#i don't even know how to explain this bc it's like ... okay

[shopcat]

i think in the hamster wheel of my mind a big part of where people go wrong with eddie and his shitty garage band as an extension is that they for some bizarre reason think he's gene simmons metal when he's jack black metal. heavy metal. he's tenacious d metal. he's school of rock. he's stoner lord of the rings metal he nearly wore blue jeans and plaid. jack black literally in real life once said eddie was the best character bc he's heavy metal like him. LOOK AT THIS

#🍦 #answer it's bc people think he's some mishmash of all alternative scenes without any actual knowledge of where the mashing occurs 😭 #eddie is . a heavy metal guy. A cool one. a nice one even. he likes rock and roll #it's so funny when ppl try and describe it and they've never heard the stuff he actually listens to in their lives for some reason #literally so much of the appeal of eddie's character within his subculture is that its theatrical and dramatic but its still grounded #he's very alternative and Out There but he's still just some guy. he's not wearing spiked leather jackets #in fact he's not wearing any of the other kinds of leather jackets i've seen people say he would ... TO ME #sts #if u haven't seen the clip he then proceeds to air guitar the MoP melody then shouts heavy metal is everywhere #i don't even know how to explain this bc it's like ... okay #the general .. VIBE? aestheticsm? is kind of similar to what people sometimes portray but they're missing thst it's tongue in cheek #like it's like that buff poster of him being this anachronistic homage to heavy metal album covers #fire and satanic imagery and skulls and lightning and big drama and ROCK AND ROLL #it's rock and ROLL man... #and people r making him this weird sanitised dork LOL 😭 when he's a dork in a different more fun way.. imo #and it's not that those types of people don't exist and that they're not cool in their own way cuz they are sure but that's not THIS GUY #he is an 80S METALHEAD... and yeah i try and ground him in thinfs and poke and prod at it until it fits my own understanding of alternative #scenes better but that's bc i've had a hand in the punk scene for years and years #i dunno sometimes i feel like ppl r just not doing the full potential and then going way too hard in this super specific direction #and he ends up first of all usually just a massive douchebag not sure what that's about. But a guy who he would in canon HATE 😭 #YOU ARE MAKING HIM A POSER. is what i'm saying #he is alwyas some guy before he's anything else and before he's that he's a 20 year old loser #you need to reflect this... You need to bottle it. ugh. ugh #so much of this reminds me of the time someone was like he would never wear PLAID #like are you kidding me. are you actually kidding me rn #ppl have this weird arstheticised mostly modern and mostly literallt just eboy Idea of what he'd wear it's crazy to me sorry #also it's ugly #i also think. this is so long lol . anyway . i also think going too ''authentic'' in the 80s metalhead direction also lands u w different #problems. my advice to people trying to write or draw alternative characters is they are People. before they are anything else #🍏

[hella1975]

ive never felt more rural than i have in the past few weeks since hanging out with a lad who has only ever lived in cities. what do you MEAN YOU'VE NEVER DONE A MORRIS DANCE

#he didn't even know what morris dancers WERE i said some shit like 'you know it's summer when the morris dancers come out' #and he was like 'the what now' I FEEL LIKE IM GOING CRAZY. HE'S FUCKING WITH ME SURELY #AND THIS HAPPENS SO OFTEN ABOUT THINGS I JUST ASSUMED WERE BASICS #'harvest festival 🤨' PARDON. YOU ARE JOKING #and also the CONCEPT of a village is baffling to him. i said there's probably about 100 people in my entire village #and we don't have a pub or a single shop the closest ones are in the NEXT village over which is a 3 mile walk #and this boy was HORRIFIED. we are both in a constant state of thinking the other is taking the piss #and now every time i think/do something abundantly rural im SO self-aware 😭 #my mum told me the farmers are gonna do a xmas tractor run through our village this year #(they usually miss our village bc even by village standards it's tiny) #and she was like 'shame you'll miss it! i'll send you a video!' and im there already picturing this boy's face when i show it him #like sigh. yeah. yeah okay maybe the rural england is ingrained deeper than i feared. never escaping the allegations etc #had a conversation with him the other day that concluded with me 100% genuinely being like 'you need to touch grass' #i literally said 'i think it would fix you. like actually go and touch some grass what the fuck' #bc at this point he's so far removed from nature that it's INSANE TO ME. i didnt realise how much i took growing up rurally for granted #THESE PEOPLE DONT EVEN GET DRUNK IN FIELDS. THEY HAVE NO FIELDS. I HAD TO EXPLAIN TO HIM WHAT A CAMP OUT WAS

[chaoticdelinqueerwithglitter]

How to describe Bonten:

"Everyone in there is traumatized because a lot of bad shit that happened during the Kanto Incident" + Takeomi

