#honestly? idealized high school media fantasy. this is that for me

[n0brainjustvibes]

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coke or pepsi? beverage BITE miette?? beverage STING her tongue like the insect??? jail!!! jail for beverage for One Thousand Years!!!

disney or dreamworks? dreamworks did HTTYD, right? them.

coffee or tea? tea

books or movies? books hehe

windows or mac? never used mac so windows it is

dc or marvel? ok, exposing myself here, worm was like my 2nd superhero media ever. i haven't read either 🙈 i have seen a few marvel movies but i'm not sure whether that should count for or against them

x-box or playstation? mine crafdt on my laptop

dragon age or mass effect? mass effect bc incuriouscat on youtube makes sick ass fan PMVs

night owl or early riser? night owl

cards or chess? chess, you can narrate stories about the pieces and thoroughly annoy your opponent (sibling) even as you lose >:3

chocolate or vanilla? chocolate all the way!!

vans or converse? wgat

Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash, or Adaar? I can't tell if these are fantasy names or antidepressants

fluff or angst? uhhhhdfcgvhbjnk gonna have to say fluff

beach or forest? beach

dogs or cats? cats 100%! (or secret third option: fish...)

clear skies or rain? clear. god. please... 🙏🙏

cooking or eating out? cooking :P

spicy food or mild food? Mild by any sane standards, but spicy according to my family and/or BBC Food haha

halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas? chris mas :))

would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot? uuuhhhh .. hh. hard one here. gonna have to also go cold

if you could have a superpower, what would it be? SUPERSPEED!! Or time powers. My irl friend has convinced me of their usefulness.

animation or live action? animation

paragon or renegade? renegade, it's the name of my serial killer dark forest!hollyleaf fanfic (only half kidding...)

baths or showers? shower

team cap or team ironman? hm. remember when I said I watched a few marvel movies? yeah none of them were this one :(

fantasy or sci-fi? fantasy baybey!!! but I adore both

do you have three or four favourite quotes, if so what are they? oh god okay. hm... "Where did we learn it, this talent for insatiability?" from The Handmaid's Tale still Lives In My Head from high school english. If song lyrics count, then, "You don't know me / don't you question my love" from Berlin, Without Return. "Sometimes a hypocrite is just a man in the process of changing" (I don't recall the exact wording) from... Oathbringer? is my fav cliche cosmere pick. Oh! And I forget the episode or even who said it, but at some point during the s3 All Might/AFO fight in MHA, one of the side characters stuck on guard duty said "You're confusing difficulty with importance", and that changed my life.

youtube or netflix? youtube :) it has fun little AMVs

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when do you feel accomplished? when I bake something! making concrete stuff is really fulfilling, especially if I'm baking for other people.

star wars or star trek? spaceballs (jk, star wars, but I haven't seen star trek so sw wins by default)

paperback books or hardcover books? paperback

to live in a world without literature or without music? [sad character song assigner noises]... without music.

who was the last person to make you laugh? that would be @ty-bayonet-betteridge with several lines in their riley fic hehe

city or countryside? city! much as I complain about missing nature :') ideally a city that's near the sea

favorite chips? anything plain sea salt and properly crunchy 🤌

pants or dresses? pants, though dresses are fun for fancy occasions!

libraries or museums? is it a natural history museum? pleamse?? if so museum! otherwise library all the way.

character driven stories or plot driven stories? I don't really have a preference ngl

bookmarks or folding pages? i was one of those heretical kids who just plonked their books face down open 🙈😭 and now I mostly read online so... idk? Probably bookmarks.

Dream job? honestly would love to be on the management council for a small nature conservancy. second choice would be ecological research, but data-based, not fieldwork (animals scare me >.<)

What gives you comfort? thinking about The Characters...

what are some of your favorite song lyrics? literally ANY pun or double meaning lyric by idkhow!! gonna go with "lose yourself inside the city / lose your mind inside a week".

favorite ice cream flavor ever? chocolate my beloved...

first fandom? warrior cats......

deep ocean or deep space? (personally, i gotta pick ocean, because theres fish in there 👍😊)

Your desert island band?

@thesternest @seroquelfan @chaoticrushu, but no pressure to answer, and anyone is welcome to join! add your own question at the end if you answer :]

#tag game

[aaronstveit]

hi! ive been around for awhile now but never said hi to u off anon jdkdmdjd

how are you?

okay question, how do you read so many books? i used to be a bookworm in middle school but then high school and depression happened and i lost the ability to focus. im adhd so its not surprising but none of the tricks people recommend works for my brain. i sit down to read and after two words im like "okay nevermind."

i really like audio books but i miss actually Reading the words myself you know? there is a difference between them for sure and i also notice i remember the new words and phrases better when im actually reading them instead of just hearing them.

you read a lot so i thought maybe any advice you have might help me? its worth a shot to ask jfkdkdjd no pressure tho. <3

omg hi!!🫶🏻 i'm good, how are you? <33

i was exactly the same! couldn't stop reading in elementary & middle school, then high school completely destroyed my love of reading & learning. it's honestly taken me years to get back to being an avid read and to enjoying it </3

i'm lucky to have a lot of free time. i also have a lot of sleeping problems & end up unable to sleep around 2am most nights, so i get a lot of reading done from like 9pm-2am. it's not ideal to my sleeping schedule and i definitely don't recommend it, that's just one of the ways that i end up reading so much.

i think cossette @hollyfhumberstone has a phenomenal post here about tips for reading more that i definitely refer to when i find myself in a reading slump!

for me, it really helps to set a daily goal for reading. i use the finch app and every day i set goals to read at least one chapter of whatever it is that i'm reading. there is no punishment for missing a goal, but there are rewards for accomplishing them, and that helps me! like right now, i'm reading wuthering heights, which i've put off reading forever because it intimidates me. so i set a goal of just reading one chapter a day so i can get through it. sometimes i'll read two chapters a day, especially if they're short, but it's easier to get my brain to do it because i've taken the pressure off myself, if that makes sense! a lot of my reading is really about tricking my brain into letting me do it tbh.

i also let myself take breaks between chapters, even when i'm sitting down to read for a few hours! if i finish a chapter and i want to check social media or play solitaire on my phone for a second or get a snack or something, i just do it. i know some people really try not to look away from their book for certain amounts of time, but that doesn't work for me because then i'll be looking at the words but i'll just be thinking about doing something else the entire time.

one of my favorite things to do is talk about the books i'm reading, so that helps me, too! i talk to my dad and my friends about books, which always hypes me up to read more. if you ever wanna talk about books with me, my DMs and asks are always open! i literally just LOVE talking books, even if i haven't read them yet!

setting reading goals works for me too, but i tend to set running goals instead of definitive goals. like, i'll set my goodreads goal for x number of books each year, but the rest of my goals are not numerical. they're more like "read more diversely," "read more classics," "read more science fiction," "read more fantasy," "read more historical fiction," and "read more nonfiction." (those are my goals for 2024 btw). that way i'm not chasing a number, i'm just broadening my horizons!

what has really helped me the last couple of years was finding genres i enjoyed and getting really into them. i discovered i like mystery, thriller, and horror books a lot more than other genres, so that's most of what i've been reading! i still run into books i don't like, and i still branch out and find some incredible books in other genres, but i'm done forcing myself to read what's popular just for the sake of it.

oooh and another thing i do when i can't get myself interested in a new book is to reread an old favorite. i reread the hunger games pretty much every year when i find myself in a reading slump, because i know that series will keep me interested no matter how many times i've read it. annotating old favorites also works for me! i annotated thg this year, the raven cycle last year, and i think next year i will try annotating lord of the rings!

i hope this helps! i wish i could give you some better advice </3 if you have any other questions, please let me know!! 🫶🏻

#thank you! #answered #charlieisverybored #love letters only💛

[inkofamethyst]

September 26, 2022

I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I HAD MY FIRST CONVERSATION WITH A POTENTIAL ADVISOR AND I THINK IT WENT REALLY WELL AHHHHH

Now that my list of places has been reduced significantly (down to only seven from the twelve I was originally thinking about omg), I’ve got a plan for when I’m contacting people.  I’ve got this, I’ve got this.  I will admit that I’m working my way up to contacting the Ivy League Dude though lol.  I need to be real intellectual for that conversation.

Also,,,, switching gears, Michael Giacchino has done it again.  The Lightyear soundtrack was really quite good.  Difficult to say if I’d call it memorable because I’m so biased towards The Incredibles and Ratatouille and Up and even Lost because those are iconic and they’ve had time to “age like fine wine.”  But it was good, and the movie was cute (and Chris Evans has a hot voice).  Honestly the whole ~gay kiss~ was sort of a blink-and-you-miss-it deal but I also understand that even that kind of representation is something that is fought for.  Not every piece of representation can be as overly-dramatic as the first interracial kiss on television, and sometimes that’s okay.

Speaking of movies, I also finally saw Inception and I have a few comments.  First, I really enjoyed it.  It sits in sort of the same category as Tenet and The Matrix and I enjoy that type of scifi (unless it’s confusing just to be confusing which was the case with Tenet I think, but maybe I just need to watch it again).  Second, the term “inception” literally just means the beginning of something.  And I’ve known that denotation for a while, but culturally, when someone says that something is “like Inception” they mean that it is confusing or multi-layered.  I didn’t find the movie confusing, but I did enjoy the layered aspect, and I think it’s really interesting how media can enter our lexicon that way.  Same with The Matrix: “oh I’ve seen [something weird], that must be a glitch in the matrix” is something that I vaguely understood had to do with a movie, but I didn’t really understand the reference until I saw the reference material, just that the connotation was “the world as we see it is a little strange, and perhaps there’s more to it than meets the eye.”  There was also the whole red-pill blue-pill thing which I’d heard but didn’t get at all until I watched the movie (I’m talking about the meanings pre-pillsphere, in case it wasn’t obvious).  Third, apparently the Inception soundtrack (which I listened to a bunch in high school because I was into “epic music” then (like Two Steps From Hell type stuff)) was sort of the ~inception~ of the epic cinematic music genre which Hans Zimmer is so well known for.  The hefty brass, the brazen percussion, the building strings, weightless climaxes followed by more brass... It’s really cool to contextualize such a defining piece of this genre that, truly, Hans Zimmer does best most successfully.  That man is everywhere.  Though, I do wonder if/when tastes will shift?

To switch gears entirely I’m not actively trying to date anyone right now (to be frank I’m going to be there’s a good chance I might be a miserable person until, like, March, and I don’t wanna put anyone else through that (this... this might be a manifestation of low self-esteem, actually, um, hm (I have half a mind to try my uni’s counselling center but I’m so busyyyy (and also I’ve got the whole “I’ll fix myself just you wait” issue which isn’t helping (and and and now that I’ve stated out loud that I’m going to I might be miserable ‘till March, this has really got me thinking that I might just get the whole seasonal affective disorder thing lol))))) but reading [_____] x reader headcannons for a fandom I don’t even really interact with much (showed up unprompted on my feed I promise) sure does have me feelin some kinda way (the kind of way that makes you want to pound on your desk, to be specific).  Listen I understand entirely that those are idealized fantasies and real life doesn’t work that way.  I like reading about the cute stuff but god help me if anyone lays a hand on me I might combust.

ANYWAY today I’m thankful that the conversation went well :)

[edit] It’s 2:30 in the morning but I sent my second potential advisor email out!!!  Time for bed, finally.

[potatenesh]

Welcome

Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Davie Zeinsigal de Rowald en Arcenteria and my actual name is Hana Sakura. Why do I have two names? Well yeah, long story short, I was originally a mere human living on earth as a high school teacher teaching math. I died after getting involved in a car accident and reborn as a noble daughter of House Rowald. My new father is a viscount and his name is Zeinsigal Keith de Rowald en Arcenteria. My mother is Daniella Rauffen de Ewinn en Laurent and I have an older brother named David Zeinsigal de Rowald en Arcenteria.

I think it's this world's rule that every single noble has a long ass name. The first name is our nickname, second name is our father's name, third and fourth are our ancestors name. What a troublesome rule.

