#he gave up his life for people who hated him

[tofixtheshadows]

You guys really need to stop and consider the ways you're talking about Kabru I am dead fucking serious. Like I know that flattening characters is just what fandom does to a certain extent, but Kabru's actual personality is getting lost to the fandom hivemind insisting that he's aggressive/cruel/sociopathic/hateful, and these are particularly concerning takes to see leveled at the only brown character in the main cast day after day. "My poor sweet golden child Laios needs to be protected from this scary brown man" is not a good look! Like, it's very telling that the bulk of the hate and bad faith readings are reserved for Toshiro and Kabru. Everyone else's flaws get to be discussed and validated and forgiven (or erased), meanwhile people are straight making up things to be mad about with Toshiro and Kabru but patting themselves on the back for being smart.

The worst part is how undeserved it all is. I'm trying to lay off anime-onlys because we're still kind of in the red herring stage of getting to know Kabru, but I would still like to gently suggest that even if you think Kabru is up to something, you don't gave to get in the tags of every fan creator's post and bring up how you hate him or You Can Tell he's totally evil. Sometimes I think Kabru's blue eyes give people license to say things about his appearance that they know would sound completely racist otherwise, but referring to his blue eyes acts as a get-out-of-racism free card. The jokes about the dog with brown contacts are getting old, by the way.

For people who have read the manga, it's disappointing. Kabru is one of the most complex and important characters in the story, and if you base your interpretation of him and all your fandom interactions on shallow first impressions you are completely missing out.

I know part of this is because Dungeon Meshi is a comedy, but the story also wants to be taken seriously. For example, it's admittedly really funny when Chilchuck calls Laios "sick in the head", but that doesn't change the fact that the way Chilchuck casually belittles Laios caused him to hide the fact that he was "hallucinating" from his friends for weeks. Those feelings matter.

Like, this

is funny.

But this?

Is not. This is just a very clear example of a brown boy with PTSD. As someone else with PTSD, just looking at this fucking sucks, man.

The only reason why Kabru thinks about killing Laios is because he is in the middle of a flashback. He's struggling through a panic attack. If he truly wanted to kill Laios because he's violent or because he finds Laios inherently annoying, he wouldn't otherwise talk with Laios normally. Notice how he doesn't act this way at any other point in the story- it's just because he's triggered by monsters. Even when he's thinking about his plans to "deal with" Laios later, he's reluctant to actually kill him and only considers it to prevent another tragedy. Despite his deadly skills, Kabru relies far more on "soft" power- insight, persuasion, diplomacy. He's a rare example of a character who absolutely is, or at least can be, manipulative, but seems to use his abilities for good. He's not a pathological liar, he isn't looking down on everyone behind a smile. He's someone who is extremely emotionally intelligent, and he's willing to put aside all his own basic wants and needs to stop the cycle of dungeons devouring humans.

I'm going to cut a potential thesis on his character short and just give some examples of things that fandom should consider about his personality more:

Racism in fandom isn't just about whitewashing in fan art, or using racial slurs. The insidiousness of bad faith readings, reductions to racist tropes, lack of fan content for characters of color, and dismissal of a character's complexity are far more common. You can believe yourself to be completely neutral or even positive about a character and still churn out low-grade bile about them into fandom's collective unconscious. Fandom reflects real life.

And I have been around fandom long enough to see how these behaviors (mostly from my fellow white fans) affect fans of color, how it makes a fandom feel hostile and unwelcome to them. It's fun to make jokes and memes, I'm absolutely not saying that everything needs to be a deeply nuanced take, but we need to be careful that it doesn't veer into toxicity. Please think about how our contributions to fandom come across, and what sort of vibes they cultivate in this communal space.

#Dungeon Meshi #Kabru #Kabru of Utaya #Dungeon Meshi meta #I'm putting it in the tag. I'm making you look at it. #if you come into my inbox to bitch about this just know that people used to send me b*heading videos in there for similar racist reasons #so I will not be impressed #I'm in a fucking time loop someone get me out!!!! #musings with Dea

[txttletale]

(Other than the really weird bit about "Male presenting Doctor") what were your thoughts about the specials?

pretty mixed bag, pretty messy, but good overall. i think they were very obviously a nostalgia trip for people around my age lol and it worked! i loved seeing tennant and tate back onscreen together, their chemistry hasn't aged a bit, and honestly just watching doctor who that wasn't written by chris chibnall was a breath of fresh air. they weren't boring, like seasons 11 and 12 were, and they didn't go too far off the other end into nonsense like flux did. characters want things again! the show can let itself just be silly! i was literally cheering out loud when donna and the doctor were just saying random scifi gobbledegook at each other for like a solid several minutes during the star beast.

