#i can completely see why everyone loves it but also

[writing-for-life]

Ok, I’m not going to get involved in a certain thread because I don’t want any drama and the line of argumentation leans too much to one side already (the views of the vocal majority in this fandom) for it to make much sense to contribute, but I had a few thoughts today:

In a fandom where people write AUs full of cows and merpeople and other shenanigans that have nothing to do with canon (or the actual characters, to be frank), they can’t do that for Calliope (or any other female character, for that matter)?

She doesn’t get to play in the sandbox?

We don’t have the imagination to turn her into one of the two dolls that kiss?

We have to keep her in character while everyone else can be turned into… whatever person (certainly neither the one of the comics nor the show)?

We constantly have to remember her strife and trauma and can’t invent (!, that’s what writing is about!) a different or new side to her? Or a better future? One in which she gets to be happy?

Or we can’t turn her into someone she canonically isn’t?

While all of this always, always works for Dream? Or the hairy guy?

And speaking of said guy: Do we have any reason to think Dream would treat him better than Nada? We’re automatically assuming he’d do the same thing to Calliope, but not to him? Or: Why do we assume he would do what he did to Nada to any other love interest, because canonically, there’s no evidence for that (we wrote about this on here before)? So no, that line of argument just doesn’t fly in my view.

If Calliope and Dream have chemistry and people are able to acknowledge it (which most do), that on its own is enough to ship them. The chemistry argument works with every M/M ship. Why doesn’t it work with her?

Oh, she is allowed in gen fics (and I am a fan of those btw, but that’s past the point), or as a character with very little agency, or any personal or sexual desires. Even better if she serves the ship. That’s okay of course, I forgot. Reminds me of most of the women of the Sandman—I wonder why.

I just wish people would give the honest reason without going through all the mental gymnastics of why Dreamuse is not an interesting (or even bad or problematic) ship, and the other one is the best invention since sliced bread:

They want to see/imagine two guys together.

There, I said it, it wasn’t hard. It’s really as simple as that in fandom, it’s a predictable fantasy, and it’s the same in every fandom. The Sandman isn’t any different.

M/F ships are frowned upon because they’re “heteronormative”, and yet, (mostly) women proceed to project (mostly) heteronormative relationship dynamics on two guys of which they fancy at least one and use the other to project themselves on. Sometimes, they fancy both of them and get more of what they have the hots for. Good for them, there’s nothing wrong with it. We have oodles of research by now why some women prefer M/M porn; it’s not earth-shattering, groundbreaking or “queer-positive” (it sometimes fetishises homosexuality though, but that’s a different topic). It’s been like that since at least the times of Spirk, and probably longer. It’s actually a fairly (dare I utter the word on here?) straight female sexual fantasy. The queer-positivity everyone is so enamoured with is more than, and not singularly limited to, shipping M/M—as a bisexual woman, I personally can’t identify with that line of thinking at all, but other people’s mileage might vary…

If people are into smutty/explicit fanfic , that’s just how it works: Some women project on a female body while imagining to get railed by a guy, others prefer to imagine two guys because they fancy men. Again: Nothing wrong with it, but it’s also not as deep as people often pretend it is.

Yes, I wrote about that one before as well. That’s why I can do it again—“once your reputation is ruined” and all that 🤣

It’s ok to be horny for two guys without turning it into a brain-contorting statement every time.

It’s also okay to reflect on the wider implications of completely erasing women from EVERY fandom, especially if you identify as one.

#the sandman #sandman #dreamuse #dream of the endless #calliope the sandman #ye olde #fandom misogyny #morpheus #calliope sandman #oneiros x calliope #Morpheus x Calliope #Dream x Calliope

[scintillyyy]

as we all know i LOVE rite of passage (detective comics #618-#621) and to the father i never knew (batman #480). i have analyzed them so much & i will continue to analyze them so much more in the future. they are so, so dear to me. i look at them with heart eyes.

at the same time, i blame them for fanon drakes.

because listen--the concepts that fanon drakes largely came out of are from these particular potrayals of them & particular panels from them--rite of passage is famous for the postcard letter, which fandom warped to mean they don't call tim (along with the drakes as selfish ceos) and the way thay they're portrayed as ostentatiously wealthy with the million dollar jet (leading to tim & the idea that he grew up ostentatiously weathly in the vein of bruce wayne wealth with his empty mansion and completely unaware what a banana costs or what normal people are like). the idea that they had tim as a business baby does have roots in jack saying that tim is going to take over the company one day (and tim not wanting to take over the company one day) in the father i never knew. now fanon has warped & exaggerated these traits immersely, but the initial concepts honestly stem mainly from alan grant's work on them (because it's the only time we see them *so* ostentatiously wealthy, on everyone else/the vast majority of the time they drakes are upper class but also jack and dana make tim do chores and he has normal sized rooms and boarding schools).

and i just wanna talk a little bit about how and why those traits came to be under him & why they ended up working in interesting ways in canon but end up falling flat in fanon. because those traits were put there for very specific reasons & when you lose or alter the context of them, it takes away what's interesting about them existing to begin with.

because let's give the main context for them: the drakes were this way under alan grant. and when alan grant is writing, alan grant is gonna put his agenda in there. and i say that in an entirely neutral way. and in the 80s, alan grant was an anarchist--notably creating the character of lonnie machin aka anarky. which brings us to our second main context: though he was never even a contender for it, alan grant had created lonnie with the thought that he could maybe make lonnie the third robin (unbeknownst to grant, wolfman and o'neil had already decided on and were creating tim drake specifically for the role--there were no other real contenders at the time).

so when you read through grant's issues on batman and on how he wrote the drakes you do have to take into consideration the following: that grant had a statement to make & thay he had a clear interest in foiling the robin that was created with that of the one he tried to. he wanted to explore a story of capitalistic greed and exploitation and its negatives. so when he writes the drakes as greedy, as ostentatious, as bitter people who argue over a beleaguered secretary's head in rite of passage it's because he has to *set the stage for how this greed will lead to their downfall*. and it does! it gets them kidnapped, it gets their secretary killed. it is a *lesson*, cautioning against greed--does he not have them also lament while they were kidnapped thay had they known what life had coming, they would have chosen to not waste any of the good things (their son)-- the things that *really* matter, not their greed or that which came of it. it is why that as they're reaping the consequences of their greed, tim is simultaneously in his own battle with anarky--so that he can be foiled against him, and making tim's parents stand for everything anarky fights against is *part of tim's foiling against lonnie*, part of his ideological fight with him--as tim is winning, his parents are losing. as tim walks away from lonnie, proud to be able to tell bruce that he tracked him down all by himself, proud to have won, tim is about to receive the worst news--that bruce was unable to save his mom and his dad is comatose, who paid the ultimate price for their greed. the exaggerated awful traits of the drakes work here *because* it fits into the bigger story as a whole--they need to be that awful to make a statement on how capitalism and greed kills and ruins you. and even then grant is not without sympathy for this--tim, as the person who loses so much as a result of everything, is treated very sympathetically despite being a foil for lonnie. tim may have won the battle against lonnie, but he lost so much more. even jack and janet are allowed their moment of realization that they made the wrong decisions before being punished for them. it works to service the inherent political statements embedded within. the exaggerated awful traits work as social commentary.