Just like any fantasy novel, this world has magic. At first, I was amazed and excited to learn magic. But after knowing how limited you can do with magic and how hard it is to use, I no longer had interest in them. Earth's technology are much much cooler and useful. The food here also doesn't taste as good as from earth.

But thankfully, I'm not the first born child so the responsibility to inherit the house will fall to my brother. Although I still need to worry about marrying into another family and bear the realsponsibility as a wife and a mother. In my previous life, I was single and never had any romantic experience with others.

This year, I'm going to enter the royal academy where nobles from all over the country gathered to study. We enter first at age thirteen and before that each house hire a tutor to teach children basic noble stuff.

Don't ask me if I am able to learn all of the basic stuff. I only able to master writing and do math. History is very hard, but mannerism and classical dance will always be my most hated subject. I'd rather learn physics than learning those two, honestly.

I mean, I was so used to sit, eat, dan doing anything however I want. Well I still maintain a good teacher image at school, but that didn't mean I need to always sit straight and eat delicately like some kind of princess.

What's next to introduce? Oh, I have two personal maidservant who take care of me specifically. They are Selie and Mary. At first, they worked so hard to make me living an ideal life expected for a noble lady but after some time, they did their best so I could live my life leisurely and peacefully. What a capable maidservant.

Have I said that I had skipped 90% of social events such as banquets and parties invitation, which addressed to me? Around everyone, I always acting like I'm sickly, enough to avoid attending those kinds of gatherings. Only my two trustworthy maidservant knows about my true fully healthy condition, and it seems like they both have no intention on telling my parents about it which I am very grateful for.

I said 90% of the invitations, because important invitation like royal banquet is something I definitely cannot skip. I atleast need to show my face to public so they know I exist. I'm fine with people didn't know about me, but my parents are certainly not. Hence I obediently attend every single royal invitation as they said. What a good child I am.

Nobles mean beautified, not only my manner but also every words that came out of my mouth. I had a hard time saying the beautified words with figurative meaning and deciphering them. Sometimes I found myself not understanding what people around me even saying. In the first place, the language used in this world is entirely different from what I knew from the past, so it's only natural that I have a hard time learning noble words.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention this even though this is the most important thing. This world is so behind on technologies that they don't have any SMARTPHONE. My bestest and truest friend on earth. No days passed without me scrolling through social media and doing other things like watching movies and playing games. Life is truly boring without a smartphone. How I wish to bring my phone here. Having no connection means I cant open social media of course, but at least I could take pictures, saving notes I could bring everywhere, playing offline games, and such. But I guess I still need to worry about won't be able to charge it.

So, where was I? Oh, the difficulty of living as a noble. Yes. There are lots of difficulty, having said some of them, and the next is privacy. My maidservants are always outside of my room and when they need to wake me up at seven in the morning, they just came barging in and take my blanket away, showing my unladylike posture of sleeping. Also, one thing I still feel uncomfortable, is being bathed by them. I told them I can wash myself just fine, but they feel obliged to wash me so we agreed that I wash myself from the lower part up to the chest and leave the rest to them.

There are still many problems I encountered since being a noble, so many that I may forget to mention some. I'll tell the rest when I remember.

Now, to the present.

Tomorrow is the day I'll move to the royal academy dormitory and live there. My brother started to attend the academy two years ago, and this year is me. All preparations are done, and I am currently lazying around in my bed under the excuse of "resting" because my body is "sickly".

"Are you not excited about moving to royal academy's dormitory, my lady? You looked just as relaxed as usual." asked Mary.

I answered without turning around. "I'm more of feeling sad than happy and excited, Mary. In royal academy, I can sense that I'm going to be very busy. Well, not that busy, but definitely not as leisure as I always been here. So I just enjoying my last moment as a super lazy lady, is that wrong?" I use informal words only when there are only the three of us.

"No, I understand my lady. We will strive to make your life as leisure as possible even in the royak academy. You can count on us." aswered Mary.

"I feel the same. We shall do our best to meet your expectation." said Sellie.

"Nice! You guys are such capable maids. Had I given another maidservant, I doubt they would agree to me being lazy and not reported it to my parents. You guys can go back now, I wont be doing anything but stay on my bed till dinner time."

"Very well my lady. Excuse us." they said at the same time and left my room.

My room is very big and fancy. Every inch covered in luxury, but air conditioner and TV are much like luxury to me compared to them. Also, this world doesn't even have simple thing like lamp as electricity hasn't been found yet. We still use candles. What a boomer.

Dinner time come and I head to the dining room to eat with my family. Tomorrow, my brother and I will go to royal academy together. So this feels like a farewell dinner.

"I hope you bring good reputations to our house and duchy while strive to get acceptable results. I believe you can do as much, David. As for Davie, my daughter, we won't pressure you to be like your brother. But we also expect good things from you. Stay healthy and never bring shame to our name." said my father.

"I understand, father." answered me and my brother.

Tomorrow came by as fast as the wind blows, and it's time for me to officially saying goodbye to my leisure and peaceful life at House Rowald. I feel so sad that I want to burst into tears.

My luggage are being traveled by transportation magic yesterday so I guess my room is prepared already. My two personal maidservants and I walked to my room.

But first, I need to describe and introduce the royal academy.

The school itself looked so much like a castle where royal family lives and surrounded by beautiful gardens with lots of colourful flowers. The dormitory is located behind the school building. I was a little surprised to found that the dormitory isn't divided into two, but ten. Apparently, each dormitory building is for nobles from one duchy. The duchy where I lived is named Tristania and it has a representative colour which is purple if I'm not mistaken. The Tristania castle decorated mostly with purple so I just took a guess.

And that is correct. Located at the most far away from the school building is my new home. What an unfornate thing. I need to walk so far to school. I assumed that I will be tired before even start attending classess.

"Are you certain we got the building right? This is more far than I thought, maybe we had seen the colour wrong. Let us look over the nearest building from the academy to make sure."

"My lady, please don't turn away from the reality in front of you. I believe you are able to handle this much distance, even with your "sickly body." Selie emphasizing that I should be able to walk to school because I actually have a healthy body. I got it, Selie. But can I at least use a bicycle? Please? Unfortunately this world doesn't have a bicycle and I can't reinvent it so… walking it is.

"Guess it can't be helped. Now then, what is my agenda for today?"

Mary answered my question. "We will go to your room and check whether anything is left or needed. After that, there is a gathering in the dormitory's middle room at ten that we must attend. There, you greet each noble whose status are above you and receive greetings from noble whose status are beneath you. Forming connections that you missed during the seven years of being "sickly". This is inevitable, I believe that continue being "sickly" will only bring you trouble in the future." Ouch, every sentence came out from her mouth shattered my heart. Looks like my laziness finally stab me after so long. Seven years weren't short time at all, but me being super duper lazy made it feel faster than the wind.

"Then shall we go?" I said, trying hard not to show my depressed mood but obviously failed.

#fiction #isekai #reincarnation

[likeadevils]

hey! for your post about sun moon and rising but with taylor albums, can you list out the characteristics of each album? i'm having a hard time associating them and it'd make it a lot easier, if you could do that :)

oh totally! Its really all about your personal association, so i’ll give vibes for the era and the album. a good rule of thumb is to read the prologue if you want the tone for the era quickly. honestly, there’s no set system, go wild

taylor swift (2006) “debut”

era: blue and teal and brown. cowboy boots and sundresses, wild curly hair, trucks and mud and wildflowers. very 2006, very high school, very country

album: swings between pining from a distance and wanting to destroy a boys whole ass life and feeling like you have no friends and no one understands you in the whole world. like I said, very high school, but also full of whole ass bangers

fearless (2008)

era: yellow and white. 24/7 prom. she’s got the fairy tale aesthetics set in high school, she’s got calling your ex boyfriend out on national television, she's got so many headbands. god to be 8 years old when the joe jonas/taylor swift drama was going down

album: again, fairy tale set in high school. lots of crushes, lots of realizing men aren’t shit. it’s about the pull between childhood ideals and real life tearing them down, and deciding how much you should cling to your dreams and how much you have to let them go. it’s also a pull between knowing that these little moments are kinda ridiculous but also taking everything so goddamn seriously

speak now (2010)

era: purple purple purple. she’s starting to grow up! her look has evolved out of sundresses and prom dresses and into a more preppy style. she’s moved out of fantasy and into this like. circus aesthetic? 30s movie type thing? watch the mean music video, idk how to explain it. her hair is still curly and but under control, and she’s solidly Famous at this point. the idea that she can’t sing is Big, and the man-eater stereotype is starting to get popular 

album: she’s starting to grow out of country. she’s experimenting with rock, but her pop sound is starting to take off. it’s all about Dramatics: she’s experienced her first heartbreak, broke someone else’s heart, and was in an emotionally abusive relationship all within two years. she’s moved out of her parents house and is both infantilized and forced to grow up to fast by the media.

red (2012)

era: its 2012 hipster style. her hair is Straight and she’s wearing vintage dresses everywhere, and she’s posting sketches of red lips and quotes from fitzgerald about heartbreak and finding yourself on instagram. she is dating and breaking up with harry styles Very Publically, and its the last major relationship she’ll have for two more years. the idea that she dates to much is everywhere, and she’s being slut shamed to an insane degree, while also being dismissed as a goody-two-shoes

album: it’s designed so each song has the opposite emotions of the song before it. it’s dramatic and it’s heart wrenching and it portrays these relationships that were toxic and messy and captivating. has the last vestiges of country, some more rock, and the first pure Pop songs, all nestled against each other to give you the epic highs and lows of being 22

1989 (2014)

era: its the height of her stardom, and she’s more beloved then she’s ever been and (probably) will ever be again. she’s cut her hair and moved to New York, she’s wearing high waisted stuff and taking polaroids, and she’s been single for two years and it’s has given her the freedom to find a “tight” group of friends and herself. shes talking about third wave feminism all the time, she’s papped every day, and she started dating c*lvin h*rris; they date for a year, he was the first boyfriend to be posted on social media, and the one she was with the longest (until her current bf). publically, she’s the happiest and most successful she’s ever been. personally, it’s more complicated, especially by the last few months. “she lost him, but she found herself and somehow that was everything” and “from the girl who said she would never cut her hair or move to new york or find happiness in a world where she wasn't in love”

album: single handedly brings 80s pop into the mainstream. (like seriously, her only contemporary influence is lana del rey, and even that is only on a few tracks. listening to this when it came out was a religious experience). it sounds basic now but only because she influenced all of the pop music that came after her. its also her first sonically cohesive album since fearless. subject matter wise, its very 80s movie. it’s the first album without a break up song that ruins a man's whole career— no cold as you, dear john, or all too well type. the relationship is on and off again, but more muted and mature then the tumultuous ones portrayed on red. its very star crossed; two people who just can’t find the right time. she’s also writing about how fame has affected her— blank space, shake it off, and i know places all directly reference it, but the idea that the whole world is watching is woven all throughout the album

bleachella (2016) 

this isn't an album but its definitely an era

taylor has become so oversaturated that people are starting to turn on her, and her mental health is suffering. her relationship with c*lvin h*rris is falling apart, she's changing her hair every couple of moths (most notably she bleaches it, and goes to coachella. so like bleachella), and then all of a sudden The Phone Call happens. kim and kanye release edited footage of a phone call that makes it seem like taylor swift is a liar who intentionally plays the victim to stay in the public’s good graces, and the world pounces on it. between that and the idea that her friend group is super cliche-y and exclusionary, her reputation is ruined and she goes in hiding for months. before going into hiding though, she breaks it off with c*lvin (he throws a FIT on twitter) and starts a whirlwind romance with tom hiddleston that includes them flying all over the world on vacations and meeting each others parents super quickly. this all happens in one summer.

