#i am on 40 hrs no sleep

[blacklegsanjiii]

Hear me out... Boa hancock and transgirl sanji, rescued lil sister

Maybe hancock picked her up directly up from germas dungeon or maybe judge wqs a tad bit worse and after several months in the dungeon he sold sanji to the celestial dragons and is then rescued by hancock who sees her and is like 'yeahh no fuck this, lil kid is my sibling now

(sanji doesnt know she's a girl at that point) (also if lusan happend in this AU that would be so fucking funny thinking about it 😭😭)

Boa finding a kid in germas dungeon and just being like "Mine" and finding out Sanji's a boy back on Amazon Lily. Sanji looking at the women and girls and saying he wants to be pretty and oh. Ooohhhh. Boa still found a little girl she's just not herself yet. So Sanji is given dresses and skirts and blouses and told to try them on.

Like everyone is looking at this kid the Queen brought home and is fucking frightened when they find out she's the queen?? They ask her where she got them and she's like "The Germa Dungeon when I was visiting for delegation. This is Sanji. They're my baby now."

Sanji is just...there. Sanji goes through the motions of being royalty and it's never quite clarified if Sanji is a baby sibling or an adopted child but is baby. They are baby. That's the only consensus everyone comes to. Baby. They are well taken care of and as royalty, again, properly this time Sanji actually enjoys it. They enjoy going to events and being coddled and admired.

And being on Amazon Lily means Germa really won't come after them. Plus Boa is really nice and has clothes made for them just kind of at a whim because Sanji loves skirts and dresses but they fight with their feet so some sort of legging or very opaque tights would be nice.

Eventually Sanji comes out fully and is somehow swept up in the Strawhat madness as their cook and thanks Iva she's living her best life. Truly. She and Luffy probably start dating early on but it's not like anyone really talks about it. It's just how it is. And then when Luffy shows up on Amazon Lily and Marineford happens, Luffy doesn't even know Sanji is baby to Boa. Nor does he care to mention her because Ace and Boa is so infatuated she doesn't ask about Sanji.

After Marineford and when the crew reunites Boa is sad to see Luffy go but then remembers Sanji is on his crew so while at Sabaody when she's there to help send them off after her and Luffy finish up whatever see Sanji off officially this time.

Then Boa watches Luffy tackle Sanji and kiss her and Sanji laughing and holding him and kiss back. Boa is fuming and demands to know what's going on and Luffy is just "Oh, Sanji and I have been dating since Drum Island."

"Oh gods you're obsessed with Luffy, after no man was supposed to sway you!" Sanji starts cackling and pointing at Boa.

"I can't believe this, wow, the baby wounds me so." Boa growls.

"Baby as in baby sister or child?" Usopp asks. There is no answer given. Sanji is just baby.

#hancock!sanji #boa hancock #monkey d. luffy #sanlu #lusan #i am on 40 hrs no sleep #answers

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

I wanna personally apologize to the many many many people who have asked me things recently that I have not answered.... I have... so many exams.... and everything hurts....

Brain has an out of service sign on it at the moment. Please return in 8-9 business days.

#fumking dying atm jfc #gaAHGGH #whoever invented back to back exams should be burned alive i think #you put your 100% into one exam and are sleep deprived and dying #and then you wake up the next morning feeling like death with like... an academic hangover worse than any hangover youve ever had before #and then... you have to go write... another exam... #worth like 40% of your grade #yeah yeah yeah yeah chiiiiiill. that is definitely a great way of showing that i know thr material. #take what I can write in 4 hrs in a high pressure situation while im two seconds away from death #thats totally gonna represent my understanding of the content #motherfuckers of court: i have SIX exams #back to back to back #literally no breaks #AND TWO ASSIGNMENTS DUE AT THE SAME TIME #WHO THE FUCK DECIDED THAT #anyway im fucking dead rip 🙏👍👌✌️🤘 #on that note i WILL be unhinged for the next week because im running on like 2 hrs of sleep every night and way too much fucking redbull #and im stressed tf out #so maybe block me for a week or two #im serious i am already insane and ive done 10% of it. for your own sanity leave. im either not gonna exist for two weeks #or everyone is going to be ridiculously aware of my lack of sanity

[fentyalbum]

I seriously don’t have time to have a job……

#like how am I supposed to work 40 hrs a week and practice ballet and learn piano and write and do exercise to stay skinny and adopt a- #-side hustle and unlearn trauma and still get 8 hrs of sleep every night. something must give

[kingtankgirl]

nothing quite like working in a grocery store during holiday times with a persistent cold for the past week to make ur suicidal ideation relapse as fuck

#like im fine but my god i am so sore all over and i cant catch my breath and im still working 40 hrs a week n lifting 40lb boxes all day #its just hard to be disabled and working a full time job this physical but then im sick on top of it n its like lol ok! #n my fucking symptoms wont improve even tho my housemates r over it cuz i just literally cant give my body enough rest lmaooo #im fine but i do hope i pass peacefully in my sleep tonight. that wld be preferable to coming in to work tmrw. to be clear #god if ur listening--

[almostastranger]

honestly don't know if I even want to mail this bag I'm making for my mom to her because I am so sick and tired of putting in so much extra effort and time and money into people who just can't give the same back.

