#honestly i dont know what to expect at this point

[bane-of-thedas]

they really did release a trailer to inform that half a year from now they'll release another trailer

#dragon age #dragon age 4 #dragon age dreadwolf #honestly i dont know what to expect at this point

[piosplayhouse]

(This isn't bait, and you don't need to answer it if you don't want to). What's your beef with heartstopper?

The author and I have the same favorite mangaka but they tried to claim her as a "one of the good ones defying all problematic elements (of the gross bl genre of course)" without knowing that . One of the only other scanlated works from same mangaka is a psychological horror incest BL with every trigger warning under the sun

Also I hate white British people but that's on me #listening and learning

#a lot of people got on her ass about sharing an illegal scanlation sc as well but honestly like ehh i have a little more lenience ig #since the authors work IS obscure and there isnt an english translation and i dont expect someone who allegedly is not a frequent reader #to know all the nuances of scanlation etiquette or whatever. but its also because the author is obscure that im laughing at this point #because she only has like . 4 what i would call main works and one of them is definitely problematic as hell #and another one features some consent issues and they bang as teens which is fairly industry standard but #honestly i dont really care either way like im very neutral and the books probably cute i spose its just the constant trend you see over and #over again with these white queer authors where they have to talk about how their work is so much different from the obviously inferior #asian queer art like we werent doing it centuries before you guys and have such a strong queer history thats so often disregarded in favor #of starting the discussion in the us . or something whatever its midnight and i havent finished my work prep

[moonilit]

what yall talking about? Kaveh doesn't have a 'sad' backstory he just got some struggles, like that what the average human being go through

#which is like not bad #i was underwhelmed at first but it was still in the realm of what i expected for his character #maybe spoilers from here in the tags: #honestly it mad me appreciate his friendship with Ahatham more lol #he needs someone who is so crude to just throw reality at his face once in a while because he cant #like you are just nice because you feel a lot of guilt not because you are just nice dude #and that shock him to the core?? #yeah he needed to hear it #its ok Kaveh you should go to therapy and work that guilt out AND you can still wake up everyday to 'choose' to be a nicer person #its just there is no therapy in tyvat that's all #i still dont get why i see you all type 'i cried' #also know i have the hc that he is highly ticklish because of the wording in his character story #'if you tapped in weak points he will collapse' #kaveh #genshin impact

[mewtwo24]

I just watched s2 episode 10 in the english dub and I have to say. Nothing could have prepared me for Howard's delivery of that final scene where Xie Lian gets worked up about the truth coming out.

The just...sincerely agonized delivery of "That my words were the empty ramblings of a sad child!!" shook me to the core. The absolute self-loathing in that line, the raw emotion. The way concealing the truth was done to spare Lang Qianqiu but also at its heart was about Xie Lian's unresolved feelings of humiliation and shame, the way [redacted] did everything in his power to make Xie Lian lose faith in himself and the possibility of good prevailing in the world.

The way TGCF keeps me up at night, man...

#tgcf #xie lian #lang qianqiu #the runner-up line that devastated me too was: 'it's the least of what I DESERVE!!!' #i dont think there are words to describe how that made hua cheng feel knowing all that he does (from his time as wu ming) #legitimately its on the spectrum of mantis shrimp im guessing bc i can't fathom trying to put it into words either #the way xie lian won't stop punishing himself for wishing for better--for wishing for peace and collaboration--even 800 years later #the way he continues to take responsibility for all the wrongs others commit--the way he deems himself a failure -> #for things he simply could not change or did not purposefully incite. the way he won't stop punishing himself when things go wrong #i honestly cant get over how acutely xl feels like the result of gifted child syndrome #having all of these grandiose expectations placed on him and doing his utmost to uphold them at any cost #doing everything he can to the point of self-destruction to do the right thing #only to end up hated in the end when he proved to have limits--even as a god #and discarded despite his efforts; ultimately deemed worthless for not measuring up to what were impossible/rigged standards from the get g #and like . the way up to this point they made the creative decision to make xie lian's emotional range fairly static #not that he's unfeeling but that he doesn't tend to raise his voice or express anything extreme (for good reason) #until this precise moment where it all comes flying apart with so many old scars torn open #absolutely fantastic im on the ground #honestly i feel like i forget how difficult a decision this had to be for hua cheng #i mean naturally he chose this because he wanted xie lian absolved #and ultimately xie lian really does need to stop the self-flagellation--he takes it too far #but watching him tremble with fear haunted by the echoes of what he almost became #fucking cHRIST