even in to the father i never knew, the themes of greed & what greed will cost are there (though there are also lots of other delicious themes as well). in here, tim and his lack of greed is played against the greed of his father and phil marin--his father wants him to take over the company, but tim wants to take care of the city--and meanwhile jack's company is being embezzled from by a man he trusts who *tim* ultimately stops. jack's greed and refusal to know his son almost loses him everything and he is unaware of it all. tim knows everything but can't tell him anything. again, jack's exaggerated awful traits work here as *social commentary*.

and when you take away this social commentary aspect of their traits when you exaggerate them and just make them awful to tim, you do start to lose what made these traits *work* in the comics. because then you just get awful for the sake of being awful. irredeemable with no remorse. a rich kid needing to be saved by a rich man. you lose the meat of what their exaggerated negative traits wete supposed to stand for when you lose the interplay of class and social commentary.

#i have. SO many thoughts about how grant wrote the drakes in comparison to literally everyone else #and him making them snootier and more ostentatious worked in the greater context of the story #regarding how greed will lose you everything #which is why (and this is important) they regretted their choices #and that's what the fanon of just making them awful tends to miss--the commentary of Why they were like that #and how their own greed led to their undoing not anything they did to tim

[cursedvibes]

I like the tragedy of Gojo “always being seen and used as a weapon by jujutsu society” Satoru not even finding peace in death and still being used as a weapon as if he’s some flesh mecha but that is literally the only good crumb I could muster from this chapter (and some kinda solid Gojo characterization in his talk with his students).

The constant sidelining of Yuuji is not making me excited, it’s making me annoyed. Yuuta and Sukuna didn’t need a revenge battle- the only thing connecting them is the motif of love and Yuuta already got his shit rocked in like 3 chapters 😭. Leave Gojo’s poor corpse alone.

Yeah, him seeing himself as a weapon fits with his The Strongest mindset. So I'm not that surprised he's fine with it, but you'd expect the others to have a little more sense. Kusakabe seems to have been the only one who had a strong moral opposition to this and I imagine Yuuji would have too, but he wasn't asked. The thing with Yuuta giving up his humanity to become stronger was set up, but him refusing to do that was the only thing that set him apart and spoke for him as a character. Now he just buys into the Strongest ideology like everyone else. Well, guess he can die like them too then. He's the only Special Grade alive anyway (being new gen I thought Gege might want to keep him alive, but with that mindset I doubt it). But then he's like mememe nobody can help except for me, so I have no choice but to take over Gojo's body.

Yuuji and Todo were handling Sukuna just fine. We got a confirmation last chapter that everyone except Choso made it out of the Furnace blast. Maki could've helped with Soul Blade for immediate back-up. If things are so dire that Yuuta has to resort to this, then that should've been shown. Although him being selfless in a selfish way is consistent I guess. But the timing of it was still wrong. I thought whatever that apparition ended up being could be a distraction, so Yuuji could contact Megumi, rip out Sukuna's heart, further tear at his soul, literally anything useful. But nope, he gets shoved aside, so we can get Sukuna vs Gojo 2.0. Thank God, that's exactly what I was missing right now...another character who has no connection with Sukuna throwing himself at him to die. Just drag this out even further why don't we? Maybe Yuuji and Todo will help this time, so it's not as much of an idle standby as last time, but it's still...why?

Also, we just established that gaining new techniques takes skill. You'd especially expect that to apply to six eyes and Limitless. Yuuta would see the world completely different. Even Gojo had a learning curve and took at least 20 years to get to the level he's on now. But Yuuta has been in that body for a minute and can already use Unlimited Void. What a fucking genius. Nobody does it like him. Why not leave the rest to him as well? Strength is all that matters right?

Also, while the humanity stuff and Yuuta being Gojo's successor was foreshadowed, he still has zero(0) connection to either Kenjaku or Sukuna. Sukuna even less than Kenjaku. With Kenjaku you kind of have the justification that he wanted to put Geto's body to rest (for Gojo), but that's it and that doesn't justify him having that level of involvement. With Sukuna it's literally just: he's a bad guy and needs to be defeated. And I guess Yuuta buys now into his mindset as well. But that is consistent you could say because he never had much of a thematic connection with Geto either aside from "please don't kill my friends because I put all my self-worth on them".

Sorry for the rant 😅 just had to get it all out of my system

#asks #jjk spoilers #jjk 261 #jjk leaks

[stellarcat52]

This isn’t leaving my brain so here.

One final reset au.

Heavy spoilers.

It takes years, but fable’s soul manifests in the aether. As one final attempt to fix everything, or maybe as revenge, he causes another reset, completely destroying his soul in the process.

Disclaimer: I haven’t watched everyone’s finales and I don’t have solid ideas for where every character wakes up after the reset, also, spoilers.

Caspian remembers everything, but he’s stuck in Elysium with no way of getting back and helping his family or friends.

On the other hand, Rae and Violet are stuck in the end. Rae doesn’t remember anything about being mortal, including his partners, but Violet remembers the end stone reset and parts of the other two. He figures out another has happened pretty quickly.

Violet checks the end prison, which has returned, for Caspian, Athena, Easton, or (this name has been forgotten) but finds it empty. He won’t help Rae remember anything because he knows it will cause more stress to know that there are people out there that Rae loves that he can’t get to. (for the sake of this, lighting the ends portal in the over world opens the one in the end as well.)

Rae has Veah and Cari with him. He doesn’t remember either of them but quickly recognizes the resemblance and takes care of them. They remember everything and are very scared because Dad doesn’t remember them, even when he promised he’d never forget them. (They never understood why he kept making that promise to them. He’d promise them every time he had a bad dream.)

