#i cannot do this u don’t GET IT

[yukimiyaz]

there’s just something so gutting about nagi’s complete and utter trust in isagi. “should we not consult barou?” he asks, and all it takes is a single no from isagi and he drops it. he concedes. like he is placing his own life into the hands of just one guy. a guy who stands on the edge of his throne with his eyes wide but never focusing. in the hands of a puzzling king, who offers not an ounce of certainty but an abundance of confidence. and that is enough

#i cannot do this u don’t GET IT #the ONLY person we see nagi listen to at all before this is reo #and that’s only because reo is the reason he started soccer #but isagi is the reason he LIKES it #that’s a bit chilling - isn’t it? #that he had unadultered security and still found no merit #but he finds all the zeal he could possibly need standing on the rickety pillars of isagi’s vision #insane. just insane #idk maybe i’m stupid. maybe i’ve not watched enough to really catch on #but that’s just so. crazy to me

[comradekatara]

i think the reason that a lot of people don’t recognize how fucked up sokka is is due to the fact that sokka himself refuses to acknowledge it. he is extremely repressed and operating on so many layers of cognitive dissonance that he doesn’t even realize that he is not in fact “normal” or “mentally stable” or “healthy.” part of sokka being extremely fucked up is also refusing to acknowledge or confront that he is remotely fucked up. so he generally presents like a well-functioning person who, despite being incredibly cerebral, doesn’t have a particularly rich inner life. but that’s only because he’s walled off every single aspect of his existence that causes him (real) pain or sadness or grief, put it in a vault and then buried it. and confronting any of it, even a little bit (like admitting that he felt abandoned by his father leaving, or that he misses his mother, or any other normal expression of pain that katara has no problem communicating) would mean confronting all the harmful logic he has internalized regarding his identity and denial of his own inherent humanity. so even though he seems like he has no filter and loves to complain, he is actually performing pretty much constantly. for the sake of those to whom he feels obligated, but mostly for himself.

#he and nanami kiryuu need to unionize #and then withhold their labor (their job of course being. getting hit over the head with god’s mallet) #sokka #analysis #anyway i felt like expanding on this point per my last post #and also due to a discussion i had the other day #with someone who claimed i was ‘unfairly implying that sokka is mentally ill’ 😭😭😭 #i do think understanding this though is the key between sokka enthusiasts (‘hehe funny little guy’) and Sokka Scholars(TM) #‘why do u care so much about this guy he is the comic relief’ #because if i don’t. who will!!!!!!!!!!! #no but because he is genuinely fucking INTERESTING okay #he is a COMPELLING character who is FUN to ANALYZE #[mai voice] you cannot fathom the depths of SOKKA.

[leverage-ot3]

hozier starting to sing take me to church and then unfurling a pride flag healed something in me actually

if you listen closely you can hear me yell ‘oh my god’ when he does it

#(don’t listen too closely though I’m a bad singer lol) #I tried to post this Sunday night but it didn’t go through #I had no idea he was going to do it I almost cried #not leverage #hozier #slept at our airbnb for like 4 hours #woke up for an hour until Cumbies would be open so I could get breakfast (5am) #and then drove over 2.5 hours to get back home in time to get prepared for work #I ended up teaching my two hour group and then working till twelve and taking the rest of the day off #I forgot my meds so I slept ten hours until 10 at night 💀 #worth it #seeing him was a spiritual experience fr #and this was like SO spontaneous. like I cannot express enough how much I didn’t plan for this #also I literally got my tickets saturday when the show was sunday. thank u stubhub ur a true mvp #I knew my friends were going and were staying overnight and someone in my facebook group was selling tickets last minute and was like 👀👀👀 #I’m not gonna go into how she decided to sell to someone else later that day when I had already made plans and made me cry but whatever #it worked out in the end

[cupiidzbow]