[gentil-minou]

Person watching a show where romance is the main focus: ugh I hate that they're doing all these romantic scenes so annoying

#🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 #this is about a very specific person and show that no one is gonna figure out who but honestly applies to all fandoms really #im just like 'what did you expect?????? its a romance?????? thats like the whole point??????????' #i promise you dont know the person im talking about ajdjjfjajf

[hmsmilkbone]

honestly. I don't really have a lot of interest in jjk anymore, which is super frustrating as the story foundation is really interesting. I have my favorite characters, and I'm not really interested in reading beyond this point.

As a whole, I'm not a huge fan of dropping stories just because they don't go the way you want. In general I personally try not to do this, but stories where the author clearly hates the material or the audience so much they're willing to destroy the story to do so are not enjoyable. I really don't think gege even really likes writing jjk anymore.

There may be some change that I hear about months from now where something worked out one way or the other, but in general I feel like this story is not going to resolve in a way that feels like reading it was a worthwhile experience. And like, for good OR bad. Not every story has a happy ending, but this is really not particularly interesting and I don't feel the need to continue a story where the writer isn't even interested in what happens or how it advances anything outside of their personal pettiness. Feels very much like grr Martin. All the meaningless death and abuse without any real redeeming qualities.

I'm trying to remind myself that not every author wants to be a storyteller. Not every story is good. It's ok to read stories that aren't the best simply because you want to see where it goes, but gege isn't superior in some way, and i dont 'trust that he's cooking'. Even if the story turns around in an interesting or strategic way, I really am not particularly impressed. Ordinarily I would stay along for the ride, but I can't bring myself to care about something even the author doesn't care about. :/

#jjk spoilers #idk i really just dont have any expectations anymore #i love reading books apart from manga and ive had to put down a few because they felt like this #and i have almost always found that in the end my perception of the author and their story was accurate #it makes me sad seeing this unfold in this way #but the shibuya arc which is apparently the least ljked arc in the series #is stretching on forever and people arent enjoying it #anecdotally ive seen a lot of people drop the series #and eventually its just gojng to be all the grimdark losers who unironically love shit like this #it just feels very much like a story for men who hate people #it feels like all the weirdos who made the joker their personality and all the dudes who cant breathe without talking about fight club #or like.. say shit about how the liberals are ruining media like thats the kind of person i see talking about jjk most of the time now #using slurs and not even having intelligent conversations about what's happening #the conversation is usually 'sukuna mid no cap' 'are you stupid gojo is mid stop copium' #and that exchange is repeated over and over like. you have nothing else to add at this point? #i mean i know its primarily bc honestly there really isnt any depth to the story beyond that but my god #what an insufferable way to write or receive a story #and honestly!! i really dont feel like jjk fits into a kids story category at this point #so i do actually feel ljke it is reasonable to expect better writing #not that stories aimed toward kids are bad but one piece is a good example of a story geared more towards children or young adults #adults CAN enjoy it but oda intentionally does not make the story so upsetting that kids cant read it and feel reflected in the events #but jjk is very very different and i think the drop in the quality of writing is reflected in the growing toxicity of the fanbase #anyways.. if you read jjk & youre feeling upset its ok to step away and check in once a month when you can mentally / emotionally prepare #i had to enforce a no read/watch accountability pact with my friends because it was making their depression worse again #no story is worth your health. gege does not give a flying fuck about you. you need to take care of yourself. #im just enjoying my sandbox with the characters and when the story is over ill check back in #theres no right way to experience the story but if its not healthy for you #you wont miss anything by unplugging #and you may find that you really dont want to get back into it when you read it again to check on the story every once in a while #jjk 237

[trans-estinien]

its so wild seeing how non mmo players exist and well. i dont like it!