the structure of the specials kind of baffles me. i love wild blue yonder--i think it's definitively the best of the specials as a standalone, it's absolutely fantastic, creepy and atmospheric and bringing things around to RTD's strength, which is well-written characters interacting with each other and letting good actors just act. but at the same time i dont understand why it exists? it feels like...idk. imagine if you watched the star wars original trilogy but instead of the empire strikes back the middle film was just a feature length film about luke and han surviving on an ice planet with no reference to anything that happens in the last film except the two characters' relationship. and then the next film was still return of the jedi, unchanged. it felt like that

i liked all the weird campy silliness of the star beast and the giggle, and they were both very fun! neil patrick harris gave a fantastic performance, there are a lot of very memorable sequences from the giggle, but it's very very all over the place. so many threads get kind of picked up and go nowhere. the toymaker's haunted house dimension goes nowhere. RTD's eyerolling social media commetnary goes nowhere (thank god tbh but yknow im illustrating something here). even the toymaker kind of goes nowhere, after ncuti gatwa shows up he's bascially an afterthought who loses by dropping a ball. obvious parallels to david tennant's first episode with that ball scene could be made, but just... aren't. it feels like load-bearing sectikons of the plot and themes were cut out to make room for a backdoor pilot for the stupid fucking UNIT spinoff

oh and it goes without saying i fucking hate all the UNIT wank in the star beast and the giggle. i hope space nine eleven 2 happens to their stupid fucking avengers tower i cannot stand kate stewart who is constantly a murderous bonehead (in the giggle alone she gets two pepole killed by not listening to the doctor and assuming that this teleporting godlike entity could be restrainted by Two Guys) who is both in and out of universe just a boring nepo baby with no merit of her own

um. i still dont know what happened with the regeneration. i think the implication is that when david tennant dies hell time travel back to become ncuti gatwa inside himself--at least the rehab dialogue seems to make that implication. but it's not really explained or explored? baffling. i do think that fourteen getting to settle down and live a peaceful life with his friends is cute.

oh yeah and the ask said other than that but goddd there was some good stuff in the star beast and honestly with the state of the UK media i will take any perspective on trans people that includes baseline human erespect but some of those lines made me cringe so bad. anyway overall i am cautiously optimistic for the future of the show--oh ncuti was fucking great did i mention that i instantly bnought him as the doctor he owned the scene, the moment he was there it was clear he was the protagonist, and i liked the church on ruby road well enough too--i am cautiously optimistic but i worry that a big UNIT-shaped tumor will devour huge chunks of it and it'll be annoying. also russel t davies is like 60 and i just dont want to hear what he has to say about twitter so im not looking forward to dot and bubble

#ask #doctor who

[the-solar-system52]

TPOH UPDATE THEORY

TPOH UPDATED AND YOU BETTER BELIEVE I HAVE THEORIES!!

So! Negative talking with the Butterfly definitely did something to him. Maybe he recognised their voice? Or he looked at him directly in their eyes? Some people have proposed the idea that Anxiety blinded Negative, and if that's the case, then I wonder how long the effect will last.

The Butterfly gave him a flashback to his human life, and I'm guessing its one that includes the Butterfly.

Its hard to make out, but we see a human hand extending out, and text that says "WAIT! Don't lea-" (I'm guessing 'don't leave') and "What do you say? We got a deal?"

What's even more interesting, is that RGB didn't get this flashback when he came into contact with the Butterfly. Only Negative did.

This tells us two major things:

The Butterfly used to be a human and they knew Human RGB

2. Negative has access to memories of their life that RGB doesn't

Starting with the first one, I think I'm beginning to figure out just what happened between Butterfly and RGB.

It all starts with this infamous page. The Butterfly gave RGB a schism, which caused him to get a flashback. In this flashback, he is in a backstage acting room (judging that there's one of those fancy mirrors with the lights on them in the background) and he looks very tired and angry. He then tells whoever he is talking to that he hates them.

I assume that this is RGB talking to whoever the Butterfly used to be.

In the lastest update, the flashback gives off similar vibes. RGB and The Butterfly make a deal, but there is also text ("Don't leave") that implies one of them is backing out of the deal. I'm not exactly sure who is who in this situation though.

Either way, RGB did something that really pissed off the Butterfly enough for them to still be mad at them in The Land of Make Believe.

My assumption is this:

As we know, RGB was an actor. So I'm guessing The Butterfly was either an actor, director, or any professional job that would give them the opportunity to meet RGB.

Just like the Butterfly is trying to partner with Negative in this scene, Human Butterfly had a partnership with Human RGB long ago. I'm not sure what it was, but I'm guessing it was related to acting. (It also could've been romantic. Or both. RGB already has like three partners, I wouldn't put it past him.) But the Butterfly messed something up so badly that is caused RGB to get mad and call off the partnership, which is the scene we see on the "I hate you" page. The Butterfly begged RGB to stay ("Wait! Don't leave.") but he didn't.

This may have led to consequences that ruined the Butterfly's career. Either way, they were so hurt by this that they still resent RGB to this day. I have no clue how The Butterfly made it to The Land of Make Believe, since I don't think they were a hero, but it was probably something to do with how RGB treated them.

So when The Butterfly asked Negative for a partnership again, not knowing who Negative was, he got a flashback.

The colours that come out of Negative's vents are Red and Yellow, Anger and Anxiety. Both emotions fit perfectly with this situation.