#not saying that omi doesn't have trauma #just that all the others were affected for shit that happened during the tenjiku arc #yes including sanzu #sanzu felt like mucho betrayed him (and mikey) #that sounds traumatizing #i don't even need to explain the others #koko is just pinning for inupi bc he's a dramaqueen #kakucho is depressed #mochi is still wondering how he got there but he misses the good old days with the s62 #all the s62 lost izana #(and mucho cofcof) #the haitanis are trying to keep the mood but they are not okay at all #they had nightmares with losing the other and i know it #ran is worried as fuck for kakucho #mikey...mikey is not okay #how i can ever start?do i need to? #yes the season is ending tomorrow and the pain of bonten is coming and argh #bc i'm also traumatized for the shit that happened in tenjiku #but at the same time i wanna see pink hair sanzu #so i'm conflicted between 'please liden films show us bonten' and 'maybe i don't need that level of pain right now' #good thing is that this is helping me to write #angsty harukaku is coming yey #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers spoilers #bonten timeline #in my tenjiku depression era

[mokutone]

hi what do you think abt t4t kakayama (it's canon to me tbh)

:) hi ty for the question. i will do two sweet pictures of them being intimate and then under the cut there's going to be a longer very unsweet and more technical response

so i'm usually not a very shippy person! but that said i am also on the record as an occasional kakayama + kakayamagai enjoyer

i do hc them both as trans and in different ways w/ different experiences of transition and identity! i have no interest in proving my view as canon, but i do regard my reading of the text (text here including the anime) as a valid interpretation of yamato's experience of identity

yamato, for example, imo, doesnt have any real lived experience of being raised as a child of any gender. he was an experimental subject, and then he was Danzō's weapon/vessel for the mokuton, and then he was in anbu.

in a fun little word game which should not be taken seriously: it'd almost be more fitting to describe him as "adgender" rather than "transgender" since the prefix "trans" implies moving across where the prefix "cis" means to stand still, but the prefix "ad" means "to move towards" and i headcanon him as somebody who was degendered as a child, not in a cool nonbinary way, but instead in a dehumanizing, objectifying way, so his experience of creating his identity and his gender along with it is one of moving toward the concept of gender this word doesn't and wont exist, but bc of the way english works it would probably be simplified to be spelled precisely the same as "agender" in the same way that "aggression" came from latin "aggredi" which came from "ad" (meaning to/toward) and and latin "gradus" (meaning step) (essentially the combination means "to step to" [in a threatening manner]) the only diferences is where agender (meaning no gender) is pronounced ay-gender, the agender that comes from adgender would be prounounced more like "uhgender" in the same way that agressive isnt pronounced like "ay-gressive" but instead like "uhgressive"

and then...as for kakashi? i just decided on vibes. i didn't think hard about it.

i guess i should also say that, while i draw kakayama very infrequently, when i do draw it i usually try to be very apparent about the transness in the artwork if i can? especially if i'm drawing anything more intimate than a peck on the cheek. it's no secret that shipping is often times the most energized part of fandom, and i kind of don't want to produce romantic or sexual artwork which will be enjoyed by people who don't think trans people can be attractive? or who find that trans headcanons make a character uninteresting to them? or worse, "ruin" a depiction of a character to them?

often i think about in terms of. IF there are people that follow me that love my work (usually) and think that kakashi or yamato are hot (usually) and love kakayama (usually) but get frustrated or even uncomfortable out when i draw them as explicitly trans? then i'm drawing all intimate artwork of them as explicitly trans.

it's a little like...nobody gets to love my work if transgender characters are a turnoff for them. that's the bar for entry, is the way i think of it, but really its more like putting onions in a dish. if you want to eat the dish you have to eat the onions. if you don't want to eat the onions, don't eat the dish. all the meals i make contain onions. i'll never compromise on my intention to put onions in every dish i make. that's my ninja way, as the kids say.

especially in the climate we're in right now.

i don't know. i have a lot of feelings about how most fandoms tend to view trans men, especially in terms of romantic and sexual relationships. I'm doing a bad job of expressing the depth of how much seeing how fandom treats trans male identity and transmasculine bodies impacts the way that i draw + write kakayama, but genuinely it's something i think about every single time i create content about them.