#i saw an iceberg bass by and i. dont want to be anywhere near that iceberg #if youve never played over 100 hours of any mmo. i dont trust you or your opinions about video games tbh. #like sorry talking to people on a video game is scary. skill issue. #also. also. also. controversial opinion but subscription based games arent actually bad. shocking i know #its a super big pet peeve when people hate on mmos for being. mmos. like. what did you expect lol??? #or they hate on mmos for. gasp. needing consistent funding to keep running #if i said my opinions about single player games yall would attack me with hammers #single player games are boring as FUCK #ive only ever beaten two singleplayer games and it was hollow knight and nier replicant #i cant bring myself to play any other ones cause theyre just not interesting #like in theory i like bg3 but in practice i cant. be fucking bothered #that game is just. Too Much #which is rich coming from a FFXIV player who LOVES Bozja but like #i love being around people at all times and i hate doing things alone on the account of the autism #and unless i drag people into playing bg3 with me when i want to play it its just not worth it #i have to figure out the systems by myself and i have no motivation to keep playing (yeah i could just google it but. thats not my point) #like honestly. singleplayer games make me feel like im wasting my time. #why would i play bg3 by myself when i could be afk in limsa watching people argue in shout chat. which is much more fun

[eyestrain-addict]

Far be it from me to judge someone's headcanons or favorite characters ships and whatnot, but it is disheartening when you watch a show or play a game or read a book, and you enjoy it and join the fandom, only to find that the fandom version of certain characters are completely different from the canon.

#but i dont know what i was expecting from the 'no media literacy' website #its just. very disheartening to me. makes me very sad. #its like that incorrect quotes post i reblogged a bit ago. at this point we dont even like the same character #while im thinking about a specific case this honestly happens in almost every single fandom #insane ramblings

[gattmammon]

I just saw an ad for a novel thats like '"Boss the new secretary got pregnant and we fired her!" "That's my wife!" Download app to find out how it ends...' hope it ends with her divorcing joining an union and suing all of you fucking bitches for all of your worth because that's like several labor laws violations and possibly criminal law (using work to pressure a woman into marriage and sex)

#at this point im just pissed people expect things to go this way #the other day someone at work was like 'what if we get pregnant during our trial period' then you get??? maternity leave??? #and come back to finish the trial period afterwards??? like what the fuck dudes #know your rights #i dont live in the us in case youre about to comment something to that effect #and honestly i think this is a real ass problem like. people are fed so much american media they think thats their reality as well #i remember so many fanfics set in my country with mention of medical bills... girl we have free healthcare

[variousqueerthings]

trans story time is that the first time I entered a space for trans people (a peer-moderated talking group) about... four or five years ago? (wow it really hasn’t been long, I need to breathe more easily about time) I had never seen imagery of any kind of trans men before and certainly nobody who was many years on T and so when I saw this guy in his late 40s who was moderating the group, rather than make the obvious deduction that he too, of course, must be trans (and that we grow older and that we carry our bodies confidently and that we may be strong enough to hold room for each other), I thought “oh how odd that a cis guy is running this, but nice that he cares,” (at the time it was almost only trans women who attended the group, and also whom I expected to see there -- I also had no inner projection of what a non-binary person might look like before I went) and it took me a few weeks to suddenly realise my mistake from one moment to the next 

a magical transformation and he’d changed nothing, but I changed drastically and irrevocably (for good)

#queer stuff #trans stuff #mix of things: 1. you dont know what youve never known #2. honestly though it ought to have been suggested by the *peer moderated* part but truly i needed to unblock my brain #3. i have also in the last couple of years come to understand that i carry things in me for a good deal longer than is considered average #before they can properly make their way to the front of my head with conclusions #this also goes for simply making decisions about things... my time runs slower than is expected of people (and i quite like that) #case in point: from seeing him to meeting trans guys my own age would be another 3 years #during which time I was mulling (without being fully conscious of it) about transmasculinity #3 years in considering things about queerness time isn't technically so long i think #it's more that he jolted something in me that i couldnt look at until a few years later despite it being a very immediate reaction #which happens a lot with me for non-queer things also #(I also think some part of it may have been covid... looot of time to sit with your brain then) #realisation to action takes time #me #queer

