#i cant figure out how i feel

[prettybabybaby]

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content: DUBCON, THREATS OF SUICIDE, toxic relationship, possessive!steve, fem!reader, manipulation, coercion, unprotected sex, forced (?) breeding

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"Break up?" Steve said incredulously. "What do you mean 'break up'?" He runs his hands through his hair, shaking his head slightly, "no, you can't leave. We're not breaking up."

What has gotten into you? You've gone insane, surely. There was no way you'd get away from him. He felt anger and frustration at the way you stood near the door. Your hair was nicely done and your clothes were ironed. He could smell your sweet perfume and see your lucky socks poking out from your favorite shoes. You're trying to build confidence. You're still weak.

"I-" you paused, looking away from him, "I can't do this anymore, Steve."

"Why not? You promised. You remember that, don't you? You said we'd be together forever and what, now you're leaving me because of some stupid mistake?" The thought of you slipping through his fingers made his skin itch.

"It wasn't a mistake!" Your lips wobbled, "You're insane, Steve! You're making shit up, twisting reality. I can't do it anymore." You look dejected, tired.

Steve scoffed, "making shit up?"

Your piece of shit coworker has a crush on you, it's clear as day. He meddles in your relationship, planting false ideations into your head. He's a little too possessive, he tells you, that can't be healthy. Who is he to speak? He doesn't know you or Steve and he sure as hell doesn't know anything about your relationship.

"Steve," you plead, "he's my friend. He's just a friend looking out for me."

"So you agree with him? You're ridiculous. He got was coming to him." Steve's expressionless, staring at your look of disbelief. He can see the wheels in your head spinning, trying to figure him out.

"You've lost it," you breathe. "I'm sorry, Steve, but I really can't do this anymore." You turned to leave.

Slipping, slipping, slipping.

Your fingers only brushed the door handle when he spoke again, panic laced in his voice, "baby, please, I can't live without you."

You stopped and he could hear your breath hitch. "I'd rather die than live without you." It's a sensitive topic, he knows that but what else was he to do? You've left him with no other choice. You're silent for a few seconds, "what would I do without you?"

"Stevie, please don't say that," your voice is small, weak, and broken.

"I will if you leave me. You don't want me to hurt myself, do you?"

Your back moves as you sob, head falling forward, "no."

Steve feels a sense of satisfaction. Your hand dropped from the handle and moved to cover your face as you cried. He stood and walked over to you, wrapping his arms around your shaking body, "s'okay, baby, I'm safe as long as you're with me. We can get through this."

You nod, finally meeting his eyes. Your eyes are lined with smudged makeup, red and glassy from crying. He leans in to kiss you, happy when you melt into his touch, eagerly kissing him back. Your tears slide into the cracks of your lips and the salty taste makes him sigh.

Steve picks you up, carries you to your shared bed, and gently climbs over you. Your skin is soft under his fingers as he feels up every crevice of your body, focusing on the places you liked most. How could he be a bad boyfriend if he had every part of you committed to memory? You're the only thing on his mind, day and night.

He sucks your thighs, leaving marks as he gets closer and closer to your little cunt. You whimper when he takes your clit into his mouth, flicking it with his tongue and diving into your folds. He pulls away once he's satisfied, savoring the taste of your - his - pretty pussy.

His cock aligns with your clenching hole that aches to be filled. He sinks in with a shaky breath, slowly thrusting into your dripping heat. He'll never tire of the look of pleasure on your face as you squirm under him, tears still leaking from your eyes and mouth slightly ajar, whining and whimpering.

He can't believe he almost lost you. It could never happen again. It would never happen again. "I told you we'd be together forever," his voice is raspy as he reaches to cradle your face, passionately kissing your puckering lips. "I love you so much."

You'll be his forever once he fucks his cum into your womb, breeding you, tying you to him. A symbol of your love in the form of a growing entity. A piece of him tethered to you.

"M'gonna cum inside you," he groaned. The head of his cock kisses your cervix as he thrusts harder.

The look on your face shifted from pleasure to pain and he found himself just as entranced by the hurt so evident in your eyes where he could see the light flickering almost like you were succumbing to your fate. He knew you wouldn't resist with the threat of his life hanging above your head.

You may not want it now, but you will. Eventually, you'll see and feel what he does. You don't need anybody else.