#yamswers #danova #often even when there r trans characters/trans hcs of characters the m/m pairings are usually trans + cis #+ i wanna emphasize: there's nothing wrong with that. trans+cis relationships are as beautiful and valid as t4t #but...in fiction...there's like. expectations. of how a trans guy will act in a relationship with a cis guy #literally every transmasc person knows exactly what im fucking talking about lol #i'm trying to keep this conversation PG bc naruto is not an adult show—so. anyway #the presence of t4t depictions is basically essential in offering an alternative image of relationships + intimacy for trans individuals #a view of trans bodies which is not designed for the pleasure of cis consumption+assumption #a view of trans bodies not couched in an artist statement saying ''this is a trans body. this is how you interact with a body like it.'' #sometimes even stuff made by trans people will cater to explaining transness to cis people + thats fine and okay and— #—can be cathartic to create. esp as a trans person since so many of us are Surrounded by cis people irl #but. as a singular consumer. i get tired of that. i don't want it—at least not in the way that fandom frequently produces #i'm sorry this was probably an ask that expected a reply full of trans love and just got a bunch of technical stuff back #but to be fair this IS how i feel about t4t kakayama

[da-proti-toku-grem]

why can't anyone understand that everyone is different and not everyone likes the same things and that it's completely okay AND normal for someone not to like going out and preferring to stay at home :/

#honestly i understand that my parents care about me and they don't want me to be feeling bad #and that they ask me bc they just want to make sure i'm okay #but i've explained to them what i feel like and they just don't get and i get mad but i akso know it's not their fault and just... oughhhhh #like yeah i have a weird kind of social anxiety according to my therapist and even she doesn't know exactly how to help me yet #but there are just so many reasons behind why i don't like going out and it's not just bc it gives me anxiety #or why those situations give me anxiety in the forst place #1. i'm just a very introverted person that doesn't like going out #2. crowded places/closed spaces/places where there's not enough ventilation/loud places (be it people talking or just music) overwhelme me #3. all said in 2 + flashing lights give me huge migraines that can linger for over 3 days #4. i am very much a night owl and i'm forced to live in a society where that isn't fucking acceptable apparently and i'm called lazy for - #- not being productive in the morning when the only reason behind it is that i am a lot more productive at night #but no one ket's me do that bc 'why are you doing stuff when you're supposed to be asleep?' #i have been the same since i was little. literally nothing has changed #and people where always like 'oh she's just shy' #but idk wtf changed #maybe it was that i became and 'adult' or maybe the fact that i started therapy and they told my parents that i have social anxiety. idk #but suddenly every single person in my family is worried about it and they're genuinely making me feel like there's smth wrong about me #i mean. i have my problems i'm not gonna go telling you that i'm perfect bc i'm pretty much not #but is there really smth that wrong with me that i need to fix #or is society just a bitch that doesn't understand that there's different kinds of people and everyone is different & IT'S COMPLETELY OKAY #have they ever thought about the fact that maybe these situations cause me anxiety bc i've been forced all my life to do them #even if i don't like them #instead of thinking that i don't like them BC they cause me anxiety?? #i mean. i know i have to go out more and that there's tons of things i can do ofc #but you can't just force me to do things i don't want to and put on a good face while doing it *every.fucking.day* #aaaaand i could add a lot more things but i'm once again reaching the tag limit so i shoukd just shut up #it's just driving me crazy bc i know they're trying to help but it really is not helping at all............. #ranting

[aeide-thea]

truly just SUCH a typical tumblr experience but like.

Familiar Tumblr Name makes a post that's like: 'you know how fast fashion perpetuates itself by selling us clothing that gets dingy and grody really fast, so we have to replace it yearly?'

me: uh, no, actually—historically i've found that the few fast fashion pieces i acquired long outstayed their welcome, and were perfectly wearable long after i was heartily sick of them! but go on, i guess

FTN: 'let me tell you about this traditional domestic wisdom (implied: that's been lost because of, uh, capitalism) that will fix this problem (that you, too, definitely have) for you!'

me, googling: okay so this residue that FTN said was somehow a Fast Fashion thing is apparently generally caused by like. fabric softener and/or hard water. using discount detergents that skimp on active ingredients. using too much detergent so it doesn't wash out. letting your bedding go too long between washes. letting your washer go too long between cleans. etc. anyway. lots of specific factors here, many of which may in fact not apply to you in particular!

but like. why get specific when instead we could assert You Know This Problem, Right? This Lost Traditional Wisdom Will Definitely Help You Personally!!

