#hes fine though its all fine <3

[snailcubezz]

tell us more about jim and his ex pls

YAYAY OK so this might be long sorry

BIG TW for religious trauma, child abuse, internalized homophobia(?) and the fucked up ways it affects these characters that idk how to describe to be very honest with u

for starters, jim and bettie (his ex-wife) both grew up very sheltered in violently strict families who were obsessed with their public image as a Perfect Nuclear Family TM, especially at the church they both went to (which is also how they met)

and for a while, they were odd friends. neither knew how to socialize that well but they understood eachother in a way nobody else did. but later as they grew up and as their situations worsened, they had a really bad falling out (jim became more quiet, obedient and sensitive while bettie just got more fed up and aggressive, even to jim, because of their clashing trauma responses and some extreme dysphoria stuff she didn't have the words for yet) and not long after, jim hears that she ran away from home at age 12 and was never found.

jim's home life got BAD to the point of legal intervention when he was 11, and for a while after he was tossed around between other relatives (who weren't much better, although he got a bit more freedom to leave the house as he got older)

they found eachother again around their mid-teens, when jim moved way out of their hometown to live with one of his relatives (bettie recognized jim pretty easily bc he still dressed and looked nearly the same as he did as a kid LOL) and they got to catch up and reconcile <:]c she got help and support of her own after running away, and became a Lot happier after starting her transition !!

bettie became sort of his only support and escape from everything during that time, and as they grew closer and hung out again more, they started to date. this was a HUGE step in jim getting further away from the constant fear of judgement his family left on him, and pushing back on the "what would my parents think, what would god think" etc. paranoia/guilt he was stuck with for so long.

and while he still has that, and a whole lot of self worth issues and disgust with himself resurfacing from being genuinely loved for the first time (+ since he was still an egg at the time, and viewed their relationship as wlw, theres That factor there too in the "i'm a disgusting unlovable sinner and any second they'll find out and i'll get my punishment" view of himself and any time he let himself be happy) he at least had her, and her friend groups to help him

not long later, jim fully moved in with bettie and the people she was staying with, and he got therapy for a while too ! and in doing so, and processing more of his trauma and feelings better, he realized that he's a trans man and came out to bettie. (and of course, she was ecstatic for him and was So Ready to help him with any steps that he wanted to take with transitioning. she cut his hair for him bc he couldn't bring himself to do it and he was an overjoyed sobbing mess on her when she was done hehsjbdg)

around the same time, they found out they were gonna have al and their life sorta shifted to preparing for that (jim got an easy office job for the psychonauts and has been working there since then, they saved money towards being able to take care of her etc.)

they were married for a solid few years (and only divorced because jim realized that he's gay,) and they still keep close contact and care for eachother and their daughter a lot !!! and al loves her parents :)c

#🐠.png #psychonauts #psychonauts 2 #psychonauts oc #jim monday #bettie wallis #allison monday #cc #against my better judgement i am posting this at 1am instead of normal person hours #[visibly shaking] can u tell im an absolute sucker for the ''parent w/ bad home life trying to be better than their parents were'' trope. #anyway i put WAY too much thought into this #and probably a kind of depressing amount of projection #hes fine though its all fine <3 #desperately hoping this is coherent idk how much of it makes sense . again it is 1am ill be honest here

[dnd-smash-pass-vs]

They're elves of the shadowfell, normal human height. They specialize in teleportation and invisibility, with the casters among them throwing in confusion and fear and illusion. Be careful though, as any trained in combat start making non-elves slower and worse while within 10 feet. From depression, from the sound of it. Their angst about being more ancient and timeless than you wordlessly attaches to you like a parasite, slowing you down. Good for if you enjoy concepts like-

Shadows, but like DARKER than shadow, that lash out when they're moody

looking beautiful unless in shadow, in which case they're corpselike

ignoring pointless things like "comfort" and "morals" and "rules"

being the chosen of the Raven Queen, and on her behalf collecting dark tragedy, sorrow, and feelings of loss.

being corpse pale with jet black hair, pure black eyes, and covered with tattoos/piercings/anything that would make a generic white suburban mom in the 50's scream in terror.

Lumping them all together because they're all the same outside one having mage hand and such. Idc what weapon they're holding.