reputation (2017)

era: black and white and gold. very edgy, very rich, lots of snakes and casual wealth. there’s the aesthetic of her being very hurt and defensive and lashing out, but the reality of her being the happiest she’s ever been. she’s still famous, but she’s learned how to have a private life and healthy relationships. the tough times have shown her who and what’s important to her

album: pretty much that. the first half is brash and bombastic and playing off what people expect her to be like, how they expect her to fall in and out of love quickly and manipulate those around her to see her as a good person (while exploring sounds that no one expected her to explore) and the second half slows it down and shows her falling in love more explicitly and sweetly and under cover. “in the death of her reputation she felt truly alive” and “finding love through all the noise”

lover (2019)

era: bright pink and pastels and bright colors and happiness and butterflies!! she’s in love and beloved by the general public again, but all of her past albums have been stolen from her by a man she thought she could trust. sadly cut off short by covid. “step into the daylight and let it go”

album: her messiest album (sonically) since red. a popular saying when it first came out was that it had the writing of speak now but the sound of 1989, which is... understandable? its the kind of thing you have to form your own opinion on. it’s on the surface all bubblegum pop and being in love, but it has some of the absolute saddest songs of her entire discography. a 18 song long rollercoaster

folklore and evermore

preface: these are definitely two separate albums and there’s a definitely a difference but this girl has so many albums and it’s taken me an hour to answer this ask and it’s 1am right now so i’m gonna smush them together. go listen to them, and we’re in the era right now

eras: it been covid so all we’ve got are a couple performances and the album visuals. cottagecore, a return to the small town setting of her first two albums, very understated and timeless. one noteworthy element is that both albums were surprise releases (especially after lover had almost a year of build up that kinda worked against it). she’s reached a level of artistic respect that she’s never had

albums: folklore is a level of sonic and thematic cohesion comparable to 1989, as well as having a similar feeling of like. oh god we’ve been waiting for you to make an album like this for years and you’ve still exceeded every exception and made it surprising. evermore is mostly a continuation of its sound, though it’s a bit more experimental. both albums are incredibly mature, and move into non-autobiographical storytelling for most of the songs. it’s easy to build your own world based on one or both of the albums. their main themes are also mostly divorced from relationships, and more tied to personal identity and mental state (though there is quite a bit about divorce and heartbreak in both)

#sorry this took so long but damn that’s a big ask for someone who never shuts up #and by someone I mean me but also taylor #anonymous #asks*

[ash-etherwood]

Top 5: writing memories, songs, characters that are not blank rune, runes, food

♡

Linda I love you but are you trying to kill me … that’s so many Top 5’s! But alright, I’ll do my best! (Answers will probably switch between German and English RIP to every non-German-speaker who follows me and wants to read this for some reason I swear I’m normal)

WRITING MEMORIES

5.) The entire time I spent finishing my first (second?) longer writing project It was the year 2012 and it was a cyberpunk story about my friends’ and my edgy self inserts riding dinosaurs, fighting aliens and being badass. The plot twist in the end was that my character was secretly evil and wanted to kill everyone. (Things to show your therapist) The final boss fight made zero sense and also everything was incredibly weird and stupid. But sometimes I still think about those times when I sat in my grandma’s living room at night, eating chips and listening to Vocaloid covers while thinking this story was the coolest shit ever. Truly simpler times.

4.) Researching something about universities in Texas for OvF on a rainy Saturday afternoon I have no idea why this memory is still sticking with me to this day (I think it was around 2016 or something?), but I remember that it was just a really nice day and I felt really at peace at that moment?

3.) The entire writing process of Bathroom Blues It was such a spontaneous project and I still have no idea how I managed to power though it in just a little under two months! Also it was just incredibly fun seeing you getting excited over new drafts and I loved coming up with new plot points and Halloween costumes for everyone with you. :-D Truly a summer worth remembering.

2.) FINALLY uploading the prologue and intro chapter of WWBL Not really a writing memory, but that moment was … so sexy and magical. Seriously, you have no idea how long I had been waiting to finally start that story, waiting for the Steckbriefe to roll in and see people react to the prologue and generally the idea … I even made one of those countdown graphic thingies for the designated upload date! 8D At that point I had planned that story for about six months and just … yeah, that felt powerful to me.

1.) Writing the prologue for WWBL When I first started the draft for that prologue I was sitting at the window in my favourite hotel in Winterberg, Sauerland, wore my dark green flannel, had the window wide open breathing in the cool mountain air and allowed myself to listen to my WWBL playlist for the very first time. God, that felt so amazing. I even have a photo of it (which somehow makes it look like I have the biggest football shoulders in the universe) my sister took that night. God I miss Sauerland. )’:

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SONGS

My apologies to every favourite song of mine that I forgot about, I have a whole playlist of them, but I think these are some of my oldest faves … (Honorable mentions for Don’t Mess With Me and Not That Big by Temposhark, Goodbye by Apparat, Me And The Devil by Soap&Skin, Heart Heart Head by Meg Myers, Pain and Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace, Beautiful Crime by Tamer, Gravity Of Love by Enigma, In Flames by Digital Daggers [thanks Phi u_u] and Murder Cries by Snow Ghosts AHHH FUCK IT I could’ve just made a playlist,,,)

5.) Vater Unser by E Nomine Starting off with some weird shit, won’t we? I’ve been in love with this song since fifth or sixth grade, when I was just starting to develop an actual music taste and although I have many favourite songs by E Nomine, this one has to be my absolute fave. Every time I can relate it to a character it makes me love said character even more. (Also I think about it every time my mom forces me to go to church for Christmas so … yay? I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t even be able to remember the Vater Unser if it wasn’t for this song. 8D)

4.) Wires by The Neighbourhood I think this is the newest all-time fave on this list, I found it in … 2015? Thank you, Youtube AMVs. Yeah man, this one is just … on so many playlists it’s not even funny anymore.

3.) Heathens by Twenty One Pilots An edgelord classic but like … it’s on EVERY playlist of mine. Every single one. It’s just so good. The first time I heard it was on the radio tho, when I was having breakfast with Jessie and I forced her to shazam it because it immediately stuck with me,,,

2.) Imaginary by Evanescence My first Evanescence song ever and the first step towards becoming who I am today I think. This song has like … such a big history for me, man. It single-handedly turned me goth in 2008 and I have never really thanked it for that.

1.) Eternal by Evanescence Might be my favourite song of all time. The number of dramatic RP scenes I have written with this in the background … man. Oh, also this song is the reason for one of my oldest internet nicknames, ‘eternala’, which subsequently shortened into Etschuh and then Tschuh, my main nickname until 2017, when I came out as trans and finally found an actual name for myself I was comfortable with!

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NON BLANK RUNE CHARACTERS

I know this was probably supposed to be about fandom characters but I can literally not come up with a single character right now that I love with a special burning passion and that is not my or one of my friends’ OCs so you’re getting OCs now. u_u And boy do I have a lot of those.

5.) Jackson Tracey from atroCITY (mine) This little piece of shit kept me company for a pretty long time and is still very close to my heart for some reason, although I haven’t drawn him or really thought about him in detail for a while now. My favourite thing is how I only realized what a horrible person he was after I stopped regularly working with him but honestly good for me. 8D His storyline and personality is kinda convoluted and tbh I’m not really sure how much of it is canon anyway (atrc was always a little weird about canon rip) but yeah. He’s an obsessive stalker piece of shit who pities himself way too much and he is also a semi-immortal demigod who likes knives. I hate him but he also helped me a lot with some gender and sexuality stuff so thanks I guess.

4.) Mayoko Imai from Century Riders DXPrototype (Maus’ and mine) Mayoko is a magical girl protagonist with a cool cyborg arm prosthetic and her main character trait was that she was basically a reverse weeaboo, a Japanese girl who was obsessed with American media, culture and comic book heroes! I actually love her concept a lot and she also had a pretty cool character arc in her story (which Maus and I wrote together and actually finished btw!), although it could use a lot more … polishing from today’s point of view. But I love her anyway. She always wanted to do the right thing and be a hero and got broken pretty cruelly and her ending is kinda bittersweet I guess? Ahh there’s just so much nuance to it … anyways, CR3 also stuck with me for a very long time and I enjoyed the time with her a lot. :3 (Her name had a cameo in Another Incident btw heehee)

3.) Tessa *insert extremely long chain of unnecessary first names here* von Lean from Nobody Is Perfect and Infernal Temptation (belongs to one of my old school friends) Tessa is just … a hand full. I love to hate her. She is badly written and developed and just OOZES mentally ill teenage girl’s idealized self-insert power fantasy, but she just … man, she was a big part of one of my most drama-filled high school friendships which I love looking back at so much. Tessa has fucked so many of my characters … good for her tbh! There are actually two versions of her, one is just a ‘normal’ teenage girl and one can shapeshift into a cheetah, but both of them are very close to my heart. I should really adopt and redesign her some day.

2.) Judy Khayat from Original vs. Final (mine) Look, I love all my OvF-characters and every single one of them is special to me in their own way, but Judy is just … the most complex of them all I think? Man, she went through so much … she is actually one of my oldest (semi)-active characters (I created her in 2009) and her latest version is from 2016 but I should really, REALLY revise her again tbh. She has a very complicated backstory that I didn’t handle as carefully as I should have, and anger issues and religious conflict and depression and PTSD and then Vance of all people becomes obsessed with her for no reason and decides to traumatize her even more … yeah. God I really love her but I seriously need to work on her. A LOT. I should also finally rename her tbh … let’s just see where she takes me next.

1.) Okami (I don’t even remember if she has a proper last name rn lol) from Split Realm (mine) Yeah, that bitch is just my favourite OC. She’s also very old, probably from around 2009, and initially was a magical girl with fire powers who I played in an RP with my friend Flauch but boy did she grow up! Holy fuck. Okami is a horrible person but I love her so much. She is so violent and full of anger and pain and sadness and treats everyone around her like shit and she is in love and she is a demon but also apparently the personification of the concept of Chaos but she just wants to be a teenager again and run away with the love of her life and ahhh it’s all so hopeless for her … also she turned out gnc af with time passing and pretty much went through a gender/sexuality crisis in real time with me, her creator, which is always fun. :^D I haven’t drawn her in a while tbh. Should really do that.

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RUNES IN BLANK RUNE

I’m just gonna go with the arcs here, okay? Also this entire answer might look completely different if you asked me again tomorrow, you know how indecisive I am with Blank Rune shit ahha,,,

5.) Jera Look. I know I’m boring and stupid. But I just love Tave and Liam having their disgusting little foreshadowing talk, okay? I can read it over and over. I just love my horrible little shit crime boys. Also Rhy and Phillip are there. (’:

4.) Isa This one is here because it was the first arc I witnessed in real time which gives it a very special place in my heart and it also … hit pretty hard at the time. But having read Fehu it’s become even better now! It’s just such a wonderful, tragic romance between two horrible, ruthless boys and I … I’m not immune to Rhy, sadly. :-/ Just like Phillip.

3.) Wunjo We still haven’t seen everything that leads up to Wunjo yet, but we DO know more than we did initially (wow shocker) and it’s just always a fucking blast. Also, it has the first mention of Ash’s real name … the first Rhy POV (which what the fuck!! I always feel like we had one before but we didn’t!! Wild) and it has crazy blood-soaked murder Tave, my beloved. :///3

2.) Eiwaz You guys have heard me fanboy about Eiwaz so many times already. Eiwaz-OT3 (and Kain) my beloved!!! It’s just SUCH an amazing starting point and there are so, so many things that tie back to it and every time we find out about a new one my heart makes a little jump … und es beginnt von Neuem indeed.

1.) Gebo One of the most painful but also the most beautiful arcs yet in my opinion. It’s been hyped up for so long and boy did it deliver. God, my heart still hurts when I think about that last scene. Also all the dialogue … the golden lines we got … and it’s an arc without Rhy! Crazy!! :-D I just love the relationship between Ash, Astrid and Jakob so much. God fuck I want what they have. Just maybe without the murder suicide,,,

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FOOD

5.) Diese Sonntagsbrötchen wo die Verpackung so plopp macht, wenn man die Folie abzieht Better than normale Brötchen for some reason. Most of the time. See 2.) Look man, I just really love a good breakfast …

4.) Chocolate cupcakes with cream cheese topping One of the first things from a certain baking book I tried when I was getting into baking back in 2019. God they are so tasty. I don’t make them often so I don’t get used to them too much and eating them still feels special but ahhhh I love them so much!