#tw dubcon #threats of #tw sui #tw suicide #i had a plan for soemhting else but i ended up with #this #i cant figure out how i feel #steve harrington (belle’s version) #by belle ! #possessive!steve #toxic!steve harrington #dark!steve harrington #steve harrington x reader #steve harrington x reader smut #steve harrington x you #steve harrington x you smut #steve harrington x y/n #steve harrington x y/n smut #dark!steve #toxic!steve #steve harrington smut #steve harrington drabble #steve harrington blurb #stranger things smut #stranger things drabble #stranger things

[cosmosnout]

The real reason Oda had to get rid of her was not for plot convenience, but bc she would have kicked everyone’s ass. (Source: trust me bro)

#Art block auggh but must draw pretty lady aauugghh #also fr thought you mean to tell me this lady with the D. in her name wasn’t out here being an absolute menace #like I feel like she and Roger had to be in the same wavelength of fuckass crazy like cmon now #Rouge and Roger backstory when? (I am delusional) #also her being portrayed as this saintly dead mother figure feels very strange to me. boo to women being killed for plot convenience🍅🍅 #also I really tried to draw her similar to how I draw ace bc he is literally a mammas boy #copy and paste of his mom with his dads hair #AGGGHH I NEED MORE OF HERR #AND IF I CANT HAVE MORE I WILL MAKE MORE💥💥 #art #digital art #my art #fanart #drawing #digital illustration #one piece #portgas d ace #portgas d rouge #rouge #op #one piece fanart

[wasyago]

so, would you?

nothing important under the cut, you don't need to look haha

#inspired by the random youtube short i saw about how these types of questions are not really about logic but about emotion and reassurance #doesn't matter if the question doesn't make sense. you say 'yes' because you love them no matter what. not because its a worm or a bug or #or anything. its a way of saying 'i will love you when you've changed and when you're different. because it's still *you*.' #idk something about it just felt so gentle and genuine. like a pure display of affection through a silly question... #and of course fnc was the first thing i thought about because i got brainworms #jrwi fish and chips #jrwi riptide #jrwi chip #gillion tidestrider #my art #sketch #also im back from a vacation! and i feel so awful i got sick the first day home and im sitting here at 6am drawing fishes and chips #the dialog feels a little ooc but i cant figure out if it really is or if its because my head hurts and i cant think #tbh it doesn't really matter.......... but it matters to me augh #ALSO yes the under the cut bit is about episode 109. i dont know if its clear or not

[mblue-art]

BAD SANSUARY // [29] glow for owl-bones's event !

pov u attacked the little error doll he gave u w/ sooo many smoochies and he felt all of it

alt. vers. under the cut !

#badsansuary #error!sans #error sans #mblue art #tsundere idiot. get loved on <3 #i like the idea of him having a dual-color blush but i'm still trying to figure out how to do that;; i think it ended up looking good :0 ! #also!! love the idea of error making a (magic-infused?) plush doll of him for whatever reasons; i think its cute and thoughtful #have little guy w/ u by ur side whenever he's away so u can cuddle him whenever u miss him; #it being infused w/ magic (?) making it somehow possible for him to feel the hugs n kisses; #i think it's a nice way to be physically affectionate w/ him even when he still has haphephobia #(haha oh man im rlly kissy for badsansuary HSBJHSBDFJSDH wait 'till you see the next one 😎 bet u cant guess what's in it 😎😎 /silly)

[sualne]

kiss you in aroace, and we're both boys.

#one piece #monkey d. luffy #trafalgar law #lawlu #my art #described in alt text #me drawing luffy in orange and law in blue because its the aroace flag: im so smart (its also the canon colors but shh). #i had forgotten i had made these. when surviving a tummyache that day. this is about like. i wanted to like. explore aroace&aroace #relationships and how you're more likely to be affectionnate among fellows aros and aces because youve made it clear theres no intentions #behind it. like man. imagine a beautiful world when no one has to feel like they cant hold or kiss their homies because it's seen as #inherently romantic or sexual. also im still trying to figure out how to draw kisses and this was a good opportunity to try again.