#it isnt just about my mom either #i dont know how to talk to my partner or if this is going to last #because i am so tired of doing everything in this relationship and even asking for something for xmas is like. too much i guess #knowing they have way more money than me and dont even want to get me something i asked for 30$ while i have no savings and got them #something they begged for for 60$ ... its not about the money either tho like. we dont go on dates we dont have dedicated time #cause they refuse to do anything i want to do because i dont want to just sit at home and play videogames #not to mention i work 40+ hrs a week and still have to do all the chores even though theyre right there #i do all the cooking all the grocery shopping since they wont leave the house #i take care of all yhe animals while they sleep. literally #but how can i say anything. cause any time i say anything they just get upset and start crying and it never changes #same with their job they dont get paid on time and don't do anything but cry and doesn't listen when I say to stop working for their parent #cause they dont like any other job out there and doesnt want to even draw and just giving excuses all the time about literally everything #what do i say im so tired at this point i dont even know how to vring it up

[onepiexe]

cant wsit to text my boss and b like. so i went back. haha. yeah :")

#logbook #she was like 'you dont have to go back go to these other stores' and yet. here i am. going back. . . #i'll just do hrs at the new store if it sucks. i guess. and then next week i'll do like 3 or 4 days MAX lol. #i need to start applying to jobs and thats not happening with all these hrs. glad someone else is able to do it but i cant. #im hoping bc its bf it wont be bad but. maybe its bf it'll be bad?? #anyways im going in at 7. so i got to sleep in an extra 45. #i guess i'll do an 8hr ish. i have the hrs to do that anyways. #ive only done 17 this week 😭 even if i do 2 hrs today and tmrw i'll be fine and under 40. #like im not going against my boss. she DID say to check in with the store and stop by sometimes and i did just. #earlier than she mesnt me to im sure. im hoping if i dont go in til 7 i'll miss some initial bs. #and then over the weekend i'll just do 6hr shifts i think. #my idea is if they piss me off enough i'll just leave. like i tried lol. #i dont know what i'll bring for lunch either. . .hm.

[gardenhotspot]

today w as s long and i sleep butttt

#garden hotspot #gcwtual #i just checked my email to see if oss sent out schedules and yes and next week i ha e max and then the week after i am down to from 40 hrs #to 20 hrs. . .literally halved. augh wth. #its gonna suck so bad 😭 #gcf just said that i do a lot of stuff. yeah buddy i do and now you'll have to do it for me :) #im going to sleep i stayed up long enough to help parent bring in food from grocery but i abt fell aaleep wairing #today was wild and weird and i wanna document it when im more awake

[oatbugs]

:D im lich rally fine

#i started a 3 hr exam at like . 2 AM . so i just finished it #i made a bowl of coffee w a paper straw in it to get me through it . im physically shaking ! also had shitty tesco sushis + strawberries #during exam . i need to wake up in around . half an hour - 40 mins to get ready AKA im basically not gonna sleep . need to get on a bus and #go to the london embassy and deal w all the passport stuff . i have so much and yet so little energy ! ahahahhhhhhhhhhhhhh WHAT THE FUCK #WAS THAT EXAM . it was still sm better than the neuroscience one tho bc we all got screwed over on that xx #what the fuck do i take to an embassy #anyway need to take bowls to kitchen take trash out take off and reapply makeup pack up call taxi leave not have a fucking panic attack #everything costs money always :) watched my friends make brownies today . full of love tbh #3 more exams to go :) hmm.. maybe i should listen to music . i have to go to a meeting today about living in italy w a bunch of strangers. #next week i have to shake hands w a bunch of fancy AI execs in fancy AI festival. i don't have a suit and i am nervous and the festival is #like 3 days and i can only be there for 1 day and a new researcher / friend(?) gave me the ticket for free but it cost £300 why would he #waste it on an undergrad barely out of hello world stage . anyway

[greygreymalkin]

Who even has time to iron anymore…

#how am I supposed to work 40 hrs a week #sleep #excercise #cook healthy meals #and have time to iron clothes #adulthood is a joke

[angryturtledragon]

Someone said they hate crew neck tshirts and preferred v neck. Listen no. We’re talking Goldilocks and the three bears here.

Turtlenecks: a style but too choking

Collared shirts: you’re on fucking thin ice babe but 7/10 for style and 10/10 If someone else is wearing it and their sleeves are rolled up 👀 personally: not bad if no tie because it leaves my throat open and not feeling like there’s a constant chance I could get choked by my own shirt

Shirts with very tight neck holes: why. Fuck you 

Crew necks: also thin ice but only bc every company is slightly different and if it is slightly different I will scream and burn the shirt.

Scoop Necks: overall the most predictable to jump between crew and scoop. But there is such thing as too much scoop, I’m looking at you forever 21

V neck: why are you not wearing a collared shirt over this? Basically in ur underwear if it’s white. Otherwise ? You had other choices and you chose the tight fit v neck that only comes in three colors, 4 neon choices if you want to go for a jog. Women: you’re doing great keep on wearing them, men: you better be shaved as a dolphin, better not see a single hair or hold chain next to that v neck. Everyone else and anyone in between: you keep on keeping on, I bet you’ve taken time to decide who you want to be so I trust you have good judgement :)

I’m not even getting into off the shoulder shirts

#haven’t even touched on the fit of shirts!!! #this is just about neck line!!!!! #neck #line #!!!!!! #important stuff #come back next week for more useless opinions #disclaimer: my opinions are my own and I am extremely particular about what I wear #somewhere in the post I think it changed from my preferences to issues I have with shirts overall even if I happened to find them comfy #there’s fundamentally something wrong with the shirt #why u wearing a v neck huh? #what you pointing at ??? hell??? #buen the witch #I’m so sorry I haven’t slept in over 40 hrs so I’m tired but I’m also queueueuueing this #i hath queued thou #and I’m not proofreading it #I mean that’s pretty normal #but even if I did now I don’t think I’d understand it #or if it read it with enough sleep I don’t think it makes déjese #ok goodnight

[thebibliosphere]

Took me about 5 hr 40 min to read Hunger Pangs (according to Libby). BUT I started it at like 2 AM because I couldn’t sleep and that’s around when the Libby hold came in. 10/10 experience and no regrets

Libby really said, “you can’t sleep? Would you like to sleep even less?”

