#i am freaking out a lil

[moxyphinx]

SOPHIE OKONEDO as SITHANDRA in ÆON FLUX (2005)

#sophie okonedo #sithandra #aeon flux #Æon Flux #filmedit #cinematv #scifiedit #gif #mine #* #film* #so* #why was every shot in this film so short?! #i am but a simple lesbian #i need arm #get you a lil freak with hands for feet #(i couldn't gif any shots with them bc it freaked me out too much) #(nor the shots eerily similar to wot s2e7)

[pup-pee]

no1s mad i drew more konbart right?

last drawing is nirvana au // also i gave up on the 1st drawing mayb? i might return 2 it

#i realized im starting 2 feel insecure bc ppl my age r drawing muchMUCH better than me so i tried 2 do things i dont usual do kinda idk #trying 2 prove im not *that* bad @ art lol #which means i tried 2 draw kissing y tf did i try this I DONT I #USE TONE INDICATORS U BITCH! #nirvana au #nirvana!kon #kart #konbart #my fujcing wifi freaked out on me & i drew all of these #so thats fun!! #also i worked on my sketchbook bc NOTHING WAS WORKING sts yestefay was so boring :( #my sketchbook is exploding its more junk then sketch #my junk book #puppee art #i love nirvana!kon oh how k love them so theyre so pretty ((imo)) #i drew like 3 sidelrofiles im dying #ALSO IGNORE HOW LAZY I AM DRAWING SUPEEHERO SUITS LOL #IDRC…IDK…I DIDNT WANNA DRAW THE FLARES OR THE PATCHES PLSSSSS #ive drawn sm kon in the last like week? #bc of etsy its honestly great i have like a lil collection of those ty cards i make #uhm #i need 2 stop rambling gn #y am i saying gn???

[ganondoodle]

i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with- #-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!! #im sorry :((

[angelsdean]

and what if i started 'dean is too nice to sam' truthing ?

#well. publicly. bc i already am truthing that sdjkfjd #LISTEN. this show was really really bad at portraying actual sibling dynamics dfkdgk like half their fights would not be that deep irl #like oh you tried to kill me? ok well here's a funny picture of dog and also that's you ok lets go get food #dean as the eldest sibling should've told sam 'i'm right bc i'm the oldest do what i say' like. alllll the time #bc he's right and he's the oldest :) and sam just has to accept that he will ALWAYS be the baby even at 39 yrs old #esp dean being a parentified older sibling like. sam is simultaneously his annoying lil brother AND his pseduo-child #even if sam doesn't want to acknowledge that dean was his main most stable parental figure growing up it doesn't change the fact that #for dean that's what sam is. and so oscillating between the two roles of older brother and parent makes for a complicated dynamic #where you'll like. die for them. but also tease them mercilessly and call them a lil freak and weirdo #(but if anyone else did that you'd punch them out) #but yea. canon dean. too nice. #should've teased him more and gotten into more play fights + actual fights that end w/ them laughing + getting slushies at the gas 'n' sip #siblings siblings #vic.txt

[moeblob]

Anyway i should post these to my OC blog but I keep mentioning Ymber here and so you guys are getting forced to see him.

In Deacon's defense, he doesn't think it's weird that he likes being alone in Ymber's temple considering they first met /when he was alone in Ymber's temple/. In Ymber's defense, he knows Deacon has no magical powers and so the whole resonance with the dead is unexpected cause he's never seen Deacon talk to the dead because he's always on duty around Ymber.

So. (jazz hands) Deity of Wet, Ymber.

#my characters #ymber has so much stress and trauma and guilt packed in that lil body #also he tries really hard to keep hyping deacon up to fulj because every single time the two interact #she reports back to ymber to complain that his follower is really weird #so hes like okay gonna make a mild conversation and then deacon says yeah i like to listen to the dead #and ymber is like dude i am trying to help you out and reduce the freak label and you say shit like this #anyway ymber is suffering and i cant stop making him suffer and he has so much trauma #this is the third look for ymber cause the first two were incorrect and so yeah #finally got this dumb guy drawn

[j-restlessgeek]

Ahhhhhhhhh, am finally done with my project. Am so freaking happy and proud. I made a häärijä plushie :3😺.

He‘s 62 cm tall (that’s what I get for working without a plan and just jumping into it).

Big thanks to @morbid-things (we were talking about how mean käärijä was to häärijä and that he deserved better, so I decided to make one myself) also big thanks to @carpblu (beloved hobbies georg) who gave me a lot of tips on embroidery, so neat and nice. Big thanks to my sibling @rockingpeeble who pushed me to finish him and his clothes :3 To his clothes, they work like real clothes, he can be dressed and undressed :3, the shoes took the longest with around 1,5 hours per piece. Also the hello kitty buttons and kitty paws on the soles are there cause I wanted them to be there :3😺. The pockets are fake tho cause I got tired and just glued them on.

