#her dad is present in her life

[reigningmax]

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#my post #i know people are weird about max and p #and their hatred for her mom is for some reason projected onto her and his relationship with her #but you cant see these small interactions between max and p #and think he doesn't adore her #and she doesn't adore him #he isn't her dad and she knows it #her dad is present in her life #but she ALSO has max #and she deserves to be loved she is a CHILD #and he is sweet with her and helping raise her and that's not something #to hate on any of them for it lmao #the fact that she calls him maxy!!!!!!!!!!

[moonlitgourmet]

gelan is samael's father

gelan bears a physical resemblance to penelope and samael. sharing penelope's eye color and samael's statue.

presumably samael's father married in his mid to late 20's and after 18 years would be middle aged fitting the age range gelan has mentioned.

he's willing to abandon a person in need when he thinks they aren't worth the risk. he prioritizes his safety (and by extension rayne's) over interpersonal bonds or any kind of integrity. this shown during his intervention with rayne and samael.

then again when rayne worries over her friends being kidnapped or injured by adon's group. he's quick to cut ties when someone becomes too much of a burden.

much like samael's father who abandoned his own family.

(this is based on various webtoon comments proposing the idea but it's not something I'm fully committed to myself)

#again i'm not completely sold on this idea but i wanted to play around with it a bit #gelan's memory loss makes it hard to gauge his past life #with rayne you at least have tomoha to bounce theories off of #gelan instinctively chooses himself (and rayne) over others though which isn't a pretty look #i do expect familial or close relationships with main characters to be expanded upon #rayne and gelan present the question of what if you were a terrible person before your memory loss? would you be able to handle it? #theories #gelan idgaf about anyone dad vs rayne i need to save everyone daughter #i do think rayne has been rubbing off on gelan though he has a soft spot for her

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

#in our house kids dont stay outside past 6:30pm'' but now all of a sudden its fine for my brother to play #till 10:30 at night #she literally stopped me permanently from going down in the evenings since i was in class 7-8 #this is why ive never had any friends outside of school bcz she wouldnt let me leave ths fucking house #and now that my brother is in class 7 #he's allowed to be out playing with his friends till 10 freaking 30 #he comes home an hour late sometimes...45 minutes and almost always at least 30 minutes late at NIGHT and she says nothing except like #one sentence #yeah im only the villain i only keep u locke #up in the house its all my fault #this is just so damn unfair #like literally insulting #im not a child what is her problem #what sort of fucking solution is 'never leave the hostel' like ok even if i do that what happens then??? after i graduate? #i'll be a 24 year old who doesnt know shit about going from one place to another without a man present] #and then this woman preaches how she 'always raises her son and daughter equally' like srsly shut the fuck up #my whole life i've been told abar late?'' #and for me bcz i would come home 5-10 minutes late nd i did it maybe once or twice she made me completely stop going down to play #5-10 minutes late from 6:30 wherein he comes an hour late from 9 fucking 30 #and this sounds so stupid bcz im an 18 year old now and i dont give a fuck abt how long i got to play but its just unfair dude #with me it was always smthn or the other either exams or she gets miraculously sick every time i want to go out to play #im not even kidding she did a whole “i have fever and ur going to leave me like this and go play?” on me one time bcz i was adamant abt goi #after months of not being able to go bcz of exam or smthn or the other #she did not have any fever it was fucking bullshit #and how am i supposed to help with ur imaginary fever anyway im literally 12 #its so fucking annoying man and then if i say anything at all she'll go on a tirade about how #like YOU DO THOUGH??????? im sorry ur feelings are hurt bcz i said you do smthn that u LITERALLY DO #istg not even 2 days ago she was having a fight with my dad abt how he should teach my brother to learn how to cycle so that he can go buy #groceries #i can cycle

[skin-slave]

Do you think any of the families would've declared the kids legally dead? Besides Daniel. The ones that love the kids.

After a yr they could ask to have it made official. I'm sure the courts would agree that the chance of survival is so low that it's functionally nonexistent. But they were already halfway there. I'm sure they would've made it.

