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A Bumpy Ride

Scarlett Johansson x Actress!R

Elizabeth Olsen (Wanda) x F!R (a blip of a scene)

Request by: 🦥

A/N: I wrote the EO x R kiss as if I was writing a Wanda fic, literally just wrote the imagined scene. | Also, if this is too beyond what you wanted, feel free to request a do over fic. I might’ve gotten carried away.

Warnings: Jealous/Possessive Scarlett.

Smut: Daddy (Top-R), Kitten (Power Bottom-S), Fingering (S), Face-Riding (S) Kinks: Lactation, Praising, Slight Degradation.

18+ | Minors DNI

Labeled, please don’t report.

Scarlett wore a wide smile as you guided her through the set of your current Marvel film. This was a nice experience for her, watching as the legacy she had an integral part in building continued on through you, and the others.

It was rather bittersweet too though, seeing images from the iconic movies past, when she was younger and in the fittest shape of her life. Now she wears her post pregnancy tummy pouch with reassured pride, and eats a far less restrictive diet as she holds no obligations to have a widely unobtainable superhero physique.

—

Without Marvel she wouldn't have skyrocketed in her career, and she is beyond grateful to them for that, but she more importantly has them to thank for finding you, and the sweet, domestic life she now lived with you and Leo. The pretty little boy grew in her body, but he shared your likeness, as you hadn't the time to be pregnant yourself, so IVF it was until 2026 when your contract with Marvel was finally up.

When you finally turned to take in your wife after droning on about today's filming, you noticed the deep pout she wore, and you softly pecked it away. "What's troubling you, love?"

"I miss Leo," she confessed quietly, and you smiled sadly at her, the ache in your chest was the same as his smiling face tauntingly flashed through your mind, "Me too my love, I miss his kissable little face, and his sweet giggles at the inappropriate hour of 2am," you kissed her pout away, and smiled as she herself giggled.

"It'll be okay soon, my last scenes today and tomorrow you'll have that important meeting, then we'll steal him back from your moms."

Scarlett burrowed into your offered embrace with a muffled huff, "I miss his baby smell."

"Me too," you snorted as you swayed her body.

"Wait, did you say you had a steamy scene with Lizzie today?" Scarlett's mind finally caught up to your previously uttered words, and that once soft pout of hers slipped into a deep scowl.

You chuckled softly, "I'd hardly call it steamy," your wife however wasn't amused, "It's a kiss."

"A kiss that will create a hoopla of rumors."

"Scarlett," you sighed, it was always the same insecurity, and you'd never get mad at her for it, the fans edits can be quite convincing seeing as how you and Lizzie are literal best friends.

"They have been shipping us since the dawn of time, and that's cause I'm an amazing actress," you subtly reminded her of your profession, the one she shares with you, "Do you know how many men I've had to see you macking with?"

Scarlett shrugged, a silent gesture in attempt to brush passed your honest counter to hers.

"It doesn't really matter either, because I am assured every night when I come home to your loving embrace that you're all mine, and it's not a question baby, I'm irrevocably yours."

"I just wish they'd stop it, you know? We're all married now, with our families in the making."

"Yeah, but also Scar, when you agreed to marry me you knew Lizzie was apart of that deal," you teased her as you brought her into the dressing room so you could prepare for the kiss scene.

Scarlett rolled her eyes, it was the truth, she of course saw Lizzie as family, but she didn't have to like the way the world of Hollywood works.

Elizabeth was your first connection at Marvel as you started filming together, so it was no shock that the two of you hit it off. Then your alliance was set in stone from the moment Age of Ultron hit theaters. People shipped your character with Wanda's, but it was a different era, so the palpable chemistry between you and your new friend was swept under the rug, and it was exchanged for a queer coded on screen pining on your character's ends as she explored the more sellable at the time ship with Vision.

As fandoms do though, they took the shipping a step further and soon it was you shipped with Lizzie. Clips from differing press junkets were stitched together, along with solo interviews where you'd be questioned about the other. Elizabeth and you were platonic soulmates, so it was easy for fans to romanticize your replies.

At the time you were out, you never once hid from Hollywood, and neither had Lizzie, she didn't expressly label herself, but the way she spoke so candidly at times gave her away. So the shipping didn't bother either of you much. But it did bother Scarlett, she had her eyes on you from day one, and once she had you she was constantly afraid you'd leave her for the mutual friend who wasn't still hiding away.

Throughout the years it had only got more and more aggressive, and it infuriated your now wife. It occurred at its peak during a time when Scarlett hadn't wanted to have to come out yet. She was still trying her darnedest to wipe away her forced image as a sex symbol, the last thing she needed was creeps fetishizing your love.

However, after about three interviews with your posse of girls during the Infinity War junket your lover finally lost her composure. Four years of having the love she'd built up with you overshadowed by indecent rumors, well that was enough to drive her to break.

They'd handed the three of you a bin of spicy tweets, and when she was handed one to read about you topping Lizzie she lost it, she glared at the unsuspecting man, throwing the ball of paper at him just before staring directly at the camera as she muttered: "The only person Y/N is topping is me, so suck on that scwitch22."

Scarlett wasn't even embarrassed afterwards, she simply took the spot in your lap, and the interview continued on without a hitch, the tweets were significantly thinned out though. No one wanted to risk another outburst from the shockingly intimidating blonde woman.

"Yeah, as our good friend, not my sister wife," Scarlett eventually huffed after moments of silence, she was too busy watching you change. You looked up to see her arms crossed under her enlarged chest, with her plump lips pursed, and you just could not help but to tease her.

"Well, Leo will one day call her auntie, why not change it to mom?" You dodged her hand as she tried to slap your exposed shoulder, "Y/N, stop testing me, I am still rather hormonal, and unless you wish to be on Snapped, I'd stop."

"A feature on my favorite show?" You gasped with a hand flying over your grinning lips, "You're just the sweetest wife ever my dear."

Before she could actually bring life (or death) to her words you snaked an arm around her waist and pulled her in for a pre hair and makeup kiss. "Stop stressing over the press, you have nothing to worry about, I'm yours!"

The kiss was sickeningly soft, and far too quick for either of your likings, "I love you," you whispered against her lips. "I love you too," she tried to mindlessly chase your lips, but as you pulled away with an apologetic smile she pettily grumbled, "I'm also still mad at you."

"Story of my life," you remarked with a laugh and an indifferent shrug of your shoulders.

Scarlett rolled her eyes at your retreating figure, then after three short minutes stood alone she reluctantly (desperately) followed after you to the trailer for hair and makeup.

Watching you getting into character brought a smile to your lover's face, she adored how you took this role so seriously. Resentments to the rumors aside, she admires the way you and Liz had crafted such a beautiful, long winded story for the fans to devour. Today's scene is actually monumental for the MCU, it's the first intimate confirmation for Wanda and Eliza, so she let her anger go in favor of supporting you.

"You're gonna do great," she whispered into your ear from behind your designated chair, she'd seen your tightly furrowed brows, all she wanted to do was make you feel at peace. You slowly peered up from your script to lock eyes with her through the mirror, and she smiled reassuringly along with her words. "Thanks."

Scarlett nodded, "How can I help my love?"

For the next ten minutes you ran lines with her, there was no reason to worry about her leaking the contents, she wasn't Tom Holland. The woman was a MCU veteran, and knew how to deflect even the slipperiest of questions.

A smirk graced her face as the loosely described kissing scene was up next, she was always looking forward to practicing such lines with you, whether for her film or yours, it didn't matter much; the prospect of letting your costar taste her on you was too exciting.

"Hey ladies."

Speak of the devil...

"You ready Y/N/N?" Lizzie side hugged your scowling wife as she spoke to you with a knowing smirk, "You're a cockblock Olsen."

"Can't have you macking on my woman," she jested, dangerously if Scarlett's glare was to be translated, "She's my woman, remember that."

"She was mine first," Lizzie continued to goad your wife, she would've kept going too, and left you with a monster to drive home with if not for the saving grace of your favorite stagehand.

"Mrs. Y/L/N—Johansson, Mrs. Olsen, the set is ready, and the director sent me to collect you."

Lizzie left with him instantly, knowing when to retreat from a standoff with your wife, and you were two seconds away from doing the same, but your stewing wife stopped your attempts. Her hand swiftly cupped the back of your neck, she pulled you into a bruising kiss, tentatively sliding her tongue in your mouth, unfairly arousing you as she groped your clothed ass. She kissed you until you were near breathless, and mindlessly chewing on her fruity gum.

"Scar," you went to whine, but she traced her thumb around your lips to quell your worries. The lipstick was promptly cleaned off your skin, and a fresh layer was reapplied, it was as if she had never even touched her lips to yours. But the dizzy look in your eye tells her the memory was strong enough without the mess.

For the sake of your career she slid her hand into yours, and guided you to your outdoor set, "Go get em tiger," she winked, and you simply chuckled as she referenced your character's feline tendencies, her silly antics always helped to settle your heart, she was the ideal partner.

Scarlett waved to the familiar director before she settled into your chair, then her eyes zeroed in on the leather jacket they slid over to you, and then she saw the motorcycle. Natasha was always on a motorcycle, it was like her signature ride so she was familiar with the set up for the scene. Scarlett had never been on one though, which now that she thinks of it is rather odd since riding was a leisurely passion of yours up until Leo was born. The Harley taking up space in the garage a daily reminder.

That familiar twinge of jealousy returned to her with a renewed passion as soon as she heard the director call 'action' because then she saw a scene play out that she wanted as her reality.

—~~~~~—ACTION—~~~~~—

Wanda was in the process of slipping on her signature red leather jacket, the one she got (stole) from her mentor all those years ago. As soon as the tight fabric melded to her body you were behind her, slipping your hands just below the chilled fabric to grip her by the waist. Wanda hadn't even a moment to think before a squeal of surprise left her parted lips. With an undeniable strength, and incredible ease you lifted the redhead by your grip on her body, settling her onto the bike, then you seamlessly walked around, hand still on hip, so that you could face her, "You're a bit of a show off..."

"I learned from the best," you sadly stated, a subtle nod to the fallen Avenger who'd trained the both of you into the heroes you were today.

Wanda nodded solemnly, a beat of silence held before you went on, "You ready to go honey?"

You went to step away as she nodded, but the redheads hand shot out to wrap around your wrist to halt you. "Would you judge me if I said I was nervous?" You chuckled softly, but your eyes softened when you realized she meant it.

"Baby," the world rolled off your tongue with a familiar ease, and it successfully made the woman blush, "You've literally flown hundreds of miles above ground without a parachute."

"Eliza," she groaned, her grip tightening at your incessant teasing, "I have control over that."

"Yeah, and this is a walk in the park for me baby girl, I am an expert at this sorta thing."

Wanda bowed her head, a new nervousness settling within her bones as you continued to drop the pet names. "What's wrong Wands?"

The redhead picked her gaze back up, shaking her head from side to side, "Nothings wrong."

"You can't hide from me," you pulled a hand free from her loosened grip, and softly caressed her cheek, her breath promptly hitched, "Eli."

"Mhm?" You smiled innocently, but your eyes shone with an understanding that made her stomach erupt with a soft fluttering. Suddenly your faces were closer, breaths mingling as you both waited on the other to close the small gap.