Am so happy and proud how he turned out for stitching and sewing him by hand especially since the last time I did both was over a decade ago. Might have to darken his nose and mouth since making it the same colour as his skin was prob not the best option. 😅

Thanks for listening 😺

#häärijä #i freaking love this lil guy #i didn’t look up a pattern and just went and did what felt best #am so happy how he turned out and that am done too #hes so freaking cute #and cuddly #and so freaking tall #really overdid it in that part 😅 #käärijä #häärijä plushie #i saw at least three käärijä plushies on Jere and decided he deserved one too #love for häärijä #plushie

[keeps-ache]

they're like shiny knickknacks to me

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #oc #tw scopophobia #never considered Knick as a name and now i'm starting to think hfbvs #//anyway [will smith wife pose] #i've decided they are friends (? ambiguous) and go on hijinks :3 though of course there are the Horrors (ambiguous) #//also ayo i got my id !! #cool cool cool #apparently i look androgynous (ambiguous (i'm gonna stop now lmao)) so that is a funkin WIN #downside is i DO look Very tired (bc i had to take off my glasses (and i thought i had more time to prep before the flash suckerpunched me) #and/or intoxicated SO. LMao #it was fine though :) DID i freak out? yea a lil. WAS it aighty though? yea :> #take that anxiety i only missed an unknown amount of social cues Lol B3 #//anywho my computer is going to die and i'm gonna get motionsick again bc i am in a ~+~caaaar~+~ #toodles noodle :3

[alphabetboyluvr]

just read the new yu chapter and i can't stop crying

i'm literally

i really thought they-

*sobs*

i just think they needed a little more room to grow away from each other!! their brains still needed a little time to develop!!!

i know exactly what i think happens after the chapter ends tho he he

#neva obv has to fly back to london #and jungkook goes to ny #but they're both a little restless about things and how it was left #cassie visits neva the next weekend and she's like neva u do realise that the universe is trying to force u two together right?? #and so she's like :( fuck :( #pulls a sickie #grabs a last minute flight to ny #and is like #if it's really fate then ill bump into him #but cassie is like ur so dumb so messages jungkook like ok don't freak out but neva is gonna be in NY this weekend and he's like ??? #but then cassie is like that's all I can tell u soz #so jungkook is like right.... ok. wtf am I meant to do with this. #but he's also like #if i was neva #where would i go...... #but is like stumped cause she's never been to ny so the possibilities are endless so he's like fuck it #checks flight maps and works out when she arrives (aka the only flight from London that aligns with the time she left) and goes to arrivals #has a lil sign with her name on it :( #tweaks his brows when he spots her #and has a little smirk on it face #says smth dumb like u could have just sent a text #and she's like.... why r u here..... #and he's like... me??!! why are YOU here???????? #and anyways they spend the weekend in luv and making up for lost time and they're both confused about how it's gonna work #and it's gonna be hard!! #a lot of those damn you up? texts #and it's gonna take a lot of effort!! #but they're gonna do it!!! #third time lucky <3333 #they'll elope in ny one random weekend when she's visiting and not tell anyone about it not even cassie or jimin

[littlekingbergara]

obsessed w the angle here making it look like they're holding hands

#sorry to anyone who somehow thought i Wasnt a delusional freak. i am #and the lil tuft of hair sticking out of ryans hat 😍 ugh i love him. u guys. #shyan #ri.txt

[mysticfemme]

I consistently say that I'm not sure whether I like medieval studies, and yet when I'm doing an assignment I often end up focussing on something medieval. I just took ELEVEN BOOKS from the shelf on the Gawain poet because apparently I'm a nerd

#also little side ramble but when i was out with my friend yesterday i was so worried because of how much of a nerd i am #she's quite girly and trendy and has a big group of friends and they go out a lot and stuff #and I'm just here burying my head in medieval books and i wish i could be interesting like her #but i just feel so so dull sometimes #even though i dress like the coolest medievalist-to-be #plus i had a lil social anxiety freak out yesterday when i was out with her and was just terrified the entire time that she hated me #I'm wearing my new docs today tho so I'm excitedddd #also i bought a new dress yesterday but i have nowhere to wear it and it's not very cottagecore like at all #rants n rambles

[navree]

unfortunately the percy jackson show means percy jackson discourse which means i once more have to see dogshit takes about rachel elizabeth dare, who did literally nothing except have a relationship with a boy she liked for a couple months, but the freaks are at it again because there's no worse crime in the world than being a girl getting in the way of a ship for a nanosecond