#just like. makes me mad as rhetoric bc like. *i* can evaluate yr Dramatic Tumblr Post critically and do independent research abt it #and determine how much of it applies to me #and like. the answer is: basically none but it's a good reminder to clean the washing machine‚ thx #but like. there are loads of ppl in the notes just like. nodding along very wide-eyed #to whom this ALSO may not be applicable but who have lapped up yr sloppy demagoguery #and it's just like. [FTN] admits *in this post* that they don't actually know all the ins and outs of this #and it's just like. then probably you shouldn't be climbing onto your soapbox to explain it to people just yet!! #and telling people to get Righteously Angry that this has been Kept From Them #anyway. extremely specific subtweet and honestly the consequences of blindly taking OP's advice would probably not be too bad #but it's just like. i get really frustrated with these bloggers who want to Dispense Advice #but aren't actually experts themselves‚ don't provide any citations for their assertions‚ and claim that things are Universally Applicable #which is just. never true!! people's situations vary!!! #and like. if everyone were equipped to critically evaluate this shit it'd be fine‚ probably #but they're not! people are like 'oh wow you sound confident‚ okay‚ information integrated into my worldview now!' #and it's just like. i realize the subject matter here is relatively low-stakes but it's like. the KIND of rhetoric here is. weird. #very like. There's Been a Conspiracy and You Should Believe Me Because I Sound Confident and Friendly and Like I'm On Your Side. #Reject the Innovations of Capitalism. Retvrn to the Old Ways. #and it's just like. hm what politicians does that remind me of! #anyway. sorry for this very vehement very specific subtweet i just. idk. genuinely think this strain of tumblr demagoguery is pernicious #and like. lots of it is perpetrated by liberals!! most of it ime! but it's the same damaging dynamic even so

[mad-hunts]

11. what would your muse consider their worst failing?

hello, @absensia, and happy sunday! thank you so much for the ask :D i just want y'all know that i appreciate every single one of these!! but alright, well... to tell you why barton views this particular thing as being his worst failing, i'm going to have to give you some backstory first. so please bear with me while i explain! so, as you may or may not know, barton currently has four kids. two of which are biologically related to him and the other two being adopted. though, back whenever he was first starting off as the dollmaker, barton actually had five kids. and this fifth child he had was named julien.

julien was different from the rest of his siblings, like jack is, in the way that he seemed to have experienced some form of trauma before barton had even adopted him that caused him to be very sensitive in relation to other people's emotions and actually made him act a bit jumpy. but this didn't change the fact that julien was kind of affectionately regarded as ' the best of all of them ' by barton's other kids whenever he was still around; and that was because julien would often try to protect his siblings, even in situations where he could get severely hurt, and he seemed to have this sort - of mellowing affect on barton because of just how likeable of a person he was.

the best way that i could describe what made him so special is that he was SUCH a good listener and had a way of making people feel welcome around him, which may be a bit surprising to hear considering the often dark + terribly gory reputation of the mathis family, but julien also really didn't like what he had to do while he was a part of their family sometimes. so you can imagine that whenever barton lost him to someone as sadistic as the joker... he was beyond devastated. not only because julien was like a figure of light in a family that could be the epitome of overwhelming despair, but because barton was the one who told him to go assist the joker with one of his ' schemes, ' as the man had contracted his help to do a rather grisly act to him — which would be to cut off his face — and julien had never come back from that meeting with him.

and although one could make the argument that barton couldn't have possibly known that that would happen, especially considering that he didn't know the full extent of just how bad the joker was at the time, he still very much blames himself for it. because barton believed that he should've known better in the end and gone there himself instead of treating this job like it'd be like any other one that they'd done, when it really wasn't. now just to give you some more context before i go on; if there's one thing you should know about barton, it's that his relationship with his children are probably his most complicated, so i do believe he does hold some kind of genuine love for them... but it's not a love that anyone can easily understand and one that likely isn't healthy at least half the time either.

but he felt legitimately torn up inside about it even a year later, and today, it's still isn't something that he likes to talk about. it was by far his greatest failure both as a father and as a person in his eyes. plus, knowing the fact that julien died alone and probably in a lot of pain, too? it was so painful for him that barton would swear up and down that it felt akin to someone shooting him right through the heart. so, if you were to ask him what he would do if he could go back in time and change one thing about his past, barton's answer wouldn't be that he would save himself from the cruelty of having to grow up under wesley's roof, or to make it so that his mom didn't have to leave him and he'd actually get to know her, or even to spend more a little more time with marcy... though, trust me, he has thought about all of those things.

it would be that he'd save julien. because he deserved so much better, in his eyes, than to be killed at the age of seventeen whenever he still had his whole life ahead of him and to have his comments about him being scared to go confront the joker completely dismissed. and this is also something that barton hates himself for. how to feels to have your feelings disregarded is something that barton is shocking familiar with, after all, and it's not a good feeling at all. but the fact remains that he can't do anything about his death now. all barton can do is grieve him at night, whenever he has no choice but to be alone with his thoughts, and he looks at past photographs of their entire family that have long since faded. of julien.