Wanda felt your hand drift to behind her neck, anticipation built within her as you caressed her heated skin softly. Once your eyes fell to her parted lips she knew it was coming, but in a moment of desperation she surged forward to rush the process along. Her lips pressed to yours firmly, there wasn't much room to move at first as she sought to keep you against her, but when she felt your fingers playing with her baby hairs, while your other hand laid against her hip she knew you weren't going anywhere.

You soon guided the kiss, tilting her head with your firmer grip in her hair you slipped your tongue passed her lips. Even with the kiss deepened, you maintained a softness, exploring her mouth with a tenderness that equated to an 'I've loved you for eons, and I will continue to,' she melted into you in total reciprocity.

"We really have to go baby," you whispered once you pulled away, she panted affectedly while your breathing remained steady enough.

"Why?" The witch whined pitifully, "I don't want this moment to end Eliza, it's perfect."

You smiled in agreement, "Yeah, it was."

Wanda pouted as you spoke of the moment in the past tense, meaning it was over, and so you leaned back in to peck it away, "It'll be even better when we get to a safe house sweetheart."

Wanda sighed, "I'm holding you to that then."

"How about I hold you to me instead?" You teased the witch as your leg flew over the bike behind her seamlessly. Wanda rolled her eyes, but she wore a wide smile that you couldn't see.

Wanda melted into your form as you pulled her body back into yours, your arms slid beneath hers so that you could reach for the handles. Her body shuddered once you placed a kiss to the nape of her neck just before you slid a helmet onto her. "Safety first, Avenger or not."

Wanda giggled, then her hand spun in the air, and a helmet appeared over your head next, "The rules apply to you too, nine lives or not."

You snorted, then instead of prolonging the teasing banter you kicked the stand of the bike up, revved the engine, then shot off abruptly.

—~~~~—SCENE—~~~~~—

Scarlett watched the heady kiss without even flinching, it was a bit of a surprise to her, but she found herself envying Elizabeth's chance to ride on the bike with you more so than the making out. The directors had trusted you enough to actually race around the lot, and when you and Lizzie returned in a fit of giggles she felt the jealousy only intensifying. It was not fair to you, but she only gave you a curt nod when you asked if she was okay, she once again cleaned the lipstick off your face, then left to try and simmer her rage inside your trailer.

"What's the matter now?" Lizzie joked from your side, and you only shrugged, but you'd never struggled to read your wife, the way she had glared at the motorbike as if it had killed her entire family was all you needed to know.

This silly scene here opened you up to a future night full of making it up to your wife. You sighed softly before turning to your scene partner, you watched a grin take over her face as a realization of sorts had dawned upon her.

"You're welcome," she winked before turning around to return to the set, you two had one more follow up scene to shoot, and then you'd have to face your attractively jealous partner.

—

The ride home was radio silent; literally, she slapped your hand away when you tried to fill the tense silence with your favorite playlist.

Scarlett pulled into the garage, a heavy sigh left her lips as she unbuckled, but she didn't speak.

Her door slammed shut, she attempted to race into the house, but you were too quick for her. Scarlett's breath hitched when your hands held her firmly in place, "Now, now kitten, why must you make this difficult by running?"

Scarlett tried to keep her angry front up, but when you manhandled her into the air she lost any semblance of control, you spun her around in your hold so that your lips brushed teasingly as you plopped her onto the Harley backwards.

"Is this what you needed baby?"

Scarlett mindlessly leaned back against the handles, her legs spreading as she did, and you couldn't help but to chuckle at the sight of her.

"Such a beautiful, desperate mess you are for daddy, look at you, you're soaked on through."

Scarlett's skin flushed, she didn't need to hear you say it to know it, the lacy, red material was uncomfortably stuck to her skin, and truth be told it had been like that for hours now. Ever since she'd kissed you breathless, and when she watched you handle that scene with a sexy flair she couldn't stop imagining you handling her in a more sinful way. You drove her wild.

"Tell me what you want," you stepped closer to her, ghosting your lips over hers, "I'm not a mind reader baby, but I do aim to please here, so just tell daddy what it is you need from her."

"Can you give me a ride on the bike?" Scarlett was confused herself as the words left her, it was what she genuinely wanted, but you both know she wanted something else much more.

"Oh, I can," you smirked as your lips met hers, "You can ride me however you want Scarlett."

"Fuck," she sucked in a breath as your fingers slid the sticky fabric of her panties to the side.

"Be good for daddy," you coo'd as your fingers trailed teasingly through her folds, she bucked her hips on instinct, causing the bike to shake, so you held her hip down firmly with your free hand, "Relax my love, you know I've got you."

Scarlett's always been super reactive with you, but as she hadn't been touched like this in over six months she was beyond her normal arousal. Her cunt was dripping all over the leather seat, and if it wasn't so hot you might've even cared about it, but honestly the bike needed a polish.

A mewl left your wife's lips as soon as one of your fingers entered her, you kept a slow pace, too afraid to overwhelm her, and even then you still did, she cried out in shock, "I'm leaking."

You looked down, noticing the pebbles of white that left your wife's breasts, she'd only recently stopped breastfeeding your son as her leave was quickly coming to an end. You were truly enamored by the opportunity here, the urge to taste her milk had always been there, but the chance had yet to present itself until now.

"Oh love, that must hurt," you rasped, and the aroused blonde whimpered her agreements as she looked into your blackened orbs, the need you clearly felt for her was palpable, and it only made the sloshing between her legs louder.

You kissed down her jaw, nibbling enough to make her moans sweeter, but not to mar her skin until you reached the valley of her breasts. You sucked harshly, a deeper red blossomed over her hot skin, the sensation only spurred her moans on, and the sound was addicting.

"There you go kitten," you kissed up the side of her sensitive breast en route to her nipple, "Let daddy know how good she's making you feel."

Scarlett nearly toppled your bike over when your lips wrapped around her nipple, the way you curled your fingers just as you began to suckle made her mind go blank, and legs shake. The sound of your delighted moan made her feel an overwhelming warmth, an unexpected wave of pride flooded her chest at the idea that you'd like her milk enough to moan like that.

"Thank you daddy," she clutched tightly to your biceps, curling her nails into the skin for grounding that she usually found in bed sheets. As you moved in rushed kisses over to her other breast you could feel her hips trying to meet your thrusts, shaking your bike again.

"Stay still," you mumbled around her nipple, making her urge to move higher, but even in her dizzy state she still managed to cooperate. In the bed you wouldn't mind, normally you'd encourage her desperate thrusts as you teased her, but this wasn't your usual spot; the bike wasn't exactly the safest place for her writhing.

Scarlett's quick compliance made you beam, "You're always such a good girl for me."

Scarlett smiled dopily, she was a sucker for your praises, her walls clenched tightly around you when you returned her smile. Nothing could ever really describe just how much she loved your beautiful smile, it was almost always all she needed to want to jump your bones.

"Kiss me," she begged, the desperation clear as day when her lip had trembled in anticipation. You didn't waver in your stare as you neglected to give in to her pleas, you instead continued to piston three fingers into her slick hole, curling them every few thrusts, and doing so before you couldn't resist the temptation to kiss her.

"You're close," you panted the truth against her lips as you reluctantly pulled back, if you could you'd kiss her until your lips went numb. She whined, her eyes then fluttered open at the loss of your sensational lips took effect on her. The pleading in the haze of her eyes was clear, she needed you to give her permission, to send her tumbling over that edge. "Go on kitten, come for daddy, mess up my bike like a good girl."

Her back instantaneously arched into your handlebars, the horn being set off as her body trembled, her orgasm had taken it's full effect. You watched in amazement as her arousal gushed around your digits, it was only her first release of the night and she squirted all over.

"Let's get you cleaned up," you whispered as you nibbled down her jawline, soft red marks left behind that you knew would fade come morning, she had a meeting tomorrow after all.

Scarlett was beyond dizzy, your moves turned her brain into mush, but even in a delirious state she knew what she wanted, and she'd get it. You had both always had such high libidos, but with the baby neither of you had the time or better yet the energy to keep up with them.

But in this jealous fueled daze Scarlett was not short on energy, no, only patience. As you went to guide her to the bedroom for aftercare she stopped you, even with shaky legs she managed to shove you down onto the couch, "Lay down, and let me mark my territory," you knew she wasn't asking, clearly you weren't rebutting.

"Thank you daddy," she straddled your thighs so that she could lean in to peck your lips, you saw the way she eyed your top, so as a reward for her manners you slipped it off as she rose.

"Come on kitten, let daddy make you feel good," you beckoned the short circuiting woman forward, and without letting another minute fly by she crawled up your body, her abundant wetness smeared on your skin, and the feeling left you salivating for her essence.

Neither of you felt like teasing tonight, so the blonde plopped her sopping folds onto your face, so you followed her lead, and immediately began to devour her. Raspy, choked moans echoed off the walls of your quaint living room, with how sensitive she was it didn't take long for her to grow sloppy with the way she rode. Without even looking you gripped her hips, now guiding her thrusts, and pressing down harshly to help your tongue reach her deeper.

With your arms wrapped tightly around her thighs you used all your strength to flip her onto her back, the jostling movement led your tongue to press into her sensitive spot just as your thumb showed up to stimulate her clit.

"Oh fuck," Scarlett bucked her hips in sync with your tongue as you continued to fuck her fluttering hole even after her cum shot down your throat, and her entire body subsequently slumped into the lived in couch cushions.

Scarlett's face was serene as she rode out the bliss you'd given her, she tiredly smiled when your lips trailed over her body, tenderness was all that you offered as you kissed over her skin. Lips lingering over the marks she'd despised until you made her love them the way you did.

"Daddy," she groggily whimpered your title, her hands haphazardly reached down for you, and her nails dug into your shoulder blades so that she could pull you up and into her lips.

"You're insatiable Scarlett," you chuckled as she relinquished her lips hold on you, she met your amusement with a smirk of her own, "If you had a smoke show for a wife you'd be too."

"I do," you deadpanned, and she smirked even wider as she winked, "Glad you're self aware."

"Oh, I am, the amount of people that want you is endless," you huffed, a twinge of jealousy to rival hers showing through, but she helped to melt it away with another kiss to your lips.

"We're clearly just Hollywood's hottest couple," she reasoned, "I guess I should have expected all the attention, of course people want you."

"I really do hope you understand that you're all I'll ever want Scarlett," your eyes glistened with happiness, visions of your future with her all you needed to bring you to tears, "You, and Leo are my entire world, nothing will change that."

"I miss him," she reaffirms her earlier feelings, as do you, "Same, I need my bubba butt back."

"But wait, I have a proposal," she mused, and looked to you with a sinful grin and dark eyes.

"I'm listening."

"Well, my meeting won't end until like five, and it's over an hour away to my moms," she spoke with feigned exasperation, "Why would we pick him up tomorrow near his bedtime? That's just irresponsible. We should let him sleep, and use our bonus night off for an overdue date."

"Hmm," you hummed, pretending as if you were actually thinking over her sex coded offer, "I could just pick him up in the morning," you didn't mean it, but you'd never give up the opportunity to tease, and neither would she.

"Nope," she popped the p, and smirked up, "You're coming to the office baby girl, and we'll be taking your bike so no room for the baby."

"Oh, we are now?"

"Yeah, you are my guinea pig for the day as we test out our newest products, I didn't tell you?"

"No, you most certainly didn't," you grumbled, and climbed off of her, she went to protest the loss of your warmth but she didn't get the chance as you threw her over your shoulder.

"If I'm your guinea pig tomorrow, then you're my cum dump for the night," you threw her down onto the mattress, smirking as her dilated eyes widened at your promise, and so you winked. "What? Might as well use our free time wisely."

