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shamixlour · 2 months

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I was rewatching the Bear and its kinda crazy the way Claire always forces herself on Carmy all the damn time (when she asked Fak for Carmy's real number when clearly the dude gave you a fake one for a reason or again forcing herself to the back kitchen when he got locked in the walk in when Fak told her it wasn't a good moment, timing or even during Carmy's panic attack scene, she forces herself in his mind, in his life so much that he believes that she would help him calm down....when we both know who truly is able to do that) and yk what's even crazier, the way the writers (who are geniuses btw so imo they really did this on purpose and for a reason) wrote her character in a way where as watchers we almost feel like we can't NOT love her, that by doing so we lowkey suck and we're a bit weird bcs not only Carmy's entourage (Nat, Richie & Fak) keeps insisting how good and great she is for him but also the girl seems to be, emphasises on seems, perfect for Carmy. She is the girl he used to fancy, his long time crush, she is pretty, intelligent, super easy going and ready to take all the steps needed to get to Carmy. He doesn't have to do anything almost for her to get into his life. She is easy and good and perfect so we should feel bad for not liking her, for not wanting her for him when everyone around Carmy thinks so of her and doesn't miss a chance to throw it right into our (and Carmy's) face all the fucking time. All the fucking time.

And so for me, it is written like that for a reason.

However we also see that Carmy starts losing his focus the moment she comes back into his life and best believe, I think he felt it, i think he knew and that is why he gave her a fake number bcs deep down he had a certain understanding that she was not perfect for the person he wants to become, he started to become but guess what, she forces herself and his entourage (Fak his best friend lol remember how carmy is a bit ???? When she tells him that thru the phone) thinks this might be good for him, she is the person Carmy always wanted so they think they are helping but they are wrong and they dont know and they dont see how he is eager to envolve bcs he doesn't show it much with them, he is not as open and human with them like he is with Syd. Besides, Carmy also has the tendancy to let things happen to him too, he kinda likes having it easy regarding all the other parts of his life (other than his job) so he just goes with the flow and so Carmy stops changing the sec he meets her again.

He stops and misses the opportunity to grow and envolve and find his purpose and I know deep down he knows and that is why all of their scenes kinda feels off. He knows deep down, not up front but we know with how their interactions are shown to us.

Claire is perfect for the Carmy from the past. She is perfect for the person he used to be and not for the one he thrives to become and so I am very excited to see how they're gonna play that for season 3 especially after she told him she loves him.

#the bear fx #the bear #the bear meta #sydcarmy #syd x carmy #carmy berzatto #carmy x sydney #im rewatching the bear and going crazy pt 38838292 #sydney adamu #just late night thoughts

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beauspot · 10 months

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The Bear Season 2: And Why I’m Fucking Annoyed (Full Spoilers below)

*Long Post*

The Bear is something truly special. When it dropped in June of last year it wasn’t a major hit right away. It was a sleeper and it grew its fanbase over time. If you were here this time last year you remember how small the fandom was posts on every platform could barely reach 200 interactions, but with the Golden Globe wins and the word of mouth this fandom began to grow and expand, because season one of the show was just so good.

Season 2 however is an interesting piece of media. I am well aware that I have some bias in this department and I can’t view this season objectively, but neither can the rest of you so I’ll say what I want.

To start off I really enjoyed some of the episodes this season, the first two? Excellent. The Marcus Episode(with my husband Will Poulter at his side)? Fantastic. The Richie Episode? Perfection. And let’s not even talk about Fishes, which was beyond words. I genuinely went into this season wanting to like it and praise it the way I did the previous season because I thought it was good. The writing—which is spectacular in nearly every other place—takes a nosedive with this romance plot. I still do think it’s good, but I can’t act like this whole season hasn’t left a sour taste in my mouth, because it has. Because the show runners are lying racist misogynistic nasty assholes who bullshitted us for nothing.

Toward the end of last year/beginning of this year Chef’s Kiss fans words made their way to some journalist who then asked about the potential for it with the actors and the writer( in an article stupidly named “don’t worry the bear doesn’t want carmy and sydney to kiss, either” the writer of which goes on to ship carmy and marcus so clearly they have excellent taste 😒) who all shut it down. Fine. That’s fine. That’s their opinion and it doesn’t affect us. What bothers me is the words of the co-creator Chris Storer who said this 👇🏾

He went on to say the show was also just meant to be focused on these people doing their jobs. So fine. We said even if it won’t be canon there’s no way they would bring in a new love interest cause that’s not “the vision” they have for the show, right?(He also goes on in the pic above to act like we couldn’t separate our love of the plot of the show from the ship which is…infantilizing and annoying) continuing on though, he also said this

He thought it would be cool to see a show with no romantic plot. Mind you this statement was made in January and the show starting filming in February. So unless they want me to believe they added this romance plot as some last minute thing (which very well could be the case as Claire has quite literally no personality outside of being pushy and being Carmy’s girlfriend) they knew they were having a romance plot in the second season and chose to lie about it. So the actors, the creator, basically everyone who was apart of this project said that Syd and Carmy were a weird ship (a strange thing to say to your, at the time, small audience even if that’s how you felt) just for them to turn around and have Carmy with a new love interest from school and have Sydney and marcus develop feelings for one another in the second to last episode? can y’all be fucking forreal for one minute?