Ocie and Momboo both remember everything. It hurts, having everything taken away again, and they’re looking to reunite everyone and rebuild lodestar grove.

Quixis-Icarus can see and interact with the world, they try to push people into each other’s paths and they look for Rae and Centross endlessly.

Most everyone in the over world and nether (really just Athena) are quick to regain memories once they meet up with the others. A blessing from Caspian traveled on the over world wind, making it easier, but those in other dimensions weren’t effected. (Athena just had really good bonds with people)

Caspian is able to read everything his friends write down, Arisanna, Ven, and Athena unknowingly keep him in the loop. Rae also takes notes, Caspian broke into tears when he realized his husband 1- didn’t remember him, and 2- had their kids and was keeping them safe.

Veah writes down journals for her and Cari, Caspian reads them too and wishes he could go help them feel less scared.

Athena and Fenris make it to the end first and Rae doesn’t immediately remember them. Violet defends them but Rae locks them away anyway until Veah and Cari see and recognize them. Fenris calling him starlight and Athena calling him their uncle cause memories to come crashing back.

Rae stresses about making it to Elysium, hoping that Caspian was there. He builds the portal and is willing to give up himself to get there but Ven, who remembers dying, seems to be able to open it on his own without consequences. (Icarus didn’t want anyone to get hurt, they found the portal from the last reset. No one seems to notice that it’s one block off now.)

Caspian definitely sees Rae’s notes about ways to relight the portal and knows he’s going to try and sacrifice himself. He’s at the portal waiting when the plan happens and his first words to anyone are “Is Rae okay?” Because he was so scared. He makes sure everyone knows that it was fable who caused this reset, and that his soul is permanently gone this time. (He saw it happen. And he couldn’t get there fast enough to stop it. He couldn’t let the others find out he failed to protect them.)

Once everyone is accounted for, memories are fully back, and homes are rebuilt, there’s a huge celebration with everyone involved. (As the sun goes down, Oscar takes the other kids home to have a sleepover and Ulysses breaks out the alcohol.)

#fable smp #fablesmp #fable smp spoilers #fablesmp spoilers #not proofread #I’m not tagging all the characters #not everyone is mentioned #I think you can tell who my favorite characters to write angst for are #my writing #kinda #it’s a bunch of ideas without being written down as a story #it counts

[iinryer]

tagged for wip wednesday by @sibylsleaves !

more from the vanessa fake dating fic 😌 passed 3k this morning and we are FINALLY through the setup lol

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Before Eddie can think of what to say to reassure him, Bobby’s voice comes from where he’s climbing the stairs to head towards the kitchen, placatingly, “He’s allowed to take some time in a new relationship, Buck,”

Hen and Chim both make offended noises at that. Eddie drops his head against the back of the sofa and rolls his eyes at them.

“Not in this firehouse,” Hen says, poking at his side to make him squirm away.

Eddie makes an extremely unflattering sound and curls up to get a knee and an elbow between them, holding his mug up and out of the way so he doesn’t spill his coffee, laughing despite himself, “Jesus! You’re worse than my sisters,”

“Alright, alright, leave him alone,” Bobby chuckles, “why don’t you all come help me set up for lunch,”

“Aw, c’mon cap,” Chim grins at Eddie miming a kick towards him as he gets up to help, “it’s been a while since we’ve had fresh meat,”

Bobby sighs. The crew assembles to start pulling down dishes and cutlery.

Eddie is handed a cutting board and a knife, pointed at the head of lettuce that’s already been pulled out, and the lull gives him a minute to compose himself. Before Bobby hums and says:

“We’d love to meet her, by the way,” nonchalant, focused on his own cutting board, pretending like he’s not also bullying Eddie by bringing it back up, “If you get to that stage, you should bring her around,”

Three pairs of eyes land on him at once.

And the thing is, he could just tell them. Give them the vague, nonspecific version he gave Christopher—that she’s just a new friend, someone who needs a little help getting her family off of her case about dating. Nothing to write home about, no strings, no stress.

But there’s something inside of him—that guilty, gnawing piece he’s carried his whole life—that just wants everyone to see him as complete and whole and normal. Whatever the hell that means. He could tell them, sure. But maybe, just maybe, there’s a little aching part of him that craves the approval that this could bring. He’s doing something right.

From the outside, at least.

“Thanks cap,” Eddie hears himself say, looking back down, “I will,”

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tagging @gayeddieagenda & @try-set-me-on-fire

#eddie diaz your problems and issues are so special to me #iinryer wip

[twst-kumi]

Weeping Maiden [ACT I] CHAPTER 9

[ACT I] CHAPTER 9

Ambrose accompanied by Neige and Makoa was waiting for Vil in the Tree room. Neige was thinking about a way to erase his biggest love rival completely. He also needed to find a way to free [Name] from the curse Vil put on her. The headmaster couldn’t help but seethe in silence he had to keep himself from welcoming the NRC student with a punch in his face. How could he do that to someone as gentle as his foster daughter? They were waiting for Vil when Flora flew up to them. 

“_She disappeared! Ambrose, [Name] disappeared. 

_What? 

_When I came back to check on her she wasn’t in her room anymore.”

Without hesitation, the teachers and the young idol ran to the Royal Dawn to see an empty bedroom. Ash patted himself for this great idea. Hiding the girl was the best and the most successful plan. No one but her could make them move without thinking. With their attention on finding her, they can escort Vil to a safe place with her. While he and the mice were taking the young girl to safety, Aurelius and Alexis were in charge of the NRC’s student. 

Vil arrived in the tree room with a somber and worried face. Something happened to [Name] and he was the main suspect. She was okay when he escorted her to the school. She was doing alright. The young actor was waiting in the empty room when he heard a small noise on the side. Passing through a narrow passage, Aurelius and Alexis coughed a little before waving at the actor. Vil couldn’t help but look horrified at the sight of their dirty uniform and… rats?? Aurelius was holding a dirty-looking rat, the biggest and dirtiest rat ever seen. 

“_This way, Vil-senpai! I’m sorry but we don’t have much time before they come back. 

_What?? Who are you?”

Both freshmen pushed the reluctant young man toward the hidden passage. They tried to shove him inside while Vil was struggling to defend himself. Alexis was starting to lose patience with the actor and Aurelius trying to convince him to follow them in the hidden passage. Putting himself between both students, he gave the NRC student a fake polite smile before grabbing his arm. 