3.) Grünkohl mit Kartoffelbrei und Mettendchen One of my favourite things about autumn/winter and one of my biggest comfort foods. God I love this shit so much. I just put … mountains of Grünkohl and Kartoffelbrei on my plate every time and I will just warm it up for four days straight until there’s no more left. It turns me into a fucking caveman. I’m not even big on eating meat but … yeah. Everything is different when there’s Grünkohl.

2.) Normales Brötchen mit Butter und Scheibenkäse aber ich bin beim Frühstücksbuffet im Hotel Oddly specific but that’s just how it is. Sorry. Nichts geht über Brötchen mit Käse.

1.) Chilli-Knoblauch-Nudelauflauf My beloved. My comfort food. I eat it literally every second day. At least one hour in the kitchen every time. Fresh ingredients. My only vegetable intake. And I’ve been doing that for three years. I just love it so much, man. I cook it for everyone who visits me. Chilli-Knoblauch-Auflauf cured my depression.

#ask #crimsondaisy #2.4k works of me talking about myself under the cut rip #thank you tho!!!

[nerdismyhobby]

Dan I'm new to LOTR should I read the books now that I've seen the movies and been blown away

Hoo boy. Ok. One, you’re welcome to come off anon and message me if you want, I’ll keep the conversation between us.

Two, i was going to do some creative writing and work on a play tonight but I have a feeling this is going to replace it. 

Here we go- I will say, right off the bat, my love for Lord of the Rings comes from the movies first and foremost. I experienced them before reading the books and I latched onto the epic story of it, the acting, the music, the visuals.... It was such a complete package that it formed my identity and still is into my late 20s. It will continue to be for a while I’m sure. 

That being said, I’ve read the books probably I wanna say three full times. I firmly believe that everyone should read the books at least once in their life. I don’t care if you do it all at once, read just one a year, read just one of them every five years, whatever. Read the Hobbit. Read  all of Lord of the Rings. Even if it’s only to say you did it. Do it anyway. 

However.... Be prepared for a slog at times. There, I said it. 

The books can be A LOT at times. Almost too much. 

One- There are a lot of differences. The films did a very good job distilling as MUCH as they could into three movies. But they still couldn’t get everything. There’s the obvious Tom Bombadil omission and everything contained therein (the Old Forest, the barrows, etc) . There’s the hill people between Rohan and Gondor that help out. Who the fuck is Glorfindel. Saruman with his gay rainbow/many colors robe. Who the fuck is Erkenbrand. The Scouring of the Shire. Where is Arwen? On the one hand, it’s exciting to read and see the differences. On the other hand, the movies are already twelve hours total as the extended editions and you STILL had to omit stuff? Do you know how bonkers that is? There’s already so many details in the movies and now you want to add MORE?? Are you goddamn nuts????? 

Two- I don’t have a lot of evidence for this, but I’m not sure if Tolkien expected to ever actually have his other notes and books published, such as the Silmarillion, book of Lost tales, etc. Yes, I know he wrote and composed the Silmarillion before Lord of the Rings, but i’m not sure if publication was ever expected. So all of a sudden, you have this epic three part book series (or six books, or one book split into three volumes with two books each, as Tolkien prefers) with a rich history that no one knows ANYTHING about, apart from the Hobbit, which was a bed time story Tolkien made up to get his kids to finally go the fuck to sleep and then he happened to publish. Because of this, you get a lot of tangential history woven in. Which is fascinating at times, but also REALLY slows the story down. So often you get stuff like this (paraphrasing here): “Off to the side of the road there was a copse of trees. Strong sturdy trees, like the ones sung about in the songs, that Earendil used to carve his magical flying boat out of and used to strike down the terrible dragon known as Ancalagon the Black, whose ruin he smote upon the earth and destroyed a mountain range, before Earendil himself perished only to be lifted up to the stars”.  Seriously. You get history tangents like that at least once a chapter. Which back in the day was helpful. But now? it’s not as necessary when you can literally just look all this stuff up on a tolkien wikipedia. It puffs up your word count sure, but this isn’t your dissertation. This is an epic fantasy novel. You’re here for the action and the fights and the character development and the twists and turns and stunning reveals and the gay bromance between Legolas and Gimli (seriously, I don’t necessarily “ship” them, but in no universe are those two straight). I don’t care as much about the trees and the terrain when there are orcs that Aragorn could be cleaving in two and Legolas and Gimli could be flirting/not flirting. 

Now, I know this makes it seem like I don’t like the books. Which isn’t necessarily true. It’s just the way that books are written just aren’t necessarily for me. I’m a very modern minded person, in that a lot of the media I tend to enjoy (be it plays or movies or books) are all more modern or contemporary (think like, post 1990. Yes, I’m serious). With the way my brain works in consuming media, things written and released in the 40s don’t necessarily appeal as much to me. I’m not a big fan of classic novels in general due to the writing style. I can think of maybe two or three I like, when I have all of the classics we read to high school to choose from. The style just isn’t for me. Reading any of them can be a chore for me, or like it takes a lot more effort for me to get through them. 

That being said- the books are still magical. It gets bogged down by history at times, but that’s only because Tolkien did such a fantastic job of world building that you can’t help but be taken in by it. Some of the omissions from the movies are actually very exciting parts of the books, and it’s fascinating to see the differences. And if nothing else, the movies did such an A+ job of casting that honestly? I don’t feel bad visualizing the actors as the actual characters when reading the book. I know some people try not to. But I genuinely find it difficult to differentiate. It’s so much fun to read along and follow along with the plot of such an epic movie series and see the inspiration for it. 

So yes. Read the books. But don’t be surprised if it’s difficult. If it’s frustrating. If it takes a while. If you kinda roll your eyes and go “yes yes, get on with it” at times. Cause I did. But the world building. The characters. The friendships. The action. The battles. The hobbit people and how they are living the ideal life. It’s all worth it at least once.

Pace yourself. 

You got this. 

But most importantly, have fun with it and appreciate it for what it is. For its messages of friendship and finding the good in the world, even when so much bad has happened. It is still Lord of the Rings, after all. 

Enjoy :) 

And thanks for the question! I really appreciate getting to talk at length about my favorite thing in the world. 

[laughing-with-god]

Yandere BTS as fanboys

Jin- You’re his idol. He strives to be like you. That outfit you were wearing at the airport last week? He bought a matching one. You mentioned your favorite food on a mukbang V-live? He mastered cooking it. That one funny joke you said on that variety show? He repeats it all the time to his friends because it’s just so funny. If someone said that Jin was the male version of you, he’d be so touched to the point of tearing up. You were perfection in human form. Hate to say this, but if anyone dared to say that another girl idol was prettier or more talented than you, he’d definitely bash.

Prone to- Matching selcas and outfits, being a solo stan, going broke to see you in person via concerts and meets, unsubconsciously altering his appearance to fit your ideal type, bashing your ‘competition’

“Irene has no personality whatsoever and looks like an ajumma. You dare compare her to Y/n?!”

Yoongi- Analyzes your lyrics and uses them as inspiration for his own. Quiet fan, says he doesn’t need people to know that he’s a fan of an idol but really he wants to keep you to himself. Listens to your music at least 10 times a day. Helps him cope day to day and will switch to the acoustic versions when he’s trying to fall asleep. He could pick out your voice from a sea of others. He worships it. Doesn’t pay attention to idol culture, but if it involves you he’ll look out. Has a separate account to follow your social media. Has high hopes of one day working with you and creating a masterpiece together. He won’t get mad if someone disses your looks or personality (he kinda prefers it that people don’t find you as desireable as he does so he doesn’t have ‘competition’) but if someone ever came for you music....god help them.

Prone to- Quiet and solo Stan, has you as his background, skips through your members’ voices to get to yours alone, genuinely believes that you two will end up together, doesn’t consider himself a fan rather an appreciator of your music, pushes himself as a producer to one day work with you

“Y/n is so much more than an idol. She’s an artist. She’s so much bigger than Kpop, it’s offensive that she gets compared to the likes of Twice or Gfriend....”

Namjoon- Protective Stan. Dating scandals? He’s the type to get into a rant showing EXACT ANGLES OF YOUR EYELINE to prove that you weren’t lovingly gazing at the other idol. Controversy? The type to send letters to your company, begging them to sue dispatch and other sites for trying to tarnish your name. The type to try to search for deeper meanings with music videos and lyrics in quest for a story or conspiracy. Will copy your pictures for his own social media and have the caption of some deep quote you once said. Considers himself too mature for fan wars but his three paged rants in YouTube/Instagram/tumblr comment sections will tell you otherwise. Dresses like you and even tries to incorporate some of your mannerisms and sayings into his day to day behavior.

Prone to- Copying your social media presence, sending your company LOTS of letters, getting way too heated with other fans who just don’t ‘get’ you like he does, deadass wants to get a tattoo of a quote from you on him.

“Y/n is just a very complex person. I don’t expect you to understand what she meant by *blank* but trust me it wasn’t that. She’s just very philosophical and wise. Your two brain cells wouldn’t understand.”

Hoseok- LOUD stan. Has a YouTube channel for recreating your choreo. Has another YouTube channel for covering your songs. Has another channel for reaction videos of videos concerning you. Posters on his wall, saved selcas in his gallery, all your songs on shuffle and notifications for your social media are on so he won’t miss a thing. Has a proud tally for all the concerts he’s attended. Will happily roast someone online for the sake of fan wars. Will support your group/members as much as he can but at the end of the day you are his ride or die. Merch King. One of the most well known fans, one day your groups’ twitter account retweeted him and he SCREAMED SO LOUD despite being in public.

Prone to- Online stalking, skipping work or school if it interferes with going to your concerts or catching a V-live, going off on a hater and using his platform to protect your image

“Lmao imagine thinking that Y/n gives any types of shit about a weirdo weeabo like you?Talk all the shit you want from behind your crusty keyboard, she’s literally so unbothered💅🏼” *tweet from his fan account bc I picture him being THAT bitch*

Jimin- soft stan. Has a tumblr, wattpad and archive of our own account bc he LIVES for anything that can make him feel like he’s in a love story with you. Fluff, angst, fantasy ect. He’s always seen with his head buried in his phone screen and eyes furiously scanning the latest fic to peak his interest. Has a portable charger bc he cannot risk his phone dying whilst in the climax of a good plot. Not too involved with idol politics but he is very protective of you. Will def notice if you look a tad thinner or tired and type a comment telling you to eat more and rest well. Prob tell your company to lay off if I’m being honest. Supports your group 110% and doesn’t engage in fan wars bc he knows that you wouldn’t approve. The type to tell other frenzied fans online, “what would Y/n think?” Your his ideal type and he strives to be yours, dyes his hair and gets contacts to fit with your type.

Prone to- Obsessing over your well-being, spending too many hours a day reading fics about you (considers making his own), false sense of reality

“I know that Y/n doesn’t deserve this hate but pls don’t go bashing on haters on her behalf. Honestly it makes the fan base look bad and Y/n wouldn’t be proud. Let’s just focus on showing her love to drown out the negative. 💗”

Taehyung- You’re his goddess. Tries to mimic you in every way. Your hair color, your clothes, your accessories, eye colors and even the way you walk or talk. You’re just such an icon to him and so refreshing, he can’t tear his eyes away from you. Every idol is just so boring compared to you. You magnetize him. In his free time he tries to draw you and has honestly gotten so good at it. Another one to try to have a social media theme similar to yours. Got a pet and named it after you. Mimics your style and changes it up whenever you do. Will travel to the places you do, ESP if it’s for a fashion show. Even copies your skincare routine and diet. Follows your accounts but loves your from afar, doesn’t participate in petty fan behavior bc his ego is too big to ever settle for a ‘fan’ title.

Prone to- online stalking and copying, actual stalking, huge ego and warped sense of reality

“Y/n is going to be in Paris next week so I gotta book my flight now. Do you think she’s gonna be at the Gucci or Dior show? I would say Gucci but she never fails to surprise me...”