Suddenly all you “yesss let men and women be friends, not every show needs romance” ass bitches want to ship something. I can tell you know Syd and Carmy have chemistry otherwise you wouldn’t have been shaking in your boots hoping the writers wouldn’t get them together. There was some dumb post i saw rooting for Claire and Carm but then adding ‘no one was better than platonic Sydcarmy’…

I see you.

I spoke about this before, but this constant sidelining of black women in these types of shows irks me. Sydney is basically hunting Carmy down for 85% of the season because he can’t do his fucking job he’s so consumed with Claire. And I know people are gonna say i’m being overdramatic, but it’s so clear they just did not want their main white boy to be with a black girl. Something that happens over and over and over again so many fucking times you can just lose count. Carmy, who in season one was so in tune with Sydney’s emotions he quelled his own anger and anxiety to ask if she was ok now ditches her at their restaurant to go help some girl he hasn’t seen since high school. He ditches her to go to a party then has the nerve to bring up Claire’s helping to inspire him.

Like yeah no shit Sydney is sorry that she’s there, y’all are opening a restaurant together which could fuck both your lives if it fails and Carmy is off doing god knows what instead of his job!

WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED?!? And yeah, Carmy fucks it up at the end with Claire but that doesn’t negate the rest of the season. Chef’s Kiss shippers are strange and delusional and the show doesn’t need romance and then Claire is half naked in Carmy’s apartment? Look Carmy deserves happiness, his life has been basically nonstop stress and trauma since he was a kid and him ending the season thinking he doesn’t deserve fun or love is heartbreaking because it isn’t true, he deserves all the love in the world especially since he is actively trying to break the cycle (along with his sister). That doesn’t negate the fact that he agreed to being partners with Syd and then left her to make decisions on her own about a business they agreed to start together. Which is why he apologized and rightfully so.

And I know for a fact annoying Sydney and Marcus shippers are going to be like “well ackshully they are clearly setting up Sydcus this season so how can they hate black women.” I love Marcus as much as the next person and honestly after I saw where the writing was going I was like fuck it why not at this point, but if Sydney and Carmy’s shippers were living off crumbs Sydney and Marcus shippers were living off the memory of food. But sure that ship had development.

also no i don’t fuck with that syd and marcus ship because why the fuck are you snapping at sydney cause she rejected you and it wasn’t even really a rejection that was very incel core and it’s not about being upset half the kitchen is always screaming about something, it’s why he snapped at her.

I’m just angry so yeah fuck this show.

I’m genuinely contemplating if I want to watch the next season at all. I said if they wanted to go no romance, fine go no romance, but to not only lie about that but bring in some whole new girl we don’t know and throw the black girl to the closest guy despite the fact Sydney and Carmy are more alike than anyone else? You clearly need to do some introspection and think about why you can view Sydney and Carmen as friends but get sick at the thought of them being more.

There is a possibility (a slight possibility) that they are playing the long game we wanted, but i am wary because they lied and put a manic pixie indie girl in as a love interest this time and it sucked. But then I remember the scene with Syd and Carmy under the table and how open and honest they were with each other and even though their relationship wasn’t the best this season I can see it’s potential, because that one scene had more chemistry than all of that other ships other scenes combined. I don’t know.

This got me thinking though Will Poulter romcom when? I will be seated. Also the consensus on twitter is that people really didn’t like Claire and thought the show should have ditched their plot all together so that’s nice. A lot of people seem to think this is a setup for sydcarmy and idk, maybe i’ll rewatch when i’m more calm.

#the only little bitch here is the show runner for being a lying sack of shit #the bear #the bear season 2 #the bear s2 #the bear fx #the bear hulu #carmen berzatto #carmy berzatto #sydney adamu #syd adamu #carmy x syd #syd x carmy #sydcarmy #chefs kiss #carmney #the bear marcus #the bear tina #black girl romance #misogynoir

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unpassive-viewer · 9 months

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The Bear: Season 2 Thoughts (Mild Spoilers)

Hey y’all,

I binged The Bear S2 this week and I have things to say.

This show is so visually beautiful, the shots of the food, the tight shots on the actors - everything was gorgeous. The cinematography impacted the story so perfectly in a way that I am not used to witnessing in television versus movies.

I was rooting for every single character so much. Their stories were all expanded upon so well, and none of them were static. The acting was 10/10, I really bought the development of the relationships even though some of them seemed a little random coming off of S1. The writing for Carmy was perfect as a product of his dysfunctional environment (disclosure: my family is very similar to his, it was like watching myself in a character). Jamie Lee Curtis’ acting made me want to crawl out of my skin, which is a testament to how well she played the part.

In particular, I fell in love with Richie and Tina this season.

Richie got the perfect redemption arc - this season was truly his and I loved it. I could not stand him in S1, but S2 fleshed out his character so well. I want his character to get win after win, and I think he has has a long way to go in S3 (should we get it). Matty Matheson’s character was also a great counterweight to Ebon’s pessimism, I thought their dynamic was a lot of fun.