I'm just thinking about how weird it would be to get home and find out they'd had your funeral.

#guaranteed the families of all 6 wouldve attended the memorials for the other kids #besides daniel #gdi why is daniel such an asshole #camp cretaceous #a wild hc appears #kenji wouldve wanted to know the attendees and would suspect his dad either made a token appearance or wasnt there #darius would understand #his name and dates would be added to a larger stone at his dads grave with a dino joining them - symbol of their active loving relationship #ben would keep the stone bc it represented the end of old ben #so when he really does pass it would be like idk the dates but m/d/2001 - m/d/2015 and then skip to the day he beat toro and finish out 😂 #brooklyn would see the superficial 1-day shows of grief from followers and it would solidify how important it is to live for herself #yaz wouldnt have a grave just a cabinet at her moms house full of pics and mementos and her memorial would be as low-key as possible #sammys fam would refuse to have a funeral but would have a celebration of her life #and would talk about her in the present tense #bc even after someone dies theyre still part of the family #idk im just thinking

[hella1975]

sometimes i think about the fact my grandparents literally overnight just cut us off and im like. how did u even do that. does it torment you

#eeaao's 'how did you let me go so easily' moment. like i dont let myself even THINK about this too often #bc i immediately beat myself back with the 'if it's hard for you then imagine how hard it is for mum. her PARENTS cut her off' #but like. idk. my nan i couldn't give less of a shit about which is something i always find so interesting #bc even as a child with NO basis for it or any understanding of her behaviour both past and present i still wasn't Comfortable around her #like children are smart actually. i just Knew her vibes were off and i Knew my mum was weird when she was around #like i truly dont think i ever loved my nan even when she was a very frequent part of my life #but my grandad? i ADORED him. id see him multiple times a week and he's the kindest man ive ever met #and hannah what i told you about my mum saying certain people have magnetic auras THAT WAS ABOUT HIM #like i cant actually put into words what it was about him but people just wanted to know him and spend time with him #but he was weak and let my nan walk all over him and when push came to shove he chose her and now ive not spoken to him in 3 years #& i KNOW he loved me. he thought the world of me like it's a bitter unspoken thing between me & my sister that we KNOW i was his favourite #he used to buy me egg butties at agricultural shows when my mum said no and specifically ask for two eggs #he used to sit and eat his soup with me when he came over to do work at the house #he used to play with me. he used to smile all the time. i can so clearly hear the way he'd go ''iya [my name]' with his proper rural accent #or how he'd tell anyone who would listen 'she's tough as old boots that one' #and i could make him laugh like NO ONE else could and he'd light up and go 'give over' and he genuinely enjoyed my company #i KNOW HE DID. and i havent spoken to him in 3 years. he'll be dead soon #and i cant talk to my mum about it bc it's her DAD it is so much worse for her and i cant talk to my sister about it #bc she wasn't close with him like i was and she just shuts the conversation down and those are the only two people #who know my grandad and know what he meant to me so im just here like. he literally stopped speaking to me overnight #i stopped hearing from him i stopped meeting up with him im so so angry with him the love is still there i dont know where to put it now #why couldnt he stay. why did he pick her when she's a loveless void of inhumanity. why werent we enough #hella goes home #my grandparents on my dad's side are also not in the picture funnily enough but idgaf about them. she got that grandparentless swag

[suffarustuffaru]

hi again i ranked every parent i could think of in rezero based on parenting skills + how much they give a shit