#closest I'm getting to saying something nice about them. #i don't even care. #I can withhold bias on near anything but not these and sun elves #its fine. I make you suffer by pitting your favorites against each other. getting these into the next tournament is only fair. #you know that giant anti-shadarkai rant I went on a few months ago? #how I thought whoever did this to thier lore probably rewrites Warhammer stories to remove the satire and humor? #apparently he actually did write warhammer books holy shit I called it. #seriously though I love basically all monsters but these I looooooooooathe. #not even touching how annoyed I am that the shadar kai WERE ALREADY A THING #Like they weren't even elves #they just went “hey we'll bring them back as elves because 33 is a reasonable number of elf species” #yet not a green version of goblins there's already like 3 that'd be absurd. #like no make your OWN name for the special elves version 33 that hit on par with a demon lord while being cr 7 for some reason #shadar kai #looked into it #dnd #dnd5e #DnD 5e #d&amp;d #smash or pass #5e #monsters of the multiverse #mpmm

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Please tell me about your lil fic idea :’) I’m in the mood for pain

i assume you're referencing This! it's nothing too angsty tbh. i was just thinkin' about how Barnaby likes to use Wally's head as a chew toy, so what if one day someone - like, say, Eddie - startled him while he was doin' just that

& what if Barnaby bit down a little too hard, and moved a little too fast, and fuckign oopsie! ripped his lil buddy's head right off! and tossed it right at Eddie

#all of this is entirely accidental of course #eddie didnt mean to startle him! barnaby didnt mean to decapitate wally! #BUT ITS FINE wally's head is reattached the next day and he's Downright Dandy #no one else is though lmao theyre all traumatized #wally: my neck kinda hurts ahaha i wonder why #everyone: *guilty silence* #rambles from the bog #it just. it has to be So Easy #they're just thin fabric & stuffing #and Barnaby's a big guy! he's gotta have some Natural Strength! #especially against someone like wally who is. Twelve Apples #but yeah im outlining the fic for Funsies and its a lil three part thing #and wally's only 'dead' for the first part <3

[thelittlespanielthatcould]

baby was getting tired towards the end of agility class so he sat down while doing his paws trick

#we're doing foundations agility again because the first foundations class we did was like 3 years ago and I forgot everything #well #not everything #a lot of the stuff we're learning he does have some background in #but my mechanics need a lot of work and his focus needs some fine tuning #its so much fun though #the only reason I couldn't do it more often was because it was hard to fit it in with my schedule and how far I had to drive #but now I moved somewhere intentionally close to an agility facility and we could walk there if we wanted to #which I will want to if the next round falls on my day off #and if I could build up his stamina... lol #i think both our muscles atrophied never leaving the house because it was so goddamn hot all the time when we lived in fl #we're catching up now though! #slowly but surely #agility #classes #kovus face #ckcs #kovu #dog sports

[loverofallthingssmart]

my blog is for the uptight, loud, annoying bitches who are told they can't take a joke, the terribly terribly sad people who mask their grief and loneliness with rage, the “just like your father” girlies, and the mean girls who want to be kind so so so bad but its incredibly hard to curb the poison in their mouth !

#hello just got told that a '''friend of mine''' believes i am incapable of taking a joke literally false bc half the things i say r not to #be taken like incredibly seriously and also its not my fault hes not funny like........ um take ur self hatred humor away from me ! #im literally fine though bc like i bitch abt him on the daily with my other friend its cool <3 #anyway this post still stands bc i just described my type in characters.. fun fact theyre all somewhat just like me and idk how i like that #final character type is the mc....like im a sucker for the mc most of the time <3