I feel similarly about Tina’s character. This season you’re really able to understand their motivations and fears, which I always adore. Liza was incredible in the role. On one hand I think the show is best as a stand-alone, but I could also watch Tina’s story by itself. Both she and Richie get a huge dose of self-confidence this season and it makes for a very endearing, relatable story. I think very often stories that involve that kind of realization are very commodified and dramatized when it comes to middle-aged protagonists, but the growth of these characters felt very real and well-deserved. (Side note - I follow Liza on Instagram now and she’s such a sweet lady. She reminds me so much of my mom.)

Sydney - Ayo Edebiri - is an incredible character and Ayo’s writing was perfection. Syd’s and Carmy’s signing “I’m sorry” was a really interesting touch and encapsulates their dynamic so well. I also oddly love the way she’s styled. When she’s not wearing her work clothes, her style isn’t flashy, but she looks fantastic always. Her style is so reflective of her character - often slouched, baggy styles with pops of colour. In my opinion she looks like an artist - a creative - which I’d say is pretty accurate to her reality.

Lionel Boyce’s portrayal of Marcus was once again very sweet, and I liked his somewhat less dramatic character arc. I didn’t love his little outburst at the end of the season, but as a character that’s been such a consistent teddy bear it’s nice to see some more conflict introduced to his story.

After this season, I want more Will Poulter and Olivia Colman. I am very much in love with them, and their brief parts in the series were so lovely (despite feeling a little random). Olivia Colman brings the most incredible energy to every project I have seen her in, she is radiant and I love her. I also love the attention to detail with Poulter’s tattoos having a story behind them.

Claire was a good character as well, but she didn’t have the same effect on me as Poulter and Colman. While they’re all static characters, Claire was just... too perfect. Not entirely manic pixie dream girl perfect, but I didn’t find her particularly compelling. For what the character was, she was played well by Molly Gordon, and it was nice to see Carmy get the chance to be something other than an anxious unhappy wreck for a few episodes.

My singular big criticism as of now is that there was so much compressed into this season that it all felt a little random. There were a lot of characters introduced in a very short period of time. While it was nice to see the environment external to the restaurant and I think all of those characters fit very well, it was just a lot. I think the Christmas dinner episode was very important to the story, but the rest of the season could have used a little more breathing room that that episode took up.

I binged it, but this show deserves to be mulled over.

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carndriverrecords · 4 years

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First Blog Post 3/20/20

Started CnD Records today. Feels Good.

Working on some diss tracks. Not sure if they see it coming - doesn’t matter either way.

Planning to release Car and Driver first real record this Friday 3/20/20. Driving Test Driver Fest 1.

Self release first record - another 20 tracks next week. Compile top 10 - 15 for first release with other label - thinking Terrible, Kranky, blu ish label or Thrill Jockey. Citrus City a no-go for now. Maybe just keep building CnD records.

Be the middle man - take advantage of opportunities without sacrificing my bands’ (and those I represent) integrity.

Reach sleep destroyer.

Last night at Ted’s - great DJ set. Kidz bop remixes, Fancy. Crowd hated it. Ted disappointed we had to leave but it’s ok with everyone. Tall guy took aux right out of computer, have video. Started dancing - cucked everyone. Everyone thinks they’re the crazy charismatic guy. Am I actually? I think so. Syd thinks so.

CnD Fest 2 , 3 , 4 at Purchase and beyond. Would like to play apartments, Scully’s den in BK (reach out) and Philly, DC etc.

Next voice memo album - 20 - 25 tracks right now. Better than the first. Danny said best album ever.

Working on “My oh Maia Reason Why” video - my favorite video I’ve ever seen. Getting good feedback.

Important to collab with certain SUNY people before I go:

Members of Lip Critic, Dawson, Neal, Gabe.

Send stuff back and forth with Joseph Kress.

Need to write song about not sharing a stage w unstable Car and Driver - cost me 2 gigs. Ok because I had the police interaction that night.

Things have been working out quite well. Syd is keeping me in check. Main priorities are keep the energy going while I can and make sure everyone around me is comfortable with me doing my thing, specifically mom, sofia.

Going to Only Angels tomorrow to collab with Alex.

Tues/Wed in RI with Zach Gorton. Need to see Nick Holcomb, Sofia, Will Orchard if he’s around. Riley in Boston? Would love to.

Visit Dad soon on the way to Richmond, in a few weeks perhaps. Grandma Roberta etc. They have a BBQ place now - I bet it’s great.

Follow up in the morning (3 hours from now) with wedding band, Kevin Daniels, drummer etc.