(Or I could be totally wrong. Since I don't know who's who, it could be the BUTTERFLY saying 'I hate you' and RGB saying 'Don't leave.' But I think the first version fits better with the overarching theory I have. So I'll assume RGB is saying 'I hate you' unless proven otherwise.)

Please let me know if anyone has anything to add to this theory! I think I'm really getting close to figuring this stuff out but there's still some stuff I'm confused on.

Onto the second thing!

I've already talked about this a lot in this theory, but I'd like the expand on it a bit. That theory is slightly outdated since now we know The Butterfly doesn't know who Negative is, but I think I was on the right track.

When RGB and Negative split, Negative took some of RGB's memories with him. (That, or whatever memories RGB sold to Time were given to Negative. I haven't decided yet but either way Negative has some of RGB's lost memories.)

Since RGB and Negative used to be a whole person as a human, parts of their personality in the flashbacks are influenced by both RGB and Negative.

More than that, we have visual identifiers as to which personality is being portrayed in these flashbacks!

When Human RGB's eyes are covered and we see his mouth, it's RGB's memory. Since his TV self has a mouth and no eyes. This means RGB is the one having the flashback and the memory has him displaying more 'RGB-esque' personality traits. Like, in this scene, sleeping on the job and being woken up by a colleague is definitely something I imagine RGB doing, but no so much Negative.

When Human RGB's mouth is covered and we see his eyes, it's Negative's memory. Since his TV self has an eye and no mouth. In this scene, he is displaying more 'Negative-esque' personality traits. He is being confrontational and cold, and straight up telling someone he hates them. That doesn't sound like something our resident coward RGB would do.

And to add to this, blue roses show up as this flashback happens. This memory belongs to Negative, but RGB is viewing it because of his schism. And as I've said before, his schisms/gaps are definitely related to Negative.

So when they split, their human memories and personality traits were split up between them.

I really hope I am right, because I LOVE this facial feature detail! The fact we never see his full face at once gives the impression of him not being 'complete' bc he's not! He's literally being split into two people, so his face was split accordingly. Genuinely a genius visual metaphor on Mod's part. And it really makes me wonder if we will see his full face if RGB and Negative ever fuse back together again.

It's something to keep in mind for the next flashback!

As for the lastest memory, I'm not sure if it's Negative or RGB's, since we don't see their face. It's a possibility it is either a shared memory or RGB's memory that Negative is viewing, which would explain why it messes up Negative so much. And why we see some of RGB's colour return to him.

And what on earth is happening to Negative here? At first I thought he was going to faint and allow RGB to return, but now I'm not sure. Yes he is disoriented, but I think he'll be sticking around for just a bit longer. The blue roses haven't popped yet, and they tend to do that when he leaves. And I'm hoping he'll get a little more screentime since they still need to escape the house and everything, but I won't jinx it.

And what's with the yellow root in his leg? Those roses are mysterious as fuck, and I wanna find out what they'll do to him. I am still trying to figure out wether Negative completely controls them, or if they kinda have a mind of their own. They could make him stronger or make him weaker. They could charge that static electricity again. They could do something to his gaps. Who knows! But I'll be back next Sunday to figure it out.

#tpoh #the property of hate #tpoh rgb #tpoh negative #rgb #tpoh negative rgb #negative rgb #tpoh theory #tpoh speculation #tpoh update #tpoh anxiety #that darned butterfly

[ranbling]

I'm gonna make one last post about this topic to get out everything from my system:

Tommy fans seem all to eager to bury his past and talk about his growth when this curtesy is never extended to female love interests (and Ana, Ali, Natalia and Marisol never acted anywhere close to how he did in the begins episodes). He was absolutely terrible to Chimney and then only stopped pretending he's not invisible when Chimney saved his life. Even then he gave no apology, just a thank you and decided to move on as if his past behaviour haven't happened. And then he acted the same with Hen - pretending she's invisible and making little side comments (I'm not saying only he did that, the everyone in the old 118 is guilty of this) and he and Sal only decided to respect her and actually aknowledge her when she saved made a choice and saved someone's life, who would have been dead thanks to the old captain. And there was no apology to Hen either. The old 118 was a backwards and regressive place, but this an explanation to his behaviour not an excuse.

People can argue how not everything needs to be shown, but I feel like it's hard to make amends when the other party is not even owning up his own behaviour enough to even apologise to the people he hurt with his behaviour.

The date with Buck was also not a great first queer experience. Having your date tell you how he understands working in a macho line of work and not being out to calm your anxiety, than make little side comments when you're not ready to come out to your best friend who just showed up by coincidence is not cool. (As a queer person, I don't think Buck put Tommy back into the closet, it wasn't like Eddie knew they were on a date or Tommy is gay and yeah maybe the finding hot chick comment was unnecessary, but Buck was anxious long before Eddie showed up). Also I get why Tommy wanted to leave, but not telling until the Uber pulls up is also a shitty thing to do. Natalia also leaves Buck and people seem to hate her for it, but she comes back.

Also the Evan thing and calling Buck kid. I hate both things. Calling your date kid is weird and just why would you do that? And I know that Tommy calling Buck "Evan" is supposed to be cute, or special, but it just gives me the ick. It's not his prefered name

Also telling Buck how he's jelaous of the family dynamic of the 118 and then going for a kiss is certainly a choice on the part of the writers.

