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puppy-coded · 2 years

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You're Worth More{R.B. & E.M.}

✰ 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: feeling less than/unwanted, breakup and heartbreak, robin led you on </3

✰ 𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: platonic!Eddie x reader, ex!Robin x reader(briefly)

✰ 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐂𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 1k words

✰ 𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲: Robin breaks up with you and Eddie is there for you. Always.

✰ 𝐀/𝐍: Yeah so turns out that getting broken up with over text isn't fucking fun. Based on recent events <3

"Hey! I am so incredibly sorry to spring this up on you now but I can't do this. I'm overwhelmed by the thought of a relationship. I've never been in one before and I don't think I can be friends with this looming over me. We can still be friends though! I really enjoy talking to you. If you need space though, I totally get it. Just get back when you can darling."

Your watch beeped with the message from Robin and you, stupidly in hindsight, read it after you rang up a customer. Your eyes stung at the message and you looked to your boss/grandmother with a large fake smile.

"I need to use the bathroom, I'll be back."

"I'll hold down the fort sister!"

"Thanks grams."

You locked yourself in a stall and tried not to cry, reading and rereading the same message. You didn't understand.

Robin told you she was into you.

She thought you were pretty.

She's called you sexy before.

And now it's ending via text message?

You took a screenshot to send to Eddie before telling him what happened.

You were in a bad internet spot and he was very confused by your "love is dead" message. It send before the screenshot did.

"Anyway love is dead."

"WHAT??? WHAT HAPPENED?"

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"Love my life rn"

"oh babe, i'm sorry"

You went back to work and you were pretty busy when Nancy, also known as the best coworker ever, finally walked into the coffee shop.

Class had just gotten out and the line of students there was crazy.

After the line died down and it was just you and Nancy you almost started crying. You only had about five minutes to talk about it if Nancy would let you.

You really didn't want to cry though.

You started fanning your face and Nancy stared at you questioningly. "You hot?"

"Hot? No. Trying not to cry," You chuckled.

"Oh? What happened?" She asked, looking genuinely concerned.

Oh fuck.

The water works.

Stay in. Stay in please...

You put your hands in your sweatpants' pockets and leaned against the counter. "Um... girl problems. I'm trying not to cry because I don't want to explain anything to grams. I'm not out yet..." You briefly explained, sniffling a bit.

"It's just- she knows my schedule too," You vented to your friend. "She texted me an hour into my three hour shift and I have to hide the fact I had an almost-girlfriend from my grandma. I'm lucky she has allergies and can hardly function." You ranted, crossing your arms.

Nancy shook her head and did the same. "That's not fair."

"Yeah well... life not fair," You reminded her.

Nancy poked her lip out and held her arms out. "Hug?"

You nodded with a quivering lip and burning eyes. "Yes please."

You quickly pulled away and immediately started wiping your face. You had cleaned yourself off just in time and plastered yet another fake smile across your face.

Nancy took care of you during your shift. She kept getting customers and telling you to "study" which meant "do what you have to do but make it look important".

"bubbles ily. i think you need to hear this rn. i can't imagine my life without you."

"thanks teddy. ilyt."

"call after work?"

"always"

Your shift was up and you almost ran to your car, ready to call Eddie.

He picked up within a few rings and you stayed on for a few moments silently crying.

"Sweetheart, I'm sorry." Eddie finally said, breaking the silence.

You started sobbing at that. "It's just- She said-"

"I know hon, I'm sorry."

"Teddy, what if that was it? My- my- my one chance?" You asked hysterically.

"Not how that works babydoll. I've been in plenty of relationships, all of them ending terribly," He assured you.

You took a few breaths and tried calming yourself down.

"Focus on things that make you happy bubbles," Eddie advised.

You swallowed, choking on your own spit and sob, with a loud and disgusting snort because of snot. "I- I get paid Friday," You said.

You could hear Eddie clapping on the other. "Good! That's good! Buy yourself a little treat. A little somethin' somethin' Friday." He encouraged. "Robin did a shitty thing."

You shrugged even though you knew Eddie couldn't see it. "It's whatever I guess. Everything is fine."

"It's not fine love."

"If I pretend it is then I can stop feeling," You argued.

"I know it sounds good but you need to let it out."

You nodded. "I'll call you later. I need to think."

"Bye, love you."

"Love you too Teddy."

. . .

You woke up feeling like absolute shit. You grabbed your phone and almost clicked Robin's contact out of habit to tell her good morning.

Instead you clicked Eddie's.

"i miss her"

"don't"

"why?"

"she's not good for you"

"this whole thing is a minor detail! she's perfect"

All of a sudden your ringtone echoed around in your small bedroom with Eddie's contact picture covering your screen.

"(Y/N). What the hell?" Eddie asked, still sounding tired.

You were in a blanket burrito and sniffed again at the memory of the events of the night before. "She's perfect."

Eddie huffed and you could hear his bed squeak on the other end. "Literally she's not. Nobody is. Babe what happened was not okay. In my eyes, nothing could redeem her."

"I know." You replied sadly. "She was just the first person ever to think I'm cute and to return my feelings for them."

" I know. And I know that it feels great," He said. "I get it. I do. But this is exactly what happened with Chrissy and I."

"Chrissy's a bitch," You reminded him. "We talked you down for weeks."

You could imagine Eddie pinching his nose before hearing him sigh. "That's what I'm trying to tell you. You deserve better. Not that shit."

"Eddie?"

"Hm?"

You choked a bit on spit and started crying. "What if- what if she says that she wants me back?"

"Then you run," He chuckled. "It's because you're worth more than a text."

"Promise?" You asked quietly.

"Promise." He whispered back.

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atmilliways · 9 months

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for the “send me a made-up fic title and i'll tell you what i would write to go with it” ask meme: my title is Let Me Make the Most of Us (from the song Runner by Tennis)

(fic title meme)

Okay, stick with me while I demonstrate why nothing I want to write ever ends up short.

Let Me Make the Most of Us is mostly about Steve throwing himself entirely into becoming Eddie's Perfect Boyfriend. He learns how to play D&D. He gets into Lord of the Rings. He gets into metal music, going to all of Eddie's shows and getting them tickets to any concert with a band Eddie likes that's within a reasonable driving distance, saving up his days off specifically so he can always be able to go with him. He learns how to do his own eyeliner and sew patches, and eventually makes a battle jacket to give to Eddie, since he wears the one Eddie made. And their sex life? Eddie is the first guy Steve has ever been with, but god as his witness he is a dedicated and enthusiastic learner.

They're basically inseparable, and it's amazing, but Eddie is dying a little bit.

Because Wayne makes an idle comment about Steve not seeming to have any hobbies of his own, and it's All. Eddie. Can think about.

He realizes that Steve never talks about basketball anymore and skips watching important games (which he used to do with Wayne) in favor of campaigns and concerts and tagging along to Eddie's rehearsals. (Unnamed Freak is leaving town for college soon, but Steve is getting pretty good at playing bass.) Eddie tries to ask him about his old interests but Steve keeps insisting that everything's fine, he just wants to be with Eddie and he likes what Eddie likes now, what's the big deal?

Eddie is slowly becoming less and less sure that this Steve is the Steve Harrington he fell in love with. Which is weird, because preppy jocks had never really been his type, but... he can't help feeling that Steve is turning himself into someone else. These thoughts keep taking him out of the moment. He tries to talk to Robin about it, but honestly she's just as puzzled as he is. He tries to talk to Nancy about it, but despite being friends now Nancy prefers to avoid the topic of her and Steve entirely; she still feels guilty about the way she broke his heart and cheated on him at the end. So she's no help.

Steve, Eddie realizes, has been diligently soaking up everything he's said about the evils of conformity and how boring the "normal" people can be, and has reshaped himself. But in doing so, he's wallpapered over so many personal quirks that Eddie finds himself genuinely missing—like doing funny little dance moves around the kitchen and singing quietly along to top 40s hits while making breakfast, or being incredibly fussy about getting the perfect swoop to his hair in that classic 'drives the ladies crazy' way that Eddie secretly always swooned for, or wearing soft yellow sweaters in the fall and the most ridiculously fluffy scarves all winter. Now he headbangs and knows who Ozzy is and is a sexy hot mess in band tees and black and denim and he has a tongue piercing (and some other piercings too, and a few tats)—all of which is very hot, but Eddie misses the soft things too. He starts to feel like he's dating himself, which... bleh. (And fine, maybe he needs to work on his own self-esteem a bit, but that's not the issue here.)

But Steve keeps insisting everything is great, and Eddie keeps looking back at the past, feeling like he's losing his mind a little bit and like it's his own fault. Or maybe it isn't, but he still doesn't know how to square with it, how to make things feel right again.

... I don't actually know how to solve this either, but I desperately want it to have a happy ending somehow where Steve figures out a good balance between his old and new interests, and Eddie, idk. Takes up jogging with him, or something. They compromise on what time of day, though, because Eddie is a night owl while Steve (despite months of valiantly trying to be a night owl) is very much a morning person. Instead of jogging in the morning, Steve agrees that they can jog at dusk after they both get out of work.

And whenever Eddie can afford to he showers Steve in soft pastel sweaters and colorful clothes, takes his boyfriend and his uncle to sportsball games to see teams he knows they like (and only makes embarrassing mixups where he gets seats in the wrong team section sometimes), and goes to every game for the community basketball and baseball teams Steve signs up for. Robin approves of all of this, pointing out to Steve that he seems so much lighter and happier now, to which he sheepishly agrees and Eddie gives him a kiss on the cheek because d'awww, bashful Steve.

If Eddie also hires Jonathan at some point to take swimsuit pinup shots of Steve as Eddie's birthday present to himself one year, that is between the three of them and the full ounce of weed that made up part of Jonathan's payment.

#steddie brainrot #what if a fic #someone write this i don't have the d&d metalhead cred to pull this off in a million years #jean rambles

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arcplaysgames · 1 year

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okay with THAT dissertation done, the rest of the shit I've done so far, which is finishing up a lot of SLinks! I have now completed Temperance, Sun, Moon, and Death. Let's go over them.

GET READY FOR SOME CARTOMANCY TAAAAAALK

who me? what? don't know WHAT you could be implying Kawakami hahaha anyway how about this weather, btw i'm super happy for you. wow what a crazy random happenstance! you deserve it, i love you.

I KNEW IT, SHE KNOWS

When asked how she figured out, she points out that the thing with Takase's guardians worked out way too well for her and Reverie was the only person she told. Which... yeah, that makes it p5retty fucking obvious huh.

lmao as if Reverie going "I need their names," in the previous scene wasn't a massive flag. I am not playing this subtle but also Kawakami is smart and I adore her.

Her SLink is complete!!!! So far, she's the best one in the game, to my utter astonishment. I'm glad I muscled through the awful start because this SLink has everything: mocking the player's teacher-maid fetish, an incredibly mouthy cool millennial lady, a genuinely tragic backstory without being soap opera-y, sympathetic portray of sex workers. IT'S GOT IT ALL.

Kawakami was kind of a very Standard portrayal of Temperance. It's not a super interesting card, it's just about having the emotional strength to find the path forward and to find balance in yourself spiritually and materially. It's often portrayed as an angel passing water between two cups-- cups are the suit of emotional intelligence. And they're my favorite suit, personally.

Kawakami starts the arc solidly in a reversed Temperance, she can't balance anything, the goblets are overturned, and all of her emotional strength is just pouring out onto the floor because she is so overworked, there is no well for her to draw from. Through the arc, she actually shares her troubles with Reverie, which in of itself is a show of emotional strength, and with his help manages to rebalance herself. Finally, she can take her eyes off the cups and look ahead to her future.

TEN OUT OF TEN, SO FAR SHE'S MY FAVORITE CONFIDANT.

I haven't been recapping it because it's.... genuinely not a link that's easy to summarize bc its a lot of politics and small moments, but I finished the Sun too!

OH SO THAT'S THE JOKE OF EVERY LINK HUH, EVERYONE KNOWS WHO REVERIE REALLY IS that's pretty cute actually, I like it.

Yoshida was this failed politician who got disgraced twenty years ago in a finance scandal, now returned to try and take office again. His whole arc is about his new ideals of empowering the youth and taking care of the elderly, and with the rise of the Thieves, he acknowledges them as a symptom of a broken system that needs massive reform.

You follow him through some intra-party political issues and his recurring thing is that he sticks to running instead of being someone else's right hand man, even when doing so would clear his name from the finance scandal that ruined him.