Film sunrise sessions at Purchase: My Ride’s Here, Splendid Isolation, Keep me in your heart, Studebaker, Cat’s in the Cradle, Everybody that you know. Don’t think twice, Boots of Spanish Leather, Someday my Prince, Teenage Dirtbag, Arthur (Woof Woof), Forget You, Signed Sealed Delivered, Superstition, The Promise, Hold me now (TT), Love on Top, Townes Van Zandt, 1-800 superstar, Evan Wright, Tom Petty, Blinded By the Light, Searching for a Heart, Mag Field’s, Barenaked Ladies, TMBG, Dolly Parton one sided love, Byrds, Beatles, Kinks, Stones, Parquet Courts, T Swift (Red, Way I loved you), Mitski, Sasami, Anything Could Happen, Beach House, He Needs Me, These Days, YLT, Beach Boys, Big Star Take Care, G500/Luna, Felt, Psychic TV, Shelia, BJM, Yellow Sarong, Over and Over, Hazel St, Heatherwood, Helicopter, He Would’ve Laughted, I wanna be your lover, The pump, Good enough (sleep destroyer), Them airs, BH (14, indian summer), help me scrape mucus off my brain), Beach Comber, DO YOUR THING, Icehead, Bobby, 1000 times, WIll Orchard, Bon Iver, MGMT, Tame impala, Instant Crush, etc. Art Vandelay, Quick Canal, Stereolab, Grouper, Broadcast, Animal Collective, Panda Bear, Bachelor Kisses, Cranberries, Cure, Pastels, MBV, I found a reason, pale blue eyes, Deerhoof, Gretel Alex G, Dancing w tears in my eyes, Elvis Costello, No age(things i did), Are ya ok, Maus, Ariel, R Stevie, Aphex Twin, Zomes, Vampire Weekend etc.

Bring Laptop for Beats on some and lyrics for all.

Love life more than ever before. Music feels so good. Want to help, make amends, everything that moondog did. Don’t be homeless much longer.

Not sure if I like throbbing gristle - definitely like Psychic TV.

How savage should diss tracks be? Very? Match the severity of the person’s treatment of me/others. Aka - pretty bad for all except for Auto.

Listened to new Kanye today - 10x better and more influential than death grips.

Realized today that i’ve spent my whole life wishing I was Kanye and now I am Kanye. Feels very good.

Everyone is gifted but internet makes us angst.

I am mostly Camus right now - maybe more Kierkegaard soon. Religion and Terrence Malik. Still need to read books.

Order of Books: The graduate Portrait of the artist Consider Lobster Infinite Jest Pynchon Ulysses (At recommendation of American gamer association)

Syd is incredibly gifted. Want to help her feel comfortable doing art/work here in the chaos but also sort out the chaos for both of ours’ sake. I thrive in it, she tolerates well. Want to move to Riverdale still, maybe East Williamsburg with Backpack Chris. We’ll see about money. Philly perhaps, little too far. Jersey is good location but bad commute. Bad to RI.

Visit RI and Boston Tues - Thurs. Sell Cigarettes at Concerts. Feels right.

Keep smoking for now - quit end of summer perhaps.

Don’t have Corona Virus - glad we are not quarantined. Still be smart. Don’t expose mom regardless. Protect at ALL costs.

Really though, why does Journee hate me? Write new track (Journee into forever nevermore not now not ever (Lou)) or Journee into SJW self righteous moral posturing (way too savage - maybe voice memo outro)

AR Kane album is incredible. Syd loves too. Sample everything.

Crazy - sound better at jazz than ever in my life. Exploring harmony - never practice. Teach free lessons all the time. Love the diminished scale. Might be best jazz guitarist to ever live. Time will tell. Would be cool long term. Prefer singing.

Getting good at piano too.

I’m my favorite lyricist/comedian/actor.

Is maia right, acting isn’t hard? Weird they can’t act.

^Remember to delete^

Don’t share this on Facebook yet.

Why does Journee hate me so much? Just the Louis CK joke?

People who stay home and do nothing hate to see irreverent people doing things.

People like when you’re losing - don’t like to see you win.

^That makes me sound crazy.

F00D outsider might make me famous first.

Need to keep up with legal situation.

Hope mom and dad both live long. Call Syd, get something nice for everyone in family. Get weird jewel cases. Order jewelry from etsy. Post merch on bandcamp.

Finish album art soon. Music videos. Get better at animation etc. Pay Ben for his poster. Actually really good. Maybe album art? Duo album! Record in Wisconsin, release under his name. WIll success be good for Ben? I think so. Still can’t believe Liv told him I wasn’t ok. Wow - good content for lyrics. You truly cannot write this.

How will people react to diss tracks? Extremely negatively. Or no reaction. We shall see. Maybe no real names in the titles...... only on Oh my. 4 names in titles is too many. Don’t release Auto track. Maybe on Voice Memos.

Track List: Good God Bed Head Rosa Reprise Oh My House Pop 1 skydive Pop 2 APhex GVO Pay 4 Take some Cherish Stars in F Are ya ok too bright Honeys Get to work Everybody That You Know Frost Bit BPC NYC New Age Heimet Helmet Deadbeat dads watermill for slitting bars romantic song david byrne Cinema study in cinema Brain ego Cherry doc marten Can’t liv w/o Venmo groceries Oh you like? Dancin DJ blues We are the State Farm robots Danny dorito is a dirty devito My funny valentine Zoomer blues The thing abt genres Blss Like minds ft dawson Lil toucha jazz Introducing car and driver The holy moment empire Ethics 101 - gma in the street Otto is sad I don’t know what it means! Operatic mellismatic Car and driver fest will be a success! Car and driver fest was a bust again! Cipha’s comedy corner Ryder Be gone evil atonal spirits!