Tommy is character who had little to no development during the show - yeah they seem friendly in the Bobby begins episode, but do you want to be unfriendly to the guy who works with you and finally decided to not be a dick? and we're just supposed to believe he was always a good guy, who only acted the way he did because the old 118 was old school and he was figuring out his sexual identity?

He's not a character with good development or layers, he's a character who was a plot device to show how horrible work places that are considered macho to poc and women, and now they decided to bring him back for some reason as a first queer experience to Buck and act like him being gay excuses how he acted in the past

#911 abc #anti tommy kinard #anti bucktommy #I had write this out of my system #send me hate if you want but this is my opinion and it will not change it #also please don't bring up how the other characters made mistakes in the past #all of them actually made up for it #on screen!!

[strugglingbigtimw]

“In my life, I love you more”

summary: Toji has been thinking about marriage lately. Genre: Fluff, angst, Toji x black!stepmom reader, fem reader

cw: nothing fr, Toji is a little sad but it fixes itself, mentions death, there’s cursing, gojo 🤢

word count: 0.9K

A/N: the parasites keep WINNING.

Fiance!Toji who lowkey acts like you’re already married. He and Megumi live with you, you sleep in the same bed, and he feeds your dog. Not to mention, he never corrects anyone when they refer to you as his wife.

Fiancé!Toji who realizes out of the blue he wants to marry you. He’s known you for about 5 years and has been exclusive with you for 4. Megumi and him have been living with you for almost 3 years. Besides, He hates how “girlfriend” or “stepmom” feels on his tongue. 

Fiance!Toji who thinks about how nice your surname sounds. Zenin has never felt comfortable. He cherishes Fushiguro, however, it doesn’t stop him from imagining what it would be like to be referred to as “Mrs.___ Husband”. 

Fiancé!Toji who’s been calling you his wife for the last 6 months. He has a habit of calling you wifey, but it was more of a nickname. At first, you thought it was him fucking with you, but he seems a little too serious about it. 

Fiance!Toji who proposes to you randomly. You and him were watching Paranorman on the couch as Megumi was asleep in your arms when he looks over at you. He about proposing often and since he has no sense of decorum, now seems like a good time. He casually asks “You wanna get married?” You damn near cry and knock his head off. 

Fiance!Toji gets rings for the both of you and takes off his old one. You tell him that he doesn’t have to get rid of his old wedding ring. You won’t be offended if he wants keep it. Toji doesn’t think much of it. He’s always been the type to leave things behind. What’s so different about it now? 

Fiance!Toji whom you gave a thin gold chain necklace with his old ring attached. You put it on him while telling him, “he doesn’t need to abandon everything. He can still keep her close to him.” He thinks about giving it to Megumi when he’s older. 

Fiance!Toji who’s both ecstatic and disappointed you don’t want a big wedding. Fantasies die hard. One of his few good childhood memories was of a Zenin clan wedding. The bride and groom dressed up while music played and everyone gathered around. For a second, it felt like they were an actual family. Although, Toji realizes that neither of you has the luxury of finances or close family to participate. 

Fiance!Toji and you plan to have a small family dinner as your wedding. You’ll go in a white dress while he and Megumi wear three-piece suits. You’ll all eat and then go home as a family. It’s small but sweet.

Fiance!Toji feels nervous about the wedding dinner. He confides in you that he feels like he’s cursed. He has no cursed energy, his first wife died, and he can barely raise his son even now. You comfort him saying “We’ll get through it. That’s what couples are supposed to do.” He doesn’t completely believe you, but it puts him at ease nonetheless. 

Fiance!Toji is pissed when he picks up Megumi from school and learns that the news of your marriage has spread. Megumi barely talks, how the fuck do all his teachers know?

Fiance!Toji finds out that Megumi’s best friend, Yuuji Itadori, snitched. Now he has to deal with not only all of Megumi’s teachers wanting invites to the dinner, but the loud-mouthed kid wanting one as well. 

Fiance!Toji who tells you this and you burst out laughing. The idea of Gojo Satoru and Geto Suguru hounding him for an invite to the wedding is comical. He doesn’t get it. In the end, he can’t say no to you when you say, “Let's invite em, it’d be nice to have people celebrate us.” 

Husband!Toji who when the day comes feels conflicted. He thought he would feel more excited and annoyed. However, he feels comfortable, almost happy. He watches as Megumi and Yuuji sit at the table coloring in the kid's menus. Gojo and Suguru are annoying but Nanami, their plus one, keeps them in check. Yuuji’s uncle, father, and his wife have decent conversation with you. The whole thing feels almost homely.

Husband!Toji who leaves with you when the restaurant closes. Y’all were only supposed to stay for an hour but everyone wanted pictures of the happy couple and the unofficial bridesmaids.

Husband!Toji who stays downstairs as you put Megumi to bed since you said you had a surprise for him. You come back down and give him a bouquet of red and white roses. 

