#i don’t think I can

[lucradiss]

My parents are watching house and my mom sent me a picture of House with the longer hair in season eight and my kneejerk reaction was to say “I want him carnally in ways you couldn’t even begin to fathom” and the silence between us over the phone for the next five seconds was louder than a fucking atomic bomb

#not art #hilson #house md #she knows I write fanfiction #but god she doesn’t understand the lengths to which I desire Greg House #or she does now I guess #how do I take this back #I don’t think I can #my mom knows me more now than she ever has #and it’s because we’re watching the same tv show

[randomly--accessed--memories]

Me: *makes a Niffty AU story based on Housewife Radio*

Me, a couple weeks later: *makes a Vox AU story lightly based on Housewife Radio*

Me, a couple weeks after that: …can I make Housewife Radio a RAM!Vox and Niffty song?

#I don’t think I can #…maybe just the ‘black and white' segment #songs #vox (ram) #niffty (ram) #neutral #Randomly Accessed Memories

[amochi]

I know I said a bit ago I want to quit my job but I fr want to put my two weeks in on Friday

#I know I shouldn’t #but god fucking damn I feel miserable at my job #thoughts #I don’t think I can

[a-small-writer-in-a-big-world]

Why is it so embarrassing to talk about the stuff you like?

#like wow #what are you are fucking weirdo #🥺 #yes I am #i don’t think i can #physically talk to people about my interests #and if i manage to #it’s always someone else starting the convo #and continuing it #because idk what to say #ahhh

[boundinparchment]

Last May, I wrote something deranged for MerMay. Idk how I’m going to top that.

#I don’t think I can #and I don’t think I have the bandwidth to do it again

[dapandapod]

I just have this mental image that I can’t translate to paper, but someone’s hand pinning someone’s wrist, but gently. Where the one being pinned is relaxed, and where the one holding the other down, or against a wall, is more circling it, and actually resting a few fingers in the other’s palm.

Idk if I make sense but that.

#hands #holding hands #I want to be able to draw this #I don’t think I can #I could barely write it #one way or anothe I will make it sneak into a fic #rest assured

[acheeseborninspace]

Malevolent Mermay sketches

Honestly I don’t even know what these are, just wanted to do something for mermay day 1 (don’t expect me to do anything more)and still am obsessively drawing malevolent things so mermay John and Arthur, maybe I’ll do a Faroe.

#arthur and john #john malevolent #arthur malevolent #arthur lester fanart #arthur lester #john doe #john doe fanart #malevolent podcast fanart #malevolent podcast #mermay #mermay day 1 #mermay and malevolent #mermemolent? #idk #their just some guys #can you tell John’s a statue? #I don’t think I can #whatever though #here’s them

[pxrxmoore]

.,…..,,,

#in the bathroom trying not to puke bc i am *checks notes* going to see 5sos in two days 🙃 #wish i was joking #why the FUCK does my body act like this #holy shit #the anxiety is so bad i would actually rather not go #i feel so fucking unwell #and for What #bc i am?? going to a concert??? having fun???? seeing friends????? #i can’t do this bro #it’s got so fucking bad recently #and i have so much shit going on in the next few weeks #it sounds so stupid but it’s fuckin debilitating #and it’s just a vicious fukcin cycle #between the emetophobia and the anxiety that makes me feel sick 🙃 #i don’t know how to deal with it anymore #i don’t think i can

[kredensik]

i got a horse in inquisition. and um. oh boy those mechanics arent good.

#i might just drop it and play wiedzmin 3 again. #because like. it lags. and it’s just not my cup of tea. #after origins and 2? i just. #yeah sorry #i don’t think i can #i liked how contained those two games were. and now um. #yeah. #this is the end of my #dai lb

[suicidal-demon666]

Someone help me make a fake dnd that a neurodivergent six year old would understand and be able to play with me. I need all the help I can get to make this interesting.

#dnd party #dungeons and dragons #like seriously #i don’t think i can #do this #by myself #any help would be appreciated

[i-need-to-touch-grassss]

When you’re an asexual lesbian and you have to hear a certain something from the room over and you wanna puke but you have to be still in the hallway and not complain bc you’ll be heard and if you’re heard it’s gonna be really awkward AND ALL YOU DID WAS WAKE UP EARLIER THAN USUAL TO GET A GOOD START OF THE DAY

I can’t leave the hallway bc the floors are creaky plus me carrying my laptop, phone, headphones, and my school bag and the walls are thin so if I move I will be heard and maybe interrogated. I just wanted breakfast…I wasn’t prepared for this.

5 AM. THEY KNOW I GET UP AT 5 AM. AND EVEN THOUGH THEY KNEW THEY STILL

I’m disgusted and frankly, not okay.

Am I projecting?? I’m sorry if so

Actually if I think about that one breakdancing cat thing dancing to low quality funky town, it’s not that bad actually

NEVERMINF I WANNA KMS

I’m gonna cry, I don’t wanna exist rn, can I disappear?? PLS???

OH IM FINALLY SAVED ITS BEEN LIKE 20 MINUTES MY LEGS ARE SO TIRED

I’m going to slowly back away and into my room, I’ll just wait till later to go downstairs.