“_I’m sorry Vil-SENPAI!

_Wha-!

_Eat me, drink me.”

Vil didn’t have time to react as his size diminished and became small, he could fit in the palm. Alexis grabbed him and shoved him in his breast pocket before crawling back inside the passage. Vil couldn’t believe it, he was accused of harming a friend and now he was kidnapped by two students. Aurelius, feeling confused, decided to explain to him what was happening on the campus right now. 

“_I’m sorry if we had upset you but we are kind of in a hurry.

_Who are you two anyway?

_I’m Aurelius and my friend is Alexis, we are both classmates and friends with [Name].”

Vil perked up as he heard them mention the girl. 

“_Look I don’t know how it happens but I’m innocent.

_ We know, We came here to help you because [Name] asked us to.”

Gromeled Alexis as they followed the rat. They turned a corner and crawled deeper into the passage. Both were relieved to have the rat to guide them. It would have been hard for them to find their way in this labyrinth. 

“_Is she alright? What happened? 

_Can’t say she is doing well or bad. She is in a deep sleep

_Sleeping curse? 

_It’s not a curse but a potion. Neige is the culprit.”

Vil was stunned. Out of everyone, Neige is the last person he believed would do that. The other two also seemed as incredulous as him. Neige has always been a gentle and kind person. The actor wondered when and where the young Idol deviated and fell into darkness. 

Aurelius and Alexis crawled out of the tunnel and into a room before coughing. Their once clean and white clothes looked gray and light brown because of the dust and dirt in the passage. Ash chuckled when he saw them crawl out. Both students now knew why he was always dirty for school. The upperclassmen gave the rat a biscuit before turning his attention to them. 

“_Welcome back, where is Vil Schoenheit ?

_Here.”

Alexis pulled the Lilliputian-sized man and put him down. Vil grew back to his original size before dusting his shoulder. The actor greeted the young man before looking at [Name] on the bed. He walked up to her and started to examine her. Thankfully it was a low-grade potion. Although it was mixed with a powerful potion. Thank god, both potions worked independently. It was more likely the powerful one was given first. Right now, the most important thing to get rid of, is the sleeping potion. 

“_I will create an antidote, so could you gather the ingredients for me? Also, I will need a caldron so where is the alchemy room?

_ Don't worry about that!”

Ash took out something from under the bed. 

“_ Tadah! Your mini caldron!

_ It's a cooking pot.

_ You can brew things and you regulate the temperature by boiling it.” 

Vil was rendered speechless by the three smug RSA students. He really couldn't retort to that, and he was regarded as a criminal in RSA right now. So he couldn't just go to the alchemy classroom. As if the incidents happening around NRC weren't enough. Thankfully most of the students in Pomefiore weren't harmed but a lot of Magicshift players were hurt. 

“_ What about the ingredients?

_ Don't worry, we have the best helpers for it.” 

Ash said while designating some mice and little birds. He laughed when he saw Vil’s disgusted and unconvinced face. 

“_ Don't underestimate them, they are smarter than you think. Like the mice and birds who sew a young lady dress for a ball.

_ Alright, I will have to trust you that.”

Vil gave them the ingredient list and watched in shock as the mice held it and squeaked orders to the other small animals. They all scurried everywhere and disappeared in the mice hole and by the window. It didn’t take long for them to come back with the ingredients. Vil brewed the potion as Ash held [Name] up to help her drink more easily. The group stared with batted breath as the girl’s eyes fluttered open. 

“_ Taste like camomille…

_ [Name]!

_ Princess!”

[Name] laughed tiredly as she looked up at them. They all looked disheveled and dirty, it made her laugh. 

“_Did you guys roll in dirt or something? You all look like a mess.”

She groaned as both Aurelius and Alexis hugged her. Now that the tension was released, the two couldn’t stop the tears from spilling. It was at that moment, that a knock came to disrupt them. 

“_Ash? I know Vil is here. Could you open the door?”

Ash looked startled for a moment as they looked at the shadow under the door. They could tell who was there. Ash looked at the young girl who nobbed with a soft smile. Ash opened the door to a disappointed Neige and mad headmaster. Flora flew past him the moment she saw [Name] awake. She could tell how distressing the situation was to the old fairy. 

“_Oh, my princess! Are you alright?

_ I’m okay, but I think Neig has some explaining to do.”

At her word, everyone looked at the young boy. Neige shuddered as he staggered, his smile quivered under the girl’s cold stare.

“_ What-!

_ It’s the end, Neige. You have gone too far. So let me be clear, I never once loved you more than a friend.

_No way, you…

_This fact would never change, spell or not.”

Neige shook as he could feel everyone’s stare at him. It was overbearing. He couldn’t breathe as he felt everything around him falling apart. It wasn’t supposed to end like this, he had never once failed until now. Suddenly, it was like everything around him was black and murky. 

“_NEIGE!!”

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[1dyllic-study]

"Consistency is more important than perfection"

I realized that one of the big reasons why I procrastinate is because of my perfectionism.

One day, I was writing notes for a chapter which was just for my reference and the ink in my pen was over. It was a black ball point pen. I had multiple other black gel pens and ink pens but I needed the black ball point pen cause my notes had to be perfect and had to have the same ink. I closed my book and started scrolling through tumblr cause I needed to go to the shop to buy it and I was too lazy to do it. Before this, I was working on this everyday but it just stopped that day cause I was aiming for perfectionism.

Another example where I was procrastinating was also because of perfectionism. For me, starting at 4:19 pm or 5:8 am gives me anxiety was because it wasn't a 'good timing'. For me, the good timing was 4:30 pm or 5:00 am. If I cross the 5:00 am mark, I go for 5:15 am. I used to get distracted and when I get ready to study, it showing 4:31 pm and I'll be like, let's wait for 14 mins and I'll be scrolling through Youtube and I'll miss the 4:45 pm mark as well. I still get anxiety when I start at 4:19 or something like that.

The reasons why I talked about these was because perfectionism is the bane of productivity. In youtube, we see these 'Study with me' vlogs where they make so good aesthetic notes with colorful headings, and neat drawings. Seeing them, we get the urge to make them aesthetic as well but at the end, we see that it took us 4 hours to complete the notes on one page. That page may be pleasing to look at but our productivity? In shambles.

Sometimes, for some people, perfectionism is something they can't avoid. I am not talking for everyone but I get anxiety when something isn't perfect. There is a small mistake in the notes? Tear it and write it again. Handwriting is not good? Rewrite.