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

:(

#cw animal injury #i turned on the lights and our dog is covered in blood like??? hello??? #since when were you doing that and why didn't you tell me??? *cue frantic searching for gauze* #there's a big cut where his ankle meets his leg (inside of the hind right leg) #i have no idea how that happened #our dogs play rough but have never drawn blood #and he was outside alone and he was acting normally and not whining or anything? like speak up man i need to know this shit #his name is bunny btw and he's a big dog. purebred great pyrenees(?) if the ppl we got him from are to be trusted #i don't know how he got hurt #its way too big/deep for a cat to have done it and even if they're really upset they just paw at his face #my only guess is that there's something sharp in the yard? but it's too dark to look #idfk but we found the gauze and stuff and he did Not like that process good thing there were 3 ppl awake to hold him down safely #he still didn't whine through all of that though like. pls speak up man. we gotta know if ur in pain so we can fix it #i'm hoping it doesn't get infected. we don't have money to go to the vet but he's my sister's dog and she might actually kill someone if #he isn't fine #she has a theory that he may have gotten cut on smth our brother threw out there and like. she may literally kill him if this #was his fault and bunny isn't fine #so far he seems fine there wasn't too much blood and there seems to just be the one cut #but i didn't hear him yelp or whine or anything #and he didn't seem to be limping but the lights were off #idk man but we have cleaned him up as best we can for now but it is the middle of the night so we'll see what we can do in the morning

[virtualbeetle]

mastermind's usual outfit when he's out being a public nuisance. he thinks he looks sooo cool wearing this but he is literally a 35 year old gay man

#the :3 mouth was not intended its more like a jackolantern jagged smile thing ykwim #its funny though because he would hate it #art #illustration #traditional art #original character #oc #supervillain oc #pen sketch #also i know i will never perfectly capture how traditional art looks irl. im embracing that and just fucking w the editing #same w the text and lines quality overall its just like. whatever. cant go back. work with it #i want to practice going more from 'work with it by adding more lines to hide things' to 'work with it by embracing all mistakes' #cuz i know when im confident enough to post art with shitty linework its gonna be no different from every other #drawing with shitty lines its like. its fine and tbh even good to look at. yknow #anyway. practicing.

[skyburger]

"fnaf is the scariest game ever" "no its silent hill" "well i think its resident evil" everyone shut up!!!!!! youre all wrong. its actually zack & wiki quest for barbaros' treasure (on the nintendo wii) but only the level "keeper of the ice". that level scared me so bad as a kid and you can tell because its the only individual level i remember the name of off the top of my head. like there is nothing scarier than a) being chased and b) being on a time limit. and you know what this level has? BOTH OF THOSE. this level is still scary to me im like AHHHHH!!!! and then i die

#i had to google horror games after i thought really hard for silent hill and fnaf #because like. resident evil is just not a horror game in my mind... its just cool zombie game... #to be fair though. the only one i actually played a portion of was re6 which is probably the least scary one in the whole series #anyway do the kids still find silent hill and fnaf scary. i dont know. #well the former id say yes given how prevalent ps1 horror has been in recent years #fnaf i have no idea. im a massive wuss so its scary when i play it for myself #but watching someone else play them especially when i know them well isnt scary #and ive watched fnaf videos for YEARS #so i dont know. (old man voice) these damn kids... back in my day we watched markiplier scream at freddy fazbear and we LIKED it! #anyway its objectively a horror game and thata literally fine thats all i needed for this post #MY POINT HERE. my point here #IS THAT HIT ZACK AND WIKI LEVEL KEEPER OF THE ICE. IS SOOOOO SCARY #its not that scary but i see tjat level and im like 3 years old making my mom play this level for me again #and for the record yes me and my sister really did make our mom help us with z&w #she remembers helping us with frost breath the most because we like did notttttt get that one at all #and she could never remember how to do the mirrors based on what combination of stands is there (because tjeres like a few variations) #so she always had to look up a guide 😭😭 #my poor mother on fucking gamefaqs or something in like 2010... legends only #anyway if you have no idea what level im talking about (any of my oomfs reading this that isnt end) (hi end) PLEASE look up this level #and i need you to think of like a 5(?) year old making her mom play this game. #this aforementioned child is still a massive wuss as an adult btw. some things never change #anyway watch that level and think about how someone like me. whos already a scaredy cat! #imagine how someone like me felt at age 5 possibly younger playing this level #I WISH I COULD LIKE CONVEY EMOTIONS OVER TUMBLR. why cant i attach a .emotion file to this post #anyway ramble over <- hes said that like a million times today #scariest level in a game ever...!!!!! FUCK that keeper of the ice bitch im GLAD he died #muffin mumbles