#i forgot to add the dude thats now married to garf's mom but he would go in 'seems alright'!! #ALSO LIKE GARFS MOM... THE POOR WOMAN.... SHES LIVED SUCH A ROUGH LIFE LAJSLDFJ I HOPE SHE'LL BE OKAY... but also yeah um. rip fred and gar #bc their mom dipped. like to find garfs dad yeah but like. girl :((( but also the implications of How she had fred is. :((( honestly. maybe #for the best that that woman lost her memories. #fribal (theresias uncle) is only ranked that high bc he at least shows REGRET for his actions.... he apologizes to theresia as he dies.. #the juukuliuses all seem like they were alright. rip daisy and klein though they died in that flood when julius was a kid ;-;;; #alviero is only present for like one scene in a side story but like. he seems alright. he def cares given he and his wife took in julius #after julius's parents died. and also alviero and maria have been taking care of joshua and julius... so they DO care but i dont think #alviero was perfect just judging off of. you know. how julius and joshua have turned out lajdslfjs. alviero is so gaslight gatekeep girlbos #and like overly concerned with how he comes off to others that you can see where joshua and julius got that shit from HAH. #heinkel is only up that high on the list bc felix's parents and roswaal exist. like its very hard to beat that LMAO T^T #and yeah rem and rams parents did not give a shit about either of them ngl. #rezero #WAIT I FORGOT TO COUNT RYUZU. SHOULD I HAVE COUNTED RYUZU?? PROBABLY RIGHT???

[stripesysheaven]

anyway to celebrate my rewatch of lost being complete, have a zoomed in picture of a selfie i took with mr emerson <3

#you can still barely see my hair on the right side of the picture lol #his hand was on my shoulder im. just staring at it #it freaks me out too much what the fuck #feels like it happened to someone else not me #i remember it but also i zoned out staring at him #wasn’t emotionally present #not showing it but i did wear a dharma shirt when i met him #my dad always said ‘you’re very brave to have his hand on your back. he easily could have stabbed you’ you say that as if its a bad thing #wish i had watched lost more recently during that time so i could have asked him more interesting questions #he was so lovely though. talked about his wife a lot even promoted the show she had going on at the time #guy clearly loves her it was adorable #i know i know parasocial relationships etc im aware i dont know anything about his personal life and im more than ok with that #ok im done im just insane rn #michael emerson #my posts #lostposting #benposting

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Why must a twitter post make me choose who has the worst parnets between Horrid Henry, Doofenshmirtz, Priya from Total Drama Island and Sora from Lego Ninjago??? They all got shit parents in different ways, there's no contest between them.

#doof's parents wont even there for BIRTH #let alone treated him like shit in comparison to his brother #to the point of neglect basically and shit #while priya was literally born to go onto total drama to the point while still attached to her cord after being born #she had to do bungee jumping #and her parents just spent her whole life preparing her for the show #sora's parents support a holy shit kingdom while not caring for her or her hobby unless they could have her use it to support the holy shit #kingdom and when she didnt want to they actively took away her hobby saying to get another if she won't use first one to support #the holy shit kingdom #and they actively shit even when in present with her #she literally ran away to get away from them and as she put it shes found a better family with the ninja #horrid henry basically can breath and his mom will be like 'DONT BE HORRID HENRY-' and send him to his room #to the point apparently in newer eps he just misses breakfast cause he was sent to his room instantly #like more then once should add #like they had second kid and that was it first kid became the kid that gets all the shit from parents #mainly the mom as the dad sometimes is chill #but the mom really does seem to wish she didnt have henry #since she applauded henry being made disappear by a birthday magician #which got even henry's arch rival giving her a wtf look #like they all equally bad parents here dammit

[13eyond13]

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#as somebody who is unfortunately probably older than a lot of other people here by now #lemme just do my thing and dispense wisdom nobody asked for once more #guess what adults also still crave that parenting they never got when they were younger too #or perhaps that overindulgent parenting that they got spoiled by and addicted to #emotionally my 88 year old grandma is still a child on the inside looking for her dad to tell her she did a good job #and if you don't take steps to be aware of it #and to cultivate self-worth and solace in something other than receiving that one specific thing #and learn to be present with the people around you and how to focus on what you can give to others as much as what you can receive #that craving never really goes away #you can spend your entire life with tunnel vision chasing it #the older people in your life probably still feel that craving just as strongly as you do #they just had to eventually come to terms with it somehow carry on and start trying to take care of the younger people as best they can #definitely hilarious when you realize you're like the parent figure to people when you're like omg no i still didn't get to be the baby yet #and often times you also will become the parent figure to people much older than yourself as well #including (perhaps) eventually your own parents #anyways i would say that explains a lot about the dumbness of adults of all ages #it definitely sucks but #i think the nice thing to do is to try to give the younger people more of the understanding and support that will hopefully help them #be well-adjusted and prepare #for their own fun times in their 20s and beyond #if you can #seeing it more as building community rather than engaging in competition is the goal for me these days #p