Unreleased mental breakdown compilation ep:

I like all music! I’m a stupid pos Electric micro bike Get off your phone! John frusc Nice song Lap steel for 2 My masseuse advice Bed head wash sq Punchie John Maus yoyo interview Diminished kinda thing

Build the NYC scene, w Blu ish, Evan, 1 800, sweet joseph, Comics Club, Dawson, Sloppy Jane, Wheatus,

See Jack Fortin in NYC soon. Either my event or his.

Things are still good. Syd will be a great filmmaker. WIll maybe will end up with a dancer or a filmmaker - Probably not a musician. WIll have many loves.

Things are good right now - hope they stay that way.

Feel like Ezra Keonig - hopefully someone reads this one day and agrees. Different time in history and the internet - hope this is less cringe than Ezra’s blog , probably not. Ezra, if you’re reading this, sorry. See ya at Bernie’s rally.

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drkandraz · 7 years

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Why “Wish You Were Here” is About the 5 Stages of Grief

Note: I apologize for any wrong or misunderstood information in advance. Also, I acknowledge that I may sometimes be a tad far fetched so bear with me, please and keep in mind I am in no way qualified to analyse this professionally.

After their gigantic success with their first concept album, “Dark Side of the Moon,” Pink Floyd decided to revisit their feelings and ideas about the loss of their friend and former band mate, Syd Barrett.

For a bit of backstory, Barrett, who had been one of the founding members of the band and a leading figure for them, inventing several new guitar techniques and specializing in psychedelic and folk tones, left the band because of uncertain reasons (most likely, a mix of budding mental illness, specifically schizophrenia, and drug usage, like LSD). A couple of albums following his departure later, Roger Waters became a sort of leader for the band, focusing on lyrics and conceptual albums that encompassed single ideas. This is how “Dark Side of the Moon” came to be. Later, revisiting the loss of their old partner Syd, the band decided to make a new album specifically with the purpose of exploring their own feelings, disillusionment and ideas about Barrett’s departure. And this is how “Wish You Were Here” came to be.

The title, in itself, suggests the theming to be pertaining to grief, loss or missing someone dear. Unlike “Dark Side of the Moon”, the title belongs to one of the tracks on the album, due to the purpose that it fits the album’s concept perfectly. The album cover depicting two businessmen shaking hands while one is on fire points to the critical elements suggested by “Welcome to the Machine” and “Have a Cigar,” while the logo depicting two mechanical hands shaking hands, perhaps suggesting the same thing or, rather, the “mechanical souls” of the separated partners surpassing any medium, but they have been irrevocably changed by “The Machine” into simple machines themselves.

The album can be split into five different sections: “Shine on You Crazy Diamond Parts 1-5″, “Welcome to the Machine”, “Have a Cigar”, “Wish You Were Here” and “Shine on You Crazy Diamond Parts 6-9″. Each of them has a different speaker and suggests a new point of view to the theme of loss, pointing to the idea of the Kubler-Ross Model, or the Five Stages of Grief, through which one supposedly goes through when faced with loss: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance.

The first five parts of “Shine on You Crazy Diamond” are, instrumentally speaking, a throwback to the Barrett era of the band; they are constituted of psychedelic and folk-style tones accompanied by rare vocals, Barrett himself noting it sounded “a bit old” when he visited the studio one day. The song itself is sorrowful, but bizzare and sometimes seemingly very relaxed with itself ( in the trumpet sections, for instance). The speaker is the band as a singular ego reaching out to Syd. The lyrics note the tragic incidents in Barrett’s life before encouraging him to “Shine on” once more (*S*hine on *Y*ou crazy *D*iamond). This section represents denial as it is a throwback to Syd’s signature style and the fact that the lyrics are encouraging despite their acknowledgement of the tragedy. The lyrics do not seem to care to think about the meaning of the incidents, they are basically denying their whole existence because “Syd needs to come and shine again.”

“Welcome to the Machine” is a completely different beast from “Shine on You.” It is dark, mechanical, critical, cynical and terrifying. The melody consists of jerky metallic rhythms punctuated by just as jerky acoustic guitar, symbolizing the control of art by the titular “Machine,” representing the music industry (or, if you will, society as a whole) and its disillusion and complete control over artistic vision. The speaker is a supposed “father figure,” or rather a supreme controlling force. The lyrics suggest the idea that artistic integrity and originality stand in complete opposition with industry, punctuated by the fact that the Machine has already typed rockers as rebellious souls who dream for money. “Welcome to the Machine” represents anger less in itself, but more of as a product of itself. It seeks to induce anger and rebellion against an oppressive authority symbol, reflective of the band’s feelings of anger caused by the loss of their band mate.

Changing the radio station, an aesthetic decision for the album that gives the feeling of a supposed narrative (a person driving, grieving for a lost friend), we are greeted by “Have a Cigar,” a song that represents the commercial aspect of the music industry and criticizing empty words. “Have a Cigar” is, in a way, a continuation of “Welcome to the Machine,” as it can be assumed the speaker is the same, or part of the same hierarchy. In the same way as the new jazzy instrumentation is a mask for the aggressive theme of “Welcome to the Machine,” the angry controlling tone of the lyrics changes into the tone of a slimy salesman trying to convince you amicably. This song represents bargaining in a much more literal sense than the other songs represent their stages. In and of itself, it induces anger in the audience (“By the way,which one is Pink?”). As a massive, oppressive force (the music industry), the speaker represents the Godly figure the band is bargaining with. The answer the song seeks is to the question “Was it worth it?”. Thankfully, the answer is given in the next song.