Jungkook- bby stan. You took his breath away when he first saw your music video. IU who? He watches EVERYTHING with you in it, streams all your music, follows all your accounts and buys all the merch. He strives to be your ideal type. He covers all your music but posts them online without showing his face bc he’s too shy. He used to be a fan war warrior but when he had a lil accident (cough smashing his laptop into a wall when the hater continued to call you a whore cough) he now tries his best not to participate and instead just focus on you alone. He would never admit it, but he’s the type to look up your zodiac sign and his sign to read about how compatible you two are. Doesn’t want to be so obvious as to wear matching outfits as you, but does get small things like the same phone case or necklace as you have. Just to feel closer to you. Would totally go to a fan meet if he knew he wouldn’t have a panic attack being face to face with his soulmate.

Prone to- getting a bit too heated when defending you, ignoring his actual responsibilities to obsess over you, buying small things to feel closer to you, suppressing aspects of his persona that he thinks you wouldn’t like

“Y/n said she liked guys who are laidback. Ugh...am I too practical for her? Maybe I should learn how to go with the flow a bit more. The horoscope did say she was going to have a problem with my Virgo tendencies....”

#bts #bangtan boys #bts reactions #bts yandere #yandere bts #kpop #jeon jungkook #park jimin #jungkook #yandere jungkook #bts hoseok #namjoon #bts seokjin #jin #yandere jimin #kim taehyung #taehyung #yandere #yandere kpop

[vicariousgirl]

austin hopes

the idea of moving to austin after i finish my degree is growing on me. my sister is looking for a roommate for the next academic year. i have always loved the idea of spending more time in austin but never considered it seriously. as a senior in college, i used to check the ut austin job board when i was feeling dreamy. it would be a welcome change of pace, to a place with less pretention about college or work than my current (read: beloved and familiar) bay area. i adore the colorado river running through the city. i would be so content to spend my evenings floating down the water with white claw and a speaker. i love the food scene: tex-mex, taiwanese food, plenty of food truck greats turned fast-casual restaurant. i would love to be active in the live music scene, watching new bands come up.

what always held me back from thinking about a move was my lack of social network in town - other than my sister, who is a busy college student who likely would not be able to hang out much. however, the pandemic and quarantine has changed my perspective, though i am having trouble articulating exactly how so. perhaps it is simply the natural course of growing older, caring less about social anxieties. maybe i am more comfortable with starting over again, after having done so in the uk this year and meeting many lifelong friends. this time around, i mind less the idea of spending most of my time in solitude, something i have sought to avoid in previous stages of my life. in fact, after spending 6 months at my parents’ full house, i may even crave the quiet. i do not mind the idea of making new friends, trying my hand at the first impressions and house parties. perhaps it is an emerging ability to listen to my instincts more, leaning into the knowledge that i have always fantasized about a life in austin, perhaps equally or more so than a life in new york. my fantasy about austin has always been about the city itself, while my fantasy about new york was always about friends and the city together. what makes my fantasy about austin special is that it seems more unique to my mind and soul - a more specific match between the city’s treasures and the things that feed my spirit - than my fondness for new york, which has always been tied up in media portrayals and my love for the dear friends who live there.

the cons of this plan are few but notable. i would be away from my parents and kid sister, whom i adore. i would miss out on game and movie nights, easy conversations on the patio. i am not sure when we would have a long period of time together like this ever again, as i venture into the world of full-time work and phd programs. i would miss my kid sister’s junior year of high school - i was starting to get excited about this possibility, when i had previously thought that i would be away for most of her adolescence. i know this year would not be easy for her, considering that her education and life outside of school has been substantially impacted by the pandemic. i would need to resume responsibility for grocery shopping and making my own meals, which have been generously covered by my parents as an extension of their normal household provisions. i would need to get a car, something i have tried to avoid, because i dislike the idea of being responsible for upkeep, insurance, and not hurting people with a 2-ton hunk of rapidly moving metal. i will probably get lonely, in a way that i never do when i am around my family because there is always someone with whom to have a chat or watch a tv show. 

ideally, i would like to work in research admin at university of texas. i want to continue working in psychology research, maybe on ptsd, depression, or alcohol use disorder. i am curious about what it is like to work at a public university, which is where i would like to teach if i were to stay in academia. in austin, i would feel more able to engage in local politics, because the state capital is in town. i have always been excited about politics in texas, because it is a politically diverse state with considerable potential to influence immigration policy. i would get involved with immigrants’ rights organizing, aim to create lasting relationships with people in this community, one that i was in touch with in los angeles but have since let go. i like the idea of working as a barista for awhile as i search for an ideal research position, meeting locals in the neighborhood as i make latte art. 

most importantly, i am hopeful that the space i would have in austin - in both body and mind - would give me the perspective i need to be more intentional about my dream of working as a writer. i have talked about writing for almost 2 years now, with small steps toward freelance work, because i have been busy with deadlines or other school-related commitments. after i finish my master’s degree, i believe i will be ready to take on this new challenge of creating a unique career as a writer who covers mental health - via psychology, neuroscience, and health policy. next steps are to connect with people who already work in science writing and health journalism: ask them about how this industry functions, their tips for a new writer, how to pitch well and often. whew! okay! i am putting this out into the world to keep myself accountable. it feels a little scary to write down these thoughts, with tangible steps in place. i am nervous about the risk of failure - the epic sort: not just a few rejections, but numerous over a long period of time. i know the media industry is contracting right now, and many talented, experienced writers are out of work. in that case, i suppose i will find other ways to pay the bills. but i am reaching a point where i feel like i cannot delay these plans any longer. a morbid thought, brought on by thoughts of mortality in this wretched pandemic: if i die in the next year, i want to be remembered for my ideas - memorialized in writing - and for my love and care toward friends and family.

of course, all of this yearning and pondering is contingent on the pandemic getting better by this fall or, at the latest, by next spring. this pandemic has shot all my plans - to return to oxford, to move to new york, to stay in the bay area on my own terms. but honestly, as an eternal optimist, i truly do not know any other way than to dream about the future. i am hopeful that i will carve out a life for myself that i love, whatever shape it takes.

may 18, 2020

#austin #texas #moving #writing #solitude #future

[bookishlyjules]

Review - Tweet Cute by Emma Lord- Real Characters with Real Struggles

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

If you follow me on Twitter, you know I am a self-proclaimed #1 Tweet Cute fan… and it’s for a good reason.

Let me explain. I love reading and reading YA has been my thing for the past 10 years. Even when I was 12 and the opening age to be reading YA, I knew YA was going to hold a special place in my heart for a very long time. Even with this new change with a lack of Sci-Fi/Dystopian and a surge in contemporary YA titles, everything and anything YA is my schtick (well except fantasy… but more on that another time).

So why has Tweet Cute resonated with me so much? I think it comes down to the characters. You always want to be able to see yourself in a character, it’s how we relate to literature. If we can understand the character, we engage with the novel more, it really is just that. Specifically with Pepper I had not seen myself in a character like her for a really long time. Maybe not since 2008 when I read The Hunger Games for the first time. But as I grew up the issues and struggles I went through evolved alongside me. In High-school and the first few years of University, I struggled with my identity and what I wanted to do. I didn’t know who I was and I thought I had my whole life mapped out. I always listened to my parents (except when my mom and I fought), I always aimed for the best grades (graduating as a Ontario Scholar in Highschool (a big deal in Ontario) and with Distinction in University (like cum laude but the Canadian version) because it was what made my parents the most proud of me. I remember the first time I got straight A’s in grade 4 because that was when my parents were the most proud of me I can remember from that age. But also, I am a Social Media Manager, and I have been for over 5 years for different companies. Even helping out my Dad with his, and he’s talked to the CEO of his company about my ideas. He was always impressed with my knowledge of marketing and when I decided to pick up a minor in marketing to potentially do this for the rest of my life, my parents saw this as the path for me.

But something that’s always forgotten in my family was my first career dream, to be a chef.

I’ve always wanted to have my own cafe, where I could bake to my heart’s content (yes I love baking. Another Pepper thing in me), and I could have walls of books for people to peruse at their leisure and just chill. That was always my dream, and honestly still is… for the future.

But my parents are strict in their ideals for their children, with good reasoning because they both have successful careers and just want the same for their kids.

This leads me to Jack, who has a passion but his parents always believed he would continue in their footsteps by running the store. I connected with him because my own sibling (though 3 years younger than me) is the good one. The one that I feel like my parents love more. She has the brains and the beauty and can literally do whatever she wants without consequence, whereas I have the burden of being the one constantly watched and waiting to  screw up, but also more responsibility because I’ve always been more independent and less reliant on my family. Seeing this in Jack struck me, specifically the burden he felt in this because I feel that way too, like the entire world in crashing down on me and I’m just sinking with it. (Also having Jack, a literal teenaged boy, cry and show emotion? MONUMENTAL!)

These characters show to people that their internal struggles are real and extremely valid, whether you’re a high school senior just trying to figure shit out, or a Master’s student like me who has always had the same burdens and expectations and not related to anyone who felt the same.

On a WAY lighter note, let me talk about the really CUTE parts of this book that I loved in typical review fashion:

The witty dialogue had me in actual tears, like stomach cramps from laughing too hard. Exhibit A: When Jack’s mom said “Did Uptown funk you up?” had me peeing because I could imagine my own dad saying that.

Also the characters and their banter felt real like how I would speak to my friends which is always a plus in my book.

ANOTHER THING: NEW YORK!!!

So I just moved to New York City and like Pepper I haven’t really explored outside of my neighbourhood yet. And what was the most amazing? Jack’s family’s restaurant is supposed to be based in MY NEIGHBOURHOOD! When they mentioned Astor Place Station my heart jumped and I actually screamed “That’s my station!” and then they walked through Washington Square Park and I could literally picture everything they were doing and everywhere they went and honestly, that was monumental to my reading experience.

SO In Conclusion:

I loved Tweet Cute. Not in a “5 Stars Tweet Cute is Amazing!” but in a “1 MILLION STARS THIS BOOK CHANGED MY LIFE!” and I’m not sure if it’s because I moved to New York and these characters are LITERALLY me, or if it’s because it’s just THAT good of a novel, but regardless I loved this book and will continue to call myself the #1 Tweet Cute fan forever.

Tweet Cute by Emma Lord goes on sale January 21st, 2020

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Tweet Cute ARC was provided to me by Macmillan and Wednesday Books

#review #Tweet Cute #Emma Lord #YA #YA literature #young adult #young adult literature #YAlit #book review #book #bookishlyjules

[weirdlizard26]

For the ask meme? All of them.

jay,,,

give me a sec to edit this post ok

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

wine glasses are like reading glasses except you wear them while drinking wine

i’d say water bottles but only the ones that can handle heat and stuff and not poison your drink with plastic or whatever

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?

i havent had a lollipop in a good while so thats my choice

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?

havent tried either but boy i’d love to try just a little bit of cotton candy at leastonce

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

bro,,,,,, that was like 10 years ago, how am i supposed to remember that,,,,,,,

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

i usually drink soda from plastic cups but honestly? nothing beats the experience of sipping that sweet sweet ambrosia from the bottle,,, but also i’d love to try soda in a can some day!

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?

idk what half of these would look like but sportswear always wins in my book

7. earbuds or headphones?

ok i actually googled whats the difference and im more of an earbuds person! theyrejust safer i think and it makes me kinda anxious when im home listening tomusic and cant hear anything going on around me

8. movies or tv shows?

tv shows! well, unless the episodes are like 40 minutes or a full hour because its hard to focus for that long kfjsndkfs

9. favorite smell in the summer?

pavement after rain and also. grass.

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

haha thats a funny joke you made there *starts crying*

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

just a couple of meat+cheese+mayo sandwiches! if its summer mom cuts tomatoes or cucumbers for us and as they start getting more and more expensive we replace them with pickles!

12. name of your favorite playlist?

sorry i couldnt choose!

13. lanyard or key ring?

key ring!

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?

aaaa i love fruit flavored ones!

