#how do u guys deal with it

[professorjjong]

Blue Night 231119

It’s the final episode of Blue Night before it goes off air. The hosts Okdal, who were weekly guests during Jonghyun’s stint as the host, played SHINee’s “Ode to You” going into the third part of the show.

Okdal: “We’re beginning the third part of the show by listening to SHINee’s ‘Ode to You.’ Listening [to this song] makes me think of our beloved SHINee… our beloved Jjong-D. Especially today.”

Cr. geeknim via professorjjong (kor➡️jpn➡️eng)

#231119 #jonghyun #trans #my trans #tbh I don’t remember how exactly I used to format these #and I’m too lazy to check #I’m alive just very mentally I’ll #looking at tumblr literally makes me !!!! there’s so much on the fucking screen #how do u guys deal with it #blue night #it’s a small comment but anytime jjong is mentioned I eat it up #thank u so much for ur hard work Okdal!! #blue night was a beautiful space jonghyun created and I’m so happy you guys were able #to continue though on for him with your hard work of so many years #thank u for mentioning him even in tiny comments like these

[alibonbonn]

Guy who went to Baldur’s Gate law school and passed the Baldur’s Gate bar exam some time long ago

#its all very tedious I BET #did he chug speed potions to pull all-nighters #ALSO shouldn’t he know not to make deals with the devil without a lawyer present #evidently baldurs gates legal system is in shambles #yelling about how apparently origin astarion can offer to look over wyll’s contract omg #anyways this is for my lawyer friends idk how u guys do this #bg3 #baldur’s gate iii #astarion #baldurs gate 3 #astarion ancunin #alibonbonn #ali draws

[starjunkyard]

Good god ep18 s6. House dealing (god-awfully .Full disclosure. The episode opens with house drinking himself half to death with zero regard for himself to the point of unintentionally breaking into his neighbours house and passing out there) with wilson getting back together with his ex-wife while the patient of the episode grapples with his possibly reciprocated love for the woman he loves but cannot Have because she's engaged to be wed with his friend.......... Thirteen egging the patient on to tell her how he really feels but he genuinely Cant Bring Himself To because "my friend's a great guy . He's rich, smart, and he'll treat her well. Me-- I'd do everything I could for her. But it wouldn't be much. And she... she deserves the best." And the episode ends with house resignedly throwing away the sealed envelope that held all the dirt he hired lucas to get on wilson's ex wife to try and break them upOhhhhhhhh oh. OHHHHHHHHHHHHH Ouhhhhhhh. Ouhhhhh the acknowledgement that house would do everything & anything & more for wilson Give .all of himself To Wilson and it still wouldn't be enough because house is House. Because even at his best-- house would still be house and because of that house would never be able to give wilson what he wants What he Needs. Wilson doesn't. Need the misanthropic bastard he's been in love with for 20 years who bites and spits at any threat or sign of emotional intimacy or vulnerability. What wilson. Needs is a woman . A wife and two kids and a white picket fence because that's all wilson is

Its the foundation of his entire self that would bring everything else down with it if it were to crumble. The face that wilson has spent his entire Life honing and sculpting and perfecting to present as the Perfect Hardworking American Man and Son. The perfect husband and treasured son with his own big shiny department and a stainless-white doctor's coat and the Exact Man a woman would Need

What is wilson. who is he What is left of him if he is not needed by a woman; not needed nor wanted any longer by the world he's lived his entire life by to please. What is James Wilson if not what everyone else expects him to be

House is the antithesis to all of that. A man rough and abrasive as sandpaper who makes wilson selfish makes him emotional and stupid. Who encourages wilson to lash out and fight and get angry and stand up for himself and be the exact opposite of what he's worked his entire life to be. Instead of accepting and taking wilson's painstakingly pedantically constructed facade at face value House fucking. Crashes through the walls with a bulldozer. Snatches the mask right off of wilson's face and dangles it over his head goading wilson to go ahead; try and get it back

Wilson is so deathly terrified at the idea of breaking out of the norms he himself has walled himself into-- he can't Bear to think of any other future for himself that is anything other than wholly and completely unnoticeable average monotonous unextraordinary

and House is the exact opposite of unnoticeable average monotonous unextraordinary. House is the apple of Eden that rests on the other side of wilson's pristine-white picket fence. The object of Wilson's every true desire that simultaneously threatens to doom and tear down everything wilson regards protects worships as the one untouchable unquestionable unchangeable truth of his life

House loses before it even starts. No one can compete with that; not even house. By nature, house can never be what wilson needs. What wilson truly desires or wants or needs is another subject entirely, something im genuinely not sure wilson could even grapple with, let alone come to terms with canonically. I fully believe wilson and house are the loves of each other's lives but house will never be what wilson "needs" or "wants" no matter what he does or changes about himself. They love each other more than anything and they want each other and they cant live without each other but House-- intrensically, by nature-- cannot be what Wilson wants.