Scarlett smirked victoriously once you turned away to collect your strap, her plans for a full weekend now coming to life before her eyes. Leo's return will likely be postponed, it's a good thing she already confirmed a Monday pick up.

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Keeping Up With The Barzals

mat barzal x model!fem!reader

a visceral in doses fic (editorial edition)

warnings: mentions being parents, having insecurities, mentions vibrators, early issues in a relationship, hints at sex, and I think that’s all… let me know if I missed something. ALSO: this takes place in 2027, so they only have Nolan!

Appealing, show stopping, the symbol that love doesn’t have to fizzle out with the pressures of success, or the responsibilities of true adulthood. I get the opportunity to interview the most famous couple to ever grace our social media feed. Y/n and Mat open up about their lives in the limelight.

A very pristine woman who isn’t afraid to change things up and dirty her clothes, that’s Y/n (soon-to-be) Barzal. From dominating the catwalks to being the best mom she can be, Y/n is a layered masterpiece. Y/n will go to the ends of the earth for her family. If that means she’s helping organize charity events for her husband's hockey team, or turning away jobs to be present for her son, she’ll do it. When asked about it, she said it’s a major privilege to be able to turn away jobs for her kid’s sake and to be able to help raise money for the Islanders.

As a model who is this generation’s icon, she’s awfully real. There’s no hiding or pretending when it comes to Y/n. In my opinion, that’s what makes her so inspiring and likable to everyone. However, don’t confuse her privacy for lying. There’s been many instances when Y/n had to keep aspects of her life private to protect those she loves. Times when the audience wasn’t too kind about her choice.

“There was a time when many people thought I was never around Nolan when he was an infant. It seemed that everyone got used to me posting little updates on my Instagram story, so when it stopped people were confused. People thought that I just hired a nanny and was never around my son. It hurt to hear those speculations, especially because they were so far from the truth. Nolan got really sick. He was only 6, almost 7 months and he got really sick. Mat and I had no clue how he contracted his sickness, but it was scary for a little while. I stopped working for that time frame, and I followed Mat, with Nolan of course. Mat had to continue working, but I just couldn’t be without him while our baby was going through what he was going through, so I traveled to each location he traveled to. I of course posted Instagram stories and posts, because not all my days were bad, but I didn’t and wasn’t going to post anything about Nolan until he was 100% better.” Y/n goes into detail about one of those incidents where she went quiet about certain things in her life.

“So many people think it’s so easy to be productive and encouraged all the time. I go from personality to personality with each photo shoot I work on. Not because I’m trying to be fake about who I am, but because sometimes photo shoots require you to step out of the person you are, and it’s not always a bad thing, but lines do get blurry and your mind gets foggy. It’s actually easier to get lost in emptiness, trying to get your feet to touch the ground. I think that’s why I try so hard to be open with my supporters. I’m holding myself accountable all at the same time. Becoming a mother definitely helped me with some of the fog. Becoming a mother made me stronger. I’m always being my best self for my son. I am also always being my best self for my husband. They’re everything to me.” Y/n gives us a little insight on what it’s like to experience the not so glamorous side of a fast paced lifestyle.

Aside from being a mother and a model, Y/n is the person who is determined. No one has to write a story about her, because she’s already writing it herself. I’ve never come face to face with someone with such confidence that’s still so humble. Y/n knows how to cook, knows how to style any piece of clothing, knows how to love herself and others selflessly, and most importantly, she can write. If you’re asking why it’s important that she writes when just about anyone can write, I mean Y/n really knows how to write. I am lucky enough to have received early access to the first draft of her very first manuscript. The words this woman can write are amazing. That’s just putting it lightly. It’s important that Y/n is such a phenomenal writer, because she has the chance to share her wisdom and thoughts. I happen to think her thoughts can change, if not the world, at least one person’s life.

“Don’t make me seem like I’m all work and no play. I can be loose around all my edges.” Y/n states as we near the end of our interview. As I said, she’s continuously writing her own story even when my pen stops. After hearing her out, I’ve come to the conclusion that she is the life of the party that every 20-something year olds wants to be. She blazes a fierce trail of being true to her indulgences. If she’s craving an ounce of music to fill her veins, she’ll gather her best pals and partake in a night of clubbing. If she craves a big, private party, she’ll rent a huge yacht and let her girlfriends go wild. There’s no barrier that will contain Y/n. She breaks any bounds because for her, living life isn’t about being uniform or perfect. Being a mom, a role model, or just someone who is responsible won’t stop her from being who she truly is. That’s not to say that Y/n is a big time party girl, or that she doesn’t care about herself or her surroundings. She does care, she just knows when not to.

Before kids, Mat and Y/n had one word to describe their relationship. “Sex.” They both splutter with laughter when they see the shocked look on my face. They assure me that “sex” isn’t the word they’d use, but I don’t think that sex is a lie to get a reaction out of me. It’s easy to see just how strongly they feel about each other. They’re playful and very teasing with one another. It’s all very sensual, though. You can feel the heat they radiate when their eyes connect with each other.

“Our relationship is chaotic. The type of chaos that makes you run in circles, pulling on your hair. The type of chaos that you search for when life loses meaning. The type of chaos that is unexpected, but welcomed and makes you feel alive. It’s scary, but only because it makes you feel so much. ‘Chaos.’ It causes pain and happiness, but the happiness is always there. The chaos makes us strive to be better. It makes our love timeless.” Y/n and Mat answer the question with a sureness that’s rare.

Speaking of being timeless, the envious pair are set to get hitched at the end of May. You may have noticed that they’re already referring to each other as husband and wife.

If you’re looking for tips on keeping things fresh, continue reading.

“We don’t force sexual activity. We also don’t plan it, we just let our feelings do what they do best. I don’t know if that’s because our connection is too strong, or for whatever reason we are usually in sync. Maybe it’s our constant teasing. We never go a day without teasing each other. It makes our touches, our kisses, more intense.” Mat explains.

“We also kiss a lot. We will never not kiss each other if that’s what we feel we should do. Lately, people have gotten used to hiding their affection, but they shouldn’t hide it. Embrace it, unless it really does make you uncomfortable. It’s actually so funny because I know Mat wasn’t really the type of person to be into PDA, but it changed when we got together.” Y/n chimes in.

“Yeah, that’s true. I never cared for PDA, but like Y/n said, when you feel it, you feel it.”

It’s honestly crazy that these two only have one child. When I told them that, they both laughed. Y/n was the first one to tell me that their baby boy would be their only baby for a while. Mat was unsure of her words, but nonetheless agreed with her.

The baby talk sidetracked our initial conversation of intimacy, but this type of intimacy between the small family is actually beautiful. They both went on and on about the throes and joys of parenthood. They were both surprised at the fact they were having a baby so early on in their relationship, but they told me it genuinely made their bond unbreakable.

Looking at the way their eyes always gravitate back towards the other’s, and their lingering touches that soothe their anxieties, it’s easy to see why they’re so desirable. It’s not about Mat being an attractive athlete, or Y/n being the most beautiful model, it’s the way they portray the feelings of love and passion.

Here’s their last relationship tip: “Don’t focus on finding the perfect person, or being the perfect person. Be yourself. I know it’s cliche, but be yourself. If you find THE one, they’ll always love you for who you are. Your passion and affection will never dim. If you’re feeling lonely, don’t settle for someone who doesn’t deserve you, just buy a vibrator.”

The so-called ladies man who turns into a puddle at the sight of his wife, Mat Barzal isn’t who you think he is.

As an athlete whose privacy is a bit more respected than the average celebrity, we needed to do a deep dive on New York’s finest hockey player.

Rising to early stardom, the young hockey player was perceived way before he got the chance to grow up. Different outlets vaguely recalling Mat as the playboy, or even a wasted talent. They had no clue who they were writing about, that much is clear. Mat is wise, something he says he learned from Y/n, and he’s not some egotistical man, looking for power. Sure, he’s confident in who he is, but that doesn’t make him conceited. He’s actually smart, despite what stigmas have been formed on hockey’s best. He’s not a one track man.

“Hockey has always been a big thing for me. It’s probably one of my biggest accomplishments, winning the cup and just having outstanding numbers, but my accomplishments don’t stop there. I’m proud of the man I’ve become and the father I’ve become. It’s taken a lot to not get crushed under the words and expectations of people on the outside. I still struggle with ignoring the unnecessary noise. Sometimes it seems like no one’s realized that I’ve grown up. To them I’m still a young boy who received too much too fast. I just want to say that I’m not denying that part of me, but that part of me is also stagnant. I’m not a young boy. I’m a man, a man with a wife and son. I know I’m still young in age, but certainly not my actions. Don’t get me wrong I’m not some grandpa. I get out, I drink and I sometimes act wild. I also know when to be responsible because I do have a son and a wife, whose reputation can easily be reflected off my own reputation.”

Mat Barzal is someone to be proud of. He’s also someone who many want to be friends with; I don’t blame them.

“My party days? I don’t know if my party days will ever be over. My wife, who’s younger than me, is a smoke show. I want to take her everywhere, show her off. She’s the love of my life, why wouldn’t I want to, you know. She’s also keeping me young and active. She usually doesn’t like to go to parties alone, so I’ve become accustomed to attending them with her. Plus, my teammates know how to throw a party, too. I love going to those and so does Y/n. Ever since having a son, it’s been a little harder to party. If it’s a get together, we’ll most likely bring Nolan along because we know there will be other kids there. And no, we’re not drinking or driving with our son around, or in general. If we have Nolan with us, I won’t drink, just simply enjoy the vibes and get drunk off my wife and see her enjoy herself. If it’s just Y/n and me, it’s a whole different story. We will get drunk together, but we will make sure we have a safe ride home through our car service.”

An all-around easy going guy with a great sense of humor, and an undying love for his wife and son. Hockey does not define this man.

For someone (Y/n) who’s so public about a lot of things, it really throws people for a loop when they’re out of the conversation about their relationship. I don’t even have to ask them about it, I see it all the time on Twitter. There are always questions about what’s going on, or if they’re even still together. The biggest speculation I’ve seen is that their relationship is all PR.

I honestly don’t understand the need for people to immediately demote a relationship to a PR one. It’s actually offensive, to the couple at least. I'm going to say it once, and once only, Y/n and Mat are not a publicity stunt. I feel that most people know that by now that they have a kid together, but if you didn’t know, now you do.

“We never thought our relationship would be such a big deal to many people, but anytime I’m not wearing islanders gear or pictured with barzy in the span of 1 minute, magazines are popping out new headlines by the minute. ‘Y/n and Mat: The Breakup of the Century,’ ‘Y/n no longer engaged to the hockey heartthrob.’ People live for us to say that our relationship is perfect. It’s not. That’s a fact. We’ve had so many issues in our relationship, not that we’d share all of them, but it’d just make everyone go ballistic if they knew. Something as complicated and beautiful as a relationship shouldn’t be dictated or have an opinion formed by people who know nothing about the couple and their history. Mat and I aren’t perfect; a big portion of our relationship has been built on our issues.”

Just because they’re a powerhouse couple, doesn’t mean they don’t have their insecurities. Talking with the couple, I learned a lot about how they feel like they have to hide their true feelings due to being perceived certain ways.