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

aaaaaaaa i dont remember if it was elementary or middle school but we were assigned this really cool ukrainian book that ive actually read before they assigned it. well, nobody here will recognize it but it was Тореадори з Васюківки by Всеволод Нестайко and it was about 2 boys who were best friends growing up in the countryside and they went on adventures and had fun and their friendship made me so happy,,, i guess i was all for cool friendship portrayal even back then! it was mostly laughs and jokes but some moments were actually serious and hit me really hard and i remember them to this day actually

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

its a myth, sitting was created as a personal attack on me

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

my trusty old sneakers!! theyre all black and the sole is very soft and nice

18. ideal weather?

when the sun is out and its just warm enough to show off your new graphic tee and also very soft and nice

19. sleeping position?

i just lie on my left side like a fool

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

notebook!

21. obsession from childhood?

TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLES!!! AND DANNY PHANTOM!!!! i even made a ghost fighting costume once,,,, tho it wasnt much of a costume, it was just fingerless gloves i cut out of paper. they were extremely uncomfortable. but very effective in fighting ghosts!

22. role model?

kfjsdnfk i have a bunch! might sound weird but one of them is bdg i think??? and the other 2 are some online acquaintances whom im too afraid to interact with more often than i do

23. strange habits?

repeating silly lines i hear on tv / in anime/cartoons? and also i never touch food with my right hand unless its plums?? and there are more but. you know. bad memory.

24. favorite crystal?

all of them!!!!!

25. first song you remember hearing?

my grandma used to sing this to me over the phone

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wUPnqqPXQsw

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

go for a walk!

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

slep

28. five songs to describe you?

we are the people by empire of the sun

home by cavetown

strawberry blonde by mitski

smile like you mean it by the killers

afterlife by arcade fire

29. best way to bond with you?

wash your hands very thoroughly and make jokes

30. places that you find sacred?

i see nature i go crazy from how much respect i have for it

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass andtake names?

*wearing hinata cosplay* im here to play volleyball and kick your ass and as you can see ive already played today’s match

32. top five favorite vines?

road work ahead

a avocado!! thanks!!!!!

REBECCA THIS IS NOT WHAT YOU THINK

i fell can you help me :(

that vine where ukulele sounds like human voices and people sounds like ukuleles

33. most used phrase in your phone?

idk how to check that??? sowwy

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head?

the stomach meds ad they keep showing on tv

35. average time you fall asleep?

3am? 4am? idk for sure

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?

t-trollface…

37. suitcase or duffel bag?

havent used either (cause ive never traveled anywhere too far away) but the latter looks pretty and i feel like it would fit more stuff

38. lemonade or tea?

depends on my mood!

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?

dont kick me but im not sure if ive ever tried either ;w;

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

the school’s cat who hates most people actually kinda warmed up to me even tho im terrible with animals

41. last person you texted?

jay uwu

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?

afabs cant have both huh

but i want both. please give me both.

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?

all of these sound nice but my lazy ass will always go for hoodies

44. favorite scent for soap?

aaaaaaaa im allergic to a lot of soaps but i like flower scented ones

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

i love all of them dearly but lately ive been more into superheroes i think. im not sure really sure what exactly i feel

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?

something really really long

47. favorite type of cheese?

there are different types????

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?

i hope im a pear

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

become a good person. thats all.

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

i dont remember what it was but i remember i was with my friends and we couldnt stop laughing for several minutes and ive never felt happier

51. current stresses?

UNIVERSITY FUCK OFF!!!

52. favorite font?

i like comic sans

53. what is the current state of your hands?

they arent doing so hot tbh, my dermatitis is back again

54. what did you learn from your first job?

i dont have one!

55. favorite fairy tale?

gonna be honest chief, i dont remember too many of them ;w;

56. favorite tradition?

on new year’s we turn the lights off, light up a candle in the kitchen, laugh at president’s speech and only then starts eating

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

getting over a lost friendship, passing high school finals and uni entrance exams and coming out to my best friend

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

singing!! being able to learn how to do most things pretty quickly!!! and i cant think of anything else but honestly these two are quite enough for me

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

uh oh! guess what! i dont have a catchphrase and im very self-conscious about it!

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

im torn between sports anime and slice of life

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

because humans dont have wings we look for other ways to fly

from haikyuu

obviously

62. seven characters you relate to?

tsukishima kei from haikyuu

mae borowski from nitw

apollo justice from ace attorney

flame princess from adventure time

donatello from tmnt

sokka from atla

kageyama shigeo from mob psycho 100

63. five songs that would play in your club?

mr brightside, bohemian rhapsody, smile like you mean it by the killers and allof haikyuu ops and eds

64. favorite website from your childhood?

if social media counts, vkontakte i guess?? i didnt really go anywhere else and it still exists and i thriving so im not sure if it should count fkjsndkjf

65. any permanent scars?

yeah, the one from my very first vaccination from when i was a few months old i think and also some traces of when i had chickenpox

66. favorite flower(s)?

idk a lot of flower names but i really like tulips

67. good luck charms?

dont have any at the moment but i’d love to get one!

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

whatever fish mom used to buy when we were kids >:(

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

bro my memory isnt good enough to remember those,,

70. left or right handed?

im a righty but i had to become a lefty for like a month when i broke my pinkie

71. least favorite pattern?

i like traditional ukrainian ornaments

72. worst subject?

history :P

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

ice cream + fries

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?

idk how pain levels work but i try not to take meds unless the pain is interfering with studying

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

idk but i had a box full of my teeth for so long they turned to dust and i had to throw it away

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

RHNGRHGNRHGRNH EVERYTHING except for freshly made mashed potatoes

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

if its green it can stay

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store?

have never had either of those and i hope i never will cause they sound gross!

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo?

i dont have a license, so.

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

kfjsndfks depends on the mood tbh!

81. fireflies or lightning bugs?

fireflies!

82. pc or console?

i WISH i had a console but this is too broke for that,, i played a couple of times tho and it feels more fun than pc!

83. writing or drawing?

please dont make me choose, ive abandoned both and its making me feel bad

84. podcasts or talk radio?

podcasts :O

84. barbie or polly pocket?

idk what polly pocket is but barbie rules!!!

85. fairy tales or mythology?

i feel like sometimes fairy tales are kinda like watered down myths so i have a right to say i like both

86. cookies or cupcakes?

my heart goes to cookies

87. your greatest fear?

finding out im faking any part of my identity

88. your greatest wish?

get through whatever’s going on right now

89. who would you put before everyone else?

mom

90. luckiest mistake?

when i recorded an undertale medley and got a few notes wrong but it actually ended up sounding better than originally

91. boxes or bags?

boxes!

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

fairy lights……

93. nicknames?

never really had many? my bff calls me mr smith sometimes but thats all i can think of fkjsdnfs but also! steve used to be my nickname before i decided my life my own and i get to choose my name

94. favorite season?

spring ;w;

95. favorite app on your phone?

sudoku

 96. desktop background?

 97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?

my own and my mom’s

 98. favorite historical era?

eh im not very fond of the past because not every time period had soap

#wl26 #wl26 answers #flamingerrs #jay just so you know i love you a whole lot #i really did that huh #long post

[lightsandlostbells]

Hi! This was prompted by people excusing the Williams’s behavior as “realistic,” but I really hate when the remakes do problematic things and people excuse it as “realism.” It’s like when Nico said the n word and people said “it’s realistic to Italy and that’s what Skam it all about. Skam is supposed to show people being problematic because it’s realistic.” While that’s true, the characters usually learn from their problematic behavior (sometimes they don’t, but that’s another story). (1)

Skam is supposed to educate and help teenagers. Also, as you’ve pointed out before, Skam is very idealistic and it annoys me to no end when people excuse problematic aspects of the remakes by saying “it’s realistic.” I’m telling you this because you’re one of the main accounts I know who understands this. I’m just tired of constantly seeing this excuse whenever there’s some kind of discourse about a remake. (2)

Agreed completely. I feel like it’s especially transparent when people are quick to use “realism” as a defense for criticisms of the show, like characters being racist or sexist, but will similarly downplay or tell you to get over the less “realistic” aspects of various remakes - things like casting actors well into their twenties to play teenagers, or Italian Sana’s casting, or scenes that simply feel more out of a dramatic Hollywood fantasy of high school rather than something that would actually happen to real teenagers. It’s also telling to me that people talking about Skam’s “realism” are usually referring to the negative features of the characters or show, the clips that spotlight anger and misery, the dialogue that shows off casual bigotry, as if reality is constant ugliness. Happiness and empathy and kindness are rarely lauded as “realistic” even though they do have a place in the world. 

I have seen people genuinely say things like “Skam isn’t supposed to be educational, it’s supposed to be realistic” and I have no idea what show people watched, because Skam has been educational from the beginning. It has been since the series was conceived. It may not always be successful at it but the educational aspects are baked into the characters, the dialogue, the stories Julie chose to tell. And Skam’s idealism is very, very clear. I could list tons of examples. I mean … listen to Jonas’ speech in the finale. The last words of the show are Fear spreads, but fortunately, love does too. How do you hear that and think the intended message of the show was anything but idealism? It acknowledges that things suck, but encourages viewers to strive for the best parts of reality.

I feel like we have to recognize that Skam meant a hell of a lot to many fans, not just as a piece of entertainment with twists and drama and copious amounts of people walking in slow motion, but as something personal and touching, and much of that impact came from its educational nature and idealism. Is it fair to ask that from the remakes, too? Well, I certainly don’t think it’s unfair. They are borrowing the Skam brand name, the stories, the characters, the dialogue. Of course it’s totally fine for them to adapt the shows to the different settings and to make changes big and small - but I have to ask: if the remakes were not interested in helping teenagers of their own cultures the same way that the original show was (no matter Skam’s flaws - I don’t want to put it on a pedestal) - then what’s the point? Why recreate Skam instead of coming up with their own juicy teen drama? You can’t help but think they’ve missed the heart of the original show and are just producing a shallow copy. Or you end up with a more cynical interpretation, that a remake uninterested in educating or helping youth is being made primarily to profit from an existing success - and honestly, all of the remakes were probably hoping to score some of Skam’s popularity, but at least you can hope that the production teams do have more benevolent intentions. Is that naive? I don’t think so. I think Skam, whatever its flaws, did have more clearly altruistic motivations behind its creation than the majority of television series (which also affects how people engage with it, but that’s perhaps another topic), so it is possible, and I definitely think that on the whole, there are a lot of people involved with the remakes who listen to teenagers and want to reach them and help them. But it’s OK to speak out when you think there’s been a misstep.

And I do get that a lot of backlash comes from clashes in an international fandom consuming multiple versions of the same stories from different cultures with different standards for what is or isn’t problematic, and I get that a lot of people really just want to have a good time with a TV show they enjoy and not be made to feel guilty about it or to wade through 1000 angry posts about a throwaway line that offended other people. I don’t know about everyone, but Tumblr is most definitely a Fun Time thing for me. When a fandom ceases to be fun and is just all rage and bitterness, I tend to dip out, because I don’t need to fill my free time with those negative emotions. But at the same time, I recognize that people can be hurt or angered by media and that it’s not my place to tell people to suck it up and stop complaining.

(Also, just because something is realistic does not mean you need to like it, either? Skam Austin could have been set instead in a very white area of the US, with all the characters written as Trump supporters. That would be very realistic for parts of the US. That doesn’t mean I have to be OK with that choice.)

(And … it’s not a documentary. Despite whatever research the teams have done, these aren’t real people. These are characters who have writers, directors, and actors putting words in their mouths. The writing can be technically “realistic” but still playing into tired, offensive tropes - if Even had killed himself at the end of S3, that would have been “realistic.” Depressed people can commit suicide. But should we have just accepted that? Should we have been OK with the typical tragic Bury Your Gays ending with the mentally ill person whose life ends in suffering? Or maybe, just maybe, there was a point to Julie Andem deliberately subverting those expectations, and maybe the intent was not just to create a TV series that would make the audience cry but to uplift and heal them?)

Anyway. I feel like we need to move beyond just using “it’s realistic” as a shield for criticism. Like if a character uses a racist, misogynistic, or homophobic slur - is there a point to it in the scene? Is it being called out? Is it being used to critique a racist/misogynistic/homophobic environment? Do we see how the slur affects the marginalized characters it refers to, or is it just tossed around by the privileged characters who are unaffected? Does anyone react to it at all? If the slur is presented without objection or commentary, does it come across as if the show is normalizing the word rather than condemning it? Could the scene have functioned just as well without the slur? And so on. Just stopping at “it’s realistic so people shouldn’t have a problem with it” is lazy and simplistic. We can ask better from our media, especially a show like Skam that is intended to not just to depict its target audience accurately, but to demonstrate positive messages and solutions for tough situations.