I am literally over the moon rn TYSM @lovebugexe FOR THIS ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL COMMISSION. U SHOULD COMMISSION BEA IMMEDIATELY. like im soso happy best day of my life 🥹🫶🏽💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

#IM SO INSANE U DREW HIM SO CUTIE PIEEEE IM SO OBSESSED….. #I wanted to get a treat for myself for the holdiays and this was even better than I could even imagine ….. WAAHAHSSHSHSHGSGS BITES MY FIST #I’m literally so happy …… I don’t even know what to do rn I cannot stop smiling 😭😭😭😭 #LITERALLY COMMISSION BEA RN THEIR ART IS SO CUTE …….. #THANK U SOSO MUCH ONCE AGAIN AUGGHHHHGGH FALLS TO THE FLOOR GRIPPING MY HEAD #self ship #self shipping #bipoc self ship #🦍🏄‍♂️🌊 #gifts! 🎁 #FAVE #ULT FAVE

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

pardon my shaky hands

#death note #l lawliet #trad art #got out the paint pens bc they’re so crisp #that black pen makes my shaky hands very noticeable but whatever #u get the scribbly guy since i cannot smooth my lines via procreate w/o a working pen #i have so many of these paint pens tho i don’t even think i used all of the blue ones #they all are very little tho #they’re the posca .7mm ones but i think i’d use them more if i got the 1.8 or thicker ones #my hands are shaky and my eyes are bad so it’d be easier if i could get bigger pens #i have a couple but they are all neon bc i like bright colors #and since i'm talking paint pens anyway i found an absolute beast of a pen #i literally have to fist it to hold it it's massive. i mean. i do have little hands but it's still massive #the ball in it literally clunks when i shake it rather than the little quiet noises of the other ones #its fucking massive i forgot i had it it is awesome i think i probably got it to color things in fast bc it's a massive wedge tip

[whitmore]

really actually kind of enjoy how the big lore moments are sort of quiet on a singular stream (or a small group!) instead of the events solely being the lore; i think there would be this hesitation to develop anything solo if the server reinforced this idea that Big Lore could only happen during scheduled events and days. instead the more narrative-progressing moments (take the baghera hybrid experiments revelation or the philza birdnapping for recent example) are very low-key and almost unhyped up— there’s no expectation for that kind of lore necessarily at the time which makes it more rewarding to experience as a viewer. big fan of how they do the events as player bonding time rather than serious narrative progression because it allows all the players (especially the ones who don’t engage in the rp side that much) to participate and get to know each another more; it’s very neat it’s really smart it’s nicely executed

#eleanor.txt #qsmp #tag expansion time get ready for the nuance #do i think that the events could be executed better in terms of like. coding / design. yes on occasion #i’ve seen some frustration that some players don’t take the events seriously enough and that it’s frustrating as a viewer #which i understand and empathize with i think there’s definitely A solution somewhere but i’m not sure exactly what it is tbh #i try not to criticize what i cannot personally solve i think they’re doing their best with what they’ve got #i also do believe that like the Expectation for Big Lore almost always backfires #it’s something u cannot win i think . the expectation will always in some way let you down #(especially re: character involvement seriousness of the stream amount progressed narratively contribution to general plot etc etc #there’s so many variables when you expect ‘lore’ and what that means to people) #i think there’s always some disappointed group when Big Lore starts to be hyped up & teased #whereas i see a lot less general complaints when it’s an unexpected moment (other than people upset they missed it— #arguably unavoidable whether you advertise the stream as lore focused or not) #there’s still Lore during the events things still occur information is still exchanged #but it’s not structured on lore. lore isn’t the foundation for the event it just occurs by implication #anyway. very good job qsmp impressive stuff very enjoyable

[apotelesmaa]

> looking for a tenma siblings relationship study

> ask the op if the study is actually about the tenmas or just treating saki like an accessory to tsukasa

> they don’t understand

> pull out an illustrated diagram explaining the difference

> they laugh and say “it’s a good relationship study sir”