[lily-blue-blue-lily]

everyone on here freaking out about whatever is gonna happen in the new 9-1-1 episode tonight and im just over here watching s1 for the first time and having mild breakdown about it

#i just watched the s1 finale #i love buck so much like so so much #he is so good?? and kind?? #im so in love #im also so invested in just everything about the show i wasn't expecting to actually love it as much as i do #also so hyped to start s2 because eddie🥰 #i do know pretty much every major plot point in the show because i became invested in it through stuff i saw on here #and then went down a big youtube rabbit hole and a slightly smaller ao3 rabbit hole before actually starting the show #so im already in love with eddie and hes not even been introduced yet for me #it also means im almost as excited to see what happens in tonights episode #through like gifs and stuff on here as everyone else is to actually watch the episode #normally i very much try to avoid spoilers for stuff i watch but because of the backwards way ive become obsessed with this show #i so dont care at all #its such a fun way of consuming media honestly #wow ive really rambled in these tags shoutout to anyone actually reading them lol

[apathyfairy]

my whole life ive been thinking im an old soul bc everyone would tell me i was bc i was “serious” and quiet and shy as a kid and riddled with social anxiety so i was like ok. i must be then. and now im realizing im not lmao like honestly as stupid as it sounds i think that was putting pressure on me to know how to live my life and what to do all the time but now im like oh im new no wonder im afraid of absolutely everything and i cant function and everything disappoints me it’s bc i dont know whats going on. im new in town. and im incorporating that into my belief system now

#yeah im going insane clearly but anyways #in friends when joey is like what was my past life and phoebe was like oh sweetie youre brand new like lmao me #but did anyone else get called serious as a kid and did anyone else take it as an insult like i did like. #i hated absolutely nothing more than people being like oh youre so serious and quiet like i am but also i dont want to be here talking #to you so i have nothing to say. like sorry i wasnt saying every thought i had out loud like every other kid so that made me 'mature' #for my age like honestly that fucked my life up more than anything else was being called mature for my age. it put way too much pressure on #me and i didnt even get to be a kid because everyone expected me to be older than i always was and now that im #so old and approaching death it's just all regret man i have nothing but regret for how ive lived my life #and im so old and i have absolutely nothing figured out i just dont know what the fuck to do #i just didnt think things would be this fucked up or id still be this lost at this point in my life and its disgusting im disgusting #everything is just so fucked up and i hate it like absolutely nothing is right in my life right now i am truly at rock bottom #like i genuinely cannot imagine ever being at a lower point than im at right now and no that's not inspiring like 'oh it cant get any worse' #'if youre at your lowest point it can only get better :)' no thats not how it works #it can get worse i just cant possibly imagine how and nothing is ever going to get better bc i dont know how to get myself out of this #literally im spongebob in rockbottom but the bus is literally never coming like the bus station shut down that's where im at

[paldogangsaan]

:/

#this young justice arc has honestly been rlly disappointing #like every other arc focused on the individual characters and their struggles #but dick’s hasn’t #literally not a single episode has focused on him and with everything happening i dont think they will #like they have to deal woth the criminals escaping the phantom zone mgann’s brother betraying them all the heros being weakened #also the emotional aspect of finding conner alive but different and his own mental wellbeing as well as the physical #like… yeah dick isn’t the main character but i was at least expecting him to be the focus of his own arc #raquel also didn’t really have a focus on her during her own arc but that’s a different conversation #also like #if you advertise that the original members are going to have arcs focusing on them you would think that you’d follow through #artemis’ was amazing and i loved conner and mgann’s as well as kaldur’s #i love zatanna but i didn’t care for her arc #raquel’s barely focused on her and i also didn’t particularly care for it but that’s just bc i don’t really know her as a character #if it had really focused on her and allowed to audience to get to know her better i probably would’ve liked it more #and again that’s what you’d expect out of a show that has episode arcs focused on individual characters #but anyway my point is #these last two arcs have been really disappointing #this show has a problem with balancing a large cast and plot #and its extremely apparent when they left no time to focus on dick as a character + no time for emotional reactions to finding conner ALIVE #also the way they found conner was so ?? like they walked into the phantom zone and two seconds later found him #like really? no time to explore how the phantom zone feels? how it’s different? #it took a while for conner to find anyone when he first got there #but the others just found him in seconds? #like no zone sickness for anyone? no focus on the emotional aspect of it? nothing? #like this whole rant comes from the fact that dick’s my favorite character and they’ve done basically nothing with him during HIS arc #but there’s a lot of other problems with this season #yeah basically just let there be some focus on dick #it’s his arc #i have a lot more to say but i’ve apparentl reached the tag limit #young justice spoilers

[butchladymaria]

So we’re back on this again…?

