#home is like a bad dog

[rivers-for-me]

Why do i feel like my parents and i are growing apart? On the day i left i couldn't sleep all night, unsure and lonely. Later it got better, i had time to schedule my busy life, keep track of anything and everything i do or feel. This is order, i thought. This is what my mother missed from me. I came to visit often. Our house turned into a home in my absence. I started to miss it with all the things i took for granted: my pets, my room that i hated got beautiful under a week, warm soup, the soft light, and the view to the hills. I thought it would be like this forever. I put my life in order then i come home and i'm a child again, everything is cozy and warm, and i'm safe because my parents love me, even though they aren't fond of each other.

Now i realise the house turned into their home in my absence. I am the outsider, the stranger, the misunderstood child keeping two people together aganist their will and mine, against all sense and will of ours. The guilt of it burned me all my life, yet i knew that i must live, i must live to make their sacrifice matter. Now i come home and linger uncomfortably near the doors. I can't enter their life with ease, for i left it, and what's even worse, came back without becoming who they ment me to be.

#home is like a bad dog #i convince myself it won't bite. i forgot to ask it not to. #you devour what you love anyways #personal #mine #mental health #recovery #words #jo writes #feelings #growing up #moving out #family #disappoinment

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Welcome to the Dungeons of Fear and Hunger.

#Fear and Hunger #D'arce Cataliss #Cahara #Ragnvaldr #Enki Ankarian #Unlike Dungeon Meshi - I cannot in good faith recommend this game to a broad audience. #My background with F&H goes as follows: I am hanging out with a friend. He says “hey try this game I've been playing.” I say “Okay!” #I have never heard of this game. I pick the mercenary. I go through 5 min of character history and background. I am mauled to death by dogs #It took me 4 resets to even get in the dungeon. But I finally get there. I am caught by a guard. He cuts off all but one of my limbs #I am forced to crawl around in a blood and corpse pit until the game tells me 'give up idiot'. #I reset. I am mauled by dogs again. I realize this is not for me but I am intrigued enough to go home and watch some playthroughs #And WOW what an interesting game it is! I really do appreciate games that blend their design philosophy with the theme it wants to set #This is a game about fear and hunger. And persevering. And penis (my god is there a lot of penis) #I recommend this to people who like extremely challenging games and can handle the many *content warnings* within this series #If the idea of Bloodborne/eldenring and undertale having a little RPG maker baby sounds appealing to you - give it a shot #It's made by ONE GUY and it's a great horror game. I am just really bad at it. #My friends just enjoy putting me in situations where I scream and yell. We don't talk about the corn mazes. Or the other horror game nights #Apparently I'm funny when I'm Scared! #As people who follow me on twitter might know; I am deep in the pits of this series right now. I will be back with more art.

[watchingwisteria]

aziraphale, the one who gave the first human exiles his flaming sword as both a source of protection and warmth, who did not look on them as sinners deserving of destruction but people entitled to the best chances possible, has never once looked at crowley, a heavenly exile, with anything other than compassion and a desire to protect. from their first meeting, he never wanted anything bad to happen to him. when crowley slithers up to him in eden, he treats him like an equal rather than an adversary. when crowley appears, his eyes fill with love and excitement, his gaze turns soft and hesitant, his whole body seizes with joy of seeing him. crowley might typically the one to seek him out, but aziraphale has always welcomed him home.

#aziracrow #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #crowley #good omens #I AM WRITING THE FIRST DRAFT OF MY FIC 😈 #they make me so…… #the ex christian in me turns to a rabid dog when i think abt them #they both love each other with that christian ideal agape love #the kind that would sacrifice itself for the other #to love is to will the good of the other and all that #i just love and adore them both ok u will never catch slander against EITHER of them from me #tags added later : #is now a bad time to mention i think go3 will be #aziraphale realizing that crowley is his home and he was crowley’s #like heaven is not going to be as he imagined it #and he’ll realize being head archangel can change nothing #and ooooh that homecoming.. for both of them…. #well i expect to be in tears that’s all i’ll say #IT HAS TO END WELL THO or may actually unfortunately have to pass away on the spot

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

a couple of Scribbles for the darling lad

#im not doodling him enough. i need to get back on that good ol wally brainrot #shaking him around like a dog w a chew toy As Usual #these are the only two presentable scribbles from a batch of Wally Expression Exploration #the others came out weird or just. bad. #hes still kinda tough to draw! hes very Specific! #hes got a strange shape to him. i love it but. its difficult #scribble salad #welcome home #wally darling #gotta balance out the roundness... add nuance...