> click the post

> it’s treating saki like an accessory to tsukasa

#project sekai #listen I love tsukasa as I love all the wxs members but i also love saki and cannot stand u people #don’t even get me started on when people fridge saki for contrived tsukasa angst. I’ll kill you. #i could also go on a rant abt how saki is so disrespected in general by pjsk fans #& as sm1 with a (less severe) chronic illness I do not appreciate how her illness is only explored in relation to how tsukasa feels abt it #but I think I would get too frustrated #gripping ur shoulders. read the doll story again. #also if ur talking abt tsukasa’s character & don’t mention saki u have automatically failed #before any of his relationships saki is the most important like it’s not subtext it’s literally just text #did we forget the dazzling event where he finally has a breakthrough in his role bc he talked to saki. #or the main story where he’s like yea saki is literally the reason I pursued acting #or the doll event where he’s despondent bc he thinks saki is mad at him & then when honami comes to his school #his first reaction is to sprint over like WHAT HAPPENED 2 SAKI IS SHE OK (sprints home) #or saki canonically being his no.1 fan. smh. u cannot separate them. and why would u want to. they’re so funny. #+ saki saying he made her hospitalizations more bearable. picking up on his mannerisms. crying during the doll festival bc they had a fight. #the dolls being her favorite things bc of how it symbolized their bond. #the complex tenma sibling mental illness web in general makes me crazy. #saki is like I love u but I wish u wouldn’t worry abt me so much and rely on me more & then tries to hide issues to make him not worry #tsukasa is like I’m always worried abt u and I don’t want to burden u because I feel like I need to always be a rock for u #ough. love them.

[sexynetra]

Olivia Lux is collecting selfies with my favorite queens tonight like they’re fucking infinity stones

#sated only by the knowledge that she cannot get Marcia and Robin because that would be the ultimate KO #also if you haven’t wished Robin a happy birthday may I wish you a happy go die???? that’s my baby that’s my girl #anyways I love all these bitches #and this may be sacrilegious to say especially with me being who I am #Olivia might be the prettiest??? #she’s just. so stunning #her face card is crazy #my mom saw a few eps of s13 last week and was like pointing at her going that one with the high cheekbones and perfect smile? #she doesn’t even need to do anything to be beautiful #she’s stunning #and mom was so right #mom is always right when she calls queens hot #I don’t remember the context but she recently pointed out a very hot person and went wow they’re beautiful they look like Sasha Colby #and I went gag that’s such a high compliment #anyways Anetra u look stunning #Sasha love the hair #and Jackie out of drag I know I’m a lesbian but I’m in love with you for real for real #drag race #rpdr #RuPaul’s drag race #anetra #Sasha Colby #Jackie cox #Olivia lux

[cerealmonster15]

I want to try you house out of the sheer curiosity of seeing it on so many people’s art fight bios and I want to SEE!!!! but I think u gotta get codes from real human beings (who pay to use the site I think?? That gives them codes??) in order get in there so. I guess I will be turning into a turnip instead.

#I am all over the place right now and I CANNOT wrangle my stupid little brain meat right now #Do u ever sneeze so hard you nearly throw out ur back #I fear that every time I sneeze bc I sneeze kind of aggressively #Like just now. Like they’re not scary loud like my parents #But they’re hefty!!!!! #Anyway would I even use toy house or just stare at it and get scared??? Well I don’t know. #But I think I would try may haps #It all depends on the community I crave community #<- says the person whose been actively hiding from tumblr days at a time #Despite this being the only place I DO have that online community circle lol #Um it’s complicated. I’m experiencing a complicated thing in my brain lately I cannot explain it I’m. It’s fine. 🚶 #not leaving tho id be too sad #Im justbhwhehdhfhfhthtjtgjfgngng trying to figure something out. I do not know what yet #Ok I gotta pee goodbye ✌️

[fakesorbet]

saying this on twt but i truly still can’t get over how much love and grief there is in cacao kingdom , the dichotomy of it , and how it all relates to dark cacao as a character .