I'm NOT gonna lie, his final speech is good. He speaks about Reverie, "a certain young man" he met who is aspiring to change the whole, and though Yoshida cannot follow the same path as this young man, he hopes they will meet again at the top of the mountain they are both climbing together, separate.

It's really good honestly. And for the curious, Yoshida is a very interesting Sun to me. The Sun comes at the end of the Star-Moon-Sun sequence and those three cards are basically their own mini-journey. The Star is the herald that the story isn't over and you must continue. The Moon is the darkness that follows, full of illusions and distractions and madness you have to navigate. And the Sun is the light that comes after, is exuberant and joyful, and more than anything it is certain in itself. In the light of the Sun, all is revealed and laid bare. (Which is why it leads into Judgement soon after.)

Yoshida works for the Sun really well because the twenty years of scandal and shame have already happened to him, and he has made it out to the other side. Now, his ideals and purpose are illuminated under the Sun and he never strays from his path.

It's good! Eight out of ten on him!

DEATH! Goth Doctor!

lmao she figured it out too. I guess that's just the joke of every max rank, huh?

Anyway, I loved Tae for The Unnamed Arcana. She's great. I love that she's actually a goth, actually has a very morbid sense of humor, actually talks about death a lot. They really leaned into the whole vibe and I appreciate that.

Also her look is impeccable obviously.

Tae's whole thing is that she's undergoing the process of Death, the transformation the card deals with. With the lost of her prestigious position at the research hospital, she is stuck working in a small back-alley clinic.

She definitely goes through a period of real mourning for her past self, resisting the forward motion of her life. But slowly she begins caring for the locals around her and builds a new patient base. Really, the drama with her past patient and the miracle cure for her is an afterthought; the Death aspect is definitely rooted in Tae herself. And by the end of the link, she is still dour and morbid, but there is life to her voice again.

She's great. Seven out of ten.

So Mishima.

SIGHS. Okay. I hate Mishima as a character and I think he represents everything that is bad about the Phantom Thieves and it's his actions (which were completely unasked for and unprompted) that leads the plot to the clusterfuck we're about to enter with Okamura's imminent death. Fuck the phansite and fuck this phuckboy.

BESIDES THAT

yeah he's a half-decent Moon? It's complicated, actually.

So his set up as the Moon is pitch-perfect. The Moon card is a place a person comes to after great upheaval in their life. It's a dark, quiet place for contemplation and reflection. Best case scenario is that it's a stepping stone in your journey towards the new dawn and the Sun.

But there are strange images in the reflection and the reflected light of the Sun in the Moon can lead a person astray and into madness.

Again: the Moon is an environment of possible madness. The Hanged Man is a risk taken that might led to madness. The Hanged Man goes into the deal eyes open, knowing the stakes. The Moon doesn't know the danger around them and has to keep from lingering.

So as the Moon, Mishima goes from being Kamoshida's punching bag into this dark, quiet place where he doesn't know what to do with himself, only that he needs a purpose. He settles on the Phansite.

Now, I think the game is arguing that running the Phansite gives Mishima direction and purpose, letting him move forward in his path.

I think that's undercut by how much the game itself points out Mishima's actions led to various fuck ups. Remember when Reverie had to be the one to tell him to give back the fucking money he'd collected from "donations"? Honestly, most of the conversations in this SLink are just trying to drag Mishima away from his worse impulses.

Which... also kinda works! I say the game's intended portrayal of the Moon is dumb, but my own is just as valid. I don't think Mishima has moved on and grown at all. I think he's been dazzled by the false, reflected light of the Moon (metaphorically, the allure of his nebulous fame re: the Phansite and his repeated misunderstanding of how to use it without being a malicious prick) and instead of continuing on his journey, he is staring slack-jawed into the illusion.

Sooooooooooo.... Nine out of ten, honestly!

But also I hate Mishima.

ONWARDS, INTO IMMINENT DISASTER!

#p5 #persona liveblog #cartomancy

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lone-rhapsodist · 1 year

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I had just left school to go home when I got the email from the headmaster. I opened it, read it, and fell to the floor -- knees on the concrete, head in my hands. I couldn't believe it. I just couldn't believe it. I got myself up, dashed across the street, jumping up and down like a kid, looking like a madman, feeling like the happiest person in the world. When I got to the station, I could feel tears filling my eyes, but I did not cry. I wanted to be home and hug my partner, be in her arms and just let it all out. But the problem with a shitty commute -- that crazy commute which was the main reason why I applied for the job in the first place -- is that I was still 1 hour and 15 minutes away from that moment.

24 hours later, the phone rang -- the call to discuss the job. The headmaster made his offer. It was way more than I expected... way better than I could ever imagine. "Would you like to take some time think about it?" "Sir, if I could ask just a couple of questions... I'm not sure there's really anything to think about!" I ask my questions. He answers. Again, the things I hear... "There is no way I could ever say no to that. Yes! I accept!". I say thank you about a thousand times. I close the call. I call my parents.

The new job is less than 20 minutes away from my house. It's an independent prep school, which is very different from a state school. Not so much about bringing Classics to young people in a very deprived area. More about helping young boys get into the top schools in the country. Which is of course not something that enthuses me, and at some point, I think I'd like to return to the state sector. However, for now, this is the right move. I really needed something closer to home. What I didn't expect is that I would stumble on the opportunity of a lifetime.

It's not just the money. Though the money itself is incredible. I'll be back to being a regular teacher again, which is what I really wanted, and yet I'll still be getting a massive pay increase. Also, when you add to that the money saved on travel, free food, low teaching workload, the 4 weeks extra holiday -- imagine finishing the year in early July! -- it starts getting ridiculous. I have really lucked out, in a way I never have before in my life, and I'm just so happy. There must be a catch somewhere, I'm sure they'll find ways to screw me over -- I just know. But for now, I'm just so grateful they made this happen for me -- I still can't believe it!

I'm also glad that my headteacher has been so understanding about it. When he asked me about why I was looking for jobs and I told him how long my commute was, even he couldn't say anything. Then, when I told him that I had received an offer and was going to accept it, he simply thanked me for everything I have done for the subject. I thanked him too, and I told him that, if he lets me know when the job ad goes live, I can share it with my teacher training provider and they'll have candidates like me who'll be able to give continuity to the subject at the school. He seemed genuinely grateful for that. He shook my hand and wished me good luck.

I still have three months left here. Saying goodbye, especially to my students, will be so hard. I already know I'll be crying a lot. But it's the right to do. It's the right step for me and my career. And if I could leave some legacy too, with a great successor taking on from me at the school, then I will really have pulled off something very special.

Anyway, it's the end of term. It's time for a holiday. But when I come back, I know I'll be working with such renewed energy. Because for once I'll have something to really look forward to. And that is simply the best feeling in the world.

#lone-rhapsodist #personal #jobs #work #teaching #teacher #school #happiness

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mermaidsirennikita · 5 months

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Is it just me or is drama with book authors getting wilder (and more stupid) in the past few years because why the fuck did I see someone tried to copyright the sun??

I don't know if it's getting wilder or if it's just easier for us to know about it because of social media?

Like, I always think one of the WILDEST dramas ever was when Janet Dailey plagiarized Nora Roberts--and romance readers today were too young to really experience it in real time, and even those who did couldn't benefit from the rapid fire experience of social media.

Nora has discussed it a few times, but I think her interview on Fated Mates really speaks to how she (understandably) still ISN'T. OVER IT. "I wanted her blood in my mouth" that is a WRITER LADIES!!!!

But it was truly insane that someone as successful as Janet--because she was very successful, she's written some really well-regarded books, she was very much a mainstay with the biggest romance publishers of the time and had a loyal readership--plagiarized Nora. Who, I believe, came after her. And the way she tried to deal with it (I think she blamed it on her dog dying initially) was also insane.

I think these "industries" based in creative work are so prone to high octane drama. Not because we're creatives, but because there is a level of personal investment that adds to the sense of... pain? When we're wronged. In Nora's case, that was genuinely a fucked up thing professionally, it could've hurt her career--but it was also a personally agonizing moment because Janet stole work that was important to her.

Also, someone tried to plagiarized Nora and Sarah MacLean among other authors in one fell swoop more recently, which. The potential financial consequences alone make that CRAZY and stupid. Nora is... so fucking rich, y'all. Lol. Like Nora could probably sue the average person off the face of the planet. I would probably shit my pants if Nora accused me of plagiarism. The idea of someone doing it today, when she's at her full power... woof.

Lauren's situation wasn't really that she tried to copyright it, lol, it's that she was acting like her very basic story, which was incredibly poorly written by the way based off the samples she posted online, had something unique going on because her character had sun powers and was black. (For the record.... Lauren is white. This will be even more relevant in a moment.) Never mind the fact that you can't copyright the sun; there is literally nothing unique about sun powers, and we literally just had a book adaptation TV show wherein the lead had sunpowers. And was called the SUN SUMMONER.

But the other thing I found disturbing about her claims was that her characters basically get sent to another time (the 1800s, I believe) to experience... slavery. As black people with incredible sun powers. Like, one of the samples has the lead getting whipped across her arm (and reacting it not the way anyone would react to being whipped unexpectedly, by the way). I don't know a world in which that works as a concept, tbh, but it especially doesn't work when a white person is writing it. Imo, Lauren did this as an attention grab because she has a blue check and could profit off the attention.

I was recently reliving one of the dumbest book controversies of semi-recent (five years ago, gag) history with the whole "Tomi Adeyemi accused Nora Roberts of plagiarizing her book title for publicity when a) Nora is a much bigger deal than Tomi as a published author b) you can't plagiarize a title c) Nora had turned her book and had it titled a year before Tomi's book came out.

I actually liked Tomi's first book, though I'll admit I remember zero about it... but that whole incident so turned me off her. And now she's getting an adaptation with a director I really like and I'm just like......... dilemmas.

(But she's also taken forever to get that last book dropped so I'm really curious about where all this ultimately ends up.)

#romance novel blogging

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stalemateserial · 5 months

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Fifty-two days were managing to feel like an eternity and an eyeblink. There was so much Ruth wanted to do, and so much she was ready to leave behind. She had been spared the indignity of an audience, and burdened with the necessity of companionship. It was better not to be alone, she recognized that much, but what a shame it all was. What a damn shame.

She's reading over the notations of the game, making plans, recanting them when she realizes it's pointless to speculate too far ahead. That was the point, after all, wasn't it? The relative unpredictability of one's opponent. The hiss of the toilet cuts through the air, and Judy settles into her spot on the other side of the table.

"Thinking of what my next move is going to be?"

"I can hardly contain myself, now that you mention it."

"Well, wait no longer, apparently the loo is inspiring."

Ruth giggles. "Loo, what a great word. I mean, it makes sense, television becomes TV, or telly, in your case, advertisement becomes ad, lavatory becomes loo. It's just something I'd expect from my country, not the prim and proper ones."

"We call them adverts in my country, you Yankee."

"Yes, yes, took over the country your people colonized, made your military look foolish, you can't imagine my shame."

"Pointless fights started by foolish men. All over land that never belonged to them."

"I say 'you can't imagine my shame' with a smirk on my face and tears in my eyes. But you're stalling, let's hear your move."

"Right then, queenside bishop, C2."

"Ah, eyeing up my knight, are you?"

"They've had it too good for too long."

"Fine then. I won't take your bait, though. Pawn to E6."

"Quick decision."

"I had some time to think."

"Speaking of time, I believe that you said that you owed me more of your story. I fulfilled my part of the bargain, you'd best be good on your word."

"You ought not to expect so much from Yankees."

"Come off it, you know you all live for the spotlight. Entertain me, Miss Broadway."

"Broadway's in Manhattan, I'm from Queens."

"You know, they have one of those where I'm from, too."

Ruth's been giggling like crazy, but that one finally sets her off laughing. It feels good to feel good for once, to still have moments of solace. "Alright, alright, do you want the story or not?"

"I'm all ears."

"So Anne, that was the name of the girl. She was a year older than me, quite tall, gorgeous blonde hair and eyes like honey. I thought she was incredible, but she was so quiet, so reserved. It was part of the reason that Susan, the woman that had rescued me in my brother, wanted to introduce her. She said Anne had a hard time making friends.