#Looks around #What was that you guys #Did you guys hear that... #Its not this serious it realy genuinly isnt except It Is. It genuinely is to me #Tch........ Baka normies like you.... U would never get the shit that im on 😏🤏... (<- Insane) #SOMEONE SEDATE ME #Theyre so. I cant believe what they put in this show dawg i feel crazy #Explicitly implying that hilson are in love and soulmates numerous times acknowledged by actors producers and the show itself #It makes my head hurt like how do i even deal with thuis #Im so tiredgoodnight. I hate this show #Fuck thsi worl d #johan being crazy about yaoi md #house md #hilson #gregory house #james wilson #character analysis #relationship analysis

[jonathanssweatercollection]

you still resent nancy and jonathan for getting together???? for “hurting steve’s feelings”??? despite the fact that he verbally supported their relationship like 2 hours after seeing them together. this from a season that released 6 fucking years ago. a season prior to him saying that he was NOT in love with nancy anymore. do you want me to call shawn levy and tell him of your dilemma. bestie do you need to rewatch the source material

#ppl will use ANY excuse to hate nancy and jonathan to prop steve* up #their flanderised ‘pwecious little babygirl’ steve who is a delicate little flower who’s still butthurt over his high school breakup #albeit s4 did completely surrender to this bs characterisation bc the duffers don’t know how to write a storyline for steve that doesn’t #involve him being a lovestruck loser nowadays. SAD #get me in that writers room i could give him something good thats not egregiously repetitive #funny that the post that sparked this was an ANTI MURRAY FANFIC?????? in 2023. bc him suggesting jon+nancy should be together was unfair to #fuckin STEVE?????? #1) murray is literally a jokey funnyguy character. he’s a little guy it’s his birthday he makes risotto studies martial arts is a conspiracy #theorist who daydrinks and snores on airplanes. he’s SO unserious #if u want to hate on him thats fine good for u whatever but do it for. normal reasons. like encouraging teenagers to drink and have sex in #his bunker. like he was not normal for that i get it i used to kinda dislike him for that too but like. its literally not meant 2 be #that big of a deal. nothing matters there’s no point the show hasn’t been genuinely good for six years nothing matters go outside go to bed #anyways. happy 3 AM everyone im going to sleep love and what have you on planet earth #stranger things #nancy wheeler #steve harrington #jonathan byers #mine

[inamagicalhallucination]

the day the entire bsd fandom realizes that perhaps atsushi thinks dazai’s a good guy and likes him is becuz for the most part, dazai’s been pretty good to him 

#dazai: takes atsushi off the street - helps him deal with his grief - encourages him - puts trust in atsushi even when atsushi doesnt trust #himself - keeps atsushi away from the darker aspects of himself #some of yall: i can believe atsushi is so disconnected from reality that he's deluded himself into thinking that dazai is a good person #<--- do you realize how dumb that sounds #Dazai Osamu #bsd dazai #dazai and atsushi #bungou stray dogs dazai #atsushi nakajima #bsd atsushi #hot take of the day: atsushi understands dazai more than the bsd fandom #because so much of the bsd fandom thinks about dazai the same way dazai thinks about himself and either labels him as a grrrr bad evil guy o #r a sexy no feeling monster #both of which really ruin his character #wait second hot take of the day #stop dumbing down atsushi becuz u don't like dazai being able to show different parts of himself to different ppl #bungou stray dogs atsushi

[dizzeners]

Back home, off the run...

my name is Enzi, and welcome to my blog! i honestly dont know what my pronouns are at the moment so you can just use any

i am a minor, and i often post pictures of myself wearing kandi cuffs i make. those photos usually include the bottom half of my face + my shirt. if you are an adult and dont want to see any photos of minors, i would understand if u block me but im not gonna stop posting them the tags for my music posts and crochet posts are "Enzies playlist" and "Enzies crochet shenanigans"

the stuff i like: Keepers of the Lost Cities MCR kandi crochet Falling in reverse, but i dont listen to them too often tbh getting into Waterparks :) i don't really do tag games or chain asks, but i dont mind it at all when you tag me or send them to me :)

links: Pronouns.page (outdated but i dont have the energy to update it lol) pinterest spotify

#intro post #if theres anything i need to add just let me know <32 #hi guys i love u <3 #ahhh i want to add a blinkies section but i dont know where to find any... #anyways how are yall on this fine day #hey how do you deal with feeling of desperation this shit hurts #grrrrrrr i love santi so much

[catboyfurina]

Idk what precisely to call it since honorifics aren't Pronouns but vertin using she/her while routinely being addressed as Lord, sir, etc is soooooooo 🥰 it's like mixed pronouns but not.