#YOUR NEED GREW TEETH: character study. #ANGER'S HELPED ME STAY ALIVE: headcanons. #uhh okay... who put the onion slices in here y'all ;; #i honestly don't know whether this one or the past one was more sad but i suppose it isn't a competition JSJSJ #i just love torturing poor ol' barton don't i? / j nahhh nah he's anything but poor. #though i do feel like barton's story can be somewhat sympathetic sometimes. from how he had to deal with having a c*nnibalistic serial- #killer for a father + having his mom be forced to leave him as well as julien dying and barton feeling an IMMENSE amount of guilt bc of it. #and i feel like that might not even be all but i don't wanna bum anyone here out any further so JSJSJ let's just put a pen in it for now #i hope you liked my response though and that you're having a great day!! #tw: mentions of a child's death. #tw: guilt. #tw: mentions of unhealthy family dynamics. #and i thought that i should add that that of course doesn’t EXCUSE his horrific actions... i just want to explain the way in which barton- #demonstrates his humanity ( or what's left of it at least (': ) and how things may be more complicated than they appear on the surface. #because barton is not entirely evil but he's also VERY MUCH not a good person. so yeahhh

[barkingangelbaby]

dude...

#if I don't stop hyperfixating on my breathing... like... idfk how much longer i can live like this... #it's been happening since last august snd I'm so tired of it..... #it's not even only when I'm high anymore it's like... all the time #i just like.. stop automatically breathing once i think about it and it takes me *so* *fucking* *long* to start again #honestly I'm just typing this post to distract myself a bit and hopefully i just start breathing normally again but I'm still manually #breathing rn. and now im wondering what the normal amount of time in between breaths is and if I'm taking too long ?? #i tried to time my breaths with N's but she's asleep so i know it's gonna be different than mine #hoooo boy wish me luck falling asleep this is so annoying!!!! #is this ocd??? I've had several ppl in the past year tell me they think I have it but thinking about it makes me spiral #but it would explain A Lot of my thoughts n habits #anyway. I'm very annoyed with myself rn i just want to breathe normally and not worry myself into panic attacks anymore #actually very worried about how bad my stress in general has been bc there's no way it's been good for my body #ok. time to snuggle up n try to fall asleep!! im v cold rn so i have to warm up before i hug N bc i don't want to wake her with my ice cold #skin lmao. i can't wait for it to be warmer so i don't have to worry/feel bad about that lol #OKAY BBYYYYEEE if you read these tags I'm so very sorry. #rAMbles

[vamptastic]

i think my constant seething rage is honestly very reasonable. i literally live in florida.

#got in argument with a guy the other day abt idk. trans athletes #was basically him trying to explain what the issue is to me (i know. that's kinda step one to having an opinion on it.) #and then going yeah huh i guess you're actually right (i was) #and i was like okay great cool we're done here let me go to class and he starts talking about like #how he still loves trump for this and that reason kinda unprompted (sorry you lost an argument dude go introspect somewhere else im LATE) #and i was like yeah idk abt that. on account of all the corruption. and the foreign policy youre saying is like manly macho man strong is #mostly just wildly stupid posturing that's going to achieve nothing at best and world war at worst #and he goes no don't worry i think DESANTIS would be better for 2024 actually #and i. UNDERSTANDBLY. was like oh okay i cannot speak to you (because i am visibly shaking with rage) #and he goes well i think you are misattributing my intentions (cunt.) #and i said no no i don't think you're malicious i just think you're stupid and wildly misinformed #and then left bc i was about to either hit him or start crying (bc that guy has been like very tangibly ruining my life for months #and i genuinely cannot fathom what fucking tax issue or whatever one would value over like. my right to idk. Exist atp. #and also this coming from someone who just tried to be like no i know so many trans people i love trans ppl im not like those conservatives #like try to dig deep down into whatever rotted husk of a brain is left in your skull and fathom why i might have a strong reaction to your #support for DESANTIS and the SPACE LASERS WOMAN #you fucking idiot.) #and was that civil. No. and now i have to apologize to him bc i feel bad about it even though i fully meant it #idk its what i get for trying to change peoples minds with stupid things like #' statistics ' and ' a utilitarian perspective ' and ' existing legal basis for my argument ' #guys so wrapped up in their right wing bubble they just dont wanna hear it #n they always assume i mustve not heard their talking points and its like look at where we fucking live #and look at the state of the world. NOBODY in any form of mainstream news shares my politics lmao #you think i havent heard every conceivable argument abt trans people??? also you think im dumb enough to form an opinion without looking at #the other side? yeah man i know about the three trans women who have ever won a sports competition ever. do you? #do you even know their fucking names or sports or trial outcomes. #GOD just fucking. pseudo intellectual facist horseshit like pragru and infowars masquerading as legítimate sources #are making so many dumbass illiterate (i truly don't think they have the reading comprehension to decifer a study or even long article) #guys think they're gods gift to politics bc they listened to someone else tell them what a source says through ten layers of propaganda #just. uh. everyone should die forever and also learn to read.

[mrschwartz]

okay but jo whiley!!!!!!!! she's such an icon. she just straight up asked him "do you want people to think much about what you're writing? because you obviously put so much care and attention into what you write and you obviously don't like explaining what they're a lot about" like yes girl you said it!!!!!! i feel like that's the question that's been on the fucking tip of every interviewer's tongue all of these years and surprisingly none of them have ever said that to his face before......