"It turned out a big reason why was that Anne was rather sickly. Not enough to stay out of school, nothing like that, just had an immune system on the weak side. She didn't like to go out much, which I was alright with. It's actually where I first started playing chess. It was nice to have an opponent that respected me, rather than either taking it easy on me or getting upset when I beat them.

"The only time Anne liked to be outside was when it got dark. She loved looking at the stars. We'd get up on the roof of her apartment building with her dad's telescope and try to find the planets. She said she wanted to walk on the moon someday. At first, I thought she was crazy, but a couple years later, Gagarin went up into space. We were still on that roof, looking at stars by then. We'd both gotten older, spent such a long time together, I genuinely thought it would never come to an end."

Ruth swallows, her eyes looking glassy, the quick hitch in her voice unmistakable.

"Eventually, Anne moved. Her father had been elected to an important position in Washington, D.C. It was so hard to say goodbye to her. I didn't even know how, I kept saying 'this won't be the last time'. I wanted to remember her, just like she had been, all those years we were together. Sometimes it feels like that's why I put in for the Programme. If she saw that I walked on the moon, she'd find her way back to me."

"Do you have any idea what she's doing now?"

"I'm sure that I don't. I have to wonder if she's read my name in the papers, if she knows that it's me up here. I just wish I could have really said goodbye, the way she deserved."

"Ruth…"

"I know, Judy. I don't want to spoil the mood. I just… couldn't help but think about why I'm up here. What this all is for."

"I understand. I really do."

Ruth closes the distance, pulling her friend into a tight hug, wondering how many of them can fit into fifty-two days.

#queer writers #web serial #writers on tumblr

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wildcard-rumi · 1 year

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Since you've been really into it lately, AI for the fandom asks!

Ngl I was really hoping someone would ask for this, just so I could have an excuse to gush about these games so thank you

3 male characters I love:

Kaname Date, this man is literally the full package. I mean, he's hot, smart, dumb, goofy, a fantastic dad figure, horny as hell, lover of puns, can kick people's ass with ease, what else do you want?

Kuruto Ryuki, honestly Ryuki is one of my absolute favourites. He is the definition of a poor lil meow meow and a babygirl and my god do I love him for it. I honestly hope that, if we get a third game, Ryuki gets some more time in the spotlight and we get to learn more about him because he's such a compelling character.

Pewter, he doesn't get a whole lot of screen time but when it actually gets down to his parts in the story and you learn his reasoning for his actions, it just makes me feel so bad for him. Also he dresses like the leader of a Pokémon villain team.

3 female characters I love:

Okay, ngl, usually I tend to prefer male characters over female characters. I don't know why, it's just always been that way, I've related to them more, I guess? BUT I love the female characters so much more in this series, they're all fantastic, I adore them. That being said I definitely have some favourites.

Mizuki Date, god I fucking love Mizuki, she is my daughter who can and will kick anyone's ass. When I saw her all grown up in Nirvana Initiative, I screamed... And then I found out you played as her in Nirvana Initiative and I screamed again even louder. Honest to god though, Mizuki is one of the best written characters I've ever seen, especially for a child character, and the poor girl goes through so much... Also, Corina Boettger's performance is incredible, I don't know how they managed to genuinely sound like a twelve year old girl but they did it and they gave one of the best performances in the whole game, which is saying something but the dub as a whole is amazing.

Aiba, I love Aiba so, so, so much. I love how in the real world she acts as a straight man to Date's antics but will still trade puns with him and then in the Somnium's she gets goofy and Date acts as a straight man to her. She has so many funny moments and I adore her crazy smile when she's really enjoying something. Also, her lil jelly hamster design is so cute, I love it.

Shizue Kuranushi aka Boss, Listen... I am not immune to hot women, okay? Especially when they're voiced by Allegra Clark. This is the third time this has happened to me and my heart still can't handle it. But I mean... She's hot, she's badass, she's flirty, she's funny... She's perfect. Also, I want to avoid spoilers since you're debating whether to check out the series or not, but there is A Scene that everyone adores and with very good reasons and all I'll say is, if you weren't in love with Allegra Clark's performance already, you will be after that scene.

3 romantic ships I love:

Hitomi/Date, can't really into this one without discussing spoilers but wow, I was not expecting that and they're so, so cute... Wish they got more of a focus in Nirvana Initiative...

Date/Ryuki, Date has two hands. But honestly, it's the way Ryuki talks about Date that gets me. Plus the idea of Mizuki judging him for his taste in men is just funny to me.

Iris/Amame, I just think they'd be cute, not to mention they're always checking up on each other when stressful stuff happens and share a lot of interests so I can see plenty of chemistry. Also, pretty bubblegum colour scheme.

3 platonic dynamics I love:

Can I just say the whole of Abis and their families? Like, the whole group is essentially a huge family at this point when you consider all the stuff that goes on throughout both games.

Ota and Mayumi, god that route destroyed me emotionally, it was so bittersweet. But I love me a good family driven story, so seeing this mother and son work their way through their issues and how they tried their best to protect each other.

Ryuki and Tama, ngl Tama was so, so, so close to being one of my favourite female characters, she just needs more screen time so, y'know... Anyway, I love their dynamic both in the real world and in the Somnium and I love how Tama knows about Ryuki's issues and tries to help him as much as possible despite his honestly self destructive work mentality, like when she forces him to go to the hospital.

3 favorite moments in canon:

Ooooh... I dunno... Like I said I'm avoiding spoilers for you so that limits me a lot but also, there's so many really, really, REALLY good scenes... I'll be as vague as possible.

The final scenes of both games.... If you know, you know.

Mizuki Route Ending in the first game, I dunno just... Found family and an adorable callback to a conversation way earlier in the route, it's so sweet.

The Annihilation Route interrogation, again... If you know, you know.

3 favorite headcanons:

I like to think that Aiba and Tama sometimes do their augmented reality hologram thing just so they can join Mizuki, Iris and the other girls for their girls nights sometimes. Doesn't matter that they can't eat or interact with anything, just hanging out with them is enough.

I know that we see Ryuki drunk a couple of times and he's really mopey in both of them, but I like to think that when he's having a night out and doesn't have anything weighing on him, he's quite a giggly drunk. Not howling with laughter or anything, just finding everything amusing and almost constant smiling and giggling to himself.

Slight spoiler stuff but I like to think that after Mizuki learned about who her dad's new partner was after divorcing her mother, she makes an attempt to connect with them especially since she can understand their complicated feelings over what happened.

3 least favorite things about it:

Chikara Horadori. That bastard knows what he did.

There are a few plot points where you sit there and think "... Okay, that was kinda stupid, I'm not a fan of that..." But I mean I've seen worse from Uchikoshi *cough*ZTD*cough*

The fact that Ryuki and Tama just kinda get shoved to the side in the second half of Nirvana Initiative. Honestly that was one of my biggest complaint about it, like c'mon they're the new characters, shouldn't you give them even just a little more screen time?

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alright I'm gonna ramble about the RE games/community now

fuckin Resident Evil, man. RE may not have been my introduction to M-rated games, but it also sorta was. Everyone already knows that DMC1 was originally Resident Evil 4. Both REmake and RE4 were also motivation to play M-rated games, though. So let us start at the beginning.

I finally got to play REmake when I got it in a humble bundle with RE4. I played REmake first, and boy, was I enchanted. I often get motivation to play games by seeing footage, and then thinking that it would be fun to control that. That might be a poor way of explaining it, but its all I got. REmake, coldest take imaginable, is a borderline perfect game. The mansion is magical to explore, the enemies are spooky, the visuals are beautiful, and the layout and pacing of the game are so good that I can still run through most of the game without even thinking about it. Of course, the areas following the mansion aren't quite as neat, but that's fine, and in my opinion, not even that much of a downside, as I usually want to get through each subsequent area faster and faster. The only thing that really irks me? People want another damn remake. Fuckers are so caught up with games accommodating their dumb asses that they just can't stand to learn another control type to play a game. OOOOOH woe is you!! You just can't get a handle on tank controls! "clunky! clunky! clunky!" If my 12 year old self, who, as I may have mentioned before, was born after 9/11, can manage to get a hang of this game and speedrun it with barely any practice, you can take ten minutes to get a hang of tank controls. shut the fuck up. There are so many games that genuinely need a remake, and RE1 is probably the last on the list.

RE2 is a fun time. Leon is hilarious, Claire is cool, and the game feels pretty straightforward. RE2 isn't all that stressful at any given moment, and almost feels linear with how clear its progression is. Pair that with iconic visuals and music, and you understand why its still considered a classic to this day.

RE3 is... something. I don't hate RE3. Far from it. It makes Jill cool, Nemesis is scary but not annoying, the live selection system is fun, and the story is entertaining, standing out because of its incredible conclusion that wraps up the first trilogy in a nice little bow. But the dodge mechanic is weird -- ironically, its easier to dodge Nemesis than a normal zombie, because Nemesis was clearly designed with telegraphed windups in mind, whereas the regular zombie grab definitely wasn't. The progression is a little less clear, with the majority of the game having you run around larger areas of Raccoon to grab stuff, with things being measurably less obvious than RE2, for better or worse. I think my opinion is also a little funky because I've only played it once (though recently), and I had a fuckton of ammo by the end. I think I'd enjoy it more if I actually spend more time blasting zombies. Special shoutout to the snap sound effect that accompanies a critical headshot with the pistol. Orgasmic.

RE4 has been discussed to death. I don't think I can add anything to that discussion, frankly. It's unbelievably fun and replayable, Leon is my favorite himbo, I've played it 13 times... it's an inarguable classic that shaped the industry going forward. In its niche, it hasn't really been surpassed. Sure, Dead Space is great, but only its sequel comes close to RE4's level of fun and replayability in my mind. (DS1 and 2 are still incredible, though). RE5 certainly didn't.

RE5. Goddamn. I played this with a friend, and I don't see how you could've done this solo. The setting isn't quite as fun, is way more "kinda racist" and there's a stupid filter over the whole game. I personally dislike the UI and font choice, and the stupid square system drives me crazy (yes I know it's to make co-op easier). The story feels like its connected by a fraying string, nobody really has an arc (Chris only has something vaguely resembling one), and the final boss is dumb adventure game bullshit. It baffles me that people think that RE5 is the improved version of RE4. It's just straight-up incorrect.

RE6, I've barely played. I couldn't really stand it after I had to do a ten minute walking section and then had to do stupid wave defense. I don't even think I could get my RE5 friend to play with me. pass.

RE7 and 8 I haven't gotten around to. I own them, but something about that first person perspective makes them less appealing to me. I've played plenty of first person games, it's just something about them in particular. idk

Umbrella chronicles is terrible (crappy shooting, terrible voice acting, cheap-looking), darkside chronicles isn't bad if you don't mind crazy camerawork; it fixes prrety much everything terrible about UC. and enjoy rail shooters. maybe I should ramble about those next. I'm gonna go give Leon a kiss

oh fuck I forgot to talk about the community

like I said, they're all spoiled and remake hungry, and so many refuse to learn a new control style. and they're all horny as fuck and are stupid and I hate them I hate them I hate them

Resident Evil has never had a genuinely good story and rides on its characters but I hate all the horny fucks who don't shut up

I didn't mean for this to be negative. Leon sends his himbo love

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What if I,,,, gave you another yan!pico idea.... haha jk!,,,, unless-

Okbutreally- I'm not sure if it's canon or not but I've read somewhere that apparently, pico was the 'popular kid' in his school.

So imagine (almost) EVERYONE in the school likes him... until Y/N comes along, and while pico is enamored with them on the spot... pico makes their skin crawl. They can't quite say why. They get on just fine with just about anyone else. Hell, even his friends are alright- lovely people, really. But, something about the popular kid just makes y/n want to turn tail and run anytime those paralyzing white eyes meet theirs. No matter how many times Nene or Darnell (or any other classmate) has tried to ease the new student's worries about the ginger, they can't get over the feeling that they'd be skinned alive if left alone with him for too long. Of course, pico doesn't MEAN to have his obsession love to come off as such- but some things can't be helped (especially when the person in question is genuinely crazy about you, just not in the 'skin you and wear you' type of crazy)

Hello, Anon! Okay so, I absolutely love this concept! I believe I remember reading somewhere too that Pico was more of a "popular" kid! And I feel like this who scenero would work SO well! If you don't mind, I wrote this in a headcanon format, since it's always wayyy easier for me to ramble on and on about things, teehee ^^ Hope you enjoy these! Mwah!