#lillypedalsxx #ask #skam #skam remakes #long post #i rambled a lot idk

[katmiscellanious]

I’m Dissapointed

Honestly the reaction of the carry on fandom of Wayward son is honestly disgusting. I can’t believe you all. We were such a low key, non toxic fandom. I came here to get AWAY from the drama, and you all react like THIS?

You should all be ashamed of yourselves. This was abviously not supossed to be the final book. Haven’t ANY of you read a series before? What is wrong with you people. How dare you call rainbow Rowell homophobic for this. How dare you take things at such face value. I thought we were better than this.

(Serious Spoiler caution below)

While I get where your coming from, truley I do. Without seeing the ending all I could think of is, “ok when will we get to the actual awnsers.” It May not be what you were excpecting but are you all so entitled that you think every price of literature and media should be exactly what you want, and is terrible for not being that?

Wayward son is excatly what it promised to be. It is a story about trauma, a budding relationship under non-ideal circumstances, and it’s about carrying on after the story is over, but disguised as a road trip. Carry on has and always will be about playing off cliche tropes in fiction. The couple that always makes it out. The hero that is always happy in the end. The happily ever after.The concise neat endings. Children fighting wars that aren’t theirs.

Carry on for me isn’t just about Simon and Baz, it’s about shedding light on the unrealistic things in fantasy books.

Realationships aren’t easy and they aren’t sunshine and rainbows when the stories over, because the stories never over. Real people don’t get nice happy little endings, packaged up all tied with a nice bow. That’s not how the real world goes. Simon and Baz spent their whole lives enemies, not talking, and now Simon is a depressed mess that won’t talk about his problems, and thinks he’s unworthy of Baz. And Baz is a real person. People don’t ever really acknowledge how hard it is to be friends with someone who has a lot of issues, nevertheless be in a relationship with somebody with a lot of issues. Baz is just a boy who is understandably tired of having such a hard relationship. Because it is hard. And it’s hard not to want something else.

Baz felt that with Lamb. Lamb treated Baz in a way that he hadn’t been for a long time. He liked lamb because lamb was easy. Lamb liked him, and was easy to talk to, and understood him.

And Simon is a whole different story. He feels so unworthy of Baz, like he’s tying Baz down. And it’s such a real thing for Simon to feel. Its a horrible thing to be a burden to others, and to know your a burden.

But Simon and Baz stay together because they love each other. Simon and Baz stay together even though it’s hard because they love each other so much. They are both willing to put in the effort to make it work. And that is how relationships work. people don’t stay together magically because everything is always easy and everything always works out. People make relationships work because of the will to stay and love that person.

One of the greatest things about rainbow Rowell is her realistic relationships. Relationships that are hard and at times frustrating, but they somehow work. That’s a real realationship. That’s the real world. And all of you need to face that. Simon and Baz aren’t perfect, they aren’t happy, and that’s fine. That’s all we can excpect of them right now. What matters is they’re together and they’re making it work.

While I’ll admit, most of the way through wayward son, Penny annoyed the shit out of me. She was petty, she was arrogant, and I hate the way she treated Shepard. But another aspect of rainbow rowells amazing relationship writing is how she treated Penny and Micah in the book.

Penny is a person who thought she had her whole world figured out. She knows who she is, she knows what she knows, and she knows what she wants. Penny knew she was the smart one. The girl with the plan. The girl who had everything figured out before she even got out of school. But that is so unrealistic.

I’m a senior in high school, and I don’t know who I am, I dong know what I’m going to become, and I don’t know who I’ll be with in 10 years. These teens in books are always so sure of themselves. They always marry the person they were with in high school. They know what they want. But the world doesn’t work that’s way. And Penny has to figure that out the hard way.

The future can’t ever be certain, that part of what makes it the future, and why we must be so careful in the present. You can’t just “check the boyfriend” box off your list. Your beliefs and your values are always changing. Penny is learning that throughout the whole book. Penny is finding out that the real world is unstable. You can’t make a set plan that always works out, and you can’t control the outcome of what you do. when this sets her off balance, when she looses traction on her plan, she completely loses herself. Who is she if she can’t make a plan, and what’s a plan if you can’t stick to it.

I feel her so badly when I see it this way, because in a small way I’ve been there. Planning makes me feel more confident. I always feel more balanced with a well thought out plan. And I’ve had meltdowns when I can’t stick to those plans. It’s hard and uncomfortable when a plan you’ve relied on falls apart. Your left hanging to a cliff with no rope, no safety guard, no certainty of anything. And THATS penny’s story.

The story isn’t over guys, the reason it feels unfinished is because rainbow Rowell is setting up a series!!!! I for one am super excited at the promise of more snowbaz and more of this magical, realistic, and heartbreaking world.

And if you didn’t like it that’s fine, but you don’t need to be so fucking rude about it. Saying things about how Rainbow is homophobic, how you’ve read fan fictions better. Y’all are so negetive and so toxic.

Do better.

#wayward son #carry on spoilers #carry on #snowbaz #spoilers #SPOILERS #i cant say it enough #disgusting #toxic fandom #toxic #rainbow rowell #bless rainbows heart #i love her #i fandom needs to fucking calm down

[1dcraftawards]

April Author of the Month

Drumroll please.... our author of the month for April is...... 

@harrysdodgyankles!

Congratulations! Check out her interview with us below! 

1.Did you start writing fanfiction for One Direction, or was there another fandom that you wrote fanfiction for before this?

One Direction is the one and only fandom I’ve ever written fanfiction for. It was my first foray into the fiction-writing world--I’ve been reading fic since 2012 and I initially started exchanging stories with one of my best friends from high school in this email chain we had. We never planned on letting those stories leave our inboxes, but one day I guess I felt driven enough to start publishing my stories on the 1DFF website--and here we are, six years later!

2.How old were you when you started writing fanfiction?

I started properly writing my own fanfiction in 2013, so I was 16/17 years old. It was a while before I published anything I thought was quality (at least, back then), but I wrote pretty consistently until my sophomore year of college. I took a bit of a break, mostly to focus on school and get through my last two years of undergrad, but I’ve found a new motivation for writing and this resurgence has been treating me well so far!

3.What’s been your favorite fic you’ve written to work on so far?

All of my fics are my favorites for lots of different reasons. I love writing Sit Back because of the amount of research I’ve had to do for all of the different historical periods. I know far too much about the fall of the Roman Empire than I’d ever thought I would. I loved writing my various fic exchange pieces because of my love for beginning stories in media res; these challenges are the perfect opportunities for me to create AU worlds from scratch. Each story has a really special place in my heart--I reminisce on my writing processes for them pretty often, especially when I’m looking for inspiration and drive to formulate new stories.

4. Is there a fic that you really wanted to write, but you just never did?

I have a fic I started and never finished. A League of Their Own--I started publishing it, gosh, probably back in 2014. It has such a special place in my heart, but with where my life was at the time and all of the other responsibilities I had, I couldn’t give the story the time and effort it deserved. It was my only OU story and I wanted to do its characters justice--one day I hope to come back to it, but for now it’s sitting in my drafts folder collecting dust.

5. What’s your favorite trope to write?

I’m allergic to angst, so I try to stay away from it (mostly out of self-preservation for my emotions). I love writing friends to lovers and established relationship fics. Dad!Harry, Husband!Harry--anything fluffy involving commitment. I’m really into that.

6. What’s your ideal space to write in?

In my bed, usually at night when the rest of my house is asleep. I like the quiet stillness of my house--it helps me clear my brain and focus on the content of my piece. It’s also because no one knows I write fic, so there’s less chance of them accidentally seeing something on my screen and asking questions.

7. What inspires you to write?

Honestly, telling stories for people who don’t often get their stories told. This was an important lesson that took me a while to learn. I didn’t used to do this, but now I make a point to write characters who are often underrepresented; for me, as a South Asian Muslim woman, I come from a very miniscule corner of representation in the One Direction fan community. It’s important to me that I try to give us a voice in any way possible. Lots of people don’t realize the impact seeing someone like yourself on a screen can have--it’s a little thing, but it says a lot. It makes sure we aren’t erased, that we aren’t cast aside. That’s why all my fics have characters of color, especially characters of South Asian descent. And when people resonate with that--that’s the biggest inspirational motivating factor for me.

8. Do you typically like to listen to music when you write? If so, what do you listen to?

If I listen to music, it’s music that I don’t know the lyrics to. If I know the lyrics, I’ll start singing them, then I’ll start typing them! I typically go for soft, slow, vibey music--Majid Jordan, Daniel Caesar, Miguel, 6LACK. Mostly hip-hop stuff.

9. Do you have any plans for any future fic ideas you’d like to pursue?

I do! I’m currently writing a post-doc Harry fic that I’m SO excited about. I also have plans for a rewrite of ALOTO and an orchestra AU.

10. Do you have any advice for other writers in the fandom?

I don’t know that I’m entirely qualified to give advice, but I will say this. The most important thing is to write for yourself. When you put your writing out into the world, you don’t owe anyone anything--especially in the fic community, where the vast majority of writers are putting hours of effort into content that they post with no expectation of compensation in return. Yeah, it gets pretty easy to get bogged down in the number of likes and reblogs or the number of asks you get after posting something. But in the end, you’re writing because you’ve found a story you want to tell, so focus on telling that story in the best way you can. Everything else will come later.

11. What is your writing process like?

I’m still trying to find what works best for me, honestly. I usually start with one big document that has all my notes, researching, outlines, etc. Then I’ll break a chapter/one-shot down into scenes--I’ll write specifics of what I want to include, bits of dialogue that have come to me that I’d like to incorporate, and the like. Then I’ll write a full first draft in that same document. Once that’s done, I move it to a separate document and start editing or I’ll send it to my betas. So a finished piece for me looks like one big planning/draft document plus individual docs for each part of a story.

12. What inspired you to write “Sit Back”? How did you come up with the story idea?

I saw a prompt on one of those AU posts that was something like “we’re an immortal couple who likes to kill each other for fun.” I thought it was brilliant. I cranked out the first chapter in less than a day because I was so excited about all the possibilities swirling around in my head. It’s been an exhilarating story to write because of all the different AUs I’ve essentially created in this one story--a Civil War AU, a Roman Empire AU, a 1900s AU. And the elements of mysticism sprinkled throughout have been the most fun--I didn’t think it’d be this enjoyable to create a fantasy world, but I definitely wouldn’t be opposed to doing it again. There’s still one part left, and it’s proving to be the most difficult to write mostly because I know it’s going to break me.

13. Tell us about your upcoming story, “All The Things Yet to Come”.

The idea popped into my head after I caught up with my old departmental advisor at my university. He got married last year to a doctoral student in the same department, and I’d often wondered how that relationship came to be. They’re both two fairly quiet, incredibly intelligent, charismatic people. I wanted to explore that a bit more--so ATTYTC was born. Also, I wanted to write something other than a Uni AU since I’ve written too many of those. Harry as an academic is so enthralling, and the Harry in this story is one of the more guarded versions of him that I’ve created. It’s definitely going to be a journey and I’m thrilled to share it with everyone.

14. What is one thing you wish you would’ve known before you started writing 1d fic?

I don’t think there’s anything I wish I’d known about the 1D community, but I do wish I’d known what my own personal limits were in terms of how much I could handle. I think I went into it with unrealistic expectations for the amount of content I could produce. I wish I’d known a little more about my writing process and how long it takes me to be satisfied with something. Probably would’ve saved me a lot of disappointment.

15. Who has been your favorite OFC to write? Why?

I think it has to be Sofia from ‘You’ve Woken Up My Heart.’ There are certain qualities about her that I admire so much--her drive, her wit, her diligence. She knows exactly what she wants and how to get it. Because I’m also pursuing medicine, it was also fun to channel some of what I hope to be my future into her life. (Except I definitely don’t want to be a pediatrician. Yikes.)