Husband!Toji doesn’t expect anything else, but you take him to the backyard of your shared house. You’re both still dressed in your wedding clothes. You say your vows as you grab his hand. You look up at the night sky and thank Megumi’s mother. You hope that you’ll be half the mother and wife she was. You promise to her that no matter what you’ll cherish and keep Toji safe. 

Husband!Toji who for once in his damn life is silent. He has no words, so he does the next best thing and kisses his bride. 

#anime x reader #anime x y/n #fushiguro toji #jjk drabbles #jjk imagines #jjk scenarios #jjk toji #jjk x reader #jjk x you #jujutsu kaisen #toji zenin #toji fushiguro #toji x reader #jujutsu kaisen toji #toji x you #jjk #jjk au #jjk x fem!reader #jjk x y/n #jjk x black reader #jjk x black y/n #jjk x black!fem reader #anime x black!reader #jjk fushiguro #toji fushigro x reader #fushiguro toji x reader #toji #jjk megumi #megumi fushiguro #jujutsu megumi

[fanatics4l]

today i am sad thinking about how billy didn't have a single person in his life who cared about him or looked after him. we can assume that neil stopped really being there for billy after his mom left, so he most likely became independent and stopped asking people for help once he realized his mom wasn't coming back. he started pushing people away and getting tougher to please his dad, when all he really wanted was for his mom to come back and for someone to hear him.

he had no one throughout possibly ten years of his life and died with the knowledge that no one cared enough to save him. he saved his mom from his dad as much as he could but she still abandoned him. he saved a town he hated but ended up dying for people who would later on barely acknowledge his existence and what he did for them. like oh my goodness this kid was so selfless.

he spent his entire life looking after people who didn't care enough about him to look after him in return. every time susan looked away from him when neil hit him, he probably felt so stupid and little and worthless. billy was a kid forced to be a caretaker before he could even enter his twenties, a caretaker for people who didn't care about him.

#laugh out loud #billy hargrove #me when i make myself sad #i just have so many feelings about this boy #every time i think about how he died before even reaching his twenties #literally like four months after his eighteenth birthday !!!!! #im 😂 #he cared for all these people who never cared enough #he gave up his life for people who hated him #and didn't even try saving him 😊 #he got his strength from a memory from ten years ago #it shows that that was the last time he was ever loved #LIKE #😂😂 #he had no recent memories of what love felt like #girl bye #billy hargrove deserved better

[moonlightdancer26]

Me when I remember that Snape would’ve not only been much happier in life but would have so many less tiring debates about him if he had just remained a loyal Death Eater instead of defecting and sacrificing himself for a world that hated him while getting nothing in return:

#LIKE BRO #HE WOULD HAVE BEEN SO MUCH MORE RELAXED #MANS SPENT 17 YEARS STUCK IN A PLACE FILLED WITH SO MUCH TRAUMA WHILE BEING SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE WHO HATED HIM #LILY ENDED UP DYING AND SNAPE DIED THINKING HARRY WAS GOING TO DIE TOO (HE DIED NEVER KNOWING THAT HARRY WAS A HORCRUX) #MEANING LILY’S SACRIFICE WAS IN VAIN AND HE SPENT HALF HIS LIFE GOING THROUGH SO MANY LENGTHS FOR NOTHING #AND HE WAS WILLING TO DIE A VILLAIN IN EVERYONE’S EYES IF IT MEANT LILY’S SON COULD LIVE #IF HE GAVE LILS THE MIDDLE FINGER HE WOULDA JUST GONE AWAY AND DID DEATH EATER SHIT WITHOUT HAVING A CARE IN THE WORLD #AND STUPID SNATERS WOULDN’T FEEL THE NEED TO ‘‘clarify’’ THAT HE WAS A BULLY AND A HORRIBLE PERSON #BECAUSE THEN WE’D JUST KNOW AND ACCEPT THAT HE’S AWFUL LIKE WE DO WITH BELLATRIX AND TOMMY #AND THEREFORE SNAPE FANS WOULDN’T BE CALLED ‘‘abuse apologists’’ OR ATTACKED FOR THE MERE MENTION OF HIS NAME #ALL OF US WOULD BENEFIT FROM IT IF SEVERUS JUST CHOSE NOT TO BE A HERO #i apologise for the rant i’m just very fed up with this dude #stop caring about some loser redhead AND DABBLE IN SOME SELF-CARE FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE #smfh #again i apologise #and if you came this far i’m just downright surprised #anti snaters #severus snape #pro snape #pro severus snape #snape #harry potter #hp

[bumblingbabooshka]