( :̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅)

From the moment the two of you locked eyes, you knew he couldn't be trusted. Something about him seemed...off. Incredibly so. That feeling of uneasiness only seemed to increase as you spent more time in that school

Gradually, you made more friends, even became close with some of his friends, specifically two of them, Nene and Darnell. They knew him extremely well, better than anyone else he knew that is

Soon, you started seeing Pico (as you learned he was named)...coming around a lot more often. Those sickeningly sweet smiles and paralyzing eyes that looked at you with such adoration as he asked you if you needed someone to walk you to class, everything just seemed so...wrong

And, while you knew that something was wrong, you had no way of knowing the truly disturbing things occuring behind closed curtains

Pico's walls became littered with you, photos taken all without your knowledge (it's not like you'd say yes to him though anyways), and with some even taped into his schoolbooks with cute heart stickers accompanying them on the inner cover pages, the way he'd so sneakily record your voice as you read your answer to an open-ended question in class, just so he could add it to his collection later

You had no way of knowing, and that made Pico's job so much easier on him

His and your peers, especially Nene and Darnell, genuinely didn't have a clue as to why you're so terrified of the boy. They tried telling you how kind and sweet he was, even going as far as to share personal stories of how Pico has helped them

For every story of how Pico helped someone pick up their books in the hallway, you were haunted by that memory of when he stopped you as the two of you walked in an isolated hall, smiling oh-so sweetly as he proposed the two of you trade blood. So the two of you could be closer. "Together forever, (Y/N)~" You remembered the sick fuck telling you in a low (but still almost cutesy) tone, giggling and giving you a half-assed "I'm kidding" as you teared up

For every ramble of how Pico helped someone approach a crush they had, you couldn't help but think of how Pico always seemed to be around. No matter what, he was always so...persistent in wanting to spend as much time with you as possible. He'd always want to sit next to you at lunch, ignoring the way your eyes widened and your hands trembled as he settled himself down. You didn't want to send him away, especially considering how his two closest friends seemed to sit themselves down soon afterwards. Rejecting Pico would be like rejecting them. You were trapped

Everything about Pico terrified you. The time he'd spend gazing into your eyes, the way he'd twirl his gun around like it was a toy every time he observed you with another boy through the shadows, those "mysterious" love letters that would be taped onto your locker, always signed by a "secret admirer", everything about him just made you want to be sick and you hated it

You hated how vulnerable and helpless he made you feel. But he probably bathed in it. You hated how everyone seemed to think of Pico as your stereotypical schoolboy angel. His persona was playing right into his hands, he had all the right cards that ensured nobody would believe you if you came out with this story of torture and obsession

Not that anything you say mattered anyways. You've just been so helplessly starved of affection and love, that it must just be so overwhelming and scary to you! Don't worry though, Pico'll get you used to this in no time. Soon instead of running from him, you'll be running right to him

It's only a matter of time, love

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Supporting Satoshi - an examination and comparison of JN36 and XY121

Part Two: Dragging your friends into sandstorms is also not a recommended way to treat depression but at least this one worked

So back to journeys, where Satoshi has just lost three battles in a row and a sandstorm is luring people in over in Hoenn.

Goh is immediately excited about the prospect of a pokemon hiding in the sand and goes to ask Satoshi about coming along. It's a fun note of Goh's character devlopment that his immediate wish is to go together. Goh at the start of the season would easily have abandoned Satoshi to go research on his own, but it doesn't even cross his mind for a second in this episode. Great work Goh!

Satoshi's not doing too hot. He's curled up in a corner talking to himself about how he's dropped a whole class. Goh tells him to cheer up, it was only a few battles, this does not work. Another similarity to the xy episode.

We can see more of the root of the problem here, that Satoshi fears he won't be able to live up to his dreams and that trying is fruitless. Now I know we're on the jp dub but I really wanna shout out the english, because in the english dub satoshi says "Battling (Dande)'s a dream I should get out of my head, I don't deserve it."

"I don't deserve it", like I don't think there's a clearer way to represent the issue here than this line. He doesn't "deserve" to battle Dande, he doesn't even deserve to dream about it.

Goh dismisses these ideas and drags Satoshi out to Hoenn to go find the pokemon in the sandstorm.

They get to the sandstorm, Goh's excited, Satoshi's still upset. Back to the tried and true method of "just don't be sad"! Which of course, does not work.

We can already see the similarites to Serena in Goh's actions. Both try their hardest with genuine intent to cheer up Satoshi using methods that work for them. (You can argue Serena was trying a bit harder here since Goh had alternate motives at play). However, what changes here is what they do afterwords.

The problem of dismissing someone's negitivity as not like them remains and I'm still salty about it, but at least in this senario Goh is affirming Satoshi's postivity and not getting upset with him while he's actively upset. It's marginally better but the problem remains.

But that's not why I love this episode. What matters to me is what comes next.

Despite the distraction, Satoshi's still caught up in his eariler problems. He hasn't actually resolved them, so he can't let them go yet.

The boys make their way through the sandstorm, Goh rescues some people from the sandtrap, its going alright. At least until we run into flygon. Or more specfically, until Goh asks Satoshi for his help battling Flygon.

This is Satoshi's expression when Goh asks him for help. Despite agreeing, he's clearly hesitant about this. He doesn't feel confident in his ability to battle the Flygon. He's so out of it he forgets the type match ups, and uses electric moves on a ground type, which of course are ineffective.

Satoshi continues to self loathe, berating himself for not thinking. His hat begins shading his eyes when this happens! He gets caught up in his mistakes and begins to feel as though everything is hopeless.

Now, Goh doesn't do any of the 'no don't say that, you have to believe in yourself' stuff here. Instead, he keeps battling. He instead redirects the focus back to the fight, which is sort of the more pressing issue. It's also a good way of dealing with the problem as well! Goh's actively strategizing, looking for the next step to take. By doing that he's telling ash, indirectly, not to give up yet because there are still concrete steps to take, and that things aren't hopeless!

Satoshi is still paying attention to the battle though, and picks up on Goh's strategy. Goh and Satoshi also share a glance with each other when Flygon disappears under the sand.

Messon gets beaten and recalled.

and Satoshi begins to spiral. He gets so caught up in his previous losses that he visibly flashes back to them. He panics over what's dangerous for the pokemon, and the footage flashing specifically shows Riolu's losses and it being in pain after being attacked.

Both Pikachu and Goh call out to Satoshi in concern after he falls over and doesn't get up. Satoshi's body langauge is imporant here but unfortunately image limit. He's not clentched up, his fingers are loose. even when he grits his teeth, the rest of his body language all together reads as though he's gone slack. Unfortunately, Goh's attention is pulled away by the Flygon attacking again, and the battle resumes with Rabbifoot.

Satoshi protests Goh's strategy, still afraid that battling in too close is dangerous. Goh turns to him for a moment, but has to keep his attention on Rabbifoot. This actually pulls him out of dazed body langauge, as he tense and clenches his fists when Goh starts to put himself in danger. He's concerned for Goh and Rabbifoot!

Satoshi wonders what Goh's thinking, and he's not even looking at the battle anymore. He's just staring at Goh intently.

Or at least, until Rabbifoot successfully executes the strategy, and uses the meteors as part of ember. It's a wonderfully animated sequence, and it works! Goh's proud and excited, all the pokemon jump around happily, and Satoshi just sits there dumbfounded, though visably relieved as well (eyebrows are no longer drawn together) before he begins to laugh.

But Goh's not done helping out Satoshi, and this is what sets this and the xy episode apart, this is where everything comes together.

Goh does what he does best, a big dramatic monolouge. He tells Satoshi that he learned all those tactics from Satoshi, it's the first thing he tells him before he even explains.

Goh tells Satoshi plainly that he does know how to do this, he's a good battler and he can succeed when he remembers to work with his pokemon in tandem and doesn't get caught up in things. And he tells him this right after he proves it to Satoshi's face.

Satoshi learns from examples, from doing, and Goh uses that as best he can. He gives Satoshi the example first, and then explains it later.

And the visual symbolism is incredible here because as Goh tells this to Satoshi the sky clears behind him.

I cry over this part everytime. What better way to show that Goh has helped free Satoshi from the mental fog, that his words have cleared the way for him.

And of course, Goh keeps a smile on his face the entire time.

He continues to talk about working together with his pokemon, something Satoshi was neglecting to do because of his fear of not being good enough and letting those pokemon down.

Satoshi reflects on this, adjusting his hat so it hides his eyes as he does. However, he's in control of this now, actively holding the hat in his hand, symbolizing that while he's still upset, he's in control of his emotions now!

Goh specifically kneels down to meet Satoshi at his level and speak to him directly, he puts them on equal ground.

He talks more about strategy, and then he says a line I adore.

"Battling sure is complex, isn't it, Satoshi?"

Goh doesn't like battling, we know this. We know his only interest in it is as a means to an end and because he cares about Satoshi. And he says this because he's showing Satoshi how much he's learned from him. To really drive home that he attributes everything he just accomplished to Satoshi. All that trust and skill and work! Not to mention the fact that this is a call back to what Goh said after Satoshi won the Flutes in episode seven! Incredible, truly!

And Satoshi laughs and flops over, to which Goh worries. But Satoshi is smiling again, truly smiling. He calls himself stupid, the self loathing hasn't gone away entirely, but he is smiling, and he's staring up into the sky happily. There is no shade over his eyes anymore!

He finally addresses his pokemon again, with words similar to what he said in xy, and of course his pokemon love him and lay down with him. It's really cute <3.

And thats where the episode ends! My goodness, do I adore this episode. It's beautiful and i think about it all the time.

It's about finding new and crazy strategies to win, and when talking things out or distracting him doesn't work, Goh tries a new strategy that does! If he can't use ember and win with one strategy he'll try another. can't cheer up Satoshi with one strategy? try another.

What sets them apart is that Goh keeps going and stays by Satoshi's side, where as Serena got caught up in her feelings and ran off. Goh visbly takes Satoshi's way of learning and expressing things into account, and Serena doesn't make it that far.

There's so much care and effort that Satoshi and Goh share and it means the world to me. I can't wait to see what other moments they'll share in future, and what other parallels will be drawn!

I hope you enjoyed my ramblings, Thank you so much for reading this all.

#pokemon #anipoke #pokeani #pokemon analysis #pokemon xy #pokemon xyz #trainer ash #trainer serena #trainer goh #analysis #long post #part two <3

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re: that ask you posted a couple days ago about the male and female representation in RWBY, part of what makes RWBY's whole 'girl power' thing ring exceptionally hollow to me is the fact that there are like... no women in positions of real power in remnant. like at all. except the big bad.

winter is second in command to james. glynda is second in command to ozpin. all of the headmasters are men (for no discernible reason, imo; why theodore and not dorothea?). the leader of the ace ops was a white man (and then winter seemed to take over clover's position instead of either of the women of color on the team, and she was still second to james). RWBY is an all girl team, but JNPR was led by a boy despite a girl arguably being far more qualified (pyrrha). the happy huntresses are all women, and robyn had no real power to speak of--she didn't even manage to win the election, because jacques rigged it, and then the council ceased to matter. there was one (1) woman on the council, but she was so inconsequential that i can't even remember her name. (i suppose we're lucky it was the guy and not her who james shot lol) jacques controls the SDC instead of willow, even though he's not even a schnee by blood and actually married into the family for power. (and we don't even know how he got it over his wife.)

and then there's the white fang, which ghira led and not kali--and it's ghira who leads menagerie itself, while kali seems to be a housewife. sienna had five minutes of screentime before being brutally killed and her position assumed by adam, a man. cordovin is basically a one off lackey we haven't even thought about before or since. neo was second to roman. you have cinder, sure, who is a second but to salem, a woman, and raven as the leader of the branwen tribe--but what does it really say about your 'girl power' narrative when the only women with genuine systemic power in your world are villains or antagonists with massive bodycounts??

atla has the same sort of problem--a couple great female characters, but all the leadership positions are men (except the kyoshi warriors, an all girls group, and even then the leader of their island is an old man) and the one female mentor figure also turns out to be evil--but it at least has some great writing to help overlook that fact, and it came out in the mid-00's and so has some sort of excuse of being a product of its time. but rwby didn't even start until 2013 and it's still going and still making these kinds of decisions well into 2021.

where is this supposed girl power, exactly? am i really supposed to overlook the very patriarchal worldbuilding just because the title characters are girls?