[saltysplayt00ns]

Home. PG 820 - Oh boy here we go

I don't think audience realize how serious the latest page is of Home comic without the dopamine clouding them about more puppies/kittens. I will update on this when this now added plot if shown more through the public viewing. So we got a " golden lioness" WRONG despite the Wiki stating the lion was actually golden we have instead ANOTHER black colored character with Pixie dust. No it's not speculated or perceived, it is stated that the Lioness IS golden. So either Kique forgot, wanted to do an april fools joke in the middle of October or he really is just lazy that he can't even look up a simple Google search of " Golden Lions/Lionesses"

So We got an entity that only aids the Feline kind and not Canids, This means the deity will not associate with other dogs' prayers of any kind but will for the Felidae kind. It is the reason why they’ve received the bow & arrows. To protect their people from said canines, and from the track record I would not be surprised if she is vengeful and possibly judgmental of them.

This character already is an OP character ( OP = overpowering ), one with no flaws or buffers to compete with her powers except she will ghost canids. She can easily destroy the canines by giving the cats the upper and, and be the top of the food chain, she can easily kill a canine if a feline prays for it, cause havoc and whatnot...you see what I am getting here?? heck she can do it without the people's prayers cause she literally just did it twice. The reason why I stated this?? This is because, on the Latest Home page, Feaf is now bearing a Hybrid from fornicating with Rhovanion instead of aiding Ronja and the tribe. Her having kids isn’t wrong?? But it is unnecessary and irrelevant to the story ( I will get to that in a bit ), it's the fact the Deity did it WITHOUT CONSENT. 

Everyone with a brain knows what consent is, even kids, elders, writers, etc. learned to ask something for permission of approval or business with contracts,  which is a form of consent. An agreement upon something to happen or commence, The lioness is already trying to ‘ bless’ the pregnancy without even talking to them in a dream or privately to the Taiga.

We have seen Horror media content and writing of this trope and people forcing others to child bear without their knowledge or even up to know about it. That is nightmare fuel. Whose to say The lioness just gives other inter-species couples children without their whereabouts, and not solely on a Male dog with a female cat but a MALE cat and female dog can end up in the same fate cause there is a cat in the mix to bless their spouse to bear. Like seriously people instead of them working their differences and hurdles, they easily got the situation handled in under 1-3 pages like every conflict kique tries to put in his comic. -----

Now on the pregnancy aspect, Feaf becoming pregnant is very irrelevant to the plot of Home. Now Home doesn’t really have a plot after Rogio was saved, it's just broken pieces stitched together and being overinflated with unfinished, reoccurring, and new plot lines. Feaf should NOT be having children for;

1. Feaf and Rhov are two different species.

2. Feaf and Rhovanion barely got the time to get to know each other and grow but now we have this osmosis litter on the way.

3. Rhov and Feaf have not shown them to be good parents to rear as we didn’t have screen time for them to show it. At least Kainen and Raela from Asmundr proved to be good parental figures and individuals. Rhovanion so far had lied, stayed complacent despite having free reign to search for his family, and tried to get one of the guild members in trouble and/or fired for sneaking off and is very inconsiderate more so forgotten what his tasks were. Feaf has so far been gaslighted 3 times when Rhov stated time and time again that he was leaving to find his family and mate, is also forgetful and inconsiderate of her tasks and if given is willing to do anything Rhovanion asks or initiates to her.

4. There are 4 wars happening in Home so far; Southspear x The Capitol, Ranach x Meteor, Ranach x The Capitol, and Rohgir.

5.  The deity is being rather inconsiderate and unfair, since Raimo and Zaharia were already an interspecies couple who lost their Son. If the golden lioness was that powerful they should have revived Zilas or led to a spirit that can do it. Rogio did it for Kargo despite his body being burned…. Why not Zilas???

6.  Kique is only doing this to have a reason for  Rhovanion and Feaf to stay in one spot instead of going to Ronja or Jahla. It's also obviouse he doesn't know what to do with Feaf or Rhov except be parents, when they could...oh - I don't know, GO AND SAVE RONJA FROM THE RAID WITH ASMUNDR!!!!

7. The author is out of ideas and boredom while also trying to bring more audiences. ------

If you stated “ WelL FEaf GrAB tHe FeATher sO ShE CoNSenTEd “ if that’s the case it is STILL wrong for the spirit basically deceive Feaf to grab the feather and not know the consequences, again they did not disclose that to Feaf. Rhov and Feaf probably didn’t even know what it meant and Rhovanion is not one to dabble on cultural deity knowledge.