“A lot of fans expect us to be indestructible, yet they’re usually the ones tearing us down. I hate to admit it, but a lot of our fights have stemmed from actions of those watching us online. It’s not that we necessarily believe what they’re saying, but some of it lingers in the back of our minds. We then start to pull away and not talk about the way we feel. It’s going to surprise people when I say that Y/n and I have gone to couple’s therapy so early on in our relationship. It was a hard time that I wouldn’t change because it showed each other that we were in it no matter what. Thick and thin.”

“People might be bothered about what I’m about to admit, but I don’t really care. In the nicest way possible. Anytime I see someone talking negatively about OUR relationship, I post pictures of us. We can be doing the most mundane tasks, or out and about, I will post it to rub it in their face. Is it immature? Sure, to some. In all honesty, who wouldn’t show off their man if they’re as wonderful as barzy is. Sorry that y’all didn’t get to him first,” Y/n states, walking over to her husband and laying a passionate kiss on his lips. They’re clearly not bothered by the presence of others when indulging in each other.

a/n: This was something different for me to write, but I loved it and I hope y’all do too!!

#mat barzal #mat barzal fanfiction #mat barzal fic #mat barzal x reader #mat barzal imagine #mat barzal blurb #mat barzal smut #mat barzal fluff #mat barzal angst #nhl imagine #nhl fic #new york islanders #visceral in doses

[ladysophiebeckett]

Regarding your Betty gaslighting arc post (which is awesome. Your analysis is always so on point and makes me see a new perspective every time), another great thing about these episodes is Mario’s comments that taunt Armando. Just to name a few of his iconic lines:

- She changed a night of lust and passion with you, for a simple dinner with Nicolás Mora

- Her only reward for doing everything (running both Terramoda and Ecomoda) was your kisses and sinister caresses and it turns out that they didn’t work or weren’t as effective as we thought

- When he flat out insinuated that maybe Nicolás was a better lover or well endowed (even more so than him) and that’s why Betty was rejecting him 🤣🤣🤣

- “You stopped wanting Marcela and all women because the company’s problems have taken a toll on your desire for intimacy, but if Betty accepted to spend the night with you, would you do it? Armando’s face is priceless here, and also Mario’s because it’s obvious he didn’t buy his response.

Finally, when he tells him to please snap out of it, that he had to come to terms with what he was feeling because even though it wouldn’t solve anything, it would allow him to clearly see just how screwed up he really was.

He even said some useful things to him. He constantly told him that Betty was testing him which she really was. Like you pointed out, she wanted to see if he followed word by word what was written on the letter to see if there was anything genuine about the things he said and did. One of the reasons she rejects him the night of El Meson de San Diego (aside from dignity) is that she had heard Mario tell him that had to do whatever it took to get her back even if it included sleeping with her. So when he told her he wanted to spend the whole night with her, Betty thought that this was part the plan he and Mario had for that night. Also, the fact that he didn’t guess she knew everything after all the things she told him that night is beyond me.

Anyways, I wish I could have the will and also critical thinking skills to make a huge post about Mario and Armando’s talks during this arc.

I love your blog, honestly.

you're incredibly sweet <3 thank u so much. i feel like im talking at a wall sometimes but it doesn't stop me.

i myself am trying to unravel the armando\mario toxic frenemy of it all, bc there's a lot to unpack. is armando that easy to manipulate? (no). is mario some puppeteer pulling all the strings? (no).

mario's taunts aren't helpful but i think sometimes theyre armando's mouthpiece. i think mario's comments are things that armando's already thinking but wont say aloud and when mario says them, it's like he's verifying those thoughts. it's 'oh ur seeing this too, im not crazy'. but mario isn't coming from a good place when he says them, however mario does push armando to continue to pursue her; pushing that armando doesn't need bc he was already going to do that. but mario telling him to do that makes it a cover for armando, an excuse, a security blanket if u will.

the night of el meson de san diego, betty drops anvil hints. from their argument in the office, fm their conversation in the restaurant, to their huge fight outside. she's incredibly passive aggressive about it but she does try to make it easy on him. in her office when he says 'you broke all the promises' and she says 'oh I broke all the promises? I'M lying to you?'---that was a life jacket, that was a gift. but he stutters. he's willing to believe she has something with nicolas and that nicolas is Bad and he's better than nicolas--armando can't think straight bc his insecurities and his ego are the forefront of it all.

armando that night really did want to talk and fix things bc that's how their relationship was before the letter. the desperation in his voice when he says 'i know if we go back inside and talk calmly we can figure this out'\'okay we'll go someplace else, i want to spend the night, all night with you'---he was trying to gain back their emotional intimacy and u can see betty waiver. she misses him, she misses how it used to be but she doesn't trust him or her heart anymore. and to really stick it to him she says she doesn't desire him. another blow to his ego. (that was a lie btw, bc they were going at it outside and also bc she says in her diary that it pained her to reject him bc she needed him too)

going back to the mario of it all, he's a complicated character we all have very differing opinions about. as i said, im still unravelling my thoughts about him and his relationship with armando. but i dont think it's a black and white as it seems. he's just as complex as marcela.

#anon #ask #ysblf #betty la fea #yeah sorry for ending this on a weird note but im still trying to put to words my thoughts on him #i already wrote a post about mario being a villain but looking back on it i think i was looking at it in black and white sense #when its more nuanced than that #when i figure it out you;ll know #thank u for the message !

[everythingsinred]

Hey, has it ever occurred to you why Mikan doesn't like her hair down?

This is a pretty interesting question! I'll try to answer to the best of my ability, but to be honest this is all conjecture. Also I made this a NatsuMikan post because discussions about Mikan's hair/Natsume's back turn into NM on principle.

Very long NM rambling under the cut...

Yes, Mikan seems to be very uncomfortable about her hair being down.

In Chapter 24, Mikan is dressed as the prince and has her hair down for the role. She's instantly insecure and contemplates putting her hair up again. She needs outside validation from an opinion she cares about (Hotaru's) to make her feel okay about it in the moment, but after this she continues to keep her hair down.

A lot of it seems to come from feeling like she looks weird somehow with her hair down, and prior to this she says she feels "antsy" with her hair down. At no point does she elect to have her hair down between this and when she's stuck in the labyrinth. If she ever switches up her hairstyle, she still keeps it up, like at the Christmas Ball or New Years. Even when she sleeps, she keeps her hair in pigtails or braided.

I am not sure why having her hair down bothers her so much, but let's discuss some possibilities.

Mikan's iconic pigtail hair style is pretty childish. That makes sense, because she is a child, but when she's aged up by the Gulliver candy, she defaults to the same style, which prevents her from looking more mature. I might say from a narrative sense that Mikan's hairstyle being so childish is supposed to set her aside as being more immature than the rest of the kids in Class B. Hotaru's short and practical hairstyle seems leagues more mature and chic than Mikan's cute little pigtail thing.

It might be nothing more than a habit. Mikan likes sports, and keeping your hair up comes in handy when you're exercising. Whatever the initial reason she built this habit is, she might be so unaccustomed to seeing herself with her hair down that it feels bizarre and wrong.

But I genuinely don't know what an in-story reason for her behavior is, because it seems much stronger than a mere preference or habit. She doesn't like herself with her hair down at all, and never has it down until this moment in Chapter 24. Maybe she's just insecure for whatever reason and thinks she looks bad with her hair down (though she definitely doesn't).

In any case, my idea is that it feels vulnerable to have her hair down. She describes the feeling as "antsy", like it doesn't feel right. I think her wearing her hair up is a comfort zone thing, where she feels more protected with her hair in a do. In a way, it might be comparable to her insistence on smiling. Mikan is, despite everything, actually very hard on herself. She doesn't think she's smart, capable, pretty, useful. She is surrounded by smart people, by people with interesting and useful alices, by people she perceives as "strong" while she is weak. And, of course, people who are beautiful, when she is not.

Just like Mikan gets very pathological about her smile after being told it's a charm of hers, I think she might rely on her hair being up. She is not pretty on her own, but if she puts extra pizzazz into her hair, maybe it'll make up for how plain she is? Maybe is she uses different hair-ties, sometimes with ribbons, sometimes with flowers, she can be a bit cute sometimes? Mikan thinks very little of herself but is very interested in making up for it.

What's really interesting is when she starts wearing her hair down more. When is that? Oh, yes, during the time she's trapped in the labyrinth after coming to terms with her love for Natsume, who told her once that she looked better with her hair down.

Mostly she wears her hair down in the labyrinth when she goes to sleep, and that could easily be brushed aside as a given EXCEPT that Mikan has always had her hair up before, even when she was going to sleep!

So what makes this time period different? Why should Natsume have anything to do with how she wears her sleep when she goes to sleep anyway? It's not like he's living in the labyrinth with her. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that she can hear him calling for her every night...

She does keep her hair up in pigtails when she's wearing her school uniform, of course, but when she's out of it, we see her exclusively with her down. The best example of this, of course, is on Christmas when she stays in her room because she's not allowed to go to the party.

She dresses it up a bit with those fluff balls, of course, but it's still down. And that's a big change when we consider that Mikan used to EXCLUSIVELY have her hair up, no matter the occasion.

When I was analyzing this chapters in my essays, I did say it helps make the confessions scene seem more surreal, having him dressed like a lil bat and her with her hair down, both of them out of their uniform. The surreal nature of the scene makes it dreamlike, for both of them, almost like it never happened, and I think that's important, but it didn't occur to me at the time how important it is narratively for Mikan that her hair is down for that.

I will concede that Hotaru told Mikan in Chapter 24 that she doesn't have to put her hair up, that it looks cute down. She does say that. But what Natsume says in Chapter 38 is a bit bigger. He doesn't use words like cute or pretty, but he makes a point of saying he prefers her hair down, that her pigtails won't suit her in a few years.

He doesn't say it out loud, but this is a compliment, and it clearly means a lot to her. If Mikan feels like she's not pretty (and she is called plain by so many people in the manga it's hard not to imagine that's how she views herself), and her putting her hair up is her way of "making up for it", then Natsume saying he likes her better with her hair down is, essentially, saying she looks pretty as she is, without all the trimmings.

It's kinda akin to those love songs where a girl swoons that a guy likes her better with her makeup off. Mikan wears her hair up because if her hair is cute or styled, then it can distract from her otherwise plain appearance. But Natsume prefers her as is, that the extra work she puts into tying her hair isn't necessary because he does think she's pretty, that she has nothing to make up for.

Once Mikan realizes she's in love with Natsume, and that this love is fully reciprocated, she wears her hair down more (or at all), because it's her way of connecting with him even though she can't see him as often. Her hair is down, and it doesn't need to be up, because somebody told her she looked better with it down. And, even more than that, she wears it down when she hears his voice, or there's a chance she might catch a glimpse of him, because she wants him to see her with her hair down.

Mikan, who got "antsy" in Chapter 24 with her hair down, sees Natsume in Chapter 144 and 145 and doesn't feel antsy about her hair at all. In fact, it's down because of him. For him.

I'm not saying girls should base their entire appearances off of what boys what, but that's not what this is either and I think that would be a cynical takeaway. Please don't misunderstand me! This is a boy making a girl feel better about how she looks, to the point where she feels like her hair down is a selling point, not another plain element to her appearance. There is nothing wrong with wanting the person you like to think you're pretty, especially when the person you like helped you feel prettier in the first place.

Anyway, that's basically the summation of my thoughts on this topic. I'm really grateful to you, Anon, for bringing this to my attention. Obviously, I did know Mikan didn't like her hair down and that Natsume did, but I have never observed it all that closely. This is one more aspect to the manga I was given the opportunity to analyze more and I'm so happy with having one more reason to love these two together!