That's an excellent summary of the situation, anon, and as with so much in RWBY, it comes down to the full context. Any one of these examples isn't necessarily going to mean much on its own. It's when you look at the pattern that you can start making a case for those conclusions: Why is the show marketed on "girl power" set in a world where men hold the vast majority of that power? And, more importantly, why is that setup not the point? We could easily have a story where that lopsided gender dynamic is the problem that the girls are looking to fix, but... that story doesn't exist. Like the problems discussed with Jaune, the supposed point here exists only on the surface. Dig just the tinniest bit — the above — and you hit on a lot of structural problems with this "girl power" world.

To add just a few details to what you've already said:

Salem indeed has power, but she's never allowed to fully use it. Each volume the frustration with this grows as Salem accumulates more abilities and then just sits on them. From literally hiding out for a thousand years to worries that she won't use the Staff in Volumes 9-10, Salem really isn't allowed to be the threat she's presented as on the surface. And yes, this is absolutely due in part to the "She's too OP and the writers don't know how to let her be that powerful while still having the heroes win" issue, but again, context. That problem doesn't exclude others occurring simultaneously.

Same double explanation with Summer. Yes, dead moms are an incredibly common trauma to dump on a protagonist, but it still left Yang and Ruby with Tai as their primary influence. And Qrow. The uncle becomes the extended family influence while Raven is the absent one/eventual antagonist. It's personal power as opposed to political power, but Tai, Qrow, Ozpin, formerly James... most of the mentors are men. Maria, a key exception, has been ignored in that regard. The story announced that she was Qrow's inspiration, setup her being Ruby's new mentor, and then... nothing. Nothing has come of that. She disappeared for a volume and then went off to Amity and was literally forgotten by the story when evacuating everyone was the finale's whole point.

Like that Endgame moment I mentioned, the Happy Huntresses feel a little too forced to me. Yes, it's the same basic idea as in ATLA, but ATLA, as you say, has a lot more going for it. The Happy Huntresses feel... on the nose? Idk exactly how to explain it. Like, "Here they are! Another team of all women! Isn't this how progressive storytelling works? Just ignore how this is a one-off team of minor characters compared to the world building issues discussed above." And if you're not paying attention, you miss just how insignificant they are, with a side of Robyn being, well, Robyn. The Kyoshi Warriors, at least, are based off of Kyoshi. A woman avatar who is a significant part of their history. That is, presumably, why they're an all women warrior group (but who notably still teach Sokka). The Happy Huntresses are all huntresses because...? There's no reason except that meta "We want to look progressive" explanation. Just like having all the women superheroes team up for a hot second so people get excited and ignore the representation problems across, what? 21 films? Don't get me wrong, I love that May is among the Happy Huntresses. I think including her in the explicitly all-women group was one of the better things RWBY has done in a long time, but the rest is still a mess.

RWBY is arguably about these smaller groups as opposed to systematic power (despite the writers trying to work that in with things like the White Fang and the election. Not to mention the implication that everything in Atlas is fine now that evil Ironwood has died and taken the symbol of wealth (the city) with him. We saw a human holding hands with a faunus after all. Racism and corruption solved, I guess.) So yes, our group is dominated by women... but Whitley is the one saving Nora, helping to defeat the Hound (plus Willow), thinking of the airships, and providing the blueprints they need to escape. Salem is our Big Bad, except Ironwood is the one the volume focuses on. Ruby is our leader, but Jaune is the one leading the group into the whale and getting praised for how heroic he is. Ren does more to shake things up, even if he's painted as the one in the wrong. Oscar gets to confront Salem and destroys the whale threat. Ozpin provides the information they need to evacuate. Meanwhile, when the girls do things in Volume 8 it's almost always followed by a long-stint of passiveness. Nora opens the door so she can be unconscious for most of the volume. Penny keeps Amity up so she can also be unconscious for a good chunk of time. Ruby sends her message and then sits in a mansion. Blake fights so she can tearfully beg Ruby to save her. Weiss, as said, takes a backseat to Whitley (and Klein). They forward the plot, absolutely, but comparatively it doesn't feel like enough.

It's that pattern then, no one specific example. More and more the personal power, not just the systematic power already built into Remnant, seems to be coming from the men. Not all the time, but enough that scenes like the tea drinking moment feel like a part of a much larger problem. Pietro taking control, Watts hacking, and Ambrosius literally remaking her when Penny is supposed to already be in control of herself and her fate. Winter being presented as the active mentor to Weiss, only to turn around and claim that Ironwood was actually responsible for everything. Ruby, Weiss, Blake, and May straight up commenting on how awful things are out there while Yang, Jaune, Ren, and Oscar lead the charge against Salem — with the latter three doing the most to forward that mission (no fear, semblance, cane). As others have only half-joked, Yang's supposedly badass moment was bringing up a mother she's ignored for six volumes and briefly blowing up the immortal woman for a couple of seconds (with Ironwood's bombs). Even Marrow is arguably the most significant Ace Op after Clover. Vine isn't actually a character, Elm slightly less so, Harriet is there to go crazy and try to drop a bomb (notably before admitting to never-before-existed feelings for Clover), but Marrow? He's the one who breaks out. Who is meant to heroically stand up against Ironwood. Who comments on how awful it is that teenagers are fighting and, regardless of how messed up the moral messages are, is supposedly pushing for active change while all the women in his group, including Winter, insist on maintaining the status quo. Look at all these choices as a whole, it makes throwaway worldbuilding choices like "All the Maidens are women" feel pretty hollow. Why does it matter if Amber is a Maiden if she dies in a flashback so Ozpin can struggle to pass on the power? If Pyrrha dies before becoming one so Jaune can angst about it? If Raven is one and then disappears from the story entirely? If Winter has enough power to break Ironwood's aura, but supposedly had no power throughout every other choice she made getting here? If Penny is one, but is continually controlled by men and then asks another man to help her die? It's just really unconvincing, once you look past the surface excitement of a woman looking cool with magic powers.

When you do consider the whole of the story — both in terms of our world building and who is forwarding the plot in the latter volumes, getting the emotional focus, being proactive, etc. — there are a lot of problems that undermine the presumed message RT wants to write. They say, "girl power" by marketing RWBY with these four women, but too many of the storytelling decisions thoroughly undermine that, revealing what's likely a deeply ingrained, subconscious bias.

#rwde #rwby #mymetas

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imo-chan-imagines · 3 years

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『 As your boyfriend | BNHA Headcanons 』

From the good, to the bad, to the downright adorable.

Characters: female!reader, Aizawa Shouta

Tags/warnings: Boku No Hero Academia (anime), 18+, explicit descriptions of sex, smut, fluff, soft dom Aizawa, relationship, headcanons

⚠️ 18+ CONTENT! MINORS: PLEASE DO NOT INTERACT ⚠️

A/N: Right, so I'm simping for this man biG TIME, but I'm only on season 3, so no spoilers or anything, please. This is my first BNHA post (and it turned out way longer than I was intending 😅) Please let me know if you want more in the future!

Also, I have a repetitive strain injury, so typing stuff is taking a while at the moment. Sorry about that. Thanks for reading! Please enjoy ♡ ~Imo

☆ Aizawa Shouta ☆

I'm not going to lie. Shouta can be a big ol' grouchy pants sometimes, and it's basically impossible to win an argument against him makes you want to tear your hair out, sometimes

But most of the time, he's just tired and in pain, and he doesn't mean to be so crotchety

He's not the type to make excuses, though. That's childish. He means his apologies, even if they're simple

He'll normally initiate an apology by gently wrapping his arms around you from behind and resting his forehead on your shoulder 🥺

Physical contact is incredibly personal and intimate for him. He doesn't just touch anyone, or allow them to touch him

You're special 💞💫

Soft, gentle touches, like his fingers interlacing with yours, or his leg brushing up against you, are basically his way of saying 'I love you'

Catch me crying in the corner, a'ight? 😔

He rarely ever raises his voice. Like, ever he doesn't need to, and is aware that it can be scary

He's definitely the kind of guy to forget to tell people that you're dating, simply because he doesn't see how it's relevant or anyone else's business 🤦‍♀️

I mean, he ain't wrong, but–

And his mood switches between 'antisocial' and 'clingy' like a mechanical metronome did someone say 'cat'?

Sometimes, you'll be lucky if he speaks more than three words to you together in a whole day nothing personal 🤷‍♀️

But on other days, he literally won't let you out of his arms for the world he's complicated, okay?

You have missed many a parcel delivery because he wouldn't let you get up from his lap to answer the door 🙄😂

Boundaries and responsibilities are key and highly respected by Shouta, and he would NEVER erase your quirk without your permission, unless he literally had no other choice like someone's going to get hurt, or something

Is generally quite serious so what's new? but you're one of the few people he can relax around when he feels like it

9/10 of his jokes are dad jokes 😎 hell yeah

Takes a hard stance in financial debates, but is constantly broke af 😶 says he'll buy you dinner and presents you with some instant noodles with a 'Reduced To Clear' sticker on them

Will take a bite of your food/steal some off your plate without asking, and literally say nothing to defend himself #gremlin

Is incredibly shy and uncomfortable about being ~le horny~ until you've been together for literally forever

Even then, he's still shy about it when he has to bring it up and it's pretty cute, let me tell ya

It took him forever to admit to you that he gets turned on when you eat ice lollies

Guess what you do whenever you want to mess with him like a little brat 😛

But if he's in the mood, he will 100% whisper something dirty in your ear, even if you're completely alone and probably well past third base

He does it because he knows your pussy will clamp around him at the sound of his voice 😳🥵

*fans self profusely*

Genuine, unadulterated smiles are rare with Aizawa, but when he does 🙌 Heaven hath opened its gates and allowed an angel walk amongst mere mortals 🥺🤧

If he lays his head on your chest, he will fall asleep like that *snaps fingers*

Surprise nose and forehead kisses to show he loves you ❤

Calls you 'Kitten' this is basically already canon at this point

And he's all about those deep talks with you at 3 am when he can't sleep

Speaking of insomnia!

It's cheesy, but you're like a soothing balm. The warmth of your body makes him feel safe, your touch helps him relax, and your voice soothes him to sleep

He's never slept as well as when you're beside him 😭🤧

When cuddling, he likes to be the big spoon but will accept being the little spoon if you if you press your boobs against his back and ask really nicely 🤭

And he loves you stroking his hair and running your fingers through it 🥺

Netlix nights and pillow/blanket forts!!

Rainy days are a godsend. Staying inside all day under the blankets, with the soft sound of the rain falling outside and no-one to interrupt you – literal paradise

He makes mean hot cocoas and Irish coffees 😋 I feel like this man lives off Irish coffees 😂🤣

Wears a lot of black and grey sweatpants at home 😗 which highlight the outline of his dick just right, if ya know what I'm sayin' 👀

Doesn't like going out for dates and prefers staying inside and doing stuff together same, honeyy

But if you really like going out, he will somewhat begrudgingly agree to it and get all dressed up for you, just so long as he gets his fair share of home-dates, too 🤗

But if you also don't like going out... the two of you will basically never leave the house, except to get groceries in your pyjamas from the 24-hour convenience store down the road at one in the morning oddly specific, I know, but you get me

And sorry, but I don't make the rules

Well, actually, I do. But shush

We all know that Shouta cleans up *chef's kiss* So when you go somewhere ~fancy~ he always looks so damn fine 😩

But he has very little idea that he's hot he sees himself as a tired, walking dumpster fire🚶‍♂️🔥

Shouta will 100% turn into a crazy cat dude with 15+ cats if you don't stop him I never said you should, though 🙃

And is a 'minimalist texter' – basically, if he can't answer a text with 'yes', 'no,' 'maybe', or 'OK', then he probably won't answer it at all 😭😂

Especially if you try and sext him or send him your nudes while he's at work. He'll probably lecture you when he gets home and depending on just how much you turned him on, he might proceed to teach you a lesson...