This has affected my consistency and productivity a lot.

I used to be consistent but perfectionism has shredded that into pieces.

I ain't saying this will work for everyone but these are the tips I would give to past me:

You should start working on yourself. Do not check the time. If you use any device, try not to see it. You won't be distracted on how time is passing or will not get anxiety on how it ain't the correct time to start working.

Try to gently stop being perfect everywhere. If there is a small mistake in the notes, try and ignore it. Do not go for big leaps. If you don't like the aesthetic, rewrite it again. It's fine. But if you make small mistakes try to ignore it. Start small and then go onto big stuff. If you get impatient, you may cause anxiety and that will give a huge stop to your work productivity.

Speaking of small steps, if your consistency is gone, take small steps again. Another big reason for procrastination is because you are distracted or can't sit properly in one place. On the first day, study for 10 mins, take a break and move around, study for another 10 mins and so on. As the days progresses, you can increase the study time.

That is all for today. Everyone can do this.

You are loved. Take care <3 Cheering for y'all

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[kurosstuff]

So I was thinking lute x fem reader demon and angel BUT it's an actor au. So lute obviously hates demons but outside of shooting the show she's so in love with the reader, I only got that far but I thought it was a good idea and you're an amazing writer

Thank you dearie♡♡ IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME♡♡♡

Honestly- this? Is an amazing idea I love the whole Actor Aus

ALSO- when you said reader is demon and angel(unless I COMPLETELY read that wrong-??( I made them a fallen angel. Short I wrote this half asleep ima pass out now

Warning(s): fighting, au- so Lute acts not like her self? Idk SLIGHT sexual talk(leads to mire but it cuts off(

Lute x f!fallen angel! Reader: actor au

Lute snarled, glaring down at you. Her weapon drawn "a vile pathetic demon. On their knees begging me an angel for forgiveness? To surive an exectuoner?" Snarling, watching your gold blood pool around you. The gashes on your body-

"fuck you" you spat spitting your blood and spit at her making her sneer kicking you roughly ensuring you felt every hit fully- not holding anything back

"Some angel you turned out to be Y/N no wonder you fell. Can't even hold your tongue, can you?" snarling out, stepping closer, stabbing the spear in your food, smirking at the sick crunch it made. The scream you let out humming "Shall I stitch your mouth shut? Cut your tongue out?" her mask mimicking her mocking smirk at her prey- your sobbing self. "Let's see if you'll survive this time, no?" ripping the spear out about to strike before.

A whistle went off- making you sigh, "and scene! Take a break, everyone!" The director spoke out as the cameras shifted to a halt- stretching the pain in your side aching

"Oh god im- I'm so sorry" quickly realizing what was happening once you finally refocused, you smiled softly at your girlfriend- similar to her onscreen persona yet-

So different

"Lute~, my love~" you interrupted her with a soft hum standing up, holding her hands gently "its ok-! Look at me? I'm ok - yeah - sure you did actually hit me, but made the scene even more believable~" you hummed gently cupping her face kissing her snickering at the gag you heard beside you

"Their sucking faces again, boss!" Adam sneered teasingly, taking the plastic knife out of his back "Hey wha- NIFTY- you already stabbed me! Why keep putting it on!" He groaned, smirking chasing after the short woman who? Sped off laughing loudly about.. something you weren't to sure what she mumbled just like her show persona- only difference is she has two eyes.

As If she truly was made for the role.

"Dear but I hurt you!" Your attention grabbed from the woman in your arms you hummed letting her drag you to your shared dressing room as she rambled apologies upon apologies as she did everyrime your characters saw each other on stage

"Lute"

"God i- I'm a horrible girlfriend! Look! Your bruising!"

"Lute~?' You cut off her ramblings, pulling her onto your lap- such a surpise a cold woman in the show was just as cold bur a total softy with you- made you feel more special. "I'm ok. Remember~ baby~? It's acting. If I hit you would you be mad~?"

"No" she grumbled, flushed holding you close to her with a sigh "I'd forgive you. Time and time again no matter what.' She confessed with a deep sigh kissing you gently covering your face in kisses apologizing physically "Tell you what~? I'll give cuddles and kisses as an apology ~ for hurting you?"

And not even a second goes by before you gasp looking at her. "Oh! God, that hurts my leg! I need kisses, state doctor!" Making her laugh easily carying you to the bed for just that kissing you all over yet again smirking happily laying beside you

"Did you know were shipped- like uh- our characters in the show?" She hummed, wrapping an arm around your waist, nuzzling up to you happily "pretty interesting huh~ says theres.. so much sexual tension~"

"There is" you spoke bluntly smirking at her confused face "there was a scene. Of us arguing and you pinned me to the wall. You kept glancing at my lips a very heated look on your face, but the director kept it in~" snickering at hee flushed face humming "but same here~ god did I wanna kiss you so bad- that adorable scowl you do-"

Scoffing, she playfully glared up at you before she smirked straddling your waist "suppose you want more kisses then~? Tempted to kiss you here and now~ keep you in my arms in our dressing room bed~' cooing softly you held her waist

"Oh~? Then do something about it~"

-

"Lute. You just HAD to mark me up?" You whined following your lover close as she smirked smug proudly showing off her own markings you left "Lute! Nows not the time ti be showing off! You got us temporarily banned from being in our dressing rooms alone!"

Shrugging, she hummed, glancing over at you "Then I get you at home~ easy. It was more then worth it I dear~ now come on~ I wanna go home and..cuddle some more ~" snickering at the flustered look on your face.

You can only imagine the lecture you'll both get for leaving so soon. Bur you'll handle that later.

#hazbin hotel x reader #hazbin hotel #hazbin lute #lute x reader #hazbin hotel lute

[gallavichsreddie1128]

Which one? (Hannibal/Will)

Description: Both of them like Y/N and when she finds out she was to choose

Word Count: 714

Request:

Hi could you please write a fanfic, where both Hannibal and Will are -obsessively- interested in the reader, who is completely oblivious. After she finally realizes their interest, she needs to choose one of them (preferably Hannibal) and it ends in smut?

Author’s note: I completely forgot to add the smut I’m so sorry but I hope you like it! Also feel free to send in request. I’m currently on a Challengers kick but I’ll take anything!