Thank you! Glad you enjoyed it!

[kanmom51]

JM live 15 June 2023 20:46 or 8:46pm KST

cr./to the creators of the media used in this post.

*Disclaimer: I hate Tumblr and it's stupid ass image limit. My personal feeling about this post is that it's lacking, but I guess c'est la vie, did the best under the circumstances (at least that's what I'll keep telling myself).

Guess what?

We already saw the pattern with JK, but is it possible that JM is joining in on the it? I guess we'll just have to wait and see, won't we?

I won't be talking about every single thing that came up in JM's 1 hr. and 20 min. live. What I will do is touch on a few of the interesting things that happened during the live (well, what I found interesting at least), and what followed the live as well. Because JM didn't just show and dip. He wanted to take up home in his pocket, although he did think that over 7 million at his place might be too much, maybe if it was half of that it would be ok, lol. But we know JM, for reals, he wouldn't do a live at home, so he did the second best thing, which was to come back to us with posts and comments on Weverse.

Anyways, what did we have in the live?

JM talked about the 10 year anniversary a bit. Telling us he's not really that excited, but the biggest emotion he's feeling is fun. I get the not feeling excited. He also explains why. I'm happy that he felt it fun, I can't help but think that it was a bit of a bitter sweet celebration for them. He touched, not touched on it, when he mentioned the two members in the army at the moment.

JM tells us what he's up to lately, his daily schedule, more or less.

He's asked if he's working on a song, and JM like JM answers this:

He later gives us a little more detail: he's been working out and eating healthy and working on some music and living well. Once a week he allows himself to rest.

The question I ask is if JK allows him to rest too? Lol, nah. I guess that's the day they take off to visit Bammie. Ehm... we do have the scratch to prove it...

Jokes aside, JM talks about how it's good for him to have a set schedule and be at work. For him and JK both (that's me talking not JM). And seeing that RM kind of spilled the tea, we can guess that the workouts are probably, at least some of the time, together with JK.

At the 10:40 mark approx. Tae shows up in the comments.

JM, the kind of sassy and a true Slytherin that he is tells Tae, he will if Tae continues to comment for the whole time.

Well, I guess that was the end of it for Tae, lol.

Fuck people for calling him chubby in the comments. I hate this obsession with his weight, but even more so I hate people sitting at home on their asses and calling this 1.73 meter tall man that weighs 62.5 kg after putting on over 4 kg to get there, chubby. Like wtf? Man is skinny. And minus those 4 kgs he was fucking too skinny. Do they want him to starve himself? Do they not remember the issues he had in the past with his weight (issues which always linger even if you are "eating healthy" as he put it)?

Ok, so at around 14:55 min. JM's asked for the first time about the rainy day fight. When watching live, I kind of thought he was evading the question, but him answering the question later on, I tend to believe that maybe he just misunderstood the question at that point.

JM talks about sleep and R.E.M and how when you dream your mind is active and you don't really get deep sleep, and watching a video about it. I find it kind of funny and coincidental - NOT - that JK seems to have said practically the same things using similar wording in his live as well.

But no, they definitely aren't spending time together.

JM tells us he went to sleep at 6 am, woke up at 12 pm, made himself some chicken breast to eat and went back to sleep. Sound familiar anyone?

Sleep patterns. Chicken breast for lunch.

But no, they definitley aren't spending time together.

JM is asked to do the live all night.

He wants to sleep early.

Funny how that didn't work out for him... I guess someone was staying up to be able to speak with that very special person that happened to be in LA and would be waking up just as JM was supposed to go to sleep?

Slept at 12 and woke up at 8, ate at 12 pm, rest and go to workout at 2:30 pm approx., start working at 5 pm, at night he studied English. Ehm...didn't somebody else just let us know, repeatedly, that he's working hard on his English?

From his 5 June live:

Nah, I guess just another coincidence.

What I'm finding interesting is if JM is done with his promotions and it's off to the army any time now, why would he be working on his English?

Oh how I do hope that this is for something in the pipelines that involves the two of them TOGETHER!!!

Well, it is hard to break a sleeping pattern that has been with you for years and years. We all know of JM and JK's late night/early morning escapades. All night buddies that they are.

Rainy day fight, JM's version:

So this time around JM understands the comment asking about the rainy day fight and gives us his version of it.

Of course we got JM's JK smile.

He does tell us he's giving us an edited version of it. JK, on the other hand, edited without telling us, lol. Both said a lot about the what happened before and after, but magically didn't mention exactly what was said at the moment by JK to anger JM so so much for him to react the way he did.

Anyway, we got is the story from JM's pov. And yes, there are some differences, but I wouldn't expect otherwise. 2 people, 2 povs. No 2 stories would ever be exactly the same.