But wear his shirt, and just his shirt or his hoodie and he's yours

Heart eyes, motherfucker 😍

And, depending on how you two are feeling that day, you may or may not end up getting dicked down on the nearest semi-flat surface right then and there 👀

But don't misunderstand. This is an incredibly tired man you have here, and his libido actually isn't through the roof sorry, ladies so this kind of thing isn't an everyday occurrence

But when he dicks you down, he dicks you down goooood

Shouta's not big on PDA, but makes up for it in private. We're talking hands and kisses all over your body he leaves nothing unloved 😏

And while he's not big on PDA, he is big on sneaky displays of affection or 'SDA', as I like to call it

Like subtly grabbing your butt for a second, or his hand on your thigh under the table at a dinner etc. especially around other people

But what really gets him going is slowly removing your clothes and taking you fully naked, spreading your legs wide and holding them open he likes the view 😍

He lowkey highkey worships your body 🙏 and will literally not shut up about how fucking pretty you are, and how fucking good it feels inside you his words, not mine 😳

Groans and growls a little when he's getting close/cumming especially when he's being a little rough and likes to cum together, but knows it's not always practical

He tends to be a gentle dom, but can get just a teensy bit 🤏 rough if he's too into it – but nothing outrageous

We're talking rough thrusts and a brutal pace, maybe holding onto you a little too hard and, waaahh, he gets so embarrassed if he leaves bruises

Is also into a little bondage, but again, only light stuff – restraining your wrists with his hands or his tie or his Capturing Weapon 👀 maybe blinding-folding you if you're okay with it

If you're not blindfolded, then I'm afraid he's all about that eye contact

Eating out your pussy? Eye contact. Pounding you into the mattress? Blazing eye contact. Rearranging your guts in front of the mirror? Fucking eye contact

And CONSENT, BABY. THAT'S WHAT HE'S FUCKING INTO 😌🙌💞

But all jokes aside – he's too used to taking without consent with his quirk, that he's kind of paranoid about it comes to sex but it's adorable and sweet, and honestly, still kind of hot

And speaking of eating pussy – goddamn does he like to please you. Like cream to a kitty 😛

Oh, and he just loves it when you suck on his fingers as he's pounding into you 🤤

And he likes to leave love bites in personal, inconspicuous places and sometimes on your neck

He's marking his woman 😌

When he gets suuuper horny, he likes to fuck you from behind, standing upright in front of the mirror. It's a specific kink he has of watching himself stretch you out as the length of his cock disappears inside you...

I can get behind that, lemme tell yaaa

I said he tends to be dominant, but female doms – fear not!

Shouta is quite flexible when it comes down to it and is kind of lazy, lmfao so he definitely has time for laying back, having the control taken away, and having his dick ridden

For him, it's really all about communication and what you're both comfortable with

I will say this, though: sometimes, his cat watches you while you're banging 😅😂

The first time it happened, you freaked out and refused to continue because – how could you??? But eventually, you just kind of got used to it 🤷‍♀️

The same way you've got used to it following you to the bathroom every time you go to take a shit 😭

So now, you just kind of laugh about it, which helps keep things a little lighter 🤗

After sex, he does like to snuggle, but you'll be lucky if he stays awake for more than 30 seconds it's one of the few times he actually can sleep well

If you're ever out and about, or even inside, and cold, he'll wrap you up in his clothes/scarf/blanket like a sushi roll like Eren wrapping up Mikasa in his scarf, all deadpan and everything 😐

It's not that often, but when he gets drunk, he gets all soft and emotional, and starts babbling about how he can't believe he got so lucky to be dating you, and that he's sure he hasn't done anything to deserve it mah heart

He's pretty sure he wants kids, but he doesn't feel like now is the right time, and is lowkey afraid that it's never going to feel like the right time

He also constantly doubts himself, wondering if he'd actually able to look after them and protect them the way a father should class 1-A got him second-guessing himself 🥺

Besides, it's not all about him. You clearly have a say in it too, and he doesn't want to force you into anything

Again: communication and comfort zones

Dating Aizawa definitely has its ups and downs, and it's not smooth sailing, but he's prepared to work for a life with you because he's found a connection with you that he hasn't feel with anyone else

He knows that you're both far from perfect, but hopes that, for once, you might just make something good, and make it last 🥰😇

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skzfairies · 3 years

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suprise comfort

warnings: homophobia, mentions of divorce, fighting parents, unaccepting parents, disappointed parents, mentions of being homesick, mentions of missing family

time: june 2019

pairing: yuri + yeosang

summary: when yuri is upset late at night, someone comes to comfort her, and it’s not who she expected.

the room was dark, the only light was from the little night lamp by their desk, and the dim lighting of yuri's phone. she was scrolling through tik tok, unable to sleep, unlike her snoring roommates below her.

she saw all sorts of tik toks, funny ones, boring ones, cringey, and sometimes, she would even see a fancam of a kpop idol with text over it. they were normally always about fan wars though.

but one of the tik toks she found, it made her stop. she could feel her breath hitch at this one, and she felt her heartstrings be pulled.

it wasn't the creators fault, and she would never blame them for bringing this sudden wave of sadness over her, she was happy for them, and glad they were able to share their happy memory with her.

but yuri couldn't help the intrusive thoughts came after the wave of happiness was over.

the tik tok was a video of the creator coming out to their parents, and they were really supportive. yuri was so happy for them, and she was glad that people could have supportive parents and face less hardships for something they can't control.

yuri kept on thinking about when her parents found out about her being lesbian, the disappointed face they wore was something that was still painful for yuri to remember even after all these years.

she could hear the words that she often replayed coming to her head, and the pounding of her heart rose. she could feel tears running down her cheeks, coming faster and faster and more memories came back to her.

she let out a hic up, the sound seeming very loud to the quiet room. she held her breath for awhile, hoping neither hongjoong or seonghwa heard it. after a few minutes past, and it was confirmed that neither of the boys woke up, yuri slightly made her way down the ladder, and tip toed her way to the bathroom.

she knew no one would be up at this hour, so she was able to cry freely in the bathroom herself.

she shut the door to the bathroom, and plopped herself down on top of the rug, harshly pulling on her hair.

she wanted supportive parents so bad, she wished she was straight, because that's the only way her parents would naturally support it.

her parents were over the arguing now, but they barely talked about it, never confirming if they truly supported it or not.

she wanted parents who she could gush to about a girl or bring one home to them without awkward conversations. she wished she could be herself around them, without masking one of the biggest things about her.

tears were now clouding her vison, and she could feel snot rolling down her nose.

she quickly got up and grabbed the toilet paper, blowing her down and wiping off the tears on her face, and returning to her spot on the rug.

she just wanted to cry, she wanted to throw something, give a piece of her mind, she felt like she was going crazy. she let out a slightly loud sob, covering her mouth and sobbing into it, wishing that this pain would just go away.

she missed her family so much, even though they caused her so much pain. she remembered the family vacations, the jokes, the late nights. she remembered the fights, the arguments, the tears. her family wasn't ideal, and no matter how many times she wished that they would just get a divorce, she still missed them. she wished she could just break off all ties with them and just never speak to them again because all of the emotional pain they have caused her, but it's easier said than done. the guilt always eated her alive, even when she tried to convince herself that it wasn't her fault they were like this, she always did feel like it was all her fault.

she couldn't stop the tears and the sobs that were falling now, no matter how hard she covered her mouth, or how many times she brushed the tears off her face. she could feel her body shaking, her head pound, and her heart ache.

she didn't even notice the door opening, she was too focused on calming her breathing, and trying not to scream her lungs out.

she didn't notice someone even entered the bathroom until she felt arms wrap around her, causing her to jump and try and hurriedly wipe off her tears and stand up. this didn't work, the arms help her down and softly grabbed her hands.

"stop doing that, you'll irratate your eyes."

yeosang, yuri could notice his deep voice from anywhere, but she was suprised that he was even hugging her in this moment, normally they never did any skinship.

"yeosang, what are you doing?" yuri whispered, barely able to speak in a normal voice, and her voice slightly cracking even at a whisper.

yeosang softly pulled her into his lap, leaning against the wall and brushing her hair out of her face, seeing how red her eyes and nose were, and her puffy cheeks broke his heart. he hated seeing her like this so much.

"i thought you could use a hug." yeosang softly chuckled, hoping to bring the mood up some, but it failed. yuri rested her head against his shoulder and sighed, feeling too emotionally drained to even say anything or look at him.

"could you tell me what's wrong? i'm sure it will help."

yuri could feel the genuine concern in his voice, but she needed a break, she felt like she was crying for hours, and she couldn't even find her voice in her throat, so she only shook her head against yeosang's neck. yeosang sighed, softly brushing the hair out of her face. he really wanted her to talk, he never seen her this upset before. but he knew it would only make her upset more if he tried to force her into opening up.

"okay, maybe later. do you want to move somewhere more comfortable?" yeosang gently whispered, softly patting onto yuri's arm.

yeosang heard her hum, so he slowly unwrapped his arms around her, and helped her up, standing up behind her.

he grabbed onto her hand softly, making yuri softly tense before relaxing, and walked her into the living room.

yuri never saw yeosang this soft and affectionate to her, and she appreciated it. she felt safe and comfortable around him, although still greatly bothered and upset.

yeosang sat down on the couch and pulled her down into his lap once more, and yuri returned to her position with her head on his shoulders.

they sat there for awhile, yeosang occasionally brushing his hands through yuri's hair, while she stared off into the distance, still thinking about the memories of her parents outing her and being rude to her.

yeosang didn't want her to shut down completely, so he softly called her name until she looked up at him, and sat up.

"now could you tell me what's wrong? i understand if you don't want to talk about it, but i've never seen you this upset, mimi. you don't have to go through this alone." yeosang whispered, searching yuri's face for any discomfort, or any tears.

she looked conflicted, like she was deciding if she wanted to talking about it or not, so yeosang added,

"i won't tell anyone about this, i promise. it's just between you and me." yeosang held out a pinky, and smiled up at yuri, causing a smile from yuri, and she linked her pinkie with him.

this is a step, yeosang thought, and sat back, waiting to see if yuri continued.

he heard her barely audible voice, and it sounded dry and weak, and yeosang never wanted to protect anyone more than ever.

"it's about my parents."

"do you miss them?" yeosang gently responded, knowing that she hasn't been able to see them in a very long time, and had to stay at the dorms while the others returned home for a week by herself. he would feel terribly homesick, too.

"yes and no." yuri sighed, dragging her hands across her face and shaking her head. yeosang could feel the stress radiating off of her, and began rubbing her back, hoping to ease some of the tension.

yuqi was quiet for a little bit, and yeosang waited for her to continue, slightly confused about her response.

"they, well, how do i say this. they had many flaws. many hurtful flaws. does that make sense?" yuri questioned, looking at yeosang and continuing when she saw him nod.

"my parents fought often, and most parents do that, but it was a lot, and it was almost an everyday thing. they could barely be around each other without arguing. i really wanted them to get a divorce, but we couldn't. i was thinking about that, and some other things too." yuri mumbled leaning back against yeosang, humming when he brushed his hands through her hair.

"i'm sorry yuri, that sounds very hard. you said there were other things too? do you want to talk about those?" yeosang said after awhile, he couldn't imagine the emotional stress she had to go through growing up, and wished he could solve all of these problems for her, but he knew he really couldn't.

"yeah...this is the hardest thing to talk about. um....well my parents weren't always accepting, of well, me. they were only accepting of the version that they wanted to see, you know?" yeosang nodded, understanding that feeling. it was hard and not easy to deal with.

"it wasn't about school or my dream or anything, they were proud of me for that. so incredibly proud. they weren't proud of, who i liked." yuri said fastly, holding her breath, waiting for yeosang's response. yeosang could feel her tense up, and mumbled to her that it was okay, and that he's proud of her for talking to him. yuri calmed down, seeing yeosang did not have a problem with it at all.

"i don't understand why they didn't accept it. it wasn't like i was having crushes on bad people, it was literally just girls. i don't understand why that was such a big deal." yuri huffed, feeling the anger rise into her, but quickly fall with sadness.

"i don't understand why either yu, but i'll always support you, and so will the boys, and atiny. there's nothing wrong with you, i promise. and who cares what other people think about who you like? i know it's harder when it's your parents, but it's their lose, they are being foolish for not accepting you. i'm sorry you have to go through this, mimi. i'll love you no matter what." yeosang spoke, brushing yuri's hair with his fingers again, and yuri was sure it was extremely oily by now.

yuri felt a lot better now, and appreciated. she knew that her boys would always have her back, and that they would support her no matter what. they were her family, and she was their's. nothing could pull them apart.

"thanks yeosang, i love you." yuri smiled, hugging onto yeosang and kissing his cheek. she felt so loved, and so appreciated.

she smiled into yeosang's chest and softly fell asleep, dreaming of her real family, that was ateez.