If I may that’s not what happened on Twitter. That’s not true.

She didn’t keep misgendering you after she learn about it. She learn it not to much ago as well. So the argument of her consciously misgendering you in your precedents posts are not really a valid point.

And she probably knows it’s not to accuse her of more thing. But you changed she/they to they/them just after your callout post. So it’s…really recent.

Anyway I’m not here to start something but to try to calm down things. Thank you and peace.

honestly that’s a relief to hear. i was taking the claim with a bit of doubt since i could not fact check it, and the person themself said that they were unsure of if they were right. i will say though, i do think the serious points i made in my reply to that ask still stand. explanation under the cut cos this got a bit long. general warning for discussions of transphobia.

in my previous posts i did not claim anyone consciously or maliciously misgendered me. i simply said that they did — which is true. misgendering doesn’t inherently imply malicious intent. i mostly said that to point it out in hopes that others who were interacting with her wouldn’t presume that she was correctly using my pronouns — i had someone who did mistake that.

here’s the thing though — i don’t… really mind if people accidentally use the wrong pronouns for me? it happens to most people — hell, i mess up my own pronouns sometimes. an honest mistake is one thing, but if someone keeps doing it after being corrected, or makes a big stink about how it’s sooooo unreasonable/malicious/manipulative to point out that they made a mistake, or gets defensive about it and makes you out to be some horrible aggressor for correcting them — then, yeah, at that point they are being an asshole.

and the latter is what k//tyahina has done. it really wasn’t a big deal or an accusation. but instead of just being polite and correcting herself, it’s become this whole thing. and that’s the bit i object to — because honestly, cis people getting defensive and rude when they get corrected is a) very common, and b) extremely draining. like we literally just want you to use the right pronouns the same way you use the right name for someone. someone pointing out that you misgendered them isn’t a personal attack, it’s literally just a neutral statement of fact. it doesn’t have to be a big deal — so just politely apologize and move on, yeah?

also, as i said in my prev reply — using only one set of pronouns for someone who uses multiple is, in my opinion, misgendering. i explained more in the other post, but tl;dr if you are only using one set of someone’s pronouns w/o knowing their preference, it’s kinda rude cos if we just wanted you to use one, we’d… just use the one. i used they/she because i wanted people to use they/she. part of the reason i dropped ‘she’ at all is because a lot of (cis) people used nothing but she/her. also, it may be worth examining why that is…? a lot of cis people solely used she/her for me because i present vaguely fem and they just saw me as Woman Lite.

anyway in conclusion this whole misgendering thing did not have to be a big deal and the only reason i pointed it out was because

1. i didn’t want others to make the same mistake she did

and 2. i kinda don’t like being misgendered by anyone? so i pointed it out kind of as an aside hoping she would stop.

k//tyahina’s reaction is more disappointing to me than her honest mistake — even now all she’s done to my knowledge is be really mad that i said she messed up. it’s also better to just… not decide people’s preferences for them if you’re not able/willing to ask.

anyway peace and love anon✌️

#transphobia tw #ask #honestly im kinda tired of all this stuff since i feel i have said my piece and i think k//tyas reaction completely speaks for itself #and has also been reblogging transmisogynistic shit from s//intmicolash the last i was told #also i just realized i Never even had her blocked???? unless tumblr changed how they show your blocklists? #so like she literally may have just blocked me and then accused me of not wanting to ~have a conversation~ ??? #anyway anon i am gonna assume you meant only the best here and i do appreciate your info #but i dont agree that my prev statements were incorrect #bc i did not at any point accuse her of Consciously misgendering me #just that she Did #and even if i Had Never changed to they/them exclusively #what she did would still have been misgendering #maybe she does know that i didn’t change them just to spite her or whatever. i don’t know and im not really here to speculate #but i do know she has been Acting that way by making me out as some heinous person for pointing out she misgendered me #so basically dont demonize trans people for expecting u to respect them ig #anyway i hate to bring this up again but i really do not think that ignoring it will make it go away #id really prefer to just address it and get it over with