The main discrepancy I found was the timeline. JK's being when they were trainees, and JM's all over the place but still later on (2014-15). Idk, I'm gonna side with JK on this one, lol. Like I mentioned in the post about JK's live, I feel like this fight was way more impactful for JK than it was for JM. And as such it's more etched on his brain than it is for JM.

Something I found interesting was how each of them was keen to take responsibility for the fight. JK blaming himself for how he behaved and what he said, and JM the same.

What I also found interesting and very much not surprising is how this fandom roles. JK taking blame for the fight = "oh poor baby bunny JK, how big of him to take the blame"; JM taking blame fir the fight = "omg, how mean is JM picking on baby bunny JK, being so mean to him, ugh we hate JM."

Did I mention how there are some parts of this fandom that I absolutely despise?

One thing they both corroborated was the state of JK's eyes the morning after, lol.

Both JM and JK were happy giggly while telling the story.

A fight that definitley left it's mark of them both but also something to reminisce back on fondly.

Something else we learnt from JM's live was that he most definitely watched JK's live. He watched JK tell us about the rainy day fight and he also found JK's impersonation of G-Dragon very funny.

When is your next album coming JM?

Listening to army love letter

JM was truly moved by this.

Did JK cook Ramen for you?

JM averting eyes away from camera and moving on at the speed of light to..."oh angel pt. 2 came out today..."

There are 1001 options to why not yet. I'm not going to even start going there, because it's irrelevant and unimportant.

What I do know is JM chose to answer that comment but a. unlike the other comments that had to do with JK which he did answer, this one answer didn't come with a JK or jungkookie attached to it. It was short and he was done with it, and b. the way he looked away from the camera while saying it and repeating it once before just changing the subject was just so sus and felt like overcompensating.

Of course there are those that jumped at it like the dead feeders that they are. This must mean that they haven't seen each other. That JM isn't important to JK, etc. etc.

Funny how JM and JK don't see each other but are eating the same things for lunch, like Chicken breast and rice… or how they aren't seeing each other but JM somehow, magically, adjusted JK's mood lamp at JK's place…telepathy and telekinesis I guess. Oh, and did we discuss the sleeping patterns yet or the fact that they both happened to bring up the science mambo jumbo about sleep and dreams, almost word for word? But nope. They definitley aren't seeing each other and definitley aren't close. Also, for someone that is distanced they sure seem to be keeping up with each others lives. JM must be really bored to be sitting down and watching JK's long ass lives.

Moving on.

JM, being the king of evading answering whatever he doesn't want to answer, reads out comments asking about travel and tattoos, and decides those are topics he does not deem answer worthy, lol.

Do I talk about the goldfish lips? Nah, I don't wanna. Go watch!

Mashimaro

And this is JK way back in 2015 already.

JM assuming the position

So after saying he should do the next live lying down, cheeky thing that he is decided he's taking JK's sleeping live and raising him one, by taking us all home with him in his pocket, lol.

Although he took it all back. Yeah yeah, excuses excuses. So he can't fit 7 million into his place. Boo hoo. 3.5 million he can but 7 he can't. I do not accept such a cop out.

And then he was done, well more or less. Hungry, asking us for recommendations for food, and tired, he says his goodbyes and turns the live off.

But that wasn't the end of it. Nope.

Remember JM said he'd update us when he got home?

Well, he did. He came back to update us time after time after time.

And a comment too

Oh, and the next day as well.

Also interesting how that 5 and 8 found their way time after time into JM's posts and/or comments. 58 that happens to represent JK time after time.

At the end of the day what did we get from the live?

We got the rainy day fight - JM's perspective (muddled up timeline though, but I forgive him, getting old does make you forgetful, lol).

We got JM tell us he has seen JK's live, the one with him telling us his side of the rainy day fight and doing his G-Dragon impersonation, and I think we can assume he saw the sleeping live too.

I can't help but wonder if JM was reprimanded for commenting on JKs previous lives (you know with the shrimp, not really shrimp, comment and let me tie your hair), or perhaps he's just laying there enjoying watching his bf crush on him live.

We had JM call army and their comments cute. Funny, huh? How JK did that too?

Kind of interesting how the two seem to be saying the same things (the cute and the sleep talk), acting the same way, eating the same things.

I was going to add a clip and link here to JK's chicken breast eating tales, him cooking chicken breast with rice, him talking about eating chicken breast for lunch. Him eating healthy now days. Sounds familiar does it? JM talking about eating chicken breast for lunch, about eating chicken breast with rice. About eating healthy lately...

But damn Tumblr won't allow me. So you guys will either have to take my word for it (please don't), or go looking. You will see I am right...

For fun I will just leave you here with this:

Cause why not end this with an ear to ear smile on our faces?

#Jimin #JM #JM live #Jikook #Kookmin #Minkook #Jungkook #JK

[royalwriteroftheuniverse]

Holiday party with Andy

Mostly fluff tiny bit of angst some anxiety Andy Barber slightly older than his girlfriend and fluffyness but 18+ just incase

Comments & reblogs welcome no reposting or publishing

Special thanks to @cevansbrat0007

"Hey sweetheart you don’t have to be nervous look-"

"It’s not that I just I want to make a good impression on them"

"I don’t give a shit what they think from a 2 hr party with an introduction that lasts 3 minutes. I’m not going to break up with you just because someone goes 'I don’t like her.' Because  I love her and that’s all that matters beautiful" he kisses my head. 