it’s very impactful to know that there is a moment where the dead gray trees become cherry blossoms l full of life, that years after white lily’s disappearance cacao kingdom ensures the lilys are persevered, and that sunflowers also appear in the kingdom . they aren’t meant to survive , the conditions are not meant for them , but the strength they have to stay alive reflects on cacao and the citizens . realistically , there is an easier life where agriculture and survival isn’t a struggle , but they planted it their home and continue to both fight and love the home they have .

remembrance and symbolism are also very much connected - like how the flowers are related to his loved ones and also how theres literal slabs of chocolate to remember the fallen , and of course the choco portrait . it still drives me crazy how cacao berates choco by saying he won’t be remembered but also keeps a memorial for his child ;_; cacao still loves choco , but he also grieves for the actions both and and choco have done but regardless cacao will always hold onto memories , good or bad . cacao kingdom - and cacao especially - holds out for the good that can come from grief . if a flower can bloom in snow then maybe one day cacao can too heal from his pain . or smth like that

#me wanting to get more active on tumblr -> posts dumb thoughts #i hope this makes sense #cookie run #BtW i very much mean love in the platonic sense Do not be weird i will bIow u up #txt #i rlly wanna make a giant doc or smfh abt the environmental storytelling of cacao kingdom because there’s soooo much #like do u think about how chocos part of the castle is the dirtiest ? There’s literally cobwebs meaning cacao either doesn’t let ppl clean #it to preserve what it was once before OR cacao cannot bring himself and others to see the past #also chocos own aversion to seeing his past like . Crk was in their BAG writing that episode - mistranslation and all #rambling in tumblr is also way easier cuz i don’t have a word count but if i need to use the ‘ see more ‘ thing lmkkk

[jaeyunverse]

are u guys 😭😭😭 seeing this 😭😭😭

#i cannot do this anymore my mental health is already in shambles #i want him so bad u guys don’t get it #jeno

[ahalliance]

monolingual english speakers: my accent in [foreign] language is so bad :[

me, rolling up to speak spanish with the worst accent you’ve ever heard:

#i cannot roll my Rs . i struggle with ‘ll’ pronunciations . no matter how comfortable i am with grammar and syntax #it is incredibly obvious spanish is a foreign language for me . do u think that stops me from speaking it ? NO #HOW ELSE AM I SUPPOSED TO GET BETTER IF I DON’T PRACTICE #like okay i already speak two languages fluently so monolinguals don’t Get it but you do not have to have a perfect accent to speak another #language . it is so incredibly important to get over that ‘but i sound bad’ hurdle or else you will never get better at your chosen languag #mi acento es muy muy horrible pero sigo hablar español porque como puedo ser mejor sin hablar 😭 #jay rambles

[mumblesplash]

getting better at drawing when you’re not trying for realism is kinda funny bc it’s like wow now my art looks even MORE like the exact midpoint between old-school disney and late 2010s anime. i didn’t think it was possible and yet i’ve done it again. inspiring

#and soon? even More. #there’s also the additional layer of not being able to explain what about my art is better than it used to be #like idk what to tell u it’s just better now. all my old stuff is crap compared to this. leaps and bounds #source: dude trust me #tbh i think my artistic abilities probably seem much more consistent from an outside pov #bc i never want to draw anything i can’t draw #like if i TRIED to draw that cuteguy stoplight drawing a few months ago it would have looked terrible #but i wouldn’t have tried bc i wouldn’t have wanted to bc i couldn’t you see #that’s the thing about art it never feels any easier #if you start out frustrated by your skill falling short of your vision guess what #your vision will continue to improve as you gain skill and that frustration never goes away #but it also never feels any harder #my first experience with drawing was being pleasantly surprised to find my skill slightly exceeded my aspirations #(i was 3 and my aspirations were draw a duck) #and you know what. to this day the pleasant surprise remains #what i’m saying is dream small stay in your comfort zone and do not strive for great things #cannot recommend complacency enough #this isn’t sports you don’t get gains through effort you get gains and then the effort happens on accident #don’t listen to me i probably don’t know what i’m talking about #but i AM having more fun drawing than you so maybe i’m onto something #impossible to say #i’m certainly not smart enough to figure that out i’m an idiot have you seen the kind of advice i give #mumbling

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

I love learning ASL it’s so good. Makes me happy to learn it. I’m so glad my university has classes for it with professors actually steeped in Deaf culture.