The radio station changes again and we hear the first notes of “Wish You Were Here,” the eponymous song (sorry for overcomplicating my vocabulary here, I just really like that word) of the whole album. It is obvious from the start that this is a sorrowful tune, therefore representing depression. The lyrics directly address Barrett’s situation “So you think you can tell/ Heaven from Hell/ Blue skies from pain...”. If thought of as a continuation of “Welcome to the Machine” and “Have a Cigar”, the song takes on a whole new meaning, criticizing Syd for “Exchanging/ A walk-on part in the war/ For a lead role in a cage”, essentially falling into traps the band almost made us fall into with the previous two songs: the music industry is terrible and counter-productive to creativity, yet, they say, it is needed to be a leading part of “the war,” Life. Through all of this, “Wish You Were Here” symbolizes depression and mourning, but is also self-righteous: the band knows they made the right choice leaving him behind.To modify a How I Met Your Mother quote, “I’m happy that we made the right choice, but damn it what if?”. It truly exemplifies depression this way: it knows rationality, and it knows it’s in the right, but it...feels wrong, in a sense.

As you may have observed, up until now, the lyrics have always suggested more than one feeling. This also leads to the idea that grief is not linear; emotions slide in and out of consciousness until the griever accepts the loss. This is relevant, as “Shine on You Crazy Diamond Parts 6-9″ and their lyrics reflect all of these feelings simultaneously, almost as a summary of the album. The song starts with a mysterious theme signifying a confusion in feeling, which leads into Part 7′s lyrics, mirroring part 4′s: “Nobody knows where you are/ How near of how far”, “And we’ll bask in the shadow of yesterday’s triumph/ And sail on the steel breeze” etc, symbolizing the band’s acceptance: they will no longer deny the loss, nor be angry, nor bargain with authority, nor be depressed; they promise to remember and honour Syd’s memory and move on. The next section is a psychedelic flourish as an ode to a lost comrade, followed by a sad psychedelic/folk theme as a last bit of regret and sorrow which ends the album with a satisfying feeling of acceptance.

To conclude this piece, I would like to mention that, as far as I know, this is simply a personal theory that could, in all honesty, be pretty easily taken apart. In spite of this, I retain my right to interpretation as I only wanted to share my love for the band and their work, especially this album which is my personal favourite, through what I believe I do best: categorization, interpretation and systematization. Feel free to tell me your own interpretations as I’d love to hear them and thank you for getting through this huge wall of text with me.

#pink floyd #wish you were here #shine on you crazy diamond #welcome to the machine #have a cigar #analysis #five stages of grief #interpretation #theory #syd barrett

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bennet-darcy · 7 years

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I was tagged by my friend @cosmic-crossing , thanks Syd! ♡

☆ “Nicknames?”

My mom often calls me “Amb”, and my dad calls me “Ambee” or “Amber Bear”. When I was living in London, the student I was assigned to work with would call me a variety of names. His favorite was “Mrs. Crouton”. My current students just call me “Amber”.

My friends call me nerd, or loser. y’know. All of those affectionate insults. ♡

☆ “Gender”

Cis female

☆ “Star Sign?”

 Cancer

 ☆ “MBTI Type”

I’ve taken the mtbi test several times and have gotten different results each time, so I truly do not even know which one I am. (But also, have a nerdy Psychology fact you didn’t ask for: mbti tests are not considered credible by most psychologists because it is based on unquantifiable data, and because of this, I don’t really care to know what my “mbti type” is tbqh.

☆ “Height?” 

5'2

☆ “Time?” 

4:32pm. I got home from work not long ago, and I really should be doing mandatory online trainings but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

☆ “Birthday?” 

July 5th

 ☆”Fav Bands?”

I don’t really?????? Listen to bands often. Mostly solo artists. But uh. I like The Arctic Monkeys, uhhhhhhh I literally can’t think of any other bands at the moment, sorry

☆ “Fav solo artist?

ED SHEERAN!!!!

I also enjoy Hozier, James Blunt, Enya, Josh Groban, and (okay this is lame but I really enjoy classical music a lot, and Chopin and Pachelbel are my favorite classical artists, ufdsghfjd)

☆ “Song stuck in my mind” 

“Christmas (Baby Please Come Home)” by Mariah Carrey. It just came on shuffle on my itunes, and now it’ll be in my head all day probably.

☆ “Last movie I watched” 

Last night I watched a really weird low budget french movie called “Sky”. I watched it with my sister, because her favorite actor (Norman Redus) plays a main role in it, and. It was a really strange film. Very interesting, for sure, though.

☆ “Last show I watched”

The Walking Dead, I think? Yeah

☆ “Do I have other blogs?”

okay so yes i technically do, but I just saved a url which I might do something with, but I also might just release it idk. I’m too lazy to run side-blogs. You all just have to deal with me posting 100% of my strange blog content here, sorry.

☆ “When did I create my blog” 

*war flashbacks* like four or five years ago I think???? oh my god…..