He said he loved me he never said that before I wonder if he realizes he just said that 

“Hun you hear me.”

“Yea,"

 "If you don’t want to go you don’t have to go.”

“You kidding let all those women and men around you with alcohol in their systems and their work guard down. Hell no. I gotta steak my claim.”

"You steamed your claim"

"Um not to them. Now either I go or I give you a giant hicky"

"Either, or can't be both?" 

"Andy"

"What? It’s a valid question."

I roll my eyes.  

"Ok pants or dress"I swear I can see his eyes darker. "That’s not why I asked  I meant and that’s not happening."

"Spoilsport"

"You need to stop watching "The Good Fight." 

"Pants I know you feel more comfortable than the dress even though I like it better." 

I get a kiss on my hair. 

"Yea but it's cold"

"He smiles you can wear your velvet one."

He hasn't seen me in the velvet one it barely covers my butt, but then again slightly tispy jealousy Andy is fun to play with, "Hey we're taking a Lyfy tonight, right."

Yea why?

 "Just wondering"

Why plan on getting drunk on eggnog? 

I roll my eyes 

"One time it was one time and didn't it didn't taste like alcohol how was I supposed to know-"

"Mhm This is not a trial Missy." He grabs my hips bringing me close to him. 

"Don't missy me," I pout "I don't like being made fun of."

"I'm sorry babe you know I love you," he says wrapping his arms around my neck giving my temple a soft kiss. That's the second time he said he loved me in an hour. 

"Ok red velvet dress it is. Only cause you asked so nicely. " But if I get sick-" I point at his. 

He throws his hands up in surrender 

"I will take days off and nurse you back to health."

"Good boy" 

"You trained me well."

We get to the restaurant and I am suddenly regretting my choice of outfits and why does everyone here look so old i mean I know late 40s and 50s but they look like… God I can hear the jokes now about me looking young i feel bad about the jokes they might make to Andy about him and me being a good digger there's only a few years That's not fair its not his fault I look young he shouldn't have to-"

"Hey what's got you so worried Princess? Your coat."

"Oh yeah," I shrugg it off. "Are you sure I can uber home I mean they everyone is and I'm and you don't deserve."

"Hey relax no one is going to make a joke  and if anyone teases you you come get me and ill fire them." 

"K." I can't help but smile "But then who wouldn't want to make up an excuse to try to get you to dump me and date them?"

"Well it wouldn't work." He kisses me.

I give him a smile and then another piece of anxiety hits my brain. 

"I dont know any people he works with what if I seam so stupid and they just think I'm clingy and  I-

"Hey no one is going to think you're stupid. And I like having my arms around you as long as you do"

"Wha- did I say that outloud?"

"No you have different faces for different anxieties."

I groan as he wraps his arms around me. 

"I only noticed cause I pay attention sweetie  and- did that- was that dress always that short?"

"Yes I was wondering why you wanted me to wear it."

"You are not picking up anything this whole night."

"Andy if something falls-"

"I'll pick it up"

"Andrew you started this" 

He pulls me in front of him in a tight hug and then leans in and whispers "and I'm going to finish it." I can hear the smirk. All I want to do is crawl onto bed and sleep. 

"Well if it isn't the love birds."

I relax seeing Duffy.

"Hey nice to see a familiar face."

"I was hoping you two were going to make it. That's a short dress. I don't want to be arresting anyone tonight."

"It was Andy's idea."

"I didn't know the dress was that short." He says with an honest tone his voice raising up at the end defending himself. "But as long as no one touches her there won't be a problem." He says very matter of factly.

"I get a bit of a shiver  and move my shoulders forward at that mention

"Sorry sweetheart i didn't mean to-"

"No its my fault Andy I'm sorry. I "

"It's fine, I'm just glad I have Andy here and you if he gets out of line. " I wink. " plus I don't know anyone besides you two. You should come over soon for dinner."

"I'd love to."

"Do you like steak? Andy bought some for some cookout this fall that we never did and we need to use them or their worthless. I meanz God. didn't mean it like that. Sorry."

"No its fine and I absolutely do love steak."

"Next week?"

"What day?"

"Friday? 7?"

Still in his embrace I look up at Andy who nodded.

"Friday sounds great."

We part ways and we go to get a drink. 

"Oo eggnog."

"No." He laughs

"Why what's in there?"

"Vodka probably."

"I like vodka."

"I know but your migraine meds-"

I took them early afternoon so I don't take them tonight so its not an issue. And its just a cup. 1 cup Andy.  I know you mean well sweetie but trust me I got this." 

"Ok I trust you."

He gets me a cup and he holds my hand or my waist as we talk to people and by we I mean him because I am really really nervous and know no one. I end up playing with his hand a lot.

"Be right back sweetheart I have to go to the bathroom" I not as he says it into my ear and then kisses my temple. 

I intended to go straight to the bar to sit but I get intercepted but 

"Hi I'm Niel"

Andy's fried turned arch nemesis. He's ikier looking in person.   I introduce myself with the kindest I hate you smile I can muster. 

"I haven't seen you around  the office.Are you new?" 

This is his best lines ugh. 

"Uh no I'm here with my boyfriend."

"And he left you alone thats not very boyfriendly."

Neither is hitting on someone like this And I'm getting major creep vibes. 