Hannibal and Will have lots in common even if they don’t want to admit it. Hannibal though does but Will would rather die than admit to anyone that he is like the physiatrist. They share something that one could kill the other for: feelings for Y/N. They both knew it and hated the fact that they both liked her. She was oblivious to it which made it better for them but also annoying.

They both wondered if she had feelings for one of them. She never showed signs of it but that didn’t mean she didn’t have feelings for one of them. It was rather annoying to everyone around the three watching it all go down. Will would glare at Hannibal anytime he talked to Y/N and Hannibal planned to eat Will anytime he talked to Y/N. Y/N just thought the two guys were just being nice. “Will, Y/N probably wants an older man that can show her the best time.” Hannibal told him as they walked away from her. “I am an older man to her, Hannibal. You would be an elder to her.” Hannibal snorted at his comment.

Y/N was almost 30 so both men were older than her. Y/N wasn’t ever picky with the ages of her partners, as long as they were around her age or older. The day that Y/N realized that they both liked her was when she overheard their conversation. “Y/N would choose me. I’m smart, good looking and I have an accent.” Hannibal told Will. “She would choose me. We have more in common and I make her laugh harder.” Both had great points but Y/N was too shocked to even think about it. Both of them liked her? She had to get away before they saw her listening to them. 

The next day was like any other except that she was well aware of what they were doing. Fighting for her love, attention. They both were good looking men. How could she choose? “Guys we need to talk.” She tells them, her voice had a hint of sadness in it. They looked at her waiting for her to continue. “I know that you both like me.” She states at looks at the two of them. Hannibal hides his shock but Will’s eyes widened. “Oh my how did you know?” He asked. “I overheard you guys talking about it.” Hannibal looked down as did Will. She had to choose one of them. “Who are you choosing and why is it me?” Will gave Hannibal a weird look. “You don’t know that.” He said. Y/N looked between them….

Will’s Version 

“Hanni you’re very nice but I like Will.” She said to the older man. Will wanted to celebrate and laugh in Hannibal’s face but he was too mature for that. Hannibal nodded and gave her a small smile. He was embarrassed that Will was right and sad. “But we can still be friends.” She told him. “I’d like that.” He said and walked away. Will walked up to her and cupped her face, “Thank you.” He said before leaning in and kissing her. 

Hanni’s version 

“Well because I like you Hannibal.” She answered his egotistical question. Will looked shocked. Hannibal smiled and turned to Will. “And see I was right.” “Hanni, don’t be mean I can always change my mind.” She told him. He nodded and turned to her. She looked at Will, “You’re a nice guy Will you will meet someone.” He smiled at her words. “Thank you Y/N.” He said and walked away. Hannibal held out his hand for Y/N to take. She took it and they began walking. “Don’t be mean to him.” Y/N said. “I won’t.” He lied, knowing that he would. 

Both 

“No, I can't choose.” They looked at each other and then back at Y/N. “What do you mean?” “I like you both.” She said. Neither of them saw that coming which changed everything. “So you want us both?” Will asked. Y/N nodded, feeling ashamed. Hannibal noticed the guilty look she had. “Hey, don't be ashamed. I’m sure we can work something out.” He said and looked at Will. Will smiled and nodded. That something happened to be both guys kissing her neck on her bed as she sighed in pleasure.

#hannibal #mads mikkelsen #hannibal lecter #hannibal nbc #hugh dancy #will graham #hannibal imagine #will graham x reader #will graham imagine #hannibal x will #hannibal lecter imagine #hannibal lecter x reader

[songofwizardry]

it is october of 2023 and i am watching gravity falls for the first time. living my best life tbh

#this is entirely caused by the fact that i wanted spooky octobery content #and it's too warm for me to start my ogtw rewatch #and i am vv extremely tired and as much as i would love to watch. yknow. all twenty of the shows i need to watch including good omens s2 #and ofmd s2 #and mentopolis #a 22 minute episode length is beating all those outta the park #it's so good #i can completely see why everyone loves it but also #it aired at *just* the right time for me to miss it completely? #like i was just too old for it and my brothers were just too young #and i wasn't yet old enough to go 'hmm i should watch this kids animated show that i will love' i was busy watching bbc sherlock ok #anyway #i would've related way too hard to dipper if i'd watched this at like 10 or 11 #send me your thoughts and prayers tomorrow i gotta run an oxbridge test prep session #and yes i am watching gravity falls half awake instead of preparing for that #bc i love myself too much to do oxbridge physics questions at 8pm and i have no regrets #i ramble in the tags

[puppyeared]

who up seeing their disorder in a fictional character but feel like its not their place to put a name on it

#id have to be waterboarded before i can talk abt how i see a lot of my adhd and personality in mitsumi iwakura let alone post it #idk how to talk abt this without feeling like im talking over or invalidating ppls experiences relating with a character #someone was talking abt how ppl tie laios' autism to special interest and social difficulties but not much else which kinda flattens it #and then went into a respectful in depth analysis of other autistic behaviour that laios exhibits and it wasnt phrased meanly #its fascinating and important to me to hear someone explain a little bit abt traits that they recognized and often go overlooked #because it does help me learn more about it. but i think thats also where hesitancy kicks in when it comes to depicting it accurately #like i have adhd and some of my adhd symptoms overlap with autism (time blindness and pattern seeking behaviour) but that only means #it feels familiar to me even without having autism. on top of that traits arent always cleanly determined as being /caused/ by #a disorder. to understand my environment i compare it to something unrelated but similar to make it more familiar and for the longest time #i thought that was a personality thing and not an information processing thing since i loved playing pretend in my head as a kid #so if you make a character who experiences that hoping to reach people that also experience that and tell them its not weird or #smth youre making up like. thats the goal. ppl who dont get it arent expected to it just means it doesnt cater to them but it helps them #become familiar to it yk? since i dont have autism myself i dont feel confident i can depict it properly or explain it in my own words #but that doesnt mean im trying to dismiss it or try and cut it out completely.. ill just leave the floor open to someone who /can/ #a lot of issues around fanon depictions are when smth is baselessly popularized or a characters personality and behavior is flattened #especially to fit them into a trending meme. its harmless and its supposed to be for fun but it gets tricky when you drag things that #need to be carefully explained beforehand or else it gets lost in translation. like that tweet abt 'hyperfixating' on cooking pasta #once it becomes popular language usually the original meaning is left out for the sake of simplifying it for everyone that when it #circles back theres a sort of hesitancy like. am i using it the way it was intended or am i unknowingly using the popularized version of it #actually thats probably why i felt wrongfooted during diagnosis bc it felt like i was misusing the words i heard to describe what i felt #i /know/ i see a lot of myself in mitsumi because our minds are always somewhere else and we tend to put good faith first and for me #that personal connection is enough. but idk it feels like its always gonna have to be 'palatable' first before i can talk abt it openly #mad respect to writers and creators who stick to their story even if theres the looming fear of ppl misinterpreting it and letting them #have it.. its been almost 2 weeks and i am so close to deleting that m3 dunmeshi drawing bc ppl keep saying chilchuck wouldnt have 200 HP #IT LITERALLY SAYS I MADE IT WHILE WATCHING EP 1. I USED EARTHBOUND LOGIC AND I WASNT EVEN TAKING IT SERIOUSLY CHILL #yapping