☆ “What do I post about mostly?” 

my blog is 100% garbage, 100% of the time. But mostly I post sherlock/johnlock stuff, but you’ll also see lots of Jane Austen content (mostly pride and prejudice) and stuff from The Walking Dead

☆ “Last thing I googled?” 

TWD Negan t-shirts, gjfksleire

☆ “Following” 

148

☆ “Followers on this blog?”

729

☆ “Fav colors?”

 *Sherlock voice* Lilac. But really, lilac/lavender color

☆ “Average hours of sleep?”

Since I started my new job, I’ve been sleeping about 5 hours a night, and it’s definitely not enough, because I’ve been so exhausted when I get home from work.

☆ “Lucky number?”

I don’t know? 5, I guess.

☆ “Instruments?” 

I can play the violin, a bit! I really need to practice more, though. But yes, violin!

☆ “What I’m wearing”

 Jurassic Park t-shirt and really soft cotton shorts, i’m very comfy and very sleepy

 ☆ “How many blankets do I sleep with?” 

1 or 2, normally

☆ “Dream Job?” 

I don’t really know, to be completely honest. For a long time, I thought I wanted to be a Counseling/Clinical Psychologist. But then I took a class in Counseling Psych at uni, and while I enjoyed it, I just couldn’t really picture myself going into that branch of psychology.

I know I definitely want to do something with Psychology, possibly special needs psychology. I’m currently working as an assistant in a severe special needs (ssn) classroom, and I get to do a lot of work alongside the school psychologist, and I find that job/that field to be really interesting. So maybe something like that…? I don’t know, lol

 ☆ “Dream trip?” 

*SCREAMS* Oh man, lately I’ve been really wanting to go back to the UK/British Isles with a friend or like someone important to me. (Ireland, Northern Ireland, Scotland, Wales, and England.) I love and miss the UK so much, and to be able to tour it with someone special in my life is honestly The Dream.

But also just in general, I love Europe, so any trip to Europe would be ideal tbh

 ☆ “Fav food?”

so many. But I’m gonna say chipotle, because???? I love it, and I’m constantly craving it

☆ “Nationality?”

American. Originally from California, but now living in Colorado

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I’m not tagging people because I always feel creepy doing that, and I don’t want to disrupt anyone, so uhh if you’re reading this, and if you wanna do it, consider yourself tagged.

#about me #tag game #long post

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thebeckychronicles · 7 years

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Post 23- Thank You

The morning of my biopsy my siblings sent their love over our group chat. Their messages of encouragement were the last thing I saw before the procedure began.

My sister and my dad were in the room with me when the doctor told me it was cancer.

The day I was diagnosed a family friend brought us pizza and comforted my dad. Thanks Colt.

The day I was diagnosed another family friend from my parent’s church came and prayed with my parents and I. Gracias Hermana Dora.

The day I was diagnosed my dad didn’t go to work and my mom sat on the floor next to my bed as I slept. I thought if I could sleep through this ordeal I could handle it.

A few days after my diagnosis other family friends stopped by and brought us groceries and their prayers.

The week of my diagnosis my best friend’s parents called mine to voice their support and their love.

The week after my diagnosis, I needed to get out of the house, so my brother drove me to the mall while I cried in the passenger seat the whole way there.

My mother stopped working, despite my protests, to take care of me. I now realize how much I needed her with me.

My dad would always call throughout the day to see how I was doing.

In the weeks following my diagnosis I’d wake in the early mornings to the sound of my mother’s prayers; I’ve imagined her soft words veiling me in armor since.

The first day of chemotherapy, longtime friends visited me at home and brought me snacks. Thanks Mara and Ariana.

A childhood friend insisted on visiting me during chemo on different occasions. Thanks for the muffins and singing me to sleep Steph, you’re my favorite savage.

LaraLaraLaraLara! Thank you for your encouragement and for plying me with baked goods and your wonderful care package. The box alone brightens my day.

Throughout this whole process Nancy, you’ve checked in on me. Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts. Also thanks for the HUGE conchita. Life made dude.

To friends from church who came and visited me and didn’t ask me to talk about my diagnosis that felt fresh in light of my shortened hair, thank you Jennifer and Jasmin. Big thanks for the hooking it up with bomb conchas and coconut oil.

Sam, you’re always checking in on me, and planning our next hang out. Whether it was Taco Bell or seeing a movie, thank you for getting me out of the house and being my constant friend throughout this thing.

Kelly, thank you for coming to visit me from Chicago. Thank you for checking in on me and for all your tips and gifts on combatting the terrible side effects that we shared. You brought me so much joy and continue to do so. I can’t wait to see you again.

Kim, we met the day before my birthday, a few weeks before my diagnosis and you showed me the kindness and thoughtfulness of a longtime friend. Thank you for showing me such friendship.

Cindy, you’ve sent me messages of encouragement and have brought me pan dulce and chocolate abuelita. Thanks for everything girl.

Roberto, you were one of the first people I called when I found out I was sick. The first thing you said to me was, “We got this. We got this.” Thank you for your love and generosity. Thank you for being more than my friend, thank you for being my family. When you tell me that whatever I need you’re there, I 10000% believe you mean it. And that means the world to me.

D, thank you for reaching out with your own experience. And helping me stay positive as I approached the finish line. Having you on this journey with me for as long as I did was SUCH a comfort. I can’t adequately articulate my gratitude.