16. Would you ever consider writing for any of the other boys?

I’ve written for Niall and Zayn in the past. I think there might even be a Louis one-shot from 2013 floating around somewhere in my drafts. At this point, however, I’ve been writing for Harry for so long, I feel like I’m pretty comfortable here.

#author of the month #april19

[theleastcarefulofgamedevs]

hehehehehehehehe ur turn. overshare pals

hehe im lov u ceec :)

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1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

water bottles and soda cans!

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?

chocolate.... im lov it

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?

cotton candy!

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

hardworking, earnest, and honestly? they gave me too much credit ebagweaganegioawnegew

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

soda bottles!

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?

somewhere between boho, goth, and grunge hehe

7. earbuds or headphones?

headphones!

8. movies or tv shows?

movies,,

9. favorite smell in the summer?

you know that wet pavement smell after it rains? love that

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

dodgeball hehehe

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

nothin tbh. i don’t wake up early enough for it

12. name of your favorite playlist?

Writing Music! i made it hehehe

13. lanyard or key ring?

key ring!

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?

GUMMY BEARS AND JELLY BEANS

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

“A Child Called ‘It’“ by Dave Pelzer

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

cuddled up to someone in blankets,,, im lov anything with my s/o tbh

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

i have this beat up pair of blue slip ons that have bloodstains on em bc i got a nosebleed one day bwaeiugbaweugbaweubguaw

18. ideal weather?

post-raining, or like. just before it starts raining

19. sleeping position?

anything with my s/o or bein wrapped in like. a billion blankets

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

on my home pc in my room!

21. obsession from childhood?

dice and video games!

22. role model?

i know it’s gonna sound dumb but like. a lot of characters from media have influenced me a lot, like sans/komaeda etc. another one from my real life would be my aunt on my mom’s side!

23. strange habits?

i bounce my leg while listening to music or stressed,, that’s abt it. OH and i like twirling a small blanket around on my arm bc... acrobatics of sorts

24. favorite crystal?

amethyst, but anything clean cut and rounded looks rlly nice imo,,

25. first song you remember hearing?

the first day i remember in my life was christmas at my grandma’s when i was 4, so probably random christmas music ubwegebwgwebgoibgweg

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

sometimes when i get tired of sitting around at home i like to walk down to the dog park by my house! 

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

cuddle,,,,,,,,,,, wrap up in a blanket with some freshly baked cookies n just. be there

28. five songs to describe you?

megalovania, medley rush 2 from the sonic rush ost, the promised neverland english op, metal crusher from undertale, metal scratchin’ from sonic rush

29. best way to bond with you?

just talk to me! im godawful at starting convos but i love talkin to ppl! 

30. places that you find sacred?

every person’s room feels that way, as well as obvious places, like churches n whatnot. we went n visited my aunt’s old house so my mom could pick up some stuff and being in her room after she died in 2015 was just like. an emotion i can’t rlly describe

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

hoodie, trackpants, n sneakers hehe

32. top five favorite vines?

back at it again @ krispy kreme, ADAM, they were roommates, two dudes in a hot tub, my croissant

33. most used phrase in your phone?

either “be there soon” or “ily” 

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head?

none tbh. i don’t watch much tv so i don’t see ads often

35. average time you fall asleep?

either 10:30 or sometime after midnight. no in between 

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?

it was a rage comic

37. suitcase or duffel bag?

suitcase!

38. lemonade or tea?

lemonade, but i LOVE tea!

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?

LEMON CAKE....

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

i was walkin in the halls with my friend and someone dropped a styrofoam cup of pasta on my friend’s head from the second floor awbegiuawbeguiawbguaewg

41. last person you texted?

the person who sent this ask heheheheh

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?

jacket pockets!

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?

hoodie!

44. favorite scent for soap?

anything really, but i like whatever my s/o uses bc it would remind me of them!

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

fantasy!

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?

underwear tbh. like. that and a tshirt or just underwear is the only way i can sleep

47. favorite type of cheese?

sensory issues say i have to hate all kinds of cheese outside of like. grilled cheese so let’s go with that/cheddar

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?

dragonfruit! 

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

GOD pretty much every quote from monomi or chiaki in danganronpa 2, but mostly “if you learn to love yourself, that love will continue to carry you for your whole life! love, love...”

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

OH HERES A FUCKIN STORY OK so i was at my friend’s house with a bunch of others bc we were doin a sleepover type thing and we were eating raising canes in his attic at like 3 am and some guy high on like. 3 different drugs at once got impaled through the leg on his fence. nobody saw him but we knew he was there and the cops were there in like 3 minutes. that very same friend has some of the most wack stories ngl

51. current stresses?

just doing well in school and making sure my s/o is happy!

52. favorite font?

comic sans.......................... im sorry

53. what is the current state of your hands?

my palms b sweaty but my fingers are dehydrated tbh. typin

54. what did you learn from your first job?

work.... difficult

55. favorite fairy tale?

probably the princess and the frog!

56. favorite tradition?

christmas!

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

probably my most noteworthy traumas tbh. gettin therapy for em, too

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

writing, my ability to overcome obstacles, being able to help ppl as well as i can, and making friends fast!

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

“Not dead yet.”

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

Probably either shounen, romance, or moe,,,,

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

“It’s a beautiful day outside. Birds are singing, flowers are blooming. On days like these, kids like you... should be burning in hell.”

62. seven characters you relate to?

sans, komaeda, makoto naegi, komaru naegi, toko fukawa, chiaki nanami, and chihiro fujisaki!

63. five songs that would play in your club?

they’d all be fall out boy tbh. that and videogame osts

64. favorite website from your childhood?

armor games hehe

65. any permanent scars?

i don’t think so? at least, not yet

66. favorite flower(s)?

roses and anything blue!

67. good luck charms?

my dice sets!

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

vanilla york peppermint patties... gross

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

pikmin in pikmin 1 who are underneath a bridge when it’s completed are killed because they get pushed through the ground

70. left or right handed?

right handed!

71. least favorite pattern?

probably the hellish bumpy pattern all teachers have all over their fuckin classrooms

72. worst subject?

math

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

chicken nuggets in milkshake... good. or frankly just like. cooked chicken mixed with anythin cold like ice or ice cream

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?

like. 3 or 4

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

i was eating a crunch bar and it fell out hehe

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

I WOULD DIE FOR FRENCH FRIES.

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

any small blooming plant, like a single rose or flower!

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store?

hrm. coffee from a gas station tbh

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo?

NEITHER LOOK GOOD LMAO and i don’t have a driver’s license. that’s just like. a prediction

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

jewel tones!

81. fireflies or lightning bugs?

lightning bugs!

82. pc or console?

either works but i spend more time on pc!

83. writing or drawing?

writing, but i like both!

84. podcasts or talk radio?

talk radio, but i love podcasts like TAZ or Critical Role! 

84. barbie or polly pocket?

neither? but probably barbie bc it’s more well known? idk

85. fairy tales or mythology?

mythology!

86. cookies or cupcakes?

cupcakes all the way b

87. your greatest fear?

me being the last person i know alive. i’d rather die than outlive everyone

88. your greatest wish?

i hope that no matter what there is after we die, i get to be with the people that are most important to me. 

89. who would you put before everyone else?

my s/o and family tbh

90. luckiest mistake?

buying danganronpa bweguowabguawebogbaweibg

91. boxes or bags?

boxes!

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

fairy lights!

93. nicknames?

i go by wes, dev, bines, anything rlly

94. favorite season?

spring!

95. favorite app on your phone?

tumblr hehe

96. desktop background?

it’s the ddlc cast! it’s a greyscaled image of four of the events cut together and their eyes glow hehe

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?

only one, and it’s my dads bc i have to call him every time i go to my grandparents’ hehe

98. favorite historical era?

probably the one we’re in now tbh, but like. also hate it

[megadimension]

A brief defense of the most genius duo in anime history

In anime, being known for consistent quality is something of a rarity. Amongst bland seasonal adaptations of the same tired ass manga, most of us lay our hopes in those few legendary creators that have yet to let us down. Currently, my hope lies in the next Hiroyuki Imaishi/Kazuki Nakashima project, Promare. I've seen a lot of people very excited for this, because these two as Director/Writer respectively, has yet to produce anything not largely heralded as some of the most genius pieces of media to have ever been produced. But within this wide acceptance of expertise, exists a narrowly held, yet strange caveat: Kill la Kill wasn't good.

There are quite a few common and strange complaints leveled against Kill la Kill, from the animation being low quality, to being outright misogynist. The latter has always struck me as a strange conclusion to draw from the show. It’s a reasonable conclusion to draw if you’ve never watched the show, and only know that it’s an anime and the women don’t wear many clothes. These two things are generally a recipe for an objectifying male fantasy. However, the show is not an objectifying male fantasy, and that is the failing of the entire concept. The idea that Kill la Kill is misogynist is born from a misunderstanding of what makes women in anime poorly depicted: The secret to moe waifus that fill the porn folders of degenerates all over the world is not being scantily clad, but rather reductionist moe fetishing. I'm going to use Eromanga Sensei as an example for your standard fetish filling object show, marking the first time it's ever been involved in something good. Sagiri is, by all marks, not a human being: she is a loli fucktoy, and the show makes no question of this as they introduce her interests: porn, and trying to fuck some self-insert degenerate bastard. That's literally all she does. She exists for no other reason than to fulfill a fantasy. She has no aspirations beyond serving a man. This character is then dropped into numerous situations where she’s attempting to court her brother by flashing her panties and being generally perverted for the enjoyment of the viewer. Conversely, in Kill la Kill, our heroine, Ryuko is a high school delinquent-type character who seeks revenge for her father's murder, and, over the course of the show, is forced to reconcile with the world her father left for her and what her role in life really is as she fights through to see her father avenged. She spends the whole show growing, fighting, and eventually reasoning that the woman's role is not to be decided by the culture, but by the individual. In these senses, Ryuko very much escapes the trappings that reduce her to a fetish object.

It would be disingenuous of me to not cover the elephant in the room that is “Okay, but why the hell do they still dress like that?” It’s a pretty fair question, honestly. It’s no secret that in our society, a woman showing a lot of skin is regarded as an erotic object, serving the male fantasy to ogle them. Kill la Kill, however, dresses the women like this to outright challenge the concept that a scantily dressed woman is scandalous and erotic in a genius scene early on in the series, where Satsuki hounds Ryuko for being embarrassed to show so much skin because she naively believes it to be a sexual exposure. The show posits the concept that there's nothing inherently sexual about the naked body, or a partially revealed woman, to be more specific. Kill la Kill then goes on to establish throughout the show that clothing is a vehicle of subjugation, in the most literal possible sense. In the metaphorical sense, however, it expresses that clothing in the real world is a vehicle men have used to subjugate women: It hides the body to offer males exclusivity to the nude body, causing the female form to become coveted and sexual. Kill la Kill in general has a tendency to use clothes as allegories for the ideals imposed on women that exist to bind, like when Ryuko has a wedding dress forcefully has a wedding dress sewn onto her body, obviously parroting the pressure on women to marry and live a subservient life of child-bearing and house upkeep.

In the end, the interpretation of Kill la Kill as a genuine exultation for sex positive feminism or a misogynist nightmare lies in how you read the show, and I’ve always felt that reading it in a way that suggests misogyny requires some level of inability to read subtext, or flat out personal incredulity. I’ve never seen my thoughts more concisely presented on the matter than the reply by YouTuber and good media liker Harris Bomberguy to a curiouscat anon who decried Kill la Kill as a demeaning show to women, so I suppose I will leave you all with an excerpt.

“Not to be rude, but I think your version of reading places the expectation to be narratively coddled, TOLD who is the bad guy, over your own duty to decide the meaning of the text. You want Kill La Kill to point at you personally and explain why narrativisation of feminist empowerment stories still contains exploitative and reductive generalisations that affect not just your perception of real women, but women's expectations of themselves, in straight-laced terms, and thereby shirk the burden of actually interpreting a story in which a woman is sewn into a wedding dress and it controls her mind. “

#anime #anime blogging #kill la kill