If Feaf did know about it, then it’s scummy on her cause she just hid something important that Rhov should definitely know about. Kids and pregnancy should not be a tool/leverage to keep someone from leaving you. " MaYbE thEy WAntEd iT” WHERE IS IT!!!, WHERE’S THE PROOF!?. You can’t have this left field and expect people to accept it and not be confused. No where has Feaf nor Rhov had discussed nor thought about having kids. THEY BOTH AGREED TO JOIN THE GUILD. which states they can not have mates nor children ( although the guild rules are just bluntly stupid ) so they already knew from start of that and didn't express concerns...especially Rhov who is the one to question stuff. At this point the deities and spirits in Home are a parody and NOT taking seriously of moral, consequences and the dangers. The characters are literally heavily plot armored and the beings are second thought of a joke in worldbuilding.

#kique #asmundrhome #home #home comic #kique7 #kiquenordin #asmundr #asmundrcomic #kique nordin #bad dog comics #dog comic #bad comic art #yikes #questionable content #questionable decisions #questionable choices #nonconsensual Deity #like bruh come on #get the fuck out of that planet #like seriously #get out

[aj-lenoire]

i do not enjoy harry potter anymore and even when i did, snape was not a character i ever liked, but for some reason my ‘for you’ page is just full of dedicated snape stan accounts and i hate it

#anti jk rowling #anti severus snape #anti harry potter #like okay i remain a strong proponent of ‘you are allowed to like whatever fiction you like’ #but it’s important to consider whether the author—when presenting certain subjects—critically evaluates their own opinion on those subjects #like how stephanie meyer in twilight thinks it’s funny to have all the vampires make dog jokes at jacob because he’s a werewolf #but he’s native so it comes off as REALLY racist #(and also in the case of jkr specifically she’s using her money from hp to fund terf shit LET HP DIE) #and the dozen-ish snape takes i’ve seen seem to demonstrate these accounts are either not interested in or cannot critically evaluate snape #a character written by a woman to be a redeemable asshole who take out a petty schoolyard resentment against a kid’s dad ON THE KID #the orphaned abused kid i might add—when the redeemable man in question is implied to have come from an abusive home himself #i just saw one like ‘oh if it’s okay to call him ‘snivellus’ then it must be okay to call luna ‘loony’ right? #sorry when was luna joining a hate group against muggles and muggle-borns #i don’t deny james and co bullied snape quite viciously but he gave back just as much and also never grew out of that pettiness #not to mention he only turned from voldemort because he was specifically going to kill lily #all other muggleborns dying was apparently just fine by him #i still don’t get the love of this character not because it’s a bad thing to like villainous characters #but it’s ALWAYS the justification of his actions—as if he was in the right to bully harry (an orphaned abused child) because of harry’s dad #there’s no criticism consideration of the author’s biases in there #should you not be a bit concerned that she thinks calling your best friend a slur ‘ONE TIME’ is something that should be just forgotten #aj abstractions

[desire-mona]

can someone please come over and braid my hair and talk about fnaf like im 9 again thanks. can someone please come over and pretend like its all ok thanks.

#desire mona #not to vent in tags but i need to be so real #i am probably one of the most lonely people ever actually #i have friends but i never see them #i spend all my time on here #ive taken to talking to people down my street which does help tbh like i do enjoy feeling like i have a community #i have a friend named tom down the road but hes like. in his 40s or 50s. but i do enjoy talking to him when we're out walking our dogs #i went out with him and his daughter to try and see the northern lights but it was too cloudy #i felt rly bad for knocking on his door at 10 pm to look at nothing but he was glad i reminded him #but once i go back home its just nothing #my life is just a series of waiting to take drugs again and its eating away at me but i cant fucking Do Anything #i just kinda feel like a pathetic loser for not doing anything productive ever and i KNOW i shouldn't let that demean my character in any wa #y #i know im a good and kind and funny person but my inability to bring myself to improve anything just makes me feel like im the worst #whatever #thoughtsing

[emypony]

sighs

#if i died tonight after eating this mcdonalds id probably give a sigh of relief and go peacefully #im so fucking DONE crying for hours upon coming home #from work. well the remaining hours i have anyway considering i cant even cry bc i have to do everything else #cant i just catch covid come on no one in this fucking town is wearing masks JUST GIVE ME SOMETHING??????????? #im SICK #my hand has gotten WORSE and out of stress i slept bad and i lost like 40% of my body motion. #cant look up cant look down #not to the left and barely to the right at all im MISERABLE #he barely let me go home without getting on my knees to wipe down the entire place #“cause you're sick so get better yeah you're starting early on monday:)” #MAYUBE IF YOU HADNT WORKED ME LIKE A FUCKING DOG WHILE MY WRIST AND TENDONS ARE IN FUCKING PINCH I WOULDNT BE HERE