#beeep #i love reverse 1999 #like shes not a he him lesbian but like yknow !!! #theres not a quick and easy shortcut for it but shes definitely sapphic and im leaning more lesbian hc than bi tbh !!!! #(which btw bi women can also be gnc and use he him in a wlw way) #(i just think vertin lesbian) #(but i KNOW shes sapphic) #AND HOW SHES USUALLY a my lord SPECIFICALLY when addressed by the girl so down bad for her???? gay as fuck #<- this isnt spoilers bc all the women wont her #well okay thats not precisely true. but a great deal of them do #anyway. i just hope that it isnt a translation error bc goes crazy ahhhh #shes a gentleman..... #and also i think vertin needs to meet a guy who isnt evil bc (possibly nb) lesbian and trans guy bestie duo is one of my favorite tropes #but so far she only interacts with evil people and or girls that wont her 😔😔😔 #which is so valid but also 😔😔😔 vertin u need platonic friends too. friends that arent desperately hoping you will push them out of danger #and land on top of them and gaze into their eyes #(or just hoping to make out) #(there are both types of wonts her in this game) #(along with a secret third kind) #anyway #rhvjvdjgdjvbjdbkrbkdjb vertin #i have to. be a person. i have to be a person but instead my brain is just full of WOW GAME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #anyway vertin has like. fancy oldtimey gentleman gnc going on #not so gnc by modern standards that it would make Certain People mad but enough that it is making Me very happy #and i just !!!!! cannot get over how genius it is to combine sheher pronouns with traditionally masculine terms of address!!!!!!! #shes so gender. not my gender but she has so much gender #i love vertin and i love regulus and i love druvis and i love the fool and i love tooth fairy who isnt out yet but i saw her in that one vid #eo #i was expecting to play this so casually like stick it on my phone and then i can do it while waiting for class when im there a few minutes #early but i do Not feel casual about this at all!!!!!!!!!!!! <- i think i got hyperfixated lads

[evilkaeya]

hi I wrote a silly skk fic (chuuya sometimes floats up when he's drunk and unconscious but dazai is there to pull him down that's it that's the fic)

#this is the silliest thing I've written in a while #leave feedback if u liked it? I'll kill for u if u do #soukoku #skk #dazai osamu #chuuya nakahara #bsd fic #also its called sleepfloating bcz its like. sleepwalking yk. get it. #my god I'm so unfunny #how do u guys deal w me #bsd #bungou stray dogs

[apple-of-my-pie]

the thing about Three Stories is that it shows what makes house’s methods so special. three stories, three patients with inexplicable leg pain. the first two are treated by house and his team, who go above and beyond to find what’s wrong with them, no matter what; both patients return to their lives happy and healthy. the third is dismissed by ‘normal’ doctors as a drug addict for so long that the diagnosis and treatment are too late for a full recovery, making patient 3 the only one who still has to live with restricted mobility and constant pain. and then you find out patient 3 is house, and he’s doing for others what should have been done for him. ough

#especially when u add that to the fact that he’s pretty bitter abt his disability #like. nobody cared enough to help him when he needed help and now he obsesses over solving every case #if someone had put in that much effort to solve HIS case he might have been almost totally fine #it really gets me how the ‘drug addict’ story starts with a guy who literally cannot stop screaming bc he’s in so much pain #his pain wasn’t given enough consideration years ago and now he’s STILL IN PAIN #all the time #obvs house’s dedication to Solving The Case isn’t always a good thing #but he definitely gives more of a shit than a lot of doctors do #he’s Committed. he’s Invested #if he has a patient w a problem he will find and fix that problem or die trying #and that is exactly what he needed when HE was a patient—someone who really wanted to deal with his problem #instead he got vague indifference and a lifelong leg injury #house md #bay’s originals

[corvidaedream]

remember a year ago when i accidentally found and held a guy's skull and i was so shaken by it that i talked to my therapist about it and she told me trying to find out who he was and think of him as a person wasn't healthy or good

and then a couple months later recommended me a bunch of "gender resources" from the heritage foundation so i stopped going to therapy

anyway hes still Albert to me, a guy who liked science and the sea and writing letters to his sister and im admittedly still kind of fucked up about him