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lillymidnight · 3 years

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So I binged watched High School Musical: The Musical: The Series (Hsmtmts) season 1 about a month back. Now I'm watching season 2. As many, I was surprised to semi like this show. I'm impressed with how unique it is. I won't lie some things have irritated me or disappointed me, but honestly it's better than I thought. A little too much about relationship drama in season 2, but the moments about other stuff is really good. Holy heck all the kids are so talented, they all have such great voices. Can't wait to watch more. That aside I feel like season 2 is getting better, cannot wait to see the next episode. 2x09 looks really good in the promo which prompted me to think about how I feel about each character or couple. I loved that they brought back pretty much the same 6 background 'chorus dancers' in season 2. I know there's more, but actually including them like thed New years party, Improve, and the Quinceanero.

I know I may be hated for this, however I do not ship any of the four 'main' at the moment, they all have so much to work on. But my hsmtmts weird venting of feelings rant. Sorry in advance.

🚨SPOILERS AHEAD🚨

Nini & Ricky - First and for most I never shipped them after the first break up and the slow burn throughout the rehearsals for hsm. Not sure what exactly it was but they just didn't work for me. Communication was such a big problem for them right from the flashbacks, and I know it's a Disney show but a whole year to say 'I love you' felt strange when later we practically see them eating each other blah. Something did not work for me. Their chemistry died part way through season 2. Falling in love with your first love and bestfriend is really precious, but also so heartbreaking at the same time especially if things don't work. Because you never want to lose the friendship. Ricky was becoming too much and treating her terribly, which she absolutely did not deserve. Nini deserves to be independent, she is very talented I won't deny that, but I feel sad because she seems too disconnected from the group even with her bestfriend Kourt despite them placing the two together the last two episodes, something just seems off. (Now this may be just my bias of usually hating main characters when there's a larger cast trickling in) She's still amazing and I hope they can write her independent growth and connection to her friends a bit better, and give us something to look forward to for her character. She needs to learn how to communicate and not hide behind songs or running away. Also proud that she said she wasn't returning from Yac completely for Rocky, which would have been stupid. I would not want to see her give up her dream because he wanted her to. Now I will say their second break up was so mature and beautifully done though and glad she has her fans and music to help her get through. I want to see Nini lean on her mom's for support. Hope she gets an interesting storyline that can showcase how super talented Olivia is with that incredible voice, can't wait to hear more💖

Ricky, well dang this boy needs therapy. He has so many problems he needs to work through. He seriously needs the support of his parents and friends to help him through his break up and abandonment issues. He was becoming pretty scary during season 2, it was making me so uncomfortable. He doesn't like change and yes that's hard to get through but yikes he was almost becoming toxic in some ways. I also know it's very hard to break trauma engraved feelings. Ricky was so insecure that he had to delete a comment from Nini's insta, honestly felt kind of out of character(felt like it was reverting back to season 1 with Ej being jealous, and I did not like it). He's a great character and I hope they show him getting help and working on his issues. I know they showed him with his Mom, Lynn in the 2x09 promo(which is so hard because I don't like her) so I hope it works out and she can help him or that they can have a genuine heart to heart conversation about her actions and how they impacted him. Still don't forgive her for everything so put Ricky through in the first season. He looks so sad and I hope they focus on his mental health and concerns before even thinking about any other relationship drama(wishful thinking...). So happy Ricky had Big Red, those scenes in the montage were so precious and heartwrenching. Big Red just knew Ricky needed him. I want to see more of that friendship grow because it felt slightly lacked in season 2 but that could because he was too focused on Nini and that the rest of the group was growing. I hope they do not let Ricky and Lily happen, that would be such a mistake. Josh is crazy talented can't wait to hear more🧡

Gina - Gosh this girl just needs a big ass hug. I feel so sad and constantly worried about her. That would be so hard constantly moving around never feeling grounded anywhere. I really liked that Ashlyn tried to help with developing a 'home' for Gina. Gina being so independently powerful and strong-willed is a great attribute to who she is and I loved her fierceness in season 1, but I feel like I haven't seen much of that this season, still like her a lot. It just seems she's sadly always putting on a brace face, which makes me feel awful for her. Her pining of Ricky is my least favorite thing about her. I get feelings can develop and with how she fell for him in season 1 and he chose Nini in the end was really sad. But I must say I felt disheartened when she thought Ricky was the one to send her the chocolates on valentines day and was mortified they turned that miscommunication into a joke. Nope, that was not something I liked at all, it felt forced. Yes, they work/see each other in the musical, but with the confused feelings they both shared they really should have backed away from each other to figure things out until both know exactly what they want. It's not fair to each other or Nini and Ej. I don't ship Rina though. Gina in episode 2x05 had me so sad for her, she deserves the world and I was so sad she was internally saying goodbye to everyone. I hope we see her and he mom work on things that will be the best to support Gina. I 100% do not want to see Gina and Jack be a thing, I know they're actors but nope that would be too strange after watching Sofia and Asher as tweens on Andi Mack. Also they really went there with the 'I feel like I know you' seem familiar scene, why? I cringed, I know it's a nod to Andi Mack fans who most probably now watch hsmtmts. I hope we continue to see her friendships grow with everyone. Sofia is so dang talented💚

Ej - I just want to say he went from being hated, to one of the favorite characters in season 2. He became so likeable. Carlos' comment about emotion in the song Gaston was big progress from the scene in season one between the pair, it was nice honestly. I really like Ej's relationship with Mr. Mazzara and hope that he continues to support Ej. I think that can be very good. I also love Ashlyn and Ej's relationship. I hope we eventually see a apology scene or talking scene between Nini and Ej. I really do not like Portwell and I'm so sorry to the fans. But I just don't ship it. I would love them to be good friends and be supportive of each other, their conversation was nice in the 2x08. I hope we see more of his interactions with different characters and continue to see his relationships develop. Ej and Duke well that is a whole other thing. Him acknowledging his privilege and how he didn't earn it was great character progress and very interesting to see. I did feel super sad for Ej, because the boy clearly works so hard with all the clubs and teams he's on, his high gpa, as well as his many other extra curriculars. His Dad, Cash making calls was ridiculous and I'm so proud of Ej telling him he's not going to Duke. I hope we get to see Ej grow independently. However, the promo for 2x09 shows Ej either packing or unpacking boxes with Ashlyn in the room during the zoom call. So I'm worried it's either him helping Gina move out, or the more likely option. Cash Caswell kicked Ej out over him saying he did not want to go to Duke at the end of 2x08. Ej has so much pressure on him. Gah please let Matt sing more, his voice is incredible💛

Ashlyn & Big Red - Redlyn is really sweet and I hope things work out between them regarding them not going through more jealously and relationship drama. I do wish the writers would have explored Ashlyn's insecurities a bit more and with more than just Big Red. I did not like the using her insecurities as comedy in some scenes. Ashlyn being a Disney princess is amazing and such a good thing to showcase. I liked the way they went with Big Red and the career stuff. I see absolutely nothing wrong with him wanting to continue his families legacy and proud that he said that to Ash. Also was happy to see them working that out and her understanding and accepting that. When she finally agreed I was very happy. I don't hate Antoine, but I def don't want to see some weird love triangle glad they said they were working through that. I really want to see more of them together and separate as they're a really cute couple and I think could survive their relationship with independent plot lines. The valentines moments were too sweet. I want to see more scenes with Ashlyn and Ej as I feel they have lacked this season. So, I definitely want to see more of them together as besides drama club, they are part of very different circles so I was shocked to see them so close. However, the more we learned about the Caswells, it appears they grew up alone and only with each other, neither of their parents being home. With her throwing all the parties and him being at her house often and correct me if I'm wrong he sleeps in the spare room quite a bit after parties or in general at her house. Although he did just knock/ring the doorbell in 2x08 which I don't think we've seen before. And his mind else where with Duke and probably his crush nerves somehow forgot Gina was living with Ashlyn. Julia's voice is fantastic that high note in the mob song was just wow. Larry can really sing so well dang, glad he got to sing more in season 2. I cannot wait to hear more from them❤

Carlos & Seb - Seblos is absolutely adorable, that might be biased though because of Joe and Frankie! Even though they are playing characters I feel like there's a little of them that slips through sometimes and I find myself smiling. I hope this fight that keeps being spoken about can be resolved easily. I'll be really sad if not. My heart feels for Seb, as I get Miss Jen doesn't see him as a leading man but she broke barriers once with him being Sharpay which was awesome, he was amazing. So, I hope Seb gets a bigger part in the next musical, and that he and Carlos can work through their relationship dynamic and problems. Really sad to constantly see Seb be told no and disregarded. I want that to change and see him stand up for himself. I don't like that they're portraying him as 'dumb' honestly. Always hate those characters in shows. Sure they say funny things but it's weird. Carlos looks like he's overworking himself and being there for everyone that isn't Seb. Carlos does need to focus on himself a bit and find time for him. Gah I was so happy to see some of Frankie's own heritage represented in the show in 2x05. Carlos' relationship with Miss Jen definitely weirded me out initially😅 I thought the plant growing with them was adorable and the meaning behind the Climb was great, just too cute. I've saw someone mention they think Ricky is going to be going through too many personal problems and be unable to perform and that Seb would take over, which I honestly agree this will happen. Hope to see so much more with them. Definitely hope to hear more singing!!! Gah Frankie and Joe's voices are incredible. They both need to sing way more💜

Kourtney - I still cannot believe she was only meant to be a one or two episode character, she's incredible and I'm so happy they made her more than just Nini's bestfriend who the main character whines to. I loved how they incorporated her as an asset and fashion/costume designer. She's headstrong and so very talented. Really glad they added Kourtney as a cast member to the musical. I mean her step in scene as Taylor was funny, but it's nice to see her break out of her box a little. I hope her relationship does not deter her future and headstrong nature. I really really want to see her relationship grow with other characters that aren't Nini as they were starting to before she came back. Seb and Kourt were great. I'm still indifferent about Howie and Kourtney after everything that has happened with North High. The Harry Potter references were too great though. Can't wait to see where else they go with her character and even Howie. Dara and Roman have such amazing and jaw dropping voices. Dang I want to hear more singing from them both💙

So that was a long winded explanation of how I've been feeling. The show is amazing with such young and talented actors playing awesome characters can't wait to see where else they go with them. Definitely need more singing and dancing.

#hsmtsts #ricky bowen #nini salazar roberts #kourtney greene #ej caswell #ashlyn caswell #big red #carlos rodriguez #sebastian matthew smith #seblos #gina porter #redlyn #kourtney x howie

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Ok ok ok so I’m asking about the obscure next Gen kids because why not ???

So like for Bennie (the Richard/Paige kid) how about 13 + 32?