[hella1975]

when alex g said i'm gonna crack a rib when i get home i'm gonna bury you in my favourite hole i made a bloody mess in the kitchen sink i tried to fix myself but i didn't think and when alex g said leave your body leave your mind don't you know you're out of time and when alex g said i don't want to see me i wanna be trapped in you i don't want to be me but im gonna pretend for you and when alex g said string the sinner by his wings in his head a brittle bone and when alex g said mary is the girl that leaves you to rot she says 'i am real and you are not' and when alex g said don't you know she's been here all along in a dream and when alex g said she loves me like a dog and when alex g said nothing compares to the fever dream it's what i do i wait for you and when alex g said dry your eyes i won't tell your mother she won't ever discover the things you kept under the covers and please don't cry i am not your brother i am not your lover and there is nothing wrong and when alex g said you know what they do to little dogs like you and when alex g said every day is a blessing as i walk through the mud if i live like the fishes i will rise from the flood and when alex g said you were born inside your head and that is where you'll be when you are dead you are just a boy you are no man and nobody you know will understand and when alex g said remember when you took too much i didn't mind being your crutch i loved you then it's not the same i don't like how things change and when alex g said you're starting to look really weird yeah your face is out of place and i can't make you out and when alex g said-

#AND IT'S ALL SUNG IN THAT REALLY RAW BORDERLINE BAD VOICE LIKE IT'S JUST SOME GUY SINGING INTO HIS PHONE IN A BASEMENT. YOU AGREE #really surprised that tumblr the home of bone and flesh fixation and dog motifs and mental illness hasnt latched onto alex g more yet #like he's doing all that and yet his tag is full of 5 note posts. where are my people #do you know how much worse you could feel if you listened to one (1) alex g song #he's sooooo my hometown coded. everything is miserable and grey and everyone is on something to cope. yeah the love persists regardless #alex g

[sketchy-tour]

Not me absolutely realizing just how much I draw Dandy with Wally and not really any of the other puppets. I swear I do think of how Dandy interacts with the other puppets besides Wally. I even have a few silly interaction sketches and such of Dandy with the others. My brain just likes to hyperfixate on Wallaford a bit too much, so my Wally stuff is what gets lined and colored. Fjsjfjsjs

Like, for random example, Howdy and Dandy have a sort of odd social relationship in that Howdy's loud salesman attitude combined with him being so massive sort of intimidates Dandy a lot. So they struggle to really talk to the giant caterpillar man. Not helped with the fact Dandy isn't exactly a performer, so paying for their items is a bit of a struggle. I like to think Dandy has a 'tab' that they keep having Howdy put their purchases on, and eventually they have to drag Barnaby to the Bodega with them to help pay it off. I also like to think Howdy never agreed to having this tab for Dandy, Dandy just sort of walked out one day mid paying for an item and shouted "Put it on my tab!" And it's been a thing since. It only makes Howdy just a LITTLE frustrated, but Dandy always ends up making a solid attempt to pay. Eventually.

#text post #welcome home oc #just rambling #Dandy Leon #Dandy is a bit of a shy dork and the big catterpillar frightens them #I also like to imagine when theyre at Howdy's with Barnaby that they have a bad habit of trying to hide behind the big silly dog #try and make him do all the work but Barnaby wont have it. #so it turns into Barnaby giving Dandy little jokes and ideas for Dandy to preform for Howdy while hes there #and Dandy is always...really bad at it. Just nervous and sometimes doesnt even get the joke theyre making. #Howdy finds the whole thing entertaining on its own probably. getting to watch Barnaby slap a comedy bowtie on Dandy and a fake microphone. #impromptu stand up preformance! Dandy's stood up on the counter trying their damndest #if Wallys there hed laugh at all of Dandy's jokes

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

somewhat satisfied with this... pretty butterfly man...