#messages from the ouija board #that job was so neat and im so mad that the crew i was working with sucked and created an unsafe environment and also the commute was hell #i should stop by that cemetery sometime again to see how our repairs to albert's grave held up #the incident was really humbling and kinda disturbing but also tbh pretty funny bc it was me & the other intern alone #on our first day without our supervisor around and that was the ONE DAY we had to find a skeleton #and the guys in charge of interring bodies were like. i know why u came to us w this. but we do not deal w them coming back up either. #idk why im bringing this up its not like the Anniversary of the incident or anything i just am thinking about him today

[mantisgodsdomain]

We do think that Riz is a gynandromorph of some description, especially since damselfly sexual dimorphism tends to be pretty distinct and he's displaying a very unconventional morph for a damselfly of any flavor. He would have no goddamned clue what that would mean, of course, and he probably wouldn't care about it if you told him, but he's definitely got something going on there.

#we speak #bug fables #for reference its a Thing for damselflies to have mimicry in the form of Females Who Look Like Males #but its a one-way street. theres no equivalent female-mimic morph for males #which makes riz Extremely Notable since hes displaying a real clear female morph there #and though being transgender would be very much possible for him we prefer this option #especially since it also offers extra reason why he's got such a broad palette compared to his sister and his father #guy is Unusually Big for a male damselfly and just didnt think twice about it. he feels like the sort of guy who just #wouldnt care overly much for self-definition we think. hes got a job to do. do you think he cares about how rare his genes are? #for his sister there is literally no way to tell if shes transfem or just a mimic morph and tbh good for her #we'll. drop some comparison images in a reblog for the irl damselflies #but in general we favor this one both bc it appeals to us more and bc riz just feels like the sort of guy who wouldnt care much abt gender #like. even if he were trans he feels like the sort of guy who would tell like three people about his pronouns #and then just go about his day and either they tell people or they dont and he doesnt particularly care either way #hes got things to do. traps to build. yes hes a guy but what is the point of making a thing out of it when theres poachers to deal with #he feels like the sort of dude to be Cis Guy enough that hes entirely confused as to what ur talking about if u try and misgender him #no clue where youre coming from but youre wrong #anyways back to spear fighting 101 #(note: male and female used here as in the arbitrary sex categories. its the junk. we know its not accurate to being A People) #(its the terminology we've got in the back drawer)

[unexpectedbrickattack]

peep peep 🐁..

#chattin #waitin to be picked up from my aunts house #dogsitting while she was on a trip w my mom and sister #so im going to sit here and chat about some stuff #SFW this time im going to behave ! #thinking of ph #i like writing him as a fucked up lil guy…. #got obsessed; mistook possessive behavior for love oopsie ! #i think he would be REALLY hurt postgame #he was doing a GOOD job! he was trying to help peppino get rid of his shoddy shop!!! #bc owning a business is sooooo taxing and why do that when u can just work for someone and get paid good money ! #and no one has ever like. so blatantly and ANGRILY said NO to him before :( he is experiencing failure AND rejection for the first time #sucks ass #but i want him to be happy so like. eventually he has to deal w that failure #and he sees peppino like. still running a shop. but hes not angry like when they first met hes like #vibin! #hes in the back making food and occassionally he takes front and deals w customers and theyre weird but bearable #people TRAVEL to this little shop at the edge of the forest! #and he doesnt get it its like the food comes out slow and the tvs arent loud enough to hear anything and the prices are higher- #-than ANY fast food joint and yet people still come by…he has REGULARS…how… #hes so inefficient…and yet…. #peppino is really angry and dismissive of ph at first; he does NOT want to see his ugly mug and hes tempted to chase him out #but gus is levelheaded (like always peppino notes) and hes like its not worth it ; hes harmless #and over time that anger simmers out into being JUST dismissive and grumpy #but he tolerates him and eventually tolerates his questions #and peppino is like. u know thats why i was so damn pissed at u. thinking there was nothing this owning shit #this shit takes time so i price it that way. u gotta talk to customers like People not Money Giving Machines #like yeah peppino doesnt have the BEST temperment but he most people are just there for Pizza #and some of them are friendly! its tiring but he likes making food and dealing w people #he will not say it but he puts love into this business; this shop is his baby! and ph didnt really get that

[bylertruther]

smth abt eddie telling dustin to look after the little sheep -> s5 is going to return to s1 form -> dustin tells mike in s1 that his obliviousness blows his mind -> the whole painting & confession & obvious general fiasco that is willelmike -> dustin's going to have to put on his bob the builder / "the world is full of obvious things which nobody by any chance ever observes" sherlock holmes hat and get involved