Tuvok’s Father, Sunak, telling his favorite story

#Tuvok is killing him with his mind v_v #Sunak dyes the grays in his hair #Sunak & Tuvok are close...Sunak basically raised him on his own until he was a teen bc T'Meni was traveling and working #they had a BIIIIG rough patch from teens tooo basically until Tuvok got married #then they started talking again and now they're fine <3 That's what happens when you have 200 years to hash things out #Anyway. Sunak looks very severe and regal but he's actually pretty extroverted and outgoing #The type of person who knows EEEVERYONE in town and takes four hours to go shopping (nightmare) bc he talks to literally every other person #(hell. Tuvok hates this) #He wishes Tuvok were more outgoing and comfortable with people but has long given up on that dream...siiiigh. At least he gave him plenty of #grandchildren to spoil v_v #Sunak is also the type of person who's rude without trying to be...old man + has been popular all his life. 'fuck you my child is COMPLETELY #fine.' type of dad until things got extreme...doted on Tuvok a bit too much when he was a little kid...'depressed? have you tried taking a #walk?' oh Sunak...we've all tried taking a walk. #bea art tag #[REDACTED] family shenanigans #Voyager crew SCREAMING with laughter...Tuvok found dead in a ditch #Sunak #Tuvok #Tuvok art #st voyager #st voyager art

[gandreida]

hheeeuuurrgghppbbtttt

#my dad messaged me today sayin’ he hopes to see me soon and it honestly ruined my day luke #like please leave me alone :////// #then some general normal Every Day BS happened at work and I just had to dip I almost walked off the job no word to my sups #Just makes me think of my mom which #i feel more justified after it I guess ‘cause she’s the one who allegedly approves the messages her husband sent me when we had our fight #tbh life is better w/o her messaging me daily like I spent basically all of 2023 #wanting to cut her off and she gave me even the lightest reason to do it so i did and it’s been nice #the pointless guilt I felt for not wanting to see my family has turned into general resentment and annoyance #i don’t even miss her or him like I straight up just don’t want to see my blood relatives they’re not family to me they’re just people #i happen to share genes with like if you really wanted to build a relationship with the person #you forced into this stupid world then maybe you shouldn’t have been such insufferable assholes for the first 18 years #i spent most of my conversations with them over the phone last year basically just saying life sucks and that i want to kill myself #I need them to feel bad for conceiving me i need them to regret it #my cousin Aaron has the right idea tbh like last I heard he wasn’t talking to my uncle or anyone w/ blood relations really #following in his footsteps. I legit just got so full of rage and frustration when my dad messaged me it’s been like 3 weeks since we spoke #it was so obvious that I didn’t like my mom growing up everyone knew it and berated me for it like how am i supposed to accept that? #How am I supposed to take the hate and anger she exhibit and put out there in that unhappy home #and turn the hate and anger her and her family felt towards me for not loving her #and turn that into love? How am I supposed to turn unending anger and hatred and bitterness and just be like ‘yeah i love you’ #I love my parents in the sense that I am familiar w/ them and they have had a constant presence in my life up this point and when I was like #8y/o I had some pretty good times w/ my dad that were DIRECTLY related to my mom being out of the house #my mom was just so abusive to that man for 20+ years #and he took the love I had for him and made me hate him by just shoving jesus down my throat #We used to have CONVERSATIONS he & I but then he got his head stuck so far up his ass that he couldn’t see #how he was just ruining everything. Me: Hey so this thing thats goin on? #him: haha yeah that thing thats been goin on!! You know what tho #[starts pitching JC to me again] #that was all I could get from him from 12-18/19 #he killed whatever relationship we had together and now it’s a decade later and I have no interest in talking to him #I don’t care to try and rebuild. I don’t want to rebuild anything with him I don’t want him to want that either

[scoreplings]

i hate when i do stupid shit that i know will make me more upset and then i get more upset

#I KNEW. EXACTLY WHAT WOULD HAPPEN. #and i did it anyway. #literally crying so hard i keep almost throwing up but 👍 #so so so glad i don't have to go to work tomorrow anyway #i know i'll be okay i am just so sick of all of it #its not fair and i know life doesn't have to be fair and usually isnt but i hate it anyway #why does somebody who treated me like shit get to be happy and living his best life #while i'm killing myself trying to help other people and just get left feeling like that #it's stupid and i hate it #ughh and i KNOW putting your whole life into helping people is not a path to happiness and happiness is not why i do it. i just want to help #people. but it sucks so bad that i gave up a year of my life and so much more and at the end of it i get nothing #meanwhile people who suck get to be so so happy. #rrr it's dumb i don't even have to know what he's up to but i can't stop myself from looking. #it was fine for months because he wasn't happy he was a miserable asshole. #but he's better now. and i should be glad because that means the world is a slightly better place #but i'm not. i'm hurt and i'm pissed off. #i was supposed to be WITH HIM when he did all that. and i would be if he hadn't been such a shithead. #AUGHHH i'm sad and angry at the same time and i hate it.

[chronosbled]

The only option you have is signing your name here. Or else, he'll be stuck here forever.

There was a boy, He had the voice of an angel and sang to his parents for fun. He didn't want toys. He wanted a piano, so he could learn how to play in the clubs. His daddy was slaving away, But he didn't get paid quite enough to escape from the slums. So, the boy went for a walk And he had a long talk with a man who wore black, and he coughed. He said you sign this one thing I'll give you the keys.

To my friends on the other side. They'll take you anywhere you wanna go. My friends on the other side. They'll give you whatever you want, let 'em know. My friends on the other side. There's only one thing you have to let go to. My friends on the other side. Tell your Lord who you notice, ah. They're your friends on the other side.