"Well he-" 

Someone knocks into Neil and the drink accidentally spills on me a bit 

"I am soo sorry" a genuinely-genuine reaction forms on his face and  like a kick almost he changes attitudes to appologize 

"It's fine I'm fine " I back away before he can get napkins and I back into Andy. I know thst body anywhere.  I sigh and close my eyes for a moment of relief knowing he's there. I'm ok and he'd kick ass if I needed.  

"Babe what happened? You ok?" He looks up 

"Niel" he girts out 

"This is your boyfriend-"

"Yes I'm her boyfriend. What happened here? Neil."

"It was an accident." 

"It really was Andy."

"Niel." He growls out.

"Okay. Now that introductions are done. Andy, sweetie" and nope can't break their eye contact so I step in front of him. Bringing his eyes back to me "Why don't you come with me to the bathroom and help me get this out ok." 

"Yes lets." He takes my hand and then I see him give one last menacing look at Neil. 

I go into the women's bath. 

"Hello, anyone here my boy friends helping me with a stain."

No responses so I lock the door."  With a sigh as I lean back on it.

"Hey hey what happened what did Neil say ?"  his voice is soft but his eye furrow and its slits but I can still see his hands being forced out of fists by his own mind. At least he's trying. 

"He was just being a creep and someone bumped into him and thats why it spilt but-"

"How creep did he get?"

"The normal I'm used to. nothing I can't handle but I just, I missed you. The minute I bumped into you I knew everything would be ok "

"You knew that was me?"

"Honey I know your chest anywhere."

"What a coincidence I know yours anywhere too." I smile and laugh as my head drops down but when I look back up 

He is still looking at me with sad eyes he knows I'm not telling him everything but he's not pushing. 

"Honey any level of creep is not something you should be used to." His finger brushes my cheek softly.

"He was just hitting on me claiming you weren't being very boyfriendly enough." 

I think I said too much. 

"I'm fine." 

He sighs and wraps his arm around me.

"Are you sure. We can leave."

"And miss out on all that good food?" 

"Anytime you want to go I'll nick Neil out."

"Oka-wait what?"  I laughed. He kissed me and brought me in for a hug. I snacked my hands around his waist. 

"I love you sweetheart" 4th time today makes me smile "I love you too Andy."

He didn't even blink…."You calm enough?"

"Me. Yes?  You. What about that stain?"

"Oh it'll wash out."

I somehow get in a conversation with some wives and he makes sure I'm ok before he goes off to a different conversation himself.  We are ever so in tune and overprotective of each other, probably him more than me knowing I'm nervous we give each other little nods to signal the other is ok.  

When my group breaks up I find Andy immediately even though his group moved a bit.  its like this weird spidy-sense  we have for eachother. I wrap my arms around his waist and he puts his hand over mine. Its the little things that mean the most with us. The little touches the little glasses the little sift kisses.

"Sorry doll this is a private conversation don't think you'd under-."

"Excuse you but my girlfriend is welcome."

"And I just so happen to well  practiced  and versed in constitution law  and since it is a free country with the right to congregate you  can't discrimination against me being a woman as I was invited to the party."

It takes everyone in me not to roll my eyes at Andy who I know is beaming that  A) I remembered my constitutional law class from forever ago and b) the talented way I spin my words i said I was well practiced and verses. Not that it was my job.

A few minutes later I feel a hand slide down my hip I look at Andy and then I follow gaze and to the side of us Neil is in a conversation but obviously staring at my ass. 

"Doesn't he know I'm with you. "

"You ok with my hand there?"

"I didn't move it did i?"

"I love you. I really do. Love you. I don't know if you heard me the last 5 times."

"Actually this was the 5th time."

"So you did hear me," he teases."

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[hunterdadrius]

Project Night

(Summary: The hexsquad has to work on a school project and go to Darius's house were they spend the night working and having a blast

Notes: they use snails as currency and most of the story is dialog)

Words: 1,572

*knock knock knock*

D: Come in

Hunter opened the door and stepped into Darius's room where he was calmly reading a book on his bed.

D: what’s up kiddo?

H: Oh-um, so basically me and my friends are doing this school project together and um I was wondering if you know, we could, if they could come over so we could work on it if that’s alright with you?

D: When do you want them to come over?

H: Oh um tomorrow morning if that’s alright

Darius put his hand on his chin contemplating whether it was a good idea.

D: How about they come tomorrow at noon and they can stay the night if they want since I have to take Eber to get his shot in the morning

H: YES, PERFECT THANKS DAD!

Hunter ran out the room closing the door behind him without looking back while Darius sat there dumbfounded

D: 'He called me dad-'

D: 'HE CALLED ME DAD!!!! I'M A DAD!!!!I'M GANNA RUB THIS IN EBERS FACE LATER!'

*The next day at 10 am*

D: Me and Eber will be home soon text me when your friends get here.

E: Let me goooo!!!

Eber moved around trying to get out before giving up and melting into Darius's arms.

D: Oh don't be so dramatic Eber it's just one shot

E: I don't need a shot, I'm perfectly healthy

D: Anyways, don't burn the house down little prince

H: I'm not that irresponsible Darius

Darius rolled his eyes before teleporting him and Eberwolf to the healers for his yearly shoot.

*** 2 hrs later ***

*knock knock knock*

Hunter ran to the door as fast as he could, almost falling down the stairs, when he made it down he quickly opened the door to see all his friends standing on the other side with their palisman in hand.