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

Heroes of Millennium (HoM) AU

Act 1: What was left behind. - Part 1 <- Part 2 (here) -> Part 3

#hom au #heroes of millennium au #danny phantom #danny fenton #jake long #american dragon jake long #adjl #dp #rc9gn #*bangs fists on table and cackles like a hyena* I DID PROMISE ITS GONNA BE VERY MEATY but in this case i meant ACTION BABEY #cant draw action comics for shitt but does it stope me????? NOPE you are all gonna suffer thru this with me #also i do feel a need to apologize for my excess use of c o l o r s but i really havent figured out how to draw like a normal person #also x2 sorry for like. 2 month long break between these parts hah

[godhelpmeimdescendingintomadness]

#these are genuine screenshots of posts from the day and im putting these here both 1. for peoples enjoyment but 2. to archive it because the #y all live on my old ass computer which may croak it at any moment #this is a snapshot of the day none of these are my posts (obviously) and i feel really bad that dumb younger me didnt get peoples urls in #the screenshots #but on the bright side you see peoples customised blogs?? yay??? #also all the twitter screenshots were taken by other tumblr users and posted in the tag on the day #i dont and didnt use twitter back then so theyre also tumblr vintage #i have more but i hit the image limit and im scheduling this post to be on the day and i cant figure out how to reblog and add more until #november 5th #nov 5th #spn #supernatural #destiel #destielputinelection

[b4kuch1n]

THEE audiodrama disguised as podcast

#sherlock and co #s&co #sherlock holmes #john watson #mariana ametxazurra #Ive been thinking abt these design SO much lmao. even while doing other things #decided to take cues from acd/granada more. hence sherlock's headband to mimic slicked back hair #and I went with Colors bc. well first of all Im a clown. but second of all I recall some stuff abt victorian fabrics and uh. the wonder of #arsenic green etc #they were enjoying the colors I can commit to some #and. okay Im so real with u Im also a long haired john truther bc he has a podcast of course he'd have long hair but #I think its gonna take a Hot minute. currently this is still like the slightly-grown-out regulation cut #john's jacket is bc he and sherlock are 90s kids. this was a moment of enlightenment to me. I can give john every windbreaker on earth #mariana gets the jean jacket bc I like to imagine she's a y2k kid #(sherlock I think is only 90s kid in year of birth that man's childhood was skipping class to burn shit in the wood) #(but he canonically sews which I fucking love so much. he has not bought new clothes for almost a decade #if a shirt's disintegrating no it isn't. not on his watch) #a lil sad I cant figure out how to give them hats lol I feel like thats the most victorian thing there is. a stupid hat #I can at any moment give one of them a beanie. but I refuse #there are. like a Hoard of other scribbly sketches I did to get used to drawing them. but those are for me those are not for the public #and also theyre in my sketchbook and Im too lazy to scan them #happened mostly during lunar new year lol. I was getting Hard whipped then thank u s&co for carrying me thru #ok I do other things now. have this for a while ok? thank u #have a good night lads. enjoy motion

[todayisafridaynight]

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 2 #yakuza series #yakuza 2 #yakuza kiwami 2 #daigo dojima #snap sketches #nature's healing im drawing emo daigo standing around doing fuck all again #on the real i was actually. re/drawing ANOTHER daigo drawing but then i had the impulse to give im a crop jacket #cause i was thinkin of people drawin maj|ma's crop blazer from y1 and i was like 'can i. steal that for daigo' #idk if ill draw him with a crop puffer henceforth i feel like the full-size puffer does well to capture how sad and squishy he is #but i cant lie... i really like the crop...... also its not a pain for me to figure out ☠️ #we'll see. anyway it's 2am when the christ did that happen BYE

[gophergal]

Life on the farm

#gopher art #mortal kombat #subscorp #mk subzero #mk scorpion #kuai liang #hanzo hasashi #mortal kombat legends #been holding onto this one for a bit! finished it more than a month ago lol #i was originally going to save it for subscorp week but then i was like. nah. that wouldnt be entirely fair lol #and besides. ive been wanting to share it for long enough and my resolve has kinda worn down #anyway - snowblind but AU'd! heres my concept of this (which i may use later on for something idk): king kano got his shit wrecked #like way before the events of the movie. by the revenants in fact. i want him torn to shreds. you still have random roving assholes #making trouble across the wastes. but its much less dire. kuai still retires to his farm. kenshi still falls for shang tsung's bullshit #and kuai mentors him. hanzo becomes warlord of netherrealm. BUT. he and kuai keep in contact. its long distance and they make it work #sometimes scorpion vacays to Kuai's farm. as a treat. thats what this drawing is #i cant deny that i literally just want them to be happy ok. thats literally all i want for these gay old ninjas #bonus commentary: at the time of drawing this i was still figuring out how i wanted to draw hanzo. he's so fucking hard to draw #when i draw him without his mask or beard he looks so fucking off. but if i draw him with the beard it feels weird too. #babygirl why are you so hard to draw?? dont you want me to draw you?????

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[popponn]

pretty boy. [chigiri hyoma x f!reader]

notes: a bit of cursings, unmentioned but post-canon aka pro-player!chigiri, pinning.