He started playing new shows, Where there are elegant clothes and the fame was attached to his name. He was the talk of the town. As the crowd gathered 'round, And they gazed at the way that he sang, He couldn't control his own fingers. He played so damn fast you would think he was Satan himself. The news wanted photos and more. So, he sat in the stores, and he smiled 'cause he knew he was best.

But then he remembered his father. He looked in the mirror, all the years had gone by in a flash. He went to the store where the man in the black gave him everything. There was a note on a desk, You gave me your soul for the riches, But you didn't read everything that you signed with my pen. Now that your father is mine, I bet you won't forget.

My friends on the other side. They'll take you anywhere you wanna go. My friends on the other side. They'll give you whatever you want, let 'em know. My friends on the other side. There's only one thing you have to let go to. My friends on the other side. Tell your Lord who you notice. ah. They're your friends on the other side.

#☣ [ ' Eʋҽɾყσɳҽ Lσʋҽʂ A Vιʅʅαιɳ. ' ] - ✡ Dιƈƙʂσɳ Gҽɾαʅԃ Rҽɠιɳαʅԃ Sιɱɱσɳʂ ✡ #☣ [ ' Tɯιʂƚҽԃ Ⴆყ ɯσɾԃʂ ƚԋαƚ ƈυƚ ԃҽҽρ ιɳ ɱყ ʂƙιɳ. ' ] - ✡ Mυʂιɳɠ ✡ #{ This song is such a Dickson song. } #{ The lyrics fit so perfectly with his character to be completely honest with you. } #{ The man in black and the young boy both being metaphors for his future self and his past self. } #{ The man in black obviously being him now (his future self) while the young boy who wants everything (is his past self). } #{ Then the father is a perfect representation of everything that he lost and gave up for his own freedom and desires. } #{ Cause there were so many things Dickson had to sacrifice to get where he is now. } #{ His life. His late fiance. His only friend. His only remaining family. His humanity. His sanity. His boundaries. } #{ Even his own self-worth and precaution over his own well-being. } #{ Pretty much everything that made him... him. } #{ Cause with how his life was... he wasn't allowed to have both. } #{ It was either his freedom or everything else. } #{ And in the end he was given his freedom by making deals and cutting corners with people in his life. } #{ In the end... it lead to some consequences for others in his life and even himself. } #{ Such as Leafy dying; killing Janus; and even Carla dying too. } #{ He likes to act like it doesn't bother him at times... but it most definitely does. } #{ There are times where he longs for stuff he had before that he can never get back. } #{ It also helps that the song mentions a piano because despite hating them... Dickson knows how to play them. } #{ And he can sing too. He also has a club of his own. } #{ So those are just extra things that fit. } #Youtube

[slippery-minghus]

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#i haven't gotten a copy yet but fucK it's so heartening to see the new danny phantom comic doing so well #it's literally sold out on amazon. like how??? #because like. #one of the first real career goals i ever had #that was more than just small child 'i wanna be president!' #was to get good at the drawing skills i was juuust starting to acquire and go to animation school so i could reboot danny phantom someday #and i still #i still vividly remember the day i excitedly told my dad about that goal #we were at my grampa's house and i was so excited to declare my plans and dreams #and i couldn't even get the whole sentence out of my mouth before my dad shut it down hard #so like a good little girl i gave up that dream right then and there #(in front of my grandfather who had only had the luxury of starting to pursue art in his 70s) #(i really do miss my grampa. no one in this family would have had my back like him but he died long before i could know that) #and it's just. it makes me so happy to know that me giving up thay dream didn't mean that series wouldn't be brought back #that other people wanted it as badly as i did #i don't draw anymore. not really since i left college 6 years ago #too busy with work and life and i was always so mich better at writing anyway #(irony wasn't included when my dad told teenage me i should pursue a writing career and make bank writing tv scripts) #(he'd hate to see me striking right now if i WAS a tv writer lmao) #i'm happy where i'm at in life- even if none of my big dreams have ever come to fruition #there's still time for more dreams and i do have a few (like building my house and writing arena) #and in the end i'm just so happy that there are still so many people that love the series that made me who i am #and loving it enough still to bring it back new #personal

[bylertruther]

yes i'm rereading one of the best will-centric fics of all time aka i didn't know there were wizards in california for the fiftieth time and crying like a baby at this part no i am not capable of being normal about it thank u !!!!!!!