#his answer doesn't matter btw #''i'm happy to i just don't know how to do it swiftly'' boo fucking hoo who ever said it had to be swift? #they're personal and you don't like publicizing your personal life in a way that's not veiled metaphors #okay we get it just say that and leave it at that #oh fuck i'm getting mad at his interview stance again vfnjdnjnfj #but i'm not! i'm not. #i just mean #''i'm just worried you won't have any listeners by the time i'm done explaining the words'' is so jfvnjfnjfngjnj #first of all it's incredibly self aware in regards to his stuttering and pauses and taking his time to finish sentences #so i'll give him that #but it's just so. ugh. frustrating!!!!! people do want to know dude!!!! the interviewers are Asking the fans tune in for it!!!! #i get why he feels restrained bc radio shows don't have the actual physical time to allow genuine in-depth discussions #so i'd love for him to actually have access to a format that does allow it #but even then i'm not sure he'd actually give to us what he's promising he'd give if he had the time and the right listeners #which is what HE's saying is the problem. but which /////i////// don't think is #alex turner

[jonathanrook]

okay but the problem is. and the reason i don't actually id as ace. is that i have. ya'know. been sexually attracted to people before. two. to be specific.

#okay so in hs i thought i was demi which ik is on the ace spectrum #but there were some flaws in that logic. those namely being. i had never actually been attracted to someone before. #in hs okay. you need to hear me out on this. in hs i was doing like. compulsive bisexuality?? #i figured out i was queer but didn't know how really so i was randomly picking all sorts of crushes. not just guys like anyone. #which is why fun fact to this day i still don't know how many people i've actually ever had a crush on lmao bc i'd even lie in my diaries #but i know some of them were real but it was just like. a little romantic attraction. #and everyone i had a crush on (real or fake for the most part) i was friends w so demi whatever. #BUT THEN. 2019. the unthinkable happens. dan howell comes out and i realize i'm a dyke. #it didn't actually happen exactly in that order but it's funnier to explain it that way. #anyway. like a week later i met the second hottest person i've ever seen in my life ever. #side note i'd already met the hottest but i have Sieve Brain and i genuinely don't remember how that went at all in the slightest #so the second hottest will have to do as my point of reference forgive me #anyway before i even knew her name. Salivating. insane. #and to this day i've still only been attracted to those two people. not even celebrities. #i don't know what “celebrity crush” means and at this point i'm too afraid to ask. #but i feel like i'm fairly old to have only wanted to. like. fuck two people. that seems like a low number. i don't know how this works. #and it's not demi if i didn't get to know them first right? #ace people explain y'all are smarter than me real #but it literally is still like i don't understand you people and your. sex. why are you like that. #rachel rants

[worstloki]

Thor absolutely does have a pussy, it just wasn’t mentioned in the films because they were pg 13 rated, my source: the man serves cunt daily <3 -thot-son-of-odin

so true <3

#Thor courting Jane and then abandoning her for like two years bc he doesn't want to explain the downstairs situation #like Jane just (fairly enough) assumed what she was getting with #and now Thor is post-TDW living on Earth again and actively courting with Jane again and covering for the facts #Jane: not to rush you or anything but usually making out leads to... #Thor: ICE CREAM #Jane: what? #Thor: we've run out I should get us some more #Jane: oh um. okay :) #Jane is like i know they live for a very long time but this is a VERY slow dating process so how do I speed it up a bit? #and Darcy is like don't ask me all the dating I've done is practically hit and run #Jane trying to hint to Thor that she's okay to move on to doing more as a couple and talking about what Earth couples do/how fast they go #and Thor is there super happy like I SHALL SEARCH FOR YOU A WORTHY ENGAGEMENT RING. TOMORROW. I MUST SEEK ONE. #Thor sweating and avoiding secx where he takes his pants off at all costs dsjfbdsjf #he feels like the ground will swallow him whole not bc of the situation but bc he went along with Jane assuming he has a dong #now he's got to pretend and it's not going well dhfdjf #idk if Loki is amused watching this go down on Earth but like if he's there with Thor then #Jane: do Asgardians have sex while 'courting'? am i missing something? does Thor want this relationship or no? #Loki (is now exactly aware of the situation): i think you just need to try harder #Jane: is it rude for me to try and nudge him into it? #Loki: go for it. more than a nudge even. he can be very bullheaded sometimes #Jane: thanks :) #Loki: no worries :) good luck :) #Thor rushing into his apartment with Loki all panicked and not telling Loki what happened #VS Loki who knows exactly what happened from Jane/Darcy's plotting already #it's actually even funnier if Jane is like 'do Asgardians not have sex?? how far in a relationship does it happen??' #while Darcy is there like 'idk dude i banged Loki he seemed fine' #Jane to Sif: can i get some advice about Thor? you're one of his closest friends and--does he have some kind of issues physically mentally #Sif: no he beds people all the time #Thor sobbing in his room like why does she keep trying to meet my hypothetical fantasy lonesome dong #dfcgvbhjn