I hear them talking, mfs acting like nothing happened. What. What is life. I want death, forget breakfast, I’ve lost everything, including my will to live

Im also sorry for not posting, my laptop did the little delete thingy again and I lost a whole bunch of motivation for a while, I’ll get back in the groove soon but that was super discouraging (Dude I’m so pathetic)

#I’m not okay. #HOW THEM MFS GONNA ACT LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED #I’m about to cry #that was genuinely the worst #on a Tuesday no less #like who tf does actual stuff on Tuesday #I thought it was just an excuse to have tacos or something #but like #I’m just gonna kms #HOW DO I FACE THEM #I don’t think I can #anyway thanks for listening to me rant #I just needed to write this down #I think I just went through the stages of grief in less than an hour #that’s great #anyway bye bye

[adjit]

I think we need to get more comfortable with the idea that sometimes shitty, racist, homophobic, bigoted people are still incredibly talented.

I feel like every time I see a post addressing someone’s shitty behavior the post also takes the time to mention that they’re not even good at [x] anyway. And that’s just not always true? Equating being good at a skill as being morally good is just not necessary. Someone can be a fantastic writer, can have a beautiful singing voice, can create breathtaking artwork, and still be a horrible person.

I know part of this is probably just the instinct to dislike everything about a person when you dislike them, but I also think this mindset leads to people defending creatives way past where they should, because if bad people create bad art, then if this person creates art that I like and resonates with me, then they can’t be a bad person!

And you know. That’s just not true. Those two things are simply completely unconnected and I think it’d be healthier if we all started disconnecting them in our heads.

#ramblings tag #like idk. I think it’s possible to feel distaste for someone’s stuff while acknowledging it’s objectively good #but sometimes people act like admitting there’s a single good thing about a person who’s been shitty is impossible #and like. no! people are multifaceted and can have many positives #those don’t change the fact that they’ve done shitty things

[jeida-chi]

Was talking about the Fairy VS walrus poll with some friends which led to "but what about a walrus dressed as a fairy?" and so this was born 😌

#Fairy #walrus #fairy walrus #Walrus fairy #fairy vs walrus #walrus vs fairy #Fairy Vs walrus poll #walrus vs fairy poll #idk how to tag this so I’m trying every combinations I can think of don’t mind me lmao ✌️ #My art #art #jeida-chi #burntblueberrywaffles #Enjoy my little guy

[buggachat]

something so fucked up about Chat Noir’s whole deal is that he is in a lot of ways Adrien playing a character. Like Adrien picked up his miraculous and was told he’d be a superhero so he was like “ok, time to act like a superhero!” and he lets himself have fun w it and play up the role and let loose and kind of just allow himself to be silly and goofy and have fun and for once in his life not care about performing Perfection™.

But. But none of the other characters KNOW THAT. So everyone just sees Chat Noir and is like “look at this guy’s ego. He’s so full of himself. Surely it’d be fair to knock him down a few pegs” without being aware of how few pegs he actually HAS. He’s like the “insecure character who overcompensates in ego” trope except he’s really not doing it unironically, he’s just having a fun LARP pretending to have self worth in his off-hours but nobody else is on the same page about it being a game and he refuses to tell them. He just dramatically pouts about it and lets them laugh and pretends like he’s not internalizing it and it is almost 3 am and my brain forced me to write this instead of sleeping I’m gonna take a melatonin

#writing this my brain was like: what if he actually likes it? #what if he likes people openly criticizing him in ways nobody actually does to Adrien agreste? #because Adrien Agreste is perfect and can do no wrong. maybe he enjoys being insulted or something #and then I remembered chat noirs multiple breakdowns about feeling unworthy and yknow what yeah I don’t think he likes it LOL #do normal people actually fall asleep when they lie down #if you can’t tell I recently decided to make my random ml musings your guys’ business instead of keeping it to myself #hope you enjoy #buggachatter

[pagesinmylife]

I don’t care if this comes off as cruel but you are not entitled to fanfiction. You are not entitled to podfics. You are not entitled to translated works.

Creators are not paid to make fanworks. People spend years of their lives writing fic and getting nothing in return except positive interactions. You can ask to make a translation. You can ask to make a pod fic. But you cannot demand it.

And because the only thing fanfic writers get in return for their work is positive feedback, taking away an authors ability to receive that is disgusting. Authors deserve to have full control and ownership of their works.

Fanfic isn’t a product to consume and then demand more of. Authors and creators deserve better.

#can you tell I’m furious? #I don’t want to lock my fics but I think I will #this is about the app lore.fm btw #lore.fm #fanfiction #fanfic #fics #ao3 #piml

[theoldkyokodied]

The Allegiance of the Ascended Vampire and the New God of Magic

#bloodweave #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #gale x astarion #astarion x gale #gale dekarios #astarion ancunin #yes this is about astarion helping gale defeat mystra and take her place with the crown in exchange for gale helping him with the ritual #the ‘they can make each other worse’ part of their relationship turned to the max #I enjoy them being reluctantly soft for each other more but from time to time I just think about how powerful they could get together #toxic evil boyfriends. take love and twist it up until it’s unrecognisable #I like to think that astarion approached gale with that offer after realising no one else in camp is gonna help him #and that he can use gales own hunger for power which backfired when astarion actually became emotionally invested in gale #and after gale kept his word despite everyone’s concerns astarion changed his plan from not fullfilling his end of the bargain to actually #helping gale kill mystra (mostly so that gale could belong to him and him alone. and letting him take the place as a god bc having a god #at you beck and call is definitely appealing. especially one as eager to please as gale) #anyway what I want to say with this is please please please let me kill mystra i don’t even care if the weave gets destroyed again