[galacticlamps]

gotta say, while I don’t love the fact that I’ve been especially busy & stressed out with work & irl stuff lately, I did pick a good time for it with all this new doctor who news - bc I know I’ve only had the chance to see a tiny fraction of all the reactions to it so far, and frankly I’m already kinda tired of hearing it all - even for the stuff I like/think I’ll like! it’s also great for helping me keep my mouth shut bc I do have a lot of thoughts, but probably none that I’d feel confident expressing clearly without writing a much longer post than i have the time & energy to make

#honestly the only take i can put simply is this: #im so tired of this trend of announcing stuff super early #it was one of my 2 immediate reactions when they announced rtd a few months ago #& it's absolutely my feeling now #i get announcing ncuti bc logically we're expecting to get a little cameo of him within a few months #but the rest? #that's all over a year & a half away as far as anyone can tell! #what on god's green earth would make anyone want to know these things this far out? #and i dont at all mean that from an 'oooh no spoilers' perspective - kinda the exact opposite #in that i find it difficult/pointless to form any strong opinions good bad or neutral without seeing the actual product #so like all the talk that is gonna happen/is already happening based on announcements and not even trailers or little bits of content... #im like what's the point on a good day and can we please stop pretending we know more than we do on a bad day #basically im not looking forward to sitting thru months of debate/discourse/speculation whatever you want to call it #before we even have actual new content to actually react to #(also im worried that if i see one more cryptic little emoji tweet my eyes will roll so far back into my skull they'll get stuck) #(but at least i have the decency to admit that that's a me problem) #(although on a realer level im not actually thrilled about the way those starting with ncuti and now being used for everything #make every new announcement feel like it is/will be/should be of the same level of news/importance as the new doctor) #ugh see even this is closer to Getting Into It than i wanted to do #it's a good thing I don't have much time for this webbed site rn

[yongseungkim]

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#like i definitely need therapy lol #not that i havent tried in the past nothings just worked/stuck like the therapists werent a good fit for me perhaps #so im trying to reach out again because holy shit #i want to a) get out of my phd and b) have normal fucking friendships #but its so hard right now when anxious thoughts take over SO much some days like i know i cannot do this on my own #i have good friends i know who will hear me out #but man its the same thing over and over again with me but in a new font sometimes i swear #and my friends dont need to hear all those anxious depressive thoughts lol like #once in a while sure esp my closer friends but all the time? nawr #i have been trying to journal but man the emotions just bubble up and i dont feel better until ive like said things out loud #so honestly just having someone to rant about the same issues over and over again might be nice lol . #but i need to find a therapist that fits which is the hardest part #i do think ive made small strides on my own which is nice #but the emotions are just so loud and genuinely affect my day to day like its so hard battling things on my own #im at the point now where im like this cant go on for much longer somethings gotta change #if i want to have a phd in the next year and if i want to maintain friendships normally #and esp if i wanna stay roommates with this girlie cuz holy shit its been a lot harder than i expected maybe #i dont think i can do it on my own without major reprecussions #bro its also been like so long #i feel like ive always had some human i was extremely fond of for the past ?? years albeit most of them were like fake right like in the kp #*kpop world so it was fine when it becomes a real person it is absolutely terrible let me tell u . #but its also been a habit like i didnt realize how terrible my thoughts w ys were until now cuz they really wernet normal thoughts at all #like i want to break free of having these kind of attachments to people in a way cuz the only way i feel like ive been able to deal with bi #feelings is by transferring them to a new subject which isnt what i want anymore #like i just want it all to stop! #i also feel like mentally ive gotten worse ?? than before ?? in some ways like #i dont know if i want to make new friends and connections anymore #the same way i was trying so hard in the previous year which is worse bc now my efforts are like #SOLELY on this one girl in a way which is NOT. GOOD. #ive been trying to have conversations with the third roommate but i have to force myself?