[thecherrygod]

I basically just had a dream of being back in highschool and i was crying by the end. This is new to me. I haven't been in hs in 6 years

#my posts #my dreams #bc i will explain it but. I'm so tired #something in the dream happened like no respect for privacy and stuff in the kind of fucked up bathrooms your brain makes up while asleep #... at least my brain loves making up fucked up bathrooms in my sleep that's okay anyways #there was a lack of respect for privacy and it made me angry and I'm the dream i sorry if reacted how i wanted to in actual hs i guess #like very violent to the point that at first they were laughing but then were very scared #like i was screaming and pushing and grabbing and stuff and people realized it wasn't so funny anymore #also i realized that it didn't matter what kind of relationships i had there up to that point they were all ruined bc of that #i apparently got changed in class to another and they made me sit in the back with no one besides me and i was very some which is #ignoring the violence that was my hs experience sjrarjtkfyñ #by the end the people that used to be on my life i think were trying to get back in but i was sorta always walking looking at the floor #sliding everyone's face bc whenever i passed i heard whispers that i was sure were about me (normal hs experience) #avoiding not sliding dgmzmy anyways yeah #at some point someone finally breaks through me and shows me something that idk how to describe. like meat and a bonsai? idk #sorta like they make me so anger look at it and they were warn and kind and i fully broke down crying and hugged them fnwmhmwk #it wasnt a random person but this dream is sorta personal even tho im writing it here but this is my blog i tend to post this stuff #but i mean i don't want to write his name i don't want it to appear in the main tags on accident #just know that i dreamt with him once before. also hugged him and cried KDNGRMHM #i wasnt going to make that comment thats why i used they pronouns before but nah its a he #also someone else like related to him was there and i think in a way he was trying to help but it was more him finding a business #opportunity and selling his own stuff at maybe an inappropriate time which i think he just does that sometimes gkwgkkf #anyways yeah i am very tired and i should go back to sleep #also i woke up with tears sorta formed in my eyes fkdkgkdg so i sort of still want to cry like in the dream i guess #its not even that early its 9but i don't have anything to do today so back to sleep

[somethingaboutvampires]

So my new guy sends me this right? Says if we didn't meet he could see me doing this:

[ID: twitter screenshot from user Coll3enG (Colleen): my grandma just asked me if i had a boyfriend and i was like "no" and she was like "well i went to a random funeral because i was bored and that's how i met your grandfather" ?????? END ID]

And i was like uh. I actually did that with a few friends in highschool? Just showed up to funerals that didn't have a lot of people in them

And the fact that no one in my LIFE ever guessed that about me, never could even fathom I'd do that and it unlocked those memories is like how else do i describe how this man and i are on our own planet?

#de rambles #stopped going after a long think. a person at one funeral stopped us and asked why we were there #we told the truth that we started doing it after a funeral we knew the person and the next room over had no one in it so we sat to #like witness that person's life. they had someone there and we left when others came in #then we started doing that when we were all free #four of us. and said we only picked ones w few or no people. she said it sounded okay in theory but we didn't know who these people were #and they might be people who would have hated us irl. or hated strangers. or hated random acts of misguided kindness #and if we were doing it to feel good that was f'd up. for me it wasn't that it was just saying like hey your corpse isn't alone #in this depressing mortuary and I'll hang w your body a bit until your loved ones get here #and she explained we were at her uncle's funeral and she wrestled with going or not bc he was an ahole #and she didn't like the idea that we were being kind to aholes. like if his funeral was empty that was apt #so i said her vindication of her uncle did come. us three didn't fill out the room and we were there a few hrs that time and maybe two #others showed. and we don't give love and honor to the person's memory we're just acknowledging humans having a right #to dignity even in death. and she wrestled w that and finally just said we were wrong to do what we were doing and she couldn't explain it #i had two ahole uncles myself and knew what she was talking ab. so i thought and thought #we all kinda decided to stop at the same time and idk. i still don't know how i feel #death tw #yea it's ab him

[dmclemblems]

man, imagine just... letting people have their own opinions of gw and not making fun of people who did or didn’t enjoy it.

people in this fandom are so aggressive.

you can talk about your opinions and even hate or love as strongly as the human heart allows! just... don’t say things like “people are stupid for thinking xyz”. you do realize you may have mutuals or even friends following you that see that and are now apprehensive to talk to you, especially about this game, right? that you might be offending your own friends and acquaintances with insulting terminology and you don’t know a friend feels that way because they’re too anxious to even tell you now because you’ve made it clear that you think everyone with xyz opinion is some insulting and hurting term?