#blue chatter #am I good at ASL? hahahahahahaha. no. #ASL and English grammar are incredibly different and even when I remember my vocab I am easily clockable as hearing #but I do have some language capacity now. enough to communicate the basics. #and I just. genuinely really enjoy it. it’s fun to learn and engaging in a way most of my classes just aren’t. #and I can. yanno. communicate respectfully w Deaf ppl. and learn about their culture #which is incredibly important given that I want to go into a field where there is a higher incidence than typical of Deaf people #autistic? you’re more likely to be Deaf! #not to mention the fact that sign language can sometimes be a useful alternative to speech for nonspeaking/nonverbal people #depending on the person obvi; some nonspeaking/nonverbal autistics cannot use sign language and that’s okay #but surely at some point I will encounter either a Deaf client or a nonspeaking/nonverbal client who uses ASL #and when that time comes I should have some idea of how to communicate with them #I also rly like the Deaf church by my parents’ house #their community is really welcoming and their services are really interesting #I think it’s rly cool how they take intentions directly from the congregation #they’ll raise their hands and then sign what their intention is from their pew to the ambo #which is rly neat #it is funny bc every time I go the Deaf ppl I talk to will tell each other ‘go slow she’s hearing’ #which is ENTIRELY fair bc. I am hearing. and I do need them to go slower. #but it also makes me laugh bc truly everyone knows within a few minutes. #oh hey the new person? they’re hearing. yeah they’re learning ASL at college. sign slowly for her. #which again makes sense bc a big Deaf culture thing is keeping ppl informed. it’s not gossip it’s getting everyone on the same page. #Deaf ppl do NOT beat around the bush that is like the height of rudeness to them. u say what u mean goshdangit. do not waste their time. #which I appreciate the heck out of bc i don’t have to try and phrase things delicately or w/e #it was also funny bc my mom came w me while I was home for Christmas and they asked her if I was her kid #and she said yes. and the lady running the kid’s craft corner thing was like ‘great you’re doing a craft now’ #and I’m sitting there. visibly over 18 years old. amongst several seven year olds. trying desperately to figure out how to say hot glue gun #I made a v pretty pinecone tree it was a lot of fun ^-^

[godblooded]

tfw you can’t drink coffee because you’ll explode but there is also nothing at all available that’s even tangential to coffee OR a single goddamn drink that ISN’T coffee.

#ooc. o kaptain. #[you ever just want a single thing that gets u thru the morning and you can’t even get it because you’ll vibrate out of your fucking body. #SOME PEOPLE HAVE SEVERE GENERALIZED ANXIETY AND LITERALLY CANNOT DRINK COFFEE. and it makes me mad because I LIKE coffee. did I used to #drink it as a probably insane form of self punishment? yeah and I do not do that anymore but sometimes I just wish I could order a fucking #caramel whatever and go ‘wow I love this’. aderall kick in challenge. I don’t need to be upset about something THIS dumb.]

[shehzadi]

lol the fact that nobody (bar one person) i know outside of my family is even talking about palestine in any way irl is so crushing. the disconnect is crazy

#the most you get is *one post about the death toll* *back to happy posts look at me at a party look at me going out look at me—* #and talking to friends who see my story is so surreal because they’ll talk abt something random. and it’s like you cannot even fathom how #much i don’t care. the least u could do is acknowledge #🧩