#didnt want to diverge too drastically from his canon palette #but butterflies never retain their caterpillar colors so. blue-green & pink howdy supremacy #and a lot of butteflies have black bodies/legs and also dark gradients on arms/hands Absolutely Fucks #so he gets fancy black gradients! and cool wings! #his wings were a Bitch to do ngl #also fluff... butterfly fluff... #in my mind the back of his hindwings have big ol eyespots on em & smaller ones on the forewings #which you can kind of see #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #howdy pillar #yassified howdy <3 #i didnt have to make him pink. but i did. for all of our sakes. #pink/teal is The color combo no i dont take criticism. im right. #its like the bad bitch version of red/blue #WAIT IMPORTANT QUESTION. googling if butterfly fluff is soft #probably... ive always been too scared of hurting them to pet the ones ive caught/held #theyre not as sturdy as moths or bees. both of which are very soft and i wish they were dog-sized #so i could have a honeybee pet. #GETTING OFF TOPIC ONCE AGAIN #howdy Is very sturdy tho! so it'd be totally safe to- #actually yknow what im gonna stop right there

[neverendingford]

skyglow:

(alternative title: photo dump of a midnight desert run)

#photography #Ford's Art #color says shit #it was either go on a twelve mile run or re-download grindr and get absolutely blasted so I went with the more responsible option. #b because damn I'm feeling it tonight. or at least I was before the run. I need to shower and then I'll cook dinner and go to bed satiated. #I did also jerk off under the bridge and then piss on someone's flowers on the way home. gotta get those animal instincts out somehow right? #anyway I've successfully vented most of my manic energy and a cold shower will finish it off and then we're good. #the mood meds have been helping a lot. last time I got hit with this kind of a mood I came out of it with huge bite marks and chlamydia. #and I haven't been feeling it nearly as bad this time so that's nice. more like a restless dog and less like a caged wolf thirsty for blood. #yes I'm making references to Call of the Wild again deal with it. #anyway sorry to anyone who sees this from the tags and not because you follow me. you didn't sign up for this lmao. #also. this is why I can't be a binary trans woman. this night photography shit is the most gay-man thing ever and I enjoy it. #I was doing it before my last boyfriend but he got me even more into it. #anyway bye I'm gonna go shower and then eat food. I've been hungrier more recently. #between the meds and the hrt my appetite is bigger and I'm gaining weight with the hrt fat redistribution which is cool and good. #I want to be a healthy weight and maybe even a lil chonky? we'll see we'll see.

[saltysplayt00ns]

Spoiling the new paints, before even showing it to the public it seems.

Remember that I talked about How kique spoils the reveals BEFORE IT'S TIME, from this BLOG ;

Whelp, Wanting to state Kiq. update the ref. and a few medallions from Nordguard and already SPOILED what the new paint would be by literally a glimpses.

Already not liking the new paints cause you can BARELY see anything and its really sloppy work.

He could have done a Nordic knotwork paint on them which is both distinctive and pretty cool. I'm a sucker of it's knotwork for being a learning curve and fun as well.

Also noticed most tribes have this gradient color paint going on, which the question implements how they even do a gradient without tampering or muddling the colors. Kique showed at first it was chalk but then now chalk become colored paint in a bowl. Is chalk rare and valued then manual paint making? is it because its longer lasting? anti-smudge?? what?? anyway here be example;

Example of conceptualizing with the inspiration

Since people don't look over the Wix site of Home and if he has unpaid ' volunteers ' this would get in, but the public barely reach the scenes when they obtain the new paint. the public is actually 32 pages away from that reveal on patreon.... SOoooooo 😅 It' just shows the author doesn't care anymore of suspense or caring about his story despite claiming to be.

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ALSO, got noted that Roamer became a Warrior and not a Baron no more with no context or reveal yet still has the Baron paint. HIS REVEAL OF CHANGING RANK ALSO HAPPENS 32 PAGES AWAY FROM THE PUBLIC. We all know why his rank was change, after that backlash of him being a backstabbing ( literally ) murderer and was coddled/justified while also disrespecting the leader which is Ronja; his family member he was supposed to care about and rescue but didn't until it was convenient, not a stranger or anything.

and yet....ROGIO GETS TO KEEP HIS BARON RANK FFS cause we can all trust him, it's not like he shows no proof to go against him being a higher rank or anything 😒 🙄

#asmundr #asmundrhome #home comic #home #kique7 #asmundrcomic #kique #kique nordin #kiquenordin #bad dog comics #consistent inconsistency #spoiling before the public reveal #dog comic #bad comic art #bad webcomics #bad writing #like bruh come on #bruh moment #webcomic #webcomics #website #bad comic