#with all due respect which is none i will never in my LIFE accept 'i hate who i am' that is not MY will byers!!!!! #MY will byers fought and ran and hid and stayed alive in the upside down he never gave up hope he continued to fight each and every day of #his increasingly miserable life he REFUSED to be anyone else even when people bullied him for it even when his own father abused him for it #he was taken and ransacked and pillaged and he continued to build himself back up he REFUSED to break he REFUSED to fade away #william byers continues to love his art and love his 'nerdy' interests he continues to dress how he wants #he continues to be sensitive he continues to love what he loves he refuses to change!!!!! #he is strong!!!! he gets kidnapped and possessed by an eldritch entity and stands right back up!!!! #he doesn't turn over!!!! that's my william byers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #my william byers who is so brave that despite everything in the world telling him not to he follows his heart and confesses his love to his #best friend and tells him everything that he's always felt and masks it as his sister's because he thinks that would make it more #meaningful to him and he doesn't care if it breaks his own heart to tiny little bits he does it anyway because he loves mike so much #because he is who he is and he cannot change that and he will never change that!!!!!!! #THAT'S MY WILLIAM BYERS !!!!!! #also anyone else utterly heartbroken tht richie n will don't end up together in this one . BDHJFBDJH #their ships are so good but like ........ /richie/. literally and truly and actually will's soulmate in this fic lbr. #mike will have to grovel n beg n plead n give me five million dollars before i even THINK abt letting him near my boy 🙄🤨😤 #n the author said there would be more will/eddie in part two so like . i am heavy breathing i am shaking i am crying i am ASCENDING #mine

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

Watching rick and morty for the second time and I wonder if the fact that both beth and jerry's first instinct when they feel any sort of power over rick is to act like they're going to punch him is in any way significant to their characters

#random thoughts #guess what motherfuckers it's blue man time #it's especially interesting when you consider rick gave morty that black eye in the space snake episode #like rick's primary methods of abuse are emotional withdrawal and demeaning language but I wonder if he beat Beth as a kid #also jerry's relationship with his parents seems to be decent but he definitely gives off the vibes of a neglected kid #who grew up into a messed up adult who still seeks approval from the important people in his life #maybe his parents were abusive when he was younger but mellowed out since he moved out? #and since they've never really talked about it jerry just assumed it was normal #I think being abused as a child would mesh with his character well since he's one of those characters whose hatred is unsatisfactory #like your hatred for him isn't even satisfactory because he's a sad pathetic little man #also like I feel like it's canon that jerry and beth hit their kids? wasn't that a thing they touched on in the morty jr episode? #also rick definitely was beat as a kid. the way he raises his arms instinctively? yeesh. #like as much as I hate his backstory I like the idea he was trying to break the cycle of abuse when Beth was born #which kind of fell apart when diane died #ALSO ISN'T IT FASCINATING THAT IT'S SPACE BETH WHO TRIES TO PUNCH RICKAND NOT EARTH BETH #like earth Beth is just a spectator who laughs

[llycaons]

Yu Ziyuan is suddenly left with three children to raise and a sect to guide. But, she will succeed because she is the Violet Spider. She will not tolerate anything besides success. Nor will any that cross or harm her family live to regret it for long. Her venom was more than strong enough to protect her clan and children. Yes, even the annoying one...

love when people build up myu to be such a badass ‘tough love’ girlboss whose strength saves the sect while neglecting to take into account how her abuse of jc and wwx was literally one ofbthe huge things that doomed their relationship and set them both up for failure as adults

#but she can fight so that means she's great! hashtag feminism. #this isn't the first of these I've seen either #do people think that jc is so emotionally fucked up and repressed and angry and insecure and alone only because his dad ignored him??? #ignoring how his mom continuously told him that he wasn't shit and he's always going to be second-best #and yeah her influence on wwx caused him to act in a way that would save the jiangs but it was LITERALLY at the cost of his life and she ma #made sure he know that he was supposed to die for jc #which gave him lifelong self-worth issues and super fucked up ideas about himself #also she continously berates and criticizes jyl who then grows up timid and sensitive #she can be an interesting and nuanced character but you cannot act like her defense of wwx during the massacre #was anything besides her own wounded pride and posessiveness and practicality bc she saw wwx as a tool to serve the jiangs #and she told him to his face that everything happening was his fault and she hated him #like??? WHY are you trying to rehabilitate this woman #ficblogging

[piknim]

Nothing solidifies my lesbianism more than talking to a guy

#i can not stand it #any man #the trump 2020 sock wearing guy who spits when he talks but has similar interests so we have somewhat okay conversations #i like working with him bc at least we have something in common and i like interaction but i cant stand it past that point #like if we have break at the same time i have to listen to him talk the whole time and i hate it #theres like 2 people id be interested in having a conversation with at lunch and he is definitely not one of them #i wanna know his reaction to me being gay lmao #also the flamboyant gay guy who thinks hes the shit but he is just an annoying jerk #i liked him at first bc yay gay person to be friends with and now i cant stand him #also the other guy i work with who is racist and apparently lgbtphobic but is usually nice so hes like okay to talk to #like a step grandparent who ur grandma married #who hasnt been in ur life that long #theyre nice to u but u dont like them but dont have to see them enough to really give a shit #i used to also be like maybe i could like a guy but im so male repulsed now #barf #also i should mention i mean cis male #spit man reminds me so much of the neo nazi poke nerd who asked me out right after telling me about how he had just broken up with his gf #like 2 months prior #or maybe 4 idr #kuzic if u read this i told him how u gave me a shiny mew and he kept begging me for ur info so he could trade pole #pokemon with u #idr if i told u that #also the guy who came out as trans so we could finally date but once i moved away he said he was actually cis. bro was obsessed with me #since elementary school #i have never had a good or meaningful interaction with a guy