#thanks again for asking this! and i hope u have a lovely day <3 #anon #answered #gakuen alice #alice academy #sakura mikan #natsumikan #ga #my meta #i mentioned before that i discover something new everytime i read which is why i love ppl asking me abt different parts of ga #bc theres always some new 'aha!' moment to be had and i LOVEEEE having those lol #also this turned my mood right around! im so happy after answering this so thank u<3

[nestaenthusiast]

My Btvs opinions part 1

Okay so I finally finished Buffy the Vampire Slayer and just wanted to share my opinions on all of the main characters throughout the season. Forewarning though, some of this might be controversial!!

Buffy

Ah Buffy. The most main character to have ever lived. She truly slays. Like I just love everything about her. She’s fucking iconic. Shes confident. She is a total badass. She has her insecurities. She can’t drive. She is totally bisexual. She has amazing one liners and amazing outfits to go with them. The list goes on and on forever. Buffy has taught me a lot about believing in myself. Believing in my power. I’ve made a post on this before but a common theme in this show is Buffy feeling like she can’t do something and then stops herself and goes “wait a minute? I’m Buffy. Of course I can do this” and then she does it. It was truly inspiring to watch. Since watching the show I’ve had moments where I’ve doubted myself and then I literally thought of Buffy and got a boost of confidence. Buffy is so inspiring. She is one of those characters that I think will live in me for a long time. She is very close to my heart and honestly gives me strength. Ironically she wasn’t the reason I started watching this show but she’s the reason I stayed.

Faith

I am not joking when I say Faith was the reason I started watching this show in the first place. I saw an edit of her on TikTok and she was so fucking hot I instantly fell in love with her. So I decided I HAD to watch the show. So maybe my expectations were too big because I hate Faith now. Don’t get me wrong Faith is a greatly written character!! She was only in 26 episodes and is one of the most impactful characters on the show. But I still hate her. If it was any other show where Buffy wasn’t the main character, I might love her and be in the pro Faith hashtag. But because of the way Faith treated Buffy, I just can’t with her. Especially after s7. Like she just fucking irritates me. She is always wallowing in her self pity and jealousy of Buffy. She pushed all of her insecurities onto Buffy and made her seem like some prudish stuck up bitch when that was just far from the truth. She didn’t even have a clear image in her head of who Buffy actually was cause of how much she projected onto her. And she was sort of a pick me girl. And no arguments or deep analysis from her supporters will change my opinions on her because my feelings are based on my utter love and devotion to Buffy. When Faith and Buffy were friends I loved her!! I loved their friendship and I would have probably shipped them romantically. But when Faith started treating Buffy badly is when my feelings for her changed.

Willow

Willow is probably my all time favorite Tv witch. So much so that she made me want to start practicing witchcraft again. She has so many amazing quotes like “Occasionally I’m callous and strange” and is such a sweetie pie. And I have a ginormous crush on her. But Willow season 6-7 I do not like. She became very egotistical and I also blame her the most for bringing Buffy back. It is honestly very hard to separate my feelings for Willow from s1-5 and s6-7 cause that’s how much she annoyed me. But before I watched s6-7 I truly loved Willow. And Alyson Hannigan is a truly terrific actress. Dare I say one of the best in the entire show.

Xander

Okay here is where things might get controversial. I actually like Xander. There are definitely episodes where I hate him but for the most part I really like his character. He has a lot of flaws like being a “nice guy” and his occasional sexism. But most of that I feel it is just a sign of the times. That was how they wrote guys in the 90s and early 2000s. The reason I like him despite these things is that I like his heart. Like what he brings to the group is stability in the form of food or repairing Buffy’s house or driving them around or babysitting Dawn. I just love how they didn’t give him superpowers or a lot of intelligence but was still needed in the group. Or maybe not even needed just wanted. He gave what he could cause he loves Buffy and Willow. And he is so fucking hilarious. Like maybe we just have the same sense of humor but I legit find him funny. And he is one of the few characters who I liked more in later seasons that in years beginning.

Giles

I love love love loved Giles. He was such a dad to Buffy and supported her through so much. In s3 he was one of the few to understand the pain she felt with Angel dying and running away. I love how he made mistakes with Buffy but always tried to do his best. He was always there for Buffy whenever she needed him and was there for Willow at her worst and helped her rehabilitation. And most importantly—I love his sweater vests. As with almost every character in this show, I started to not like him in s6. I know they had to write him off cause he needed to be with his family in real life but it still makes me angry that he left Buffy at her absolute worst. It was just so out of character for him and it made no sense. That’s really the only thing I don’t like about his character. Also teen Giles and demon Giles will never fail to make me laugh hysterically.

#btvs #buffy the vampire slayer #buffy summers #buffy deserves better #giles #rupert giles #giles btvs #willow rosenberg #xander harris #faith lehane #anti faith lehane #fuffy #faith x buffy

[itsmaferart]

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The latest chapter of Spy x Family has obviously left us all stunned, excited and scared. Giving us moments, fun, full of tension and above all intriguing. And there are so many topics to cover after this chapter that I just can't put all my opinions in several posts.

Dichotomy between comedy and drama

Something remarkable in this chapter is how we can see the handling of Endo's narrative. As fans, we always talk about SxF as a comedy of everyday life where we enjoy the adventures of a spy, an assassin and a telepath, trying to preserve world peace through a fake family.

But I think sometimes we forget that within a story, there are two perspectives: The reader's view (us the viewers) and the character's view (within their own universe). In the middle of both, we have the author (Endo) who decides how much information he wants us readers to have.

Why am I explaining this?

Because, while many times SxF gives us hilarious and iconic moments for the fandom, the characters are experiencing a real drama and conflict. It is a way in which Endo shows us a warlike, political, ideological conflict, through three characters that form a family. Although for us the exaggerated expressions, the clumsy and silly actions, and the far-fetched conclusions are fun. They are ways in which each character expresses their genuine concern about something.

For us it's a joke, but for the characters everything that happens is real.

This is perfectly exposed in this last chapter (until now). Although, Endo gives us soft, funny chapters, whose only objective is to produce tenderness and laughter. There are chapters like these that give us tension and suspense

Interestingly, this manga chapter does not need action, fights or epic moments. It is sustained by the tension, the heavy atmosphere and the suspicion that each character generates in us. Every thing that Endo proposes in this chapter is interesting and leaves us with a bitter taste in our mouths.

Relapse

When I speak of "relapse" I mean the way the Forgers, despite evolving as a family and as characters, are still prey to their own fears and insecurities. And this has a root: "the secrets between them"

A relapse is defined as a return to typical thought and behavior patterns that were thought to be outdated

Each Forger believes to be "the only one aware" and is blind to the other realities.

Let's talk a little about Anya...

I love Anya's panels in this chapter: the tense atmosphere, a declaration of battle by befriending the enemy, and an epic attack move! All worthy of a Shonen of epic battles xDD

She is surpassing her fighting level!!

But aside from the comic relief that Anya gives us to relax: It is clear that Anya exposes her fear of being abandoned. Anya has never had a real family, she has been an experiment, she ran away, to be adopted by many families from which in the end she had to flee. Anya has expressed many times her fear of being considered a "freak" due to her telepathic condition. However, the Forger family has been the complete opposite for her. At last he found a home with parents who give her their attention, love, support and care. We have all witnessed how Twilight has harmed the mission for Anya's well-being, he has risked to save her, supported her and loved her despite the fact that she barely manages to stay on the mission.

And yet she is confused by his father's feelings.

When we remember chapter 37, when Desmond first appears, she somehow admits "not knowing if her father really loves her or not". Anya associates that Twilight's love is conditional on the mission being successful, and hopes that if she makes "peace", Twilight will want to stay with her. On the other hand, she has her relationship with Yor, her mom. We all know that Yor is willing to kill (literally) anyone who tries to harm her daughter. Anya has confessed to her father that "no matter what happens, her mom will save her, because she is very, very strong." Anya worries about her mom's feelings and safety, even though she sometimes makes honest comments. He misses her, when she is very absent… and she always wants to have fun with her

And it is here that we see Anya's "relapse" into her own patterns.

Although her parents clearly love her, she still feels like a disposable item. Because she knows that this family exists for the mission, and she feels that if she is no longer the key element for success, twilight will forget about her and abandon her. Feeling the need to compete for her own mother in a fictional battle, completely forgetting that Yor did all of this by "accident" and that her mother genuinely loves her.

….Passing Yor…

The problem Yor is dealing with is her inherent self-doubt. This causes Yor to blindly trust other people and limits her actions to the consent of others. Yor does not trust her judgment, nor her criteria, and her complete lack of interest in politics and ideological positions makes her vulnerable and susceptible. She depends a lot on Tendero, to define what she can or cannot do, or who she can or cannot be with when it comes to important civilians.

But… Is Shopkeeper really trustworthy?

I am very concerned about the way the shopkeeper expressed himself in this chapter. To begin with, he acted "suspiciously" relaxed at the mention of Melinda, but a second later he gave Yor a suspicious look. I don't know how to interpret that phrase or that look:

It seems that Shopkeeper sees the Desmonds as a match on his opposing side. And although there is no absolute clarity about the role that Garden plays in the underworld (I think they are an elite soldier who preserves the order and the imposed rules), the way in which he points out with contemptuous subtlety "that they are a conservative party". …and then, he declares to Yor that he is not sure if he will be able to take action for her later "by not recommending it". It seems that between the lines he said "You can do it, but at your own risk"… So… Yor is an expendable element? Although she is the best assassin in terms of strength, technique and power, if she makes a mistake, Garden will not hesitate to turn her back on her… or perhaps, is this a test to measure her loyalty and cunning? He has already shown mistrust in Yor and his relationship with the family… so I wouldn't be surprised

The second and the most worrying. The interest in Loid Forger and how Yor infers that "Loid found Desmond likable." For the Shopkeeper, Loid went from being a "mere cover for Yor" to a person… suspicious. I was struck by the theory that Garden possibly sends other assassins to watch the family. I don't think he sent Yor. She is clearly not very adept at making observations, or surveillance, besides being obviously "affectionate" with the family…. I wouldn't be surprised if Shopkeeper starts making decisions without considering Yor, and then orders him to take action if he really finds it. "something".

Also, we have another crack. And it is the distrust that Twilight has with Yor. Unlike the spy, Yor has absolute confidence in Loid, to the point of "asking her permission" to know whether or not she can be friends "with Melinda". She never suspects him. Yor sees Loid as motivation, encouragement and support. And although for me, it is a clear certainty that Yor is in love with Loid, Twilight is still not "in the same place" as her.

Importantly, Yor doesn't seem sure she's friends with Melinda. Despite Loid's approval, and his words of support. She clearly looks worried… as if… "something isn't right" in all of this. She may not be very rational, but her survival instincts are sharp, and after those "inexplicable" shady looks from Melinda, Yor seems to be wary of them.

I want to hug her!!

However, Yor's relapse is in her insecurities. She is so distrustful of herself that she gives her judgment to others, and this very "dependency" makes her naive. I'm worried that both Shopkeeper and Twilight get so wrapped up in this battle that she ends up in the middle as "cannon fodder." Since they are the two people where she has deposited her love and trust… and discovering that everything is a lie or that the organization that raised her can betray her or attack her can affect her a lot.