H: Come in make yourselves at home

L: Wow Hermano your house is awesome

G: It's so clean and organized

H: Yea Darius likes to keep stuff like that

*** 20 mins later ***

D: Hunter we're h-

He paused at the sudden group of teens in his living room making a mess on the floor, from what he can see the couch and table are covered with several stacks of paper and textbooks

D: Hello children

H: Oh, hey Darius sorry about the mess we'll clean up after I promise

D: You guys better, anyways if you need us we'll be in the basement

And with that he walked past the kids being careful of where he stepped while carrying Eber in his arms. He had fallen asleep during the walk back home since they had to make a stop at the fabric shop because Darius needed more supplies for one of his projects.

He closed the door behind him then walked down to the basement placing Eber on the ground while he got started on his sewing project. (Eber enjoys sleeping on the floor)

About 40 minutes past before Eber woke up

D: Good morning, Eber

E: What time is it?"

D: 1 pm why?

E: I'm hungry

Eber walked over to the table that contained a drawer filled with chips and other snacks then grabbed a hand full before hopping onto the sofa

D: You better not get the sofa dirty like last time

E: Don't care

20 minutes later Eber was asleep again on the sofa with a small blanket barely covering his body. He was slightly shivering but it managed to catch Darius's attention. He made his way over and gently picked Eber up before sitting down and placing him back down this time on his lap with the blanket on top of him. He gently ran his hand through Ebers hair and started scrolling on his scroll.

By the time he looked up from his scroll it was 2:35pm and he forgot to make lunch.

D: Eber wake up I'm ganna order take-out what do you want?

E: fairy pie!

D: Okay Ima ask the kids what they want

E: Kids?

D: Yea Hunters friends came over to work on a project, I told them they could stay the night too.

*15 mins later*

D: Foods here

L: Yay I'm starving

A: Me too

Darius placed the bag of take-out on the table while Eber got the plates. The living room was no longer a mess, all the paper and books were stacked neatly on the floor next to their bags.

W: Thanks for the food, Darius

A: Yea thank you sir

E: Gimme pie!!!

G: Here you go my dude

H: Since we got most of our project done and it’s not due until Friday how about we play bone-nopoly?

A: YEA!!!

L: Don’t you mean monopoly?

W: nope

H: You wanna play Darius?

D: Sure

H: How about you Eber

E: Okay!

D: Don't talk with your mouth full Eber

E: No

*After eating*

G: I wanna be the microphone!

L: I wanna be the eyebat!

H: No, it's my board game I get to be the eyebat!

D: STOP! How about I just make little abominations of all of us so you don’t have to fight over the tokens?

W: Perfect!

A: I’ll help make some too

While the two were making tiny abominations Eber was evenly distributing the money.

H: Each player is given 1,500 snails divided as follows: 2 each of 500 snails, 100 snails and 50 snails, then 6 20 snails, 5 each of 10 snails, 5 snails and 1 snail

(Don’t know if these are the official rules but it’s close enough)

E: Does it matter which I use? You end up with 1,500 snails regardless.

H: Of course it matters, the rules are there for a reason

E: Whatever I still think it’s the same thing

D: Finished, you guys done with the money?

E: Not even close

H: He’s just being careless

E: CARELESS!!!

G: How about we just start the game

W: Agreed

later in the game

G: Thats another 100 snails for me

A: WHY DO YOU HAVE SO MUCH PROPERTY?!

G: I'm just that good✨

W: hurry up so I can get my turn

E: Hey Darius can you make my abomination sit on your abomination's shoulder since we're on the same space???

D: No

E: What whyyy?????!!!

D: Too much work

E: Thats a lie

D: Whatever

H: Hey Luz

L: What?

H: If I win you got to give me 100 snails

L: Fine, but WHEN I win you have to give me 100 snails

H: Deal

L: Deal

W: Luz you have to go to the conformatorium

L: WHAT! AGAIN!

H: Looks like you're ganna owe me 100 snails

* After Game*

L: Here you go Hunter

H: Thank you very kindly

G: Hey Hunter how many blankets do you guys have?

H: like 8 in total-

D: 7, the quilt is off limits even to Hunter

H: right 7, why?

G: well, I was wondering if we could make a pillow fort, with that amount we could make a giant one!

H: Is that okay Darius?

D: sure, but what's a pillow fort?

*30 mins later after the fort was made*

A: Hey Hunter, why do you guys have so many blankets

H: Because Eber loves to sleep with like 5 blankets

E: THATS A LIE! I sleep with 3 :)

H: Anyways, me and Darius each sleep with one and the other 2 are extras

W: That makes sense

Grrrr

L: Sorry, that's my stomach

D: Me and Eber will get started with dinner you kids can put on a movie

G: YAY MOVIE!

D: But first clean up

H: Okay

*After Dinner on the couch*

A: Which movie should we watch?

L: Die Bard 2! Raine talks about it all the time when they come over to the owl house

W: That sounds great

H: We should probably watch Die Bard 1 first

G: Amity could you move a bit?

A: Could you move a bit, Luz?

L: could you move a bit, Hunter?

H: could you move a bit, Willow?

W: could you move a bit, Eber?

E: Darius move

D: I can't you're on my lap

L: I'll sit on the floor there are plenty of pillows

A: me too

D: me and Eber can sit on the floor he prefers the floor anyway

E: YEA!

*In the middle of Die Bard 2*

E: I'm ganna make more popcorn

D: Did you eat all the popcorn again?

E: Yep

D: How do you even do that?

H: I'll make more popcorn Eber

E: Thanks!