[skrunksthatwunk]

have just been introduced to a kitten named rascal who lives on my floor and whose babysitters (who are not his owner?) were trying Really hard to goad me into adopting which like. he's a little baby and he's so so so silly and he barely even bit me but like also. this cat isn't yours???? anyway if the owner's giving him up then I might finally have a cat which like AHHHHHG

#i wanna cat SO BADD #but also i dont think this is the best environment to have ANY non-tank pet tbqh #and i dont wanna have to give him away if my housing situation changes bc my parents house wouldnt work #(one of our dogs has a pretty strong prey drive and i dont wanna risk it) #also the poor guy seems a bit skittish and i think the 2 big dogs would scare him #and then there's the 'is he my cat or your cat' thing w my roommate #i think the answer would be hes my cat bc shes more ambivalent but she can actually take him home so like #and ive pretty much been banking on going home after college anyway so like??? in the long term where would he go??? #but also my dogs are getting older.. maybe by then they'll be gone and that problem'll go away #but hell my room there's bigger than my dorm room so even if we kept him in there it'd be a better space than here #it'd be a step up #ugh idk. i think it's a bad idea to have a cat in rooms this small in general. but i don't wanna see him go to a shelter either #like he's young and cute so maybe it'll be easier for him but he's also not super cuddly with strangers as far as i can tell #idk... im worried about him.... poor little rascal #like one of the girls mentioned being mean to him and i dont want him to be mistreated #like shining lights in his face and stuff #idk... sigh...... #im considering transferring schools at some point. worst case scenario is i go somewhere they dont allow pets and i have to #either find a foster parent or give him away completely #but i really dont wanna have to do that if i can help it. i never want to put a pet that loves and depends on me in a situation like that #much less me like id bawl my ass off #but if theyre treating him bad then even if my situation isnt perfect wouldnt taking him in be in the right anyway? #but how long does that stand for? until i can find him a better home? ughh

[theexorcistiii]

Help me I just remembered when I was watching a really terrible Netflix horror series & got to a part where a cop is having what seems to be a discussion about child custody arrangements with his ex on the phone & then he hangs up & says I miss you man& it pans to a framed stock photo of a golden retriever on his desk with a light pointed directly on it & nothing else & I felt like I was going to have a fucking fit

#IT MADE ME INSANE FOR AT LEAST A MONTH STRAIGHT AFTER IT WAS SUCH A STUPID FUCKING SHPW SO POORLY WRITTEN #it was the first time I had watched something so uniquely audaciously terrible that I had to look up reviews afterwards to make sure I wasnt #like going insane & everyone else was also aware of how bad it was it was so much #THE DOG CUSTODY THING WAS PLAYED AS LIKE REALLY SERIOUS TOO LIKE THAT WAS HIS TRAGIC BACKSTORY. THAT HIS BITCH EX WOULDNT LET HIM SEE HER DO #G. & YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO CARE? & AT THE END HE LIKE FINDS A STRAY DOG TO TAKE HOME & ITS SUPPOSED TO BE HEARTWARMING OR WHATEVER

[bunnihearted]

🏫🍃🌥️

#oooof... sleep was rough bc my face was super itchy. all of a sudden i got rashes in my face yesterday ?!?!? i have NEVER gotten that wtffff #hopefully it's just temporary nd will go away. it's still a tiny bit itchy but not as bad as yesterday :o #istg my life is a JOKE!!!! a joke!!!! rashes?!? what? maybe stress nd anxiety?? idk it's wild tho i cant deal w this #so i couldnt really fall asleep but i rested for a few hours #then i got up. took my dog out. had oatmeal. called the surgeron clinic. #and like... i told them abt my weight and they said im underweight?! and that my bmi is 18.9 and u need to have 19.... #i told her that i cant gain weight bc i cant eat anything. that i cant have more fat than i already do bc then it hurts too much #she said she'll talk to the anesthesia doctors and call me later. she hasnt called yet #i rlly hope they understand the situation?? and that i can still have my surgery bc what else am i supposed to do??? #ughhhh why cant anything ever just be easy and smooth for me?? #i am sooooo tired of all these hardships piling on top of eo #then i walked to school.. took me an hour and im spent now bc im so weak nd malnutrioned skskskks #and im in class... it's a long one. still more than an hour left :'( my head hurts #ugh i just wanna be fine for once in my life #but yeah im like 75% thru all the hard things i need to do today #just need to finish class nd then walk home nd then hopefully get a call back and then i can relax (as much as i can lol) #i hope the itching goes down (still wtf is my body doing? i have no patience for it anymore) nd i hope im not too underweight for surgery om