…. And lastly we have Twilight

I already expressed myself about Twilight… So I'll be briefer with him xD

Twilight's relapse is the obvious one. In contrast to Yor, Twilight's mistrust lies with the people around her. And it is totally understandable, possibly he has always distrusted all his partners (because of the missions), because he simply does not want to accept the unconditional, nor the faith in people.

He programmed his brain to survive, and that makes him distrust everyone. His desire to "control everything around him" makes the least unforeseen variable make him think of the worst scenario… transferring these negative ideas in Yoru

Be careful… don't go from being a "cool liar" to a "stupid liar" in a second >_>

I know that deep in his heart he loves Yor, cares about her and has learned to trust her. But when the Strix mission gets involved, Twilight takes several steps back and falls back into her habits. I'm sure if Melinda puts Yor at risk, he'll jump to protect her. But I'm worried for shopkeeper… If Garden's killers accidentally reveal that they're after him, investigating; or worse, to give the slightest suspicion of having a relationship with Yor… his progress can collapse and be trapped by mistrust… I really hope that Twilight is the last, or at least, that the reveal of identities occurs simultaneously . Since I know that out of the three of them, he is the one who refuses to trust his family the most.

Twilight may be acting cold and controlling right now. But I know that his self-control has a limit point. At previous times Anya was the one who was in direct line with the enemy fringe, being her the main vehicle of the mission, with the entrance to the Eden school, her grades in the exams to be an imperial academic and her failed friendship with Damian. But now, Yor went from being a third party, to being part of this direct line establishing direct contact with a target and obtaining an apparent "good impression"

Just as Twilight was a second away from exploding, and hitting that professor's face before Anya's tears, completely damaging the Strix mission. I have absolute faith and expectations, that in the future he could have a similar moment towards Yor. He is not that unalterable man. Given the minimal bad comments that have been made towards Yor (by the professor and Fiona), Twilight's expressions and body language radically change. And now that his fake wife became plan C. I think it's very possible that he could end up losing control for Yor's safety

Please Endo, hear our pleas!!

I know Twilight has come a long way… but he still has a lot of work to do. Confidence for him is a synonym of "vulnerability". And this makes him not see how important he is to Anya and Yor, he represents a pillar for them, and has been responsible for their happiness. The way he takes care of both of them, he has shown his understanding and affection for them through Loid… for them it is "very real". And both his false daughter and his false wife are willing to do anything for him…

…But he's still not ready to give up that side of himself… And he's clearly reluctant to "love."...

Note: I love Twilight very much and wish his happiness. But when he hints at things like "I don't trust Yor" or… "Ehh, Franky's not my friend, it's just work"… I really, really wish he gets a second kick from Yor and ends up with his face swollen. for a week!!!

My "positive" conclusion

Putting all this drama aside. I'm sure this is all a necessary process… Although, I don't think this will happen immediately, and it's obvious that Endo will find a way to make each event have a funny and unexpected twist. This does not imply that there is no conflict that challenges the Forgers as people and as a family (The concerns of each one are genuine

I have faith that each challenge, battle, and sentimental drama will lead The Forgers to discover their feelings, and understand the difference between "what is true and what is a lie".

If the Forger family dissolves, or one member of their family separates from the others (temporarily), or stays together but with a lot of tension in between…. This process of "chaos" is necessary.

I feel that a genuine cause of this distrust is the lies that each one carries. The three of them feel alone, and suffocated by their own secrets, and this sometimes makes them forget that what they have built is not just an appearance. No matter how much they tries to run away, or try to cover up their lies with little patches, it will eventually catch up with them and if it can blow up in their faces (especially Twilight)… Their feelings are involved and the three of them care.

The truth may be painful, but it's also the only way to build a solid foundation.

In a few words… if the current Forgers decline, it will be so that one day they will be rebuilt… in something much stronger, more solid and more authentic.

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This chapter is so overwhelming

What do you think?

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[mysteriouslover1516]

You Are Enough

SUMMARY: MC is insecure from a past relationship, and Jake comforts her.

TRIGGER WARNING: Insecurity and form of eating disorder.

The constant rhythm of the keyboard being typed upon ceased, silence filling the air.

Jake stopped, furrowing his eyebrows. Where was MC? He hadn’t seen her all morning, that wasn’t like her.

Concerned, he pushed himself away from his desk and walked out of his study. Venturing into the kitchen, he was surprised but also worried when he couldn’t find her, usually by now she was eating breakfast.

Jake walked down the hallway to their shared bedroom, maybe MC was still sleeping, after all she had insisted on staying wide awake past two in the morning just to spend time with him.

A small smile graced his lips as he saw the sheets and blankets wrapped around MC’s familiar figure. His smile faded however as the sound of sniffling and crying reached his ears. Within a moment he was kneeling at MC’s side of the bed, gently wiping the hair out of her face.

“What’s wrong, love?” Jake whispered, quickly scanning her for any injuries. MC’s eyes were red and puffy from crying, her lips chapped, nose red from wiping it so much. “Are you sick?”

MC shook her head slightly, “I’m sorry,” she said shakily. “I didn’t mean to disturb you and draw you from your study. I’m okay.”

“You’re clearly not,” Jake said in a firm voice. He almost regretted stating that when he saw MC’s eyes brimming with tears more rapidly, but it was true, he knew she wasn’t okay. “Do you want to talk about it?”

MC shook her head, this time more adamantly. “No.”

Jake sighed and for a moment he rested his forehead on the edge of the bed. How could he forget? MC was the type of person to hide her pain, always scared of opening up, one who always tried to bottle up her emotions. He should have remembered it, especially after she witnessed Richy’s “death” in the forest. He had to coax the words out of her, and then she finally vented, she finally let him tear her walls down. It still scared him how similar MC was compared to him, but that was what made them so compatible with each other. He sighed again, he needed to get her to talk to him, which meant he needed to push her more.

“MC, please. Remember? It helps to confide in a person you trust when you’re going through these type of situations.”

“He texted,” MC whispered.

Immediate anger seethed through Jake’s head, causing his vision to go blurry for a second. He knew full well who this “he” was, MC’s ex, the one she had told him little about, but still enough for him to hate his guts. “Where’s your phone?”

MC pulled it from under her pillow and handed it to him, more tears rolling down her cheeks as she did so.

Jake tapped on the message icon, only to find the conversation with her ex still open.

Have you realized it’s been exactly a year since I left you? I still remember you crying on the park bench as I walked off. I was right, wasn’t I? You would never amount to anything, no one would want you. Or has some fool actually taken a liking to you, I guess all things are possible, right? A sudden urge to scan through your social media hit me and I clicked on your profile, no new pictures, MC. Just the posts you made when we were still together, so I’m guessing no new lover. You are probably asking yourself why I’m texting you all this, after a whole year of no contact. Let me answer that for you: Leaving you was the best decision of my life. You held me back to much MC, when I left you I was free to pursue my interests. You wanted commitment, who asks that of someone? And furthermore, who would want to commit themselves to you of all people? You remember that girl you were always insecure about, always asked if I was interested in her? Well we have been happily going steady for eight months. And she is beautiful, MC, a quality you can’t even imagine inside your small little brain. I still am bashing myself for staying with you as long as I did, especially when I had her right at my fingertips. So thank you, MC, for helping me realize I deserve so much better. Happy Anniversary to a better life.

Jake reread the conversation twice, anger boiling inside him. He was considering hacking into this guy’s bank account and wiping out all his savings when MC's voice filled his ears.

“He was right, Jake.”

“How could you say that, MC?” Jake asked, lifting her out of the covers and wrapping her into his arms. “That piece of crap threw you away like you were worthless. He’s the one who doesn’t deserve anyone, especially you.”

MC just shook her head and started to cry harder, her back shaking as she sobbed.

Jake gently placed his hands on her hips in an attempt to comfort her, but something caught his attention. He lifted her shirt up to her mid-waist, MC shivering at the sudden contact upon her skin. "MC...." He started, voice dangerously cool.

MC's eyes widened with fear and she tried to pull her shirt down, but Jake prevented her. "It's nothing," she mumbled.

"What do you mean it's nothing?!"Jake's voice rose, "I can literally see your ribs. How is this possible? You told me you got over that, you said I helped you through your eating disorder!"

"You did," MC cried. "But-"

"No, MC. You are literally going to kill yourself if you keep doing this! You can't keep starving yourself! Why do you even do this?!"

"Because other girls are so much more skinnier than me, they have a waist, they have the bodies of models." MC whispered.

"And do you see me chasing after them? Do you see me spending my life with girls like those? Do those type of girls catch my eye and do I shower them with love and affection?" Jake asked. "MC, you're beautiful. You're all I want, you were the first person that I found myself falling for after I lost my whole identity. Your spirit, your beauty, your humor, everything, I want all of it. Just please, stay with me, MC. You are enough." The hacker then bent his head, capturing her lips. He let his teeth drag gently against her bottom lip, causing her to let out a small gasp. "You are more than enough. You are beautiful."

Jake kissed her again, his tongue begging for entrance. As MC kissed him back, his hands found their way back to her bare waist. "Let me show you how beautiful you are, every single curve and inch." He whispered, gently lowering her back on the bed, hovering over her. "I simply adore you." He said, his lips ravaging hers once more.

Please leave comments, I would love to hear from any of you and know how I can improve my writing!

#jake duskwood #jake x mc #jake donfort #jake x reader #Jake hacker #hacker boy #duskwood hacker #iamjake #comfortingjake #everbyte duskwood #everbyte studios #insecurity #eatingdisorder

[yuikomorii]

I don’t know why but as you said, I feel like Ayato really likes Yui’s looks. He only pulls the “you’re flat ha ha ha” because such insults are actually considered funny in japanese pop culture, that’s why many of them appear in anime as comedic relief. It’s been a while since I last played DL but I remember Ayato being the only love interest who called Yui - kirei - .As you stated as well, the other guys call her cute but he actually is the only one who used the word beautiful when referring to her. Correct me if I’m wrong but Subaru, Shu, Kou and many other characters stated even in good endings that Yui isn’t that pretty but they love her for who she is. That’s cute somehow but I feel like Yui deserves someone who appreciates her looks more than that. I’m more of a sucker for psychological horror so I can’t say Ayato’s a favorite of mine but these details are nice to notice. I love reading your posts regardless, have a great day!

//I guess Ayato has always liked her looks because I'm sure he would have called her ugly at least once otherwise, but he surprisingly didn't??? To be honest, Ayato is a bully and a tease, so I wouldn't have been surprised if he made fun of Yui's appearance, but his sole offense is Chichinashi, which isn't even a proper insult to begin with. Despite the fact that I am a living washboard, I think that nickname is quite funny and iconic, lol. This type of jokes is also part of my country’s pop culture, therefore perhaps that's why I'm not offended but rather used to it, since nobody takes that seriously here.

Now that you’re mentioning it, I remember that! As far as I recall too, he’s the only Diaboy who called her beautiful instead of cute, which is a big word coming from someone like him, haha.

I understand Subaru's situation, which is more delicate because he suffers from self-hatred and the only person he most likely considers truly beautiful is/was Christa. The other guys just have high standards, yet it seems the audience likes it when they’re honest, for this reason DL tries to show that prettier girls shouldn't matter as long as the Diaboy’s significant other is the girl who has his heart under lock and key, the one who helped him heal.