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

If there is at least one thing I can credit FE for doing better than Tales in localization, it's not trying to actively go out of their way for an entire game to avoid subtext or direct text between two men that is romantic or implied romantic. Funny when it's so present that the attempt doesn't even work; infuriating that it was attempted to begin with.

So as much as I often have issues with some of FE's localizations, at least they have a leg up on loc Tales for that.

#DCB Comments #imagine changing entire sentences and vocal tones just to try to avoid it #if anything I'd say at least in FE the locs just... keep what's there like #they could've toned Soren and Houses Yuri down and they didn't. they just kept their lines or in some cases #especially with Houses Yuri I'd say leaned into them #have to specify bc Houses Yuri got to keep his bi agenda. Vesperia Yuri had the unfortunate issue of #the loc not wanting to keep his gay and trying reeeeally hard to avoid it #including altering entire sentences to avoid any woe is them misunderstandings about men having feelings for each other #meanwhile Houses Yuri is free to call men cute and lo and behold everyone loved that for him #they removed and altered a LOT of Vesperia Yuri's personality traits #(including any ability to express real sadness or fear bc woe is them if he's not a cool edgy man) #but they also really changed his tone toward Flynn PLUS some of what they say to each other #and twisted it to make it sound like Yuri was either angry or wasn't actually emotional abt him #forget the way they brought Grant George in for the DE release and made him sound just completely DEAD with zero personality #like. I can tolerate playing Houses dubbed despite my gripes with it (story based stuff) #it didn't feel like they were trying to alter LBGT+ aspects and they even for some rly leaned into it #basically if you haven't played Vesperia Yuri is... really gay coded. the loc pretended not to notice #in fact he's queer + gay coded bc and doesn't fit male gender norms and the gacha games LOVE that with his hair/outfits #Rays mind you is JP only bc it was shut down very quickly in the west and Vesp Yuri's story in Rays is uh #basically it centers around Flynn he loses his shit to protect Flynn and they do the usual like #don't-admit-it's-gay-outright in fictional media by using the ''Yuri's important person'' shtick #but he activates a special power in the middle of utterly raging to get Flynn back from their enemies #funny thing? that game never made it to that arc. I was told in about five months the western ver would've gotten that #but in some way I'm glad it didn't bc who knows how they would've tried to spin that #It's BAFFLING to me how you can get characters in Tales like JAY but the locs shake in their boots at the idea of queer gays #but given how allergic fictional media is to admitting a male character is gay -gestures to Ike and Vesp Yuri- #I'm not surprised I'm just actually angry that the locs try to censor homosexual relationships as much as possible even when they barely ca #if anyone does know Vesp Yuri and is confused on why I'm calling him gay coded despite what the dub did with Judith feel free to ask #bc I do ship them a little bit myself! but I just recognize that canon wise I really can't see him as anything but gay-demiromantic #but again at least FE locs don't shake in their boots anymore abt same sex pairs including men (side eyes Lucius/Raven)

[doodlebloo]

Do you guys ever think about how (as far as we know) c!Tubbo arguably made the right choice by deciding to never open up to c!Ranboo... Because c!Ranboo (when Enderwalking) retains all his memories and works alongside c!Dream anyway. So although c!Tubbo doesn't know it, his paranoia is actually keeping him safe, because the less info c!Ranboo knows the less he has the ability to tell c!Dream... Not that c!Ranboo necessarily would, but it sucks that like... c!Tubbo probably beats himself up for not wanting to share anything with his sweet and loyal husband, not even knowing that sharing the wrong stray detail about c!Tommy could have caused something disastrous. Like c!Tubbo was right to be a closed book and that shit hurts to think about!!!

#i need Ranboo to explain cRanboo so bad. #one of the only things i care about anymore. pls just tell me why a version of cRanboo with all his memories WHICH BTW #HIS MEMORIES WOULD INCLUDE THE DISC FINALE. Why that version of cRanboo would willingly help cDream. #Even IF cDream went ''oh i wasnt really gonna kill Tubbo it was staged also its good that New Lmanberg was exploded by me'' #and even IF cRanboo wasnt told why the prison tnt needed to be set off & therefore didnt know hed be hurting cTommy #how could he work with someone who he knows has hurt cTubbo like that. If he genuinely cared. #and i think about that a LOT a lot bc like. We see all these glimpses of cRanboo just... not listening to what cTubbo is saying. #the warning about cWilbur in ho16 is a good example but also just about history and Lmanberg in general... cRanboo sort of gives off the #vibe that he thinks he knows better than cTubbo does. That he thinks he knows what cTubbo needs and what's best for him #but also that he like... idk i just have thought about it a lot and worryingly i think he could become similar to c!Technoblade eventually. #Not in the ''violence is the only universal language'' way but in the way of like ''as soon as someone doesnt agree w my ideals and feels #differently than I do they have lost my respect and protection until they Prove themself and Earn it back'' type deal. not NOW i dont think #cRanboo is like that NOW but... Everyone always says ''cRanboo grow a backbone'' but he DID... While enderwalking. #ew!Ranboo is him with a backbone and apparently the him with a backbone does not care if he hurts his loved ones. #like cRanboo is part of the problem of people brushing aside cTubbo's grief and pain like it doesnt matter. cRanboo helping cDream has the #same energy as cJack trying to kill cTommy. this sort of ''he'll get over it'' mentality about cTubbo that assumes that just because he HAS #in the past been able to ''bounce back'' from indescribable loss that means things dont bother him or he can do it easily #so like. i do believe cRanboo isnt unsalvageable. i think the parts of him WE see are very much just misguided and not intentionally #hurtful. but sometimes i think abt Ranboo saying he was gonna make it so no one could be an apologist for cRanboo and I think like #what Memory does ew!Ranboo regaun that suddenly makes it fine for him to hurt his loved ones? for ''Dream Is The Reason'' to completely #disappear for him? is cDream offering him something he cant refuse or god forbid does ew!Ranboo just AGREE with him? #that to me is like. Once i know that i can be at peace. thats like one of the only things I'll be genuinely upset if it isnt explained #bc when i tell you it has been haunting me for like a year. #ok sorry for the rant and sorry boobers if i messed up some lore details lol #doodle.txt