[sweetandglovelyart]

Now that I’ve finished the most recent comic page I think I should actually try and do some proper drawings of some of my OCs. Get ready to see Taranza’s mom Theraphoza, I’m working on drawing her first 🕷️

#text post #Kirby #Kirby OCs #she was briefly in Knightfall in Dream Land on the previous page but since it’s set in the past that was her younger design #she looks a little different in the present so I’m working on her present day design #I’m also drawing Taranza with her he’s wearing his little king outfit I designed for him lmao #I keep talking about how he becomes the king of Floralia after Triple Deluxe in my AU #but I haven’t actually drawn him in his king attire yet #he mostly looks the same he just gets a crown and some embellishments that attach to his cape #I feel like he’d probably still dress casually most of the time after becoming king and he’d just put on the full attire for formal events #anyway I’m excited to do an actual proper drawing of Thera and show off her personality a bit more #she’s got a bit of a sadness about her (she has a tragic love life just like her son) but she’s very gentle and kind #I could see her really doting upon/fussing over her son since he’s her only child lmao #and she lost her husband/Taranza’s dad so I could see her being especially protective of Taranza because of that #she’d also act like a mom to all of his friends too #like she’d always make sure they’re well fed and would knit stuff for them to keep them warm lmao #she’d probably be good at knitting and she’d probably be good at baking stuff too #I could see her acting like a nice grandma to Kirby whenever Kirby visits Floralia lmao

[mmvcvs]

Blaze, Who u like to spend more time with ? Badgerclops or Mao Mao? ( Sorry, just me wanting dads-daughter interactions cuz my daddy issues c'':)

Blaze: "Both, I guess. I mean. They've both been around my whole life, they both love me the same amount, and they're both fun and cool. I can't say I have a favorite parent."

#mmvcvs #future #Blaze #anon #i kno most people have favorite parents they hang out around more but she does n o t #both her dads were very present in her life and each others lives #we're getting into spoiler-y territory so ill just leave it at that

[regular-lord-reckoner]

been having a bit of a hard time lately and the hits just keep coming because today our family friend that's staying with us, his wife got into a car accident

she's okay, thank god and so were the other people but they had to tow her car and she was really shaken up understandably

everyone's okay now but just...jesus christ, dude

also, i know i've been absent on here lately but i'm still around, just going through it. eventually i'm gonna get an actual break and will return in full but for now i'm just going to cross my fingers the rest of this year can be a little more gentle

#tomorrow we're going to go meet my niece and her kids so we can give them their presents and stuff #please no more accidents #or bad shit #i just need one day something doesn't go wrong or i don't get overstimulated or just...whatever else #i'm doing everything i can on my part to take care of myself but it's still just...a lot #this is my first christmas without my dad and i'm just...sad #really sad #but it is what it is i guess #life just sucks sometimes #or a lot of the time #but either way #just gotta keep going no matter what!! #i was also keeping tabs of all the stuff i've missed on here that i wanted to catch up on but ending up deleting the tabs by accident #so if when i do return i'm crawling through everyone's blogs months back don't mind me #hope if you're reading this you're doing as well as you can be #see you...sometime #maybe later today #maybe a month from now who knows

[gendzl]

—H.L. Hix, from Incident Light

#the back of this book explains that it's about the author's friend who found out at age 49 that her dad wasn't her birth father #which like. technically yes. but it's more a loose biography of that woman's life that happens to include the story of her mother's affair #but i read AN ENTIRE BOOK OF CRAP to get to the interesting bits. which i have now sliced from the book and presented to you #¶ #poetry #stories #gendzl reads #Incident Light by H.L. Hix

[therighthandofvengeance]

something about Draal reminds me of Arthur Weasley. this man absolutely asks his human visitors about the function of a rubber duck.