#byler #do i think he's going to go “Dude You Are GAYYYYYYYYY”? no. but i do think he'd go “🤨 why are u guys being weird.” in some way which is #what tips over the first domino in the series of events #maybe . wishful thinking? mayhaps . but im Free #i also wouldnt be opposed to steve saying smth to jonathan which makes him go 🤨😳😦🫢 #but i think ppl very much downplay dustin's role in the group and the support he offers his friends and how observant and “nosy” he is #and things are going to be much different now if they continue like how we left off ... so u don't think dustin would notice? #and u don't think tht he'd say something? esp when he had to deal with mike being an el stan + his obliviousness to others and their #jealousy over him? especially with him now being the character tht everyone wishes would shut up lmao? or with how #close he was to mike before he went to cali and how he had to take his place in his absence? #there's a million ways it could to obvi and i really don't have an expectation any which way but . #with tht latest least fave poll........ it jus made me think abt how a lot of people jus . really forget he exists #which is so crazy bc he stays in everyones business LMAO #but anyway . #she be rambling #and on mobile top so u already know im not rereading this if its incoherent its incoherent 🤷‍♀️ #omg the typos... >_> you guys know wht i Mean . #mine #s5 predictions

[daeluin]

y know, now talking outside the USA & about the world in general, it's so funny how conservatives can actually organize together and set a plan in motion years in the making just to fulfill their agendas. while the left sits around idling fighting between themselves over stupid minuscule ideological differences and worrying about not upsetting the power in charge & in doing so accomplish jack shit while letting the conservatives enact their draconic plans

and by funny i mean the biggest tragedy in post-Soviet history

#it's like y'all didn't understand what workers of the world unite even meant #i mean i know u guys didn't read the manifesto but cmon man #u can't do a revolution from your pc armchair let's be real #the biggest failure of every single leftist party in the world is how they all let the liberals radicalize the youth into conservatism #like woah thanks for doing nothing to stop that. now we gotta deal with incel rethoric for the next 20 years while losing every single right #and it's disgusting that the only solution (since ppl are so adverse to do actual political work in their commune) is waiting until society #actually collapses and whomever are left are forced to react #anyways en resumen: andá a militar bobo #no queda otra que prender fuego el congreso

[mummer]

literally what do you MEAN the coyote got run over offscreen and the roadrunner is alone and left unchased!!!!!!!!!!

#mumbling to myself death is random and meaningless death is random and meaningless the world is disrupted quietly no one knows what to do #the story cannot progress there is a story beneath the story. There is no one to tell it what to do #everything is unfinished and empty a life that never got to be fully written except it did but how could that be it??? #and then it does a little dance!!!!!!! #WES ANDERSON IM GONNA KILL U WITH A MAUL WHAT THE HELL #this is the saddest movie ever made guys im crying voer a roadrunner #im not doing it right! #everyone is dealing with loss they're all alone and they have to perform their roles and they cant and they dont know how or why #this is a love story this is a death story this is a story story #GOT RUN OVER. OFFSCREEN. LIKE. THE PLAYWRIGHT? #the playwright who gets run over offscreen????????? #he predicts his own death a hudnred times over. The. the #how am i supposed to wait for saturday i need to see it again neowwwww #haunted ghost movie!!!! but haunted in a calm and slightly hopeful way #death isn't scary the alien isn't scary. he's just there. he's gonna take something from you and you're gonna feel like #the world is upside down and on fire and scary and you're not gonna know what to say. but it wasnt personal. It didnt mean anything really.

[is-this-my-blood]

gabriel doing really mundane things like cooking for himself and fucking up so bad because hes never tried/had to be mortal before so its infuriating (<- instead of dealing with emotions he just Gets Mad). hes never had to fail or be wrong so learning how to accept that Yeah you make mistakes (going hand in hand with minos/sisyphus) and fuck up. and maybe youll punch a hole or four in the wall over time but its ok because you're Trying ok?

#gabriel ultrakill #sorry maintag i love u #i know he has more character traits than Upset and Furious All The Time #but when u hear tht ferryman recording of him and and hear about him he seems like the absolute model of the councils ideals #hes so poised and calm and has such a level voice its such a contrast to how angry he gets. how do you cope with emotions youve never #experienced before especially failure when all youve known is success #i want to see him be put in like a big city and have 2 deal with just being some guy. domestic gabriel ultrakill is such a funny concept #do you see my vision