what if I told you fifteen is actually suicidal? what if I told you his little speech about having felt everything and having experienced everything is the main source of his trauma? what it I told you he feels lost, aimless, thinks he has no purpose? what if I told you he's fucking bored with life? what it I told you he is almost definitely going to start engaging in impulsive thrill seeking behavior just to feel something? and what if I told you that, just like how rose was there to pull nine back from his anger, ruby is there to pull fifteen back from his apathy just by being so alive?
i decided to add colour to this one cause i loved it so much!!
im obsessed with drawing these which is why i’ve done so many in such a short amount of time! if anyone has any scenes or ideas they’d like me to draw in this style feel free to comment/message/ask me :)
More "Tissaia, but a gentleman" folly for @ehay in fandomtrumpshate. If anybody can still recall it, I did some doodles for the same subject last year.
They are all Leyendecker studies. For those who are interested:
The teal dress with lattice pattern: is "translated" into a late Victorian/Edwardian suit with the same decorations, a high-buttoned waistcoat, plain shirt with winged collar and white cravat. Just another casual day dress.
The crimson ascension ball gown: hoo boy this gown was a tough one to design, the easy flow of the material gave it a more sensual, almost seductive feel compared to the rest of Tissaia's wardrobe, yet the deep colour and silver leaves decorations made it unmistakable a ball gown, or at least one for special occasion. My best bet was to go with "luxurious, seductive yet formal enough", and put "him" in dress uniform from the same time period, with a lot of leaf motif embroidery. A jacket draped over the shoulder making up for the lack of flow. Inspiration was mainly Hussar uniforms, which I think would fit well with The Witcher books' Central European/Slavic elements.
The comfy sleeping gown: Men also wore nightgown back then, so this was an easy job, no comment
I don't know if I ever talked about this on here before but it's been on my mind from time to time and that is the idea that Wataru one time catches a really bad cold so he just avoids Eichi for the time being (Because Hey. Maybe. If you're sick with a bacterial disease that spreads really easily. Maybe try not to pass it on to the guy with the autoimmune disorder. Just a thought.) But he doesn't tell anyone about it because he's The Hibiki Wataru he doesn't get sick.
So the only ones who know about this are his roommates because it's kind of hard to hide this from people you share a room with especially if you stay cooped up in your room a lot to try not to infect others with your cold and also a runny red nose and a sore throat aren't really a good look on someone that's not the biggest fan of open vulnerability. (If you ask yourself why he would stay in his dorm I have no idea either my guess is the guy just doesn't have anywhere else to go on short notice it's not like he has a flat outside of ES or something so as long as I don't have that figured out he'll have to stay in the dorms)
And yeah no back to point do the gist of the thing is Eichi notices that Wataru tries to stay away from him and he does not know why and it makes him sad and kind of angry and because he's Eichi of course he wonders if it was something he did or if it was just Wataru finally realising that Eichi just isn't what he deserves or whatever else self depreciating things could cross your mind in a situation like this.
So basically then he goes to the first person he would think of to know if he did anything wrong in regards to Wataru: Rei. Rei is mildly confused but reassures him Wataru didn't say anything in that regard.
And this entire scenario just boils down to Eichi wondering why Wataru is avoiding him and thinking it's his fault so he goes around asking everyone he could expect a proper answer from without thinking to ask Wataru himself because a) he's avoiding him. Why would he risk making things worse? And b) it's stupider and funnier this way and this entire scenario is just me laughing at their communication or lack thereof completely ignoring the underlying issues that would've caused it. And I know this is dumb and stupid because everyone else in ensquare would need to be an idiot for this to work so I'm ignoring that bit as well and just regarding it as something that would be funny in theory but would never happen. Or actually youcan set this entire scenario at Yumenosaki and then it could make perfect sense this seems exactly like the kind of stuff to happen to dramatic highschoolers
I just feel like ben sisko would make SUCH great kenyan food. no specific canonical basis for this really it's just that the image of the whole senior staff crowded around a table digging into a huge bowl of ugali and scooping up some god tier stew with it sparks joy
nah star trek picard really looked me in the face and told me to take my gay ass to hell lmao. like you’re telling me after making it through a season while buckling under grief and immense trauma they choose each other, get one onscreen kiss and dassit? the most integral and stable parts (maybe. they could’ve broken up the second they left guinans bar in the s2 finale for all i know) of their entire relationship happened between seasons? off-fucking-screen?!? yeah this show ain’t fucking serious. at all. they were together (how long? no one fucking knows!) and i ain’t even get to see that? sick and twisted lmao. didn’t even try. didn’t even pretend to try. teased seven and raffi’s relationship for a season and a half only to wrap shit up in 30 seconds—what happened to privacy. why was worf even in that scene like he couldn’t take a step back? why were they trying to present it as a jokey joke too like star trek picard what’s funny? nothing exactly. they really said here damn scram lol?????
i just. an offscreen breakup that is still a mystery because ????? because nothing. it’s not like they care so why not just get it over with in episode 1? what was the goal here? a breakup which was telegraphed yet dragged out for no discernible reason. biggest waste of time since idk when. and all this fast tracking time jumping shit they keep doing with their relationship is so transparent and boring. just zero investment. why are they allergic to telling coherent stories! and also joy!
god. what even is there to say about this bullshit that hasn’t been said. what’s the takeaway here? what was gained.
Y'all, people need to hear compliments sometimes. Like don't get me wrong. I am a confident mother fucker, but affirmation is very nice.
Tonight, I had an affinity meeting dinner, and someone said that they told their girlfriend about the affinity, and she said, "Oh yeah, the hot people affinity group". And I was like, oh yeah. That's me too. Wow. Glad to know I'm not the only one who thinks so.