[surreal-duck]

messing around a bit

#delete later #man i havent rly drawn for myself in a while it feels weird #trying to play around w my style lately but i dont think its getting anywhere whwhkjsdghjdg #shoutout to yuzuru if nobody's got me after burning out all of my creative juices ik hes got me #should probably go to sleep early tonight got assigned another project to work on through next week at my internship 😔 #still going through a very mixed feelings stage regarding on how i see my art but ill live i guess #just. nothing is good enough. im never gonna be satisfied. i think this looks fine. this is the worst thing ive ever seen and made. #im gonna fall behind. it isnt a race. everyones already far ahead. maybe this is okay. why are you satisfied with this much its not enough. #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa being an artist am i right ! agony #well i guess lately its not that i just havent been drawing things for me but more like i cant for some reason. burnouts an asshole #even though i really really did want to make things it honestly sucked ass not being able to i rly dont know what id do if i cant draw #actually took some time for myself yesterday and walked around town a bit it was nice. pierced my ears again and treated myself #but as consequence of course i am now broke </3 unfortunate #hmmmmm idk what im saying kdjsjgdhhskgjdhsdg hope things r going well for everyone else if you're even reading this! may u have a good week #man i wish i just knew if things are gonna be okay #hngggg baru aja tiga bulan masuk balik sekolah sama udah secapek ini wkwkwkwkkwkwk payah gk sih gw ini #masih setahun lebih sampe lulus juga head in hands kenapa gk bisa tidur buat seminggu aja aaagh #ya yang penting juga gw masih hidup sih gk mau kemana-mana kyk gini #aaaaaaaaa gk mau masuk studio besokkkk mau tidurrrr #me when i have to do my job at work #i wonder what i should make for lunch and dinner tomorrow. knowing me though ill end up falling asleep as soon as i get out of the shower #sorry this is. all over the place props if you're even reading this far LOL apologies you have to see me rant a bit

[bylertruther]

thinking abt byler with their dog watching a movie on the couch all snuggled up in some blankets (plural, bc will hogs them & leaves mike to freeze to death [will rejects these slanderous claims, says mike's being a big baby]).. their dog's got its head in mike's lap and his feet against will's ribs in the weirdest most endearing position ever that cannot possibly be comfortable And Yet. mike scratches n rubs the little mongrel's chest n asks him if he's enjoying their boys night. This Is Real n True

#mike didn't exactly Want the dog as much as will did bc he never had any mammal pets growing up #but will was rly determined to keep going to the shelter until they found their match #n this one totally fucking like . imprinted on will or smth mike SWEARS bc he was so so sooooo happy to see will #it's a little joke between them at first tht its will's dog n mike loves how much it loves will bc even though he Knows #theyre safe and okay and everything is Fine and Normal now #he still has tht underlying thread of fear n nervousness in him tht this little ball of fur soothes n unspools #and he says its will's dog but oh man.... tht thing LOVES mike #presses its snout against his calf when he's all stressed n brings him his favorite toy when the vibes are off and cuddles with him etc #the duffers got rid of chester without a word and now im determined to keep his spirit alive #u r real to ME chester u will always be Real n live on in my gay heart ..... #love writing tags on mobile bc i cant see shit re what i jus wrote so i jus have to hope n pray i was coherent . anyway <3

[tklpilled]

rant abt the bsd dub in the tags (both good and bad)

#ok WHO was in charge of the dub voices in the last season #why do oda and fukuchi share a voice #why do teruko and kyouka share a voice #what was going on with nikolai and how do we STILL not know who his actor is #jouno and tecchou's voices were wonderful though <33 #like EVERY other character's voice matches them so well and then. #i mean cherami leigh fits both kyouka and teruko but. why does she have to voice two at the same time. they could've found someone new #like tara sands!! she already voiced q but they're not in the current arcs #and i think her voice would fit teruko much better. she voiced bisky in hxh and they have similar personalities #at least w the whole fukuchi/oda thing oda is like. dead. he's not Getting voiced anymore. #but i dont think his voice fits fukuchi at all im sorry </3 #mushitarou's voice wasn't my favourite at first but it grew on me i like it a lot #also im pretty sure yokomizo and kunikida share a voice #and i think it actually turned out well but idk its not how i would imagine yokomizo to sound #its not bad though #sigma's voice is fine but it's SO masc #which like yeah CANONICALLY theyre a man but i thought it would be at least a little more androgynous #this all feels very negative so #i LOVE max mittelman as atsushi #i love him in general bc you can tell he loves all his roles #also sometimes i forget that he also voiced meruem in hxh because theyre?? so different?? and they SOUND different too #hes v talented #and kaiji tang as dazai!! so good!!! #again another va you can tell LOVES his role #and he captures dazai's energy so well and he's like. pretty much exactly how i'd imagine him to sound #and RAY CHASE'S (fyodor's) ACCENT. like he did not have to do that but he DID and it sounds so good #adored tachihara's old va but i do get why he had to leave #his new voice is gonna take a little getting used to but that doesnt mean its bad at all!!! #i do think ranpo's old voice fits him better but obviously that's not what's most important #and i think landon mcdonald is doing a good job!!!!