However, I do agree that everyone needs someone to appreciate their looks, including Yui, who is insecure about herself (even before meeting the Sakamaki brothers). I guess that’s one of the reasons why Yui isn’t everyone’s best match but at the same time, that’s understandable because all Diaboys have different personalities and mindsets.

Thank you so much though, have a great day too!💕

#yui komori #diabolik lovers #ayato sakamaki #dialovers #admin

[theinkedfoxsl]

was that questions post like an oc ask game but for you instead? i bet other people have asked questions but i want ALL OF THEM. bc i think u are so cool. please :3 n for 36: what is your very favorite time of day and why?

HHHHHHH

What is your nickname?

Len :3

When is your birthday?

I don't celebrate it! But I celebrate my name day on October 29th

What was your longest relationship?

5 years this June with Henrik :D

What is your favorite book?

Ripper by Stefan Petrucha. I was obsessed with it as a child

What is something you're insecure about?

Rn? My voice cracks. They're pretty bad with where I'm at on T and they embarrass me

5 Male celebrity crushes

Pedro Pascal, Joaquin Phoenix, Nic Cage, Ryan Gosling, and Hugh Jackman

5 Female celebrity crushes

Can I put Natalie Dormer for all of them? But her, Salma Hayek, Nicole Kidman, Jessica Alba, and Kesha!

What is your dream job?

I wanted to be a writer for a game company.

What do you consider your biggest accomplishment?

Landing Henrik- uhm but no, finishing the Ambros Twins. It meant a lot to me, and I put in a lot of work for it. Even if I don't go there anymore.

What is a fact about you that nobody would believe?

ALL OF MY WEIRD FACTS PEOPLE GO "that makes sense" SO IDK?? I'm afraid of the ocean?

What were your highs and lows for this last month?

Eugh,, the lady at the blood clinic has been really transphobic and ableist to me the last two times I've went and its really sucked. Today was particularly bad cause the barista and some random girls were also quite rude. But! I ordered my cane and I'm so so excited to get it! I also got a skin I wanted in Outlast Trials!

Where is somewhere you'd like to visit?

I wanna go back to Germany, it was so nice. But I want to visit Munich next time!

How do you de-stress?

Stressful video games :3

What are your favorite apps besides tumblr?

Discord! All my friends are in there.

Describe yourself in one sentence.

Exhausted and blunt but kind

What do you think makes you attractive?

My fierce determination to make things work even when I'm on a wire. The people I love, I love dearly. And they know that. I think its an attractive quality to have, to care so deeply about others.

What is something you're really good at?

Writing! I'm also really good at listening.

What is something you're really bad at?

ADVICE- I can listen but not give advice. I'm also fucking awful at soulslike games we've discovered (nobody is surprised)

A time that you told a lie.

Pretty much every day. I'm a compulsive liar, I'm working on it.

What's a totally random and useless fact that you know?

Some ladybugs can have no spots!

Who knows you the best?

Rowan or Henrik I think

What is your most prized possession?

My engagement ring.

What is your longest friendship?

MAX! I've known him since I was 16! Almost ten years yeesh

When did you first feel like an adult?

I still don't sometimes. But I'd just moved into my apartment on the lake to be closer to my job and I was sitting on this empty living room floor and I realised that I was well and truly alone. I wasn't a child at home anymore. I was alone and I was an adult.

Do you/ Have you played any sports?

I played volleyball, baseball, and I did track.

How are you feeling right now?

Like I said bad day, so I'm a bit sad. But I'm watching Max play Lies of P and I'm hanging with friends so hopefully better soon.

Are you an early bird or a night owl?

Night owl

Do you believe in love at first sight?

Chemical reaction at first sight lol

Favorite song lyrics right now?

"I'm blinded, how am I to find a path that's righteous?"

What does self care look like for you?

iced coffee and nap

Describe yourself with 3 singers.

Tonight Alive, Icon for Hire, Hollywood Undead

What makes you nervous?

everything

What’s a pet peeve you have?

CUTTING ME OFF CAUSE I WALK WEIRD GO AWAY

What will always make you cry?

Tadashi ):

What kind of first impression do you think you make on people?

Unpleasant. A lot of people don't like me. That's okay

what is your very favorite time of day and why?

3am! When I'm hanging out and its dark and things are quiet and I can just breathe

[purplehairedwonder]

Fic author game! 🦋 🎀 🧿 💥

I fell asleep while I was making this ask, so if all of these have been answered, two icons of your own choice! Thank you!

🦋what are you most insecure about when you post a fic?

Most often it's characterization--especially for characters I don't write as much. That's the thing that makes or breaks a fic for me as a reader, so I'm most thoughtful about it when writing.

🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing

I have strong characterization, dialogue, and flow in my writing, which makes it enjoyable to read.

🧿what steps do you take to not take things personally if a fic doesn't do well, or if your writing/posting/sharing experience isn't going how you'd like it to?

It's not always easy, but I try to let myself have those bummed out feelings before I remind myself that I am a good writer, and the only thing I can control is what I put into the world, and other people's reactions are completely out of my hands. As long as I'm happy with what I'm putting out there, that's enough.

💥find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it.

My least kudos'd fic is a Supernatural fic, "Breath." It's an episode tag to 6x12, and I think it is a good exploration of Dean's headspace after that episode.

Thanks for the ask <3

Let’s Get ((REAL)) fic writer asks

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[sharpth1ng]

OMG YOURE BOTH BIG DICK RANDY AND HW? BIG BRAIN SHIT. - I AM and bahaha thank you. I have like 20 minutes to myself rn, so speed typing this on my phone and apologizing for the incoming spam that's about to come your way because I'm going to respond to both Randy's monster cock and the HW stuff separately. (really need to get my shit together and find a username) First tho, your tags on that other post abt the dicks and Hank Williams. Iconic. and this tag thanks for the great chats as always - is so sweet and back at you!😊 1/2 He’s like “No I’m just not a fucking cocksucker” (red face). - he totally does which draws more attention to him not less (then he has the audacity to lecture Stu abt subtlety smh...)

(AND YES AT STUS MEAN GIRL ENERGY! that’s my favourite tbh like that’s the scene (aside from the kitchen) where it feels like, the most undeniable that they’re fucking.) YES that scene and the kitchen are truly amazing. I love how Randy is just there being used like a human barrier to keep them jumping on each other in the damn store. HIS EXPRESSION TOO. Every scene where those two interact it's like they're fucking in their own way with their go between. Even by the fountain and at the door.

why am I starting to think it’s funnier if Billy is average sized and just really insecure about it? - exactly what my thought process was lmao, like because A) he's dramatic about it (boy needs that a little bit dramatic shirt Regina wore in Mean Girls which I'm now picturing him wearing in the final act for his dying swan/falling down the stairs scene and the entire kitchen scene) and B) hates Randy, so this is just another thing for him to be pissed about. (speaking of I have always headcanoned he hates Randy because he's jealous of Stu's friendship with him, not because Randy is into Sid like he lets Randy believe. I could even imagine him asking Sid out in the first place when Stu starts up with Casey, just to one up Randy). I'm also loving the idea of Stu saying something about Randy's dick size at some point just to bait Billy and it fucking works (Billy thinks he's in control of this relationship but this entire lap dog scenario Randy speaks of is mutual and deep down Billy knows it and is pissed about that too! fdsjkfds)

Bless you Big Dick Hank Williams (hows that for a username lmao)

And LMAO you're welcome for the tags, I do my best.

Billy is CONSTANTLY lecturing Stu on subtlety and then going around being the most obvious cocksucker, its absurd really.

RANDY THE HUMAN BARRIER THO. I hc that theres been a whole lot of tension between them for years at this point, and they've both probably used Randy to buffer that before they were really ready to deal with it, and before it was even a sexual thing. He went to so many horribly awkward middle school sleepovers.

And OK but I've been thinking that Randy and Billy knew each other before Stu, like they were in preschool together and prob didn't get along that well but didn't hate each other. Then Stu started at their school in grade 1 or 2 and made friends with both of them and suddenly Billy just became the WORST to Randy.

I might write some one shot with them as kids tbh i've been interested in that dynamic and how it changes as they get older OH GOD I HAVE SO MUCH WRITTING TO DO

And tbh? I love the idea that he decided to start dating Sid because he knew Randy liked her, like Billy might not have even realized that that was what he was doing but that do be what he did. I think Stu's been dating for a while, probably started dating before Billy so I think Billy also decided he just needed to be dating some girl at a certain point.

ALSO HOLY SHIT THE MEAN GIRLS SHIRT LMAO. At this point i just have a mental collection of 'time out' shirts for Billy.

LOL also ya Stu baiting Billy about Randy's dick size would bring the furies of hell down on him but we know he's into that tbh so y'know.

#Big dick Hank Williams #billy is a little bitch #and a big drama queen #ask

[decayedhearts]

Tagged by: @muraenide thank you :3

Tagging: any moot who hasn’t been tagged yet !​​

TEN Q’S:

1. When are you usually online?  

I’m kinda online on discord most of the day, because I have it on my phone. I don’t always read messages or reply though. On tumblr I’m online on evenings, but not every day. I don’t have regular online times to be honest :)

2. What verses are you involved in outside of this page?

I have 3402384 verses in my head and not enough time to write any of them. I never counted, I don’t know :) Some are more developed, or plotted with other people, some are just extended headcanons or ideas I haven’t written down yet. I should probably do a verse page sometime, but I am not that organized~

3. What is your biggest RP pet peeve?

Character/ship policing and cancel culture. And on a less serious note, people whose thread RP replies are a summary of my initial post from their character’s perspective as exclusively internal monologue with no new actions for me to reply to in my next answer :)))) That makes me feel like I am writing a fanfiction on my own.

4. Are you drawn to specific types of muses?

Maybe? But I’ve always had quite a variety of muses in all my fandoms. I do tend to make everyone angsty and depressed headcanons though :D So maybe my type just is “secretly depressed”, and I like insane villain characters that I get cancelled for like Viserys, Ardyn, or Wen Ruohan. Oh also, male muses. I almost never write female muses.

5. Are there recurring themes in your writing that people might not notice?

Ehmm, not sure, actually. I tend to recycle tropes that I love every now and then, but those aren’t specific to me. I think with certain characters there are often themes of loneliness and accepting a bitter fate that I like to throw into my stories. But I also usually write happy endings. I always fall into the same h0rny tropes, too. Haha.

6. What are your favorite RP trends?

Meme sentences !! They’re perfect for people who are too busy for full-blown threads, they’re great ice breakers, they make good crack ship moments, they’re just awesome. Dashboard/tag games (like quizzes) are fun too! I actually also really like the icon trend. We used to RP with gigantic GIFs of various sizes haha, icons make everything look very neat.

7. What is your process for starting a new story with someone?  

Usually one of us has an idea, in my case that’s often specific scenes that I then develop a setting out of, and then we yell at each other in excitement, or we plot like mature adults (lol). Lately I have been too busy for rp threads tho, so it’s mostly just been.. memes set in specific verses.

8. How do you feel about duplicates?

I don’t mind them, I’ve always had a least a few friends who wrote the same muses as me. Sometimes it makes me insecure about my own portrayal to see others who are super amazing good at writing them, or are very active while I am super slow, but that is 100% my issue and nobody else’s. I would never want to discourage someone from writing the same (canon) muse as me, and I don’t avoid them either.

9. How long have you been involved in roleplaying?

For almost 17 years now.

10. Is there a muse or verse you wish you could write in, but haven’t?

All my muses and verses, man. I have so little energy to write lately I’m not making any progress 😥 I have a lot of ideas and things discussed and ships in the pipeline but actual writing is not happening lately.