H: Here you go

D: Thanks Hunter

H: Could I um- sit with you guys

D: Sure, but why?

H: Willow and Gus are sleeping and I don't want to wake them up

D: make yourself comfortable

They continued to watch the movie as normal until Darius looked around and noticed everyone was asleep, Hunter was asleep on his shoulder and Eber was on his lap. Luz and Amity had fallen asleep above several pillows while Willow and Gus were covered in multiple blankets with all their palisman curled up next to them. He created a little abomination to turn off the tv while he carefully placed a blanket around the three of them before getting rid of the abomination and falling asleep content with how the day had gone.

---END---

This probably isn't my best work since I lost inspiration mid way. Sorry if there are multiple grammar mistakes :)

#dadrius #toh darius #darius #darius deamonne #toh eberwolf #eberwolf #eberwolf the huntsman #toh hunter #hunter #toh luz #luz nozeda #toh willow #willow park #toh amity #amity blight #toh gus #agustus porter #gus porter

[ahiddenpath]

Spoons

One of my closest friends is far wiser than me, but I am wise enough to know when I should listen, even when what she tells me is difficult to hear. Especially when it's difficult to hear, maybe.

I'm going to share what she told me today with you, if you're interested.

I'm burnt out. Mega ultra super duper burnt out. I told my friend that I spent today, Saturday, one of my few and precious days off, in a haze of nothingness. I slept for 9.5 hr last night and somehow woke up, drank a coffee, and went back to sleep for another 1.5 hr?!?!?! I proceeded to do some light cleaning, followed by dicking around on the internet (aka nothing). At some point, realizing that this is depressive behavior, I contacted my friend for advice and explained what was going on.

We talked about burn out. I have diagnosed anxiety, and the same friend (who is autistic) has gently broached to me that I am also likely autistic. I have not been tested yet- there's part of me that is loathe to admit having another thing going on (I joked to my friend that I'm out of condition/status slots, but I don't think she was impressed, lmao!). So far, I'm trying not to worry about the possible autism, but instead put my energy towards managing my stimulation issues. My stimulation threshold is very low, and I especially struggle with audio stimulation, to the point where I can lose the ability to interpret sound under some conditions (I hear it just fine, but I can't process it). I've been carrying my loop earplugs everywhere.

(By the way, the earplugs are lowkey lifechanging and I'm highkey mad about it. The anxiety wasn't enough?!?!! I've got other shit going on?? WHAT DO YOU MEAN I COULD HAVE BEEN MANAGING WHATEVER THE HELL AUDIO CONDITION I HAVE MY WHOLE LIFE WITH A PAIR OF EARPLUGS!?!?!?! God damn it! Etc, etc.)

So, I was talking about how stressful my biotech job is, but also pointing out that I do work a 40 hour week. Lots of people work a lot more than that. I should be managing. Right? My friend said, "Darling, everyone has a certain number of spoons. You have anxiety and possibly autism. That means you are minus spoons compared to someone without those, and there are people with fewer spoons than you, too. Now. Walk me through how you felt when your coworker assigned you work and asked for updates on that work before you even received the proteins to work on."

So, I told her how I felt. Panicked. How can I do the work without the proteins to work on? Angry! HOW CAN I DO THE WORK WITHOUT THE PROTEINS TO WORK ON! Stress, stress, stress. And you know what my friend said?

"I guarantee you that most of your colleagues would roll their eyes, give a cursory email response, and calmly go about their work day. You spent too many spoons on your panic, when you're already using a lot of spoons to do the work. And now, you're trying to spend MORE of your limited spoons fretting that you're less than for having fewer spoons than a neurotypical person/a person without mood disorders. The work itself only costs so many spoons. It's your reactions that cost more, and lead you to burnout."

Thanks, friend. Great talk. Love you, too.

Except that I actually do hear her and love her, and appreciate the hell out of her for telling me this. She moved the conversation along after this, probably because she hates doing therapy for people, and I know I got this much because she loves me so much. And also, she probably needs her spoons for other shit. She's got autism, man. It's not easy.

So anyway, I'm going to try to accept that I only have so many spoons, and also that I can't afford to waste them on feeling less than, and on my coworker's shenanigans. I'll try my best, but. It sure isn't easy, is it?

I would like to purchase some spoons, please, lmao!!!

#hidden's life #spoon theory

[icedmetaltea]

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Couldn't sleep till 9 FUCKIN AM, got maybe 4-5 hrs finally, THEN WOKEN UP BY SOMEONE WHO HAD THE GALL TO MOW OUTSIDE LIKE COME ONNNNNNNNN

I'm guessing it's just bc I'm bleedin and that usually causes insomnia for me but it doesn't make it suck any lesssssssssss

For all respects I should be grateful bc for whatever reason my period actually came at a decent time (day 37) when it's been coming wildly late for like a year (usually day 40-57) AND I didn't have any PMDD symptoms aside from a bit of tiddy tenderness and maybe a lil increased anxiety but so so so much better than last time...

Idk if it's the fish oil I started earlier this month or moving back to my home state + being away from my parents finally but yea... it's almost too good to be true, like I don't trust it. I'm used to rotting in bed wanting to die for at least a week before it + panic attacks, this was like NORMAL + MANAGEABLE PMS????

Probably just a one time thing but hey I'll take it. Give me heavy bleeding + insomnia + soreness any day if it means I don't have to deal with the literal soul-crushing shit I usually do

#vent #irl stuff #tw periods