspoken. The specifics may not be there, but it’s enough to see Theo flinch at the sound of his own name being called, to watch him freeze up when a hand raises too fast, to track Theo as he checks the locks once, twice, three times in a row before he moves away. Matthias notices it all and he’s an eye for an eye kind of man. He can’t even help himself there, has no restraint when it comes to Theo, so… he handles it.

The furthest Matthias has ever gone, the worst he’s ever injured somebody, was when he nearly killed someone from Theo’s old summer boarding school. Theo managed to stop him, but only by a hair’s breadth. Matthias could have gone to prison for that one, he easily could’ve, but… there were circumstances and, when it comes down to it, Matthias is obscenely wealthy. In the end, he got off scot-free from attempted murder while the other party was hospitalized. He handled the rest without physical violence, though he certainly wanted to finish what he started. But, at the end of the day, Theo comes first, always.

He’s certainly engaged in far more illegal and immoral activities (his little blackmail moment was a personal favorite of mine), but physically he’s never gone so far as murder (though he’s not opposed…) and while he’s definitely lost control and grievously injured some people, I’d say he’s only ever hospitalized a handful. He keeps himself in check… most of the time, at least. He honestly doesn’t fly off the handle for no reason. If you keep your hands to yourself and watch your mouth then you don’t have to be afraid of him in that way. Still, it’s better to just keep your distance. He has too much fun pulling strings.

#IT WAS THE WAY THE IMAGE WAS CROPPED THAT WAS MAKING IT NOT SHOW UP... LITERALLY WHATTTT? WHATEVER IT'S BEEN CROPPED NOW SO. POST. PLEASE.#river dipping #asks #anonymous #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #echthroi #oc extras #ts4 #cw child abuse mention #cw blood #spent a bit editing this screenshot look at the blood i'm kicking my feet and twirling my hair <3 #while editing this i listened to animal impulses by iamx on a loop it's one of matthias's latest additions to his playlist and woof #''no civilizing hides our animal impulses'' fits him so well. this and bring me back a dog... iamx understands matthias more than anyone #but okay. laying down on the floor forever after finally finishing writing all of this...#i kept deleting everything i would write and starting over like i was going through it with this one #i ended up deciding not to really get into it with the specifics irt the theo stuff #idk i'm conflicted abt it i don't really wanna say anything for sure until i finally make the decision and feel like i can talk abt it #with like... a full grasp of it all? but to that anon from a few months back who asked abt theo's pinterest board: that's who.#................................anyway hello <3 #i was gone for over a week and you may be thinking wow river you must be really far in that game you've been playing about gates #or maybe you thought i've been spending all my time trying to write this reply but ach nae.........................#i've just been reading obsessively like literally reading 24/7 doing almost nothing else #[ayo edebiri voice] i have No. Hobbies. Other Than This.#also my activity feed has been staring at me and i've been staring right back at it since i logged in to post this kjnkgjnh #i need to catch up on some things too i rlly do but you see the draw of reading another epub............ she's a strong temptress #hope you've all been well <3 my avpd is still fighting me but whatever i'm used to it kjngfkjnfh

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dying-suffering-french-stalkers · 1 year

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#them........#LOOK at jigen in the second one #turns out muppet baby lupin is good!#MILES better than whatever 95% of part 6 was #lupin zero #jigen #lupin iii #several lines of lyrics go by between these screencaps so don't try to read the lyrics below in any kind of order skjdfksjfdlsl #i just didn't feel like cropping them

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somewhereincairparavel · 1 month

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im working on my "What fashion style would the pjo gods/goddesses wear?" And the first three goddesses I'm doing are Demeter, Artemis, and Aphrodite ;)

This is such a fun idea omg

#Rory thank you #You have a big brain #I feel like I have no right to style Aphrodite at all. It feels like a crime I'm committing #Shes the fashion queen I don't know if i will do her justice at all I'm scared. But it also feels like a crime to NOT include her in pt 1 #Also Demeter is so underrated like why. I love my crop queen #˚➳❥Postcards from Elora ➳❥#╰┈➤ Elora's mail box #✧✿Elora's thoughts✧✿#pjo #pjo fandom

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eyedelater · 2 years

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koito splashes sugimoto with hurep wine

what happens next differs

noda-sensei changed it so that sugimoto respectfully drinks the drink and then throws the empty cup because he's not a crass little shit like koito

#golden kamuy #i don't remember which happened in the anime. who cares #as for the color of koito's skin that's definitely a byproduct of how the pages were scanned and not an intentional change.#upping the contrast on images of characters whose skin is screentone can have dramatic consequences #hajime unceremoniously cropped. doesn't matter to him #also he changed it so that sugimoto is not the one holding the empty cup at first?? whatever you feel like you need to fix i guess

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sylkicute · 1 year

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CRK Romance Kingdom event webcore icons

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Free to use/edit, just please don't claim as your own and credit me if you repost !!

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