And for the Paige/Kyle Twins (isabel and beatrice) how about: 18 + 37?

this is where'd i'd link the damn asks about those kids if i could find them i've been burning through my archive for a damn half hour now & nada basically bennie's got a couple posts to their name they're a paige richard kid in a paige richard endgame if memory serves they have dominion over the elements genderqueer i can't remember what sex they were assigned at birth if they were amab then they're full name is benjamin but if they were afab their full legal name is bennie they're named after richard's late father. raise by paige and richard even though richard's powers has been stripped he still teaches his kid what he knows of magic but specifically only to good parts because he does want to kind of. scrub the dark magic out of the montana line. i have a personal headcanon that the reason richard is so bonkers is that his parents dosed him with the blood of a greater being at birth, giving him that dr williamson in astral monkey you get the powers but you go fuckin crazzzy effect which is still present in bennie, though diluted. they're a big fan of plants and you know healing herbs potion making but it takes a lot less magic out of them so it's a safer practice. bel and bea come from a specific au where it's actually a paige henry au where paige meets henry either while she's pregnant or after she's already had kyle's kid whose name is isabel and it's like a thing where like. the elders really restrict kyle from you know engaging with them and kyle actually for a decent amount of time didn't know he had a kid until henry's like wait he's not like dead dead? like you can still talk to him? doesn't he want to meet his kid? and kyle's you know kyle's well call a spade a spade he's very emotionally constipated but he has like some tender moments with bel i think he and henry have a heart to heart paige and henry have a kid together name beatrice and kyle like you know he's never necessarily physically present (he might be an elder?? i can't remember. i think he is in the comics) but he continues to watch over them and he'll like you know. always leave a gift for them on their birthday or xmas he like. he genuinely cares for these kids. So!!

bennie

13. How do they greet the world — what is their typical attitude towards life? How does it differ in different circumstances, or towards different subjects? Why do they take these attitudes, and why do they change? How do these tend to be expressed?

so i think bennie greets the world in a very open way you know paige is very outgoing bold and flavorful and that does rub off on them but that's not exactly how they are. i think they're relatively confident in the idea of the grand design and that some things are meant to be i think that was probably a relatively large part of their childhood so the way they come off is just like incredibly zen i think like you know even if like coffee has spilled all over them and they've locked their keys in their cars they're just sitting there waiting for triple a like this is fine. i am going to learn a lesson for them. i think richard, what with all his crazy, really worked to teach bennie you know healthy coping mechanisms they definitely do tai chi together they'll meditate with phoebe like they just have his wicked calm energy about them like even at the club like they know how to cut loose they're dance laugh have fun they don't drink for the most part given a familial history of addiction on both sides i'd imagine but they're not 100% sober. they're very conscious about it it's something you can easily tell. that being said, they can definitely get nervous and clam up in situations they believe to be high stakes for example they're very queer so in a situation where they feel judged there are usually two possible reactions depending on how safe they feel. if they are for example in their own home and like idk some coworker or something is over and makes some kind of offcolor comment about their hair or painted nails or crepe skirt over workboots they're gonna kind go really in on that aggressively in on that try to make the other person squirm like oh i'm sorry do you not like feeling like you're under a microscope? do you not like having the harsh judging eyes of others just scrape over your skin that's so funny i would have never guessed that considering how you were looking at me. which they definitely get from paige when richard's upset he just leaves a room like nope not doing this today picking a fight is totally paige's mo tho. the flipside though if they do not feel comfortable in this arena like the fear that if they're too loud they'll get jumped or something they'll do everything they can to blend in with the wall and in spite of their wardrobe they are shockingly good at it like there are very few people who would call bennie "meek" until they see them in a situation like this and they're like oh holy shit this is a totally different side of you. and then of course, the other agitated bennie state is when they're talking to someone they like or at the very least think they might like in which they become way too overtalkative again in kind of a paige fashion where it's a whole lot of words but kind of low substance. and this whole thing is like. like if bennie is to be totally candid, it's to scared them off. bennie does kind of view themself as damaged goods like yes they're hella zen and capable and like mom friend or whatever but like ever day it takes so much conscious effort ever day they have to work to write that narrative because if they let it all slide they'd be. fucking unlovable, probably, in their opinion. definitely has depression, obvi, probably anxiety too, addiction prone, probably adhd, maybe something more intense like bpd or bipolar disorder i don't quite know. but they definitely feel like they want to scared someone off by being too honest about their flaws rather than have the person unearth them and realize how fucking damaged they are just that slow dawning fear like oh they're Crazy crazy but now i can't leave i think bennie's really worried about that, like a lover feeling like they've been "trapped" in this relationship because they can't leave because if they do it'll wreck bennie beyond repair. so if they're really interested in somebody, they'll just like put up neon signs like i'm insane i'm fucking bonkers you do Not want to be with me! surprisingly, they do not have many relationships. they have, however, had many hookups, because when they don't care about somebody in a

romantic sense and there's this very specific energy like we'll never see each other again they'll stay in they're status quo energy i think they're probably really hot and again you can like kinda tell they're damaged but in a healed way you know like whoa this dude definitely has depression but they want to show me their greenhouse and it's full of very much alive plants so clearly they're able to take care of other living beings. you know? but again it's like if this hookup ever expresses interest of maybe taking things further bennie's porcupine bristles spring right back up like woah woah woah trust me dude that's Not what you want. but it is what some people want : ( they just won't ever let them in.

32. Do they have any “props” that are a significant part of their life, identity, activities, or self-presentation somehow? What are they, how are they used, and why are they so significant? How would these props’ absence impact them, how would they compensate, and why?

not necessarily i think they wear live flower crowns like more often that your average person because i'd say your average person almost never wears a live flower crown (as opposed to one made of fake flowers) so that could be one of them but that's kind of just more of a stylistic point i think bennie does wear a lot of jewelry a good amount of it is enchanted with one basic purpose or another but it's mainly just there to fidget with running charms along the necklace chain spinning rings around fingers clasping+unclasping bracelets if bennie doesn't have and jewelry they'd probably go a little bonkers i'd say they'd wear rings with such frequency that if they didn't have any they'd probably just wrap something around their fingers so they don't feel naked it's really the necklaces that are the most important part like if bennie reaches for their neck and there's nothing on there they're gonna get antsy going to just end up tapping on their collarbone til the get a bruise scratch at their neck til they draw blood type thing just without noticing it because it's just what they do.

bel

18. What kind of person could they become in the future? What are some developmental paths that they could take, (best, worst, most likely?) what would cause them to come to pass, and what consequences might they have? What paths would you especially like to see, and why?

so, bel's a paige/kyle kid, so they're almost like a fighting dog you know once they've suck they're teeth into something they will not let go i think they'd naturally be drawn to investigation there's this inherent need to help others but it's really just the paige/kyle determination and honestly stubbornness that really sends them over the edge i think like the best case scenario they're probably a pi both magic and mundane and run a business together with their spouse who does the books and stuff like that because bel is shit at that genuinely gets such tunnel vision that she doesn't remember she was supposed to pay the electric bill until the lights shut off her spouse is the one with the calendar all that schedules everything dates too but like. instead of just putting date? on the shared google calendar instead they'll leave little envelops around the house address to one isabel kylie matthews-lastname, will you do me the honor of accompanying me to california pizza kitchen this saturday and 8pm to which bel will always text back her reply and keep the current invitation in her purse and every time she sees it again it's kinda like she's seeing it for the first time bc again once she's latched onto somethign she almost entirely loses focus on everything else but the little notes just being her back to this genuine kinda early puppy love type feeling like it's so sappy but she's not the type to roll her eyes and be like lol this is lame but secretly love it no she like's like i love this. i love you. so yeah. that's the best case scenario worse case scenario shes still a pi but like it's a lot more jessica jones in this bitch it's fully possible that she started off as a cop of a fed and just got kicked off the force / quit becuase she cannot work as a team and she fuckin hates being controlled and she has zero successful relationships because again she gets so focused she literally doesn't have time for anyone else any it's not like people don't want to love her they do and there is that brief period when they're the thing that holds her attention when there's nothing in her world but them and then one day without warning you're just another invisible thing to her and i don't think many can sit through it. and it's definitely just a character flaw with bel because it's not like she becomes disinterested in them or loved them any less it's just she has her new focus. but from the outside, you just kinda feel like a barbie left on the furnace like you were bright and shiny and new and beautiful and all she could even want and then next thing you know your hair is singed and your face is melting and she's off doing god knows what as you burn alone. : (. which, honestly, is just the most likely version. unfortunately, and this isn't very #girlboss of me, but bel is just one of those people who needs someone else in their life who needs a tether someone to keep them rooted and i think at a certain point it'll come to pass where there will eventually come a person who bel can't lose like after everyone leaves because they always do bel kinda pretends not to care it cuts deep every time but they were convinced that she didn't love them so she must not have right she'll be fine she'll get over it but it's gotta happen (because i'm a sucker for a good romance) that eventually someone will come along and when they leave bel realizes that no actually she's not gonna do this again she's not going to take this lying down she's gonna fight she's going to get them back she's going to change and like become the person they need she's gonna tape little stick notes to the office door handle that say date tonight!!! so she doesn't fucking forget like she always does she's going to sit on the couch and just watch tv with them and not talk on and on about her current fixation (this never works, btw, she Always ends up in a very impassioned monologue, but it's okay, bc her partner loves seeing her like this) she's gonna actually put in the miles, something she's never done before. she's actually going to try to keep this relationship

alive. and i think that would kind of be her major turning point is that realizing love isn't effortless like it's something you need to work at especially if your someone like her it's remembering your partner's birthday because you know how much it means to them instead of just giving them the perfect gift a week and a half later after pulling a jake gyllenhaal in red move.

37. Have they had any special education or training that colors their means of learning about or understanding the world? Conversely, do they lack some kind of education considered essential in their world? What kind of impact has this addition or lack had on them?

hmm i mean obviously witchcraft greatly influences any of these kids lives but i think what with henry who essentially raised her being a parole officer and just kind of helping kids who have been turned astray and then of course as we saw in the show paige's strong favorability of nurture over nature i think bel kind of has this strong belief that there's no one who's truly evil and that theoretically if given the right circumstances to you know grow and heal everyone could be good. but this is coupled with the fact that she kills demons! like she does hold this belief that under the right circumstances they could be good but she kinda just takes the easy way out and kills them instead! she believes she doesn't have the facilities to help them back + the inherent structure of a demonic childhood would be a lot to undo truly a goliath task which are both like technically true but she still always just feels slightly uncomfortable killing demons. which is kinda funny because she does have such a stone cold bitch exterior and probably will use the old "telekinetically orb a crucial organ out f the body" method for killing so it really doesn't seem like a woman with remorse but!! i can't think of any major lapses in what she knows that'll greatly impact her besides the obvious doesn't know how to be in a relationship (like, any relationship) one, which is a biggie.

bea

i think bea is a lot more listless than bel because bel always seemed to know what she wanted and what she wanted to do again bel always has this laser focus and like determination and cutthroat energy and bea has just never felt that passionate about anything? like she likes to play acoustic guitar but she doesn't want to be a musician, she likes to cook but she doesn't want to be a chef, she likes thrift shopping but she doesn't want to be one of those depop bitches like she feels like she likes a lot of things but she doesn't love much. if i had to guess, i'd say she got a job when she was in high school probably at like an occult store or something you know get that employee discount on slippery elm and like by her mid twenties she probably just still works there. like, again, she likes it fine, but is this all she wants? like is this it? she's gotta love something, right? eventually? and from an authorial standpoint i genuinely have no idea what that'd be i'd like to see her find a passion but i'm just. unsure as to what passion she would find and how to translate that into something greater. i think through the majority of her young life, she just feels unmoored. bright side is though, unlike her sister, she's great with relationships. including her relationship with her sister, who she'll frequently bring dinner for at the office because she knows if she's working on a case sometimes she'll forget to eat. that's another thing she likes. feeling useful. actually okay that might be a good path for her a halfway home for wayward witches people who have been kicked out of their homes or abandoned this that or the other and she'll teach them how to cook how to knit how to cleanse and protect a space i think that could be a good one

so, unlike bel, bea is actually henry's biological daughter, which i think just causes a slight difference neurologically because kyle is just like ten times more wired that than henry ever was. so just given that specific tidbit for contextualization i think bea's knowledge of things like the craft is just a lot more expansive that bel's. like. bea can read your tea leaves cast a protection spell brew a vanquish potion bel can write a spell to vanquish a demon in it's home lair without ever having to see it because she studied that for like. five months straight. she needs to check the book every time she brews a stun potion because that info simply does not fit in her brain. so i think bea is just a lot more well rounded given her obviously esoteric nature i think that, like bennie, she has this inherent belief that everything is meant to fall into place i think like you know she knows there's magic watching over her. i actually don't think she has any inherent psychic powers off the top of my head i'd probably give her telekinesis mimicry & deflection but she's always just kind of been in tune to energies. kyle watches over her too, and she can kind of feel whenever he's there. she talks to him sometimes. he never responds but she knows he's listening. the flipside of this is given the strong foundation and knack for the occult the foundation of basic education the american education system tried to give her umm simply did not find it nearly as compelling. like she can make things fly and you want her to find sinθ? i also think that given her more inherent witchy slant she finds it more difficult to connect with quote-unquote normal people. like the more groovy spiritual loosey goosey types are find, but there's something so inherently ethereal about her that very pragmatic people either find her annoying, weird, or dumb. which, yeah, kinda hurts, but she can take solace in the fact that she literally knows she's right like sorry i literally just vanquished a ghost last week but no look at me like i'm stupid when i say i think there's somewhere we go after we die like okay

#this was so much fun to write!!#golly gee i might actually have to start writing some stories for them now 😬#gotta wait 4 my brain to start working fr #but once i'm kicking again......#charmed #next gen #charmed next generation #bennie montana #isabel matthews #beatrice matthews #💌#anyways thank u so so much 4 sending something in 💞💕

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