#( tag game. ) #( out of wonderland. )

[elijahkelly]

8/20/2023

I'm going to start by quickly going through some stuff that has been going on in my life that is huge and I would love to talk about later, but is not the purpose of this post.

Firstly, I got food poisoning from Cookout. It was so fucking horrible and I was incredibly miserable for a week, I went over 5 days without eating, and it not only took a toll on me physically, but also mentally. In conjunction with not being able to keep down my Prozac, being bedridden and helpless for a week while you watch your body destroy itself really ruins the self esteem.

Next, a friend of mine passed away last weekend. We worked together at my gym and he was always a fun and energetic person. Some shitty cards were dealt his way, and it was just too much for him. We went to his funeral this past Thursday, and it's been pretty tough for all of us who knew and loved him.

I was also recently made aware that Dylan does in fact have an engagement ring somewhere. He has already bought it, some people have already seen it, and I will be engaged soon. Like, within the next few months, presumably. He said he doesn't know if he's going to do it in the winter or the spring.

Two new people moved into my apartment. Dawson, who took Heather's room, and Aysiah, who took Dylan's room.

Lastly, we started classes last week! I am officially a college senior, and this time next year I will have a college degree. I am incredibly nervous, however, about the grad school search.

Those were pretty significant things that have happened lately, but were not my reason for writing this.

I wanted to make this post to voice my neuroticism about a situation that has really been stealing my focus as of late. I ran out of my Prozac shortly after getting over my food poisoning, and I will not be able to refill that prescription until I make an appointment to meet with my psychiatrist to see if any adjustments need to be made to my medication. So for the last week, I have been off my meds. I felt fine at first, but the last couple of days it has become glaringly obvious that I need to get back on them.

Because I've been off my meds for so long, I have been incredibly sensitive about my relationships with my friends. Specifically, Trent and Ozzy. They have quickly become two of my best friends, and they have also become incredibly close with one another. They have started hanging out with one another very often, which is fine of course. Off my meds, though, I think my brain is struggling to handle them being better friends with each other than they are with me. I have been so confident and self-assured lately, but that's been disrupted by my lack of medicine, so my insecurities of being outcast have started to resurface. Suddenly I really care when they spend time together without me, because my brain chooses to think that it equates to them liking me less. The logic behind it is that the more they spend time together without me, the more they might think that they don't need me.

There is another thing though. A couple nights ago, I went to a party with Dylan, Ozzy, Trent, and Grant. After the fact, Ozzy and Trent came back to my apartment with me and Dylan, and we sat in my room and talked for a while. Ozzy then said he was going to take Trent home, and they left. Being neurotic while also making sure they were okay, I watched their locations after they left. And I watched as both of their location icons went to Ozzy's house. Ozzy told me he made it home, but I never heard anything from Trent. I could see, though, that they were both at Ozzy's house. And I'm not going to lie, it made me upset. They went off to hang out together without me. I felt unimportant, forgotten, small. But I'm close with them, so I was comfortable mentioning how I felt. I texted Trent about it the next day, and he proceeded to tell me that he and Ozzy made out that night. That did not make me feel better. I, being in a relationship, have no right to speak on who decides to do anything with whoever else. But it didn't feel great to read that my two best friends were off behind my back making out and shit. I guess I'm nervous that they'll have some issue come up between them and it'll throw a wrench in our relationships? Maybe I'm upset that them doing this stuff together is solidifying a position where they like each other more than me. I don't know. But it sucks. They have full autonomy, but their actions made me feel like shit, and those feelings are just as valid as their decisions.

I don't know if I want to talk about it much more right now. Typing it all out honestly made me a little more upset about it, so I'm gonna end this here and brood for a while.

Bye for now.

#gay #lgbt #lgbtq #nonbinary #life #update

[rickie-the-storyteller]

Happy STS!

What’s the most self-indulgent element (trope, character, scene, etc.) you’ve written in your main WIP? Or in general?

What makes it self-indulgent?

Sorry for the late response… I was planning to answer this question as soon as I got it, but it really made me think haha

I don’t know if the stuff I’ve got in mind as answers really count as “self-indulgent” or not… to be honest, I don’t really go out of my way to be self-indulgent with my writing when it comes to characters/scenes/tropes etc. Unless you count me trying to write sequel/spin-off stories for my standalone stories lol. That’s one of the reasons I have yet to post most of my other stories… I never feel like they’re completely finished.

I suppose that looking back through my stuff, I could maybe think of a few elements of my characters/works that could be subconsciously self-indulgent in a sense…

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The fact that my main series is centred around a group of rebellious teens could be me trying to live vicariously through my characters. I don’t know… I’ve never been the rebel type. I’ve always been the quiet, sensible one. That’s how I’ve been known as throughout my student life lol. I don’t know what being a rebel is like (and I occasionally worry about not portraying it well in my writing), but I’ve always wondered about it.

Stephanie (on surface level) is the confident badass icon I wish I was in real life lol. Like, she has depth as a character and we see her weaknesses and how vunerable she can be outside all that, but she just has that strong, feisty energy that I just admire so much. She’s a strong independent woman (even though she’s still a teen).

Elise, as well (And by extension, Brelise). Ok, so I put a bit of myself in all my characters… but I’d say that the three girls sort of represent three sides of my personality - Steph is a confident boss, Alice is the insecure one that tends to feel like an invisible outcast to others, and El is the cheerful brainy one. I gave El most of my personality traits, but I also think that I could have made her a more idealised version of myself. Like, in real life, I’d say I’m more of a mix between Alice (insecure and sarcastic) and Elise… I’m an introvert, but Elise definitely has more people skills than I do lol. I’ve always been kind of a loner at school, and she has a group of friends (and gets along well with most people in school generally) That’s just one example. I’m awkward around people. Elise is much more confident (even though it’s in a more quiet sense, especially in contrast to Stephanie’s louder, bolder and more energetic confidence). And she’s WAY more upbeat than I am, too. Maybe when I was writing El, I was trying to think of how my school life would be like if I had come out of my shell sooner and let others in more… I probably would have been a lot less lonely haha (other than social skills, though, she’s basically me. I typically do well in school, I got good grades - though I don’t get As all the time - and I work hard. I also read a LOT. Often late into the night… it was part of my bedtime routine lol). As far as her relationship with Bret is concerned… well, I personally have never been in a relationship. Ever. Like all throughout high school… nothing. I’m about to go to university in September. But I digress. Just because I haven’t dated anyone before doesn’t mean I’ve never liked anyone before, though. I think I have mentioned before that I think Brelise is me subconsciously giving El my bad boy phase lol (I’ve completely grown out of it now hahaha)… as Lane Kim from Gilmore Girls says, every girl has to fall in love with a bad boy - that’s the rule. Not that Bret is just another “bad boy” character… I really wanted to try and make him more than that. But yeah their relationship definitely fits the “good girl, bad boy” trope. Which, now that I’m saying it, could be the reason I love writing for them so much!

Ben. Just Ben as a character. Steph’s long distance boyfriend. In The Misfit Manifesto, Ben really doesn’t have a lot of focus time, but the time that he does get is just him being a really good guy. He’s such a sweet boyfriend to Stephanie, and you really feel his presence even he’s not around. I think I was trying to imagine and create the perfect boyfriend when I was writing him. Only for him to be given a proper arc in the sequel that’ll completely ruin that perfect boyfriend image that he had in the previous instalments lol.

The fact that I include romantic subplots at all is self-indulgent… half the time, it isn’t even necessary. I write lovey dovey crap all the time. My main WIP was supposed to be a break from all that. Steph’s Crew was originally meant to be a YA/teen drama with some aspects of mystery/crime thrown in here and there. I didn’t want to add any romantic elements to it at first (except for Ben. He was still going to exist, there just wasn’t going to be as much of an focus on their relationship). But I had to. Because I love love! 💗

I’m sure there’s probably other things I could add if I thought hard enough… but I’m going to leave it there for now.

Thanks for the ask, @sam-glade!

#rickie-the-storyteller #writerblr #steph's crew #storyteller saturday #asks

[fmp2halimekaraca]

Conveying a Feeling (Research)

Since I am not doing something ''physical '' for my fmp but rather fully concentrating on digital art, getting the essence of my idea across could be more difficult.

As I mentioned in previous posts, I really want to concentrate on certain feelings and emotions taken from childhood experiences. The main one being the simplistic beauty and wonder that is seen through a child's eyes.

Pleasantville

The movie Pleasantville tackles the idea of a perfect world in a very interesting way. In this movie, the protagonists set on living in the perfect, black and white version of their life, where everything goes exactly as it should and nothing bad ever happens.

I found that very similar to how children usually see a sugar coated version of our reality and are blissfully unaware to the imperfections, worries and negative aspects in the world.

This movie is mostly black and white but when one of the protagonists breaks the perfect life cycle and starts to embrace the world's many imperfections, she also starts to regain her colours. This could suggest how breaking the mould and accepting the ups and downs of the world makes for a much better life and a beautiful and unique experience. This could even symbolise a person's transitioning between child and adult and how although the world is not perfect, it is worth living in it.

Norman Rockwell

I have also found this artist called Norman Rockwell who has created a series of paintings showing what it meant to be ''All-American''. These two paintings in particular seem to have that exact essence that was believed (and still is) to be the perfect/correct way of living.

The first one depicts a family during what seems to be a car road trip. Some stereotypical elements such as the bickering siblings, the family dog and the grumpy father are still present in today's sitcoms and family TV series.

This one shows a family about dinner. This one is probably the most iconic interpretation of a perfect life, especially with the whole idea of ''the man coming back from work to be served dinner by the wife'' .

There is a certain charm and welcoming atmosphere to these illustrations that I really like. The painting themselves are also extremely beautifully done and the warm colours and use of light sources and shadows make these even more cinematic and visually pleasing, especially in the second one where a warm glow is cast upon the family from the window behind.

Stories Without Words

Wall-E

A good story doesn't always need a lot of dialogue or narration to get a certain feeling or emotion across. Some stories don't rely on talking whatsoever and in most cases this only adds to the dramatic effect.

In Wall-E, the dialogue between the protagonists is extremely limited but it is still able to convey a lot of emotion through the character's body language, intense personalities and stunning visuals and environments. Even the music plays a very important role in guiding the viewers towards the intended emotional responses to certain scenes or interactions between characters.

The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse

Although dialogue is a lot more present in this story, I still consider it to be a lot more limited then what you would see in a regular movie and the way in which is presented is a lot more meaningful and deep. Rather than it being an exchange of words between characters, the conversations sound a lot like a little boy's inner struggles and battles to overcome the fear and loneliness of the world.

Each character seems to represent a different part of the same person, each with their own fears and insecurities but also willing to give advice towards another character's problems. I absolutely loved the way everything felt so quiet and so personal.

The beautiful watercolour, Winnie The Pooh-inspired style only adds to the positive feelings and the impactful message behind the story. The thick ink lines give it a beautifully flowing effect and a hand-made quality as well as makes the emotions shown through each frame and each background even more real and powerful.

As a side note, this kind of art style became so iconic and influential in media over the years that whenever it is used, it is instantly associated with a certain mind set and aesthetic.

The Panda, The Cat and The Dreadful Teddy is a parody to The Boy, The Mole (...) by taking the wholesome, childish drawing style and combining it with swearing and rude sarcastic jokes.