“You are prettier than me,” you bemoaned your fate to your pillow. From your side, Chigiri Hyoma didn’t even bother to sigh at your unimportant complains anymore.

Hidden from your eyes, Hyoma wondered if he should scold you or do something else. 10 years of friendship and 3 years of crushing—he still couldn’t really grasp the situation whenever you were like this. Two seconds and you were the sunshine of his life, then on a rare one second you kept screaming how his face was the reason no one on earth is pretty.

The fuck was he supposed to say to that?

He tried “Thanks.” When you were chill, you squealed and praised him even more and he became a mess of a goo as he tried to act cool. When you were like this, you cried for real thrice and he really didn’t need a fourth time.

He tried “Of course.” The normal response was to poke his cheek—which reddened in response much to your oblivious ass’ and his unfortunate ass’ charging. The this response would be a confusing session of skincare steps tutorial followed with more whining.

Other responses too produced similar result. Either his crush acted up like some chronic back pain or whatever spirit possessing you became the bane of Hyoma’s existence which is a big fuck not again no matter how much affection he hold for you.

(Also, good God, somehow the latter made him felt miserable because while overcoming a fatal, life-changing injury is possible for him of course making progression in his love life from the goddamn friendzone is impossible.)

(Every celebration night, his whole fucking team poked him to death with that fact. Bitch.)

As those terrible recollection went through his mind, Hyoma jokingly wondered if this time he should actually grew a spine and be a man who charged at everything recklessly.

Which he did, because as Chigiri Hyoma had realized—

He is an impatient dumbass. Might as well shut down his brain for a moment and follow his ego out of field for once.

“Hey,” Hyoma called your name.

“Hm?” you turned your head slightly from the—holy shit seriously—tear soaked pillowcase. Hyoma’s pillowcase. Hyoma sharpened his eyes at that realization, but as of the moment he was a man on a mission.

Gently, Hyoma brought his face closer to you. You, as usual, didn’t gave him even a blink of nervousness even as heat crept up to his cheeks.

(Your heart beat faster. You silently asked if Hyoma would ever realize what being close to him does to you. But, out of respect, out of affection, and out of many things—you said nothing.)

“You do realize you are pretty, right?” Hyoma asked, his eyes looking straight at yours.

(You forced a pout, trying to hide the overwhelming, bubbling feelings inside the cavity of your heart.)

“You are just saying that, pretty princess!” you protested, pushing your face closer to him. Out of habit, Hyoma realized, and yet it still did things to him. Fuck his highschooler-in-love ass.

Hyoma raised an eyebrow. Through sheer determination and lovesickness, he pressed his forehead to yours, “Am I now?”

“Yeah,” you said, sniffing. “You are handsome, too. Unfair. So unfair.”

Hyoma pursed his lips. He could end this with a kiss and risked it all. Or he could get to the point on confess. Or he could chicken out for another year.

(A part of you wanted to risk it all and kiss him. But, you were a chicken who hold a crush for 13 years in its beak—)

But, in the end, he might have loved you too much to risk it all.

(—like a professional and trained clown, you held the urge in.)

Hyoma drew his face away from yours, “You are pretty too, dumbass. If it’s between us, it’s fair.”

You—who definitely, yet again, didn’t realize the blazing blushes on his cheeks—blinked in confusion, “…really?”

You are a dumbfuck—Chigiri Hyoma noted affectionately. He will be in love for an eternity and he is just as dumb for thinking it wouldn’t be so bad.

Bitterly, Hyoma smiled at that.

(You wanted to blurt out to your long time friend that his smile was the dearest thing on earth.)

“At least,” Hyoma began. “You are the prettiest girl on earth for me.”

Once again, dumbly, you blinked. Hyoma saw speck of red on your cheeks—mirroring his—before you immediately hid behind his pillow again.

Then, like a hint of happy ending—whispering, almost like a dream—he heard you reply, “…yeah, you too.”

Under the sunset, with a voice that could only be heard by him who sat mere inches away from you, you continued.

“I love you, Hyoma.”

(Hyoma knew his teammates would never let him hear the end of it if they knew you confessed first.)

(But, hey, the chicken is fucking dead and he is certain he could win a bar fight if its for the sake of his and your honor.)

“…yeah, love you too.”