it’s one thing to say things like “this is the best/worst route between both games and I love/hate it more than anything”. it’s another to say something like “everyone who loves/hates gw is an absolute retard who didn’t understand claude’s character in houses in the first place if they loved/hated gw”.

no, I’m not quoting anyone specifically, but I’m trying to iterate to you an example of the sorts of things I’m seeing people saying as if under the assumption that every single person in their space agrees with them and that they’re not risking hurting someone with their words.

yeah, you can hate the route or love the route with every fiber of your being. I’m just personally not sure that’s worth being hateful toward every single other human being who has the opposite opinion as you, or worth making people apprehensive about checking their social media every day because they follow people who are very likely to insult entire groups of people based on their likes/dislike in a fictional universe.

like, yeah, I didn’t enjoy the second half of gw... but you know what’s cool? I’m still close friends with someone who liked it and feels the opposite way that I do about the writing and about claude.

#it sucks too bc I have mutuals on Twitter who will NOT stop talking about it #and going out of their way to point out every instance of their opinion while like #degrading the people who don't agree #at that point like mind your own business and talk about things that are fun??? stop getting mad at people for their opinions??? #it's really easy to go find something you enjoy on the damn internet it's like the easiest way ever lol #even when I just check regular tags for characters nowadays it's the same arguments #half or more of the content isn't the characters or fanart or anything like that anymore #it's just people arguing about stupid shit like okay we get it you do or don't like the writing in it #it doesn't mean you have to go out of your way to make other people feel bad about their opinion #it's one thing to discuss with people in your space (depending on which social media you use etc) #but to go out of your way or to outright insult people with the opposite opinion just makes you look like you're trying to start fights #when this game came out I wanted to remember it by being Billy's final work for his job and he did so so so good #and now it's hard to look at this game and think of it that way because I keep thinking of all the drama #it's still hard to listen to Ferdinand's lines and some more than others bc I was in Billy's streams a lot #so when I hear those things I tend to picture his face and it's still difficult for me. I still can't wrap my head around him being gone #and for two months at that now. I want to look at this game and think of the work he did and you know? if you don't that's fine #but it's hard for me to see it that way now when I just can't log on to ANYTHING on ANY day and see ANYTHING but arguing or like #people straight up insulting others and using offensive terms about people who didn't like something #like cool you loved/hated gw. wanna explain why you're tagging your hate for other people to see? would love to hear THAT explanation #it's kinda like how on Twitter I've had to block an obscene amount of people in the dmcl tags #bc they post the ship name i.e. a keyword in searches that will come up when fans look for content #and it's a bunch of offensive shit about the entire fanbase and how we're all disgusting people with shit opinions #and who don't enjoy the ship for actual context but apparently bc we just want to see two guys bang #imagine lumping an entire fandom of anything (ship character series etc) into an insulting and offensive box just bc YOU don't like it #or you had ONE bad experience with a fan of it so now you post hate in their search keywords instead of censoring it #so that it doesn't come up in someone's searches #literally how are you going to be prejudice about an entire group of shippers or character fans full of ppl you don't even KNOW? #and instead of talking to some of them to understand their reasoning you just post offensive shit in their searches/tags #this is the kind of shit I'm seeing with Hopes too which is why I'm mentioning it here

[astrxealis]

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#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #okay today so far isn't that much of a good day T___T or maybe it's just anxiety ?? hm. #idk :') ig in general i just really hate whenever it feels like i'm ignored or forgotten or avoided or whatever ...... whhduegeiwhdkdhd #here and irl (school esp atm) ;; introduction video for one of our subjects and i have really few views and idk man #maybe i'm just really overthinking it all but i . doubt i'll make friends ... #makes sense it's always like that haha <//3 sorry i just need to let this out somehow so . tumblr it is ... #uh. uhm. i don't know OFHWODHSK anyways i think i'll just try not to overthink or panic .... hhshhdshdkshodns i just wna hide in a hole #idk man i'm really used to always trying my best to listen to everyone and i don't do it AS much bcs i've gotten. tired. sadly #uh idk how to explain anymore . but yeah ;;; not being listened to is just really yeah for me ............. #okay i'll head off now eorufuehwidbdos i don't. want to. idk but yeah ;;;; #tw vent #aawiejueuruifhfjeojqoqndpnfpwk ................ #dunno anymore man just ignore me if you see this ;; T___T #even here too ngl but i can't really blame people ;;; and i wldn't in any case!! but. it just really sucks that ........ yeah #aaaqwweufyfysvk i just. idk. bcs of my experiences and all those kinda stuff just really really yeah ..........