[icewindandboringhorror]

I think the hardest thing in writing for me sometimes is the like “show don’t tell/let people communicate through subtext/Normal People don’t just walk around openly explaining their motivations for everything That’s Unnatural” thing because like.. I literally DO walk around openly explaining my motivations for everything, that is how I talk, I am an analytical detail oriented over-communicator who explains everything as thoroughly as possible and and will give a fully detailed 2 minute long answer to something simple like “how are you doing today?” .. like it’s hard to make things sound Natural and Normal when you yourself are inherently unnatural and abnormal in your methods of communication to an extent lol

#''hey. whats up? you look kind of sad.. is something wrong?'' normal answer (apparently how people are supposed to talk): *looks away #remosefully and stares into the distance* ''n-no.. I'm fine. don't worry about it.'' abnormal answer (how I would respond): ''Yeah I #'m mostly fine. I was just thinking about what the future is going to be like 30 years from now and if I'll ever actually accomplish anythin #g that I want to. which makes me feel X way for XYZ reason. you see because I had a dream last night that made me think of *continues to exp #lain my exact emotional state and inner thought process completely matter of factly in exact detail for 5 more minutes* #tfw you would be a badly written character if you existed in a story lol #This is also why I struggle making conflict because most conflicts can be resolved through conversation and I personally love to have long #detailed conversations about everything. Like literally I don't have hardly any conflicts interpersonally because if something happens it's #immediately followed up with like ''hey sorry if my tone of voice sounded a bit pointed or harsh. when you were talking to me I was trying #to balance all the stuff I was taking up the stairs and also my leg hurts so I think all my mental energy was being used there and I just #didn't feel like talking. I should have just said 'wait a minute and we can discuss it inside' instead of trying to end the conversation qui #ckly in a short rude way.' ''oh yeah thats fine. I thought it was something like that. sorry for hounding you about the topic as well. i #havent eaten in a while so I think I'm just a bit prickly at the moment. we should both rest for a while and destress from the store #trip and then talk about it later. maybe after lunch?' 'sure. sounds good.' like LITERALLY. lol #it is so hard for me to write characters who are bad communicators or don't understand their own internal states or arent constantly #analyzing their own actions to understand what they do/don't feel and why and what the cause of it is and etc. etc. etc. #I just naturally want everyone to perfectly undertsand everything and communicate amazingly and have complete self awareness and #logical presence of mind gjhbj.. which like.. of course comes across as unnatyural and also those type of people rarely ever get involved in #conflict and conflict is APPARENTLY what drives stories (even though I don't like most conflicts and just want to resolve them lol) so ...aa #I mean you can get around this to some degree by the fact that (at least in my opinion) no rule for dialogue is 100%. dialogue is good if it #sounds naturally like it comes from the character who said it. It can be meandering and pointless and rambly IF that matches the character. #it can be dry and overly self aware IF your character is that way and it suits them. So like throwing in a few detached scholar types or lik #e '5000 year old cave dwelling hermit' type people is good for me and works BUT the thing is an ENTIRE cast of characters can't be that way. #at some point - even in a setting where everyone is reserved and academic (like a research camp in the wilderness full of scholars and stuff #) still SOMEBODY has to be the one who's conflict prone and doesn't pristinely understand all of their emotions and etc. etc. Because statis #tically that is still literally the majority. Kind of like my tendency to make everyone 100% aromantic and asexul when it's like.. YES.. may #be 2 or 3 or even 4 out of 10 of them could be that way. but like.. an entire group? a diverse group of 10 people from all walks of life and #EVERY single one is like that??? hgjh . you have to add realistic variety #As much as I'm pro 'have more stories where sex or romance are literally NOT involved at all in any capacity since it's already oversaturate #d in media' I'm also dedicated to realism. alas. (at least as realistic as you can get in a fantasy setting lol)

[highkey-lowkey-as-hell]

thinking about the fact that eris and jenny look exactly alike

#like obviously they’re sisters and all #but everyone comments on their resemblance constantly throughout the books #and i just. i can’t explain it #but the fact that they look exactly alike feels so important #because they’re so different but so similar #they’re both afraid to love and show loyalty but then when they do they love so fiercely and completely #they would do anything to protect the people they love #like. the scene where jenny threatens the doctor to get medicine for eris? #but then they’re so different too #like. jenny recognizes that eris is upset when she thinks she may have killed sona #but she also can see why it might be better if sona is in fact dead #i don’t feel very coherent right now but just #the way jenny and eris look exactly alike vs their characterization of being the same but so different

[stinkbeck]

dude i'm gonna throw up. i cannot write a critical analysis of this writer without hating on him. i do not wanna make my prof feel bad either though. :/

#like ok he's supposedly a satirist but is it satire or just equally flattening everyone into stereotypes... am i an idiot?? #he's like a satirist but his main thing is that the system works. :/ so uhhhh what r u doing... #like r u just writing to fill bookshelves at the store?? just so people can pass the time reading??? i'm confused. #+ like i feel like i get the moves he uses. it's very haunting it's just that it's also... archaic... #am i missing the point of this guy completely??? #plus i think i'm haunted by his stories bc i'm like 'this is how he thinks the world works?!' but maybe i'm missing it. #maybe the point is that the narrator is a terrible person + all these people r just living their lives + the narrator gets their motives #totally wrong. i guess that could be the point of it...? or that the shallowest person in the story is the narrator for everything??? #making false assumptions about everyone else???? based on sort of typical story structures???????? #well i guess it's more interesting than taking it at face value. but i don't know how i could back any of that up other than being like #'this author is so well-regarded that he must be doing something smart like this.' #maybe i really am stupid. he's gotta be doing that. but then why do book reviews say there's love involved? you'd have to take it seriously #2 take away the idea of love..??? #but it's just not a very satisfying love?? like the parts where the characters think they're doing things out of love are the most #transparently self-serving. like especially if you're seeing it as satire. i don't understand this at all.