#personal #if i am not defending rachel elizabeth dare from freaks it's because i'm dead #'a greedy and ungenerous soul' she was fifteen???? calm down???? #why are you at your big age talking like that about a literal child?????? #like sorry that annabeth was incapable of opening her mouth about her crush and someone else happened to be more verbose #that ain't rachel's fault #if annabeth didn't want percy dating she should have communicated better that's not anyone else's problem #rachel and percy liked each other so they went out and then they ended the relationship like that's so normal #and from a doylist perspective it's painfully obvious rachel was there as a lil bump in the road before percy and annabeth got together #so why are you getting bent out of shape about it she was never a threat #and if you shouldn't be pissy about it now anyway when they've been together for like multiple series at this point #and are gonna get together in the show too #like goddamn i'm two steps away from going full percabeth anti just because people can't be normal about rachel for some reason #and i LIKE percabeth #honestly i don't know why twitter feels the need to show me fandom takes they're never good no matter which fandom it is

[turtletaubwrites]

Last night my feed was randomly flooded with endless pictures of raccoons from various blogs I don’t follow.

I used to be seriously scared of raccoons, lol. I had to work through the fear, and now I can look at them without being afraid, and I can acknowledge that they’re cute, so fuck off ocd!

Raccoons are cute.

Even if they have creepy ass little hands that used to scrape on the walls, and the sliding glass door while they watched me sleep. Even when I woke up at 3am to those creepy claws scratching the glass, and they didn't run away even when I got big and banged on the door. Even when we had to walk down the mountain roads to go to school because they'd broken into my mom's van, and hissed at us when we opened the door.

They're cute, even if they are lil demons that fear nothing.

I'm totally not scared anymore! Thank you tumblr for the reminder 😅

#fuck off ocd! #actually ocd #raccoon #i am proud of this #it’s so silly #but i used to have a physical fear reaction to seeing pictures of these fuckers #not any more though! #pictures and videos of them don't scare me anymore #but i'd definitely be freaked out if i found one in my house or got close to one in the wild #i still don't fuck with these lil demons #lol #about lynna #cw ocd

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Fuck u I shouldn't have to work on weekends vs Jesus christ I have so much to do. Fight.

#i did fuck all this weekend so its gonna hurt monday when i have to start scrambling #ive gotta do extractions and make media and back up cultures and work on my preproposal #and do 3 assignments rip. ugh im so tried. ill just work on things tomorrow #i have an appointment tomorrow to get accommodations for my learning disability tomorrow and idk what thatll b like #ive sorta got a chip on my shoulder abt using accommodations so im afraid ill come off as rude #but idk itll make me freak out less if i get etra time on exams. i never stay after tho basically i wont use any #so whats the point but everyone is telling me to do it so i am #my mom calls the way i read a lil ADD bc i cant pay attention long enough to make the words make sense bc i get distracted by my thoughts #its real annoying 😒 #how to cure that? stop reading. problem solved 😌 #unrelated

[candyredappledragon]

Florian, if you see another you with Yellow Glowing Eyes and claiming he is you, what will you do?

...Like a Zoroark disguising as me or is this entirely different?

Yellow glowing eyes. Oddly specific trait to have.

Uhm, dunno? Ask him why he wants to be me lol?

#rotomblr #pkmn irl #thanks for the ask! #text post #Florian replies #If you expect me to fight them. I am not doing that. #But I would definitely be a lil freaked out.

[moving-to-dreamwinged]

my parents watching me choke up and cry multiple times on facetime after i said i could TOTALLY handle moving to japan and i wouldn’t be stressed at all

#.mei chats #sniff. i feel embarassed #idk why i thought i was fucking superhuman and Immune To homesickness And Emotion just bc i like to travel but #THIS SHIT GOT A LIL KICK TO IT!!! OH YEAH I FREAKED OUT A LIL AT CERTAIN POINTS! #i feel better now but sometimes it hits that i really am alone 14hrs away from home #with NOTHING that’s familiar to me #and the guilt is a lil crazy too. but im having fun i swear

[littleoblivions]

our seats succ but i secured guts tix 🫡

#all of the amex presale was like. any available seats were just in pairs and i had to buy 4 lmfao #so i was panicking and didn’t realize i picked bad side view seats but it was the first one i saw with 2 seats in one row & 2 seats behind #and then i was freaking out that i couldn’t go back and change the seats and it would take me back into the queue and i’d lose them sooooo #better than no seats of course & i am grateful! but just feel a lil bad since i had to buy for 4 people and it didn’t work out very well