[strwbrymlkshake]

the experience hurts, but I think it's so romantic that we both feel like the world is ending whenever we accidentally upset eachother ♡

#mine #🎸 #irl darling #yancore #irl yandere #darlingcore #yandere vent #the word darlingcore seems like the sweetest artificial strawberry dessert in the history of the world. a dessert thats past the due date #like leftover valentines cupcakes no one wanted to eat bc they taste musty. OK ANYWAYS #i do post the unhealthy aspects of myself/my feelings but i never post about the good things as often #seems like all i do is complain on here. rest assured its going well! like we are both insane but with communication its going good! #i am making a lot more progress in being possessive setting boundaries etc! even if its probably a basic thing he changed his pfp #without me going balls to the wall batshit insane<3 plus im learning to take things at face value rather than trying to decipher #the possible hidden meanings. the killing and violence is still prevalent but what can be expected? from me ofc? #he may not be outwardly insane but he is plenty deranged in his heart and thats what counts<3 #i sort of made a threat in his stead today. felt so alive. invigorated dare i say. it wasnt real polite though #and im trying to be nicer instead of violence killing forever. i can still have a little bit of violence killing as a treat though #i may make a tag for a certain guy who annoys me. not sure if its worth it. idk how long he will be in my life #i'll just do a quick complaint. hes fine and all but sometimes i want him to explode. he says the most uncomfortable things and it can be #insufferable to be in a convo w him cause he makes it about his own misery OR makes it nsfw. #he called MY DARLING. MY! DARLING! the special nickname that i call him no one else can fucking call him that #i wanted to tear out his spine tear off his face literally maim his corpse unimaginable violence death death death burn him alive etc #we are 'friends' though :) he is good natured. i guess. whatever i felt white hot rage but its back to my default pink demeanor now #idk if i said this here before but he really is just the small fish id buy so my favorite fish could have friends #keeping him around just because he makes my fish happy. though he does make my fish inconvenienced sometimes and i want to #donate him to blast testing for this. wow i can truly be the most awful manipulative person on here. gay rights and goodnight everybody

[southern--downpour]

doing my marble hornets rewatch at the same time im going through emh for the first time is great for the brainrot but HORRENDOUS for my anxiety and paranoia. im fine.

#emh is generally fine from an anxiety standpoint for me #mh on the other hand! #the operator was tailor made to scare the FUCK outta me #actually everything abt mh was tailor made to absolutely wreck me mentally #webseries from 2009 dealing w/ me exact anxieties and fears that is ALSO set LITERALLY 2 HOURS AWAY FROM ME??? #with RELIGIOUS IMAGERY???? #just shoot me itd be less impactful on my psyche #downside to this is its almost 3 am and i CANNOT sleep #emh is fun though im enjoying it a lot #i like that it starts out w/ a lot more fun videos w/ the main guys it makes it easy to get attached to all of em #im still not that far into emh yet but i really like it #got into it mostly thanks to a friend who rly likes it and said my fav would be evan + habit #he was right. #as opposed to the operator HABIT was made specifically to give me severe brainworms!!!! #love a villain who just seems like he's having a blast #hes just. SO fun to watch. #shut up virgil #cant wait to watch him eat a baby (i dont know the context for it yet i was just told he eats a fucking baby and laughed my ass off)

[bumblingbabooshka]

The Pathways Novel is the holy grail of young Tuvok characterization because I can just sense so clearly through the page how insufferable he would be to talk to