#bluelock #blue lock #bllk #bllk imagines #bllk x reader #bluelock x reader #blue lock fluff #chigiri hyoma #blue lock chigiri #bllk chigiri #chigiri x reader #can someone tell me how to italic a word in this site #im not that old but i truly feel like a grandma rn #i just wanna post fics about anime boys and i cant figure out hyperlink here

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

You used to be my rival!

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#Poorly drawn MDZS #MDZS #wei wuxian #lan wangji #season 1 #If you caught the mbmbam reference you're a real one #This one was fun! I enjoyed trying to figure out a background and while i still have a ways to go I think it adds to the panel a lot #This scene doesn't quite play out with lwj doing the sleepy head on the shoulder #but the audio drama makes it ambiguous for a few seconds and *I* want to believe #Also rip to wwx you should have paid more attention to how close you were sitting to your frenemy #Watch out! He's touch starved and pining after you!! Noooo he cant hear us he's playing with corpse parts!!! #I think it would be funny if the resentful limb was stuck in a resentful pose. Might keep the joke up so we can get to 4x middle finger NJM #After this its Cloud Recess flashback time! Lets go Teens! #Edit: I live in a place that still has daylight savings so this is the new queue posting time. Yes I am miserable #Currently making this note and feeling like LWJ in this comic (sleepy)

[p4nishers]

izzy already has a crush on stede and is about to make it everyone's problem send post

#izzy hands u r so weird bbg i want to study u under a microscope #still figuring out how i feel but im starting to like that mf and im not so mad about ut #anyway he's literally already crushing on stede and u cant argue w me on that #'i wanted to thank you for-' WHORE. SLUT. U WANTED TO GIVE HIM HE[GUNSHOT] #ofmd #ofmd season 2 #ofmd s2 #our flag means death s2 #izzy hands #stede bonnet #oh also it's unrequited. if anyone was wondering.

[3-aem]

MY BRAINS NOT WORKING AND THE CUTE BOY I WORK WITH KEEPS CORRECTING MY GRAMMAR THIS IS SO AHAIWIAKSDHDGRRRRHRNE

#dhakaksdjs fuckdwkufeisfjsjajsueei #im using a translator and it keeps outputting 您 instead of 你 and he keeps calling it out like bro ur making it awkward #AND IM LIKE SORRY I CANT ACTUALLY WRITE IN THIS LANGUAGE IM REALLY DU M. BB #also he offered to take over the last part bc i was like hi its almost 9pm here and i literally cannot think anymore #like i am certain its a very easy last part my brain is just finished #i feel so bad bc i wanted to push this proj over the line #this company is so intense i am so baby i am so tired #hugging my cat and rubbing my gross face all over his gross body #me in vc trying to figure out how to say: it was broken earlier idk how it was fixed u saw it was broke tho right #but all that came out was: in the past it was….problematic… *20 yr silence* #before he awkwardly went: um its okay i dont think this is necessary also u have lint issues #and i was just like ya….i know 😭 #its ambiguous to some of my teammates if i just dont understand them or if im fking dumb #its probably both im ngl #the blank stare i have on my face is first from trying to comprehend what the actual words they are saying mean #and then to comprehend what technical concept they are trying to convey #using like 50% of the information i managed to parse out #also im used to literally spending 30-40% of the working day talking smack #now i try to crack and joke and everyone is like three this isnt the time #three we are all gonna be hear past 9pm working this isnt the time

[divinelyviolet]

Astrology Observations:

-Found a trend with Aries Moon/Venus (honorable mention Leo Mars) to be into BDSM or more rough type of sex

-People with Pisces placements in big 3 are more selfish than other placements, though people they let into their lives don’t seem to mind. Pisces in Big 3 aren’t usually shy about what they want

-Sagittarius in Big 3 always seem to have the opportunity to either travel or experience unique things with basically no cost to them. Always seeming to stem from some type of pure good luck and/or charismatic nature (them knowing someone who knew someone got them backstage/ got a job that lets them travel for free/etc)

*Bonus: Sagittarius in big 3 seem to have the ability to rub luck off onto people (whether good or bad depends on the Sag in my opinion)

#i dont mean selfish in a negative manner for pisces #i just feel they have an idea of what they want and they’ll figure out how to get it #even if its a little delusional or selfish #also i feel Sagittarius cant rub luck off on each other #like every sag has their own type of luck and other sags just cant enter that vibe #i guess if that makes sense #i do however feel like they can elevate their vibes or like balance them #astrology #leo mars #aries venus #aries moon #Sagittarius #Sagittarius moon #Sagittarius sun #pisces #pisces sun #pisces moon #astrology observations #Sagittarius rising #pisces rising