To Syd and Mama and Baby Santostefano, thank you thank you thank you for making time to come to Washington and spoiling me with love and quality time while you were here. I love you and I’m so grateful you’ve welcomed me into your family so wholeheartedly. I lava you all.

Tisa, thank you for being my best friend. For treating me normally. For not being weird about the fact that I have cancer. For driving everywhere and maintaining an amazing friendship with me despite the distance. To Shauna, first off, thank you for encouraging my love of reading since the 7th grade. Thank you for being there for me from the beginning. For not bullshitting me with platitudes. Thank you for acting like my sounding board and helping me navigate this whole new experience. Thank you for letting me whine, letting me share my frustrations and annoyance with you. Thank you for understanding my sarcasm and my morbid humor. Thank you for opening your home to me next month. I can’t wait to see you.

These are just a few of the many acts of love and kindness that my community has shown me this year. I really could go on forever. Even if I didn’t mention you by name just know I appreciate all those who’ve kept my family and I in their thoughts and prayers and have reached out to me.

After my parents got off the phone with my best friend Lety’s parents, I couldn’t help but voice how taken aback I was by the outpouring of love and support I had received since announcing my diagnosis on Facebook. I truly hadn’t expected much of a reaction, not because it’s not a shocking thing to say, “I have cancer,” but I’ve always thought I was loved deeply if not widely. I never thought of myself as someone who stood out much, not in junior high and high school, and not after either. This is something that never bothered me so I’m fine with it. I told my parents I hadn’t expected so many people to reach out to me following that Facebook post. In response my dad said that the outpouring of support and love was the result of “el impacto de alguien que camina por un jardin y tiene cuidado no causar dano.” The impact of someone who walks through a garden without causing damage. He went on to say how proud of me he is.

En toda honestidad Pa, la única razón por la cual yo sé cómo caminar con cuidado por un jardin es porque yo sigo los pasos de usted y mi mama. Espero poder seguir sus pasos por el resto de mi vida. Gracias por apoyarme durante este año. Ustedes dos se han esforzado en proveer para toda la familia. Gracias por acompañarme a cada cita, por no dejar que yo este sola, por su paciencia conmigo. Gracias por amarme en los tiempos más difíciles. Estoy tan agradecida con Dios por haberme dado ustedes como padres. Love you.

I’m so blessed to be so wholly loved.

I started writing my love letters to my family and friends, early on in my cancer journey, because I never doubted that they would be my desperately needed support system. As I made my way through this journey, and as I’m nearing the end, I continued adding to these letters and here they are.

To my family as a whole: parents, siblings, aunts and uncles and cousins: gracias por todo el amor y apoyo que me han dado. Gracias por no dejar que yo pase por esto sola. Gracias por amarme.

Maha- you are the planner, my realist that I need when I needed grounding. You brought my family and I reassurance that this too shall pass. You’ve made me feel safe in a time when being in my own body felt risky and dangerous. Thank you for always thinking of me, for reminding me to love myself, for reminding me that God is good, always. Thank you for being my mentor, my friend. My family. I can’t tell you how blessed I am to know you and have you in my life. Surely God loves me so much that he gave me you. I love you.

Carlos- thank you for being the levity I needed, for letting me express my emotions (especially anger) out loud without judgement and lectures. You’ve been a gatekeeper for me so thank you for that. Thank you for listening and listening and not asking questions; for reminding others that my treatment plan is my choice. Thank you for caring and not letting my disease be all we talk about. Love you (you’re ugly). .

To my sister Brianda: thank you for being my anchor through this whole experience. Thank you for believing that I’d beat this from the jump and for fiercely advocating for me when I didn’t have the heart or the will to. For caring about my health when I didn’t want to give a shit about my body. You’ve been my confidante and have had the burden of listening to my fears, my anger, my grief, of seeing me at my lowest. Thank you for bearing the brunt of a lot of the honest but ugly and scary things I said. I needed that. Thank you for granting me that bit of selfishness. Thank you for being my gatekeeper against the well-meaning and overwhelming world. I really will never be able to express how much comfort your care brought me in the most painful and seemingly unending times. Thank you for thinking of me and taking care of me even when you didn’t have to. You’re my number one Bad Gal Bri Bri. Love you ugly.

I know lately it has seemed like I’ve only been in and out of a very difficult place. And the reality is I have been. There are good and bad days and I used to think that if a day wasn’t straight up good, it must be bad. But I’ve come to realize that some days are good, others are bad and most are somewhere in between. And that’s okay. As clichéd as it may seem, although I’ve been a bit hung up on the heavy stuff I’m dealing with- because dealing with it demands more attention- I’m actually doing pretty good right now because I have some perspective. The month of May and the beginning of June were especially hard. But I’m doing a lot better now. I think a lot of that has to do with the fact that it’s really easy for me, despite my diagnosis, to see how blessed I am. I am absolutely blessed. How can I say I am not? I am so wholly loved; it’s impossible to deny how good I have it. I have wonderful, wonderful family and friends. And thank you does not at all encompass my gratitude and love for all of them. Even though I don’t understand God, like Maha told me in the beginning, God’s got me.

5 MORE DAYS

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