#and let me tell you? insufferable IS affectionate with a million hearts drawn around it #A girl confessed her love to him and he basically grabbed her by the shoulders and said Sophie....please get ahold of yourself! #Remember WWJD!! and she has to be like '.....y e ah ok. yeah. sorry.' and then they parted ways forever #Tuvok at the monastery observing the other initiates like I'm the only one who /really/ gets what we're going for here but who am I to judge #I think the line is something like 'Tuvok despised what he thought to be the partaking in unncessary luxuries but he trusted that the elders #knew best' #I think Tuvok's life is just going through different particular types of Difficult-To-Talk-To #crybaby kid to know it all teen to wannabe priest to holier than thou initiate to when-I-was-your-age dad #then he FINALLY started chilling the hell out #AH I keep saying 'monastery' its a temple #I love Tuvok him being earnestly annoyed by others has fine-wined into dry remarks while definitely NOT rolling his eyes #Tuvok cares SO much is the thing. <3 guy who is full of not-love #Guy who makes terrible horrendous first impressions but then eventually worms his way into your heart (VERY unintentionally hes NOT trying) #It'd be funny if everyone liked T'Pel right away in contrast hehe...<3 #Tuvok's parents' characterizations in that book are NOT canon to me though #also there's a funny moment where Tuvok is complaining about how their sons are (in his opinion) not disciplined enough #and when he looks to T'Pel for her opinion she's just fallen asleep #and he considers waking her up despite the fact that she JUST gave birth before going hmm.....better not. #Wise Choice Friend HEHEHEH....g od...dumbass <3

[bandtrees]

i hate when i meet a character i know only through fandom yaoi everywhere and i end up actually liking him

#babbles #this is about sigma bsd he's so silly and i didnt think id like him #ig just because i assumed he'd be another fyodor-type smug baddie #cuz idk hes like commonly shipped with dazai ig and i knew hes part of the fyodor-nikolai-etc corner of characters #and i like fyodor just fine (shocking bc i dont like smug characters lol but hes cool enough) but like more of him... no #sigma though is just silly. hes fun and sad #all he knows is fine dining and breathing #also i often judge bsd's comedy i think its its weakest point and a lot of my criticisms of bsd revolve around its comedy #(ie playing things for jokes thatd be more meaningful if played seriously- repetitive jokes like w dazai- etc) #but. genuinely. the bit where he shows up on the casino tvs to tell all his guests to KILL THE BLOODHOUNDS ON SIGHT #LIKE ITS THE PURGE. AND HE WILL GIVE THEM TEN THOUSAND DOLLARS AND REMOVE ALL THEIR CASINO DEBTS. #IS LIKE TOP 3 FUNNIEST BSD MOMENTS TO ME AND IM NOT SURE IF IT WAS EVEN MEANT TO BE FUNNY BUT ITS SO FUNNY #(ikea loudspeaker) FIRST BLOOD

[ballisterboldheart]

you really think i would do that. go to the Lore and add some dead lesbians.

#s.txt #its fine this story will have some alive lesbians. #see on an extremely shallow level its like. i do kill all the gay characters. but i also just kill a lot of characters in general. #i heart executions and betrayal. #these newest lesbians though <3 #so first off there's this Kingdom in my fantasy story that. first off is a port town in the middle of the Map. so its wealthy. #and there are Families that try to wrestle the throne from each other. Constantly. #and in this kingdom im also adding an order of knights to be in Service of the people. not the throne. well in theory at least. #and at Some point one of these knights fell in love w the queen. and that blinded her to the Reality of the queens cruelty to the people. #and so blah blah if she has to die it must be by my hand. something something i will show her respect as i end her. #something something doesn't expect to outlive her crime. blah blah. lesbian shit. #anyways. i had a point. somewhere. #OH YEAH this'll tie in LATER to [main character]'s arc bc everyone doesnt want him to end up Blinded by love. #they want him to Do His Fucking Job <3 unfortunately instructions Unclear he spends a decade wanting to get railed by [REDACTED]. oops <3 #BUT THEN LATER. [REDACTED] shows that you can. you can have both. you dont have to suffer to be Good and Just. catholics found dead <3 #anyways. im normal <3