#babylon 5 #b5 #harry potter #for once it’s not an incorrect quote #draal #arthur weasley #much hate to jkr and much love to jms #the importance of inquisition #humans are curious creatures and they know it #also just the Dad Vibe #Delenn doesn’t really have a solid and consistently present parental figure in her life #he's the closest thing she's got #delenn and ginny hold their own in very similar manners too #which is very... Fight Me™

[ouchhq]

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#i need to vent sorry #living with my mother is impossible. she is absolutely impossible #she gaslights u every single day and plays the victim when she is so manipulative and toxic #yesterday was my parents wedding anniversary and she thinks its all about her #she didnt get my dad anything while my dad HAD to get her a present bc if he hadnt she would have made him pay for sure #we do things for her out of fear because she could throw a tantrum at any word u say #u use the wrong word? u use the wrong tone of voice? she throws tantrums #my gandma called to ask if i said happy anniversary to my parents and i told her i refuse to #that is not a marriage. its a dictatorship #i refuse to celebrate a marriage that has been dead for over 10 years but needs to keep going just because my mother threatens god knows #what whenever they fight and my dad says he cant do it anymore #i know he cant stand her anymore. and i feel so bad for him #and i cried so much with my therapist some weeks ago because she has these moments where she lovebombs u and she always says im the most #important thing in her life but she has these behaviors that would make anyone want to scream their head off. she drives u insane #and i feel guilty about having so many negative feelings about her but she has destroyed this family and refuses to get treated for the #disorder she so clearly has #even my grandparents cant stand her anymore #god…… i need to get the fuck out of this house #i feel sorry for my dad though

[strozzaprete]

not to be morbid on main but my life is so strange every day i'm fighting with my inner suicidal child trying to convince her to stay alive out of spite for our enemies

#this entire year ​i've been forced to relive past trauma -> which i'd been able to finally process but it doesn't involve just me #so basically i processed it but my family hasn't and they keep putting the blame on me for everything and guilting me for it #even though i was a literal child. in short the fact that i ''acted out'' by running away from abusive situations was and still is worse #than the actual abusive situations i was put in. as a child. #so like... i can forgive and understand and empathize with my past self at last (instead of feeling suicidal like i did for years) #but if nobody else in my close family circle does then i have to essentially stay strong and remind myself that they're wrong #point is that when i was 11-12 i would react to the emotional and physical abuse by basically putting myself in dangerous situations #and attempting suicide a couple of times lmao. staring at the train tracks every other day #because the fact that they beat me was NORMAL for me (my mom told me that i was 2 the first time my dad hit me) #and they were acting like i was (i quote) ''bipolar'' and mentally ill and acting out out of nowhere and i couldn't fully understand why #i was doing certain things at the time. so i put the entirety of the ''blame'' on myself. and later on my mom would make me feel guilty #about it for a decade to win arguments -> which almost every time start with her gaslighting me until i start crying and yelling so then she #can call me crazy. and she can make ME feel crazy so i won't take her accountable. so she avoids taking responsibility for her actions (past #and present). i finally realized this when i told her that one of the most traumatic events of my life was when she found some smoking #filters in my drawer (she used to go through my stuff all the time) that i was LITERALLY KEEPING FOR A FRIEND and she dragged me out on the #balcony by my hair and beat me. she would beat me in public places all the time to humiliate me. even my school friends remember this #and she said 1) ''it didn't happen'' and 2) ''i don't remember'' #so that's that. either i'm crazy and i fabricated the memory out of nowhere... or she's not taking responsibility for her actions. #and like... I KNOW it happened. but i'm very sensitive to gaslighting (as she does this all the time about other things as well) #and sometimes i literally have to hug myself and rock back and forth and essentially try to convince myself i'm not crazy #that's the situation i'm in rn :) cool #thank god the therapist moved my appointment to tomorrow because i'm about to implode or perhaps ask for money in advance to purchase drugs